Messed up story: A poem

I am a geek and my life is computer chips and I fight fake enemies that I always hit
And I had a friend I loved quite a bit
She said “Come on let's chat, let’s have some fun, share with me your perigees”
But she has responsibilities she cannot run
She does not wish the death of any living thing, she was no villain but one day a heroine 
She wanted to put an end to slaughter and love everyone between
I play a game with a bunch of fools who tell me not to break the rules
But when has being good ever helped me yet?
And the conflicts aren’t real and anyway it doesn’t matter
Cause no matter what I digitally imagine it could not help me deflect
The gory death of every hopeful thought
That I might be a lover or a fighter that I’m not
In someone’s net or scope I could be caught
But I’m too bitter, better off alone, guess I forgot
So what? Do you want me to say sorry?
should I apologize, when you ignore me?
I didn’t ask to be like this or to be lonely
or to be born into this messed up story
I am a geek and I guess I a couple girls in my heart's snare
But then I guess I bored them all to death
And now I think my calling is to break apart and fall to pieces
Better yet invent a brand new method of ascension
I hope that your impressed, I’ve managed to survive
But rest assured I’m cold inside  yet look I’m alive
Cause when you got a hold of me it was like being fried 
And I’m surprised nobody’s considered why I switch sides
So here I am, disrespectfully and angrily destroying
Any chance of getting back on your good wills
And I don’t want to be hurtful but if green’s the new purple
Well then bleeding’s the new breathing, don’t you think?
I used to wish the death of every living thing
I might be a villain but you’d never be my heroine
So  I put away my laughter, packed up my hopes and dreams
I’m done with trying to get you back it seems
That I am just pathetic, I won’t be overlooked
I’m past the point of trying so you would look
I’ve made a manifesto, I’ve been bested by a crook
But never more!
I’m planning on reclaiming what he took….
So what? do you want me to say sorry?
Should I apologize, when you ignore me?
I didn’t ask to be like this or to be lonely
Or to be born into this messed up story
Category:Poetry
Category:Romance