Dreamcatcher

This nightmare has been stuck in my mind ever since I experienced it, and I feel like it’s eating at my mind. So I’m hoping that talking about it will help clear my head. 
Around a few weeks ago I had this horrible nightmare containing this weird looking monochrome lady. At least, it looked like a woman. The weird thing is that I only saw her head, she had no other parts of her body. The dream itself was horrific. I was in my childhood home, except it was really run down. The floorboards were all wrecked, the wallpaper was peeled off, and there was some mold. Basically what you would imagine an old abandoned house to look like.
I suppose I’ll need a bit more context to my life for you to understand why this dream was particularly disturbing to me. My mom passed away a few years ago from natural causes. It affected me a lot when it happened, and if I’m being honest, I’m still not over my grief.
Alright, I think that’s enough context. Now, during this dream I walked around my childhood home until I entered my parents' old bedroom. There I found my mother laying on the ground with her wheelchair knocked over on the ground, a few feet away. I rushed over to her and tried to help her and then that’s when I saw that lady. She practically infected my mind with these violent and gruesome thoughts. It was similar to having an out of body experience. I was just forced to watch myself grab a sharp object from the room and start to repeatedly stab my poor mother.
I can’t go into too many details otherwise I’ll cause myself to have a panic attack just thinking about it. I was so traumatized from that nightmare that I spoke to my therapist about it and I found out that there’s many other people out there who have seen that woman in their dreams and that there’s a therapy group for these people. I ended up going to a therapy group session and found out more about the victims of these nightmares. Apparently there's multiple people per month that end up committing suicide because of these dreams, or worse.
Unfortunately, I don’t think there’s any way to get rid of these nightmares, but at least I have some support for it. This woman will haunt me forever.
Category:Dreams/Sleep