Survivor Dogs - Fesran

Fesran is a male grey wolf, the former Beta of his Pack, now the Alpha. Fesran is fairly new to being Alpha, and he feels very pressured by and self-conscious of others’ opinions of him. He appears in the roleplay Scorching Deserts as a main character.
== Description ==
Fesran's fur is long and thick, with many different shades of grey mixed in. He has a pale grey, almost white, underside and muzzle, which slowly darkens into a pale, brownish-grey across his side, shoulders, hindquarters, and neck. The top of his back and neck are a darker grey, mixed in with some pale grey and some greyish-brown.
Fesran is short-bodied and surprisingly skinny, but he has a large chest and broad shoulders. He is well-muscled underneath his pelt, but the demands of being Beta for so long and now Alpha have left him exhausted and without much to eat.
He has pale, intense yellow eyes and sharp, slightly curved fangs. His tail is shaggy and medium length, and he has long, well-muscled legs that are covered with the same pale grey fur as his underbelly and muzzle. Fesran's muzzle is long and slim, though he has a broad, dark forehead and large ears.
== Personality ==
Fesran is a very conflicted wolf, having lots of different feelings that often collide with each other. The deaths of his closest friends have left him utterly lost and broken, and so depressed that he sometimes contemplates killing himself to be with them. Fortunately, his daughters keep him alive, as does Spirit, because she is his closest and most trusted friend. 
While Fesran and his sister were being taken care of by their adopted mother, Petal, as pups, she often told Fesran that he was born to be a leader. For most of his life he doubted her, and he was shocked when Neoma first picked him to be her Beta. He did the best he could, but he could never stop thinking about what the others thought of him. After he became Alpha, he became even more uncertain and doubtful of himself. He does his beyond his best, only hoping that it's enough.
Fesran believes that respect and loyalty are the keys to a well-functioning pack, and he displays both of those traits himself. Fesran is respectful to others, and he is fiercely devoted to his pack and packmates. He would happily die to save any of them, and believes that all of them are much more worthy than he. Fesran has always looked up to other wolves as well, following their example if it's a positive one. 
Fesran is extremely devoted to doing the right thing, even if it goes against the rules. Only certain instances was his devotion to the right thing tested, and his opposition of Shadow left him completely horrified at himself. By now he's learned to be more aware of what he should do, even if the pack doesn't agree with him. Then, he believed that exiling Shadow was the right thing to do, because the other wolves believed that she should leave, but looking back on it, he wished that he had convinced the others to let her join the pack. His experiences have greatly strengthened his moral sense, and although he doesn't do the right thing all the time, he has certainly gotten better at trusting his own thoughts instead of others'.
Just because he wants to do what he thinks is right doesn't mean that he's selfish. Fesran is selfless and kind to other wolves, and he believes that they deserve more than he does. He is always looking out for them, always making sure that they're satisfied with the fact that he's Alpha. He tries not to let others' opinions bother him, though sometimes it's hard when he has such a low opinion of himself. Fesran is always willing to sacrifice for the well-being of others, and loves every wolf as much as he can. He believes that there is good in every wolf, and that they can be redeemed, even if it may seem hopeless. 
Fesran always strives to create peace between his pack and others. He dislikes conflict, and hates to see his pack in danger. He always believes that there is a way to end conflict other than fighting. When Bluejay and the others left the pack, Fesran felt awful and wished that he had done something to stop all the chaos going on. 
A tough life has left Fesran with lots of chaotic, clashing feelings. He blames himself for the deaths of all the wolves close to him, and believes that it was his fault that they died. After Mazrith's death, Fesran tried to direct his grief into the duties of the Beta, but he couldn't help thinking of her almost all the time. Later, when Shine died, Fesran was completely devastated and hopeless. The deaths of Rowan, Neoma, and Blaze didn't help his mental state much, and he still hates himself with a passion for killing Neoma. He has endured a lot through his life, and just hopes that the other wolves understand and don't dislike him for his low self-esteem or hopelessness. Many times he has thought about the pack under Spirit's rule and how it would be better than it is under his rule. He's come close to killing himself on multiple occassions, but the thought of his beloved daughters and of his pack always make him hesitate. 
Overall, Fesran is a caring, kind, and loyal wolf who just wants to be the best Alpha he can be. And although he has lots of pain and grief inside of him, he always remembers what a good life he has, and that he should be lucky for everything in his life. 
==Family==
Sister: Mazrith
Mate: Shine
Daughters: Dawn, Dew
Son: Dusk
== History ==
Coming Soon!
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