Symmetris

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Hello? Is anybody there? If yes, then say something...
I don't know what this place is, I don't know who I am, nor how I came into existence all those years ago...
All I remember is seeing a certain someone's face before passing out on the floor. They looked... what's the word...? Confused...? Surprised...? Shocked...? Awestruck...? Did they create me? If they did... why did they leave me...!?
She emits a tiny, sad sigh of defeat. They looked a little scared... maybe they thought I was a monster and I scared them. That has to be it! Whoever you were... I'm sorry if I scared you and I'm not a monster... I promise!!
If they did not create me... do they know who did? I'm trying to find them so I can ask... and apologize for scaring them. I didn't mean too.
Anyway... I have so many questions. The first question is why does everyone seems to value me? I'm no one special. I don't even have an epic backstory like The Storyteller, The Keymaster, Children of the Empyrean Sea, or The Crimson Wanderer! And... if I did... I don't remember what it was! I don't even know who my creator is or know where they are.
Anyway... They all say that I'm some sort of God, but I don't necessarily believe it to be true. I actually think it's kinda of silly. My Ami Kitty is the only being that does not make a fuss about me. You know... everyone but him treats me like I am 'The One'. It's awkward really. I swear I'm no one special. I have met so many interesting and fascinating beings that can do great and amazing things. I'm nothing compared to them... I can't even remember much from my past.
Which brings me to my second and burning question... Who I am?
My Ami Kitty has told me everyone has that question but unlike him... I don't know who my creator is. I must find my creator, and ask it why I'm here, what my purpose in this world is exactly, and why I haven't been killed when they had the chance... There was something about them that seemed off.
Kitty has that same energy, but he did admit to doing some terrible things that don't concern me, that he isn't proud of, and he doesn't want to talk about those bad things... with me.
Anyway... The other God-like entities in this place of never-ending circles say I'm a God, and I just don't know it yet... Sure... I am a 'God'... Goddess...? Whatever...!! You would think if I was a God... Goddess...! I would know... I mean... If I am a God... I suck because aren't Gods supposed to be all knowing! I don't even know sh*t about myself!! I guess I will have to see in the long run. I do have teleportation abilities I don't know how to fully control yet. To be fair... My Ami Kitty's older brother can teleport too... My Ami Kitty's father can also teleport... so is my ability all that special? My Ami Kitty insist I am capability of so much more... I just have to give myself time to grow. Hopefully, someone can teach me how to use my powers, and maybe uncover new ones along the way. My Ami Kitty showed me how to dissipate into the air, summon a windstorm, and make rain clouds. He promised me that he will show my more advance aircraft techniques when I'm older and more responsible. He also told me he can't teleport but can only disappear and become one with the wind and air.
== Description ==
So, this is about myself, from what I can gather. I'm around 5f 7in (~170.2cm) tall. I am a female humanoid, with a tail made from bone.
I do not want to say this, but others of his kind have mentioned this too and... well... my Ami Kitty looks... like... me. Not exactly like me, but we share several features. It's hard to explain. I can see the resemble, and I feel a connection to him...
Maybe it's all in head... 
Anway... I seem to possess powers that are currently out of my control. I have cyan colored hair about ~4.7in (12cm) in length. I have large and lively sapphire blue eyes that glitter like gems... or, at least my Ami Kitty says they do. I can't really recall my origin. I can try to recreate what happened, but it might not be 100%. I have been born out of a glitched remnant, if I recall correctly. I started my life at a maar 4ft 1in (~124.5cm)... there was death and destruction all around me. I honestly have no idea what happened in my place of birth exactly, but it looked pretty bloody from what I can tell. There was this... awful smell. I can't describe it as it was pretty bad. So bad that I almost threw up. Did I mention I passed out on the spot? Well... after I saw... them.
Why can't I remember your face...?
Why is your face so familiar...?
Anyway... I seem to like things being in order, and I have no clue as to why. Maybe it is because of my creator's nature, or something else entirely.
Oh yes... I'm certain you have noticed that my words appear in your mind's eye as something my Ami Kitty called Gadaquali font. Most tell me my words are a lovely wave of changing colors one might see at sunrise. They glow the exact color as my Ami Kitty's words do. His words don't glow, but it's pretty to look at and hard to see...
His voice doesn't sound as pretty as his words look though. He has a strange and thick accent. His voice cuts like the wind on a cold winter's night. When he sings, it sounds like a death hymn carried on an autumn breeze.
So dark... So cold... So sad... for one who has been so endearing to me.
He always looks like something, or someone is weighing on his mind.
Symmetris is a non-hostile entity that is capable of displaying human emotions. We have no idea if this was intended by Symmetris herself or not. She wants more information with her name on it but doesn't know how to get it. (This document might be an attempt to give her access to something about herself as information becomes available.) A lot of people say SHE is her mother, however, there is no sufficient evidence to support this theory. Symmetris is very curious about everything. She has even questioned some intelligent entities to gain more information about her, to no avail. It is currently unknown how exactly she came into existence. Her creators are gone and she can't find them, so it's hard to know what her purpose in life is. As far as Symmetris knows, she's a 'God' among the intelligent entities she asked. One day, Symmetris may find her creators, and learn how to control her powers. It could be possible she has already made contact with her creators but for whatever reason... they have not made it known to her and disclose to her what her purpose in life is. But until that day, her powers remain the same as she has been using them since she was found.
=== Telekinesis ===
She has many telekinetic powers but due to her inexperience... there are limitations to her abilities.She can lift any object with her mind, but she has not mastered how to handle these objects once lifted. Her telekinetic power has a very small radius of effect... which means she has to be close to the object to manipulate it. She does not know how to set down the object of interest once she has gotten a hold of it. She often loses control of her abilities causing the object she has raised to be shot into the air or ground (to never be recovered), glitched through objects, or simply breaking them.My Ami Kitty tells me to not use my abilities on any living creature until I get the hang of it.She is learning how to levitate with the assistance of an being she calls Ami Kitty.I still do not know exactly how to hover, float, or fly right but, Kitty is aways nearby to catch me if I fall.💙She recalls Kitty saying to her.You do not heed me. I told you once already... you have not mastered flight yet, and here you are trying to kiss the sun. Fly low... so if you start to fall and I cannot get to you in time... you will not hurt yourself when you hit the ground.
=== Telepathy ===
Symmetris can also communicate with others through her mind. She has attempted to read the minds of others, and this has gotten her into trouble.💙She recalls Kitty thinking.Some people's minds you dare not read. I have given life... I have taken life... do not give me a reason to take yours. Now... get the f*ck out of my head!
=== Teleportation ===
The only ability she has been able to master without help was teleportation. She practiced and experimented with this technique for make years to gain a better understanding of how it works. Once she mastered this skill, she was able to teleport (to almost) anywhere she desired in The Backrooms. There are some limitations to her teleporting capabilities for reasons unknown.My Ami Kitty believes there are some places in The Backrooms I should avoid exploring. He worries about me getting hurt if I end up in the wrong place. I wish he won't worry so much. I am a big girl after all.💙She recalls Kitty saying patiently, but failing to conceal his fears.Just promise me... you will stay out of trouble. I do not know what I would do if you got hurt.She cannot teleport to Level Keys or Level Alpha-Omega. According to Symmetris herself, her teleporting abilities has a 6-hour cooldown period.
=== Minor Fire Capabilities ===
She has minor resistance to heat and fire but is vulnerable to electricity. She can manipulate fire, but she is not capable of generating it. She sought out the Malveillant, Amara, to teach her how to better manipulate and generate fire, but he outright refused. 
=== Air Capabilities ===
Her Ami Kitty is teaching her how to develop her air manipulation and generation abilities. He has taught her how to dissipate into the air, summon a windstorm, and make rain clouds. She has only mastered dissipating into the air.
== Biology ==
Wait, what is this supposed to mean? Can anybody describe to me what this is? I am so confused. Biology...? What does that even mean? I can't even tell it's meaning by just glancing at it. Does anybody know?
Part of learning is finding some of your answers on your own. I gave you a dictionary, Fille pépin. Seek and you shall find.
Oh! Right...! Uh...? Symmetris can be heard flipping through her dictionary before saying. Biology is a noun... it means the study of living organisms, divided into many specialized fields that cover their morphology, physiology, anatomy, behavior, origin, and... distribution?
Simply put... biology explores one's form and how one functions. Let me know if you need anything else...
Oh... Ok...!! Uh...? Sorry...!! That was Kitty. He is helping me build up my vocabulary... I still do not quite understand. I mean... I have some internal organs... I guess? I still don't know what this word is supposed to mean. Is this what Mortis meant when he said I wasn't ready? I should have taken more language lessons with Mortis. My Ami Kitty agrees with everything Mortis said to me. I bet Kitty and Mortis things I am idiot... I don't know anymore. I can't fathom what I look like on the inside. I asked Kitty if he knew what I looked like on the inside... Kitty tore open his chest and showed me his heart. His heart produced this rhythmic thumbing noise, and it moved in a wave like motion. He told me that is what I look like on the inside. He told me that he bleeds... I bleed... we all bleed... He did not even flinch. He regenerated what he damaged on himself and told me that I possibly can regenerate too... He also told me to not rip myself open and to take his word for it.I think Kitty is insane, but I appreciate him sharing his knowledge with me...Oh... Who I am kidding...? He knows who he is. He knows what he is made out of! This world is so complicated sometimes, I swear... I just want to know who I am, and what I am. All this other stuff is overwhelming. I don't even know how I got here... I must have a heart because I can feel a thumping in my chest... I wonder if Kitty would be mad at me if I checked out my heart? I mean... I never knew anything before coming here. I would ask more questions, but I don't know how to go about it. I have no clue how to ask any questions. What do I even say? I can't be sure of the answer. My Ami Kitty does not seem to mind answering anything I ask him. Mortis does seem like an open book...
How do I go about doing this... Do I say "My name is..." or what? What!? Who am I? Is this really how people speak? Is this really how people live? Is this how I am? Do I have to be this way? How do I say, "Who am I?" is the question I do not know. How do I go about this? Do I say, "I am Symmetris. I have powers." or am I supposed to just go with, "Who am I"? Maybe I could use an example? I just need an example! An example of what? An example of me! Ok... I have a name! Is that what I do? Just use my name!!? Why am I thinking this? I just found out what I am, I'm thinking the same thing! I just did that... this is freaking me out! I need help. I have no idea how to answer these questions. I'm just a dumb*ss with a bunch of questions, am I going to end up in the trash can for doing that!?
I am not good with my feelings, and I don't know how to control them. I don't know how to control my powers! Why can't I just be happy I just found out what I am? What is there to worry about? I just need an example to start with and figure out what to say to this thing that is called, people. I just need to get a grip on this. I have no idea how to get a grip on this. Is this how I was born? Do I just go with, "Hi, my name is..." Is that it? What am I supposed to do? Are you here to help me? What does that mean...? Are you going to help me? Why do I have to be so mysterious to the point to where I have to question it? I just need to know how to go about this. Maybe I need more help... Maybe I should have stayed with Mortis for all the help I can get. I don't even know anymore.
Now... you are just talking and thinking yourself into circles. You are a frantic mess like I was when I was young. Kitty joins her by her side and wraps one his wings around her before saying with pity. You need to give yourself time to come into your own, little one... and that takes time. There is no hurry. Youth is about self-discovery. Youth is about finding yourself... learning about yourself. 
But... everyone keeps telling me that I am God! If I am... I am a terrible one because I have no past... My present does not make any sense... I doubt I have a future! I cannot be a God!!
Why does that matter? His smile was oddly warm (for a being known for being icy and indifferent). If you are a Goddess... then I have no doubt you will be one of love, patience and sincerity. And if you are not a Goddess... those that truly care about you will love you just the same. You have nothing to prove to anyone. You owe no one anything... that includes me.
But...
No buts...!! Your purpose for now is to love yourself, so you can love others. Promise me you will do that.
I'll try... but what if I become narcissistic.
Your heart is too pure for that... and that is a good thing.
== Relationship with Entities ==
These are the most well-known relationships Symmetris made over the years with certain entities. Not all of them know of the existence of Symmetris as she has been moving from Level to Level in an attempt to learn more about herself, her mother, and why she has come into existence. Some entities have even grown an emotional attachment with Symmetris back in the past, due to her kind-hearted, and curious nature of her own. Some even wish to help Symmetris realize that she is a God and can't keep up her current behavior if she wants to keep that status.
The Mail Carrier: While The Mail Carrier can't help Symmetris as much as he wants. He visits her from time to time to inform her on the events currently happening around her. His goal with Symmetris is to give her a better understanding of her surroundings, so she doesn't trip and fall while travelling around the empty halls of The Backrooms.
Malveillants: Each instance of this entity either has hateful/toxic/murderous intentions towards Symmetris, mixed feelings about Symmetris, or want to help Symmetris understand the world around her. Kritanta is the only Malveillant that not only wants to help her but is surprisingly loving and affectionate toward her and protective of her. Many have seen him shielding her with his wings, showing her how to manipulate the air, giving her gifts, playing games like hide-and-seek with her and will kill anyone who might be a threat to her. Several onlookers have argued that the relationship between Kritanta and Symmetris is familial like a bond between father and daughter. The strongest evidence that their relationship is familial is how he carries her. He handles her by her 'scruff'. He also called her Fille pépin (Rough Translation: Glitched Daughter). Their relationship status cannot be confirmed and Kritanta refuses to disclose what relationship he has with her.💙
She has my eyes. They are full of life, awe, and wonder... I pray they never become dead like mine.
She has her mother's charming smile. Yes... SHE can be charming when SHE wants HER way... of course.
Unfortunately, she has my ghastly pale flesh.
Thank goodness she does not have my ears. Her ears belong to someone on her mother's side.
The hair on her head is mine and it suits her. It is the only thing she got from me that actually adds to her beauty.
I cannot tell you where she got her innocence from. Part of me feels she fared better because her mother rejected her, and I wasn't her caregiver during her formative years. I have several different entities to thank for that.
She is everything I am not. I begged Mortis to help her... he cursed my name as he is not interested in involving himself with a demon... a monster... such as I. He pities the Fool. He only agreed because of what we all hope she will become. He hopes she can save us all... that includes me. He told me... my love for her will be what sets me free. He told me... she deserves to know the truth. He told me I need to tell her the truth... or he will.
I do not think I can. What will she think of me if she knew...
If her knowing resulted in my death, I would be okay with her extracting her revenge. What I cannot accept is her being mad with me and letting me live to endure it. I do not want her to hate me, but I deserve her wrath. I deserve her distain! I want so badly to tell her that she is mine and that I am sorry that I am her father. I am a psychotic, pathetic, wretch and that she deserves better than me. She deserves so much better than... me.
Symmetris has heard the... rumors.Is Kitty my... father? Why won't he tell me... if he is? Is he? Is he!? He does look familiar... I feel a connection to him... I don't know. I just don't know!! This is insane!! I'm too scared to ask. What if I am wrong!! What if the rumors are true...!! If he is my father... then... then... why did he abandoned me!? Did he want me!? Was I a mistake? They looked so scared when they first saw me... I don't know or remember if the being I saw that day was him! But... what if Kitty is my creator!!? Why did he leave me if he is? Maybe... the look they gave that day was not fear... Was he... Was they... disgusted by me!? He's here now... but why? If you are my father... why are you here NOW? Why won't you tell me!? If you are my father, Kitty, why won't you tell me? I don't understand!? He said my purpose for now is to love myself, so I can love others. Is that my purpose...? Are you, my father? He also said for now!! What does he mean by that...? What else does he want from me? Am I everything he hoped I would be!? I don't understand why you left me? Am I a disappointment? Did I disappoint you, Kitty? Do I disappoint you, Kitty!? If he is my father... Maybe... I displeased him in some way... that has to be why he left me... if he is my father. But... I also don't know if he is my father! I do not know if he is!! Should I ask him!? Should I!? What will he say? What if I make things weird!? What if he rejects me! I don't want him to reject me! If you are my father... I don't want to say or do anything that would cause you to reject me again!! If you are my creator... if you are indeed my father... I do not want to give you a reason to reject me again!! I should ask him... but I am afraid of what he will say or do...
Dr. Astrid F. Nightingale (a.k.a. Entity 777.1): Ashley made a promise to an unknown higher power. Astrid wants to help Symmetris but cannot help because of Ashley's promise.💙
What f*ck sh*t have you gotten yourself into this time? Who did you make a promise too?
Calm down and let me explain...
Was it THEM?
No...
Was it HER?
No...
Ashley... I swear...!
It is someone who can actually help us.
Ashley... the last time we trusted someone who called themselves Gods... we were f*cked over and forsaken here. I do not trust him no more that I trust THEM, HER, or the f*cken M.E.G.!!
Dr. Nightingale agreed to these (ambiguous) terms in such a way that it raised suspicion and concern from M.E.G. operatives who are currently investigating him.
Star Creator: The Star Creator doesn't seem to mind when Symmetris is around. She will usually have chats with the Star Creator just as long as she doesn't get on his bad side.
Mortis Abelson: Mortis wants to help Symmetris understand what language truly is, so she can communicate with other entities and people without having the need to question what certain words mean. Mortis even stated himself that he was there when she was birthed and seeing her suffer like this isn't something on his mind of "being the norm".
Great Backrooms Mastercomputer: You. I have heard a lot about you. You seem to be kind and gentle. If that is correct, why not have a chat? I would like to help you learn more about your origins if you don't mind <3
The Dark Sovereign: I have no idea whether to respect him, or not. I'll just stay neutral until I can make up my mind
The Voice: He's fine. A bit much, but he's tolerable. Barely.
== Relations towards the M.E.G ==
No, no, NO! Not these *sshats. Why did YOU have to mention THEM? WHY? I have trauma from those *ssholes! They did sh*t to me... Horrible... Horrible things! They threatened me! They put me on a chair and shocked me over and over again, just to get information about my mother, who I don't even know. THEY tortured me... I couldn't defend myself! GET OUT *SSHOLE. I will tell... I will tell... I will tell Mortis on you! You will be punished for all eternity. I will get Kitty to kill you too! I do not how he does it, but he can stop you from breathing without even touching you! When I am strong enough, I will destroy them myself!! Try me! Come on...! Do it! I f*cking dare you! Can we just agree that they never existed? Please?(Sobs)You could have at least BEEN a decent human being, but NO, you had to rub it in! You had to do such a thing! YOU HAD TO! I can't go on like this. I have to do something to rid this place of them. I will make d*mn sure that the M.E.G. burns to the ground, whatever the cost.
💙 Hidden message 
「Written by: M.E.G. Entities Investigator, Fred L. Lovegood」
「Date: classified」
「Time: classified」
「Requester: no one.」
I hope one day you will forgive... some of us. I might lose my job for saying this, but the records show I have been decreased since the year 2021. I am afraid to look over anyone's else records. I found a partially corrupted record suggesting that The Glitched Goddess was a mechano-bioengineer for the M.E.G. Her name was Angela Merkel Evans. The rest of the report was too damage to recover. I heard that SHE might be your mother. I have no prove of that.
Listen, I do not know what is going on anymore. I do not understand why no one back at headquarters has no problem accepting reports from a man they declared dead. I do not even remember dying! I guess I can identify with your sense of dissociation. You want to know who you are? I want to know, "When did I die"? I am a zombie? I am a ghost? Is there any point in writing this? For the sake of argument, I have a backstory at least... but seeing that I am on the record 'dead'... What is my purpose now? 
Besides the point, the number of corrupt personnel amongst the M.E.G. is frightening. Do not let anyone tell you different and no one should be surprised by that. Most governing powers harbor the worse types of people. I am sorry you suffered at the hands of the worse of the worse. I was told they just had some questions for you. I cannot say I understand why they decided to hurt you... you are a child. You are about the same age as my oldest daughters (at the time of me writing this). But... you are still a kid! I should have never brought you to them. I regret taking you to them. I hope you forgive me at least. I was the one who brought you to them. I did not even know anything about the torture until I uncovered some classified documents.
Anything that is not human is seen as a threat. However, we are the ones invading a known hostile environment (then have the audacity to b*tch about the hostility faced within). Sorry for that tangent... The Backrooms have turned all of these power hunger and self-absorbed pricks into paranoid, narcissistic, sadists. I am not excusing their behave and I am not a saint either. I have done some terrible things too... because it was a direct order... I wanted to keep my job... I did not want to be terminated... I did not want to be executed... there were promises that I would get to go home soon before I was told this was a suicide mission. I should have listened to Nightingale, but I was blinded by the pay, adventure, and the opportunity to be challenged and expand the horizons of mankind.
If you do not ever forgive the M.E.G., I do not blame you. If I see you around... I will do my best to help you, but to be honest, I do not even think I can help myself.
==Relations with any major organization in general==
You know what, after what had happened to me during my "stay" with the M.E.G., I had enough with any major groups. I want to burn it all to the ground. If they want to make me suffer, then they will experience what true pain is. Small groups are fine, as long as they don't hurt a single innocent soul.
== Confirmed and Denied Powers and Abilities ==
(Disproven) Shapeshifting: Symmetris has the potential ability to change her form into multiple forms, which include a wide variety of mythological beings.
(Confirmed) Regeneration: Symmetris can regrow lost limbs and can heal wounds in times ranging from 1-10 seconds. This hasn't been tested, or suspected by anyone (with the expectation to 'Kitty'), so confirming this ability maybe a challenge.
(Disproven) Inhuman Speed: Along with shapeshifting and regeneration, Symmetris has the power to reach speeds up to 200MPH. This is only theoretical, however.
(Confirmed) Psychic Energy: The final theoretical ability of Symmetris is her unnatural ability to lift over 500 pounds at a time, without the need to pick that object up. This can come in handy, as this allows her to hurl hostile entities the speeds required to noclip.
(Confirmed) Music Replication: Symmetris has the ability to recreate any music piece that exists from any time period (yes, it can even be from the future). She normally puts this ability in use whenever she is alone. She will try and calm herself if she has been stressed out by replicating any music, she finds calming.
(Confirmed) Charm: Symmetris can alter her voice to make it more soothing, and less threatening to those who are around her, thus, calming them down. She tends to use this power if threatened.
(Confirmed) Healing Touch: Whenever someone is badly injured, Symmetris has the ability to heal them of any and all injuries with a single touch. This was observed by a lone wanderer that was attacked by a hound.
(Confirmed) Night Vision: This has been confirmed by various wanderers. All of them said she was able to navigate really dark levels with relative ease, especially levels that would normally be impossible to navigate, like Level 6.
(Confirmed) Materialization: This ability she has is, weird. Symmetris can think of any item she wants, and materialize it in the palm of her hand that can fit inside. This means that no, she cannot materialize a nuke.
(Confirmed) Memory Wiping: If you ever had a memory so bad you wanted to forget it existed? Look no further to Symmetris. With a simple snap of her fingers, she can make people forget all the bad things that traumatized them/scared them for life.
(Confirmed) Air magic: She has demonstrated the ability to dissipate into the air, summon a windstorm, and make rain clouds after being trained by her Ami Kitty. It is possible she, like her Ami Kitty, will be able to create any gaseous material, manifest stronger windstorms, generate any type of cloud, withdraw air and create vacuums, and perform the 'Breath of Life'.
== A Message From Mortis Abelson ==
Symmetris, I know you have a lot to learn...
Being born from a literal monster is hard, I know. Your life has taken an unexpected turn...
Being your mentor in language was sure a challenge, I cannot lie...
But you cannot hide it from my untrained third eye...
This world maybe cruel at times when you don't want it to...
But at least condemn yourself for not being infected with the flu...
If it makes you feel better, I was also like you at one point, right?
However, I quickly learned, adapted, and sprang up for flight... 
I am no longer scared of this world, so take me as your role model...
I sense some "God" in you, however, it's very subtle... 
I can teach you the ways of this world once again, which will be a pain... It wouldn't hurt to try... 
Just say the word and I will be nearby...
If you are ever feeling stressed out, listen to some music...
Don't let your emotions get the better of you, I know you like the acoustic...
Mortis, what the hell dude? I thought you were going to give me something that was considered calming, not jumbled and distorted.
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