Removed and Restrained

How? How have I succeeding in making myself so
Removed
and 
Restrained?
How have I managed to create such a thick barrier
That you cannot even look at me?
Am I that...
...Repelling?
And strange?
I have created a certain gap,
A certain hole,
And I suppose it is no different from an addiction;
I am empty without something, but
What is that something that should be
Filling
Me up? 
I am numb
and
Reactionless
But, 
Why?
You can sit here and blather on of your woes
Of the sins of the world
Of the tragedies and casualties of war
And I will not shed a single tear
As sad as I might seem.
Why is this so?
Why have I 
Removed myself from this society of feeling and
Restrained myself from emotion?
Why have I removed that strange
Pounding,
Pumping,
Bleeding,
Burning,
Stopping,
Starting,
Thing
Called my
Heart?
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