Duality

this is a fanfic about my OC Jaguar/Jagged and it's written as her journal. 
PART 1
It's getting worse. today I could barely hold her back, and I think I'm going to lose control any day now. I don't know what I'm going to do. every day she grows stronger and I grow weaker. she started to influence my choices this morning, and I know she'll take over as soon as I let my guard down. No sleep tonight, I guess, but I'm so tired. I suppose one night more can't hurt, right? 
Oh, it definitely will, little one. even now, I feel you plead silently to be free. you can have this body back in the morning, if you're still there. 
NO! I'm not letting you take over again! I don't know why you're even here, but you need to leave now! 
You sound silly, arguing with yourself. 
A few things. one, you can't hear written words, two, you're not me, and three, no one else will see this journal, anyway. now, what should I call you?
Ah, but I am you, little Jaguar. I’m called Jagged. 
LATER
Alright. Jagged. please stop screaming in my mind, I'm trying to pay attention in class right now. 
I don't know what you're talking about 
LATER 
might as well say how I got into this mess. except, the thing is, I don't honestly know when it started. 
Please stop calling me that, monster of my mind 
I will if you will. anyway, it started a few weeks ago. I don't know what happened, but I've been growing ever since. 
I know what that was! my-your-our-I don't even know little cousin Dragonfruit dumped Star's science project on my head, and it got everywhere. The project was even about thoughts! 
that makes sense 
PART 2
another day and it's getting worse. I think she's going to be in sole control of this body soon. I can't let that happen, but she just pops in whenever she wants to.
I think you're right about that... 
you want me to leave and never come back? I want to know why you think I'd do that for you. 
I want to know why you invaded my mind 
I want to know why you refuse to believe that I'm a part of you and always have been 
I want you to know that this is going nowhere 
I knew that already but it's fun to argue 
I don't agree 
Before we end this, I want you to understand that we're both Jag 
And I want you to know that I don't believe you 
(a few days and torn out pages later)
I'd forgotten about this!
I hadn't, there's just no point if you haven't written anything interesting
I don't know what you mean
Are you so sure? 
Are you trying to drive me crazy?
Of course I am!
And why is that?
No reason at all, it's just fun
I don't really understand that, but alright
hmph.
(a few days after that)
Why do you make me do these things? I regain control covered in-I don't even want to write what, and when I get clean, I get all sorts of odd looks!
That's kind of the point
I need you out of my head as soon as possible
You still refuse to believe that I'm you?
Why yes, I doCategory:Fanfictions (Incomplete)Category:FanfictionsCategory:Genre (Epistolary)