Nightshade (Lynx1215)

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Nightshade - they/them - casually lurking in the shadows
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== Appearance ==
On one talon, why do you need to know what I look like?
On the second talon, though, I don't understand why you've come here.
I have a third point, but I don't have three talons. Just two, normal talons. They are all purple. Well, most of my scales are dark purple. Probably because I'm half NightWing. There are a few light scales here and there, but you can't really see them. I'm really proud of my underbelly, because that's dark grey, or as I like to say, black. They're the part of me that seems less cheerful, because purple is close to pink. And I don't like the color pink. 
I've never seen my eyes before. I can't see clearly when I look into my reflection. All I know is that they are a pale colour, and other dragons flinch at them when they see them. They try to hide their flinches and winces, but even though I'm half blind, I can see these kind of things. There's no point hiding- you mind as well start vomiting in front of my face.
My whole body is not purple, thankfully. My wings have a bit of dark blue, too. I can't really make it out because of my eyesight, but I know the colour is there.
I can't see my talons unless I bring them up to my face, but I know they are sharp. I can feel them and the scars they made all over my body. I try to hide the scars with my pouches and pouches of poisonous creatures, but I can feel the stares of other dragons as they stare at me, stare at my scars, at my scales, at me.
I got used to the stares now.
Stare all you want, I don't care anymore.
== Personality ==
It's weird, describing yourself. It feels like I'm writing a stupid autobiography. Or is it just biography? Ha, why do I care anyway?
I guess most dragons describe me as sarcastic. Or poisonous. Ha ha, real funny. Trust them to make stupid puns behind my back.
I guess I can be poisonous. The clue is in the name, really. I like sitting in the shadows, hiding from everyone. It's not like I'm scared of them, though. I just don't like socialising and talking to dragons. You can call me emo if you want, I don't care.
I rarely find happiness nowadays. Dragons I've met suggested visiting a therapist. I nearly clawed their eyes out, but I restrain myself. I don't want a trip to the asylum, not again.
Trust me, I've tried the therapist. But all they talk about is 'letting your emotions out', and 'talk to dragons that are close to you' and 'socialise more'. All that stupid, stupid talk. I guess if I was not different, I would have followed those instructions. But I'm not. I'm not the same. I'm broken.
You can try and persuade me and say 'you're not broken', blah blah blah. Of course I'm broken. I was broken the day I started breathing. Nothing can fix me now. I've completely shattered, and there's no going back, there's no solution, no glue that can keep me together.
Not anymore.
There's another reason why I hide in the shadows, I guess. Maybe... Maybe it's because I'm scared of myself. There's no need for other dragonets to experience what happened to me. I'm one of a kind, and I'm not extremely proud of that.
Every night, I crawl into a corner on the street. I have no home, not anymore. I wrap myself in my own wings and I sometimes cry to myself.
And what do I say to myself?
I say, "Why me?"
== Backstory/History ==
I don't need to tell you about the nightmares I witnessed when I was younger.
Maybe the therapists was right.
Maybe I should tell dragons my story someday.
But I'm not ready now.
Not yet.
== Gallery==
Screenshot 2020-06-23 at 17.56.26.png|Ref by Peregrinecella, colouring by Sab!
Nightshade by blackraspberrychip.jpg|Nightshade by blackraspberrychip!
Screenshot 2020-06-29 at 14.30.56.png|Nightshade by MoonlightFantasy!
Screenshot 2020-07-18 at 13.20.59.png|Nightshade by Nectarinne!
Sundew73 Nightshade.png|Another version of Nightshade by Sundew73!
LeafWingQueen Nightshade.png|Another version of Nightshade by LeafWingQueen!
Nigtshade by Sab.png|Nightshade by Sab!
Screenshot 2020-06-23 at 17.35.35-0.png|Nightshade by me!
Category:Work in Progress
Category:Characters
Category:LeafWings
Category:Dragonets
Category:Hybrids
Category:NightWings
Category:Subtype (Leafspeak)