Elano Roserov

" They said, 'If you don't hear from us in 30 days, we're dead.' And... I never heard anything from them. I know it's stupid, but I still have some hope that they're alive. I guess I don't want to believe that I might have lost the only people who actually loved me in my childhood. " 
Elano is an OC created by Altro. This character was originally created on Minecraft in May of 2021. He identifies as male and goes by he/him pronouns.
==Appearance==
===Clothing===
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===Physical===
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==Personality ==
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==Lore ==
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==Journals==
This part of the page displays everything written in all three of Elano's journals.
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VOL. 1
"I'm so stupid. They'll probably hate me now. What have I done? I keep being 'creepy' and I think it's freaking them out. Adam is in mines half of the time and Angie just... explores? I don't even know at this point. I keep killing all of these animals for food and I don't know if I'm supposed to be feeling bad or not. I don't even... am I okay? They keep asking.
Today I learned that I really enjoy rabbit stew. It's honestly really good. This journal is basically my only comfort, except for Milk* and my fishies. I can't wait for the aquarium to be finished! It'll be so beautiful. To be honest, I really need some more variety other than just... cods. I need a pufferfish, man! Pufferfishes are beautiful. When I was a little kid, I used to think that if pufferfish expanded too big, they would explode. Crazy, right? I wish they did. I wish they did... that would be so beautiful... sometimes I don't understand why they don't. Hehe... I'm going to go kill some cows and pigs now. I want to see them suffer...
Adam is building an enchantment room! Finally, once it's done, I might finally be able to have a place to write in peace. I still don't want them knowing about this stupid journal. They'd probably hate me for seeing how I feel. I mean, isn't it common to want to die? I'm normal, aren't I? I don't know the answer anymore... I... I keep getting anxiety.
Wow. He's already almost done. I wonder if I can make my own lava pit to jump into? Probably not. They'd go searching for me, right? I don't want them to freak out. I... ugh. I don't know what's going on. Who really am I? Am I even 'Elano?' I can't tell at this point. Am I really that useless? Am I? Am I!? Someone tell me... please... I don't want to stay... I don't...
Man, I'm stupid. I wanted to go into the Nether, but I was too much of a pussy. I wish I could be more like Adam. He just jumps right into action, just like that... I feel useless compared to him. Hell, I was even too scared to steal a villager's crops. Ugh... I need that aquarium done soon. I need some other form of comfort...
What am I doing? I wasn't going to take his armor, was I? No, I wasn't! I wasn't, I wasn't, I wasn't... how stupid are you, Elano!? You should have known better... idiot. Honestly, I'm nervous about Angie. She probably doesn't like me at all. She really doesn't... ugh. What am I doing!?
I haven't been writing for a few days. Adam found out I have this book, damn it. He saw me holding it. I've been trying to pretend like it's a clock. How dumb am I? I should have known he would see the damn book in my hands. I need to find this last cow, then my farm will be complete. Adam saw it AGAIN. Are you serious!? I'm going to put this other book I have in the fire. It's too dangerous to have it on me. I have my flint and steel, I just need a safe place where Adam and Angie won't see me burning it! I know he's onto me. I can't keep this secret much longer. Shit. Now Angie knows. I'm just needing to burn this other book now. Gonna do that in a few minutes.
Update, burned the book! I'm so proud of myself. Now they will never see the contents of that. I know they're onto me, man. I'm starting to feel like it's best to just show them. I know I shouldn't, they'd hate me, but would it really be better? I don't know anymore... what am I supposed to do? Shit. I forgot to put out the fire.
Why am I so dumb? I forgot to put out the fire where I burned the damn book! Adam saw it. He asked me why there was a fire there, and I had to lie. I don't like this, damn it. I can't keep denying that this book exists. They KNOW I'm lying. I'm going to put this book away. I'm just going to hope they don't look in the chest to find it.
I'm 'sooo' lucky that they didn't see the book in the chest. After all, the chest IS marked with a sign that says to keep out. Hehe, I need to write a few more pages quickly. I don't want them finding out about this, still. Sometimes I just don't know what to do anymore. I'm scared. I just want to get out of here...
I heard they're building their own houses. Do they really not want to be around me that badly? Do they..? ... This is all my fault. I'm so stupid. Oh, I'm the one who keeps getting happy about death? Really...? I'm sorry. I'm really not good enough... right? I'm going to put my book away now.
I've been trying to tame this sand cat... it doesn't like me. Maybe I should just give up. Isn't 2 cats enough? I mean... I love cats and all, but this sand cat really does not like me... I don't know what to do. UPDATE! I GOT THE CAT! It was my last piece of fish, and I was about to give up, but I DID IT! I'm naming her Sandy. Adorable. Still thinking on what to name the other cat... I've already got Milk, and now I have Sandy, so I just need a name that fits this kitten...
Oh. So killing people... isn't normal? Weird. I keep seeing Endermen around, I love seeing them. Although, they don't seem aggressive to me when I look at their eyes. I don't get why. Aren't they supposed to be violent to humans? ... Hehe... don't worry, I get it. Also, Angie is finally back. Took her long enough to come back from her exploring. I don't get why she's always gone...
Adam is so much cooler than me. Sometimes, I really wonder if I'm doing something wrong. I want to be like him... I want to be like him! Why is life so damn unfair!? Why... why!? I don't get it... both of them are so much better... I'm useless. Why do I even exist anymore!? All I do is annoy them and make a huge mess.
He yelled at me... he yelled at me! He told me to stop reading the letter my mom gave me... I'm sorry, Adam... I'm sorry I disappointed you. Why am I crying over this!? It's just words. I shouldn't be getting emotional over it. What is wrong with me... what is wrong with me!? I'm just so fucking stupid! I... I shouldn't have done that... he probably hates me. It hurts, it hurts... stop crying...
I guess I'm feeling a little bit better. I... guess. I have to admit, I'm still a little upset about it. But I can't stay sad forever, right? Right... maybe that letter is stupid. Maybe it just is! I... yeah. Yeah, it is... it is. Honestly, I feel like I messed up. I don't think Adam likes me anymore... what did I do wrong? I'm so sorry... I'm sorry...!
He thinks I looked in his journal. I didn't. I was admiring his room. I know what privacy is, I know what the hell privacy is!! I'm sorry... Adam probably hates me at this point. I just want to give up... I don't want him to hate me. He's one of my only friends, he can't hate me... he can't... he's pretty much the only person I have...
Almost killed myself today. I was looking down at the ravine, ready to jump, buuuut I hesitated. Adam is so lucky, isn't he. ... I'm sorry. I don't want you to hate me, Adam. I really don't. This was my fault. These cats and this stupid aquarium are basically my only forms of comfort anymore.
Gonna try it again today. Update: Didn't do it. Too hesitant. Maybe I should stop doing that. Even though Adam fucking hates me. I don't even get it anymore. Why am I so stupid?
I creeped him out. I was following him on his journey. He even pulled out a bow and fucking threatened me... why did I even do that. I'm just dumb. I act without thinking. I really need to change things... I really do. I'm so sorry. I'm really trying to fix my relationship with him.
Great. Now he knows I think he hates me. I ran away like some pussy after I revealed it to him. Why am I like this!? He probably feels so disappointed that I know... I'm sorry. I don't know what to do anymore. Now he probably thinks I hate HIM. I hate myself...
Adam thought the letter was my journal. Great, now he's fucking suspicious of me. I bet he's dying to know what it is. If I wasn't so STUPID, then our relationship wouldn't have come to this. I lied earlier he IS my only friend. I'm so sorry... I really am... this is all my fault, he feels guilty. I don't know what to do. I just... I'm so fucking stressed! I'm sorry!
Day 'I don't even know' of being stressed out. I can barely stand this. I don't want to even LOOK at Adam... I don't want him to feel worse than he already does. He's out right now. I want to read his journal... update, was way too nervous to even grab it. I... but I really want to know how he feels about me. Wow, who am I kidding? It probably says 'Elano is a stupid bitch!!' haha. Wow, that sounds way too accurate. I... kind of... wow, am I being annoying or what? I'm being fucking rude to them. I need to stop... this isn't right. Why the hell am I doing this? I'm fucking sorry. I'll change, I swear I will... I'm so sorry...
I can't believe I let Adam see my mother's letter. He probably thinks I'm trying to guilt trip him with it. I'm so dumb. I just want him to know the truth, but it's too dangerous. Why am I like this? I just wish everything could be back to normal. Adam isn't how he used to be. Now he acts all depressed... this is all my fault... I shouldn't have acted like that.
Great news! Adam and I are finally on good terms again! I'm so glad... I won't have to be stressed anymore, and neither will he... I didn't want to lose my only friend. I'm so thankful that he accepted my apology...
I'm feeling much more happy than I normally do. Things are really changing for the better around here! My aquarium is 99% finished, my cat was named, and Adam is friends with me again! Oh yeah, my cat. I named her Swift! I was thinking Fall, buuuut... hmmm.
I'm making a Nether portal room. I don't really think the idea of having it outside is the best idea. Sad thing is, I have to do this alone. Adam is gone on a journey, and Angie is mining. So lonely down here, at least I have my cats. Speaking of cats, I got two new ones!! 3, actually. I have a new calico, siamese, and some gray one. I named the calico "Mesa," but I still haven't thought of names for the siamese or gray ones. To get the siamese and gray ones, I traveled SO far away from home, to some village. Obviously, they were there, so I tamed them. It was a long journey, but I safely brought them home. They're so adorable. :)
I can't wait for Adam's reaction when he sees 3 new cats. He's going to freak out! Haha. I'm also building my own room, so I don't have to sleep upstairs or in the den. :). It's already 99% complete, like my aquarium! This base is so awesome. Update, I finished my room! Well, almost, I'm going to make a little bunk bed first. Thanks for teaching me, Angie.
Yeah... the bunk bed didn't really work out. I did put some little frames around the bed, though. I'm really tired, so I'm going to head to bed. I'll think of names for the 2 other cats in the morning...
Hey! It's definitely past morning time now. I named the 2 cats 'Cloudy' and 'Coal,' so, yeah! I also got some more cats! Now, I have EVERY possible cat breed. :D. 11 cats is enough for me, though... definitely enough. I'm so tired from the huge journey of trying to find them.
I named the new cats! Luckily, I was able to find enough name tags. Fern, Velvet, and Ink. I love them so much!! I can't wait for Adam to see. He might wonder how I got them so easily... the power of exploration. Well, I did get Ink from an odd place, but that doesn't make him any different, does it? He's still very nice. :)
I miss Adam. He hasn't come back for a while. I mean, he is pretty much my only friend, so I care a lot about him. Dusty has been barking a lot, too. I think he misses him as much as I do... anyways, I've been taking my cats on walks outside. They seem to like it, which makes me really happy. I don't think I've been this happy in years...
I know Adam has a lot of stress, especially from the memory of his father. I want to help him, but I really don't know how. What do I do? I don't want to make things worse for him...
I got a cart-- I mean, 'The Broom Broom Car' as a prize for hitting a bullseye. I made a circle out of rails, now my cats can spin around aimlessly. :). Angie is being dumb again, and doing some kind of moonwalk... I don't really understand. Also, Adam is back. I'm so glad...
Velvet gave birth to a kit... and without my permission! As much as I am disappointed, I have to be supportive. I'm giving Vel and Ink a huge punishment. My friends are also debating on who gets the kit... sad. Also, I named it Claw.
I don't know what's going on... each time I see Adam, I start to get nervous... what's going on with me!? I know I admire him, but I shouldn't be feeling like this... wait... there's no way I have feelings for him... right? There's no way! I only admire him, right? It's just me getting nervous like you would in front of your idol... haha...? I'm sure it's not a crush...
I'm still confused over the whole situation about my feelings towards Adam, but besides that... I'm thinking of upgrading our base again. Not sure what room, but... yeah.
I don't know what room to build in the hall. I know I need to build SOMETHING, but I just keep getting... so distracted... I can't stop thinking of him. Damn it, Adam... why am I feeling like this!? He's just supposed to be my friend. Nothing more! Nothing more... right?
He complimented me... I know it's a normal thing to do, but... wow. I feel so proud of myself! When he complimented me... it felt so weird, but not in a bad way. Sad thing is, I'm scared that he might like Angie more than me. If I'm ever going to confess to him, I know he'll reject me. Damn it, I need to get rid of this crush. It's too... childish, anyway...
I feel bad, he has to go through all this about his father's death. I mean, who am I kidding, I've lost both of my parents too, but... I just feel so bad for him... he doesn't deserve to suffer like this. He really doesn't! I'm sorry...
Adam just told me the full story. Not from a journal this time... I feel so bad for him. I know it's not my fault at all, but I just feel so guilty about not knowing. I feel like I could have helped him. I'm so stupid! Why am I like this...
I still feel guilty about it... is this just because I care for him so much? I just want him to be okay... Adam... I'm sorry...
Huh. Why do I have a feeling today won't end well? ... Am I being overprotective of him? Sorry, Adam... I don't want to make you feel uncomfortable. I just... care a lot about you, y'know?
Hey, nothing happened today. Guess I overreacted... I need to stop being so clingy towards him.
The cats are climbing on top of me. Help. I can't deal with these cats. They're on my face. Ow. Ow. Ow-!
Uh, forget that happened. Today I went to the ravine to see what was going on, and I decided to drop my other note down there! I didn't want Adam to see it, it was nothing important anyway..."
*Milk is the name of Elano's cat. It is not referring to the actual drink.
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VOL. 2
"Uhm... I finished my first journal! I didn't want it to go over 50 pages, it was starting to get messy. Hehe... so, I'll be writing in here from now on.
I've been talking to Adam, and I think I'm starting to get too clingy. I don't want to annoy him, but I feel like I am... I just... I have a crush on him, y'know? I want him to be safe, but at the same time, I don't want him to think I'm being overprotective. I'm also wanting to read his journal... what if it says something bad about me? Like... I could open it and it'd just say how clingy I've been being to him. I don't want him to be feeling uncomfortable because of me...!
I'm getting so nervous near him! I don't want to have this crush on him, it's so weird... agh. I just don't think he'll want to be friends with me anymore if he knows how I feel. I don't want him to go... he's my only friend. Well, if you consider Angie, ONE of my only friends... but I don't like her. At all. She just gives off a weird feeling...
I called Adam cute! Oh my god.. I can't believe I did that...! He's probably so confused. I feel so embarrassed.
Actually, other than that, I don't remember how old I am. I know I'm older than 15, but younger than 20. I know that for a fact! I remember my 15th birthday, but not my 20th! Therefore, I'm in between.
Day 2 or so of trying to find out my age. I've been thinking a lot, and remembered my birthday is in May. May... May what? May 10? May 25? I don't know...! I have to remember... Adam said he's 16, so I want to know if I'm the same age as him... this is so confusing. Hmm... what could my birthday be...? OH! That's right! I think I remember a bit... I know it's somewhere around May 12... I remember Mamá telling me once, 'Your birthday is in a few days!' That day was May 12, so it has to be somewhere near then! Hmm... May 12... what counts as 'a few days?' 2? 3? 4? And how old was I turning that year? that was... what was it... what year? Was it 2007? Was I born earlier than 2007...?
Whatever... I need to stop worrying about it so much. It's not even that important... haha. I shouldn't get too stressed about it... last time that happened, it didn't end well. Well, after all, it doesn't really matter what my birthday is anyway... I guess at the end of May, I can just pretend I remember having my birthday that month!
I miss Adam... he's been gone for a while now. He's probably out mining... but why wouldn't he tell me? Is he finally fed up with me? I just don't understand... what did I do wrong? Am I just overthinking it? Ahah... I don't know what to do... what do I do... what do I do!? I have so many secrets I haven't told Adam, what if he found one out? What if that's why he's avoiding me!? What if he hates me because of the secret!? Oh god... he... hates me... I don't-... why...
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STOP OVERREACTING, ELANO! How many times do I have to say this, STOP OVERREACTING! Adam doesn't hate you, he doesn't hate you, he doesn't... he... doesn't...
Was I overreacting? Was I overreacting!? He's back now, but... I just... I don't know! What if he found out? What if he secretly hates me? Oh no... oh no...
Well, we're going exploring for a jungle somewhere. I've actually never seen one before! We're in a cave right now, hiding for the night. I'm trying to distance myself from Adam, I don't want him to start to feel uncomfortable with me.
It's morning now, and we're heading out on our journey again. I hope we can find something.
We found some kind of village, and also a ravine, too! It has amethyst... we're gonna dig it now! I hope we don't mess up... well, I hope I don't mess up.
We dug it out, and I kind of subtly flirted with Adam a bit... hehe, glad he didn't really hear it well. There's also a bit of slime here... gross. Can't they be somewhere else? I also saw an Enderman in the ravine. I started talking to him, but then accidentally insulted his wife! He started to attack me, and almost killed me... luckily, Adam helped me out. Hehe... Adam... he's so cool! I love him so much... AH! What am I talking about!? Uhm... anyways, Adam killed the Enderman... it made me a bit uncomfortable, I'm not going to lie about that. But, he still saved me!
Uh, after that, I guess we did some more exploring. Oh, yeah! I called Adam cute back there, too... hehe! I wasn't wrong, was I? Right now we're exploring, and I'm getting so tired...
Wait... where is our house? Are we lost? What about my cats!? Are they safe!? What if something happened to them after all this time!? I'm so selfish! What is wrong with me!? I can't believe myself... I need to get back home!
I'm back home now. I had an entire panic attack on my way back... I guess I was just really stressed out back there. Luckily, Adam wasn't around me during that, so he didn't see... y'know. I'm so glad I'm home, and all my cats are safe... so is Dusty! Oh, yeah! Adam got a new dog on the way back! He's finding a name for it right now.
I think I'm annoying him... I'm being too clingy again... I don't want to be like this... why am I so useless...? I just want to be worth something... ever since my parents pushed me,* things haven't been the same...
I read his journal. I read it... he knew this whole time that I had a crush on him. I'm so stupid. I'm just worthless... why do I even exist? I'm just getting so stressed. He said he read my entire journal... he knows everything now... I... I just can't do this right now... I'm so stressed out... I don't want this to happen... why...? I'm so stupid... I just wish I wasn't here... I'm so useless, if I wasn't here, NOTHING would change, right? Nothing would happen. They really wouldn't care, would they? They wouldn't care at all... hahah... yeah! It would be fine! It would be fine, it would be fine, IT WOULD BE FINE! Haha... ahah... it would all be okay! Y'know, I already tried to kill myself earlier! Yeah... earlier, I jumped into the ravine... but I fell into some water. It hurt like hell, don't get me wrong, but I still survived... Adam saw, and asked me if I was okay. WHAT DO YOU MEAN, AM I OKAY? DO I LOOK OKAY!? I... yeah! I answered that I was fine... just fine! And guess what, he bought it! Hahah... haha...
I made him a cake! He made one, so I thought I should make one too! Hehe... I hope he's alright. I don't want him to feel guilty for any of the bad things that have happened in the past. I just hope he knows that I care about him, and I will accept him no matter what...
He's pretty much finished his little oasis. He's kind of renovated that little cave outside his room, and turned it into a super cool oasis! And his pet axolotl, Mike, lives there too! I just got my pet axolotl. I named her after... uhm... you know who. I really don't want to remember her*... damn skeleton! They're so selfish!
I'm getting sooo bored... man... I dropped a piece of carpet down the ravine last night, to really test how long it would take to fall down there... it actually didn't take that long, so at least I won't have much time to think about my reasons to live while I'm falling down there... hah! What am I saying? I'm not going to do that... I'm too nervous to. ... Well, of course, the carpet and I are different weights, so it would probably take me a lot quicker! That makes me so excited! But, of course, like I said, I'm way too nervous to fall down there yet. Because, you know, Adam might see and freak out...
I'm pretty sure he saw me jumping down there... but guess what stopped me? Water, again... I'm just so tired of that stupid water. I'm going to block it off soon, so that I won't have any chance of surviving! So, yeah. Adam saw me jumping today. I jumped, fell in water, then he came down there too. I made an excuse, but I'm not too sure if it worked...
GUESS WHAT!! We found the stronghold! Yeah, you heard me right! STRONGHOLD! I can go home now, and finally kill that bitch! Took us long enough. If my parents are still alive, I might... I... I'll be able to reunite with them... I should be happy, but I just feel scared... what if my parents got hurt...? I really don't want to find out...
I don't know why I'm angry... why am I angry? I keep hitting him... I'm bandaging my arm right now, I got hit with an arrow earlier. It hurt really bad... and it didn't help that it was RAINING of all things. I just... I'm so stressed... it feels like I'm losing my fucking mind! What am I doing!? I'm so stupid... I... I...
I feel like I'm going to pass out... I've been collecting resources, building... I feel so tired. I hope Adam likes it. I'm just... so exhausted... all this working was too much for me to handle. Agh... why... why did I think this was a good idea?
Angie is back... crazy, huh? I can't believe she's alive. I was starting to think she wouldn't come back... but yeah, she's moved her house. Now it's waaaay off in the distance. ... I don't know what to do. Angie can be annoying sometimes, yeah... but I need to treat her well, don't I?
I saw Adam jump in the ravine.... then he brushed it off like it was nothing. I'm worried about him... I'm probably the cause of this. If only I wasn't so annoying...
Why do I feel guilty? I don't even know what I'm guilty FOR. It just feels like things have changed. I want to tell Adam about my past, but I'm scared. I don't want him to judge me. What if he gets mad for not telling him sooner? I don't know what to do. It feels like he's been avoiding me.
I saw some weird red stuff in the cauldron in Adam's room. What was that?? He quickly tried to hide it, but it's still weird. Is he hiding something from me...? I... does he not trust me? You know what, I need to stop overreacting. I'm just being annoying with how much I overreact at the littlest things. I wish I was never like this.
Adam injected some needle into me... it really hurt. :(. Well, I've never really gotten injected with anything soo... I don't know. I'm kind of mad at him now. Why would he do that!? I can't believe it...
I don't like people touching me without permission... that's another reason why I got so mad when Adam did that. Hmmh...
I haven't been feeling like myself lately... I'm wanting to... wanting to hurt myself even more... I keep making poison potions. Why do I make them if I know they won't kill me? I'm not afraid to die, right? I'm not, I'm not, I'm not... I'm so stressed... I wish I could be with Mamá again.... Mamá.... I miss her so much... I miss Mamá, I miss Papa, I miss Uncle Xevido, I miss Karni, I miss Kenny, I miss Patty, I miss her, I just want everything to be back to normal... I wish Mamá and Papa didn't push me, I wish they didn't SAVE me. I wish they let the Queen murder me. I never wanted to be here. I wish I could have just stayed with them until the very end. Why... is it my fault this happened...?
I went adventuring today, but uhh... I started bleeding and kinda left a bit of a blood trail. Adam helped me clean it up, little does he know I knew I was bleeding the whole time! I just wanted to see how much blood I could lose before passing out. I'm so smart, aren't I? ;). I mean, I didn't pass out, but almost did. But, yeah. That happened. Also, Adam's been pretty secretive lately. I feel like we're becoming distant. I just... I want to know what's going on... did I do something wrong?
Adam left for London... I didn't write at all during that time. I was pretty lonely, I guess. I only talked to my cats for some company... and maybe Angie at some times. I still have a bad relationship with her, though. But anyways, he's back now! It makes me really happy that he's back... I missed him so much.
I'm annoying... I guess I just found that out? Took me a while, huh. I'm so fucking annoying. Annoying... annoying... annoying... ANNOYING... ANNOYING... ANNOYING... ANNOYING... ANNOYING... ANNOYING... ANNOYING... ANNOYING... ANNOYING... ANNOYING... ANNOYING... ANNOYING... ANNOYING... ANNOYING... ANNOYING... ANNOYING... ANNOYING... ANNOYING! What is wrong with me? What is... wrong with me... I... can't...
Uh... hey. It's been a while. Things have happened. I built a bridge over the ravine, I guess. It might help me a bit... y'know. To stop myself from falling. But still, it's still nowhere near my carpet so.... I doubt it will help. Adam and Angie probably won't realize the carpet anytime soon, so I doubt I have anything to worry about. Am I even making sense right now? I'm probably just rambling about something nonsensical. Uh... shit. I don't know what to write anymore. Um.... uhhh. OH YEAH! I finally got Karl into the aquarium! It took a long time, and a lot of work... but I did it! The tunnel was from the makeshift home all the way to the underground area of the house. It took so long to push him all the way through the tunnel! And it hurt... really bad. I guess that's what I get for filling the tunnel with water... but yeah. It's all covered up now, so don't worry about it, future me. Or... whoever is reading this. Ummmm....
I wonder if I make people uncomfortable... well, who am I kidding, of course I do. I can never control myself... what is wrong with me? Why can't I just be normal!? I just want everything to be okay... why do I always ruin everything?
Angie is... injured... she seemed really, really bad until I gave her some medicine. She went unconscious, but she's awake now (it's been nearly 3 days). She seems all... uh... weird, now. She seems really... out of things... I hope she gets better soon. I see her as... a mother to me. I don't want to lose her how I lost my real mother...
What is wrong with me. What is wrong with me. WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME!? Angie is just my friend, not my mother. I need to stop acting like she's my mother. She's my friend. FRIEND. FRIEND. FRIEND. FRIEND. STOP ACTING LIKE SHE'S YOUR MOTHER!
Oh shit. I think this crush on Adam is... going a bit too far. I'm starting to daydream about him... a lot... oh god. He's so perfect... NO WAIT WHAT AM I THINKING. I shouldn't be thinking like that. Mmh... but he's so... NO. Elano. Calm. Just... calm down... Adam's not thaaat amazing... right? Hah...
Ok... ok. I just need to calm down with this whole crush thing. I don't want to end up making Adam uncomfortable. Hmph...
I can't take this anymore... I don't want to live... this world is too much for me to handle... I'm sorry mamá... I'm sorry papa... I'm sorry uncle Xevido... I'm sorry Karni... I'm sorry Kenny Christopher... I'm sorry Patty... I'm sorry Angie... I'm sorry Adam... I really can't do this anymore... I wish I was a better person but... life just isn't fair huh? Hahah... I'm sorry... I... .......
I'm nothing... I'm useless... I'm worthless... I'm disgusting... I'm terrible... I'm just fucking stupid... I'm annoying... I make people uncomfortable... ..... ... I just want to be happy again... I want to be with you* again... help me... please... help... I need help... I can't do this for much longer... please...
Hey... I haven't been writing for a while. I ended up building a whole new house, and I'm still deciding whether or not I should fully move into it or not. I don't want to leave Adam... hmph. Well, Angie got glass stuck in herself somehow. I think she might be trying to take it out right now... I hope she'll be okay. Hah... damn, life is weird."
*Elano's parents pushed him off of an End platform, resulting in him falling into the overworld.
*Elano's first ever cat, Karni, who was murdered by a skeleton.
*Elano's close childhood friend, who turned out to be Angie.
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VOL. 3
"I'm already on the third version of this thing! Wow, journals fill up FAST. Oh right, I didn't mention that Angie completely destroyed her house. It's gone now, replaced by the enchanted forest... now she lives on a cloud. Yep, that's right, a CLOUD. She has a mini mansion on a cloud. Honestly, it's super pretty. I'm jealous. Although, I got to make the chandelier! It was fun, and I really enjoyed it. The results were amazing! For once in my life, I'm proud of myself...
I'm such an idiot-- I almost told Adam that I love him. I'm so glad I didn't... he would've gotten so uncomfortable. Heh... that was so embarrassing. God...
I can't believe he-- Adam-- he-- he confessed to me. He actually loves me... I... honestly, I don't know how to feel. Nobody's ever really... loved me in that way before. I know I had a small crush on Kenny Christopher when I was younger, but... he never felt the same way. I just-- mmn... I can't believe this. This is actually happening...
We're a couple now. Officially. I just-- I can't believe this! I'm so happy... and here I thought this would be another stupid, useless crush... ...
I was just one step away. One step away from eternal freedom. One step away from the end of all suffering... so why did I hesitate? WHY? I've been planning this for so long, why aren't I CONFIDENT? Oh god, am I crying? Over something like this? It hurts... it hurts. I don't want to be like this. I just want to be happy again... please.
Why... why... why... WHY!? I DON'T UNDERSTAND ANYMORE...
Hey, I'm back! Sorry for all the dark thoughts and stuff earlier. We went to London! Yeah, you heard me right. Me and Adam went to London. It was so much fun! Though, when we came back, there was some weird guy here. I think he might have been Angie's boyfriend or something.
Weird things have been happening. I took lethal poison from Angie. She was probably planning to hurt herself... or worse. I don't want to lose her like I lost them. She means so much to me. I tried my best to stop her, but it's not working...
Update! I was able to stop Angie. She calmed down, and we cuddled together when we slept. Yeah, we slept together. Not THAT type of 'sleeping together,' wtf? I'm gay. Or at least-- I think I am? Well, whatever. We had a girl talk and we ended up talking about her tits. They kept-- pressing up against me during the night. It was kind of distracting. Hmh...
Now me and Angie are at the waterfall pond. She was reading something, and I brought my journal so that we could read together. Even though I don't think this journal counts as a real 'book,' it's still nice to read with her. It's calming!
Hii, so, it's been a while. Adam is acting kinda strange. He's getting REALLY distant. So weird... it's like he's ignoring us or something. Anyways, I've been spending some time around Angie... I keep stuttering when I talk to her though. It's like I'm getting nervous... but I'm not! I think... I dunno. Things have been weird lately. Especially with Adam!
Uhh, ok. Something happened. So I was just hanging out with Angie when suddenly the floor started breaking! There were signs and stuff telling us to go down in a little hole that seemed to go down forever... both me and Angie didn't want to. We got pushed in and it turned out to be a huge cave thing. There were monsters everywhere! And lots of lava... I had to use my bucket to clear it all up. That thing that pushed us in also put signs down to try and communicate with me. It said that it knew me, and said 'remember?' as if I'd met it before. It's kinda weird, I wonder who that is... could it be Kenny Christopher? Probably not, Kenny would never do something like that to scare us. Right...? I really hope it wasn't him. It probably wasn't anyway... I'm just overreacting. But... anyways. I've been feeling really weird about Angie. And not in a bad way! It's like... I've been feeling different. Like whenever I see her, I get butterflies. It's like when I had a crush on Adam, but different. Really different. Like, it's more intense. Wait-- no. I don't even like Angie in that way, what am I saying?
Hi there! Good news! We found Fern. He was missing for what felt like forever, and he's finally home. He was sitting under a tree near that one wolf pen... I'm so glad he's safe. God... it would have been so sad if he was gone forever. Everyone would hve missed him-- not saying that they didn't already.
Angie's at my house right now. I'm glad she's here. I would have been kinda lonely...
I... think I have feelings for Angie. I know it's crazy, but it's true. It's like, whenever I see her... it's like my heart starts beating so fast!! It's like she puts me in a trance!
I've made Angie upset again. I just hope I can resolve this soon... I love her. I don't want this to be the end.
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Hey! Me and Angie actually got together. I made a whole setup for her and it was really romantic. I love her so much... maybe we're meant to be. I mean, I can understand if we are. I should have seen the signs!
Angie seems to want to spend more time with me lately. I'm-- I'm glad. I guess things really are changing for the better.
I'm glad I have you... I want to be with you forever... hey, do you think we'll get married?
I was wrong. I've always been wrong. They're gone. My parents are dead. They've always been dead. I've been hoping for absolutely nothing. It was such a stupid idea in the first place... my parents were supposed to die, so why did I think they wouldn't? They can't hide forever, anyways. They were always going to die, and I was just too naïve to understand. I could have done something. I could have done anything. Isn't that funny? I could have saved my parents. I always could have! ALWAYS! This is all my fault, isn't it? I probably could have save everyone. My parents, the Karnis, Kenny and Patty, my pets, I could have saved EVERYONE. But why didn't I? Oh, I know, because I'm Elano. And who is Elano? Someone who is so incompetent that he can't even please one person. Not even one... not even ONE! Not even one not even one not even one not even one not even one isn't that FUNNY?
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I shouldn't even exist anymore. If I don't die now, how many people am I gonna end up hurting in the future? I'll hurt everyone. Adam, Angie, myself... maybe even the dead, too. Who knows. Anything is possible when it comes to me, right? God. Everything around me just dies. Am I cursed or something? Is this because of the time I stepped into a Witch's Hut as a kid? Hey, that was Kenny's fault, not mine. He dared me. ... ... Kenny... I miss you. What did I ever do wrong to deserve all of this? What did I ever do!? I was just... BORN, and all of this happened! What the fuck did I do in some past life to deserve all of this shit!? God, FUCK!
I should just end it all now. I should just die. I mean, it's better than being alive at this point. At least I'd be at peace. Nobody would ever be hurt by me again. Huh. I guess... I guess I should die. I'm probably gonna do it tonight. I know I hesitate a lot, but... now, it's really time for me to go. This is the end... who knew this would come so soon? Haha... ... ... ... ... god. I just wanted to be happy. I always just wanted to be happy. I wanted everything to be peaceful. But look what happened. My parents have been dead for, what, 11 years? I can't count. I guess that shows how incompetent I really am. Hmmh. Well, let's see. I've got a knife, but I... I really don't want it to be painful or slow. I know if I stab myself then it might take me a while to bleed out. I don't have anything super quick like a gun. I guess I could try my bow, but... it's probably not durable enough to kill me on impact. I just want to die without anyone noticing. I want to be forgotten. Hmm... well, I know that I used a spare rope to tie down a fence post outside my house. I might be able to use that... then I could hang myself. But... where? I don't want to do it in my house, where my cats can see. I'd rather not have them traumatized. I could do it on a tree, I guess. But which tree... probably not one where I could be found easily. So, definitely not in the enchanted forest. And probably not one near Adam's house. Maybe somewhere far, but not too far. Maybe near the graveyard. I guess that could make me easier to bury. I'll go check it out.
Update, there's a tree. It's kind of big, and I think I could tie a rope on one of the branches. It seems high enough--I'll be able to hang myself there. I guess it's time... I'm sorry. I'm so sorry, Angie... I have to do this. Kenny, Patty, mamá, papa, Karnis... I'll see you soon.
Hey. Things happened. A lot of things. I found a stool to stand on while I tied the rope, so I set it up below the tree. I... I stood up on it and put the rope up. I was about to put it around my neck when I got shoved off of the stool. It was her. Angie. The one thing I didn't want to happen: Angie caught me. I never wanted to scare her. I never wanted to make her upset... but I did. I just wanted to die and let her forget about me. I made her cry. She had a breakdown because of me. God, how fucking stupid am I? Why did I think this would go according to plan? ... I'm crying. Of course I'm crying. I'm not the victim, so why am I crying? I'm the one at fault. I've always been the one at fault. I hurt everyone, so why the hell am I crying!? I'm so fucking pathetic! I just want to give up already... haha. I tried that already, didn't I? And it failed. OF COURSE it failed. Because I'm Elano. I'm a failure myself. How fucking pathetic. ... I'm going to go visit Angie now. I feel like she doesn't deserve to see me after what I've done, but... I'm going to go check on her."
==Trivia==
*Elano suffers from severe depression and anxiety.
*He has fangs.
* Elano is named after Altro's middle name.
*He was originally only supposed to be 5% Enderman, but that percentage was greatly increased.
* Elano is obsessed with cats as a coping mechanism. There were many cats in Graywell, so it reminds him of better times.
*Red is his favorite color.
* The only thing he genuinely enjoys eating is bread.
** If he is offered different foods, he will be hesitant to eat them if they do not include bread.
*Ink is his favorite pet cat.
* Although bows are his specialty, Elano is also skilled with swords.
*Due to not being given a proper education, Elano does not know much about the world. 
**He has trouble recognizing colors, cannot do complex math, and sometimes has a difficult time spelling/reading.
* Elano is terrified of heights.
*Any sight or smell related to fire can induce a lot of stress in him.
*He originally had dark brown hair, but Altro changed it to black so that it could fit better with the Enderman theme.
*He is autistic.
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