Step Back, Fade Out

Blink.
Blurrrrrrrrr
Blink.
Blurrrrrrrr--
Past.
And so, she smiles and she laughs and she cries along with the rest of them
Then steps
Back.
She smiles and she laughs and she cries along with the rest of them,
But separates herself in a gap that will 
Never
Be restored.
She blinks once,
Twice, 
And then it hits her in the face
A smack, a crack,
A loss of will in the soul,
And stops her in her tracks.
And she spends that day, yes, sobbing her guts out and finding her bones have become
Rubber.
And then she will get back up and repeat this--
And when she sees them arguing, and spending hours with an idiotic lawyer, 
And she sees that cute shirt in the boutique everyone loves and knows she can't have it because the boutique
Is just
Too
Damn
Expensive,
She steps back again and it all slides past her.
She sits down to watch the movie,
In that dark, dark room,
And she lets it all slide past her.
And she steps further and further back into the shadows
Until she knows
She'll fade out.
Category:Jenna Fraen
Category:Poetry