Bittersweet Dilemma

Bitersweet Dilemma is a song considered as Kaname Reina's character song.
== Lyrics ==
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(Selfless or Selfish~)
(Selfless or Selfish~)
(Selfless or Selfish~)
 
Karera wo taisetsu ni shite iru
Kokoro kara karera wo aishi teru
Chotto ou sugiru kamo shirenaide mo
Karera wa watashi ga motte iru subete yo
 
Kodomo no koro,
Watashi wa itsumo gimon ni omotte ita,
Doushite jinsei wa kore hodo fukouheina nodeshou ka?
Doushite shakai wa kore hodo made ni mujihina nodeshou ka?
 
Korera no shitsumon ni taisuru kotae wa he rarenakattadakara,
Nani ga okoroutomo,
Itsumo karera no tame ni koko ni iru to kimeta 
Sore ga dekiru yuiitsu no kotodattakara
(The only thing)
 
Bittersweet Dilemma
Momo to onaji kurai suppai
Karera ga anzende shiawasedearu koto,
Sore ga watashi ga motomeru subete
Demo ne, watashi mo chansu wo tameshite mitai to omottara dou suru ka?
 
Sore wa watashi wo warui hito ni shite shimau nodeshou ka?
Jibun no sentaku wo koukai suru koto wa arudeshou ka?
Kekkyokunotokoro, jinsei wa yosoku fukanoudearu koto ga
Watashi ga koko ni tatte iru riyuu da yo
Doushitara ii no ka na?
 
(Selfless or Selfish~)
(Selfless or Selfish~)
(Selfless or Selfish~)
 
Karera wo sonkei suru
Karera no yuuki wo shin kara sonkei suru
Chotto ou sugiru kamo shirenaide mo
Karera wa watashi no yuiitsu no hikari yo
Modokashii, KAADOGEEMUDE wa,
Nani wo subeki ka itsumo wakatte iru
Tsuneni yuurina SUTAATO wo kiru koto ga dekiru
Kiken'na koto wo suru no wa kowakunai
Aite no tsugi no ugoki wo kyuu juu kyuu-PAASENTO no seido de yosoku dekirude mo
 
Konkai wa mahi shite iru,
Nazenara watashi ga chokumen shinakereba naranai no wa michi no aitede wanaikarada
Sore wa watakushijishin yo
Soshite jibunjishin'no unmei igai ni kakerubeki mono wa nanimonai
(Game Over)
 
Sweetbitter Dilemma
HAROUKITI to onaji kurai amai
Sore wa kodomo ni ryoushin no dochira ka
Ippou dake wo erabu you ni motomeru youna monodesu
 
Katsute darekaga watashi ni kou iita: `Hito wa umarenagara ni shite byoudoude wanai'
`Hito wa honrai, yousha ga nai mono'
`Hito wa jibun no rieki no tame dake ni koudou suru'
`Shikashi, sore nimokakawarazu, ningen wa jibun no mawari de yoikoto wo suru koto ga dekiru'
Jaa, ichido jibun no `ii musume' IMEEJI wo uchiyaburitai to omottara dousureba iideshou ka?
Riko-teki ni naru koto wo sentaku shita baai wa dou naru?
(Selfless or Selfish~)
(Selfless or Selfish~)
(Selfless or Selfish~)
 
Soko ni wa, watashi no kawari ni naru tame ni
Nani demo suru kachinoaru shoujo ga takusan iru
 
Tatoe karera ga watashi wo oshiyoseta to shite mo,
Yume wo matte wa kurenai
Zenryoku de oikakenaito ikenai
Sore demo chuucho shite furikaeru shika nai
Sore wa watashi wo hikyou-sha ni shite shimau nodeshou ka?
Karera wa rikai shite kurerudeshou ka?
Sono koto de karera wa watashi wo uramudeshou ka?
Dareka no omoi wo kizutsukezu ni jibun no ganbou wo tassei suru koto wa kanoudeshou ka?
Soretomo tada rifujin'na dakena nodeshou ka?
 
Aa, utsukushiku kagayaku mayonakanotsuki yo
Watashi wo michibiku kawari ni,
Aware de DORAMA no youna nayami wo chousou shite iru
Totemo oukikute, kagayaite ite,
Chotto urayamashii
Datte… mo kagayakitai!
 
Tsuneni jibun no kachikan ni shitagatte ikiyou to tsutomete kita:
Shoujiki-sa, chuusei kokoro, soshite kouhei-sakedo ne,
Hitobito wo dochira ni seyo handan surudeshoushi,
Sekai jitai ga fukanzendearu koto wo kangaeru to,
Kekkyoku, kanpekidearou to suru koto ni imi ga aru nodeshou ka?
 
Jaa, mubouna koudou wo shite mo iidesu ka?
Watashi mo bouken kibun wo ajiwatte mite mo iideshou ka?
 
Shippai shite mo kekka ga warukatta to shite mo kowakunai yo
Sukunakutomo nanika wo keiken shitadaroukara
Watashi ga karera wo SAPOOTO shita no to onajiyouni,
Karera mo tonikaku watashi wo SAPOOTO surudeshou
(Always together in my heart)
 
Bittersweet Dilemma
Momo to onaji kurai suppai
Karera ga anzende shiawasedearu koto,
Sore ga watashi ga motomeru subete
Demo ne, watashi mo chansu wo tameshite mitai to omottara dou suru ka?
 
Sore wa watashi wo warui hito ni shite shimau nodeshou ka?
Jibun no sentaku wo koukai suru koto wa arudeshou ka?
Kekkyokunotokoro, jinsei wa yosoku fukanoudearu koto ga
Watashi ga koko ni tatte iru riyuu da yo
 
Karera no okage de koko ni iru
Ima demo karera wo kokorokara aishiteru
Sore de juubunda, ima juuyouna no wa sore dakedakara shitagatte,
Shitsumon ni wa mou kotaeru hitsuyou wa nai wa
 
(Selfless or Selfish~)
(Selfless or Selfish~)
(Hey, can I be selfish too?)
|-|Japanese=
(Selfless or Selfish~)
(Selfless or Selfish~)
(Selfless or Selfish~)
 
彼らを大切にしている
心から彼らを愛してる
ちょっと多すぎるかもしれない
でも彼らは私が持っているすべてよ
 
子供の頃、
私はいつも疑問に思っていた,
どうして人生はこれほど不公平なのでしょうか？
どうして社会はこれほどまでに無慈悲なのでしょうか？
 
これらの質問に対する答えは得られなかった
だから、何が起ころうとも、
いつも彼らのためにここにいると決めた
それができる唯一のことだったから
(The only thing)
 
Bittersweet Dilemma
桃と同じくらい酸っぱい
彼らが安全で幸せであること、
それが私が求めるすべて
でもね、私もチャンスを試してみたいと思ったらどうするか？
 
それは私を悪い人にしてしまうのでしょうか？
自分の選択を後悔することはあるでしょうか？
結局のところ、人生は予測不可能であることが
私がここに立っている理由だよ
どうしたらいいのかな？
 
(Selfless or Selfish~)
(Selfless or Selfish~)
(Selfless or Selfish~)
 
彼らを尊敬する
彼らの勇気をしんから尊敬する
ちょっと多すぎるかもしれない
でもそれらは私の唯一の光よ
 
もどかしい、カードゲームでは、
何をすべきかいつもわかっている
常に有利なスタートを切ることができる
危険なことをするのは怖くない
相手の次の動きを 九十九%の精度で予測できる
 
でも今回は麻痺している、
なぜなら私が直面しなければならないのは未知の相手ではないからだ
それは私自身よ 
そして自分自身の運命以外に賭けるべきものは何もない
(Game Over)
 
Sweetbitter Dilemma
ハローキティと同じくらい甘い
それは子供に両親のどちらか一方だけを選ぶように求めるようなものです
 
かつて誰かが私にこう言いた：「人は生まれながらにして平等ではない」
「人は本来、容赦がないもの」
「人は自分の利益のためだけに行動する」
「しかし、それにもかかわらず、人間は自分の周りで良いことをすることができる」
 
じゃあ、一度自分の「いい娘」イメージを打ち破りたいと思ったらどうすればいいでしょうか？
利己的になることを選択した場合はどうなる?
 
(Selfless or Selfish~)
(Selfless or Selfish~)
(Selfless or Selfish~)
 
そこには、私の代わりになるために何でもする価値のある少女がたくさんいる
 
たとえ彼らが私を押し寄せたとしても、
夢を待ってはくれない
全力で追いかけないといけない
それでも躊躇して振り返るしかない
 
それは私を卑怯者にしてしまうのでしょうか？
彼らは理解してくれるでしょうか？
そのことで彼らは私を恨むでしょうか？
誰かの思いを傷つけずに自分の願望を達成することは可能でしょうか？
それともただ理不尽なだけなのでしょうか？
 
ああ、美しく輝く真夜中の月よ
私を導く代わりに、
哀れでドラマのような悩みを嘲笑している
とても大きくて輝いていて、
ちょっとうらやましい
だって…
も輝きたい！
 
常に自分の価値観に従って生きようと努めてきた：
正直さ、忠誠心、そして公平さ
けどね 、人々をどちらにせよ判断するでしょうし、
世界自体が不完全であることを考えると、
結局 、完璧であろうとすることに意味があるのでしょうか？
 
じゃあ、無謀な行動をしてもいいですか？
私も冒険気分を味わってみてもいいでしょうか？
 
失敗しても 結果が悪かったとしても 怖くないよ
少なくとも何かを経験しただろうから
私が彼らをサポートしたのと同じように、
彼らもとにかく私をサポートするでしょう
(Always together in my heart)
 
Bittersweet Dilemma
桃と同じくらい酸っぱい
彼らが安全で幸せであること、
それが私が求めるすべて
でもね、私もチャンスを試してみたいと思ったらどうするか？
 
それは私を悪い人にしてしまうのでしょうか？
自分の選択を後悔することはあるでしょうか？
結局のところ、人生は予測不可能であることが
私がここに立っている理由だよ 
 
彼らのおかげでここにいる
今でも彼らを心から愛してる
それで十分だ、
今重要なのはそれだけだから
したがって、質問にはもう答える必要はないわ
 
(Selfless or Selfish~)
(Selfless or Selfish~)
(Hey, can I be selfish too?)
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(Selfless or Selfish~)
(Selfess or Selfish~)
(Selfess or Selfish~)
 
I cherish them
I love them with all my heart
Maybe a bit too much
But they are all I have
 
As a child,
I was always wondering
How could life be so unfair ?
How could society be so ruthless ?
 
I never got any answers
To these questions
So, I decided
No matter what was going to happen
I'll always be here for them
For that is the only thing I could do
(The only thing)
Bittersweet Dilemma
As sour as a peach
Them being safe and happy
That's all I ask for
But what if I, too, want to try my chance ?
 
Does that make me a bad person?
Will I ever regret the choice I will make?
After all, life being unpredictable
Is the reason why I'm standing here
What should I do?
 
(Selfless or Selfish~)
(Selfless or Selfish~)
(Selfless or Selfish~)
 
I admire them
I look up to their courage with all my soul
Maybe a bit too much
But they are my only light
How frustrating,
When it comes to card games,
I always know what to do
I always have a head start
I'm not afraid to do something risky
I can predict my opponent's next move
With 99% accuracy
But this time I'm paralyzed
Because it's not some unknown opponent that I have to face
It's myself
And there is nothing else to bet
Than my own destiny
(Game Over)
 
Sweetbitter dilemma
As sugary as Hello Kitty
It's like asking a child
To choose only one of their parents
Somebody once told me,
People aren't born equal
People are naturally unforgiving
People act only in their own interest
But regardless of that, they can still do good around them
So, what if I want to break my "good girl" image for once?
What if I choose to be selfish ?
(Selfless or Selfish~)
(Selfless or Selfish~)
(Selfless or Selfish~)
Out there, there are so many deserving girls
Who would give anything to take my place
Even though they pushed me towards them
My dreams won't wait for me
I must chase them with all my might
Yet, I can't help but hesitate and look back
Does that make me a coward?
Will they understand?
Will they resent me for that?
Is it possible to reach my aspirations 
Without hurting someone's feelings?
Or am I being unreasonable?
Oh, bright beautiful moon of midnight,
Instead of guiding me
She's mocking my pathetic, drama-like concerns
She's so big and shiny
That I'm a little jealous
Because you know...
I want to shine too!
 
I have always tried to live according to my values:
Honesty, Loyalty and Fairness
But, since people are going to judge you either way
And that the world itself is imperfect 
In the end, is there even a point in trying to be perfect?
Then, is it fine if I act recklessly ?
Is it right if I want to try and taste adventure, too?
 
If it's a mistake,
If the outcome is bad,
I’m not scared
Because at least I would have experienced something
They will support me anyway
As I (would) have supported them
(Always together in my heart)
 
Bittersweet Dilemma
As sour as a peach
Them being safe and happy
That's all I ask for
But what if I, too, want to have my chance ?
 
Does that make me a bad person?
Will I ever regret the choice I will make?
After all, life being unpredictable
Is the reason why I'm standing here
It's thanks to them I'm here
I still love them dearly
And I know they know that
That's enough for me
For that's all that matters right now
Therefore, I don’t need answers to my questions anymore
 
(Selfless or Selfish~)
(Selfless or Selfish~)
(Hey, can I be selfish too?)
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==MV Synopsis==
The MV begins with Reina washing the dishes in the kitchen of a dilapidated and cheap-looking little house. She gently hums the melody of the song. In front of her, there is an open window overlooking a kind of yard, and the viewer can hear the cheerful voices of children playing. After washing the last plate, Reina raises her head and looks out the window, smiles warmly when she sees the children, and begins to sing the first verse. Then she turns around and leans on the sink. Her smile becomes bitter and she sighs slightly as she begins to sing the second verse. However, when she sings the third verse, she also starts to walk towards the camera with a serious look.
The screen suddenly turns black, then lights up on Reina dressed in a peach, cute cocktail dress, dancing and singing the refrain in a strange stage where mirrors replace the audience, and all reflect her. She tries to perform as well as she can, but her steps are still quite clumsy because she seems to be unable to stop thinking and being upset/concerned about something (her mind is elsewhere and she's not that focused). As she sings "Does that make me a bad person ?", she jumps out of the stage and takes one of the mirrors to look at herself, but the mirror reflects a Reina with a snide smirk, and then a crying Reina. Reina drops the mirror out of surprise, and it shatters on the floor.
We find Reina again in the dilapidated house, but instead of being in the kitchen, she is in a tiny bedroom, which is apparently hers. She puts on a strangely racy fuchsia evening dress, heels, a necklace with a (fake) pyrope and proceeds to put on makeup in front of a makeshift dressing table, putting a particular bright red lipstick similar to Femme Fatale's, but her face displays an uncertain and apprehensive expression. While doing so, she looks at the wall, where, presumably, a 00 poster is hanging that cannot be seen because of the position of the camera.
A blinding light gradually illuminates the screen, and Reina is shown playing poker on a table in a busy bar or casino, wearing the spicy outfit she put on earlier. The camera is placed from the point of view of the opponent, so the viewer feels like they are Reina's opponent. For a moment, Reina's face shows nothing but a confident smile and a perfectly controlled Poker Face. But all of sudden, she stops moving her cards, having visibly seen something that shocked her. The camera shows what shocked her: her opponent is a clone of her! Her clone smirks darkly and shows the 3 cards she was hiding, on which there are chibi Reinas dressed like Jokers, meaning that Reina lost the game. However, Reina suddenly pushes her clone, making her vanish and goes up on the table to sing the refrain. She outright bends in a somewhat provocative way to sing the last two lines, looking right at the camera.
The screen switches, and we are once again in her bedroom, the night has fallen and the only thing that illuminates the room is the moonlight. Reina is wearing a white nightgown and lying on a damaged mattress that is apparently her bed, seeming in the midst of an existential crisis. Her makeup is smeared on. She turns several times, sighs and looks thoughtfully for a moment at the spicy fuchsia evening dress she wore earlier that is now laying on the floor, and then grabs a portrait frame (likely a picture of her family) at which she smiles slightly. Then, slowly, she gets up and walks to the open window, gazing at the moon solemnly. She reaches out her hand as if she wants to touch/reach it but brings it back close to her heart and displays a pouting expression.
Back in the weird stage, where Reina dances as best she can, but makes a misstep and falls, her microphone hitting the ground with a terrible noise. Instead of the mirrors, there are now people glaring at Reina with disdainful and stern looks. She stops singing and looks downhearted for a few seconds, but she suddenly seems to think of something that makes her smile.
She takes a deep breath, picks up her mic and starts singing with more confidence while getting up to perform much better than before, dancing with much more pep and boldness and no more hesitation in her movements. Her mind does not wander anymore, and she is completely in the present moment. She gives her all, causing her kirara to appear and shine brightly alongside her. The audience seems caught off guard for a few moments, but they soon begin to cheer for her.
After she sings the last lyrics of the final refrain, the viewer can hear applause from the previously dissatisfied spectators, and moonflowers twirl on stage. Reina bows briefly, turns around and walks towards the camera without any doubt left in her eyes and a radiant and determined smile, murmuring the last lines of the song. The MV ends.
==Trivia==
Category:Fukouda-san
Category:Songs by Fukouda-san
Category:Songs
Category:Solo Songs
Category:Character Songs
Category:New Songs
Category:Kaname Reina