Impossible- Songfic by Yellow

Hey! This is my first songfic, and it's for the Gift Exchange. So, for DramaDot!
Hope you like it.
Song: Impossible by Shontelle/ James Arthur
(Note- I'm mixing the two songs by different artists)
I remember years ago
I kneeled down, digging my hands into the black dirt. It covered my fingers and got under my nails. I bent forward, letting my tears fall.
Someone told me I should take
I pulled the handful of dirt out, laying it beside me. I dug down again. Again and again. I could barely feel the pounding in my head, no, the pain was all inside me. It was a deep hurt. More than a single person could inflict.
Caution when it comes to love, I did
Kaea. Betrayed.
And you were strong and I was not
Jax. Left.
My illusion, my mistake
Terra... Gone.
I was careless, I forgot, I did
When would the pain leave?
And now
I had forgotten how much it hurt...
To lose someone.
And never see them again.
When all is done, there's nothing to say
All I wanted was for it to be over.
But who would love me then?
You have gone and so effortlessly
Maybe it was better to stay in this world. A world of lies and hurt, but my home. I owe it to Terra.
Swallowed by the earth.
I laugh bitterly, and it comes out as a croak.
So ironic.
You have won, you can go ahead, tell them.
I shoved my hands into the dirt, burying my pain. Drowning it out.
Tell them all I know now
How could they leave me?
Shout it from the rooftops
It's probably a punishment.
Write it on the skyline
For all the things I did and will do.
All we had is gone now
Once I was gone there was no coming back.
Tell them I was happy
Could I really be punished for that?
Was it fair?
And my heart is broken
No. The world isn't fair.
All my scars are open
It never was.
Tell them all I hoped would be impossible
I'm done.
Impossible
With all this.
Impossible
The unfairness. The ruins. The betrayal.
Impossible
To think my heart used to sing a song when Kaea was near.
Hey
To think I looked up to Jax
Falling out of love is hard
To think Terra was gone.
Falling for betrayal is worse
To think
Broken trust and broken hearts
That I used to believe
I know, I know
We would be okay.
And thinking all you need is there
We never were.
Building faith on love and words
My hands are sunk in the dirt, and I yank them out and walk away. I look up at my house, dark and foreboding in the dim light of dusk.
Empty promises will wear
I don't want to go back. My father would be waiting.
I know
Cane in hand.
I know and now
Rage in heart. 
When all is done, there is nothing to say
I keep walking. Out the gate.
And if your done with embarrassing me
I look up, casting a glance at my bedroom window.
On your own, you can go ahead, tell them
It's him. My father. In my window, face unnaturally calm and serene.
Tell them all I know now
Shout it from the rooftop
Write it on the skyline
All I had is gone now
He looks...
Tell them I was happyAnd my heart is brokenAll my scars are openTell them what I hoped would beImpossible, impossibleImpossible, impossibleImpossible, impossible
Happy to be rid of me.
Just like I'm happy to be rid of him.
I remember years agoSomeone told me I should takeCaution when it comes to loveI did
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