Time stands still (shadow)

depicts a eating disorder, proceed with caution 
don’t edit time stands still without my permission 
(written by Shadow the reborn, edited by Composer-struggles) 
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Intro= Throughout your life, your brain picks one moment that you can never forget, whether it be good or bad. This is the god-forsaken moment my brain chose. God, I wish I could forget.
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The moment= 
The small town was as noisy and cheerful as it always was, day after day. It was nice to see at first, but after I had lived there for years it grew old really fast.
A dusty SandWing with golden scales rushed over. “Hey Star!” He greeted with me a smile.
“Not interested in who you stole from unless they were a rich tourist,” I replied, smiling at his offended expression. 
He lightened up once he realized I was teasing him and slugged me. “Ow, what was that for?”
“For teasing me,” he replied with a smirk, rubbing his fist. “Geez, you should eat more, I’m 99% sure your boney-a// body broke my fist.”
I laughed. (I really wish I hadn't, now I know he was just looking out for me, god bless his soul.) “I’ll eat when I’m hungry,” I reassured him.
“You're never hungry, you only eat when you're forced to and ever since...” He cut himself off. “Nevermind. Just eat more please.”
I nodded. “Sure, I swear by my NightWing blood that I’ll eat more,” I lied before I burst out laughing. He joined in his own warm laughter.
“Well before you rudely interrupted, I was going to say that I got us a place to stay!” he announced.
My eyes went wide. “Really?! Do we have to do anything?” I asked.
He shook his head. “Some SandWing handed it over to us and told me to take care.”
My eyes lit up with excitement and I could sense he felt the same way I did. “You know what this means?" I asked.
"We can finally be safe and comfortable at night!” He answered, smiling mischievously.
"You didn’t dare—“
He cut me off. “You bet my a// I did. It’s painted pink!” he announced in a sing-songy voice. “Perfect for a lady like you.”
I tackled him and we wrestled for a bit — naturally, I won. This was my moment, but it was also the moment my life took its first turn for the worse.
|-| the fall =
The house was small, though we didn’t mind. We discussed the color and I decided it should be painted dusty yellow.
“It’s called cream,” he argued. “Exactly, dusty yellow,” I replied, yelping as he hit me with the brush, streaking dusty yellow paint across my chest.
“Cream,” he retorted, laughing. I slashed the brush across his chest.
“Hey, I’m cream now,” he smiled.
“Dusty yellow,” I corrected as I went back to painting. 
“Fine, it’s dusty yellow,” he submitted. I laughed and he joined in, my legs hurt like hell, I didn’t tell him but he noticed. 
“Hey, you should lay down,” I shook my head. “I can’t deal with pink, after the house is dusty yellow I rest.” 
He sighed. “I’m worried for you, if you won’t eat at least lay down for me,” he said softly, though I didn’t hear it. I had fallen to the ground, everything hurt like hell and my world was spinning. I had been out for who knows how long before I woke up in a hospital. 
“So, what’s the news?” he asked. “I’ll say once she’s awake,” the doctor told him, I was tempted to fake sleep just to mess with him. I sat up after a moment only to be guided back down to laying by a nurse.
“Now that she is up I can tell you,” the doctor said, Bronze was tense, I knew it. “You two are proud parents of 2 eggs!” the doctor informed us, I was crying with joy, we both were. 
“This is great news!” Bronze said hugging me, I was speechless and just nodded as I hugged him. 
“There is more news,” the doctor said waving for a report of some kind damn him, he ruined our happy moment with the typical doctors-don’t-give-a-s**t-if-you-are-happy action of saying there’s more.
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the beginning=
We were frozen with anticipation, I knew what he was going to say. “Stardust, you need to eat more or the eggs won’t survive, after all they need to be carried by a living mother,” he informed me. Bronze rested a talon on my shoulder. 
“I’m never hungry and it hurts when I eat!” I shouted at him, I was telling the truth and he ruined our moment so I’d say I was justified. 
“Star, please listen to the doctor!”
I was furious. “Fine, I’ll try,” I said with a sigh, after all I didn’t want my children to die. “So when can we go?” I asked. A nurse walked in with disgusting hospital food and set it by my bed, I naturally flipped her off. She walked off with a sigh.
“Star, get comfy you will be here for a while,” the doctor told me. I shouted at him, “You can go away, we can’t afford this!” Bronze was trying to get me to calm down and eat, the doctor sighed.
“That’s why I’m paying for it,” he walked off, leaving me alone with Bronze.
“Please eat, I care about both you and our eggs,” he said resting a talon on my stomach. I sighed and tried to eat which led to the inevitable, I puked my guts out. I wiped my mouth. 
“I can’t, not hungry.” Bronze sighed, he was conflicted. I knew what he was going to do.
“I’m sorry,” he apologized before shoving the food in my mouth before forcing it shut, I chewed and swallowed which led to me throwing up in my mouth. He tilted my head back and I reluctantly swallowed, this went on for a while before my body actually let me keep it down.
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the decline=
My time in the hospital went by in a blur, it was boring and Bronze having to force feed me like that took its toll on our relationship. Everything hurt and was miserable, but I’m not mad at him despite what I may say. I only hope he knows this, I just want to go home with him. 
“Hey Star,” he greeted me with a smile.
“Hi,” I said back, we were both tired of this. 
“I, uh talked to the doctor and he said you can come home!” He said. I smiled and kissed him.
“Really, thank you!” 
He shifted. “The catch is I can’t stop force feeding you,” he added. I didn’t mind. I only wanted to go home.
“You better had not painted it pink,” I told him, he raised his talons.
“No, I would never defy my Queen,” I narrowed my eyes, he was up to something and I was determined find out what. 
“Alright, let's go,” he said, hoisting me up. I leaned on him as my legs hadn’t been used in a while and couldn’t handle the weight I put on. We walked in silence, mainly because I was out of breath. Once we arrived he set me in the living room, it was dusty yellow and not pink.
“So, see I can be trusted!” he told me as he lit the stove.
“Sure you can, what did you do?” I asked once I recovered, he only smiled as he cooked.
“You’ll find out” he sang, I was going to kill him if he didn’t tell me. “Nothing, go clean yourself up once you get used to legs.” I threw a book at him, it bounced off his head.
“Hey!” He protested picking it up and setting it on the counter. I sighed and stood up after a moment and leaned on the wall as I made my way to the bathroom. I eventually stepped in after catching my breath and immediately realized it was carpeted. “BRONZE!!!!” 
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The betrayal of trust=
After a few months of being home my weight hadn’t improved, it actually got worse. I had been throwing up in the bathroom after each meal, was it a good idea, no, but everything hurt and it felt like my stomach would explode. One of these times Bronze caught me.
“Star!” He said, sounding disappointed, mainly just sad. “Do you want our eggs to die? Do you want-“ his voice cracked, I went to rest a talon on his shoulder but he pulled away.
“I’m sorry! Everything just hurts,” I argued. He held a talon out to stop me.
“No, you are going back,” he said, I knew he didn’t want to send me back.
“But-" he cut off my protests. “I don’t want to lose you or our dragonets, I love you but you are killing yourself when you do this,” he lectured me. “I want you to be happy but I also want what’s best for you,” a tear fell from his face. “I am going and you are coming with me.” he said reaching out his arm. I pushed him away and slammed the door on his face and leaned on it, god everything hurt. He tried to push the door open. 
“Come on, open it Star,” he begged me, I wasn’t listening. I rested my head on the wall, was I supposed to be this tired, it was only lunch, who cares I’m taking a nap. I closed my eyes just as the door swung open, pushing me to the ground. The last thing I saw was Bronze’s panicking eyes before I lost consciousness. God I miss him.
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the end=
I was in and out of consciousness as Bronze carried me, everything hurt and there was now a new pain. My stomach hurt like h*ll, my head bounced as he ran and now my frail and bones arms were visible to me. God, he was right I was killing myself. Tears streamed from my face as my rose tinted glasses were off, I was going to die and I was taking my daughters with me. “Come on come on come on!” Bronze roared as he ran. “Don’t die!” 
The doctors ran and grabbed me from him, they took me to a room and as the door shut I saw Bronze’s handsome face for the last time. I managed to mouth the words: I love you. The doctors put me on the table and began cutting me open, they knew I was a goner and that they had to save my eggs. I held on until both eggs were out to get a glimpse of the life I was leaving behind, I looked at them lovingly as the doctors set them in the curve of my arm. I let out one last shaky breath as all the pain faded from my body. I closed my eyes, letting myself truly smile for the first time in months.
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epilogue=
I sat by Stardust’s grave, crying. It had only been a year, why does it still hurt? My mother rested a talon on my shoulder. 
“I’m so sorry, but they’re hatching, go see them,” I wiped tears away and sniffled.
“Yeah, let's go,” I stood up, looking beside me, still expecting her to be there, disappointed when she wasn’t. I followed my mother trying to make myself cheer up. She led me inside to the makeshift nest where the two eggs were, cracks were all over the surface. I put a talon on each of them as they shattered, there lay two small black and silver SandWings looking up at me. I was sobbing, they looked just like Star. One was reaching for my mom's fish, the other was trying to tackle the first, showing no signs of hunger. I turned around and went to my room, slamming and locking the door. My mother stayed with them as I laid in bed unable to deal with life at the moment.
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