Letter to You (TPF)

Dear Samuel,
Before the Covenant hit New Harmony, your biggest fear was being picked on by that class bully. In the span of a day, you went from having a loving family and great friend to nothing but being a statistic in an on-going genocide. It became the first time in your life where you didn’t matter to someone. I know that feeling now and I find it wrong you had to suffer through such a torturous time. There was no way for your parents to teach you on how to live as an orphan, they never intended for you to live such a life. You were left to your own tools on how to survive on a dying planet.
Your transfer to Reach made things better and worse, there was no parental figure to guide you in your life. You met Mathilda and the two of you went to join the SPARTAN-III Program to get revenge on the Covenant. Life on Onyx was brutal, the training and abuse given out daily by the instructors was wrong and unfair. But somehow, you prevailed through the training and moved up to join the Headhunters. Your desire to kill and get revenge filled your body, the Headhunters gave you the best opportunity to kill those who took from you.
It wasn’t your fault Mathilda died on that planet. Your lack of skill was not a reason why she died. There is no reason as to why she died, it happened and there was nothing you could do to save her. You sought the way to kill those who took from you, but they kept taking from you. No matter how many you killed, they always found a way. To lose such a close companion like Mathilda, it will haunt you for a very long time. The pain and sorrow will remain for years to come and you will struggle with not having her by your side. I wish I could teach you how to cope, but I didn’t know anything back then as well.
Red Team, good luck with getting a transfer out. You’ll become an instrumental tool to their success in the battlefield. But your lessons with Mathilda and keeping distance from fellow SPARTANs, will make you an enemy. The Alphas had a big ego and got what they deserved frankly. Lynn’s death was a product of bad judgement from leadership, another fatal flaw within Red Team and out of your control. You did the right thing reporting Oriana to the Office of Naval Intelligence, even though others will judge you in the time to come. Expect her to come back around though.
The Human-Covenant War ended and you’re left at the end more broken than you started. You didn’t expect to become a child soldier and fight the Covenant. You wanted to stay home and enjoy life with your parents. That’s how it was supposed to be, safe and happy. But the Covenant and their genocidal campaign led you to a life of being psychologically broken for years to come.
I’m sorry you didn’t have the tool to handle these traumatic situations and it’s not your fault. Never blame yourself for not having the tools you didn’t know about. The future shines bright, I know it does and I hope you see it that way.
Pax Vostrum,
Samuel-B256</br>
Petty Officer First Class</br>
UNSC Navy