创作者之死 (Chuàngzuò Zhě zhī Sǐ)

==Lyrics==
Chinese 	Pinyin 	English
我拿起过钢笔 试图颠覆表达者们被误解的宿命 	wǒ ná qǐguò gāngbǐ shìtú diānfù biǎodá zhěmen bèi wùjiě de sùmìng 	I took up a steel pen, to try to reverse the fate doomed to those who express themselves – the fate of being misunderstood
我拨弄过旋律 却不过加深自我对这世界的怀疑 	wǒ bōnòngguò xuánlǜ què bùguò jiāshēn zìwǒ duì zhè shìjiè de huáiyí 	I toyed around with the melody, but in the end, I had only deepened the doubts and misgivings I’ve felt for the world
 	 	
芝麻开门 芝麻开门 求你开恩抚平我伤痕 	zhīma kāimén zhīma kāimén qiú nǐ kāi'ēn fǔ píng wǒ shānghén 	Open sesame, open sesame, please, with mercy, I beg you to soothe my scars
诘问 于是诘问 为何当初将侥幸放任 	jiéwèn yúshì jiéwèn wèihé dāngchū jiāng jiǎoxìng fàngrèn 	A cross-examination, thus was I subject to a cross-examination – oh, why has luck left me so far back when?
 	 	
我卸下了伪装 又穿戴上乖张 	wǒ xiè xiàle wèizhuāng yòu chuāndài shàng guāizhāng 	I take off my pretenses – I dress in my oddest glory
自以为困于镣铐也能够裙摆飞扬 	zì yǐwéi kùn yú liàokào yě nénggòu qún bǎi fēiyáng 	Having believed that I could break from my shackles and fly
我书写过悲伤 也歌唱过美好 	wǒ shūxiěguò bēishāng yě gēchàngguò měihǎo 	Once I have written about sorrows – once I have sung about beauty
看客哄堂大笑评价说装模作样 	kànkè hōngtáng dà xiào píngjià shuō zhuāngmúzuòyàng 	But it had all been welcomed to roars of laughter, as those who look on comment, “pretentious”
 	 	
我爱过 也恨过这反复无常又热情洋溢的生 	wǒ àiguò yě hènguò zhè fǎnfù wúcháng yòu rèqíng yángyì de shēng 	I used to have loved – I used to have hated – this life that blows hot and cold yet is brimming with passion
与人人都追逐的虚幻永恒 	yǔ rén rén dōu zhuīzhú de xūhuàn yǒnghéng 	As well as that illusionary “forever” that people fawn after
畅言是我的狂妄留守是我的倔强 	chàng yán shì wǒ de kuángwàng liúshǒu shì wǒ de juéjiàng 	What I speak free with ease are my wild fantasies, what I protect is my stubbornness
不料都只是无效抵抗 	bùliào dōu zhǐshì wúxiào dǐkàng 	But never had I expected, that it was all for naught
 	 	
终究无法原谅 为何窃笔者仍可逍遥自在地喧嚷 	zhōngjiù wúfǎ yuánliàng wèihé qiè bǐzhě réng kě xiāoyáo zìzài de xuānrǎng 	In the end, I can’t forgive them – Why, I ask, why has the one who had stolen my pen away been allowed to chatter and prattle at liberty?
终究恐惧惊慌 有朝经纶满腹却失去倾诉的欲望 	zhōngjiù kǒngjù jīnghuāng yǒu zhāo jīnglún mǎnfù què shīqù qīngsù de yùwàng	In the end, I was afraid and struck with panic – that I would someday find myself be learnt and wise yet lost my desire to pour out these feelings of mine
 	 	
再见芝麻 再见芝麻 我不爱了 你自生灭吧 	zàijiàn zhīma zàijiàn zhīma wǒ bù àile nǐ zì shēngmiè ba 	Goodbye sesame, goodbye sesame, I have fallen out of love, you’ve run your course
回答 若要回答 那就跳下这座象牙塔 	huídá ruò yào huídá nà jiù tiào xià zhè zuò xiàngyá tǎ 	An answer, if it’s an answer that you want, then, if you will, take a jump from up top this ivory tower
 	 	
我飞升至天堂 又坠落至疯狂 	wǒ fēishēng zhì tiāntáng yòu zhuìluò zhì fēngkuáng 	I soar up to Heaven, and I fall into the depths of madness
弥留之际仍思索如何修饰这文章 	míliú zhī jì réng sīsuǒ rúhé xiūshì zhè wénzhāng 	On my deathbed, I pondered long and hard on how I could revise this text
我杀死了妄想 又掐灭了冷光 	wǒ shā sǐle wàngxiǎng yòu qiā mièle lěngguāng 	I killed away all my delusions, I snuffed away the cold eyes staring at me
然而连孤独也不复其最初模样 	rán'ér lián gūdú yě bù fù qí zuìchū múyàng 	And thereafter, not even my loneliness had returned to how it used to be
 	 	
我接受了褒奖 也踏上了刑场 	wǒ jiēshòule bāojiǎng yě tà shàngle xíngchǎng 	I accept the accolades, I walk to my execution
二者皆深刻不过失去灵感的绝望 	èr zhě jiē shēnkè bùguò shīqù línggǎn de juéwàng 	But neither is as deep as the feeling of despair that I’d felt upon losing inspiration
我将故事开创 又将它们埋葬 	wǒ jiāng gùshì kāichuàng yòu jiāng tāmen máizàng 	I start the story, and I laid them to rest
若谁能看穿这窘迫我欣喜若狂 	ruò shuí néng kànchuān zhè jiǒngpò wǒ xīn xǐ ruò kuáng 	Please, if anybody could see through my rapt ecstasy, as sorry as it actually is beneath,
 	 	
你将何处去往 	nǐ jiāng hé chù qù wǎng 	“Where are you heading?”
漫无目的流浪 结局提前写上 	màn wú mùdì liúlàng jiéjú tíqián xiě shàng 	Roam aimlessly, and finally, with haste take to pen and paper,
作者将因何而亡 	zuòzhě jiāng yīn hé ér wáng 	“What is the cause for the death of the author?”
■■■■■■ ■■■■■■■■ 	yīn hái huáichuāi xīwàng yīn hái huáiniàn lèyuán guòwǎng 	Because she still holds hope close to heart, and because she yearns for past memories of being in ParadiseIf you’re curious what the deal is with that last line: that line is indeed blacked out in the lyrics given by Yu Li, while the text in the PV corresponding to this line is not at all the same as the sung lyrics. A helpful Bilibili commenter has identified this sung line as “因还怀揣希望 因还怀念乐园过往” (you can mouse over and highlight the blacked out text in the English translation above to see what this means). The text in the PV, on the other hand, reads, “突然并不知道，瞬间失去答案必要” (“in the blink of an eye, I had found that I did not know, and had lost the necessity of even finding that answer”)
==Translation Notes==
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