イシュタム (Ixtab)

==Lyrics==
Japanese 	Romaji 	English
使い古した散弾銃 	tsukaifurushita sandanjuu 	My shotgun is worn out,
火薬は既に湿っている 	kayaku wa sude ni shimette iru 	And the gunpowder is already damp.
頭でぶっ放してハイになるような人生さ 	atama de buppanashite hai ni naru you na jinsei sa 	This is a life where I’d reach ecstasy from a bullet to the brain.
 	 	
脳内で唸ったサイレンが 	nounai de unatta sairen ga 	The sirens roaring within my skull
錠剤の数をまた増やした 	jouzai no kazu o mata fuyashita 	Once again bumped up the number of pills I'll take.
生き恥をばらまいてやっと平等に声を上げる 	ikihaji o baramaite yatto byoudou ni koe o ageru 	I’ll disseminate the shame I felt in life and finally speak up for equality.
 	 	
安直な正義感が 	anchoku na seigikan ga 	“A simplistic sense of righteousness
快楽みたいなもんさ 	kairaku mitai na mon sa 	Can substitute for pleasure in a pinch.”
退廃的なアンサー 	taihaiteki na ansaa 	What a corrupt answer.
勝手にしてくれ 	katte ni shite kure 	Have it your way.
 	 	
現実逃避が板について 	genjitsu touhi ga ita ni tsuite 	Don't end up being quite at home with escapism
針を狂わせてしまうな 	hari o kuruwasete shimau na 	And making the clock hands move out of order.
這いつくばって息を吸おうが 	haitsukubatte iki o suou ga 	Won’t those eyes still have a dead look about them
その眼はまだ死んじゃいないか 	sono me wa mada shinja inai ka 	Regardless of whether I grovel and inhale?
 	 	
現代病の自殺志願者 	gendaibyou no jisatsu shigansha 	The suicide candidates, suffering from this modern illness,
記憶からゆ消えてくんだ 	kioku kara kiete yuku nda 	Are fading from memory, you see.
頬を伝った麻薬の様な 	hoho o tsutatta mayaku no you na 	Don’t you think we rely on our tears as well
涙にまた縋るだろうか 	namida ni mata sugaru darou ka 	As though they were narcotics dripping down our cheeks?
 	 	
正解はただの被害妄想 	seikai wa tada no higai mousou 	“Right answers are nothing but a persecution complex,
騙されたアンタの自己弁護 	damasareta anta no jikobengo 	A self-justification for when you’ve been tricked.”
ただ勝手に分かったような顔で嘘を吐く 	tada katte ni wakatta you na kao de uso o haku 	Such are the lies you tell, wearing a face like you understood this all by yourself.
 	 	
それが狙いなら大成功 	sore ga nerai nara daiseikou 	If that’s what you were going for, fantastic job!
目論見通りの慌て様 	mokuromidoori no awateyou 	That’s a way to get flustered, all according to plan.
頂点を獲った気分はどうだ？さぞ心地良いか？ 	chouten o totta kibun wa dou da? sazo kokochiii ka?	How must it feel to reach the peak? It must be comfortable up there, right?
 	 	
予期せぬバッドエンド 	yoki senu baddo endo 	Unexpectedly, you got the bad ending:
見事に大往生 	migoto ni daioujou 	An utterly peaceful death.
手頃なサイズ感を 	tegoro na saizu kan o 	I’m hoping for a feeling
期待している 	kitai shite iru 	Of reasonable size.
 	 	
天国かって地獄かって 	tengoku ka tte jigoku ka tte 	“Is this Heaven?” “Is this Hell?”
生きてる内は関係無いな 	ikiteru uchi wa kankeinai na 	What does that have to do with the time while we’re alive?
そんな類の水掛け論で 	sonna tagui no mizukakeron de 	Won’t you end up hurting someone
誰か傷つけちゃいないか 	dareka kizutsukecha inai ka 	With fruitless arguments of that type?
 	 	
死なないように武器を背負って 	shinanai you ni buki o seotte 	I take up arms so that I won’t die
無力な自分を思い知るんだ 	muryoku na jibun o omoishiru nda 	Until I realize how powerless I am, you see.
幸か不幸か他人はいつも 	kou ka fukou ka tanin wa itsumo 	Others never spared a glance for someone
自分など見ちゃいなかった 	jibun nado micha inakatta 	Like me, whether they were happy or unhappy.
 	 	
用意された偽物のマニュアルを 	youi sareta nisemono no manyuaru o 	I reread the prepared counterfeit manual
破れるほど見返して 	yabureru hodo mikaeshite 	To the point that it falls to pieces,
粗末になったこの存在さえも 	somatsu ni natta kono sonzai sae mo 	And so I’ll live without throwing away even this existence
捨てられず生きていく 	suterarezu ikite iku 	That’s degraded so much in quality.
 	 	
現実逃避が板について 	genjitsu touhi ga ita ni tsuite 	Don't end up being quite at home with escapism
針を狂わせてしまうな 	hari o kuruwasete shimau na 	And making the clock hands move out of order.
這いつくばって息を吸おうが 	haitsukubatte iki o suou ga 	Won’t those eyes still have a dead look about them
その眼はまだ死んじゃいないか 	sono me wa mada shinja inai ka 	Regardless of whether I grovel and inhale?
 	 	
現代病の自殺志願者 	gendaibyou no jisatsu shigansha 	The suicide candidates, suffering from this modern illness,
記憶からゆ消えてくんだ 	kioku kara kiete yuku nda 	Are fading from memory, you see.
頬を伝った麻薬の様な 	hoho o tsutatta mayaku no you na 	Don’t you think we rely on our tears as well
涙にまた縋るだろうか 	namida ni mata sugaru darou ka 	As though they were narcotics dripping down our cheeks?
 	 	
どうでもいいかこんな未来は 	dou demo ii ka konna mirai wa 	Well, what do I care? It’s fine if I wish
望むだけ望んでりゃいいや 	nozomu dake nozonderya ii ya 	Just that I’ll wish for this sort of future!
格好付かないこんな自分の 	kakkou tsukanai konna jibun no 	Even if such a self is untailored for others’ eyes,
存在だけは愛したかった 	sonzai dake wa aishitakatta 	I wanted to love nothing but its existence.
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