For A While Now

Somewhere, somehow, someway
Something got between me and keyboard keys
Me and my laughter lines
Me and the fragments of a would-be family
So I stopped tempting the skyline with my poetry,
Let’s face it
I only shake hands with strangers, so
I can’t play piano for myself anymore
These fingers of mine lack the exercise needed to stretch
Past an octave
On a tuxedo, they falter
My digits are cobwebs
And they haven’t been cleaned for a while now,
I’m almost sorry for them
It’s impossible to teach someone how to laugh
I know because I’ve tried so many times
I invented crying
If I stared into the sun I’d still be blinded, it’s true
Your tears are more beautiful than my laugh ever could be
And I’m not ashamed to admit it
For you’re like the pebbles to my cobblestone pathway
I’d be empty if I didn’t know you
Maybe that’s why I’ve scattered lines trying to find you
I have always wanted to write a poem
Without trying
I haven’t written a poem for a while now
But I swear your voice would make me start again
It’s like; you tell me I’m beautiful
And suddenly I am
Like, I could write a love poem about you
I really want to write a love poem about you
But this is more than just that
I’m trying to tell you how I’ve never really trusted anyone before
Somewhere, somehow, someway
Something stopped me
Maybe it was the piercings I’ve been carrying over from my family
But I need you to teach me how to trust you
I’ve been tracing grains of sand for a while now
Hoping to eventually touch diamonds in this land we call our home
It’s just so hard to find a good soul these days—
I want you
‘cause I’ve forgotten how many times I only think of myself
And when I feel you
I don’t even mind remembering
I’ve lost track of the time spent tripping over webbed feet now
And I’m almost too tired of falling beneath the coastal line
It’s days like these when I know I wouldn’t be a pattern without you
For I’m only made up of your starfish impressions—
Let’s press together harder
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