Shinitagari Shoujo

Shinitagari Shoujo no Melancholic na Mosou (死にたがり少女のメランコｼクな妄想、Shinitagari Shoujo no Merankoriku na Mosou、 lit. The Melancholic Delusion of a Wannadie Girl, typically shortened to just Shinitagari Shoujo). is Raindrop's 2nd Story, conceptualized in March 2023 and began writing in March 2024. The story is split into 2 parts, Season 1, which centers on Saki and her people-pleaser life at Shinitagari Shoujo's Middle School, while Season 2 focuses on Naoko Namikawa and the various people around her.
----WARNING: This page discusses and/or shows spoilers for Angels × S, depression, obsession, emotional manipulation, parental neglect, various toxic relationships, self-harming, nail-biting, smoking, eating disorders, cutting, ableism, suicidal ideation, and suicide as well which could be triggering for sensitive readers. Please read with caution, and click off if you need to. A full list of content/trigger warnings can be found here.
== Starting Premise ==
The Melancholic Delusion of a Wannadie Girl is split into 2 seasons, roughly ~3 years apart from each other. Season 1 takes place with Naoko Namikawa in the 2nd or 3rd Year of Junior Highschool, and is the prequel to Season 2, which occurs with Naoko Namikawa in the 3rd Year of Highschool. While Season 2 centers around Naoko and Nozomi Utsunomiya, it also showcases the lives of several other connected characters. 
=== Season 1’s Premise ===
A people pleaser named Saki, a mentally unstable popular girl named Naoko Namikawa, and a curious girl named Nozomi Utsunomiya attend Shinitagari Shoujo's Middle School and form a trio living out their lives. However, Saki is dependant on the two for her entire sense of identity, and it's unknown if the unstable friend group will crumble.
=== Season 2’s Premise ===
Now with Saki having transferred to another Highschool, Naoko grows closer to Nozomi, although Nozomi's discomfort with Naoko's actions complicates various other people, such as a cheerful first-year student named Mitsuru, a recovering second-year student "named" Neapolitan Icecream Girl, an academic-obsessed third-year classmate named Tae, and various others.
== Content/Trigger Warnings ==
Considering the title, Suicidal Ideation and Delusion seems to be prevalent in the series. More details will be provided in future.
== Timeline ==
In relation to Raindrop's other Stories, it shares a universe with Angels × S and For The Train Station of Dreams, the timeline overlapping with the former. The Chronology goes as follows:
* Shinitagari Shoujo's Season 1
* Angels × S’ Wing 0
* Angels × S’ Wing 0.5
* Angels × S’ Wing 1
* Angels × S’ Wing 1.5
* Angels × S’ Wing 2
* Shinitagari Shoujo's Season 2
Despite this, they don’t have to be watched that way, and due to crossover appearances outside of Saki being limited if not none, it’s advised not to due to this series being focused on characters and not premise. If you want a full overview of timeline, feel free to do so, but you should keep in mind that content of Shinitagari Shoujo is delayed due to prioritizing Angels x S.
== Story Development Process ==
=== Original Concept (2023 Version) ===
The Melancholic Delusion of a Wannadie Girl was Raindrop’s 2nd known story, started in March 2023. The story originally only focused on Naoko and Nozomi, with little of the story or even plot existing. 
=== Conceptualization (2024 Vision) ===
Beginning her work on The Melancholic Delusion of a Wannadie Girl in January 2024, she seemed to ignore it for the first year of it's existence. But despite the seemingly long time Raindrop has had to work on The Melancholic Delusion of a Wannadie Girl, little information is available overall. Raindrop hasn’t given much information on the original storyline, and seems to refuse to do so, likely because there was no information.
=== Ongoing Development ===
==== In 2024 ====
While Saki's first appearance showed her wearing the uniform, the first character to be introduced was Mitsuru in her character profile on January 29th.
== Storytelling Method ==
Shinitagari Shoujo is a multimedia project consisting of artwork posted onto Raindrop's Instagram, but for the more storytelling parts, she plans to upload MVs to her YouTube channel and also post trivia on her twitter. Additionally, as stated in the previous section, Angels x S is still ongoing, so the timeline will be told in separate parts through different perspective in numerous ways.
=== Artworks ===
Raindrop creates art of the cast of her OCs relatively often, posting them mainly on Instagram and Twitter. Once character designs have been finalized through Raindrops concept art/refrence sheets, it can be expected to see far more artworks on there, as seen with Paranoia.
=== Reference Sheets ===
No reference sheets are currently available.
=== Comics ===
Raindrop intends to create short comics of her OCs in 4-panel scenarios comparable to 4-komas and slightly longer comics comparable to MINIGRAMs. See Comics.
== Story ==
=== Wing 0 ===
To be Added.
==== The Ribbon Scene ====
Yotsuya gave Himeko her Ribbons at the end of Wing 0. More is to be Added.
=== Wing 0.5 ===
Summer Break? Beach Stuff?
=== Wing 1 ===
==== The BitchBastard's Introduction Scene. ====
Himeko introduces Koriko to Hasumi and Ayaka. More is to be Added.
==== Michitsugu's Suicide ====
Michitsugu commits suicide due to bullying. More is to be Added.
==== Bansoko Boxcutter Scene ====
Bansoko is crying to Fumika about her problems, and feels that Fumika doesn't understand her. Bansoko begins to freak out and starts cutting herself infront of Fumika. Panicked, Fumika tries to knock the boxcutter out of Bansoko's hand, but ends up messing with her balance causing Bansoko to need stitches.
==== Fumika’s Confrontation ====
Fumika confronts Koriko to convince her to convince Himeko to stop bullying Bansoko. More is to be Added.
==== Koriko’s Confrontation ====
Koriko, convinced by Fumika, confronts Himeko to try to convince her bullying Bansoko. It fails miserably. More is to be Added.
==== Himeko Un-Self Harm Scene ====
Himeko is on the floor, considering cutting herself from stress. She sees Yotsuya, who might not be there. She thinks of The Ribbon Scene, gets frustrated and snaps the boxcutter shut. More is to be Added.
==== Strawberry Milk Scene ====
Himeko finds Koriko having a mental breakdown and cutting herself, and takes her feelings out on her. Himeko breaks the keychain she bought Koriko and denounces her from the friendgroup she'd been in, laughing at Koriko while pouring a can of strawberry milk into her wounds before leaving. Koriko put the broken glass of the keychain back into her bag, cutting up her hands in the process. More is to be Added.
==== Broken-Nosed Bansoko Scene ====
Himeko breaks Bansoko's nose. More is to be Added.
==== Koriko Lights Scene ====
Koriko stumbles into the bathroom, wide eyed from crying and freaking out. She turns on the lights and looks in the mirror, hyperventilating and pulls out a boxcutter. She tries to convince herself into dying, but is convinced she has a fear of dying.
==== HimekoCide Scene ====
Himeko finds Koriko in this messed up state. She mocks and berates Koriko for being unable to kill herself, so Koriko freaks out and begs Himeko to kill her instead. Himeko finds Koriko's loss of sanity amusing, and helps her commit suicide. Despite laughing while watching Koriko bleed out and die, she freaks out and gets help so Koriko doesn't die at the last minute. 
=== Wing 1.5 ===
Koriko goes to a hospital/mental hopsital for attempted suicide. She ended up wearing and sleeping in Himeko's Cardigan while in the hospital, showing no resentment to Himeko for her actions.
=== Wing 2 ===
==== Fumika befriends Saki ====
Fumika befriends Saki due to being in the same class. More is to be Added.
==== Saki's Introduction ====
Fumika introduces Saki to Bansoko. More is to be Added.
==== Ayaka and Hasumi's Apology ====
Ayaka and Hasumi approach Koriko, fake apologizing for bullying Koriko and putting the blame on Himeko for it as a part of a plan they made to throw Himeko under the bus as to not be perceived negatively for driving someone well-liked to suicide. (As it wasn't a problem with Michitsugu because she was unpopular but people would give backlash with Koriko as even though she was previously disliked everyone feigned pity for Koriko because she tried to die and lived.) Koriko knows they're lying to her.
==== Fumika/Bansoko Friendship Breakup ====
Fumika is upset by Bansoko's behavior of doing everything she can be pitiful resulting in her hurting Fumika, while Bansoko is upset by Fumika's opinion of not seeing her being pitiful anymore because she hurt her. The two go through a friendship breakup. More is to be Added.
== Known Locations ==
See Locations.
== Trivia ==
* The term “Bitchbastards” (ビッチバースタードズ、Bichibasutadozu) refers to Ayaka and Hasumi due to the creator’s personal dislike of them.
* Shinitagari Shoujo was originally supposed to be an all-girls school and Angels × S a mixed gender school from March 2023-June 2023-ish, but this was swapped because Raindrop wanted to prioritize Angels × S without learning how to draw guys.
** Shinitagari Shoujo and Angels × S were originally supposed to be in different universes until May-June of 2023-ish, but this was changed because Raindrop wanted Saki to have more focus like the rest of the main cast did.
* Bansoko was originally the protagonist of Wing 1 from September 2022-March 2023.
* You are supposed to say the ‘x’ in Angels x S.
* The ‘S’ in Angels x S was originally supposed to stand for ‘Savior’ as of March 2023, but Raindrop felt that title would be too character-specific. However she grew attached to it, and shortened it to ‘S’ anyways. She intends to come up with a new title someday.
== Etymology ==
Angels x S is written in Katakana.
== References ==
Category:In Angels x S
Category:Stories