Illloved

Japanese 	Romaji 	
苦しみを獲る為に生まれてきた事など 	kurushimi o eru tame ni umarete kita koto nado 	I was born to acquire suffering
本当はとうの昔から知っていたんだ 	hontou wa tou no mukashi kara shitte ita nda 	Actually, I've known that since long ago
だから先生たちも言ってくれたのだろう 	dakara senseitachi mo itte kureta no darou 	So perhaps that's why the teachers told me too
僕の笑顔は皆を幸せにする為にあるんだって 	boku no egao wa mina o shiawase ni suru tame ni aru nda tte	That my smile exists to make everyone happy
 	 	
可愛く成った僕はただの玩具 	kawaiku natta boku wa tada no omocha 	I, who grew up cute, am just a toy
暴力的衝動の捌け口と化す 	bouryokuteki shoudou no hakeguchi to kasu 	Becoming an outlet for violent impulses
ある日、神経が麻痺する程のアレで 	aru hi, shinkei ga mahi suru hodo no are de 	One day, with THAT enough to numb the nerves
皆は薬漬けの僕を滅茶苦茶におかした 	mina wa yakuzuke no boku o mechakucha ni okashita 	They f***ed me thoroughly, drenched in medication
 	 	
揺らぐ瞳の世界 	yuragu hitomi no sekai 	The world in my eyes trembles
鋭利な歪がビクドクと 	eiri na hizumi ga bikudoku to 	Sharp distortions pulse with a twitch, a thump
満悦な朦朧の首達に 	man'etsu na mou rou no kubitachi ni 	In the haze, to the delighted necks
また力無く微笑み返すの 	mata chikara naku hohoemi kaesu no 	I weakly smile back one more time
 	 	
I'm sorry I was born 	 	
 	 	
慈しみが苦痛の為に与えられるから 	itsukushimi ga kutsuu no tame ni ataerareru kara 	Kindness is given with suffering as a condition
死の恐怖を「愛」と名付けました 	shi no kyoufu o "ai" to nazukemashita 	That's why I named the fear of death ‘love’
貴方達がソレを嬉々と放り投げるから 	anatatachi ga sore o kiki to houri nageru kara 	You all eagerly throw it at me
僕も喜んで僕の命を脅かしました 	boku mo yorokonde boku no inochi o odokashimashita 	That’s why I also gladly endangered my life
大丈夫だよ 	daijoubu da yo 	It's okay
明日も僕は 	asu mo boku wa 	Even tomorrow,
笑顔で傷付いていくから 	egao de kizutsuite iku kara 	I will keep getting hurt with a smile
 	 	
Their intentions force me to enter into a kind of friendship 	 	
Their affections force me to vomit up the pain of loss 	 	
No one wants to touch something like the love I fearfully show everyone	 	
I'm dirty 	 	
 	 	
優しげなその眼で 	yasashige na sono me de 	With those gentle eyes,
僕を褒めてくれた人は 	boku o homete kureta hito wa 	The person who praised me,
一体何を望んでいる？ 	ittai nani o nozonde iru? 	What exactly do they want from me?
次は何を奪う？ 	tsugi wa nani o ubau? 	What will they take from me next?
 	 	
ゴミ捨て場に置き去られたツケの裸の反吐塗れ 	gomisuteba ni okisarareta tsuke no hadaka no hedo nure 	My naked body covered in vomit left at the garbage dump due to the bill for my mistakes
痺れる手足を記憶が鷲掴む 	shibireru teashi o kioku ga washi tsukamu 	Memories tightly grip my numb limbs
あの眩い空へあと一歩 	ano mabayui sora e ato ippo 	Just one more step towards that dazzling sky
舞い上がる事さえ許されない 	maiagaru koto sae yurusarenai 	Not even allowed to soar
僕は　良い子　だから 	boku wa ii ko dakara 	Because I'm a good boy
僕は　良い子　だから 	boku wa ii ko dakara 	Because I'm a good boy
僕は　良い子　だから 	boku wa ii ko dakara 	Because I'm a good boy
僕は　イイコ　だから 	boku wa ii ko dakara 	Because I'm a gOoD bOy
How could they love me like this? 	 	
 	 	
生存の箱庭から 	seizon no hakoniwa kara 	From the miniature garden of survival
警鐘が響いていた 	keishou ga hibiite ita 	The alarm bells were ringing
確かな証だなんて 	tashika na akashi da nante 	"There's no such thing as definite proof in this world,"
存在しないんだよと 	sonzai shinai nda yo to 	they said
 	 	
いつか死んで花を置かれ嗤われる僕に 	itsuka shinde hana o okare warawareru boku ni 	When I die someday, flowers will be laid upon me and I'll probably be mocked
死の恐怖は「愛」を名乗りました 	shinokyoufu wa "ai" o nanorimashita 	That's why the fear of death called itself ‘love’ for me
僕が叫び踠き足掻き絶え絶え逝く事で 	boku ga sakebi mogaki agaki taedae iku koto de 	If by my screaming, struggling, flailing, and eventually perishing,
皆が喜んで居られるのなら 	mina ga yorokonde irareru no nara 	Everyone can be happy,
もう、それでいい 	mou, sore de ii 	then that's enough for me
こんな拙い思考の僕を 	konna tsutanai shikou no boku o 	Please forgive me
どうか許してくれませんか 	douka yurushite kuremasen ka 	For having such clumsy thoughts
 	 	
僕の笑顔なんて潰れてしまえばいい 	boku no egao nante tsuburete shimaeba ii 	I wish my smile would just crumble away
この醜悪でどうか皆逃げて欲しいよ 	kono shuuaku de douka kai nigete hoshii yo 	Please, let everyone escape from this ugliness
僕の本当に大切だったモノ達さえ 	boku no hontou ni taisetsu datta mono itaru sae 	Since even the things that were truly precious to me
お前達に全て焼き殺されてしまうなら 	omaetachi ni subete yakikorosarete shimau nara 	Have all been burnt to death by you,
優しい人だなんて思われたくなかった 	yasashii hitoda nante omowaretakunakatta 	I didn't want to be thought of as a kind person
優しい人だなんて言われたくなかった 	yasashii hito da nante iwaretakunakatta 	I didn't want to be called a kind person
優しい人になんて成りたくなかったんだよ 	yasashii hito ni nante naritakunakatta nda yo 	I didn't want to become a kind person
優しい人になんて 	yasashii hito ni nante 	I didn't want to become a kind person…
ヤサシイヒトになんて 	yasashii hito ni nante 	I didn't want to become A KIND PERSON…
 	 	
There's no way I can love myself 	 	
Because I loved my “ “ 	 	
 	 	
ねえ、先生、僕の、命も、軽いです 	nee, sensei, boku no, inochi mo, karui desu 	Hey, teacher, my, life, is, cheap, too
ねえ、先生、僕は、上手に、笑えています 	nee, sensei, boku wa, jouzu ni, waraete imasu 	Hey, teacher, I, can, smile, skillfully
 	 	
I'm sorry I was born 	 	
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