Rowan Saturnus

===Who is Rowan?===
Rowan is a human (now Malux) from earth who's a internet micro-celebrity and a National Revolt Member.
===Appearance===
In his usual appearance, Rowan is a 5'4ft man with dark skin and scar going across his left eye. He has black hair that's cut to shoulder length with bangs that are cut just above his eyeline. His eyes are a dark green and he has bandages on his forearms.
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 (Please skip Backstory section if any of this is triggering for you) 
 Gynophobia, Rape, Grooming (Sexual + Drug dealing), Child Abuse (Neglect, Physical and Emotional), Alcohol/Drug Abuse, Suicide/Suicidal Ideation and Suicide Attempts, Mental Health Struggles (Dissociation, Paranoia, Flashbacks, Manic + Depressive episodes, Panic Attacks), Homophobia and Internalised Homophobia, Transphobia and Internalised Transphobia, Self sabotage (Both intentional and unintentional), Fragile Masculinity
===Backstory===
====Early Life (2007-2016)====
In 2007, Rowan was born to Brihanna Lyons and Kaymar Kane only 3 years after they and his older brother Rhys had moved to England.
Their mother was very removed from Rowan when he was born and would even make comments about wishing he hadn't had him at times, but no one thought much of it due to her experiencing a brief postnatal depression after Rhys' birth, although admittedly less severe. After multiple years however, Brihanna's avoidance didn't waver like with Rhys, but instead drastically increased, which caused Kaymar to become suspicious and begin looking into it after she refused to even acknowledge it.
Kaymar found out that the reason why she was so on edge was because she had repeatedly cheated on him during their relationship, both before Rhys' birth and after Rowan's and she feared that Rowan wasn't Kaymar's son and by proxy was also worrying about Rhys' father not being him either. This exposé caused a massive strain in the family for all 4 members, with Rhys and Rowan taking it the hardest. Brihanna's alcohol abuse worsened and Kaymar's dissociation became worse, causing Rhys to have to take care of Rowan most of the time, Rhys wanting to return to the family's prior happiness but also now questioning if that was even his family in the first place and Rowan was now developing problems due to having problems with both of his parents, having no contact with family other than them and his brother and struggling a lot in school due to him developing behavioural problems.
During Rowan's childhood, his mother was extremely neglectful and abusive towards him, both physically and (more so) emotionally. She would actively avoid him and would gladly make it clear that she hated him if he ever even went near her, constantly insulting him and often pushing him away and telling him that his birth ruined the three's lives, even telling him that he should kill himself on multiple occasions. His father wasn't much better, although not necessarily abusive, Kaymar would either dissociate most of the time and be too out of it to help or he'd not stick up for him while it was happening due to not wanting to also endure the same abuse, usually trying to make it up to him afterwards, much to Rowan's annoyance. Due to this stressed relationship with his parents, he developed Complex Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder which, due to his mother believing metal health issues are a sign of weakness and his father not wanting to accept the fact that he partly caused it, were never treated, causing him extreme problems down the road.
Due to this increased stress at home, Rhys developed his own alcohol addiction as he grew older, causing him to become a party animal who would go to literally any event he found out about, desperate to feel some sort of happiness. When he got older, he started taking Rowan with him, due to not wanting him to be at home alone with his mum and dad, resulting in them staying out late with random people living in the neighbourhood. This is where he would meet Dexter and George and these three would start to constantly go to various parties and events together, even without Rhys. Dexter was new to the area, moving there in 2013, and he and Rowan would be invited to a sleepover at a classmates house as a way for Dexter to break the ice. At this party, they would take part in a game of spin the bottle and when Dexter spun it, it landed on Rowan, with Dexter, after a little pear pressure, jokingly pecking him on the cheek. 
Although meaning nothing to Dexter, this caused Rowan to question a lot about himself. His mother was extremely homophobic and after she found out Rhys is bisexual, she deemed Rowan being CisHet his only redeeming quality. Dexter's joke caused Rowan to develop a massive crush on him which he was extremely self-conscious about and would constantly fret over. He was desperate to cling onto his mothers only praise of him but couldn't help but enjoy the attention Dexter gave him, the only positive attention he had ever got from someone other than his brother, who he could help but feel was doing it only out of obligation. 
One day, Rhys went to a house party a classmate threw at their house for their year exclusively. This is where he met a girl called Enya, who he immediately hit it off with. Rhys helped her with her vaping addiction so when Rhys' alcohol addiction worsened, Enya was there to help him though it. Due to this, the two developed an extremely close bond and became partners. Rhys confided in her about the situation at home and Enya would occasionally let Rhys and Rowan stay with her.
On one occasion, just after Rowan's 10th birthday, Rhys had a massive hangover and was laying in bed when Rowan had come back from school asking if he could have some food. Rhys told him to go downstairs and make himself some toast and he'd be down in a minute. Rowan did as he was told and went down to the kitchen to find his mother, cutting up some spicy meat to have with her food. Rowan moved the stool so he could reach the bread and his mother asked him what he was doing, to which Rowan replied saying that Rhys told him to make some toast. This caused her to go on a lengthy rant about how ungrateful Rowan was for listening to Rhys and to remember that she was his parent, not Rhys. Rowan replied to this saying that Rhys was a better parent then her and that she was a useless mother. His mother then pointed the knife she was holding at him, asking him to repeat what he just said and Rowan, having undiagnosed autism at the time, didn't understand that she didn't want him to actually repeat it and repeated it. This angered her so much that she slashed Rowan's face with the knife, threatening to do more if he "talked back" to her again. 
Rhys, hearing the commotion, came downstairs and looked at his mother and brother horrified. He tried to help Rowan but he was so shaken up that he refused to let Rhys touch him, scared he would also hurt him. This caused the two to get in a screaming match while Rowan desperately tried to stop the blood pouring out of his face. Their mother kicked them out and went upstairs to bed, saying she wanted them gone by the time she woke up, leaving the two in a state of shock. Rhys noticed Rowan trying to reach the medkit and got it down for him, the simple act convincing Rowan to let Rhys bandage him up. He felt guilty for getting Rhys kicked out and apologized to him, to which Rhys assured him that it wasn't his fault and that he was going to make sure he was okay. He packed up all their things and stole some money from his mum before taking Rowan to A&E.
He got a female doctor at first but he freaked out so much that they ended up having to get him a male doctor instead. After the switch, he was more crying then panicking and the doctor started asking Rhys questions about what happened. While Rhys did tell him what happened, he didn't say who did it which made him suspicious. When the doctor starting asking Rhys why he wasn't saying who did it, Rowan told him that his mum did it and when asking if true, Rhys confessed that he was scared to say it because he didn't want his mum to have a reason to keep harassing them after they left. The doctor explained to the two that if Rhys wanted custody of Rowan like he planned, having a documented case of domestic violence would help a lot and convinced the two to report it. They did and after some questioning both stayed at Enya's for the rest of the week, awaiting a house viewing the next week anyways.
In April 2017, Rhys moved out with Enya, taking Rowan with them and getting custody of him.
====Post-Moveout (2017-2032)====
Rowans insecurity over his orientation was only exacerbated when Dexter would introduce him to Ren just before they had a falling out with George. Ren would replace George in the trio and due to Ren being extremely protective and overly caring of the two, it caused Rowan to develop feelings for him too, causing him to not only worry over who he was attracted to, but also how many people he was attracted to. Soon, he'd find out that Ren had a crush on Dexter and insisted on helping him get with him. He hoped that by matchmaking the two together, the fact that they where already taken would make his feelings go away. 
After the 3 years it took Ren and Dexter to officially get together, he was exited to finally have his feelings leave, only for no such thing to happen, instead now having more feelings for the two, due to know knowing them for longer. This caused Rowan to develop a very on-and-off friendship with the two. He'd obsessively spend time with them before ghosting them out of guilt and shame, doing this repeatedly for a straight 3 years before finally confessing to Dexter (Now called Grim) in an emotional vent, the first time Rowan had ever vented to anyone. Grim was horrified to find out that he kept such a secret for the shocking 10 years he did, especially since Grim and Ren also had feelings for him but ignored them due to thinking he was straight. He went to Ren asking for advice and Ren in response was equally as upset, confessing to the fact that Rowan matchmade them together and now realising why he did. The two decided to try and cheer him up by spending more time with him, but Rowan immediately noticed that the two where acting off and questioned Grim, asking if he told Ren. Grim confessed and feeling betrayed Rowan started an argument with him about it, causing Grim to storm off.
Rowan knew that this was just an example of his impulsive self-sabotage and urged Ren to leave with him but Ren denied the offer. He instead spoke to him about how he also has trust issues and that he understood what he was going through and after a long heart to heart, Ren urged Rowan to do what he wanted to do and not what others wanted him to, causing him to apologize to Grim and from then on, the 3 became a polygamous couple, even if Rowan was still his usual on-and-off self.
After Grim's parents split up, her relationship with her mother dramatically soured due to her mother taking her anger out on her and Grim not being scared to argue back. The two would get in fights everyday, not only verbally but physically and mentally too, and Felix had no choice but to sit and watch it all, any efforts to prevent conflict was fruitless from both Felix and Grim and Felix in particular was scared to pick a side in their arguments and it would make things worse so he was scared to say anything else. George (Felix's boyfriend) and Ren and Rowan knew about this and where trying to help the two, but things where getting worse rapidly, with Felix having to witness Grim experiencing multiple phycological breaks and even a murder attempt on her life and it would result in Grim getting kicked out the day after her 16th birthday. She immediately told Ren and Rowan and assured them she had somewhere to stay the night and the three tried to sort something out for her, with help from her father and Rhys. It was decided that she'd stay with Rowan and Rhys until Ren sorted out the place he was already moving into, when Grim would move in with him.
Felix had seen her leave the house multiple times before after an argument but when she didn't come back, even the day after, he started panicking and tried contacting her to no avail. Luckily, Felix had Rowan's contact and had met up with him. Rowan assured him that Grim was fine and that their father, as well as Rowan's bother, where trying to sort something out for her and that his mother did actually kick her out, not just threatened to. The two had a very nice discussion and it turned into the two venting to one another and getting high together, resulting it the two becoming quite close and meeting up becoming a regular occurrence between the two.
Progressively, over the next few years, Felix and George's relationship would get more and more toxic, mainly with George becoming outright controlling and manipulative, using Felix's paranoia and delusions against him. As Felix's mental health worsened and his human interaction got more and more rare, Rowan expressed his concerns to him and urged him to get away from George. Felix couldn't believe what he was saying and, in denial, got in a massive argument with Rowan, defending him and urging Rowan he wouldn't do anything like that while Rowan explained, admittedly quite aggressively, that George wasn't someone to be trusted. The two stopped hanging out due to this argument and it ending up with Felix being completely isolated from anyone other than George, who was purposely making his mental health worse to try and make him completely dependent on him. Rowan and Felix would meet up every now and then due to him being a drug dealer at the time and Rowan would still try and check up on him, even if not for his concern but Grim's, but Felix didn't want to talk to him about it.
Not only were Rowan, Ren and Dexter (now called Grim) a trio in their social life and love life but also in their work life. Rowan started doing occasional jobs for the DPC, mainly around damage control, giving him an average income to work with and since all 3 of them worked there, their superiors would usually let them work together on the same cases, Grim prepping the victim for the murder, Ren doing the murder and Rowan cleaning and covering it up. Obviously, the 3 were very close but on 31st December 2032, the two would die and it was Rowan's job to clean up the crime scene. He didn't mind it at first, thinking it's better he does it then someone who wouldn't be as respectful, but the image of their corpses would linger in his mind and over time the memory of it would torment him more and more. These flashbacks usually happened if something reminded him of them or someone brought them up and Rowans reaction could range from brief dissociation to full-blown panic attacks.
====Pre-Death (2017-2037)====
In the coming years, people would notice how differently he was acting and the DPC would finally do some mental health evaluations on him, diagnosing him with ASPD, DDD, RAD and CPTSD. In 2029, he would meet a woman called Aisha and the two would start getting to know each other, bonding over the fact that they're both DPC employees and had similar personalities. They started living together as roommates and 14 months later they would end up in a open sexual situationship. 
Rowan was desperate to move on from Grim and Ren, not wanting to accept that he was traumatised by their death's and hoped that getting with Aisha would fulfil that, but again, it didn't work. Now panicking, realising how much the two meant to him, he spiralled and began a destructive cycle of mental illness, substance abuse, one-night-stands, isolation and suicidal ideation. 
After a few weeks of good mental health and no substance abuse, a friend of his called Elena invited him to a party. Not able to resist the sight of drinks there, a single drink became multiple and that combined with the weeks of not drinking ended up with him being black-out drunk by the end of the night. Elena was watching him but briefly got up to go to the toilet and when she came back he wasn't where she left him. After looking around for him with a friend of hers, the two found him in bed with a girl who was obviously sober. Elena dealt with the woman while her friend delt with Rowan, watching him while putting in efforts to try and sober him up and after a few hours he fully sobered up and found out what happened. 
He assured the two girls he was fine and made his way home, trying to pretend nothing happened, but like the other problems in his life, he couldn't forget it and spiralled more then he ever had, this time not even telling Rhys what happened and ghosting the two girls out of fear of what they thought of him after it, blaming himself for what happened. Occasionally, when Grim and Ren would pay him visits, they would notice the difference in him, even though Rowan would try his best to hide it and eventually, he'd breakdown in front of Ren after he saw the bloody bandages on his arms. Even after this however, he still refused to tell Ren and Grim what happened and would still refuse help after this. 
He was put in isolation by the DPC after they were made aware of how mentally unstable he really was and Rowan eventually started getting better. After a long time of good mental health and lack of alcohol and drug abuse, he decided to treat himself to a drink on his 30th birthday. He later that night, got into a drunk driving accident that cost him his life. 
====Post-Death (2037-Now)====
Rowan, Grim and Ren quickly reunited in the afterlife and after a bit of drinking together, Rowan finally confessed all of his issues to Grim and Ren, much to their horror. After he sobered up, they urged him to tell them why he didn't tell them what he was going though and instead of panicking and telling the two he lied or whatever, he instead promised to try and be more honest with them, with Ren and Grim vowing to help him in anyway they can. Rowan's drinking has since been under control for the most part, mainly due to Grim and Ren being there to cheer him up or stop him. The only new problem he has is that, due to his struggles with dissociation, his intoxicated-self is a completely different person called Junkie. Both consider the other a different person and outright despises them, doing self destructive things to get back at them (so the other has to deal with the consequences when they switch back). Since dying, he's also been diagnosed with Substance Abuse Disorder and Gynophobia.
===Occupation ===
Rowan's one of the only characters who frequently changes his job.
====Recurring jobs====
=====DPC=====
Rowans main jobs at the DPC are working as a PR manager and as a forensic cleaner. After Ren and Grim's deaths, Rowan was asked to clean the crime scene and due to how traumatized from it, he was put on temporary leave. Its unclear if when his leave ended, he was put back on the list of forensic cleaners.
=====Is Rowan a sex worker?=====
It's been hinted that Rowan was or is a prostitute/rent boy but its never been outright confirmed.
*The first hint is his secondary outfit featuring a green handkerchief in the back-left pocket. A green bandana (worn on the left side of the body specifically) is part of handkerchief code and is used to symbolise that the wearer is a sex workerhttps://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Handkerchief_code#Examples. He also wears this outfit as a teenager and young adult, but it doesn't include the handkerchief in the pocket, until it suddenly appears in "" in which it mentions that Rowan is 20 years old. This means that if Rowan is/was a sex worker, he started when he was around 20 years old.
*The second hint is Thomas telling Grim that Rowan would often sleep with him in exchange for drugs. Although this is considered an "innocent favour" by the two, Rowan was said to be the one who came up with the idea, which he confirms by saying "It wasn't out of character for me to do stuff like that".
*The third hint is when Rowan mentions sleeping with a man while in a psych ward in exchange for food, which when questioned if it was true, Rowan replies saying "I've done stuff like that for a lot worse".
====Temporary jobs====
Its unclear which jobs are Rowans or Jaspers during 2032-2037. He was confirmed to have tried to be a musician during this time but that it didn't go well. Amid these it seems they worked at a a few restaurants.
===Criminal Record=== 
*[Vandalization] Misc graffiti and vandalised the house of someone he had beef with.
*[Public intoxication] Drunken fight, Rowan tried to kill him but it ended in verbal/physical assault, battery, attempted manslaughter and public intoxication charges.
* [Threats to kill] Common.
*[Verbal assault] Common. Drunken fight, Rowan tried to kill him but it ended in verbal/physical assault, battery, attempted manslaughter and public intoxication charges.
*[Robbery] Robbed a store before burning it down.
*[Battery] Drunken fight, Rowan tried to kill him but it ended in verbal/physical assault, battery, attempted manslaughter and public intoxication charges.
*[Physical assault] Drunken fight, Rowan tried to kill him but it ended in verbal/physical assault, battery, attempted manslaughter and public intoxication charges.
*[DUI] Crashed a car while drunk. Killed 3, injured 2 (Including him). Crashed a car while drunk. Killed 1 (Himself).
*[Arson] Robbed a store before burning it down.
*[Perverting the course of justice] Common (Rowan's job is to cover up crimes.)
*[Assisting an offender] Common (Rowan often helps Ren and Grim with their crimes.)
*[Attempted Manslaughter] Drunken fight, Rowan tried to kill him but it ended in verbal/physical assault, battery, attempted manslaughter and public intoxication charges.
*[Manslaughter] Common.
*[Murder] Common.
===Notes=== 
*Rowan doesn't have contact with anyone in his family other than his brother and his brother's girlfriend and has no intention of reaching out to anyone else.
**Despite this, he has spoke to his father and grandfather since he cut contact.
*The reason why Rowans face scar is hypopigmented and not hyperpigmented is because of the spicy meat that his mother was cutting before attacking him. The hot knife was covered in spices meaning that the attack not only cut him, but severely burned him too.https://my.clevelandclinic.org/health/symptoms/23363-hypopigmentation
*Most of Rowan's insecurities come from his mother's abuse: 
**His internalised homophobia and fragile masculinity coming from his mother constantly talking about how she disapproved of Rhys being bisexual and that Rowan being CisHet was his only redeeming quality, causing Rowan to unhealthily fixate on it due to it being the only praise he ever got from her.
**His alcoholism and messy love life comes from her constantly cheating on his father and drinking around him, causing him to think that's how to deal with his problems.
* In addition to Rowan's Gynophobia, he's also scared of men. The only reason why only one gender is considered a phobia and not the other is because his fear of men isn't extreme enough to be considered a phobia, whereas his fear of women is not only a phobia but a severe and extreme scale of it, often shaking and having short breaths over just the idea of being in the same room as one.
**An example of this is best shown with his relationships with Thomas' partners Azazel and Amy. Although intimidated and scared of Azazel at first, he eventually warmed up to him and can hold a decent conversation with him, whereas with Amy, he's so terrified of her that he refuses to talk to her and refuses to even be in the same room as her without Grim or Ren with him, despite them having been siblings-in-law for years now.
***When Rowan's asked why he's so scared of Amy in particular, he says its because she reminds him of people he's met in the past and that "it never ended well" with these people. Whether this actually has anything to do with Amy's appearance, personality, etc or whether he's just referring to the fact that she's a woman isn't ever clarified.
*Rowan is the only main revolt member that doesn't have fangs. This is something he's often teased for by the other members, saying that it makes him look "cute", "innocent" and "harmless" compared to the other members.
**Although it's to a lesser extent, this is something he's teased for outside of the Revolt as well, since the country he lives in (Warosdom) is mainly made up of born-malux citizens.
*Its stated in a miscellaneous doodle on Toyhou.se that Rowan's scared of flying. No reason has been given as to why.
=== References ===
Category:Characters
Category:The National Revolt
Category:Gen Z
Category:Human
Category:Malux
Category:DPC
Category:One Life
Category:ISTP
Category:Aries
Category:Lust
Category:Non-Binary
Category:Black