NottCawthena

“I'm nothing special, honestly. I just make content because I enjoy making it! If some people gather to see more, all the more power to me I guess!”
― NottCawthena, Interview
NottCawthon, who also goes by the aliases NottaSaint and NottCawthena, manages a wiki under her name, which serves as a platform to showcase her creativity and original content. On this wiki, she shares detailed information about her original characters (OCs), various works, and other projects that are similar in nature.
This online space allows her to document and share her creative journey with a broader audience, providing insights into her thought processes, inspirations, and the development of her ideas. By maintaining this wiki, NottCawthon not only organizes her work and ideas but also fosters a sense of community among those who share her interests and appreciate her talents. Through her wiki, NottCawthon invites others to explore her creative world and engage with her original content.
== Appearance ==
NottCawthena's physical appearance remains a mystery to most, as she chooses to share it with only a select few individuals. However, she has a well-defined persona that she uses to represent herself in the digital world. Her persona, or 'sona,' features a distinctive and recognizable look that reflects her unique identity and style.
NottCawthena's sona is described as wearing a white wifebeater T-shirt and black denim pants, accessorized with two wristbands. One of the most striking features of her sona is the large headphones that cover her lush, short, and plushy puffy hair. The hair is typically slicked to either the left or right side, with a long ponytail that cascades gracefully down her shoulders and back.
This persona not only allows NottCawthena to maintain her privacy but also gives her a recognizable and memorable presence within her online communities. It serves as a creative expression of her identity, reflecting her interests and personal style while still allowing her to engage with others and share her talents.
== Personality ==
NottCawthena's personality is a rich tapestry of traits, values, and emotions that make her a unique and engaging individual. Her character can be described using several key aspects, which shape her interactions with others and her approach to life.
Creativity: NottCawthena's innate creativity is evident in her diverse interests and talents. As a jack-of-all-trades, she has honed her skills in animation, composition, coding, writing, voice acting, and art. This creative drive permeates her life and allows her to express herself in various ways, contributing to her distinctive identity.
Modesty: Despite her above-average abilities, NottCawthena is humble about her accomplishments. She tends to downplay her achievements and may doubt her own capabilities. This modesty can make her seem reserved, but it also reflects her genuine nature and a lack of pretense.
Friendliness: NottCawthena is an approachable and open-minded individual, eager to engage in meaningful conversations and build connections with others. Her friendly demeanor and willingness to listen make her an inviting presence in social settings, both online and offline.
Empathy: Compassion and empathy are cornerstones of NottCawthena's personality. She strives for equity and fairness, valuing good morals and beliefs. Although she is generally selfless, she knows when to prioritize her own well-being and recognizes that self-care is essential.
Resilience: Living with ADHD, clinical depression, and untreated relationship trauma, NottCawthena has faced numerous challenges throughout her life. However, her resilience and determination have allowed her to continue pursuing her passions and seeking connection with others, despite these obstacles.
Cautiousness: NottCawthena's past experiences have made her cautious in forming romantic connections. This guardedness can manifest as coldness or distance when faced with potential romantic advances, but it stems from a desire to protect herself from further emotional pain.
Passion: Her diverse range of interests, including Friday Night Funkin', Madness Combat, anime, Undertale, Deltarune, and more, demonstrates her passion and enthusiasm for various forms of entertainment. These interests fuel her creativity and serve as a source of inspiration for her various projects.
In summary, NottCawthena's personality is a complex blend of creativity, modesty, friendliness, empathy, resilience, cautiousness, and passion. These traits shape her interactions with others and her approach to life, making her a unique and engaging individual who continually strives to grow and evolve.
== Biogrophy ==
NottCawthena's biography is a tale of self-discovery, creative exploration, and resilience in the face of adversity. As a 21-year-old biological male who identifies as female, NottCawthena has navigated her life with a careful balance between her true self and the expectations of others. While her online identity allows her to express her true self, she remains cautious in revealing her gender dysphoria to her family, fearing potential disapproval or misunderstanding.
Throughout her life, NottCawthena has pursued various creative outlets, including animation, composition, coding, writing, and art. These interests have shaped her as a multifaceted individual, capable of mastering numerous skills and disciplines. Despite her undeniable talent, she often doubts her abilities and tends to downplay her accomplishments, which may contribute to her being underrated in online communities.
NottCawthena has experienced burnout from her previous involvement in roleplaying, prompting her to step back and focus on other aspects of her life. Nevertheless, she remains a friendly, open-minded, and compassionate individual, often seeking connection and understanding from others. Her patience, however, is not limitless, and she can become frustrated when others fail to listen or acknowledge her feelings.
Living with ADHD, NottCawthena faces challenges in maintaining focus and attention, which can create difficulties in planning and punctuality. This trait often puts her at odds with more structured environments, where organization and adherence to deadlines are essential. Despite these obstacles, she continues to strive for personal growth and self-improvement.
NottCawthena's values and beliefs are grounded in her commitment to equity and fairness for all. As an atheist, she places importance on good morals and ethical conduct rather than religious doctrine. Throughout her life, she has demonstrated empathy and selflessness, although she recognizes the need to prioritize her well-being when necessary.
Her personal life has been marked by challenges, including clinical depression, emotional domestic abuse, and untreated relationship trauma. These experiences have made her cautious in forming romantic connections, often turning distant or cold when confronted with potential romantic advances. Currently, she finds comfort and support in her relationship with internet user CaptainKirby.
NottCawthena has cultivated a diverse range of interests, such as Friday Night Funkin', Madness Combat, anime, Undertale, Deltarune, and more. These passions fuel her creativity and serve as a source of inspiration for her various projects. Her online presence includes a wiki where she shares her original characters, works, and other projects, as well as a YouTube channel featuring her music and memes.
Through her persona, NottCawthena has created a unique and recognizable identity that allows her to engage with others and express herself authentically. Her journey is a testament to her determination, creativity, and resilience in overcoming challenges and embracing her true self.
== Trivia ==
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* NottCawthena has an encyclopedic knowledge of internet memes and often references them in her conversations and online interactions.
* NottCawthena has a text and vocal stim where she says "Kek" or "sksksk". This is usually implied to rely a positive response.
* NottCawthena can play multiple musical instruments, including the piano and guitar (albeit she isn't really good at it), which she has incorporated into her music compositions.
* NottCawthena has a penchant for collecting vintage video game consoles and has amassed an impressive collection, including some rare and hard-to-find models.
* NottCawthena's username is derived from "Scott Cawthon" as a joke.
* Despite her affinity for technology and digital platforms, NottCawthena has a penchant for traditional art forms, such as sketching and line art, which she uses to de-stress, albeit very rarely.
* While NottCawthena primarily uses her large headphones to listen to music, she also finds comfort in wearing them as a means of reducing sensory overload during moments of stress or anxiety. Which means all the time when she doesn't have to listen to anyone talking.
* Among her various interests, NottCawthena has a soft spot for indie video games, finding inspiration in their innovative storytelling and unique gameplay. She has even considered developing her own game someday.
* NottCawthena's favorite season is autumn, as she appreciates the changing colors of the leaves and the crisp, cool air. She often feels a surge of creativity during this time of year and takes long walks to enjoy the beauty of nature.
* NottCawthena's favorite beverage is Pepsi, which she will often go out and buy.
* Despite her love for anime, NottCawthena has never cosplayed, although she has expressed interest in doing so in the future.
* She has a habit of listening to video game soundtracks while working on her projects, as she finds them inspiring and motivating, usually of her own music and concepts.
* Her favorite movie by Studio Ghibli is "Howl's Moving Castle", which she has watched more than 20 times.
* She has a secret ambition to write and illustrate her own graphic novel, drawing inspiration from her favorite anime and manga series, such as Danganronpa.
* NottCawthena's cat, Buttercup, was named after the character from the popular animated series "The Powerpuff Girls."
* NottCawthena has a secret talent for cooking, specializing in various dishes that she enjoys sharing with friends and family. This is a very are occurrence however.
* She has a fascination with mythology and folklore, often incorporating elements from these stories into her original characters and creations.
* NottCawthena's favorite book is "The Tale of Despereaux".
* NottCawthena has a soft spot for retro video games, often revisiting classics from her childhood and incorporating gaming elements into her works. Specifically, SEGA's work with the Genesis.
* Cawth's character, Valeria, in "Nexus Realms" doesn't have any special powers. This choice was intentional as Cawth wanted to represent the strength and resilience of ordinary individuals.
* During a fan QNA, Cawth revealed that she initially planned for her sona 4Cawth to have a different color scheme. However, after several iterations, she finally settled on the vibrant purple that has become a hallmark of the character. The reason given was "Because I like Cancer Lord a lot".
* In a fan Q&A session, Cawth mentioned that the Nexus Realms' energy hierarchy concept was born from her fascination with theoretical physics and metaphysics.
* Cawth once confessed that she sees a bit of herself in each of her characters. She stated, "Every character I create carries a piece of me, whether it's my dreams, my fears, or my quirks."
* A fun fact about the antagonist, Lyreth, in "Nexus Realms": her original design was intended to be much more monstrous. But Cawth changed it as she wanted to take direct inspiration and tribute one of her favorite indie game devs, Toby Fox.
* The initial concept of 4Cawth started as a joke. Cawth once shared during a QNA that the idea came to her during a light-hearted discussion on Discord, and it evolved into the unique character we know today.
* Cawth has stated that she intentionally made the Moonkin-Hybrid, Lulu, struggle with her powers in "Nexus Realms" to represent the challenges young individuals face when dealing with sudden changes and growth.
* Fans have often noted that Elyon's cryptic messages throughout "Nexus Realms" often reflect real-life philosophical concepts. Cawth confirmed this during an interview, sharing that she has a deep love for philosophy and wanted to incorporate it into her work.
* Cawth has revealed in interviews that she started sketching characters and creating stories from a very young age. She used to draw in the margins of her school notebooks, much to the chagrin of her teachers.
* In a fan Q&A, Cawth revealed that the name "Kara Lumina" from Nexus Realms was a combination of two names she liked. "Kara" was based off the name "Chara" from UNDERTALE, and "Lumina" was inspired by her fascination with stars and celestial bodies.
* Despite creating a whole host of characters from many stories, Cawth mentioned in an interview that 4Cawth holds a special place in her heart because she "always wanted to look badass while kicking V-tan's butt".
* Cawth has mentioned that she often creates songs for each of her characters to get into their mindset while writing their parts. This unique method helps her capture the character's emotions and actions more authentically. Moreover, this implies there are songs and tracks unreleased to the public that center around each specific character.
* Nexus Realms was heavily inspired by the game UNDERTALE. Cawth has admitted that the profound narrative, rich characters, and the integration of choice and consequence in UNDERTALE shaped the storytelling of Nexus Realms initally.
* The desolate and surreal landscapes seen in Nexus Realms, especially the Bleached Expanse, draws inspiration from the game OFF. Cawth's exploration of themes such as the consequences of unchecked obsession and the dangers of pursuing perfection within Striker's character also echo OFF's narrative.
* The complex character arcs in Nexus Realms are a result of Cawth's extensive study of psychology. She has admitted to spending hours understanding personality disorders, human behavior, and emotions to accurately depict her characters and their motivations in a more "real" way.
* Cawth has often stated that her character designs are a blend of inspiration from various video games, anime, and her own creativity. For instance, the mechanical character Striker in Nexus Realms shows influences from various mecha games and anime, such as Gurren Lagann.
* Cawth admitted in an interview that she casually researches quantum physics and multiverse theories while crafting the Nexus Realms. She wanted to add a sense of realism to her fantasy universe, making it both fantastical and scientifically plausible.
* In the creation of the characters like Elyon and Striker, Cawth was inspired by philosophical concepts such as existentialism and moral absolutism. She often delved into deep philosophical texts, which helped her shape the intellectual depth of her characters.
* While designing characters like Lyreth and Lulu, Cawth spent time studying psychology, particularly focusing on personality disorders and emotional trauma while also taking from her own experience. This study added depth to her characters, making them more realistic and relatable.
* Cawth shared that she is an avid anime and manga fan. Elements from famous series such as "Jojo's Bizzare Adventure", "Death Note," "Attack on Titan," and "Gurren Lagann" can be traced back in the complex storylines, character development, and visual style of Nexus Realms.
* Cawth has revealed that many aspects of Nexus Realms, including landscapes, creatures, and even certain plot points, have been derived from her dreams, which are usually Lucid and are interactable.
* Cawth is a music lover and often curates playlists to help her in the creative process. The atmospheric soundtracks from games like UNDERTALE and DELTARUNE have greatly influenced the "rhythm" of her narrative in Nexus Realms.
* Being an active part of the online community, Cawth draws a lot from internet culture. Her fan-made persona, 4Cawth, is a direct product of her observations on 4Chan as a silent observer.
* The strong character development in Nexus Realms owes its depth to Cawth's love for character-driven narratives in media. 
* Cawth often studies psychology books to add depth to her characters (as mentioned previously). This is especially seen in complex characters like Lyreth, whose manipulative and power-hungry nature mirrors traits of narcissistic personality disorder.