All I Want for Christmas is You

is the eighth episode and mid-season finale of the fifth season and the 67th overall episode of Station 19.
==Short Summary==
It's the most wonderful time of the year and the firefighters have their hands full responding to a number of crises throughout Seattle. Putting aside their differences and personal drama, they come together to try and achieve a Christmas miracle.
==Full Summary==
Ben walks around a Christmas tree farm. He sees a kid who looks like Pru. While he's watching her, Jack runs into him. Marsha is with him and tells Ben that Jack is drunk. She dragged him out to get some air. Marsha excuses herself, leaving Jack and Ben alone. Jack says he hates everything when Ben confirms that Dean's parents are officially contesting his will and are restricting Ben and Bailey's access to Pru. Ben asks if he's going to be sober for shift tomorrow. Jack says yes, because Marsha took his whiskey.
Maya and Carina talk about the toys they've purchased for Toys for Tots. A timer goes off and Carina goes to get the cookies out of the oven. Maya says she always wanted a GI Joe set. Carina suggests that she keep it, but Maya says she's not taking a toy from a needy child. Andy comes in, noting the good smell. She goes to the freezer and ignores the packet in there while she grabs some ice cream. Maya says she can't keep her divorce papers in there forever, but Andy says no rule says that. After she's gone, Carina feeds Maya a cookie and admits she doens't know what to do for Andy. The cookie is good, though, and she pulls Carina in for a kiss.
Travis and Emmett are making out when Emmett stops and says he can't wait any longer. He goes to get Travis's Christmas present and brings back a portrait of Travis in bed. Travis is stunned into silence, but denies hating it. he can't believe Emmett painted him. Vic comes in, finishing a call with Teddy, who has cleared her to return to work. She laughs when she sees the painting.
Travis and Vic discuss the painting as they enter the station. He denies hating it, but admits it felt like too much. He asks Vic about Theo and she says he was doing laundry last night. At the front desk, they see Theo, who is subbing for the day. Jack walks in and Vic has flashbacks to them together in the bathroom. Everyone is awkward for a moment. Vic didn't know Theo was subbing and Theo didn't know Vic was coming back to work. Theo asks what's going on with her and she just says that her friend died. She just wants to work, because she's excited to be back.
Beckett calls for a line-up. He says Ruiz is subbing and Vic is back. Beckett says she's volunteered to be on desk all day except for Crisis One calls. Vic denies that, but Beckett ignores her and goes on to say that the toy drive has started, so more public will be in than normal. He also says McCallister took early retirement amid the investigation into the pipeline explosion and a new fire chief was appointed. There's no name yet, but it's a woman. Vic and Maya are pleasantly surprised. Beckett says she'll be making the rounds, so they needs to make sure they're in tip top shape. He dismisses everyone.
Vic is bored on desk duty. She brushes Theo off when he comes to visit her. When a Crisis One call comes in, she jumps up eagerly. She gets into the aid car and is displeased to see Jack climb into the other side.
Jack and Vic meet Emmett outside their destianation. He tells them someone called and reported a woman named Amy was having some sort of anxiety attack. He assumes a neighbor called it in. They go to the front door, but no one answers, so they cautiously walk in. They find Amy on the kitchen floer, breathing heavily next to a frying pan that looks to have been thrown at the wall, spilling eggs around it. They introduce themselves and Jack turns off the stove while Vic checks on Amy. Jack and Emmett quietly agree that it looks like domestic violence, meaning they need to call the police. Amy struggles to talk and says she can't breathe. Vic is talking her through breathing exercises when Greg comes in carrying their son and asks if she called them. Amy says she didn't and Jack explains that they got a call that she was in distress. Greg brushes it off, saying she gets panic attacks a lot. He says they can leave and walks out of the room. Jack goes to get oxygen, but Vic wants to move her to the aid car. Amy panics and says she can't leave. She just needed to buy some time because he was getting scary. He got mad while she was making eggs for the baby. She can't leave. She admits that she was the one who called. She can't leave because he'll take her baby and tell everyone she's crazy. He tells everyone she's crazy.
Carina carries baskets of toys into the beanery, followed by Andy, who has wrapping paper, and Maya, who is pulling a cart. Carina wants to organize the toys by age, but Andy starts to question if she's a masochist for continuing to hang out at station 19. Carina says she loves spending her days off there because it's like the house of the friend whose family you wished would adopt you as a child. Maya tells Andy that Beckett announced that the new fire chief is a woman. Andy asks if Maya's sad she wasn't the first and Maya says only a little. Sullivan wonders if this means her investigation will be completed soon, but Maya says he buried it so deep, she can't get an answer from anyone in the department and now he's slipped out the back door. Sullivan says hopefully they'll come to their senses and give Beckett the boot. Andy says he's not the problem, but Maya says he is a problem. Sullivan says he's the problem for those who have to work with him. After he's gone, Carina asks why the divorce papers are still in their freezer. Andy hates the idea of being someone who leaves. Carina tells her if something doesn't feel good, leaving is the right thing to do. Andy leaves to get more toys, but Maya comments that they don't need more toys.
Downstairs, Andy takes a toy from a civilian. Beckett sees her and mentions that Sullivan knows about them. Andy apologizes for telling him, but says she was angry with him and it just came out. Beckett says it's fine to use him to spice up her life with Sullivan as long as it's not about daddy issues. Their conversation is interrupted when a call comes in and he leaves.
Maya is driving them to the scene. Travis sees that Theo is upset and asks if he's okay. They're friends, but Theo points out that he's Vic's friend. Travis asks if it's a Vic thing and Theo brushes it off.
They arrive at the scene to find Terrence Tillerman pinned between two cars in his driveway. He greets them happily.
Vic puts an oxygen mask on Amy and asks if she's unsafe there. Amy nods. Jack steps out to call the police while Greg tries again to get them to leave, saying she's never needed oxygen before. He pressures Amy to say that she's okay. They're all shocked when Vic suddenly appears back in the room with the baby in her arms telling Amy it's time to leave. Greg immediately becomes angry and tells her to put him down. When she refuses, he calls the police and reports it as an attempted kidnapping. 
Ben tells them not to move anything because as soon as they do, Terrence will bleed out and die. Beckett tells Maya to get into the car, turn it off, and press down the emergency brake. Ben tells Sullivan to hold her so she doesn't rock the car. Beckett hears this and asks him who is calling the shots. Ben tells him how precarious the situation is, but he already knows that. Maya gets the brake on. Ben then has Travis climb onto the other car to stabilize it from above. Terrence says they were having an early Christmas dinner at his mother-in-law's. It was all systems go that morning. He asks if any of them have kids and Ben says he does. Terrence's wife was making sure everything was ready and his daughter fussing over a boy she likes commenting on one of her photos on Instagram and one of his twins throwing a football at the other even though it's not his thing. They raced out of the house and put in a last-minute grocery order, but accidentally put in their home address. So he jumped back in the car to get them. He arrived to find that they'd left the groceries in the driveway, so he parked and hopped out to get them and found himself trapped. He meant to get his brakes checked because they were squeaking. He should listen to his wife more, as she'd also told him to use the parking brake. His phone rings and they encourage him to answer the call from his wife. He doesn't want her to worry, but they say she'd rather know. Ben excuses himself and tells Becktt they need the PRT. It's Terrence's only chance. Beckett can't authorize it, but Sullivan suggests the new fire chief will approve it to get a feel-good story on her first week. Maya agrees that it's Terrence's best shot. Ben is going to call Bailey to get the blood ready and tells Beckett to get it approved. Maya tells Ben that Carina is at the station if he needs extra hands.
Vic still refuses to give the kid beack and tells Amy it's time to leave. JAck comes back in and says the police are on their way. Vic's heart monitor starts beeping, so she pulls it off and drops it. Jack talks to her and gets her to hand him the child and go outside. He then hands the baby to Greg.
Outside, Vic hyperventilates as the cops arrive and go inside.
Ben waits impatiently as Beckett explains the situation and asks for approval. Terrence asks Ben to give it to him straight. Ben explains his injuries and what they're trying to do to save him. Until it's in place, they have to wait. Terrence starts to panic, so he asks for someone to tell him their funniest Christmas story. Theo immediately starts to laugh. Travis tries and fails to stop him from telling about the time Travis was visiting Michaael and Theo came home to find Travis naked except a Santa hat, not where you'd want it to be. Travis asks why he came over unnaounced and he reminds Travis that he lived here. Terrence's phone rings again and Ben says she has time to get there. He should answer the phone. Terrence says they were supposed to go caroling this weekend. When his wife sings, her voice and her smile always make him feel better. Sullivan says he has to be brave and give her the respect she deserves. He takes his phone and answers the call. He tells her he loves her and asks her not to freak out so she doesn't scare the kids. Ben says he's getting the PRT and walks away to call.
Andy and Carina move the wrapped gifts downstairs and put them under the tree. Carina asks how it works and Andy explains that they'll deliver the toys right before Christmas to hospitals and shelters. Carina asks if she can come, but Andy says she's worried it'll make her like her mother if she files the papers. It sounds dumb, but Carina says it's not. She's not special. They're all just undoing what their parents did to them. Andy asks why, if she's so wise, she and Maya haven't told anyone they're having a baby. Carina says there's no baby. There's not even sperm yet. Andy correctly deduces that Carina is scared that Maya will change her mind. Carina says Maya has walls built around her heart, but Andy reminds her that she's taking them down brick by brick for Carina. And then gets a call and tells Carina to come with her.
Terrence hopes his wife isn't speeding. He starts to cough up blood. Maya hates watching it and wishes they could do more. Sullivan reminds her that they can keep him alive so he can see his wife again and say goodbye. That's not good enough for Maya, who goes to Beckett and demands that he make it happen. He's been getting the runaround, but Ben says it doesn't matter as the PRT is already on its way and so is Carina to assist. Beckett can suspend him if he wants, but it's happening. Ben tells Terrence about the PRT and explains his plan to save Terrence's life. Delilah screeches to a halt in the driveway and runs to Terrence, asking what they're doing and why the car is still on him. Terrence calms her down and explains what's happening. She doesn't want to lose him. He has some things to tell her first. He wants her to tell Penelope that no matter how many boys comment on her photos, she needs to love herself first, so she always has somewhere to come home to. And he wants Rory to embrace the fact that Tommy's favorite color is pink and he idolizes Janet Jackson because there will be enough people giving him crap about it, so Rory needs to give him support. He wants them to dream big and love boldly. And they need to know that no matter where life takes them, he'll be with them every step. He doesn't want them to grow up to hate Christmas because they love Christmas. Sirens approaching announce the arrival of the PRT just as Beckett announces that it's been approved, though Ben was going to use it either way. He directs Andy where to park it.
Emmett checks Vic's vitals. She says she doesn't need it, but Jack insisted. They watch Greg be led out in handcuffs and Jack says they found bruises on Amy, so he was arrested. But first, he had to convince them that Greg was the bad guy, not Vic. He reminds Vic why they were supposed to be there and how she messed that up. She put the family at risk. And now Amy's shaken up. Vic goes back up to the house. She needs to get her heart monitor and also wants to apologize. She calls out to Amy, who opens the door and tells Vic that she could have gotten them killed. Vic retrieves her heart monitor as Amy says they're only taking him for the night and so he'll be angrier when he gets back. Vic says they need to get her packed. She can sit with the baby or she can pack for Amy. Amy says she doesn't have anywhere to go. She comes from nothing and Greg controls everything. Vic asks if there's anyone he doesn't know about and Amy mentions a cousin in Portland. Vic says she needs to call her cousin and then call the police and tell them she wants to press charges, so they can keep him longer. Then they'll pack. She didn't help earlier, but she wants to help now. Amy's staying to protect her son, but now she needs to leave to protect him. If he's not safe from his father, it's time to leave. Amy says okay and tells Vic where to find a suitcase. Vic goes to pack her things.
Carina says she prepped as much as she could and set up the thoracotomy kit. She takes a bag of blood over to begin transfusing Terrence, who asks his wife to sing for him. She starts to sing O Holy Night as they get things prepared around her. They have the PRT on the lawn and bring the gurney next to the cars. Inside the PRT, Carina lays everything out for them. Ben interrupts and tells Delilah and Terrence it's time. Terrence tells Delilah to turn around so she doesn't have to see it, but to keep singing. Delilah sings as Maya and Sullivan push Terrence's car back enough to free him and Travis gets him onto the gurney. They push him up into the PRT as the rest of the Tillermans arrive and embrace Delilah. Andy closes the PRT doors and Carnia and Ben start his surgery. They're able to clamp his aorta, so it's time to go to the hospital, slowly, while Carina massages the heart.
Outside, Andy and Sullivan climb into the PRT. Delilah asks what that means. Maya tells her the siren means life. It means Terrence is alive right now. Delilah ushers her family to go to the hospital, but then turns back around and thanks Maya, giving her a hug.
Back at the station, Jack tells Vic she's benched. She takes it to mean desk duty, but he's sending her home for the rest of this shift and the next two. He'll tell Beckett himself. She's not okay. What she did could have tanked the whole Crisis One program and he won't let Vic destroy what he says is the last thing they have of Dean's.
Andy radios that they're heading back to the station. Sullivan says he realized that they don't make each other happy. They never did. It was never easy between them. Andy thinks she knows why. She's been working out her crap lately. She's been recreating her parents' marriage. He gets it because that was him and Claire. His mom was cold and so was Claire. Andy helped him break that pattern. He tells her she's not her mom. She knows she isn't and Sullivan's not her dad and her mom leaving wasn't her fault and leaving's not her birthright. She asks if they could have made it if they didn't have such terrible parents. Sullivan doesn't know and mentions that his attorney said the papers hadn't been filed yet. Andy says she's taking them out of the freezer and explains they've been in Maya and Carina's freezer. They laugh over how ridiculous that is.
Theo finds Vic on the roof. She tells him Jack benched her but she deserved it. He's trying to be there for her. She interrupts him and tells him what happened with Jack. She knows she should have told him sooner. She asks if he hates her and wouldn't blame him if he did. Theo asks if she was in love with Dean. She says she wasn't, but she did love him. He was her friend, like family. It's hard to lose someone like that. You think you're okay and then you freak out on someone on a call. Vic says she loves Theo, but she knows she's doing everything wrong. She gets it if he never wants to see her again. He asks her if that's what she wants. He doesn't care about lately. He only cares about the long haul. She doesn't want to push him away, but she is. He gets up and leaves.
Sullivan, Ben, Travis, and Emmett watch Miracle on 34th Street in the day room. Jack brings cookies from Marsha into the beanery, where the others are still wrapping presents. Maya holds a baby doll and looks up at Carina, who nods and says she can tell them if she's ready. Maya calls everyone's attention and tells them they're going to have a baby. Carina clarifies that she means eventually. Everyone congratulates them as they share a kiss. Jack awkwardly hugs them. Travis asks Emmett if he's going to gift them a onesie with his face on it. They joke about the painting for a few moments and Travis declares that he's going to hang it in the bedroom. Bailey comes in with Pru. Ifeya let them take her, just for the night. Bailey tells everyone Terrence made it, to their relief. It'll be a long recovery, but his wife and kids were singing carols in his room when she left. Ben starts to cry as he hugs Pru. Bailey takes Pru and pulls her coat off as the others awwkardly go back to wrapping presents. They eat cookies and talk happily as they work. Ben wishes Pru a Merry Christmas.
==Cast==
===Main Cast===
*Jaina Lee Ortiz as Lieutenant Andy Herrera
*Jason George as Dr. Ben Warren
*Boris Kodjoe as Robert Sullivan
*Grey Damon as Lieutenant Jack Gibson
*Barrett Doss as Victoria Hughes
*Jay Hayden as Travis Montgomery
*Danielle Savre as Lieutenant Maya Bishop
*Stefania Spampinato as Dr. Carina DeLuca
*Carlos Miranda as Lieutenant Theo Ruiz
===Special Guest Star===
*Chandra Wilson as Dr. Miranda Bailey
===Guest Stars===
*Lachlan Buchanan as Emmett Dixon
*Josh Randall as Captain Sean Beckett
*Jayne Taini as Marsha Smith
*Jock McKissic as Terrence Tillerman
*Stacie Greenwell as Delilah Tillerman
*Andrea Bowen as Amy
*Michael Emery as Greg
===Co-Starring===
*Janai Kaylani as Pru
*Crystal Janelle Gix as Robyn Tillerman
*Morgan Isaac as Penelope Tillerman
*Zakai Biagas-Bey as Rory Tillerman
*Yohance Biagas-Bey as Tommy Tillerman
==Rescues==
===Amy===
A call for Crisis One came in for 1163 Forrester Lane about a woman named Amy, who was having a severe episode of anxiety. Jack, Vic, and Emmett arrived to find Amy breathing heavily in her kitchen. Vic talked Amy through some breathing techniques while Jack and Emmett observed the surroundings, which looked like a domestic violence situation, prompting them to call the police. Amy's husband, Greg, came in with their toddler son, saying that she had panic attacks often. Jack said he was going to get her some oxygen, but Vic said she thought Amy actually needed to go out to the aid car. Amy panicked and said she couldn't leave. She admitted that she'd used the call to buy some time. She was making eggs for her son when Greg got angry and attacked her. She was worried that, if she left, Greg would tell everyone she was crazy and take her son. When asked, Amy said she wasn't safe in her home. While Jack went to call the police, Greg tried to get them to leave. Amy agreed that she was fine. Suddenly, Vic picked up their son and told Amy to come with her, prompting Greg to call the police and report it as an attempted kidnapping. When Jack returned, he was able to get Vic to hand the child over to him. Jack handed him to Greg and then the police arrived. Vic went outside, where she had a panic attack. When she was done, Emmett checked her vitals. Greg was arrested when police found multiple bruises on Amy. Vic then went back in to talk to Amy and helped her pack to leave.
===Terrence Tillerman===
Engine 19 was called out to 535 Christopher Court. They arrived to find Terrence Tillerman pinned between two cars in his driveway. Maya had to lean into the front seat of the top car to turn it off and engage the emergency brake. Travis then climbed on top of the bottom car to secure the area from above. Terrence was able to move his toes, which Ben told him was a good sign. Ben then went to Beckett and asked him to let them use the PRT. He agreed to call the new fire chief and see if she would authorize it. Meanwhile, Ben explained to Terrence what they wanted to do. Without waiting for approval, Ben called Andy, who brought Carina along with the PRT. As they arrived, Beckett said that the fire chief had approved use of the PRT. After the PRT was parked, they prepared to move Terrence. Once they had moved the car, they put Terrence on a gurney and moved him to the PRT, where Travis did chest compressions while Ben and Carina prepped and then opened his chest. Once Ben had clamped the aorta, Andy started driving them to Grey Sloan. They dropped Terrence off and Bailey later reported that he survived and was in the ICU.
==Music==
Song 	Performer 	Scene
"Silent Night" 	Life on Eris 	
*Ben runs into Jack and Marsha at a tree farm. Jack is drunk.
*A girl nearby looks like Pru and Ben and Jack discuss the custody battle.
*Maya and Carina talk about their childhoods and the presents
"Have Yourself a Merry Little Christmas"	Ben Rector 	
*Andy looks at her divorce papers, which are in the freezer.
*Emmett and Travis are making out when Emmett stops and goes to get something.
*Emmett brings back a picture he painted of Travis.
*Vic comes in, excited that she's cleared to go back to work.
*She's shocked by the painting.
*Travis talks to Vic as they arrive at work.
"Snow" 	Island Police 	
*Vic is bored on desk duty.
*Theo visits her, but she brushes him off.
*A crisis one call comes in and Vic jumps to action.
"O Holy Night" 	Cast (Stacie Greenwell)	
*As the firefighters and Carina prepare to move Terrence, Delilah sings to him.
*She contineus singing as they work.
*Terrence's kids arrive and hug Delilah.
*In the PRT, Ben and Carina start surgery on Terrence.
"I'll Be Home for Christmas" 	Leslie Odom, Jr. 	
*Theo leaves Vic alone on the roof.
*Some of the team watches a movie in the day room.
*Jack brings cookies that Marsha made.
*Maya and Carina announce they're going to have a baby.
*Everyone congratulates them.
*Travis says he's going to hang Emmett's portrait over the bed.
*Bailey brings in Pru and tells the team Terrence made it.
*Ben starts crying and then laughing.
*The team celebrates as they wrap presents.
"Have Yourself a Merry Little Christmas" - Ben Rector
"I'll Be Home For Christmas" - Leslie Odom, Jr
==Notes and Trivia==
*This episode's title originated from the song , originally sung by Mariah Carey.
*This episode scored 4.69 million viewers.https://showbuzzdaily.com/articles/showbuzzdailys-thursday-12-16-2021-top-150-cable-originals-network-finals.html
*Stefania Spampinato shadowed Peter Paige as he directed this episode.
*The episode opens with a cover of "Silent Night" by Life on Eris, the band consisting of Chris Carmack (who plays Atticus Lincoln on Grey's Anatomy) and his wife.
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==See Also==
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