病んばる悔いな (Yanbaru Kui na)

==Alternate Versions==
==Lyrics==
Japanese 	Romaji 	English
すぎた可能性ばかりを見てるから 	sugita kanousei bakari o miteru kara 	Looking back on all the missed opportunities,
殴られた痛みもすぐに忘れるんだ 	nagurareta itami mo sugu ni wasureru nda 	I soon forget even the pain of being hit.
すぐ消える後悔の念だけじゃ生きていけないよ 	sugu kieru koukai no nen dake ja ikite ikenai yo 	You can't just live with the passing feelings of regret.
やり残したことたくさん覚えてる 	yarinokoshita koto takusan oboeteru 	I remember the many times I've had to redo something,
間違えたことばかりは忘れない 	machigaeta koto bakari wa wasurenai 	Unable to forget all the mistakes I've made.
後悔しても反省はしてない 	koukai shite mo hansei wa shite nai 	But regret isn't the same as remorse.
 	 	
崩れるのを恐れて 	kuzareru no o osorete 	I'm afraid I'll fall apart,
外に目を向けず 	soto ni me o mukezu 	Without looking outward,
心ここにあらず 	kokoro koko ni arazu 	I become distracted.
 	 	
いつもいつも手遅れで 頑張るだなんて言葉だけ 	itsumo itsumo teokure de ganbaru da nante kotoba dake 	‘Do your best!’ which always, always comes too late is nothing more than a phrase.
結局自分ばっかり ナルシシズム 	kekkyoku jibun bakari narushishizumu 	In the end, it's all about me. Narcissism.
いい加減大人になってよ 	iikagen otona ni natte yo 	Just act like an adult!
どこにも不自由もないくせして 	doko ni mo fujiyuu mo nai kuse shite 	It's not like there's plenty of those already.
何でこんなにもダメなんだ 	nande konna ni mo dame nanda 	Why is this so difficult..
 	 	
病んばる悔いな 	yanbaru kui na 	I’m so sick, and I regret it.
 	 	
悪いことばっかダメなことばっか 	warui koto bakka dame na koto bakka 	That's horrible, no good.
励ましたりしないでよ 叱ってよバカ 	hagemashitari shinai de yo shikatte yo baka 	Don't try to encourage me, scold me, idiot!
またこうやって誰かに頼って逃げようとしてる 	mata kou yatte dareka ni tayotte nigeyou to shiteru 	...Once again, I rely on someone else in an attempt to escape.
周りには見習うべき倣うべき 	mawari ni wa minarau beki narau beki 	I should just follow everyone else's example.
凄い人達が溢れているのに 	sugoi hitotachi ga afurete iru no ni 	After all, the world's full of amazing people.
自己愛に自惚れて動けないようなままでいいの？ 	jikoai ni unuborete ugokenai you na mama de ii no? 	Is it okay that I’m stuck as the conceited narcissist that I am?
 	 	
懐かしむと言って 	natsukashimu to itte 	"How nostalgic." I say.
どうせボキャ貧で 	douse bokyahin de 	But I just don't know how
コミュ障なだけなの 	komyujyou na dake na no 	to get my message across.
 	 	
感慨に浸ってるんじゃなく 	kangai ni hitatteru nja naku 	It's not that I'm drowning in my emotions,
本当になんにも言えないだけ 	hontou ni nan ni mo ienai dake 	I just have nothing to say,
やろうとするだけ無駄 ニヒリズム 	yarou to suru dake muda nihirizumu 	And it's useless to try anyway. Nihilism.
 	 	
いいのさ別にどうでも 	ii no sa betsu ni dou demo 	But it's okay, because I don't care.
指先では大嘘をつくけど 	yubisaki de wa oouso o tsuku kedo 	I'm a liar through-and-through, down to my fingertips,
言葉にしようとしてため息 	kotoba ni shiyou to shite tameiki 	But I sigh, trying in vain to put it into words.
 	 	
病んばる悔いな 	yanbaru kui na 	I’m so sick, and I regret it.
 	 	
叶えたい事もやるべき事も 	kanaetai koto mo yarubeki koto mo 	Whether it's my dreams and aspirations, or what I have to do,
力不足で何もできないけれど 	chikarabusoku de nani mo dekinai keredo 	I say that I lack the strength to accomplish any of it.
「やりたかった」と諦める事も 	“yaritakatta” to akirameru koto mo 	Though I’m too scared to even give up by saying,
勇気不足で出来ないんだよ 	yuukibusoku de dekinai nda yo 	“This is something I wanted to do.”
 	 	
いつもいつも手遅れで頑張るだなんて言葉だけ 	itsumo itsumo teokure de ganbaru da nante kotoba dake 	‘Do your best!’ which always, always comes too late is nothing more than a phrase.
結局自分ばっかり ナルシシズム 	kekkyoku jibun bakari narushishizumu 	In the end, it's all about me. Narcissism.
いい加減大人になってよ 	iikagen otona ni natte yo 	Just act like an adult!
どこにも不自由もないくせして 	doko ni mo fujiyuu mo nai kuse shite 	It's not like there's plenty of those already.
何でこんなにもダメなんだ 	nande konna ni mo dame nanda 	Why is this so hopeless..
 	 	
言葉にできないんじゃなくて言葉を知らないだけなんだ 	kotoba ni dekinai nja nakute kotoba o shiranai dake nanda	It's not that I can't put it into words, it's as if I don't know the words at all.
結果はもうわかってる ペシミズム 	kekka wa mou wakatteru peshimizumu 	In the end, I understand... Pessimism.
嫌だよこんなままなんて 	iya da yo konna mama nante 	I can't go on like this.
どこにも不自由もないはずなのに 	doko ni mo fujiyuu mo nai hazu na no ni 	Even though it's what's expected of me.
わからない不安を誤魔化す 	wakaranai fuan o gomakasu 	I'll go on hiding this anxiety I don't understand.
 	 	
病んばる悔いな 	yanbaru kui na 	I’m so sick, and I regret it.
, corrected by MeaningfulUsername
==Translation Notes==
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