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 Pierre and Jean are the sons of Gérôme Roland, a jeweller who has retired to Le Havre, and his wife Louise. Pierre works as a doctor, and Jean is a lawyer. It recounts the story of a middle-class French family whose lives are changed when Léon Maréchal, a deceased family friend, leaves his inheritance to Jean. This provokes Pierre to doubt the fidelity of his mother and the legitimacy of his brother. Pierre discovers that his theories about his brother's illegitimacy are correct when he finds and reads old letters that his mother and Léon Marechal had been sending to each other. This investigation sparks violent reactions in Pierre, whose external appearance vis a vis his mother visibly changes. In his anguish, most notably shown during family meals, he tortures her with allusions to the past that he has now uncovered. Meanwhile, Jean's career and love life improve over the course of the novel while Pierre's life gets significantly worse. Provoked by his brother's accusations of jealousy, Pierre reveals to Jean what he has learned. However, unlike Pierre, Jean offers his mother love and protection. The novel closes with Pierre’s departure on an oceanliner. Thus the novel is organised around the unwelcome appearance of a truth (Jean’s illegitimacy), its suppression for the sake of family continuity and the acquisition of wealth, and the expulsion from the family of the legitimate son.
Pierre and Jean are the sons of Gérôme Roland , a jeweller who has retired to Le Havre , and his wife Louise . Pierre works as a doctor , and Jean is a lawyer . It recounts the story of a middle-class French family whose lives are changed when Léon Maréchal , a deceased family friend , leaves his inheritance to Jean . This provokes Pierre to doubt the fidelity of his mother and the legitimacy of his brother . Pierre discovers that his theories about his brother s illegitimacy are correct when he finds and reads old letters that his mother and Léon Marechal had been sending to each other . This investigation sparks violent reactions in Pierre , whose external appearance vis a vis his mother visibly changes . In his anguish , most notably shown during family meals , he tortures her with allusions to the past that he has now uncovered . Meanwhile , Jean s career and love life improve over the course of the novel while Pierre s life gets significantly worse . Provoked by his brother s accusations of jealousy , Pierre reveals to Jean what he has learned . However , unlike Pierre , Jean offers his mother love and protection . The novel closes with Pierre’s departure on an oceanliner . Thus the novel is organised around the unwelcome appearance of a truth ( Jean’s illegitimacy ) , its suppression for the sake of family continuity and the acquisition of wealth , and the expulsion from the family of the legitimate son .
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PIERRE & JEAN

By Guy De Maupassant


Translated By Clara Bell




CHAPTER I

âTschah!â exclaimed old Roland suddenly, after he had remained
motionless for a quarter of an hour, his eyes fixed on the water, while
now and again he very slightly lifted his line sunk in the sea.

Mme. Roland, dozing in the stern by the side of Mme. Rosemilly, who had
been invited to join the fishing-party, woke up, and turning her head to
look at her husband, said:

âWell, well! Gerome.â

And the old fellow replied in a fury:

âThey do not bite at all. I have taken nothing since noon. Only men
should ever go fishing. Women always delay the start till it is too
late.â

His two sons, Pierre and Jean, who each held a line twisted round his
forefinger, one to port and one to starboard, both began to laugh, and
Jean remarked:

âYou are not very polite to our guest, father.â

M. Roland was abashed, and apologized.

âI beg your pardon, Mme. Rosemilly, but that is just like me. I invite
ladies because I like to be with them, and then, as soon as I feel the
water beneath me, I think of nothing but the fish.â

Mme. Roland was now quite awake, and gazing with a softened look at the
wide horizon of cliff and sea.

âYou have had good sport, all the same,â she murmured.

But her husband shook his head in denial, though at the same time he
glanced complacently at the basket where the fish caught by the three
men were still breathing spasmodically, with a low rustle of clammy
scales and struggling fins, and dull, ineffectual efforts, gasping in
the fatal air. Old Roland took the basket between his knees and tilted
it up, making the silver heap of creatures slide to the edge that he
might see those lying at the bottom, and their death-throes became more
convulsive, while the strong smell of their bodies, a wholesome reek
of brine, came up from the full depths of the creel. The old fisherman
sniffed it eagerly, as we smell at roses, and exclaimed:

âCristi! But they are fresh enough!â and he went on: âHow many did you
pull out, doctor?â

His eldest son, Pierre, a man of thirty, with black whiskers trimmed
square like a lawyer's, his mustache and beard shaved away, replied:

âOh, not many; three or four.â

The father turned to the younger. âAnd you, Jean?â said he.

Jean, a tall fellow, much younger than his brother, fair, with a full
beard, smiled and murmured:

âMuch the same as Pierre--four or five.â

Every time they told the same fib, which delighted father Roland. He had
hitched his line round a row-lock, and folding his arms he announced:

âI will never again try to fish after noon. After ten in the morning it
is all over. The lazy brutes will not bite; they are taking their siesta
in the sun.â And he looked round at the sea on all sides, with the
satisfied air of a proprietor.

He was a retired jeweller who had been led by an inordinate love of
seafaring and fishing to fly from the shop as soon as he had made enough
money to live in modest comfort on the interest of his savings. He
retired to le Havre, bought a boat, and became an amateur skipper.
His two sons, Pierre and Jean, had remained at Paris to continue their
studies, and came for the holidays from time to time to share their
father's amusements.

On leaving school, Pierre, the elder, five years older than Jean, had
felt a vocation to various professions and had tried half a dozen in
succession, but, soon disgusted with each in turn, he started afresh
with new hopes. Medicine had been his last fancy, and he had set to work
with so much ardour that he had just qualified after an unusually short
course of study, by a special remission of time from the minister. He
was enthusiastic, intelligent, fickle, but obstinate, full of Utopias
and philosophical notions.

Jean, who was as fair as his brother was dark, as deliberate as his
brother was vehement, as gentle as his brother was unforgiving, had
quietly gone through his studies for the law and had just taken his
diploma as a licentiate, at the time when Pierre had taken his in
medicine. So they were now having a little rest at home, and both looked
forward to settling in Havre if they could find a satisfactory opening.

But a vague jealousy, one of those dormant jealousies which grow up
between brothers or sisters and slowly ripen till they burst, on the
occasion of a marriage perhaps, or of some good fortune happening to
one of them, kept them on the alert in a sort of brotherly and
non-aggressive animosity. They were fond of each other, it is true, but
they watched each other. Pierre, five years old when Jean was born,
had looked with the eyes of a little petted animal at that other little
animal which had suddenly come to lie in his father's and mother's arms
and to be loved and fondled by them. Jean, from his birth, had always
been a pattern of sweetness, gentleness, and good temper, and Pierre had
by degrees begun to chafe at ever-lastingly hearing the praises of this
great lad, whose sweetness in his eyes was indolence, whose gentleness
was stupidity, and whose kindliness was blindness. His parents, whose
dream for their sons was some respectable and undistinguished calling,
blamed him for so often changing his mind, for his fits of enthusiasm,
his abortive beginnings, and all his ineffectual impulses towards
generous ideas and the liberal professions.

Since he had grown to manhood they no longer said in so many words:
âLook at Jean and follow his example,â but every time he heard them say
âJean did this--Jean does that,â he understood their meaning and the
hint the words conveyed.

Their mother, an orderly person, a thrifty and rather sentimental woman
of the middle class, with the soul of a soft-hearted book-keeper, was
constantly quenching the little rivalries between her two big sons
to which the petty events of their life constantly gave rise. Another
little circumstance, too, just now disturbed her peace of mind, and
she was in fear of some complications; for in the course of the winter,
while her boys were finishing their studies, each in his own line, she
had made the acquaintance of a neighbour, Mme. Rosemilly, the widow of a
captain of a merchantman who had died at sea two years before. The young
widow--quite young, only three-and-twenty--a woman of strong intellect
who knew life by instinct as the free animals do, as though she
had seen, gone through, understood, and weighted every conceivable
contingency, and judged them with a wholesome, strict, and benevolent
mind, had fallen into the habit of calling to work or chat for an hour
in the evening with these friendly neighbours, who would give her a cup
of tea.

Father Roland, always goaded on by his seafaring craze, would question
their new friend about the departed captain; and she would talk of him,
and his voyages, and his old-world tales, without hesitation, like a
resigned and reasonable woman who loves life and respects death.

The two sons on their return, finding the pretty widow quite at home in
the house, forthwith began to court her, less from any wish to charm her
than from the desire to cut each other out.

Their mother, being practical and prudent, sincerely hoped that one of
them might win the young widow, for she was rich; but then she would
have liked that the other should not be grieved.

Mme. Rosemilly was fair, with blue eyes, a mass of light waving hair,
fluttering at the least breath of wind, and an alert, daring, pugnacious
little way with her, which did not in the least answer to the sober
method of her mind.

She already seemed to like Jean best, attracted, no doubt, by an
affinity of nature. This preference, however, she betrayed only by
an almost imperceptible difference of voice and look and also by
occasionally asking his opinion. She seemed to guess that Jean's
views would support her own, while those of Pierre must inevitably
be different. When she spoke of the doctor's ideas on politics, art,
philosophy, or morals, she would sometimes say: âYour crotchets.â Then
he would look at her with the cold gleam of an accuser drawing up an
indictment against women--all women, poor weak things.

Never till his sons came home had M. Roland invited her to join his
fishing expeditions, nor had he ever taken his wife; for he liked to put
off before daybreak, with his ally, Captain Beausire, a master mariner
retired, whom he had first met on the quay at high tides and with whom
he had struck up an intimacy, and the old sailor Papagris, known as Jean
Bart, in whose charge the boat was left.

But one evening of the week before, Mme. Rosemilly, who had been dining
with them, remarked, âIt must be great fun to go out fishing.â The
jeweller, flattered by her interest and suddenly fired with the wish
to share his favourite sport with her, and to make a convert after the
manner of priests, exclaimed: âWould you like to come?â

âTo be sure I should.â

âNext Tuesday?â

âYes, next Tuesday.â

âAre you the woman to be ready to start at five in the morning?â

She exclaimed in horror:

âNo, indeed: that is too much.â

He was disappointed and chilled, suddenly doubting her true vocation.
However, he said:

âAt what hour can you be ready?â

âWell--at nine?â

âNot before?â

âNo, not before. Even that is very early.â

The old fellow hesitated; he certainly would catch nothing, for when the
sun has warmed the sea the fish bite no more; but the two brothers had
eagerly pressed the scheme, and organized and arranged everything there
and then.

So on the following Tuesday the Pearl had dropped anchor under the white
rocks of Cape la Heve; they had fished till midday, then they had slept
awhile, and then fished again without catching anything; and then it
was that father Roland, perceiving, rather late, that all that Mme.
Rosemilly really enjoyed and cared for was the sail on the sea, and
seeing that his lines hung motionless, had uttered in a spirit of
unreasonable annoyance, that vehement âTschah!â which applied as much to
the pathetic widow as to the creatures he could not catch.

Now he contemplated the spoil--his fish--with the joyful thrill of a
miser; seeing as he looked up at the sky that the sun was getting low:
âWell, boys,â said he, âsuppose we turn homeward.â

The young men hauled in their lines, coiled them up, cleaned the hooks
and stuck them into corks, and sat waiting.

Roland stood up to look out like a captain.

âNo wind,â said he. âYou will have to pull, young 'uns.â

And suddenly extending one arm to the northward, he exclaimed:

âHere comes the packet from Southampton.â

Away over the level sea, spread out like a blue sheet, vast and sheeny
and shot with flame and gold, an inky cloud was visible against the rosy
sky in the quarter to which he pointed, and below it they could make out
the hull of the steamer, which looked tiny at such a distance. And to
southward other wreaths of smoke, numbers of them, could be seen, all
converging towards the Havre pier, now scarcely visible as a white
streak with the lighthouse, upright, like a horn, at the end of it.

Roland asked: âIs not the Normandie due to-day?â And Jean replied:

âYes, to-day.â

âGive me my glass. I fancy I see her out there.â

The father pulled out the copper tube, adjusted it to his eye, sought
the speck, and then, delighted to have seen it, exclaimed:

âYes, yes, there she is. I know her two funnels. Would you like to look,
Mme. Rosemilly?â

She took the telescope and directed it towards the Atlantic horizon,
without being able, however, to find the vessel, for she could
distinguish nothing--nothing but blue, with a coloured halo round it, a
circular rainbow--and then all manner of queer things, winking eclipses
which made her feel sick.

She said as she returned the glass:

âI never could see with that thing. It used to put my husband in quite a
rage; he would stand for hours at the windows watching the ships pass.â

Old Roland, much put out, retorted:

âThen it must be some defect in your eye, for my glass is a very good
one.â

Then he offered it to his wife.

âWould you like to look?â

âNo, thank you. I know before hand that I could not see through it.â

Mme. Roland, a woman of eight-and-forty but who did not look it, seemed
to be enjoying this excursion and this waning day more than any of the
party.

Her chestnut hair was only just beginning to show streaks of white. She
had a calm, reasonable face, a kind and happy way with her which it
was a pleasure to see. Her son Pierre was wont to say that she knew the
value of money, but this did not hinder her from enjoying the delights
of dreaming. She was fond of reading, of novels, and poetry, not for
their value as works of art, but for the sake of the tender melancholy
mood they would induce in her. A line of poetry, often but a poor one,
often a bad one, would touch the little chord, as she expressed it, and
give her the sense of some mysterious desire almost realized. And she
delighted in these faint emotions which brought a little flutter to her
soul, otherwise as strictly kept as a ledger.

Since settling at Havre she had become perceptibly stouter, and her
figure, which had been very supple and slight, had grown heavier.

This day on the sea had been delightful to her. Her husband, without
being brutal, was rough with her, as a man who is the despot of his
shop is apt to be rough, without anger or hatred; to such men to give an
order is to swear. He controlled himself in the presence of strangers,
but in private he let loose and gave himself terrible vent, though he
was himself afraid of every one. She, in sheer horror of the turmoil,
of scenes, of useless explanations, always gave way and never asked for
anything; for a very long time she had not ventured to ask Roland to
take her out in the boat. So she had joyfully hailed this opportunity,
and was keenly enjoying the rare and new pleasure.

From the moment when they started she surrendered herself completely,
body and soul, to the soft, gliding motion over the waves. She was not
thinking; her mind was not wandering through either memories or hopes;
it seemed to her as though her heart, like her body, was floating on
something soft and liquid and delicious which rocked and lulled it.

When their father gave the word to return, âCome, take your places at
the oars!â she smiled to see her sons, her two great boys, take off
their jackets and roll up their shirt-sleeves on their bare arms.

Pierre, who was nearest to the two women, took the stroke oar, Jean the
other, and they sat waiting till the skipper should say: âGive way!â For
he insisted on everything being done according to strict rule.

Simultaneously, as if by a single effort, they dipped the oars, and
lying back, pulling with all their might, began a struggle to display
their strength. They had come out easily, under sail, but the breeze
had died away, and the masculine pride of the two brothers was suddenly
aroused by the prospect of measuring their powers. When they went out
alone with their father they plied the oars without any steering, for
Roland would be busy getting the lines ready, while he kept a lookout in
the boat's course, guiding it by a sign or a word: âEasy, Jean, and you,
Pierre, put your back into it.â Or he would say, âNow, then, number
one; come, number two--a little elbow grease.â Then the one who had been
dreaming pulled harder, the one who had got excited eased down, and the
boat's head came round.

But to-day they meant to display their biceps. Pierre's arms were hairy,
somewhat lean but sinewy; Jean's were round and white and rosy, and the
knot of muscles moved under the skin.

At first Pierre had the advantage. With his teeth set, his brow knit,
his legs rigid, his hands clinched on the oar, he made it bend from
end to end at every stroke, and the Pearl was veering landward. Father
Roland, sitting in the bows, so as to leave the stern seat to the two
women, wasted his breath shouting, âEasy, number one; pull harder,
number two!â Pierre pulled harder in his frenzy, and ânumber twoâ could
not keep time with his wild stroke.

At last the skipper cried: âStop her!â The two oars were lifted
simultaneously, and then by his father's orders Jean pulled alone for
a few minutes. But from that moment he had it all his own way; he grew
eager and warmed to his work, while Pierre, out of breath and exhausted
by his first vigorous spurt, was lax and panting. Four times running
father Roland made them stop while the elder took breath, so as to get
the boat into her right course again. Then the doctor, humiliated and
fuming, his forehead dropping with sweat, his cheeks white, stammered
out:

âI cannot think what has come over me; I have a stitch in my side. I
started very well, but it has pulled me up.â

Jean asked: âShall I pull alone with both oars for a time?â

âNo, thanks, it will go off.â

And their mother, somewhat vexed, said:

âWhy, Pierre, what rhyme or reason is there in getting into such a
state. You are not a child.â

And he shrugged his shoulders and set to once more.

Mme. Rosemilly pretended not to see, not to understand, not to hear.
Her fair head went back with an engaging little jerk every time the boat
moved forward, making the fine wayward hairs flutter about her temples.

But father Roland presently called out:

âLook, the Prince Albert is catching us up!â

They all looked round. Long and low in the water, with her two
raking funnels and two yellow paddle-boxes like two round cheeks,
the Southampton packet came ploughing on at full steam, crowded with
passengers under open parasols. Its hurrying, noisy paddle-wheels
beating up the water which fell again in foam, gave it an appearance of
haste as of a courier pressed for time, and the upright stem cut through
the water, throwing up two thin translucent waves which glided off along
the hull.

When it had come quite near the Pearl, father Roland lifted his hat,
the ladies shook their handkerchiefs, and half a dozen parasols eagerly
waved on board the steamboat responded to this salute as she went on her
way, leaving behind her a few broad undulations on the still and glassy
surface of the sea.

There were other vessels, each with its smoky cap, coming in from every
part of the horizon towards the short white jetty, which swallowed them
up, one after another, like a mouth. And the fishing barks and lighter
craft with broad sails and slender masts, stealing across the sky in tow
of inconspicuous tugs, were coming in, faster and slower, towards the
devouring ogre, who from time to time seemed to have had a surfeit, and
spewed out to the open sea another fleet of steamers, brigs, schooners,
and three-masted vessels with their tangled mass of rigging. The
hurrying steamships flew off to the right and left over the smooth bosom
of the ocean, while sailing vessels, cast off by the pilot-tugs which
had hauled them out, lay motionless, dressing themselves from the
main-mast to the fore-tops in canvas, white or brown, and ruddy in the
setting sun.

Mme. Roland, with her eyes half-shut, murmured: âGood heavens, how
beautiful the sea is!â

And Mme. Rosemilly replied with a long sigh, which, however, had no
sadness in it:

âYes, but it is sometimes very cruel, all the same.â

Roland exclaimed:

âLook, there is the Normandie just going in. A big ship, isn't she?â

Then he described the coast opposite, far, far away, on the other side
of the mouth of the Seine--that mouth extended over twenty kilometres,
said he. He pointed out Villerville, Trouville, Houlgate, Luc,
Arromanches, the little river of Caen, and the rocks of Calvados which
make the coast unsafe as far as Cherbourg. Then he enlarged on the
question of the sand-banks in the Seine, which shift at every tide so
that even the pilots of Quilleboeuf are at fault if they do not survey
the channel every day. He bid them notice how the town of Havre divided
Upper from Lower Normandy. In Lower Normandy the shore sloped down
to the sea in pasture-lands, fields, and meadows. The coast of Upper
Normandy, on the contrary, was steep, a high cliff, ravined, cleft and
towering, forming an immense white rampart all the way to Dunkirk,
while in each hollow a village or a port lay hidden: Etretat, Fecamp,
Saint-Valery, Treport, Dieppe, and the rest.

The two women did not listen. Torpid with comfort and impressed by the
sight of the ocean covered with vessels rushing to and fro like wild
beasts about their den, they sat speechless, somewhat awed by the
soothing and gorgeous sunset. Roland alone talked on without end; he
was one of those whom nothing can disturb. Women, whose nerves are
more sensitive, sometimes feel, without knowing why, that the sound of
useless speech is as irritating as an insult.

Pierre and Jean, who had calmed down, were rowing slowly, and the Pearl
was making for the harbour, a tiny thing among those huge vessels.

When they came alongside of the quay, Papagris, who was waiting there,
gave his hand to the ladies to help them out, and they took the way into
the town. A large crowd, the crowd which haunts the pier every day at
high tide--was also drifting homeward. Mme. Roland and Mme. Rosemilly
led the way, followed by the three men. As they went up the Rue de Paris
they stopped now and then in front of a milliner's or a jeweller's shop,
to look at a bonnet or an ornament; then after making their comments
they went on again. In front of the Place de la Bourse Roland paused, as
he did every day, to gaze at the docks full of vessels--the _Bassin du
Commerce_, with other docks beyond, where the huge hulls lay side by
side, closely packed in rows, four or five deep. And masts innumerable;
along several kilometres of quays the endless masts, with their yards,
poles, and rigging, gave this great gap in the heart of the town
the look of a dead forest. Above this leafless forest the gulls were
wheeling, and watching to pounce, like a falling stone, on any scraps
flung overboard; a sailor boy, fixing a pulley to a cross-beam, looked
as if he had gone up there bird's-nesting.

âWill you dine with us without any sort of ceremony, just that we may
end the day together?â said Mme. Roland to her friend.

âTo be sure I will, with pleasure; I accept equally without ceremony. It
would be dismal to go home and be alone this evening.â

Pierre, who had heard, and who was beginning to be restless under the
young woman's indifference, muttered to himself: âWell, the widow is
taking root now, it would seem.â For some days past he had spoken of her
as âthe widow.â The word, harmless in itself, irritated Jean merely by
the tone given to it, which to him seemed spiteful and offensive.

The three men spoke not another word till they reached the threshold of
their own house. It was a narrow one, consisting of a ground-floor and
two floors above, in the Rue Belle-Normande. The maid, Josephine, a girl
of nineteen, a rustic servant-of-all-work at low wages, gifted to excess
with the startled animal expression of a peasant, opened the door, went
up stairs at her master's heels to the drawing-room, which was on the
first floor, and then said:

âA gentleman called--three times.â

Old Roland, who never spoke to her without shouting and swearing, cried
out:

âWho do you say called, in the devil's name?â

She never winced at her master's roaring voice, and replied:

âA gentleman from the lawyer's.â

âWhat lawyer?â

âWhy, M'sieu 'Canu--who else?â

âAnd what did this gentleman say?â

âThat M'sieu 'Canu will call in himself in the course of the evening.â

Maitre Lecanu was M. Roland's lawyer, and in a way his friend, managing
his business for him. For him to send word that he would call in the
evening, something urgent and important must be in the wind; and the
four Rolands looked at each other, disturbed by the announcement as
folks of small fortune are wont to be at any intervention of a lawyer,
with its suggestions of contracts, inheritance, lawsuits--all sorts of
desirable or formidable contingencies. The father, after a few moments
of silence, muttered:

âWhat on earth can it mean?â

Mme. Rosemilly began to laugh.

âWhy, a legacy, of course. I am sure of it. I bring good luck.â

But they did not expect the death of any one who might leave them
anything.

Mme. Roland, who had a good memory for relationships, began to think
over all their connections on her husband's side and on her own, to
trace up pedigrees and the ramifications of cousin-ship.

Before even taking off her bonnet she said:

âI say, fatherâ (she called her husband âfatherâ at home, and sometimes
âMonsieur Rolandâ before strangers), âtell me, do you remember who it
was that Joseph Lebru married for the second time?â

âYes--a little girl named Dumenil, a stationer's daughter.â

âHad they any children?â

âI should think so! four or five at least.â

âNot from that quarter, then.â

She was quite eager already in her search; she caught at the hope of
some added ease dropping from the sky. But Pierre, who was very fond of
his mother, who knew her to be somewhat visionary and feared she might
be disappointed, a little grieved, a little saddened if the news were
bad instead of good, checked her:

âDo not get excited, mother; there is no rich American uncle. For my
part, I should sooner fancy that it is about a marriage for Jean.â

Every one was surprised at the suggestion, and Jean was a little ruffled
by his brother's having spoken of it before Mme. Rosemilly.

âAnd why for me rather than for you? The hypothesis is very disputable.
You are the elder; you, therefore, would be the first to be thought of.
Besides, I do not wish to marry.â

Pierre smiled sneeringly:

âAre you in love, then?â

And the other, much put out, retorted: âIs it necessary that a man
should be in love because he does not care to marry yet?â

âAh, there you are! That 'yet' sets it right; you are waiting.â

âGranted that I am waiting, if you will have it so.â

But old Roland, who had been listening and cogitating, suddenly hit upon
the most probable solution.

âBless me! what fools we are to be racking our brains. Maitre Lecanu is
our very good friend; he knows that Pierre is looking out for a medical
partnership and Jean for a lawyer's office, and he has found something
to suit one of you.â

This was so obvious and likely that every one accepted it.

âDinner is ready,â said the maid. And they all hurried off to their
rooms to wash their hands before sitting down to table.

Ten minutes later they were at dinner in the little dining-room on the
ground-floor.

At first they were silent; but presently Roland began again in amazement
at this lawyer's visit.

âFor after all, why did he not write? Why should he have sent his clerk
three times? Why is he coming himself?â

Pierre thought it quite natural.

âAn immediate decision is required, no doubt; and perhaps there are
certain confidential conditions which it does not do to put into
writing.â

Still, they were all puzzled, and all four a little annoyed at having
invited a stranger, who would be in the way of their discussing and
deciding on what should be done.

They had just gone upstairs again when the lawyer was announced. Roland
flew to meet him.

âGood-evening, my dear Maitre,â said he, giving his visitor the title
which in France is the official prefix to the name of every lawyer.

Mme. Rosemilly rose.

âI am going,â she said. âI am very tired.â

A faint attempt was made to detain her; but she would not consent, and
went home without either of the three men offering to escort her, as
they always had done.

Mme. Roland did the honours eagerly to their visitor.

âA cup of coffee, monsieur?â

âNo, thank you. I have just had dinner.â

âA cup of tea, then?â

âThank you, I will accept one later. First we must attend to business.â

The deep silence which succeeded this remark was broken only by the
regular ticking of the clock, and below stairs the clatter of saucepans
which the girl was cleaning--too stupid even to listen at the door.

The lawyer went on:

âDid you, in Paris, know a certain M. Marechal--Leon Marechal?â

M. and Mme. Roland both exclaimed at once: âI should think so!â

âHe was a friend of yours?â

Roland replied: âOur best friend, monsieur, but a fanatic for Paris;
never to be got away from the boulevard. He was a head clerk in the
exchequer office. I have never seen him since I left the capital, and
latterly we had ceased writing to each other. When people are far apart
you know----â

The lawyer gravely put in:

âM. Marechal is deceased.â

Both man and wife responded with the little movement of pained surprise,
genuine or false, but always ready, with which such news is received.

Maitre Lecanu went on:

âMy colleague in Paris has just communicated to me the main item of his
will, by which he makes your son Jean--Monsieur Jean Roland--his sole
legatee.â

They were all too much amazed to utter a single word. Mme. Roland was
the first to control her emotion and stammered out:

âGood heavens! Poor Leon--our poor friend! Dear me! Dear me! Dead!â

The tears started to her eyes, a woman's silent tears, drops of grief
from her very soul, which trickle down her cheeks and seem so very sad,
being so clear. But Roland was thinking less of the loss than of the
prospect announced. Still, he dared not at once inquire into the clauses
of the will and the amount of the fortune, so to work round to these
interesting facts he asked:

âAnd what did he die of, poor Marechal?â

Maitre Lecanu did not know in the least.

âAll I know is,â said he, âthat dying without any direct heirs, he
has left the whole of his fortune--about twenty thousand francs a year
($3,840) in three per cents--to your second son, whom he has known from
his birth up, and judges worthy of the legacy. If M. Jean should refuse
the money, it is to go to the foundling hospitals.â

Old Roland could not conceal his delight and exclaimed:

âSacristi! It is the thought of a kind heart. And if I had had no heir I
would not have forgotten him; he was a true friend.â

The lawyer smiled.

âI was very glad,â he said, âto announce the event to you myself. It is
always a pleasure to be the bearer of good news.â

It had not struck him that this good news was that of the death of a
friend, of Roland's best friend; and the old man himself had suddenly
forgotten the intimacy he had but just spoken of with so much
conviction.

Only Mme. Roland and her sons still looked mournful. She, indeed, was
still shedding a few tears, wiping her eyes with her handkerchief, which
she then pressed to her lips to smother her deep sobs.

The doctor murmured:

âHe was a good fellow, very affectionate. He often invited us to dine
with him--my brother and me.â

Jean, with wide-open, glittering eyes, laid his hand on his handsome
fair beard, a familiar gesture with him, and drew his fingers down it
to the tip of the last hairs, as if to pull it longer and thinner. Twice
his lips parted to utter some decent remark, but after long meditation
he could only say this:

âYes, he was certainly fond of me. He would always embrace me when I
went to see him.â

But his father's thoughts had set off at a gallop--galloping round this
inheritance to come; nay, already in hand; this money lurking behind the
door, which would walk in quite soon, to-morrow, at a word of consent.

âAnd there is no possible difficulty in the way?â he asked. âNo
lawsuit--no one to dispute it?â

Maitre Lecanu seemed quite easy.

âNo; my Paris correspondent states that everything is quite clear. M.
Jean has only to sign his acceptance.â

âGood. Then--then the fortune is quite clear?â

âPerfectly clear.â

âAll the necessary formalities have been gone through?â

âAll.â

Suddenly the old jeweller had an impulse of shame--obscure, instinctive,
and fleeting; shame of his eagerness to be informed, and he added:

âYou understand that I ask all these questions immediately so as to save
my son unpleasant consequences which he might not foresee. Sometimes
there are debts, embarrassing liabilities, what not! And a legatee finds
himself in an inextricable thorn-bush. After all, I am not the heir--but
I think first of the little 'un.â

They were accustomed to speak of Jean among themselves as the âlittle
one,â though he was much bigger than Pierre.

Suddenly Mme. Roland seemed to wake from a dream, to recall some remote
fact, a thing almost forgotten that she had heard long ago, and of which
she was not altogether sure. She inquired doubtingly:

âWere you not saying that our poor friend Marechal had left his fortune
to my little Jean?â

âYes, madame.â

And she went on simply:

âI am much pleased to hear it; it proves that he was attached to us.â

Roland had risen.

âAnd would you wish, my dear sir, that my son should at once sign his
acceptance?â

âNo--no, M. Roland. To-morrow, at my office to-morrow, at two o'clock,
if that suits you.â

âYes, to be sure--yes, indeed. I should think so.â

Then Mme. Roland, who had also risen and who was smiling after her
tears, went up to the lawyer, and laying her hand on the back of his
chair while she looked at him with the pathetic eyes of a grateful
mother, she said:

âAnd now for that cup of tea, Monsieur Lecanu?â

âNow I will accept it with pleasure, madame.â

The maid, on being summoned, brought in first some dry biscuits in deep
tin boxes, those crisp, insipid English cakes which seem to have been
made for a parrot's beak, and soldered into metal cases for a voyage
round the world. Next she fetched some little gray linen doilies, folded
square, those tea-napkins which in thrifty families never get washed. A
third time she came in with the sugar-basin and cups; then she departed
to heat the water. They sat waiting.

No one could talk; they had too much to think about and nothing to
say. Mme. Roland alone attempted a few commonplace remarks. She gave an
account of the fishing excursion, and sang the praises of the Pearl and
of Mme. Rosemilly.

âCharming, charming!â the lawyer said again and again.

Roland, leaning against the marble mantel-shelf as if it were winter and
the fire burning, with his hands in his pockets and his lips puckered
for a whistle, could not keep still, tortured by the invincible desire
to give vent to his delight. The two brothers, in two arm-chairs that
matched, one on each side of the centre-table, stared in front of them,
in similar attitudes full of dissimilar expressions.

At last the tea appeared. The lawyer took a cup, sugared it, and drank
it, after having crumbled into it a little cake which was too hard to
crunch. Then he rose, shook hands, and departed.

âThen it is understood,â repeated Roland. âTo-morrow, at your place, at
two?â

âQuite so. To-morrow, at two.â

Jean had not spoken a word.

When their guest had gone, silence fell again till father Roland clapped
his two hands on his younger son's shoulders, crying:

âWell, you devilish lucky dog! You don't embrace me!â

Then Jean smiled. He embraced his father, saying:

âIt had not struck me as indispensable.â

The old man was beside himself with glee. He walked about the room,
strummed on the furniture with his clumsy nails, turned about on his
heels, and kept saying:

âWhat luck! What luck! Now, that is really what I call luck!â

Pierre asked:

âThen you used to know this Marechal well?â

And his father replied:

âI believe! Why, he used to spend every evening at our house. Surely you
remember he used to fetch you from school on half-holidays, and often
took you back again after dinner. Why, the very day when Jean was born
it was he who went for the doctor. He had been breakfasting with us when
your mother was taken ill. Of course we knew at once what it meant, and
he set off post-haste. In his hurry he took my hat instead of his own. I
remember that because we had a good laugh over it afterward. It is very
likely that he may have thought of that when he was dying, and as he had
no heir he may have said to himself: 'I remember helping to bring that
youngster into the world, so I will leave him my savings.'â

Mme. Roland, sunk in a deep chair, seemed lost in reminiscences once
more. She murmured, as though she were thinking aloud:

âAh, he was a good friend, very devoted, very faithful, a rare soul in
these days.â

Jean got up.

âI shall go out for a little walk,â he said.

His father was surprised and tried to keep him; they had much to talk
about, plans to be made, decisions to be formed. But the young man
insisted, declaring that he had an engagement. Besides, there would be
time enough for settling everything before he came into possession of
his inheritance. So he went away, for he wished to be alone to reflect.
Pierre, on his part, said that he too was going out, and after a few
minutes followed his brother.

As soon as he was alone with his wife, father Roland took her in
his arms, kissed her a dozen times on each cheek, and, replying to a
reproach she had often brought against him, said:

âYou see, my dearest, that it would have been no good to stay any longer
in Paris and work for the children till I dropped, instead of coming
here to recruit my health, since fortune drops on us from the skies.â

She was quite serious.

âIt drops from the skies on Jean,â she said. âBut Pierre?â

âPierre? But he is a doctor; he will make plenty of money; besides, his
brother will surely do something for him.â

âNo, he would not take it. Besides, this legacy is for Jean, only for
Jean. Pierre will find himself at a great disadvantage.â

The old fellow seemed perplexed: âWell, then, we will leave him rather
more in our will.â

âNo; that again would not be quite just.â

âDrat it all!â he exclaimed. âWhat do you want me to do in the matter?
You always hit on a whole heap of disagreeable ideas. You must spoil all
my pleasures. Well, I am going to bed. Good-night. All the same, I call
it good luck, jolly good luck!â

And he went off, delighted in spite of everything, and without a word of
regret for the friend so generous in his death.

Mme. Roland sat thinking again in front of the lamp which was burning
out.



CHAPTER II

As soon as he got out, Pierre made his way to the Rue de Paris, the
high-street of Havre, brightly lighted up, lively and noisy. The rather
sharp air of the seacoast kissed his face, and he walked slowly, his
stick under his arm and his hands behind his back. He was ill at ease,
oppressed, out of heart, as one is after hearing unpleasant tidings.
He was not distressed by any definite thought, and he would have been
puzzled to account, on the spur of the moment, for this dejection of
spirit and heaviness of limb. He was hurt somewhere, without knowing
where; somewhere within him there was a pin-point of pain--one of those
almost imperceptible wounds which we cannot lay a finger on, but which
incommode us, tire us, depress us, irritate us--a slight and occult
pang, as it were a small seed of distress.

When he reached the square in front of the theatre, he was attracted
by the lights in the Cafe Tortoni, and slowly bent his steps to the
dazzling facade; but just as he was going in he reflected that he would
meet friends there and acquaintances--people he would be obliged to
talk to; and fierce repugnance surged up in him for this commonplace
good-fellowship over coffee cups and liqueur glasses. So, retracing his
steps, he went back to the high-street leading to the harbour.

âWhere shall I go?â he asked himself, trying to think of a spot he liked
which would agree with his frame of mind. He could not think of one, for
being alone made him feel fractious, yet he could not bear to meet any
one. As he came out on the Grand Quay he hesitated once more; then he
turned towards the pier; he had chosen solitude.

Going close by a bench on the breakwater he sat down, tired already of
walking and out of humour with his stroll before he had taken it.

He said to himself: âWhat is the matter with me this evening?â And he
began to search in his memory for what vexation had crossed him, as we
question a sick man to discover the cause of his fever.

His mind was at once irritable and sober; he got excited, then he
reasoned, approving or blaming his impulses; but in time primitive
nature at last proved the stronger; the sensitive man always had the
upper hand over the intellectual man. So he tried to discover what had
induced this irascible mood, this craving to be moving without wanting
anything, this desire to meet some one for the sake of differing from
him, and at the same time this aversion for the people he might see and
the things they might say to him.

And then he put the question to himself, âCan it be Jean's inheritance?â

Yes, it was certainly possible. When the lawyer had announced the news
he had felt his heart beat a little faster. For, indeed, one is not
always master of one's self; there are sudden and pertinacious emotions
against which a man struggles in vain.

He fell into meditation on the physiological problem of the impression
produced on the instinctive element in man, and giving rise to a current
of painful or pleasurable sensations diametrically opposed to those
which the thinking man desires, aims at, and regards as right and
wholesome, when he has risen superior to himself by the cultivation of
his intellect. He tried to picture to himself the frame of mind of a son
who had inherited a vast fortune, and who, thanks to that wealth, may
now know many long-wished-for delights, which the avarice of his father
had prohibited--a father, nevertheless, beloved and regretted.

He got up and walked on to the end of the pier. He felt better, and
glad to have understood, to have detected himself, to have unmasked _the
other_ which lurks in us.

âThen I was jealous of Jean,â thought he. âThat is really vilely mean.
And I am sure of it now, for the first idea which came into my head was
that he would marry Mme. Rosemilly. And yet I am not in love myself with
that priggish little goose, who is just the woman to disgust a man with
good sense and good conduct. So it is the most gratuitous jealousy, the
very essence of jealousy, which is merely because it is! I must keep an
eye on that!â

By this time he was in front of the flag-staff, whence the depth of
water in the harbour is signalled, and he struck a match to read the
list of vessels signalled in the roadstead and coming in with the next
high tide. Ships were due from Brazil, from La Plata, from Chili
and Japan, two Danish brigs, a Norwegian schooner, and a Turkish
steamship--which startled Pierre as much as if it had read a Swiss
steamship; and in a whimsical vision he pictured a great vessel crowded
with men in turbans climbing the shrouds in loose trousers.

âHow absurd!â thought he. âBut the Turks are a maritime people, too.â

A few steps further on he stopped again, looking out at the roads. On
the right, above Sainte-Adresse, the two electric lights of Cape la
Heve, like monstrous twin Cyclops, shot their long and powerful beams
across the sea. Starting from two neighbouring centres, the two parallel
shafts of light, like the colossal tails of two comets, fell in a
straight and endless slope from the top of the cliff to the uttermost
horizon. Then, on the two piers, two more lights, the children of these
giants, marked the entrance to the harbour; and far away on the other
side of the Seine others were in sight, many others, steady or winking,
flashing or revolving, opening and shutting like eyes--the eyes of the
ports--yellow, red, and green, watching the night-wrapped sea covered
with ships; the living eyes of the hospitable shore saying, merely by
the mechanical and regular movement of their eye-lids: âI am here. I am
Trouville; I am Honfleur; I am the Andemer River.â And high above
all the rest, so high that from this distance it might be taken for a
planet, the airy lighthouse of Etouville showed the way to Rouen across
the sand banks at the mouth of the great river.

Out on the deep water, the limitless water, darker than the sky, stars
seemed to have fallen here and there. They twinkled in the night haze,
small, close to shore or far away--white, red, and green, too. Most of
them were motionless; some, however, seemed to be scudding onward. These
were the lights of the ships at anchor or moving about in search of
moorings.

Just at this moment the moon rose behind the town; and it, too, looked
like some huge, divine pharos lighted up in the heavens to guide the
countless fleet of stars in the sky. Pierre murmured, almost speaking
aloud: âLook at that! And we let our bile rise for twopence!â

On a sudden, close to him, in the wide, dark ditch between the two
piers, a shadow stole up, a large shadow of fantastic shape. Leaning
over the granite parapet, he saw that a fishing-boat had glided in,
without the sound of a voice or the splash of a ripple, or the plunge
of an oar, softly borne in by its broad, tawny sail spread to the breeze
from the open sea.

He thought to himself: âIf one could but live on board that boat, what
peace it would be--perhaps!â

And then again a few steps beyond, he saw a man sitting at the very end
of the breakwater.

A dreamer, a lover, a sage--a happy or a desperate man? Who was it? He
went forward, curious to see the face of this lonely individual, and he
recognised his brother.

âWhat, is it you, Jean?â

âPierre! You! What has brought you here?â

âI came out to get some fresh air. And you?â

Jean began to laugh.

âI too came out for fresh air.â And Pierre sat down by his brother's
side.

âLovely--isn't it?â

âOh, yes, lovely.â

He understood from the tone of voice that Jean had not looked at
anything. He went on:

âFor my part, whenever I come here I am seized with a wild desire to be
off with all those boats, to the north or the south. Only to think that
all those little sparks out there have just come from the uttermost ends
of the earth, from the lands of great flowers and beautiful olive or
copper coloured girls, the lands of humming-birds, of elephants,
of roaming lions, of negro kings, from all the lands which are like
fairy-tales to us who no longer believe in the White Cat or the Sleeping
Beauty. It would be awfully jolly to be able to treat one's self to an
excursion out there; but, then, it would cost a great deal of money, no
end--â

He broke off abruptly, remembering that his brother had that money now;
and released from care, released from labouring for his daily bread,
free, unfettered, happy, and light-hearted, he might go whither he
listed, to find the fair-haired Swedes or the brown damsels of Havana.
And then one of those involuntary flashes which were common with him, so
sudden and swift that he could neither anticipate them, nor stop them,
nor qualify them, communicated, as it seemed to him, from some second,
independent, and violent soul, shot through his brain.

âBah! He is too great a simpleton; he will marry that little Rosemilly.â
 He was standing up now. âI will leave you to dream of the future. I want
to be moving.â He grasped his brother's hand and added in a heavy tone:

âWell, my dear old boy, you are a rich man. I am very glad to have come
upon you this evening to tell you how pleased I am about it, how truly I
congratulate you, and how much I care for you.â

Jean, tender and soft-hearted, was deeply touched.

âThank you, my good brother--thank you!â he stammered.

And Pierre turned away with his slow step, his stick under his arm, and
his hands behind his back.

Back in the town again, he once more wondered what he should do, being
disappointed of his walk and deprived of the company of the sea by his
brother's presence. He had an inspiration. âI will go and take a glass
of liqueur with old Marowsko,â and he went off towards the quarter of
the town known as Ingouville.

He had known old Marowsko-_le pere Marowsko_, he called him--in the
hospitals in Paris. He was a Pole, an old refugee, it was said, who
had gone through terrible things out there, and who had come to ply
his calling as a chemist and druggist in France after passing a fresh
examination. Nothing was known of his early life, and all sorts of
legends had been current among the indoor and outdoor patients
and afterward among his neighbours. This reputation as a terrible
conspirator, a nihilist, a regicide, a patriot ready for anything and
everything, who had escaped death by a miracle, had bewitched Pierre
Roland's lively and bold imagination; he had made friends with the old
Pole, without, however, having ever extracted from him any revelation as
to his former career. It was owing to the young doctor that this worthy
had come to settle at Havre, counting on the large custom which the
rising practitioner would secure him. Meanwhile he lived very poorly in
his little shop, selling medicines to the small tradesmen and workmen in
his part of the town.

Pierre often went to see him and chat with him for an hour after dinner,
for he liked Marowsko's calm look and rare speech, and attributed great
depth to his long spells of silence.

A simple gas-burner was alight over the counter crowded with phials.
Those in the window were not lighted, from motives of economy. Behind
the counter, sitting on a chair with his legs stretched out and
crossed, an old man, quite bald, with a large beak of a nose which, as a
prolongation of his hairless forehead, gave him a melancholy likeness to
a parrot, was sleeping soundly, his chin resting on his breast. He woke
at the sound of the shop-bell, and recognising the doctor, came forward
to meet him, holding out both hands.

His black frock-coat, streaked with stains of acids and sirups, was
much too wide for his lean little person, and looked like a shabby old
cassock; and the man spoke with a strong Polish accent which gave the
childlike character to his thin voice, the lisping note and intonations
of a young thing learning to speak.

Pierre sat down, and Marowsko asked him: âWhat news, dear doctor?â

âNone. Everything as usual, everywhere.â

âYou do not look very gay this evening.â

âI am not often gay.â

âCome, come, you must shake that off. Will you try a glass of liqueur?â

âYes, I do not mind.â

âThen I will give you something new to try. For these two months I have
been trying to extract something from currants, of which only a sirup
has been made hitherto--well, and I have done it. I have invented a very
good liqueur--very good indeed; very good.â

And quite delighted, he went to a cupboard, opened it, and picked out
a bottle which he brought forth. He moved and did everything in jerky
gestures, always incomplete; he never quite stretched out his arm, nor
quite put out his legs; nor made any broad and definite movements. His
ideas seemed to be like his actions; he suggested them, promised them,
sketched them, hinted at them, but never fully uttered them.

And, indeed, his great end in life seemed to be the concoction of
sirups and liqueurs. âA good sirup or a good liqueur is enough to make a
fortune,â he would often say.

He had compounded hundreds of these sweet mixtures without ever
succeeding in floating one of them. Pierre declared that Marowsko always
reminded him of Marat.

Two little glasses were fetched out of the back shop and placed on the
mixing-board. Then the two men scrutinized the colour of the fluid by
holding it up to the gas.

âA fine ruby,â Pierre declared.

âIsn't it?â Marowsko's old parrot-face beamed with satisfaction.

The doctor tasted, smacked his lips, meditated, tasted again, meditated
again, and spoke:

âVery good--capital; and quite new in flavour. It is a find, my dear
fellow.â

âAh, really? Well, I am very glad.â

Then Marowsko took counsel as to baptizing the new liqueur. He wanted
to call it âExtract of currants,â or else â_Fine Groseille_â or
â_Groselia_,â or again â_Groseline_.â Pierre did not approve of either
of these names.

Then the old man had an idea:

âWhat you said just now would be very good, very good: 'Fine Ruby.'â
 But the doctor disputed the merit of this name, though it had originated
with him. He recommended simply âGroseillette,â which Marowsko thought
admirable.

Then they were silent, and sat for some minutes without a word under the
solitary gas-lamp. At last Pierre began, almost in spite of himself:

âA queer thing has happened at home this evening. A friend of my
father's, who is lately dead, has left his fortune to my brother.â

The druggist did not at first seem to understand, but after thinking it
over he hoped that the doctor had half the inheritance. When the matter
was clearly explained to him he appeared surprised and vexed; and to
express his dissatisfaction at finding that his young friend had been
sacrificed, he said several times over:

âIt will not look well.â

Pierre, who was relapsing into nervous irritation, wanted to know what
Marowsko meant by this phrase.

Why would it not look well? What was there to look badly in the fact
that his brother had come into the money of a friend of the family?

But the cautious old man would not explain further.

âIn such a case the money is left equally to the two brothers, and I
tell you, it will not look well.â

And the doctor, out of all patience, went away, returned to his father's
house, and went to bed. For some time afterward he heard Jean moving
softly about the adjoining room, and then, after drinking two glasses of
water, he fell asleep.



CHAPTER III

The doctor awoke next morning firmly resolved to make his fortune.
Several times already he had come to the same determination without
following up the reality. At the outset of all his trials of some new
career the hopes of rapidly acquired riches kept up his efforts and
confidence, till the first obstacle, the first check, threw him into a
fresh path. Snug in bed between the warm sheets, he lay meditating. How
many medical men had become wealthy in quite a short time! All that was
needed was a little knowledge of the world; for in the course of his
studies he had learned to estimate the most famous physicians, and he
judged them all to be asses. He was certainly as good as they, if not
better. If by any means he could secure a practice among the wealth and
fashion of Havre, he could easily make a hundred thousand francs a year.
And he calculated with great exactitude what his certain profits must
be. He would go out in the morning to visit his patients; at the very
moderate average of ten a day, at twenty francs each, that would mount
up to seventy-two thousand francs a year at least, or even seventy-five
thousand; for ten patients was certainly below the mark. In the
afternoon he would be at home to, say, another ten patients, at ten
francs each--thirty-six thousand francs. Here, then, in round numbers
was an income of twenty thousand francs. Old patients, or friends whom
he would charge only ten francs for a visit, or see at home for
five, would perhaps make a slight reduction on this sum total, but
consultations with other physicians and various incidental fees would
make up for that.

Nothing could be easier than to achieve this by skilful advertising
remarks in the Figaro to the effect that the scientific faculty of Paris
had their eye on him, and were interested in the cures effected by the
modest young practitioner of Havre! And he would be richer than his
brother, richer and more famous; and satisfied with himself, for he
would owe his fortune solely to his own exertions; and liberal to his
old parents, who would be justly proud of his fame. He would not marry,
would not burden his life with a wife who would be in his way, but he
would choose his mistress from the most beautiful of his patients. He
felt so sure of success that he sprang out of bed as though to grasp it
on the spot, and he dressed to go and search through the town for rooms
to suit him.

Then, as he wandered about the streets, he reflected how slight are the
causes which determine our actions. Any time these three weeks he might
and ought to have come to this decision, which, beyond a doubt, the news
of his brother's inheritance had abruptly given rise to.

He stopped before every door where a placard proclaimed that âfine
apartmentsâ or âhandsome roomsâ were to be let; announcements without an
adjective he turned from with scorn. Then he inspected them with a
lofty air, measuring the height of the rooms, sketching the plan in his
note-book, with the passages, the arrangement of the exits, explaining
that he was a medical man and had many visitors. He must have a broad
and well-kept stair-case; nor could he be any higher up than the first
floor.

After having written down seven or eight addresses and scribbled two
hundred notes, he got home to breakfast a quarter of an hour too late.

In the hall he heard the clatter of plates. Then they had begun without
him! Why? They were never wont to be so punctual. He was nettled and put
out, for he was somewhat thin-skinned. As he went in Roland said to him:

âCome, Pierre, make haste, devil take you! You know we have to be at the
lawyer's at two o'clock. This is not the day to be dawdling.â

Pierre sat down without replying, after kissing his mother and shaking
hands with his father and brother; and he helped himself from the deep
dish in the middle of the table to the cutlet which had been kept for
him. It was cold and dry, probably the least tempting of them all. He
thought that they might have left it on the hot plate till he came in,
and not lose their heads so completely as to have forgotten their other
son, their eldest.

The conversation, which his entrance had interrupted, was taken up again
at the point where it had ceased.

âIn your place,â Mme. Roland was saying to Jean, âI will tell you what
I should do at once. I should settle in handsome rooms so as to attract
attention; I should ride on horseback and select one or two interesting
cases to defend and make a mark in court. I would be a sort of amateur
lawyer, and very select. Thank God you are out of all danger of want,
and if you pursue a profession, it is, after all, only that you may not
lose the benefit of your studies, and because a man ought never to sit
idle.â

Old Roland, who was peeling a pear, exclaimed:

âChristi! In your place I should buy a nice yacht, a cutter on the build
of our pilot-boats. I would sail as far as Senegal in such a boat as
that.â

Pierre, in his turn, spoke his views. After all, said he, it was not his
wealth which made the moral worth, the intellectual worth of a man. To
a man of inferior mind it was only a means of degradation, while in the
hands of a strong man it was a powerful lever. They, to be sure, were
rare. If Jean were a really superior man, now that he could never want
he might prove it. But then he must work a hundred times harder than he
would have done in other circumstances. His business now must be not to
argue for or against the widow and the orphan, and pocket his fees for
every case he gained, but to become a really eminent legal authority, a
luminary of the law. And he added in conclusion:

âIf I were rich wouldn't I dissect no end of bodies!â

Father Roland shrugged his shoulders.

âThat is all very fine,â he said. âBut the wisest way of life is to take
it easy. We are not beasts of burden, but men. If you are born poor you
must work; well, so much the worse; and you do work. But where you have
dividends! You must be a flat if you grind yourself to death.â

Pierre replied haughtily:

âOur notions differ. For my part, I respect nothing on earth but
learning and intellect; everything else is beneath contempt.â

Mme. Roland always tried to deaden the constant shocks between father
and son; she turned the conversation, and began talking of a murder
committed the week before at Bolbec Nointot. Their minds were
immediately full of the circumstances under which the crime had been
committed, and absorbed by the interesting horror, the attractive
mystery of crime, which, however commonplace, shameful, and disgusting,
exercises a strange and universal fascination over the curiosity of
mankind. Now and again, however, old Roland looked at his watch. âCome,â
 said he, âit is time to be going.â

Pierre sneered.

âIt is not yet one o'clock,â he said. âIt really was hardly worth while
to condemn me to eat a cold cutlet.â

âAre you coming to the lawyer's?â his mother asked.

âI? No. What for?â he replied dryly. âMy presence is quite unnecessary.â

Jean sat silent, as though he had no concern in the matter. When they
were discussing the murder at Bolbec he, as a legal authority, had
put forward some opinions and uttered some reflections on crime and
criminals. Now he spoke no more; but the sparkle in his eye, the bright
colour in his cheeks, the very gloss of his beard seemed to proclaim his
happiness.

When the family had gone, Pierre, alone once more, resumed his
investigations in the apartments to let. After two or three hours
spent in going up and down stairs, he at last found, in the Boulevard
Francois, a pretty set of rooms; a spacious entresol with two doors on
two different streets, two drawing-rooms, a glass corridor, where his
patients while they waited, might walk among flowers, and a delightful
dining-room with a bow-window looking out over the sea.

When it came to taking it, the terms--three thousand francs--pulled him
up; the first quarter must be paid in advance, and he had nothing, not a
penny to call his own.

The little fortune his father had saved brought him in about eight
thousand francs a year, and Pierre had often blamed himself for having
placed his parents in difficulties by his long delay in deciding on a
profession, by forfeiting his attempts and beginning fresh courses of
study. So he went away, promising to send his answer within two days,
and it occurred to him to ask Jean to lend him the amount of this
quarter's rent, or even of a half-year, fifteen hundred francs, as soon
as Jean should have come into possession.

âIt will be a loan for a few months at most,â he thought. âI shall repay
him, very likely before the end of the year. It is a simple matter, and
he will be glad to do so much for me.â

As it was not yet four o'clock, and he had nothing to do, absolutely
nothing, he went to sit in the public gardens; and he remained a long
time on a bench, without an idea in his brain, his eyes fixed on the
ground, crushed by weariness amounting to distress.

And yet this was how he had been living all these days since his return
home, without suffering so acutely from the vacuity of his existence and
from inaction. How had he spent his time from rising in the morning till
bed-time?

He had loafed on the pier at high tide, loafed in the streets, loafed in
the cafes, loafed at Marowsko's, loafed everywhere. And on a sudden this
life, which he had endured till now, had become odious, intolerable. If
he had had any pocket-money, he would have taken a carriage for a long
drive in the country, along by the farm-ditches shaded by beech and elm
trees; but he had to think twice of the cost of a glass of beer or a
postage-stamp, and such an indulgence was out of his ken. It suddenly
struck him how hard it was for a man of past thirty to be reduced to ask
his mother, with a blush for a twenty-franc piece every now and then;
and he muttered, as he scored the gravel with the ferule of his stick:

âChristi, if I only had money!â

And again the thought of his brother's legacy came into his head like
the sting of a wasp; but he drove it out indignantly, not choosing to
allow himself to slip down that descent to jealousy.

Some children were playing about in the dusty paths. They were fair
little things with long hair, and they were making little mounds of sand
with the greatest gravity and careful attention, to crush them at once
by stamping on them.

It was one of those gloomy days with Pierre when we pry into every
corner of our souls and shake out every crease.

âAll our endeavours are like the labours of those babies,â thought he.
And then he wondered whether the wisest thing in life were not to beget
two or three of these little creatures and watch them grow up with
complacent curiosity. A longing for marriage breathed on his soul. A
man is not so lost when he is not alone. At any rate, he has some one
stirring at his side in hours of trouble or of uncertainty; and it is
something only to be able to speak on equal terms to a woman when one is
suffering.

Then he began thinking of women. He knew very little of them, never
having had any but very transient connections as a medical student,
broken off as soon as the month's allowance was spent, and renewed or
replaced by another the following month. And yet there must be some very
kind, gentle, and comforting creatures among them. Had not his mother
been the good sense and saving grace of his own home? How glad he would
be to know a woman, a true woman!

He started up with a sudden determination to go and call on Mme.
Rosemilly. But he promptly sat down again. He did not like that woman.
Why not? She had too much vulgar and sordid common sense; besides,
did she not seem to prefer Jean? Without confessing it to himself too
bluntly, this preference had a great deal to do with his low opinion of
the widow's intellect; for, though he loved his brother, he could not
help thinking him somewhat mediocre and believing himself the superior.
However, he was not going to sit there till nightfall; and as he had
done on the previous evening, he anxiously asked himself: âWhat am I
going to do?â

At this moment he felt in his soul the need of a melting mood, of being
embraced and comforted. Comforted--for what? He could not have put it
into words; but he was in one of these hours of weakness and exhaustion
when a woman's presence, a woman's kiss, the touch of a hand, the rustle
of a petticoat, a soft look out of black or blue eyes, seem the one
thing needful, there and then, to our heart. And the memory flashed upon
him of a little barmaid at a beer-house, whom he had walked home with
one evening, and seen again from time to time.

So once more he rose, to go and drink a bock with the girl. What should
he say to her? What would she say to him? Nothing, probably. But what
did that matter? He would hold her hand for a few seconds. She seemed to
have a fancy for him. Why, then, did he not go to see her oftener?

He found her dozing on a chair in the beer-shop, which was almost
deserted. Three men were drinking and smoking with their elbows on the
oak tables; the book-keeper in her desk was reading a novel, while the
master, in his shirt-sleeves, lay sound asleep on a bench.

As soon as she saw him the girl rose eagerly, and coming to meet him,
said:

âGood-day, monsieur--how are you?â

âPretty well; and you?â

âI--oh, very well. How scarce you make yourself!â

âYes. I have very little time to myself. I am a doctor, you know.â

âIndeed! You never told me. If I had known that--I was out of sorts last
week and I would have sent for you. What will you take?â

âA bock. And you?â

âI will have a bock, too, since you are willing to treat me.â

She had addressed him with the familiar _tu_, and continued to use
it, as if the offer of a drink had tacitly conveyed permission. Then,
sitting down opposite each other, they talked for a while. Every now and
then she took his hand with the light familiarity of girls whose kisses
are for sale, and looking at him with inviting eyes she said:

âWhy don't you come here oftener? I like you very much, sweetheart.â

He was already disgusted with her; he saw how stupid she was, and
common, smacking of low life. A woman, he told himself, should appear to
us in dreams, or such a glory as may poetize her vulgarity.

Next she asked him:

âYou went by the other morning with a handsome fair man, wearing a big
beard. Is he your brother?â

âYes, he is my brother.â

âAwfully good-looking.â

âDo you think so?â

âYes, indeed; and he looks like a man who enjoys life, too.â

What strange craving impelled him on a sudden to tell this tavern-wench
about Jean's legacy? Why should this thing, which he kept at arm's
length when he was alone, which he drove from him for fear of the
torment it brought upon his soul, rise to his lips at this moment? And
why did he allow it to overflow them as if he needed once more to empty
out his heart to some one, gorged as it was with bitterness?

He crossed his legs and said:

âHe has wonderful luck, that brother of mine. He had just come into a
legacy of twenty thousand francs a year.â

She opened those covetous blue eyes of hers very wide.

âOh! and who left him that? His grandmother or his aunt?â

âNo. An old friend of my parents'.â

âOnly a friend! Impossible! And you--did he leave you nothing?â

âNo. I knew him very slightly.â

She sat thinking some minutes; then, with an odd smile on her lips, she
said:

âWell, he is a lucky dog, that brother of yours, to have friends of this
pattern. My word! and no wonder he is so unlike you.â

He longed to slap her, without knowing why; and he asked with pinched
lips: âAnd what do you mean by saying that?â

She had put on a stolid, innocent face.

âO--h, nothing. I mean he has better luck than you.â

He tossed a franc piece on the table and went out.

Now he kept repeating the phrase: âNo wonder he is so unlike you.â

What had her thought been, what had been her meaning under those words?
There was certainly some malice, some spite, something shameful in it.
Yes, that hussy must have fancied, no doubt, that Jean was Marechal's
son. The agitation which came over him at the notion of this suspicion
cast at his mother was so violent that he stood still, looking about
him for some place where he might sit down. In front of him was another
cafe. He went in, took a chair, and as the waiter came up, âA bock,â he
said.

He felt his heart beating, his skin was gooseflesh. And then the
recollection flashed upon him of what Marowsko had said the evening
before. âIt will not look well.â Had he had the same thought, the same
suspicion as this baggage? Hanging his head over the glass, he watched
the white froth as the bubbles rose and burst, asking himself: âIs it
possible that such a thing should be believed?â

But the reasons which might give rise to this horrible doubt in other
men's minds now struck him, one after another, as plain, obvious, and
exasperating. That a childless old bachelor should leave his fortune to
a friend's two sons was the most simple and natural thing in the world;
but that he should leave the whole of it to one alone--of course people
would wonder, and whisper, and end by smiling. How was it that he had
not foreseen this, that his father had not felt it? How was it that
his mother had not guessed it? No; they had been too delighted at this
unhoped-for wealth for the idea to come near them. And besides, how
should these worthy souls have ever dreamed of anything so ignominious?

But the public--their neighbours, the shopkeepers, their own tradesmen,
all who knew them--would not they repeat the abominable thing, laugh at
it, enjoy it, make game of his father and despise his mother?

And the barmaid's remark that Jean was fair and he dark, that they were
not in the least alike in face, manner, figure, or intelligence, would
now strike every eye and every mind. When any one spoke of Roland's son,
the question would be: âWhich, the real or the false?â

He rose, firmly resolved to warn Jean, and put him on his guard against
the frightful danger which threatened their mother's honour.

But what could Jean do? The simplest thing no doubt, would be to refuse
the inheritance, which would then go to the poor, and to tell all
friends or acquaintances who had heard of the bequest that the will
contained clauses and conditions impossible to subscribe to, which would
have made Jean not inheritor but merely a trustee.

As he made his way home he was thinking that he must see his brother
alone, so as not to speak of such a matter in the presence of his
parents. On reaching the door he heard a great noise of voices and
laughter in the drawing-room, and when he went in he found Captain
Beausire and Mme. Rosemilly, whom his father had brought home and
engaged to dine with them in honour of the good news. Vermouth and
absinthe had been served to whet their appetites, and every one had been
at once put into good spirits. Captain Beausire, a funny little man who
had become quite round by dint of being rolled about at sea, and whose
ideas also seemed to have been worn round, like the pebbles of a beach,
while he laughed with his throat full of _r_'s, looked upon life as a
capital thing, in which everything that might turn up was good to take.
He clinked his glass against father Roland's, while Jean was offering
two freshly filled glasses to the ladies. Mme. Rosemilly refused, till
Captain Beausire, who had known her husband, cried:

âCome, come, madame, _bis repetita placent_, as we say in the lingo,
which is as much as to say two glasses of vermouth never hurt any one.
Look at me; since I have left the sea, in this way I give myself an
artificial roll or two every day before dinner; I add a little pitching
after my coffee, and that keeps things lively for the rest of the
evening. I never rise to a hurricane, mind you, never, never. I am too
much afraid of damage.â

Roland, whose nautical mania was humoured by the old mariner, laughed
heartily, his face flushed already and his eye watery from the absinthe.
He had a burly shop-keeping stomach--nothing but stomach--in which the
rest of his body seemed to have got stowed away; the flabby paunch of
men who spend their lives sitting, and who have neither thighs, nor
chest, nor arms, nor neck; the seat of their chairs having accumulated
all their substance in one spot. Beausire, on the contrary, though short
and stout, was as tight as an egg and as hard as a cannon-ball.

Mme. Roland had not emptied her glass and was gazing at her son Jean
with sparkling eyes; happiness had brought a colour to her cheeks.

In him, too, the fulness of joy had now blazed out. It was a settled
thing, signed and sealed; he had twenty thousand francs a year. In the
sound of his laugh, in the fuller voice with which he spoke, in his
way of looking at the others, his more positive manners, his greater
confidence, the assurance given by money was at once perceptible.

Dinner was announced, and as the old man was about to offer his arm to
Mme. Rosemilly, his wife exclaimed:

âNo, no, father. Everything is for Jean to-day.â

Unwonted luxury graced the table. In front of Jean, who sat in his
father's place, an enormous bouquet of flowers--a bouquet for a really
great occasion--stood up like a cupola dressed with flags, and was
flanked by four high dishes, one containing a pyramid of splendid
peaches; the second, a monumental cake gorged with whipped cream and
covered with pinnacles of sugar--a cathedral in confectionery;
the third, slices of pine-apple floating in clear sirup; and the
fourth--unheard-of lavishness--black grapes brought from the warmer
south.

âThe devil!â exclaimed Pierre as he sat down. âWe are celebrating the
accession of Jean the rich.â

After the soup, Madeira was passed round, and already every one was
talking at once. Beausire was giving the history of a dinner he had
eaten at San Domingo at the table of a negro general. Old Roland was
listening, and at the same time trying to get in, between the sentences,
his account of another dinner, given by a friend of his at Mendon, after
which every guest was ill for a fortnight. Mme. Rosemilly, Jean, and
his mother were planning an excursion to breakfast at Saint Jouin, from
which they promised themselves the greatest pleasure; and Pierre was
only sorry that he had not dined alone in some pot-house by the sea, so
as to escape all this noise and laughter and glee which fretted him. He
was wondering how he could now set to work to confide his fears to his
brother, and induce him to renounce the fortune he had already accepted
and of which he was enjoying the intoxicating foretaste. It would be
hard on him, no doubt; but it must be done; he could not hesitate; their
mother's reputation was at stake.

The appearance of an enormous shade-fish threw Roland back on fishing
stories. Beausire told some wonderful tales of adventure on the Gaboon,
at Sainte-Marie, in Madagascar, and above all, off the coasts of China
and Japan, where the fish are as queer-looking as the natives. And he
described the appearance of these fishes--their goggle gold eyes, their
blue or red bellies, their fantastic fins like fans, their eccentric
crescent-shaped tails--with such droll gesticulation that they all
laughed till they cried as they listened.

Pierre alone seemed incredulous, muttering to himself: âTrue enough, the
Normans are the Gascons of the north!â

After the fish came a vol-au-vent, then a roast fowl, a salad, French
beans with a Pithiviers lark-pie. Mme. Rosemilly's maid helped to wait
on them, and the fun rose with the number of glasses of wine they drank.
When the cork of the first champagne-bottle was drawn with a pop, father
Roland, highly excited, imitated the noise with his tongue and then
declared: âI like that noise better than a pistol-shot.â

Pierre, more and more fractious every moment, retorted with a sneer:

âAnd yet it is perhaps a greater danger for you.â

Roland, who was on the point of drinking, set his full glass down on the
table again, and asked:

âWhy?â

He had for some time been complaining of his health, of heaviness,
giddiness, frequent and unaccountable discomfort. The doctor replied:

âBecause the bullet might very possibly miss you, while the glass of
wine is dead certain to hit you in the stomach.â

âAnd what then?â

âThen it scorches your inside, upsets your nervous system, makes the
circulation sluggish, and leads the way to the apoplectic fit which
always threatens a man of your build.â

The jeweller's incipient intoxication had vanished like smoke before the
wind. He looked at his son with fixed, uneasy eyes, trying to discover
whether he was making game of him.

But Beausire exclaimed:

âOh, these confounded doctors! They all sing the same tune--eat nothing,
drink nothing, never make love or enjoy yourself; it all plays the devil
with your precious health. Well, all I can say is, I have done all these
things, sir, in every quarter of the globe, wherever and as often as I
have had the chance, and I am none the worse.â

Pierre answered with some asperity:

âIn the first place, captain, you are a stronger man than my father; and
in the next, all free livers talk as you do till the day when--when they
come back no more to say to the cautious doctor: 'You were right.' When
I see my father doing what is worst and most dangerous for him, it
is but natural that I should warn him. I should be a bad son if I did
otherwise.â

Mme. Roland, much distressed, now put in her word: âCome, Pierre, what
ails you? For once it cannot hurt him. Think of what an occasion it
is for him, for all of us. You will spoil his pleasure and make us all
unhappy. It is too bad of you to do such a thing.â

He muttered, as he shrugged his shoulders.

âHe can do as he pleases. I have warned him.â

But father Roland did not drink. He sat looking at his glass full of the
clear and luminous liquor while its light soul, its intoxicating soul,
flew off in tiny bubbles mounting from its depths in hurried succession
to die on the surface. He looked at it with the suspicious eye of a fox
smelling at a dead hen and suspecting a trap. He asked doubtfully: âDo
you think it will really do me much harm?â Pierre had a pang of remorse
and blamed himself for letting his ill-humour punish the rest.

âNo,â said he. âJust for once you may drink it; but do not take too
much, or get into the habit of it.â

Then old Roland raised his glass, but still he could not make up his
mind to put it to his lips. He contemplated it regretfully, with longing
and with fear; then he smelt it, tasted it, drank it in sips, swallowing
them slowly, his heart full of terrors, of weakness and greediness; and
then, when he had drained the last drop, of regret.

Pierre's eye suddenly met that of Mme. Rosemilly; it rested on him clear
and blue, far-seeing and hard. And he read, he knew, the precise thought
which lurked in that look, the indignant thought of this simple and
right-minded little woman; for the look said: âYou are jealous--that is
what you are. Shameful!â

He bent his head and went on with his dinner.

He was not hungry and found nothing nice. A longing to be off harassed
him, a craving to be away from these people, to hear no more of their
talking, jests, and laughter.

Father Roland meanwhile, to whose head the fumes of the wine were rising
once more, had already forgotten his son's advice and was eyeing a
champagne-bottle with a tender leer as it stood, still nearly full, by
the side of his plate. He dared not touch it for fear of being lectured
again, and he was wondering by what device or trick he could possess
himself of it without exciting Pierre's remark. A ruse occurred to
him, the simplest possible. He took up the bottle with an air of
indifference, and holding it by the neck, stretched his arm across the
table to fill the doctor's glass, which was empty; then he filled up
all the other glasses, and when he came to his own he began talking very
loud, so that if he poured anything into it they might have sworn it was
done inadvertently. And in fact no one took any notice.

Pierre, without observing it, was drinking a good deal. Nervous and
fretted, he every minute raised to his lips the tall crystal funnel
where the bubbles were dancing in the living, translucent fluid. He let
the wine slip very slowly over his tongue, that he might feel the little
sugary sting of the fixed air as it evaporated.

Gradually a pleasant warmth glowed in his frame. Starting from the
stomach as a centre, it spread to his chest, took possession of his
limbs, and diffused itself throughout his flesh, like a warm and
comforting tide, bringing pleasure with it. He felt better now, less
impatient, less annoyed, and his determination to speak to his brother
that very evening faded away; not that he thought for a moment of
giving it up, but simply not to disturb the happy mood in which he found
himself.

Beausire presently rose to propose a toast. Having bowed to the company,
he began:

âMost gracious ladies and gentlemen, we have met to do honour to a happy
event which has befallen one of our friends. It used to be said that
Fortune was blind, but I believe that she is only short-sighted or
tricksy, and that she has lately bought a good pair of glasses which
enabled her to discover in the town of Havre the son of our worthy
friend Roland, skipper of the Pearl.â

Every one cried bravo and clapped their hands, and the elder Roland rose
to reply. After clearing his throat, for it felt thick and his tongue
was heavy, he stammered out:

âThank you, captain, thank you--for myself and my son. I shall never
forget your behaviour on this occasion. Here's good luck to you!â

His eyes and nose were full of tears, and he sat down, finding nothing
more to say.

Jean, who was laughing, spoke in his turn:

âIt is I,â said he, âwho ought to thank my friends here, my excellent
friends,â and he glanced at Mme. Rosemilly, âwho have given me such a
touching evidence of their affection. But it is not by words that I can
prove my gratitude. I will prove it to-morrow, every hour of my life,
always, for our friendship is not one of those which fade away.â

His mother, deeply moved, murmured: âWell said, my boy.â

But Beausire cried out:

âCome, Mme. Rosemilly, speak on behalf of the fair sex.â

She raised her glass, and in a pretty voice, slightly touched with
sadness, she said: âI will pledge you to the memory of M. Marechal.â

There was a few moments' lull, a pause for decent meditation, as after
prayer. Beausire, who always had a flow of compliment, remarked:

âOnly a woman ever thinks of these refinements.â Then turning to Father
Roland: âAnd who was this Marechal, after all? You must have been very
intimate with him.â

The old man, emotional with drink, began to whimper, and in a broken
voice he said:

âLike a brother, you know. Such a friend as one does not make twice--we
were always together--he dined with us every evening--and would treat us
to the play--I need say no more--no more--no more. A true friend--a real
true friend--wasn't he, Louise?â

His wife merely answered: âYes; he was a faithful friend.â

Pierre looked at his father and then at his mother, then, as the subject
changed he drank some more wine. He scarcely remembered the remainder of
the evening. They had coffee, then liqueurs, and they laughed and joked
a great deal. At about midnight he went to bed, his mind confused and
his head heavy; and he slept like a brute till nine next morning.



CHAPTER IV

These slumbers, lapped in Champagne and Chartreuse, had soothed and
calmed him, no doubt, for he awoke in a very benevolent frame of
mind. While he was dressing he appraised, weighed, and summed up the
agitations of the past day, trying to bring out quite clearly and fully
their real and occult causes, those personal to himself as well as those
from outside.

It was, in fact, possible that the girl at the beer-shop had had an evil
suspicion--a suspicion worthy of such a hussy--on hearing that only one
of the Roland brothers had been made heir to a stranger; but have
not such natures as she always similar notions, without a shadow of
foundation, about every honest woman? Do they not, whenever they speak,
vilify, calumniate, and abuse all whom they believe to be blameless?
Whenever a woman who is above imputation is mentioned in their presence,
they are as angry as if they were being insulted, and exclaim: âAh, yes,
I know your married women; a pretty sort they are! Why, they have
more lovers than we have, only they conceal it because they are such
hypocrites. Oh, yes, a pretty sort, indeed!â

Under any other circumstances he would certainly not have understood,
not have imagined the possibility of such an insinuation against his
poor mother, who was so kind, so simple, so excellent. But his spirit
seethed with the leaven of jealousy that was fermenting within him. His
own excited mind, on the scent, as it were, in spite of himself, for all
that could damage his brother, had even perhaps attributed to the tavern
barmaid an odious intention of which she was innocent. It was possible
that his imagination had, unaided, invented this dreadful doubt--his
imagination, which he never controlled, which constantly evaded his will
and went off, unfettered, audacious, adventurous, and stealthy, into
the infinite world of ideas, bringing back now and then some which were
shameless and repulsive, and which it buried in him, in the depths of
his soul, in its most fathomless recesses, like something stolen. His
heart, most certainly, his own heart had secrets from him; and had
not that wounded heart discerned in this atrocious doubt a means of
depriving his brother of the inheritance of which he was jealous? He
suspected himself now, cross-examining all the mysteries of his mind as
bigots search their consciences.

Mme. Rosemilly, though her intelligence was limited, had certainly a
woman's instinct, scent, and subtle intuitions. And this notion had
never entered her head, since she had, with perfect simplicity, drunk
to the blessed memory of the deceased Marechal. She was not the woman to
have done this if she had had the faintest suspicion. Now he doubted no
longer; his involuntary displeasure at his brother's windfall of
fortune and his religious affection for his mother had magnified his
scruples--very pious and respectable scruples, but exaggerated. As he
put this conclusion into words in his own mind he felt happy, as at
the doing of a good action; and he resolved to be nice to every one,
beginning with his father, whose manias, and silly statements, and
vulgar opinions, and too conspicuous mediocrity were a constant
irritation to him.

He came in not late for breakfast, and amused all the family by his fun
and good humour.

His mother, quite delighted, said to him:

âMy little Pierre, you have no notion how humorous and clever you can be
when you choose.â

And he talked, putting things in a witty way, and making them laugh
by ingenious hits at their friends. Beausire was his butt, and Mme.
Rosemilly a little, but in a very judicious way, not too spiteful. And
he thought as he looked at his brother: âStand up for her, you muff. You
may be as rich as you please, I can always eclipse you when I take the
trouble.â

As they drank their coffee he said to his father:

âAre you going out in the Pearl to-day?â

âNo, my boy.â

âMay I have her with Jean Bart?â

âTo be sure, as long as you like.â

He bought a good cigar at the first tobacconist's and went down to the
quay with a light step. He glanced up at the sky, which was clear and
luminous, of a pale blue, freshly swept by the sea-breeze.

Papagris, the boatman, commonly called Jean Bart, was dozing in the
bottom of the boat, which he was required to have in readiness every day
at noon when they had not been out fishing in the morning.

âYou and I together, mate,â cried Pierre. He went down the iron ladder
of the quay and leaped into the vessel.

âWhich way is the wind?â he asked.

âDue east still, M'sieu Pierre. A fine breeze out at sea.â

âWell, then, old man, off we go!â

They hoisted the foresail and weighed anchor; and the boat, feeling
herself free, glided slowly down towards the jetty on the still water
of the harbour. The breath of wind that came down the streets caught the
top of the sail so lightly as to be imperceptible, and the Pearl seemed
endowed with life--the life of a vessel driven on by a mysterious latent
power. Pierre took the tiller, and, holding his cigar between his teeth,
he stretched his legs on the bunk, and with his eyes half-shut in the
blinding sunshine, he watched the great tarred timbers of the breakwater
as they glided past.

When they reached the open sea, round the nose of the north pier which
had sheltered them, the fresher breeze puffed in the doctor's face and
on his hands, like a somewhat icy caress, filled his chest, which rose
with a long sigh to drink it in, and swelling the tawny sail, tilted the
Pearl on her beam and made her more lively. Jean Bart hastily hauled up
the jib, and the triangle of canvas, full of wind, looked like a wing;
then, with two strides to the stern, he let out the spinnaker, which was
close-reefed against his mast.

Then, along the hull of the boat, which suddenly heeled over and was
running at top speed, there was a soft, crisp sound of water hissing and
rushing past. The prow ripped up the sea like the share of a plough gone
mad, and the yielding water it turned up curled over and fell white with
foam, as the ploughed soil, heavy and brown, rolls and falls in a ridge.
At each wave they met--and there was a short, chopping sea--the Pearl
shivered from the point of the bowsprit to the rudder, which trembled
under Pierre's hand; when the wind blew harder in gusts, the swell rose
to the gunwale as if it would overflow into the boat. A coal brig from
Liverpool was lying at anchor, waiting for the tide; they made a sweep
round her stern and went to look at each of the vessels in the roads one
after another; then they put further out to look at the unfolding line
of coast.

For three hours Pierre, easy, calm, and happy, wandered to and fro over
the dancing waters, guiding the thing of wood and canvas, which came and
went at his will, under the pressure of his hand, as if it were a swift
and docile winged creature.

He was lost in day-dreams, the dreams one has on horseback or on the
deck of a boat; thinking of his future, which should be brilliant, and
the joys of living intelligently. On the morrow he would ask his brother
to lend him fifteen hundred francs for three months, that he might
settle at once in the pretty rooms on the Boulevard Francois.

Suddenly the sailor said: âThe fog is coming up, M'sieu Pierre. We must
go in.â

He looked up and saw to the northward a gray shade, filmy but dense,
blotting out the sky and covering the sea; it was sweeping down on them
like a cloud fallen from above. He tacked for land and made for the
pier, scudding before the wind and followed by the flying fog, which
gained upon them. When it reached the Pearl, wrapping her in its
intangible density, a cold shudder ran over Pierre's limbs, and a smell
of smoke and mould, the peculiar smell of a sea-fog, made him close his
mouth that he might not taste the cold, wet vapour. By the time the boat
was at her usual moorings in the harbour the whole town was buried in
this fine mist, which did not fall but yet wetted everything like rain,
and glided and rolled along the roofs and streets like the flow of a
river. Pierre, with his hands and feet frozen, made haste home and threw
himself on his bed to take a nap till dinner-time. When he made his
appearance in the dining-room his mother was saying to Jean:

âThe glass corridor will be lovely. We will fill it with flowers. You
will see. I will undertake to care for them and renew them. When you
give a party the effect will be quite fairy-like.â

âWhat in the world are you talking about?â the doctor asked.

âOf a delightful apartment I have just taken for your brother. It is
quite a find; an entresol looking out on two streets. There are two
drawing-rooms, a glass passage, and a little circular dining-room,
perfectly charming for a bachelor's quarters.â

Pierre turned pale. His anger seemed to press on his heart.

âWhere is it?â he asked.

âBoulevard Francois.â

There was no possibility for doubt. He took his seat in such a state
of exasperation that he longed to exclaim: âThis is really too much! Is
there nothing for any one but him?â

His mother, beaming, went on talking: âAnd only fancy, I got it for two
thousand eight hundred francs a year. They asked three thousand, but I
got a reduction of two hundred francs on taking for three, six, or nine
years. Your brother will be delightfully housed there. An elegant home
is enough to make the fortune of a lawyer. It attracts clients, charms
them, holds them fast, commands respect, and shows them that a man who
lives in such good style expects a good price for his words.â

She was silent for a few seconds and then went on:

âWe must look out for something suitable for you; much less pretentious,
since you have nothing, but nice and pretty all the same. I assure you
it will be to your advantage.â

Pierre replied contemptuously:

âFor me! Oh, I shall make my way by hard work and learning.â

But his mother insisted: âYes, but I assure you that to be well lodged
will be of use to you nevertheless.â

About half-way through the meal he suddenly asked:

âHow did you first come to know this man Marechal?â

Old Roland looked up and racked his memory:

âWait a bit; I scarcely recollect. It is such an old story now. Ah, yes,
I remember. It was your mother who made the acquaintance with him in the
shop, was it not, Louise? He first came to order something, and then
he called frequently. We knew him as a customer before we knew him as a
friend.â

Pierre, who was eating beans, sticking his fork into them one by one as
if he were spitting them, went on:

âAnd when was it that you made his acquaintance?â

Again Roland sat thinking, but he could remember no more and appealed to
his wife's better memory.

âIn what year was it, Louise? You surely have not forgotten, you
who remember everything. Let me see--it was in--in--in fifty-five or
fifty-six? Try to remember. You ought to know better than I.â

She did in fact think it over for some minutes, and then replied in a
steady voice and with calm decision:

âIt was in fifty-eight, old man. Pierre was three years old. I am quite
sure that I am not mistaken, for it was in that year that the child had
scarlet fever, and Marechal, whom we knew then but very little, was of
the greatest service to us.â

Roland exclaimed:

âTo be sure--very true; he was really invaluable. When your mother was
half-dead with fatigue and I had to attend to the shop, he would go to
the chemist's to fetch your medicine. He really had the kindest heart!
And when you were well again, you cannot think how glad he was and how
he petted you. It was from that time that we became such great friends.â

And this thought rushed into Pierre's soul, as abrupt and violent as a
cannon-ball rending and piercing it: âSince he knew me first, since he
was so devoted to me, since he was so fond of me and petted me so much,
since I--_I_ was the cause of his great intimacy with my parents, why
did he leave all his money to my brother and nothing to me?â

He asked no more questions and remained gloomy; absent-minded rather
than thoughtful, feeling in his soul a new anxiety as yet undefined, the
secret germ of a new pain.

He went out early, wandering about the streets once more. They were
shrouded in the fog which made the night heavy, opaque, and nauseous.
It was like a pestilential cloud dropped on the earth. It could be seen
swirling past the gas-lights, which it seemed to put out at intervals.
The pavement was as slippery as on a frosty night after rain, and
all sorts of evil smells seemed to come up from the bowels of the
houses--the stench of cellars, drains, sewers, squalid kitchens--to
mingle with the horrible savour of this wandering fog.

Pierre, with his shoulders up and his hands in his pockets, not caring
to remain out of doors in the cold, turned into Marowsko's. The
druggist was asleep as usual under the gas-light, which kept watch. On
recognising Pierre for whom he had the affection of a faithful dog,
he shook off his drowsiness, went for two glasses, and brought out the
_Groseillette_.

âWell,â said the doctor, âhow is the liqueur getting on?â

The Pole explained that four of the chief cafes in the town had agreed
to have it on sale, and that two papers, the _Northcoast Pharos_ and the
_Havre Semaphore_, would advertise it, in return for certain chemical
preparations to be supplied to the editors.

After a long silence Marowsko asked whether Jean had come definitely
into possession of his fortune; and then he put two or three other
questions vaguely referring to the same subject. His jealous devotion
to Pierre rebelled against this preference. And Pierre felt as though he
could hear him thinking; he guessed and understood, read in his averted
eyes and in the hesitancy of his tone, the words which rose to his lips
but were not spoken--which the druggist was too timid or too prudent and
cautious to utter.

At this moment, he felt sure, the old man was thinking: âYou ought not
to have suffered him to accept this inheritance which will make people
speak ill of your mother.â

Perhaps, indeed, Marowsko believed that Jean was Marechal's son. Of
course he believed it! How could he help believing it when the thing
must seem so possible, so probable, self-evident? Why, he himself,
Pierre, her son--had not he been for these three days past fighting with
all the subtlety at his command to cheat his reason, fighting against
this hideous suspicion?

And suddenly the need to be alone, to reflect, to discuss the matter
with himself--to face boldly, without scruple or weakness, this possible
but monstrous thing--came upon him anew, and so imperative that he rose
without even drinking his glass of _Groseillette_, shook hands with the
astounded druggist, and plunged out into the foggy streets again.

He asked himself: âWhat made this Marechal leave all his fortune to
Jean?â

It was not jealousy now which made him dwell on this question, not the
rather mean but natural envy which he knew lurked within him, and with
which he had been struggling these three days, but the dread of an
overpowering horror; the dread that he himself should believe that Jean,
his brother, was that man's son.

No. He did not believe it, he could not even ask himself the question
which was a crime! Meanwhile he must get rid of this faint suspicion,
improbable as it was, utterly and forever. He craved for light, for
certainty--he must win absolute security in his heart, for he loved no
one in the world but his mother. And as he wandered alone through the
darkness he would rack his memory and his reason with a minute search
that should bring out the blazing truth. Then there would be an end
to the matter; he would not think of it again--never. He would go and
sleep.

He argued thus: âLet me see: first to examine the facts; then I will
recall all I know about him, his behaviour to my brother and to me. I
will seek out the causes which might have given rise to the preference.
He knew Jean from his birth? Yes, but he had known me first. If he had
loved my mother silently, unselfishly, he would surely have chosen me,
since it was through me, through my scarlet fever, that he became so
intimate with my parents. Logically, then, he ought to have preferred
me, to have had a keener affection for me--unless it were that he felt
an instinctive attraction and predilection for my brother as he watched
him grow up.â

Then, with desperate tension of brain and of all the powers of his
intellect, he strove to reconstitute from memory the image of this
Marechal, to see him, to know him, to penetrate the man whom he had seen
pass by him, indifferent to his heart during all those years in Paris.

But he perceived that the slight exertion of walking somewhat disturbed
his ideas, dislocated their continuity, weakened their precision,
clouded his recollection. To enable him to look at the past and at
unknown events with so keen an eye that nothing should escape it, he
must be motionless in a vast and empty space. And he made up his mind
to go and sit on the jetty as he had done that other night. As he
approached the harbour he heard, out at sea, a lugubrious and sinister
wail like the bellowing of a bull, but more long-drawn and steady. It
was the roar of a fog-horn, the cry of a ship lost in the fog. A shiver
ran through him, chilling his heart; so deeply did this cry of distress
thrill his soul and nerves that he felt as if he had uttered it himself.
Another and a similar voice answered with such another moan, but farther
away; then, close by, the fog-horn on the pier gave out a fearful sound
in answer. Pierre made for the jetty with long steps, thinking no
more of anything, content to walk on into this ominous and bellowing
darkness.

When he had seated himself at the end of the breakwater he closed his
eyes, that he might not see the two electric lights, now blurred by the
fog, which make the harbour accessible at night, and the red glare
of the light on the south pier, which was, however, scarcely visible.
Turning half-round, he rested his elbows on the granite and hid his face
in his hands.

Though he did not pronounce the words with his lips, his mind kept
repeating: âMarechal--Marechal,â as if to raise and challenge the shade.
And on the black background of his closed eyelids, he suddenly saw him
as he had known him: a man of about sixty, with a white beard cut in
a point and very thick eyebrows, also white. He was neither tall nor
short, his manner was pleasant, his eyes gray and soft, his movements
gentle, his whole appearance that of a good fellow, simple and kindly.
He called Pierre and Jean âmy dear children,â and had never seemed to
prefer either, asking them both together to dine with him. And then
Pierre, with the pertinacity of a dog seeking a lost scent, tried to
recall the words, gestures, tones, looks, of this man who had vanished
from the world. By degrees he saw him quite clearly in his rooms in the
Rue Tronchet, where he received his brother and himself at dinner.

He was waited on by two maids, both old women who had been in the
habit--a very old one, no doubt--of saying âMonsieur Pierreâ and
âMonsieur Jean.â Marechal would hold out both hands, the right hand to
one of the young men, the left to the other, as they happened to come
in.

âHow are you, my children?â he would say. âHave you any news of your
parents? As for me, they never write to me.â

The talk was quiet and intimate, of commonplace matters. There was
nothing remarkable in the man's mind, but much that was winning,
charming, and gracious. He had certainly been a good friend to them, one
of those good friends of whom we think the less because we feel sure of
them.

Now, reminiscences came readily to Pierre's mind. Having seen him
anxious from time to time, and suspecting his student's impecuniousness,
Marechal had of his own accord offered and lent him money, a few hundred
francs perhaps, forgotten by both, and never repaid. Then this man must
always have been fond of him, always have taken an interest in him,
since he thought of his needs. Well then--well then--why leave his whole
fortune to Jean? No, he had never shown more marked affection for the
younger than for the elder, had never been more interested in one than
in the other, or seemed to care more tenderly for this one or that one.
Well then--well then--he must have had some strong secret reason for
leaving everything to Jean--everything--and nothing to Pierre.

The more he thought, the more he recalled the past few years, the more
extraordinary, the more incredible was it that he should have made such
a difference between them. And an agonizing pang of unspeakable anguish
piercing his bosom made his heart beat like a fluttering rag. Its
springs seemed broken, and the blood rushed through in a flood,
unchecked, tossing it with wild surges.

Then in an undertone, as a man speaks in a nightmare, he muttered: âI
must know. My God! I must know.â

He looked further back now, to an earlier time, when his parents
had lived in Paris. But the faces escaped him, and this confused his
recollections. He struggled above all to see Marechal, with light, or
brown, or black hair. But he could not; the later image, his face as an
old man, blotted out all others. However, he remembered that he had been
slighter, and had a soft hand, and that he often brought flowers. Very
often--for his father would constantly say: âWhat, another bouquet! But
this is madness, my dear fellow; you will ruin yourself in roses.â And
Marechal would say: âNo matter; I like it.â

And suddenly his mother's voice and accent, his mother's as she smiled
and said: âThank you, my kind friend,â flashed on his brain, so clearly
that he could have believed he heard her. She must have spoken those
words very often that they should remain thus graven on her son's
memory.

So Marechal brought flowers; he, the gentleman, the rich man, the
customer, to the humble shop-keeper, the jeweller's wife. Had he loved
her? Why should he have made friends with these tradespeople if he had
not been in love with the wife? He was a man of education and fairly
refined tastes. How many a time had he discussed poets and poetry with
Pierre. He did not appreciate these writers from an artistic point of
view, but with sympathetic and responsive feeling. The doctor had often
smiled at his emotions which had struck him as rather silly, now he
plainly saw that this sentimental soul could never, never have been the
friend of his father, who was so matter-of-fact, so narrow, so heavy, to
whom the word âPoetryâ meant idiocy.

This Marechal then, being young, free, rich, ready for any form of
tenderness, went by chance into the shop one day, having perhaps
observed its pretty mistress. He had bought something, had come again,
had chatted, more intimately each time, paying by frequent purchases
for the right of a seat in the family, of smiling at the young wife and
shaking hands with the husband.

And what next--what next--good God--what next?

He had loved and petted the first child, the jeweller's child, till the
second was born; then, till death, he had remained impenetrable; and
when his grave was closed, his flesh dust, his name erased from the
list of the living, when he himself was quiet and forever gone, having
nothing to scheme for, to dread or to hide, he had given his whole
fortune to the second child! Why?

The man had all his wits; he must have understood and foreseen that he
might, that he almost infallibly must, give grounds for the supposition
that the child was his. He was casting obloquy on a woman. How could he
have done this if Jean were not his son?

And suddenly a clear and fearful recollection shot through his brain.
Marechal was fair--fair like Jean. He now remembered a little
miniature portrait he had seen formerly in Paris, on the drawing-room
chimney-shelf, and which had since disappeared. Where was it? Lost, or
hidden away? Oh, if he could but have it in his hand for one minute! His
mother kept it perhaps in the unconfessed drawer where love-tokens were
treasured.

His misery in this thought was so intense that he uttered a groan, one
of those brief moans wrung from the breast by a too intolerable pang.
And immediately, as if it had heard him, as if it had understood and
answered him, the fog-horn on the pier bellowed out close to him. Its
voice, like that of a fiendish monster, more resonant than thunder--a
savage and appalling roar contrived to drown the clamour of the wind and
waves--spread through the darkness, across the sea, which was invisible
under its shroud of fog. And again, through the mist, far and near,
responsive cries went up to the night. They were terrifying, these calls
given forth by the great blind steam-ships.

Then all was silent once more.

Pierre had opened his eyes and was looking about him, startled to find
himself here, roused from his nightmare.

âI am mad,â thought he, âI suspect my mother.â And a surge of love and
emotion, of repentance, and prayer, and grief, welled up in his heart.
His mother! Knowing her as he knew her, how could he ever have suspected
her? Was not the soul, was not the life of this simple-minded, chaste,
and loyal woman clearer than water? Could any one who had seen and
known her ever think of her but as above suspicion? And he, her son,
had doubted her! Oh, if he could but have taken her in his arms at that
moment, how he would have kissed and caressed her, and gone on his knees
to crave pardon.

Would she have deceived his father--she?

His father!--A very worthy man, no doubt, upright and honest in
business, but with a mind which had never gone beyond the horizon of his
shop. How was it that this woman, who must have been very pretty--as he
knew, and it could still be seen--gifted, too, with a delicate, tender
emotional soul, could have accepted a man so unlike herself as a suitor
and a husband? Why inquire? She had married, as young French girls
do marry, the youth with a little fortune proposed to her by their
relations. They had settled at once in their shop in the Rue Montmartre;
and the young wife, ruling over the desk, inspired by the feeling of a
new home, and the subtle and sacred sense of interests in common which
fills the place of love, and even of regard, by the domestic hearth of
most of the commercial houses of Paris, had set to work, with all her
superior and active intelligence, to make the fortune they hoped for.
And so her life had flowed on, uniform, peaceful and respectable, but
loveless.

Loveless?--was it possible then that a woman should not love? That
a young and pretty woman, living in Paris, reading books, applauding
actresses for dying of passion on the stage, could live from youth to
old age without once feeling her heart touched? He would not believe it
of any one else; why should she be different from all others, though she
was his mother?

She had been young, with all the poetic weaknesses which agitate the
heart of a young creature. Shut up, imprisoned in the shop, by the
side of a vulgar husband who always talked of trade, she had dreamed
of moonlight nights, of voyages, of kisses exchanged in the shades of
evening. And then, one day a man had come in, as lovers do in books, and
had talked as they talk.

She had loved him. Why not? She was his mother. What then? Must a man be
blind and stupid to the point of rejecting evidence because it concerns
his mother? But did she give herself to him? Why yes, since this man had
had no other love, since he had remained faithful to her when she was
far away and growing old. Why yes, since he had left all his fortune to
his son--their son!

And Pierre started to his feet, quivering with such rage that he longed
to kill some one. With his arm outstretched, his hand wide open, he
wanted to hit, to bruise, to smash, to strangle! Whom? Every one; his
father, his brother, the dead man, his mother!

He hurried off homeward. What was he going to do?

As he passed a turret close to the signal mast the strident howl of the
fog-horn went off in his very face. He was so startled that he nearly
fell and shrank back as far as the granite parapet. He sat down
half-stunned by the sudden shock. The steamer which was the first to
reply seemed to be quite near and was already at the entrance, the tide
having risen.

Pierre turned round and could discern its red eye dim through the fog.
Then, in the broad light of the electric lanterns, a huge black shadow
crept up between the piers. Behind him the voice of the look-out man,
the hoarse voice of an old retired sea-captain, shouted:

âWhat ship?â And out of the fog the voice of the pilot standing on
deck--not less hoarse--replied:

âThe Santa Lucia.â

âWhere from?â

âItaly.â

âWhat port?â

âNaples.â

And before Pierre's bewildered eyes rose, as he fancied, the fiery
pennon of Vesuvius, while, at the foot of the volcano, fire-flies danced
in the orange-groves of Sorrento or Castellamare. How often had he
dreamed of these familiar names as if he knew the scenery. Oh, if he
might but go away, now at once, never mind whither, and never come back,
never write, never let any one know what had become of him! But no, he
must go home--home to his father's house, and go to bed.

He would not. Come what might he would not go in; he would stay there
till daybreak. He liked the roar of the fog-horns. He pulled himself
together and began to walk up and down like an officer on watch.

Another vessel was coming in behind the other, huge and mysterious. An
English India-man, homeward bound.

He saw several more come in, one after another, out of the impenetrable
vapour. Then, as the damp became quite intolerable, Pierre set out
towards the town. He was so cold that he went into a sailors' tavern to
drink a glass of grog, and when the hot and pungent liquor had scorched
his mouth and throat he felt a hope revive within him.

Perhaps he was mistaken. He knew his own vagabond unreason so well! No
doubt he was mistaken. He had piled up the evidence as a charge is drawn
up against an innocent person, whom it is always so easy to convict when
we wish to think him guilty. When he should have slept he would think
differently.

Then he went in and to bed, and by sheer force of will he at last
dropped asleep.



CHAPTER V

But the doctor's frame lay scarcely more than an hour or two in the
torpor of troubled slumbers. When he awoke in the darkness of his warm,
closed room he was aware, even before thought was awake in him, of the
painful oppression, the sickness of heart which the sorrow we have slept
on leaves behind it. It is as though the disaster of which the shock
merely jarred us at first, had, during sleep, stolen into our very
flesh, bruising and exhausting it like a fever. Memory returned to him
like a blow, and he sat up in bed. Then slowly, one by one, he again
went through all the arguments which had wrung his heart on the jetty
while the fog-horns were bellowing. The more he thought the less he
doubted. He felt himself dragged along by his logic to the inevitable
certainty, as by a clutching, strangling hand.

He was thirsty and hot, his heart beat wildly. He got up to open his
window and breathe the fresh air, and as he stood there a low sound fell
on his ear through the wall. Jean was sleeping peacefully, and gently
snoring. He could sleep! He had no presentiment, no suspicions! A man
who had known their mother had left him all his fortune; he took the
money and thought it quite fair and natural! He was sleeping, rich and
contented, not knowing that his brother was gasping with anguish and
distress. And rage boiled up in him against this heedless and happy
sleeper.

Only yesterday he would have knocked at his door, have gone in, and
sitting by the bed, would have said to Jean, scared by the sudden
waking:

âJean you must not keep this legacy which by to-morrow may have brought
suspicion and dishonour on our mother.â

But to-day he could say nothing; he could not tell Jean that he did not
believe him to be their father's son. Now he must guard, must bury the
shame he had discovered, hide from every eye the stain which he
had detected and which no one must perceive, not even his
brother--especially not his brother.

He no longer thought about the vain respect of public opinion. He would
have been glad that all the world should accuse his mother if only he,
he alone, knew her to be innocent! How could he bear to live with her
every day, believing as he looked at her that his brother was the child
of a stranger's love?

And how calm and serene she was, nevertheless, how sure of herself she
always seemed! Was it possible that such a woman as she, pure of soul
and upright in heart, should fall, dragged astray by passion, and
yet nothing ever appear afterward of her remorse and the stings of a
troubled conscience? Ah, but remorse must have tortured her, long ago in
the earlier days, and then have faded out, as everything fades. She
had surely bewailed her sin, and then, little by little, had almost
forgotten it. Have not all women, all, this fault of prodigious
forgetfulness which enables them, after a few years, hardly to recognise
the man to whose kisses they have given their lips? The kiss strikes
like a thunderbolt, the love passes away like a storm, and then life,
like the sky, is calm once more, and begins again as it was before. Do
we ever remember a cloud?

Pierre could no longer endure to stay in the room! This house, his
father's house, crushed him. He felt the roof weigh on his head, and the
walls suffocate him. And as he was very thirsty he lighted his candle to
go to drink a glass of fresh water from the filter in the kitchen.

He went down the two flights of stairs; then, as he was coming up again
with the water-bottle filled, he sat down, in his night-shirt, on a step
of the stairs where there was a draught, and drank, without a tumbler,
in long pulls like a runner who is out of breath. When he ceased to
move the silence of the house touched his feelings; then, one by one,
he could distinguish the faintest sounds. First there was the ticking of
the clock in the dining-room which seemed to grow louder every second.
Then he heard another snore, an old man's snore, short, laboured, and
hard, his father beyond doubt; and he writhed at the idea, as if it had
but this moment sprung upon him, that these two men, sleeping under the
same room--father and son--were nothing to each other! Not a tie, not
the very slightest, bound them together, and they did not know it!
They spoke to each other affectionately, they embraced each other, they
rejoiced and lamented together over the same things, just as if the same
blood flowed in their veins. And two men born at opposite ends of the
earth could not be more alien to each other than this father and son.
They believed they loved each other, because a lie had grown up between
them. This paternal love, this filial love, were the outcome of a lie--a
lie which could not be unmasked, and which no one would ever know but
he, the true son.

But yet, but yet--if he were mistaken? How could he make sure? Oh, if
only some likeness, however slight, could be traced between his father
and Jean, one of those mysterious resemblances which run from an
ancestor to the great-great-grandson, showing that the whole race are
the offspring of the same embrace. To him, a medical man, so little
would suffice to enable him to discern this--the curve of a nostril, the
space between the eyes, the character of the teeth or hair; nay less--a
gesture, a trick, a habit, an inherited taste, any mark or token which a
practised eye might recognise as characteristic.

He thought long, but could remember nothing; no, nothing. But he had
looked carelessly, observed badly, having no reason for spying such
imperceptible indications.

He got up to go back to his room and mounted the stairs with a slow
step, still lost in thought. As he passed the door of his brother's room
he stood stock still, his hand put out to open it. An imperative need
had just come over him to see Jean at once, to look at him at his
leisure, to surprise him in his sleep, while the calm countenance and
relaxed features were at rest and all the grimace of life put off.
Thus he might catch the dormant secret of his physiognomy, and if any
appreciable likeness existed it would not escape him.

But supposing Jean were to wake, what could he say? How could he explain
this intrusion?

He stood still, his fingers clinched on the door-handle, trying to
devise a reason, an excuse. Then he remembered that a week ago he had
lent his brother a phial of laudanum to relieve a fit of toothache. He
might himself have been in pain this night and have come to find the
drug. So he went in with a stealthy step, like a robber. Jean, his mouth
open, was sunk in deep, animal slumbers. His beard and fair hair made a
golden patch on the white linen; he did not wake, but he ceased snoring.

Pierre, leaning over him, gazed at him with hungry eagerness. No, this
youngster was not in the least like Roland; and for the second time the
recollection of the little portrait of Marechal, which had vanished,
recurred to his mind. He must find it! When he should see it perhaps he
should cease to doubt!

His brother stirred, conscious no doubt of a presence, or disturbed by
the light of the taper on his eyelids. The doctor retired on tip-toe to
the door which he noiselessly closed; then he went back to his room, but
not to bed again.

Day was long in coming. The hours struck one after another on the
dining-room clock, and its tone was a deep and solemn one, as though the
little piece of clockwork had swallowed a cathedral-bell. The sound rose
through the empty staircase, penetrating through walls and doors, and
dying away in the rooms where it fell on the torpid ears of the sleeping
household. Pierre had taken to walking to and fro between his bed and
the window. What was he going to do? He was too much upset to spend this
day at home. He wanted still to be alone, at any rate till the next day,
to reflect, to compose himself, to strengthen himself for the common
every-day life which he must take up again.

Well, he would go over to Trouville to see the swarming crowd on the
sands. That would amuse him, change the air of his thoughts, and give
him time to inure himself to the horrible thing he had discovered.
As soon as morning dawned he made his toilet and dressed. The fog had
vanished and it was fine, very fine. As the boat for Trouville did not
start till nine, it struck the doctor that he must greet his mother
before starting.

He waited till the hour at which she was accustomed to get up, and then
went downstairs. His heart beat so violently as he touched her door
that he paused for breath. His hand as it lay on the lock was limp and
tremulous, almost incapable of the slight effort of turning the handle
to open it. He knocked. His mother's voice inquired:

âWho is there?â

âI--Pierre.â

âWhat do you want?â

âOnly to say good-morning, because I am going to spend the day at
Trouville with some friends.â

âBut I am still in bed.â

âVery well, do not disturb yourself. I shall see you this evening, when
I come in.â

He hoped to get off without seeing her, without pressing on her cheek
the false kiss which it made his heart sick to think of. But she
replied:

âNo. Wait a moment. I will let you in. Wait till I get into bed again.â

He heard her bare feet on the floor and the sound of the bolt drawn
back. Then she called out:

âCome in.â

He went in. She was sitting up in bed, while, by her side, Roland, with
a silk handkerchief by way of night-cap and his face to the wall, still
lay sleeping. Nothing ever woke him but a shaking hard enough to pull
his arm off. On the days when he went fishing it was Josephine, rung up
by Papagris at the hour fixed, who roused her master from his stubborn
slumbers.

Pierre, as he went towards his mother, looked at her with a sudden sense
of never having seen her before. She held up her face, he kissed each
cheek, and then sat down in a low chair.

âIt was last evening that you decided on this excursion?â she asked.

âYes, last evening.â

âWill you return to dinner?â

âI do not know. At any rate do not wait for me.â

He looked at her with stupefied curiosity. This woman was his mother!
All those features, seen daily from childhood, from the time when his
eye could first distinguish things, that smile, that voice--so well
known, so familiar--abruptly struck him as new, different from what they
had always been to him hitherto. He understood now that, loving her,
he had never looked at her. All the same it was very really she, and he
knew every little detail of her face; still, it was the first time he
clearly identified them all. His anxious attention, scrutinizing her
face which he loved, recalled a difference, a physiognomy he had never
before discerned.

He rose to go; then, suddenly yielding to the invincible longing to know
which had been gnawing at him since yesterday, he said:

âBy the way, I fancy I remember that you used to have, in Paris, a
little portrait of Marechal, in the drawing-room.â

She hesitated for a second or two, or at least he fancied she hesitated;
then she said:

âTo be sure.â

âWhat has become of the portrait?â

She might have replied more readily:

âThat portrait--stay; I don't exactly know--perhaps it is in my desk.â

âIt would be kind of you to find it.â

âYes, I will look for it. What do you want it for?â

âOh, it is not for myself. I thought it would be a natural thing to give
it to Jean, and that he would be pleased to have it.â

âYes, you are right; that is a good idea. I will look for it, as soon as
I am up.â

And he went out.

It was a blue day without a breath of wind. The folks in the streets
seemed in good spirits, the merchants going to business, the clerks
going to their office, the girls going to their shop. Some sang as they
went, exhilarated by the bright weather.

The passengers were already going on board the Trouville boat; Pierre
took a seat aft on a wooden bench.

He asked himself:

âNow was she uneasy at my asking for the portrait or only surprised? Has
she mislaid it, or has she hidden it? Does she know where it is, or does
she not? If she had hidden it--why?â

And his mind, still following up the same line of thought from one
deduction to another, came to this conclusion:

That portrait--of a friend, of a lover, had remained in the drawing-room
in a conspicuous place, till one day when the wife and mother perceived,
first of all and before any one else, that it bore a likeness to her
son. Without doubt she had for a long time been on the watch for this
resemblance; then, having detected it, having noticed its beginnings,
and understanding that any one might, any day, observe it too, she had
one evening removed the perilous little picture and had hidden it, not
daring to destroy it.

Pierre recollected quite clearly now that it was long, long before
they left Paris that the miniature had vanished. It had disappeared, he
thought, about the time that Jean's beard was beginning to grow, which
had made him suddenly and wonderfully like the fair young man who smiled
from the picture-frame.

The motion of the boat as it put off disturbed and dissipated his
meditations. He stood up and looked at the sea. The little steamer,
once outside the piers, turned to the left, and puffing and snorting and
quivering, made for a distant point visible through the morning haze.
The red sail of a heavy fishing-bark, lying motionless on the level
waters, looked like a large rock standing up out of the sea. And
the Seine, rolling down from Rouen, seemed a wide inlet dividing two
neighbouring lands. They reached the harbour of Trouville in less than
an hour, and as it was the time of day when the world was bathing,
Pierre went to the shore.

From a distance it looked like a garden full of gaudy flowers. All along
the stretch of yellow sand, from the pier as far as the Roches Noires,
sun-shades of every hue, hats of every shape, dresses of every colour,
in groups outside the bathing huts, in long rows by the margin of the
waves, or scattered here and there, really looked like immense bouquets
on a vast meadow. And the Babel of sounds--voices near and far ringing
thin in the light atmosphere, shouts and cries of children being bathed,
clear laughter of women--all made a pleasant, continuous din, mingling
with the unheeding breeze, and breathed with the air itself.

Pierre walked among all this throng, more lost, more remote from them,
more isolated, more drowned in his torturing thoughts, than if he had
been flung overboard from the deck of a ship a hundred miles from shore.
He passed by them and heard a few sentences without listening; and he
saw, without looking, how the men spoke to the women, and the women
smiled at the men. Then, suddenly, as if he had awoke, he perceived them
all; and hatred of them all surged up in his soul, for they seemed happy
and content.

Now, as he went, he studied the groups, wandering round them full of a
fresh set of ideas. All these many-hued dresses which covered the sands
like nosegays, these pretty stuffs, those showy parasols, the fictitious
grace of tightened waists, all the ingenious devices of fashion from
the smart little shoe to the extravagant hat, the seductive charm of
gesture, voice, and smile, all the coquettish airs in short displayed
on this seashore, suddenly struck him as stupendous efflorescences
of female depravity. All these bedizened women aimed at pleasing,
bewitching, and deluding some man. They had dressed themselves out for
men--for all men--all excepting the husband whom they no longer needed
to conquer. They had dressed themselves out for the lover of yesterday
and the lover of to-morrow, for the stranger they might meet and notice
or were perhaps on the lookout for.

And these men sitting close to them, eye to eye and mouth to mouth,
invited them, desired them, hunted them like game, coy and elusive
notwithstanding that it seemed so near and so easy to capture. This wide
shore was, then, no more than a love-market where some sold, others
gave themselves--some drove a hard bargain for their kisses while others
promised them for love. All these women thought only of one thing, to
make their bodies desirable--bodies already given, sold, or promised
to other men. And he reflected that it was everywhere the same, all the
world over.

His mother had done what others did--that was all. Others? These women
he saw about him, rich, giddy, love-seeking, belonged on the whole to
the class of fashionable and showy women of the world, some indeed to
the less respectable sisterhood, for on these sands, trampled by the
legion of idlers, the tribe of virtuous, home-keeping women were not to
be seen.

The tide was rising, driving the foremost rank of visitors gradually
landward. He saw the various groups jump up and fly, carrying their
chairs with them, before the yellow waves as they rolled up edged with
a lace-like frill of foam. The bathing-machines too were being pulled up
by horses, and along the planked way which formed the promenade running
along the shore from end to end, there was now an increasing flow, slow
and dense, of well-dressed people in two opposite streams elbowing and
mingling. Pierre, made nervous and exasperated by this bustle, made his
escape into the town, and went to get his breakfast at a modest tavern
on the skirts of the fields.

When he had finished with coffee, he stretched his legs on a couple of
chairs under a lime-tree in front of the house, and as he had hardly
slept the night before, he presently fell into a doze. After resting for
some hours he shook himself, and finding that it was time to go on board
again he set out, tormented by a sudden stiffness which had come upon
him during his long nap. Now he was eager to be at home again; to know
whether his mother had found the portrait of Marechal. Would she be the
first to speak of it, or would he be obliged to ask for it again? If she
waited to be questioned further it must be because she had some secret
reason for not showing the miniature.

But when he was at home again, and in his room, he hesitated about going
down to dinner. He was too wretched. His revolted soul had not yet time
to calm down. However, he made up his mind to it, and appeared in the
dining-room just as they were sitting down.

All their faces were beaming.

âWell,â said Roland, âare you getting on with your purchases? I do not
want to see anything till it is all in its place.â

And his wife replied: âOh, yes. We are getting on. But it takes much
consideration to avoid buying things that do not match. The furniture
question is an absorbing one.â

She had spent the day in going with Jean to cabinet-makers and
upholsterers. Her fancy was for rich materials, rather splendid to
strike the eye at once. Her son, on the contrary, wished for something
simple and elegant. So in front of everything put before them they had
each repeated their arguments. She declared that a client, a defendant,
must be impressed; that as soon as he is shown into his counsel's
waiting-room he should have a sense of wealth.

Jean, on the other hand, wishing to attract only an elegant and opulent
class, was anxious to captivate persons of refinement by his quiet and
perfect taste.

And this discussion, which had gone on all day, began again with the
soup.

Roland had no opinion. He repeated: âI do not want to hear anything
about it. I will go and see it when it is all finished.â

Mme. Roland appealed to the judgment of her elder son.

âAnd you, Pierre, what do you think of the matter?â

His nerves were in a state of such intense excitement that he would have
liked to reply with an oath. However, he only answered in a dry tone
quivering with annoyance.

âOh, I am quite of Jean's mind. I like nothing so well as simplicity,
which, in matters of taste, is equivalent to rectitude in matters of
conduct.â

His mother went on:

âYou must remember that we live in a city of commercial men, where good
taste is not to be met with at every turn.â

Pierre replied:

âWhat does that matter? Is that a reason for living as fools do? If my
fellow-townsmen are stupid and ill-bred, need I follow their example? A
woman does not misconduct herself because her neighbour has a lover.â

Jean began to laugh.

âYou argue by comparisons which seem to have been borrowed from the
maxims of a moralist.â

Pierre made no reply. His mother and his brother reverted to the
question of stuffs and arm-chairs.

He sat looking at them as he had looked at his mother in the morning
before starting for Trouville; looking at them as a stranger who would
study them, and he felt as though he had really suddenly come into a
family of which he knew nothing.

His father, above all, amazed his eyes and his mind. That flabby, burly
man, happy and besotted, was his own father! No, no; Jean was not in the
least like him.

His family!

Within these two days an unknown and malignant hand, the hand of a dead
man, had torn asunder and broken, one by one, all the ties which had
held these four human beings together. It was all over, all ruined. He
had now no mother--for he could no longer love her now that he could not
revere her with that perfect, tender, and pious respect which a son's
love demands; no brother--since his brother was the child of a stranger;
nothing was left him but his father, that coarse man whom he could not
love in spite of himself.

And he suddenly broke out:

âI say, mother, have you found that portrait?â

She opened her eyes in surprise.

âWhat portrait?â

âThe portrait of Marechal.â

âNo--that is to say--yes--I have not found it, but I think I know where
it is.â

âWhat is that?â asked Roland. And Pierre answered:

âA little likeness of Marechal which used to be in the dining-room in
Paris. I thought that Jean might be glad to have it.â

Roland exclaimed:

âWhy, yes, to be sure; I remember it perfectly. I saw it again last
week. Your mother found it in her desk when she was tidying the papers.
It was on Thursday or Friday. Do you remember, Louise? I was shaving
myself when you took it out and laid in on a chair by your side with a
pile of letters of which you burned half. Strange, isn't it, that you
should have come across the portrait only two or three days before Jean
heard of his legacy? If I believed in presentiments I should think that
this was one.â

Mme. Roland calmly replied:

âYes, I know where it is. I will fetch it presently.â

Then she had lied! When she had said that very morning to her son
who had asked her what had become of the miniature: âI don't exactly
know--perhaps it is in my deskâ--it was a lie! She had seen it, touched
it, handled it, gazed at it but a few days since; and then she had
hidden it away again in the secret drawer with those letters--his
letters.

Pierre looked at the mother who had lied to him; looked at her with
the concentrated fury of a son who had been cheated, robbed of his most
sacred affection, and with the jealous wrath of a man who, after long
being blind, at last discovers a disgraceful betrayal. If he had been
that woman's husband--and not her child--he would have gripped her by
the wrists, seized her by the shoulders or the hair, have flung her
on the ground, have hit her, hurt her, crushed her! And he might say
nothing, do nothing, show nothing, reveal nothing. He was her son; he
had no vengeance to take. And he had not been deceived.

Nay, but she had deceived his tenderness, his pious respect. She owed to
him to be without reproach, as all mothers owe it to their children. If
the fury that boiled within him verged on hatred it was that he felt her
to be even more guilty towards him than toward his father.

The love of man and wife is a voluntary compact in which the one who
proves weak is guilty only of perfidy; but when the wife is a mother her
duty is a higher one, since nature has intrusted her with a race. If she
fails, then she is cowardly, worthless, infamous.

âI do not care,â said Roland suddenly, stretching out his legs under
the table, as he did every evening while he sipped his glass of
black-currant brandy. âYou may do worse than live idle when you have
a snug little income. I hope Jean will have us to dinner in style now.
Hang it all! If I have indigestion now and then I cannot help it.â

Then turning to his wife he added:

âGo and fetch that portrait, little woman, as you have done your dinner.
I should like to see it again myself.â

She rose, took a taper, and went. Then, after an absence which Pierre
thought long, though she was not away more than three minutes, Mme.
Roland returned smiling, and holding an old-fashioned gilt frame by the
ring.

âHere it is,â said she, âI found it at once.â

The doctor was the first to put forth his hand; he took the picture,
and holding it a little away from him, he examined it. Then, fully aware
that his mother was looking at him, he slowly raised his eyes and fixed
them on his brother to compare the faces. He could hardly refrain, in
his violence, from saying: âDear me! How like Jean!â And though he dared
not utter the terrible words, he betrayed his thought by his manner of
comparing the living face with the painted one.

They had, no doubt, details in common; the same beard, the same brow;
but nothing sufficiently marked to justify the assertion: âThis is
the father and that the son.â It was rather a family likeness, a
relationship of physiognomies in which the same blood courses. But what
to Pierre was far more decisive than the common aspect of the faces, was
that his mother had risen, had turned her back, and was pretending, too
deliberately, to be putting the sugar basin and the liqueur bottle
away in a cupboard. She understood that he knew, or at any rate had his
suspicions.

âHand it on to me,â said Roland.

Pierre held out the miniature and his father drew the candle towards him
to see it better; then, he murmured in a pathetic tone:

âPoor fellow! To think that he was like that when we first knew him!
Cristi! How time flies! He was a good-looking man, too, in those days,
and with such a pleasant manner--was not he, Louise?â

As his wife made no answer he went on:

âAnd what an even temper! I never saw him put out. And now it is all at
an end--nothing left of him--but what he bequeathed to Jean. Well, at
any rate you may take your oath that that man was a good and faithful
friend to the last. Even on his death-bed he did not forget us.â

Jean, in his turn, held out his hand for the picture. He gazed at it for
a few minutes and then said regretfully:

âI do not recognise it at all. I only remember him with white hair.â

He returned the miniature to his mother. She cast a hasty glance at
it, looking away as if she were frightened; then in her usual voice she
said:

âIt belongs to you now, my little Jean, as you are his heir. We will
take it to your new rooms.â And when they went into the drawing-room
she placed the picture on the chimney-shelf by the clock, where it had
formerly stood.

Roland filled his pipe; Pierre and Jean lighted cigarettes. They
commonly smoked them, Pierre while he paced the room, Jean, sunk in a
deep arm-chair, with his legs crossed. Their father always sat astride a
chair and spat from afar into the fire-place.

Mme. Roland, on a low seat by a little table on which the lamp stood,
embroidered, or knitted, or marked linen.

This evening she was beginning a piece of worsted work, intended
for Jean's lodgings. It was a difficult and complicated pattern, and
required all her attention. Still, now and again, her eye, which was
counting the stitches, glanced up swiftly and furtively at the little
portrait of the dead as it leaned against the clock. And the doctor, who
was striding to and fro across the little room in four or five steps,
met his mother's look at each turn.

It was as though they were spying on each other; and acute uneasiness,
intolerable to be borne, clutched at Pierre's heart. He was saying to
himself--at once tortured and glad:

âShe must be in misery at this moment if she knows that I guess!â And
each time he reached the fire-place he stopped for a few seconds to look
at Marechal's fair hair, and show quite plainly that he was haunted by
a fixed idea. So that this little portrait, smaller than an opened palm,
was like a living being, malignant and threatening, suddenly brought
into this house and this family.

Presently the street-door bell rang. Mme. Roland, always so
self-possessed, started violently, betraying to her doctor son the
anguish of her nerves. Then she said: âIt must be Mme. Rosemilly;â and
her eye again anxiously turned to the mantel-shelf.

Pierre understood, or thought he understood, her fears and misery.
A woman's eye is keen, a woman's wit is nimble, and her instincts
suspicious. When this woman who was coming in should see the miniature
of a man she did not know, she might perhaps at the first glance
discover the likeness between this face and Jean. Then she would know
and understand everything.

He was seized with dread, a sudden and horrible dread of this shame
being unveiled, and, turning about just as the door opened, he took the
little painting and slipped it under the clock without being seen by his
father and brother.

When he met his mother's eyes again they seemed to him altered, dim, and
haggard.

âGood evening,â said Mme. Rosemilly. âI have come to ask you for a cup
of tea.â

But while they were bustling about her and asking after her health,
Pierre made off, the door having been left open.

When his absence was perceived they were all surprised. Jean, annoyed
for the young widow, who, he thought, would be hurt, muttered: âWhat a
bear!â

Mme. Roland replied: âYou must not be vexed with him; he is not very
well to-day and tired with his excursion to Trouville.â

âNever mind,â said Roland, âthat is no reason for taking himself off
like a savage.â

Mme. Rosemilly tried to smooth matters by saying: âNot at all, not at
all. He has gone away in the English fashion; people always disappear in
that way in fashionable circles if they want to leave early.â

âOh, in fashionable circles, I dare say,â replied Jean. âBut a man does
not treat his family _a l'Anglaise_, and my brother has done nothing
else for some time past.â



CHAPTER VI

For a week or two nothing occurred. The father went fishing; Jean, with
his mother's help, was furnishing and settling himself; Pierre, very
gloomy, never was seen excepting at meal-times.

His father having asked him one evening: âWhy the deuce do you always
come in with a face as cheerful as a funeral? This is not the first time
I have remarked it.â

The doctor replied: âThe fact is I am terribly conscious of the burden
of life.â

The old man did not have a notion what he meant, and with an aggrieved
look he went on: âIt really is too bad. Ever since we had the good luck
to come into this legacy, every one seems unhappy. It is as though some
accident had befallen us, as if we were in mourning for some one.â

âI am in mourning for some one,â said Pierre.

âYou are? For whom?â

âFor some one you never knew, and of whom I was too fond.â

Roland imagined that his son alluded to some girl with whom he had had
some love passages, and he said:

âA woman, I suppose.â

âYes, a woman.â

âDead?â

âNo. Worse. Ruined!â

âAh!â

Though he was startled by this unexpected confidence, in his wife's
presence too, and by his son's strange tone about it, the old man made
no further inquiries, for in his opinion such affairs did not concern a
third person.

Mme. Roland affected not to hear; she seemed ill and was very pale.
Several times already her husband, surprised to see her sit down as if
she were dropping into her chair, and to hear her gasp as if she could
not draw her breath, had said:

âReally, Louise, you look very ill; you tire yourself too much with
helping Jean. Give yourself a little rest. Sacristi! The rascal is in no
hurry, as he is a rich man.â

She shook her head without a word.

But to-day her pallor was so great that Roland remarked on it again.

âCome, come,â said he, âthis will not do at all, my dear old woman. You
must take care of yourself.â Then, addressing his son, âYou surely must
see that your mother is ill. Have you questioned her, at any rate?â

Pierre replied: âNo; I had not noticed that there was anything the
matter with her.â

At this Roland was angry.

âBut it stares you in the face, confound you! What on earth is the good
of your being a doctor if you cannot even see that your mother is out of
sorts? Why, look at her, just look at her. Really, a man might die under
his very eyes and this doctor would never think there was anything the
matter!â

Mme. Roland was panting for breath, and so white that her husband
exclaimed:

âShe is going to faint.â

âNo, no, it is nothing--I shall get better directly--it is nothing.â

Pierre had gone up to her and was looking at her steadily.

âWhat ails you?â he said. And she repeated in an undertone:

âNothing, nothing--I assure you, nothing.â

Roland had gone to fetch some vinegar; he now returned, and handing the
bottle to his son he said:

âHere--do something to ease her. Have you felt her heart?â

As Pierre bent over her to feel her pulse she pulled away her hand so
vehemently that she struck it against a chair which was standing by.

âCome,â said he in icy tones, âlet me see what I can do for you, as you
are ill.â

Then she raised her arm and held it out to him. Her skin was burning,
the blood throbbing in short irregular leaps.

âYou are certainly ill,â he murmured. âYou must take something to quiet
you. I will write you a prescription.â And as he wrote, stooping over
the paper, a low sound of choked sighs, smothered, quick breathing and
suppressed sobs made him suddenly look round at her. She was weeping,
her hands covering her face.

Roland, quite distracted, asked her:

âLouise, Louise, what is the mater with you? What on earth ails you?â

She did not answer, but seemed racked by some deep and dreadful grief.
Her husband tried to take her hands from her face, but she resisted him,
repeating:

âNo, no, no.â

He appealed to his son.

âBut what is the matter with her? I never saw her like this.â

âIt is nothing,â said Pierre, âshe is a little hysterical.â

And he felt as if it were a comfort to him to see her suffering thus,
as if this anguish mitigated his resentment and diminished his mother's
load of opprobrium. He looked at her as a judge satisfied with his day's
work.

Suddenly she rose, rushed to the door with such a swift impulse that it
was impossible to forestall or to stop her, and ran off to lock herself
into her room.

Roland and the doctor were left face to face.

âCan you make head or tail of it?â said the father.

âOh, yes,â said the other. âIt is a little nervous disturbance, not
alarming or surprising; such attacks may very likely recur from time to
time.â

They did in fact recur, almost every day; and Pierre seemed to bring
them on with a word, as if he had the clew to her strange and new
disorder. He would discern in her face a lucid interval of peace and
with the willingness of a torturer would, with a word, revive the
anguish that had been lulled for a moment.

But he, too, was suffering as cruelly as she. It was dreadful pain to
him that he could no longer love her nor respect her, that he must put
her on the rack. When he had laid bare the bleeding wound which he had
opened in her woman's, her mother's heart, when he felt how wretched and
desperate she was, he would go out alone, wander about the town, so torn
by remorse, so broken by pity, so grieved to have thus hammered her with
his scorn as her son, that he longed to fling himself into the sea and
put an end to it all by drowning himself.

Ah! How gladly now would he have forgiven her. But he could not, for he
was incapable of forgetting. If only he could have desisted from making
her suffer; but this again he could not, suffering as he did himself. He
went home to his meals, full of relenting resolutions; then, as soon as
he saw her, as soon as he met her eye--formerly so clear and frank, now
so evasive, frightened, and bewildered--he struck at her in spite of
himself, unable to suppress the treacherous words which would rise to
his lips.

This disgraceful secret, known to them alone, goaded him up against her.
It was as a poison flowing in his veins and giving him an impulse to
bite like a mad dog.

And there was no one in the way now to hinder his reading her; Jean
lived almost entirely in his new apartments, and only came home to
dinner and to sleep every night at his father's.

He frequently observed his brother's bitterness and violence, and
attributed them to jealousy. He promised himself that some day he would
teach him his place and give him a lesson, for life at home was becoming
very painful as a result of these constant scenes. But as he now lived
apart he suffered less from this brutal conduct, and his love of peace
prompted him to patience. His good fortune, too, had turned his head,
and he scarcely paused to think of anything which had no direct interest
for himself. He would come in full of fresh little anxieties, full of
the cut of a morning-coat, of the shape of a felt hat, of the proper
size for his visiting-cards. And he talked incessantly of all the
details of his house--the shelves fixed in his bed-room cupboard to keep
linen on, the pegs to be put up in the entrance hall, the electric bells
contrived to prevent illicit visitors to his lodgings.

It had been settled that on the day when he should take up his abode
there they should make an excursion to Saint Jouin, and return after
dining there, to drink tea in his rooms. Roland wanted to go by water,
but the distance and the uncertainty of reaching it in a sailing boat if
there should be a head-wind, made them reject his plan, and a break was
hired for the day.

They set out at ten to get there to breakfast. The dusty high road lay
across the plain of Normandy, which, by its gentle undulations, dotted
with farms embowered in trees, wears the aspect of an endless park. In
the vehicle, as it jogged on at the slow trot of a pair of heavy horses,
sat the four Rolands, Mme. Rosemilly, and Captain Beausire, all silent,
deafened by the rumble of the wheels, and with their eyes shut to keep
out the clouds of dust.

It was harvest-time. Alternating with the dark hue of clover and the raw
green of beet-root, the yellow corn lighted up the landscape with gleams
of pale gold; the fields looked as if they had drunk in the sunshine
which poured down on them. Here and there the reapers were at work,
and in the plots where the scythe had been put in the men might be seen
see-sawing as they swept the level soil with the broad, wing-shaped
blade.

After a two-hours' drive the break turned off to the left, past a
windmill at work--a melancholy, gray wreck, half rotten and doomed, the
last survivor of its ancient race; then it went into a pretty inn yard,
and drew up at the door of a smart little house, a hostelry famous in
those parts.

The mistress, well known as âLa belle Alphonsine,â came smiling to the
threshold, and held out her hand to the two ladies who hesitated to take
the high step.

Some strangers were already at breakfast under a tent by a grass-plot
shaded by apple trees--Parisians, who had come from Etretat; and from
the house came sounds of voices, laughter, and the clatter of plates and
pans.

They were to eat in a room, as the outer dining-halls were all full.
Roland suddenly caught sight of some shrimping nets hanging against the
wall.

âAh! ha!â cried he, âyou catch prawns here?â

âYes,â replied Beausire. âIndeed it is the place on all the coast where
most are taken.â

âFirst-rate! Suppose we try to catch some after breakfast.â

As it happened it would be low tide at three o'clock, so it was settled
that they should all spend the afternoon among the rocks, hunting
prawns.

They made a light breakfast, as a precaution against the tendency of
blood to the head when they should have their feet in the water. They
also wished to reserve an appetite for dinner, which had been ordered on
a grand scale and to be ready at six o'clock when they came in.

Roland could not sit still for impatience. He wanted to buy the nets
specially constructed for fishing prawns, not unlike those used for
catching butterflies in the country. Their name on the French coast is
_lanets_; they are netted bags on a circular wooden frame, at the end of
a long pole. Alphonsine, still smiling, was happy to lend them. Then she
helped the two ladies to make an impromptu change of toilet, so as
not to spoil their dresses. She offered them skirts, coarse worsted
stockings and hemp shoes. The men took off their socks and went to the
shoemaker's to buy wooden shoes instead.

Then they set out, the nets over their shoulders and creels on their
backs. Mme. Rosemilly was very sweet in this costume, with an unexpected
charm of countrified audacity. The skirt which Alphonsine had lent her,
coquettishly tucked up and firmly stitched so as to allow of her running
and jumping fearlessly on the rocks, displayed her ankle and lower
calf--the firm calf of a strong and agile little woman. Her dress was
loose to give freedom to her movements, and to cover her head she
had found an enormous garden hat of coarse yellow straw with an
extravagantly broad brim; and to this, a bunch of tamarisk pinned in to
cock it on one side, gave a very dashing and military effect.

Jean, since he had come into his fortune, had asked himself every day
whether or no he should marry her. Each time he saw her he made up his
mind to ask her to be his wife, and then, as soon as he was alone again,
he considered that by waiting he would have time to reflect. She was now
less rich than he, for she had but twelve thousand francs a year; but it
was in real estate, in farms and lands near the docks in Havre; and
this by-and-bye might be worth a great deal. Their fortunes were
thus approximately equal, and certainly the young widow attracted him
greatly.

As he watched her walking in front of him that day he said to himself:

âI must really decide; I cannot do better, I am sure.â

They went down a little ravine, sloping from the village to the cliff,
and the cliff, at the end of this comb, rose about eighty metres above
the sea. Framed between the green slopes to the right and left, a great
triangle of silvery blue water could be seen in the distance, and a
sail, scarcely visible, looked like an insect out there. The sky, pale
with light, was so merged into one with the water that it was impossible
to see where one ended and the other began; and the two women, walking
in front of the men, stood out against the bright background, their
shapes clearly defined in their closely-fitting dresses.

Jean, with a sparkle in his eye, watched the smart ankle, the neat leg,
the supple waist, and the coquettish broad hat of Mme. Rosemilly as they
fled away from him. And this flight fired his ardour, urging him on to
the sudden determination which comes to hesitating and timid natures.
The warm air, fragrant with sea-coast odours--gorse, clover, and thyme,
mingling with the salt smell of the rocks at low tide--excited him still
more, mounting to his brain; and every moment he felt a little more
determined, at every step, at every glance he cast at the alert figure;
he made up his mind to delay no longer, to tell her that he loved her
and hoped to marry her. The prawn-fishing would favour him by affording
him an opportunity; and it would be a pretty scene too, a pretty spot
for love-making--their feet in a pool of limpid water while they watched
the long feelers of the shrimps lurking under the wrack.

When they had reached the end of the comb and the edge of the cliff,
they saw a little footpath slanting down the face of it; and below them,
about half-way between the sea and the foot of the precipice, an amazing
chaos of enormous boulders tumbled over and piled one above the other
on a sort of grassy and undulating plain which extended as far as they
could see to the southward, formed by an ancient landslip. On this long
shelf of brushwood and grass, disrupted, as it seemed, by the shocks
of a volcano, the fallen rocks seemed the wreck of a great ruined city
which had once looked out on the ocean, sheltered by the long white wall
of the overhanging cliff.

âThat is fine!â exclaimed Mme. Rosemilly, standing still. Jean had come
up with her, and with a beating heart offered his hand to help her down
the narrow steps cut in the rock.

They went on in front, while Beausire, squaring himself on his little
legs, gave his arm to Mme. Roland, who felt giddy at the gulf before
her.

Roland and Pierre came last, and the doctor had to drag his father down,
for his brain reeled so that he could only slip down sitting, from step
to step.

The two young people who led the way went fast till on a sudden they
saw, by the side of a wooden bench which afforded a resting-place about
half-way down the slope, a thread of clear water, springing from a
crevice in the cliff. It fell into a hollow as large as a washing basin
which it had worn in the stone; then, falling in a cascade, hardly two
feet high, it trickled across the footpath which it had carpeted with
cresses, and was lost among the briers and grass on the raised shelf
where the boulders were piled.

âOh, I am so thirsty!â cried Mme. Rosemilly.

But how could she drink? She tried to catch the water in her hand, but
it slipped away between her fingers. Jean had an idea; he placed a stone
on the path and on this she knelt down to put her lips to the spring
itself, which was thus on the same level.

When she raised her head, covered with myriads of tiny drops, sprinkled
all over her face, her hair, her eye-lashes, and her dress, Jean bent
over her and murmured: âHow pretty you look!â

She answered in the tone in which she might have scolded a child:

âWill you be quiet?â

These were the first words of flirtation they had ever exchanged.

âCome,â said Jean, much agitated. âLet us go on before they come up with
us.â

For in fact they could see quite near them now Captain Beausire as
he came down, backward, so as to give both hands to Mme. Roland; and
further up, further off, Roland still letting himself slip, lowering
himself on his hams and clinging on with his hands and elbows at
the speed of a tortoise, Pierre keeping in front of him to watch his
movements.

The path, now less steep, was here almost a road, zigzagging between the
huge rocks which had at some former time rolled from the hill-top. Mme.
Rosemilly and Jean set off at a run and they were soon on the beach.
They crossed it and reached the rocks, which stretched in a long and
flat expanse covered with sea-weed, and broken by endless gleaming
pools. The ebbed waters lay beyond, very far away, across this plain of
slimy weed, of a black and shining olive green.

Jean rolled up his trousers above his calf, and his sleeves to his
elbows, that he might get wet without caring; then saying: âForward!â he
leaped boldly into the first tide-pool they came to.

The lady, more cautious, though fully intending to go in too, presently,
made her way round the little pond, stepping timidly, for she slipped on
the grassy weed.

âDo you see anything?â she asked.

âYes, I see your face reflected in the water.â

âIf that is all you see, you will not have good fishing.â

He murmured tenderly in reply:

âOf all fishing it is that I should like best to succeed in.â

She laughed: âTry; you will see how it will slip through your net.â

âBut yet--if you will?â

âI will see you catch prawns--and nothing else--for the moment.â

âYou are cruel--let us go a little farther, there are none here.â

He gave her his hand to steady her on the slippery rocks. She leaned on
him rather timidly, and he suddenly felt himself overpowered by love and
insurgent with passion, as if the fever that had been incubating in him
had waited till to-day to declare its presence.

They soon came to a deeper rift, in which long slender weeds,
fantastically tinted, like floating green and rose-coloured hair, were
swaying under the quivering water as it trickled off to the distant sea
through some invisible crevice.

Mme. Rosemilly cried out: âLook, look, I see one, a big one. A very
big one, just there!â He saw it too, and stepped boldly into the pool,
though he got wet up to the waist. But the creature, waving its long
whiskers, gently retired in front of the net. Jean drove it towards the
sea-weed, making sure of his prey. When it found itself blockaded it
rose with a dart over the net, shot across the mere, and was gone. The
young woman, who was watching the chase in great excitement, could not
help exclaiming: âOh! Clumsy!â

He was vexed, and without a moment's thought dragged his net over a hole
full of weed. As he brought it to the surface again he saw in it three
large transparent prawns, caught blindfold in their hiding-place.

He offered them in triumph to Mme. Rosemilly, who was afraid to touch
them, for fear of the sharp, serrated crest which arms their heads.
However, she made up her mind to it, and taking them up by the tip of
their long whiskers she dropped them one by one into her creel, with a
little seaweed to keep them alive. Then, having found a shallower pool
of water, she stepped in with some hesitation, for the cold plunge of
her feet took her breath away, and began to fish on her own account. She
was dextrous and artful, with the light hand and the hunter's instinct
which are indispensable. At almost every dip she brought up some prawns,
beguiled and surprised by her ingeniously gentle pursuit.

Jean now caught nothing; but he followed her, step by step, touched
her now and again, bent over her, pretended great distress at his own
awkwardness, and besought her to teach him.

âShow me,â he kept saying. âShow me how.â

And then, as their two faces were reflected side by side in water so
clear that the black weeds at the bottom made a mirror, Jean smiled at
the face which looked up at him from the depth, and now and then from
his finger-tips blew it a kiss which seemed to light upon it.

âOh! how tiresome you are!â she exclaimed. âMy dear fellow, you should
never do two things at once.â

He replied: âI am only doing one--loving you.â

She drew herself up and said gravely:

âWhat has come over you these ten minutes; have you lost your wits?â

âNo, I have not lost my wits. I love you, and at last I dare to tell you
so.â

They were at this moment both standing in the salt pool wet half-way up
to their knees and with dripping hands, holding their nets. They looked
into each other's eyes.

She went on in a tone of amused annoyance.

âHow very ill-advised to tell me here and now! Could you not wait till
another day instead of spoiling my fishing?â

âForgive me,â he murmured, âbut I could not longer hold my peace. I
have loved you a long time. To-day you have intoxicated me and I lost my
reason.â

Then suddenly she seemed to have resigned herself to talk business and
think no more of pleasure.

âLet us sit down on that stone,â said she, âwe can talk more
comfortably.â They scrambled up a rather high boulder, and when they had
settled themselves side by side in the bright sunshine, she began again:

âMy good friend, you are no longer a child, and I am not a young girl.
we both know perfectly well what we are about and we can weigh the
consequences of our actions. If you have made up your mind to make love
to me to-day I must naturally infer that you wish to marry me.â

He was not prepared for this matter-of-fact statement of the case, and
he answered blandly:

âWhy, yes.â

âHave you mentioned it to your father and mother?â

âNo, I wanted to know first whether you would accept me.â

She held out her hand, which was still wet, and as he eagerly clasped
it:

âI am ready and willing,â she said. âI believe you to be kind and
true-hearted. But remember, I should not like to displease your
parents.â

âOh, do you think that my mother has never foreseen it, or that she
would not be as fond of you as she is if she did not hope that you and I
should marry?â

âThat is true. I am a little disturbed.â

They said no more. He, for his part, was amazed at her being so little
disturbed, so rational. He had expected pretty little flirting ways,
refusals which meant yes, a whole coquettish comedy of love chequered
by prawn-fishing in the splashing water. And it was all over; he was
pledged, married with twenty words. They had no more to say about it
since they were agreed, and they now sat, both somewhat embarrassed by
what had so swiftly passed between them; a little perplexed, indeed, not
daring to speak, not daring to fish, not knowing what to do.

Roland's voice rescued them.

âThis way, this way, children. Come and watch Beausire. The fellow is
positively clearing out the sea!â

The captain had, in fact, had a wonderful haul. Wet above his hips he
waded from pool to pool, recognizing the likeliest spots at a glance,
and searching all the hollows hidden under sea-weed, with a steady
slow sweep of his net. And the beautiful transparent, sandy-gray prawns
skipped in his palm as he picked them out of the net with a dry jerk
and put them into his creel. Mme. Rosemilly, surprised and delighted,
remained at his side, almost forgetful of her promise to Jean, who
followed them in a dream, giving herself up entirely to the childish
enjoyment of pulling the creatures out from among the waving
sea-grasses.

Roland suddenly exclaimed:

âAh, here comes Mme. Roland to join us.â

She had remained at first on the beach with Pierre, for they had neither
of them any wish to play at running about among the rocks and paddling
in the tide-pools; and yet they had felt doubtful about staying
together. She was afraid of him, and her son was afraid of her and of
himself; afraid of his own cruelty which he could not control. But they
sat down side by side on the stones. And both of them, under the heat of
the sun, mitigated by the sea-breeze, gazing at the wide, fair horizon
of blue water streaked and shot with silver, thought as if in unison:
âHow delightful this would have been--once.â

She did not venture to speak to Pierre, knowing that he would return
some hard answer; and he dared not address his mother, knowing that
in spite of himself he should speak violently. He sat twitching the
water-worn pebbles with the end of his cane, switching them and turning
them over. She, with a vague look in her eyes, had picked up three or
four little stones and was slowly and mechanically dropping them from
one hand into the other. Then her unsettled gaze, wandering over the
scene before her, discerned, among the weedy rocks, her son Jean fishing
with Mme. Rosemilly. She looked at them, watching their movements, dimly
understanding, with motherly instinct, that they were talking as they
did not talk every day. She saw them leaning over side by side when they
looked into the water, standing face to face when they questioned their
hearts, then scrambled up the rock and seated themselves to come to an
understanding. Their figures stood out very sharply, looking as if they
were alone in the middle of the wide horizon, and assuming a sort of
symbolic dignity in that vast expanse of sky and sea and cliff.

Pierre, too, was looking at them, and a harsh laugh suddenly broke form
his lips. Without turning to him Mme. Roland said:

âWhat is it?â

He spoke with a sneer.

âI am learning. Learning how a man lays himself out to be cozened by his
wife.â

She flushed with rage, exasperated by the insinuation she believed was
intended.

âIn whose name do you say that?â

âIn Jean's, by Heaven! It is immensely funny to see those two.â

She murmured in a low voice, tremulous with feeling: âO Pierre, how
cruel you are! That woman is honesty itself. Your brother could not find
a better.â

He laughed aloud, a hard, satirical laugh:

âHa! hah! Hah! Honesty itself! All wives are honesty itself--and all
husbands are--betrayed.â And he shouted with laughter.

She made no reply, but rose, hastily went down the sloping beach, and
at the risk of tumbling into one of the rifts hidden by the sea-weed, of
breaking a leg or an arm, she hastened, almost running, plunging through
the pools without looking, straight to her other son.

Seeing her approach, Jean called out:

âWell, mother? So you have made the effort?â

Without a word she seized him by the arm, as if to say: âSave me,
protect me!â

He saw her agitation, and greatly surprised he said:

âHow pale you are! What is the matter?â

She stammered out:

âI was nearly falling; I was frightened at the rocks.â

So then Jean guided her, supported her, explained the sport to her that
she might take an interest in it. But as she scarcely heeded him, and as
he was bursting with the desire to confide in some one, he led her away
and in a low voice said to her:

âGuess what I have done!â

âBut--what--I don't know.â

âGuess.â

âI cannot. I don't know.â

âWell, I have told Mme. Rosemilly that I wish to marry her.â

She did not answer, for her brain was buzzing, her mind in such distress
that she could scarcely take it in. She echoed: âMarry her?â

âYes. Have I done well? She is charming, do not you think?â

âYes, charming. You have done very well.â

âThen you approve?â

âYes, I approve.â

âBut how strangely you say so! I could fancy that--that you were not
glad.â

âYes, indeed, I am--very glad.â

âReally and truly?â

âReally and truly.â

And to prove it she threw her arms round him and kissed him heartily,
with warm motherly kisses. Then, when she had wiped her eyes, which
were full of tears, she observed upon the beach a man lying flat at full
length like a dead body, his face hidden against the stones; it was the
other one, Pierre, sunk in thought and desperation.

At this she led her little Jean farther away, quite to the edge of the
waves, and there they talked for a long time of this marriage on which
he had set his heart.

The rising tide drove them back to rejoin the fishers, and then they
all made their way to the shore. They roused Pierre, who pretended to
be sleeping; and then came a long dinner washed down with many kinds of
wine.



CHAPTER VII

In the break, on their way home, all the men dozed excepting Jean.
Beausire and Roland dropped every five minutes on to a neighbour's
shoulder which repelled them with a shove. Then they sat up, ceased
to snore, opened their eyes, muttered, âA lovely evening!â and almost
immediately fell over on the other side.

By the time they reached Havre their drowsiness was so heavy that they
had great difficulty in shaking it off, and Beausire even refused to go
to Jean's rooms where tea was waiting for them. He had to be set down at
his own door.

The young lawyer was to sleep in his new abode for the first time; and
he was full of rather puerile glee which had suddenly come over him, at
being able, that very evening, to show his betrothed the rooms she was
so soon to inhabit.

The maid had gone to bed, Mme. Roland having declared that she herself
would boil the water and make the tea, for she did not like the servants
to be kept up for fear of fire.

No one had yet been into the lodgings but herself, Jean, and the
workmen, that the surprise might be the greater at their being so
pretty.

Jean begged them all to wait a moment in the ante-room. He wanted to
light the lamps and candles, and he left Mme. Rosemilly in the dark with
his father and brother; then he cried: âCome in!â opening the double
door to its full width.

The glass gallery, lighted by a chandelier and little coloured lamps
hidden among palms, india-rubber plants, and flowers, was first seen
like a scene on the stage. There was a spasm of surprise. Roland,
dazzled by such luxury, muttered an oath, and felt inclined to clap his
hands as if it were a pantomime scene. They then went into the first
drawing-room, a small room hung with dead gold and furnished to match.
The larger drawing-room--the lawyer's consulting-room, very simple, hung
with light salmon-colour--was dignified in style.

Jean sat down in his arm-chair in front of his writing-table loaded with
books, and in a solemn, rather stilted tone, he began:

âYes, madame, the letter of the law is explicit, and, assuming the
consent I promised you, it affords me absolute certainty that the matter
we discussed will come to a happy conclusion within three months.â

He looked at Mme. Rosemilly, who began to smile and glanced at Mme.
Roland. Mme. Roland took her hand and pressed it. Jean, in high spirits,
cut a caper like a school-boy, exclaiming: âHah! How well the voice
carries in this room; it would be capital for speaking in.â

And he declaimed:

âIf humanity alone, if the instinct of natural benevolence which we feel
towards all who suffer, were the motive of the acquittal we expect of
you, I should appeal to your compassion, gentlemen of the jury, to your
hearts as fathers and as men; but we have law on our side, and it is the
point of law only which we shall submit to your judgment.â

Pierre was looking at this home which might have been his, and he was
restive under his brother's frolics, thinking him really too silly and
witless.

Mme. Roland opened a door on the right.

âThis is the bed-room,â said she.

She had devoted herself to its decoration with all her mother's love.
The hangings were of Rouen cretonne imitating old Normandy chintz, and
the Louis XV. design--a shepherdess, in a medallion held in the beaks
of a pair of doves--gave the walls, curtains, bed, and arm-chairs a
festive, rustic style that was extremely pretty!

âOh, how charming!â Mme. Rosemilly exclaimed, becoming a little serious
as they entered the room.

âDo you like it?â asked Jean.

âImmensely.â

âYou cannot imagine how glad I am.â

They looked at each other for a second, with confiding tenderness in the
depths of their eyes.

She had felt a little awkward, however, a little abashed, in this room
which was to be hers. She noticed as she went in that the bed was a
large one, quite a family bed, chosen by Mme. Roland, who had no doubt
foreseen and hoped that her son should soon marry; and this motherly
foresight pleased her, for it seemed to tell her that she was expected
in the family.

When they had returned to the drawing-room Jean abruptly threw open the
door to the left, showing the circular dining-room with three windows,
and decorated to imitate a Chinese lantern. Mother and son had here
lavished all the fancy of which they were capable, and the room, with
its bamboo furniture, its mandarins, jars, silk hangings glistening
with gold, transparent blinds threaded with beads looking like drops
of water, fans nailed to the wall to drape the hangings on, screens,
swords, masks, cranes made of real feathers, and a myriad trifles
in china, wood, paper, ivory, mother-of-pearl, and bronze, had
the pretentious and extravagant aspect which unpractised hands and
uneducated eyes inevitably stamp on things which need the utmost tact,
taste, and artistic education. Nevertheless it was the most admired;
only Pierre made some observations with rather bitter irony which hurt
his brother's feelings.

Pyramids of fruit stood on the table and monuments of cakes. No one was
hungry; they picked at the fruit and nibbled at the cakes rather than
ate them. Then, at the end of about an hour, Mme. Rosemilly begged to
take leave. It was decided that old Roland should accompany her home and
set out with her forthwith; while Mme. Roland, in the maid's absence,
should cast a maternal eye over the house and see that her son had all
he needed.

âShall I come back for you?â asked Roland.

She hesitated a moment and then said: âNo, dear old man; go to bed.
Pierre will see me home.â

As soon as they were gone she blew out the candles, locked up the cakes,
the sugar, and liqueurs in a cupboard of which she gave the key to Jean;
then she went into the bed-room, turned down the bed, saw that there
was fresh water in the water-bottle, and that the window was properly
closed.

Pierre and Jean had remained in the little outer drawing-room; the
younger still sore under the criticism passed on his taste, and the
elder chafing more and more at seeing his brother in this abode. They
both sat smoking without a word. Pierre suddenly started to his feet.

âCristi!â he exclaimed. âThe widow looked very jaded this evening. Long
excursions do not improve her.â

Jean felt his spirit rising with one of those sudden and furious rages
which boil up in easy-going natures when they are wounded to the quick.
He could hardly find breath to speak, so fierce was his excitement, and
he stammered out:

âI forbid you ever again to say 'the widow' when you speak of Mme.
Rosemilly.â

Pierre turned on him haughtily:

âYou are giving me an order, I believe. Are you gone mad by any chance?â

Jean had pulled himself up.

âI am not gone mad, but I have had enough of your manners to me.â

Pierre sneered: âTo you? And are you any part of Mme. Rosemilly?â

âYou are to know that Mme. Rosemilly is about to become my wife.â

Pierre laughed the louder.

âAh! ha! very good. I understand now why I should no longer speak of
her as 'the widow.' But you have taken a strange way of announcing your
engagement.â

âI forbid any jesting about it. Do you hear? I forbid it.â

Jean had come close up to him, pale, and his voice quivering with
exasperation at this irony levelled at the woman he loved and had
chosen.

But on a sudden Pierre turned equally furious. All the accumulation of
impotent rage, of suppressed malignity, of rebellion choked down for so
long past, all his unspoken despair mounted to his brain, bewildering it
like a fit.

âHow dare you? How dare you? I order you to hold your tongue--do you
hear? I order you.â

Jean, startled by his violence, was silent for a few seconds, trying
in the confusion of mind which comes of rage to hit on the thing, the
phrase, the word, which might stab his brother to the heart. He went on,
with an effort to control himself that he might aim true, and to speak
slowly that the words might hit more keenly:

âI have known for a long time that you were jealous of me, ever since
the day when you first began to talk of 'the widow' because you knew it
annoyed me.â

Pierre broke into one of those strident and scornful laughs which were
common with him.

âAh! ah! Good Heavens! Jealous of you! I? I? And of what? Good God! Of
your person or your mind?â

But Jean knew full well that he had touched the wound in his soul.

âYes, jealous of me--jealous from your childhood up. And it became fury
when you saw that this woman liked me best and would have nothing to say
to you.â

Pierre, stung to the quick by this assumption, stuttered out:

âI? I? Jealous of you? And for the sake of that goose, that gaby, that
simpleton?â

Jean, seeing that he was aiming true, went on:

âAnd how about the day when you tried to pull me round in the Pearl?
And all you said in her presence to show off? Why, you are bursting
with jealousy! And when this money was left to me you were maddened, you
hated me, you showed it in every possible way, and made every one suffer
for it; not an hour passes that you do not spit out the bile that is
choking you.â

Pierre clenched his fist in his fury with an almost irresistible impulse
to fly at his brother and seize him by the throat.

âHold your tongue,â he cried. âAt least say nothing about that money.â

Jean went on:

âWhy your jealousy oozes out at every pore. You never say a word to my
father, my mother, or me that does not declare it plainly. You pretend
to despise me because you are jealous. You try to pick a quarrel with
every one because you are jealous. And now that I am rich you can no
longer contain yourself; you have become venomous, you torture our poor
mother as if she were to blame!â

Pierre had retired step by step as far as the fire-place, his mouth half
open, his eyes glaring, a prey to one of those mad fits of passion in
which a crime is committed.

He said again in a lower tone, gasping for breath: âHold your
tongue--for God's sake hold your tongue!â

âNo! For a long time I have been wanting to give you my whole mind! You
have given me an opening--so much the worse for you. I love the woman;
you know it, and laugh her to scorn in my presence--so much the worse
for you. But I will break your viper's fangs, I tell you. I will make
you treat me with respect.â

âWith respect--you?â

âYes--me.â

âRespect you? You who have brought shame on us all by your greed.â

âYou say--? Say it again--again.â

âI say that it does not do to accept one man's fortune when another is
reputed to be your father.â

Jean stood rigid, not understanding, dazed by the insinuation he
scented.

âWhat? Repeat that once more.â

âI say--what everybody is muttering, what every gossip is blabbing--that
you are the son of the man who left you his fortune. Well, then--a
decent man does not take the money which brings dishonour on his
mother.â

âPierre! Pierre! Pierre! Think what you are saying. You? Is it you who
give utterance to this infamous thing?â

âYes, I. It is I. Have you not seen me crushed with woe this month past,
spending my nights without sleep and my days in lurking out of sight
like an animal? I hardly know what I am doing or what will become of
me, so miserable am I, so crazed with shame and grief; for first I
guessed--and now I know it.â

âPierre! Be silent. Mother is in the next room. Remember she may
hear--she must hear.â

But Pierre felt that he must unburden his heart. He told Jean all his
suspicions, his arguments, his struggles, his assurance, and the history
of the portrait--which had again disappeared. He spoke in short broken
sentences almost without coherence--the language of a sleep-walker.

He seemed to have quite forgotten Jean, and his mother in the adjoining
room. He talked as if no one were listening, because he must talk,
because he had suffered too much and smothered and closed the wound
too tightly. It had festered like an abscess and the abscess had burst,
splashing every one. He was pacing the room in the way he almost always
did, his eyes fixed on vacancy, gesticulating in a frenzy of despair,
his voice choked with tearless sobs and revulsions of self-loathing; he
spoke as if he were making a confession of his own misery and that
of his nearest kin, as though he were casting his woes to the deaf,
invisible winds which bore away his words.

Jean, distracted and almost convinced on a sudden by his brother's blind
vehemence, was leaning against the door behind which, as he guessed,
their mother had heard them.

She could not get out, she must come through his room. She had not come;
then it was because she dare not.

Suddenly Pierre stamped his foot.

âI am a brute,â he cried, âto have told you this.â

And he fled, bare-headed, down the stairs.

The noise of the front-door closing with a slam roused Jean from the
deep stupor into which he had fallen. Some seconds had elapsed, longer
than hours, and his spirit had sunk into the numb torpor of idiocy.
He was conscious, indeed, that he must presently think and act, but he
would wait, refusing to understand, to know, to remember, out of
fear, weakness, cowardice. He was one of those procrastinators who put
everything off till to-morrow; and when he was compelled to come to
a decision then and there, still he instinctively tried to gain a few
minutes.

But the perfect silence which now reigned, after Pierre's vociferations,
the sudden stillness of walls and furniture, with the bright light of
six wax candles and two lamps, terrified him so greatly that he suddenly
longed to make his escape too.

Then he roused his brain, roused his heart, and tried to reflect.

Never in his life had he had to face a difficulty. There are men who let
themselves glide onward like running water. He had been duteous over his
tasks for fear of punishment, and had got through his legal studies
with credit because his existence was tranquil. Everything in the world
seemed to him quite natural and never aroused his particular attention.
He loved order, steadiness, and peace, by temperament, his nature having
no complications; and face to face with this catastrophe, he found
himself like a man who has fallen into the water and cannot swim.

At first he tried to be incredulous. His brother had told a lie, out of
hatred and jealousy. But yet, how could he have been so vile as to say
such a thing of their mother if he had not himself been distraught by
despair? Besides, stamped on Jean's ear, on his sight, on his nerves,
on the inmost fibres of his flesh, were certain words, certain tones of
anguish, certain gestures of Pierre's, so full of suffering that they
were irresistibly convincing; as incontrovertible as certainty itself.

He was too much crushed to stir or even to will. His distress became
unbearable; and he knew that behind the door was his mother who had
heard everything and was waiting.

What was she doing? Not a movement, not a shudder, not a breath, not a
sigh revealed the presence of a living creature behind that panel. Could
she have run away? But how? If she had run away--she must have jumped
out of the window into the street. A shock of terror roused him--so
violent and imperious that he drove the door in rather than opened it,
and flung himself into the bed-room.

It was apparently empty, lighted by a single candle standing on the
chest of drawers.

Jean flew to the window; it was shut and the shutters bolted. He looked
about him, peering into the dark corners with anxious eyes, and he then
noticed that the bed-curtains were drawn. He ran forward and opened
them. His mother was lying on the bed, her face buried in the pillow
which she had pulled up over her ears that she might hear no more.

At first he thought she had smothered herself. Then, taking her by the
shoulders, he turned her over without her leaving go of the pillow,
which covered her face, and in which she had set her teeth to keep
herself from crying out.

But the mere touch of this rigid form, of those arms so convulsively
clinched, communicated to him the shock of her unspeakable torture. The
strength and determination with which she clutched the linen case full
of feathers with her hands and teeth, over her mouth and eyes and ears,
that he might neither see her nor speak to her, gave him an idea, by the
turmoil it roused in him, of the pitch suffering may rise to, and his
heart, his simple heart, was torn with pity. He was no judge, not he;
not even a merciful judge; he was a man full of weakness and a son full
of love. He remembered nothing of what his brother had told him;
he neither reasoned nor argued, he merely laid his two hands on his
mother's inert body, and not being able to pull the pillow away, he
exclaimed, kissing her dress:

âMother, mother, my poor mother, look at me!â

She would have seemed to be dead but that an almost imperceptible
shudder ran through all her limbs, the vibration of a strained cord. And
he repeated:

âMother, mother, listen to me. It is not true. I know that it is not
true.â

A spasm seemed to come over her, a fit of suffocation; then she suddenly
began to sob into the pillow. Her sinews relaxed, her rigid muscles
yielded, her fingers gave way and left go of the linen; and he uncovered
her face.

She was pale, quite colourless; and from under her closed lids tears
were stealing. He threw his arms round her neck and kissed her eyes,
slowly, with long heart-broken kisses, wet with her tears; and he said
again and again:

âMother, my dear mother, I know it is not true. Do not cry; I know it.
It is not true.â

She raised herself, she sat up, looked in his face, and with an effort
of courage such as it must cost in some cases to kill one's self, she
said:

âNo, my child; it is true.â

And they remained speechless, each in the presence of the other. For
some minutes she seemed again to be suffocating, craning her throat
and throwing back her head to get breath; then she once more mastered
herself and went on:

âIt is true, my child. Why lie about it? It is true. You would not
believe me if I denied it.â

She looked like a crazy creature. Overcome by alarm, he fell on his
knees by the bedside, murmuring:

âHush, mother, be silent.â She stood up with terrible determination and
energy.

âI have nothing more to say, my child. Good-bye.â And she went towards
the door.

He threw his arms about her exclaiming:

âWhat are you doing, mother; where are you going?â

âI do not know. How should I know--There is nothing left for me to do,
now that I am alone.â

She struggled to be released. Holding her firmly, he could find only
words to say again and again:

âMother, mother, mother!â And through all her efforts to free herself
she was saying:

âNo, no. I am not your mother now, poor boy--good-bye.â

It struck him clearly that if he let her go now he should never see her
again; lifting her up in his arms he carried her to an arm-chair, forced
her into it, and kneeling down in front of her barred her in with his
arms.

âYou shall not quit this spot, mother. I love you and I will keep you! I
will keep you always--I love you and you are mine.â

She murmured in a dejected tone:

âNo, my poor boy, it is impossible. You weep to-night, but to-morrow you
would turn me out of the house. You, even you, could not forgive me.â

He replied: âI? I? How little you know me!â with such a burst of genuine
affection that, with a cry, she seized his head by the hair with both
hands, and dragging him violently to her kissed him distractedly all
over his face.

Then she sat still, her cheek against his, feeling the warmth of his
skin through his beard, and she whispered in his ear: âNo, my little
Jean, you would not forgive me to-morrow. You think so, but you deceive
yourself. You have forgiven me this evening, and that forgiveness has
saved my life; but you must never see me again.â

And he repeated, clasping her in his arms:

âMother, do not say that.â

âYes, my child, I must go away. I do not know where, nor how I shall set
about it, nor what I shall do; but it must be done. I could never look
at you, nor kiss you, do you understand?â

Then he in his turn spoke into her ear:

âMy little mother, you are to stay, because I insist, because I want
you. And you must pledge your word to obey me, now, at once.â

âNo, my child.â

âYes, mother, you must; do you hear? You must.â

âNo, my child, it is impossible. It would be condemning us all to the
tortures of hell. I know what that torment is; I have known it this
month past. Your feelings are touched now, but when that is over,
when you look on me as Pierre does, when you remember what I have told
you--oh, my Jean, think--think--I am your mother!â

âI will not let you leave me, mother. I have no one but you.â

âBut think, my son, we can never see each other again without both of us
blushing, without my feeling that I must die of shame, without my eyes
falling before yours.â

âBut it is not so, mother.â

âYes, yes, yes, it is so! Oh, I have understood all your poor brother's
struggles, believe me! All--from the very first day. Now, when I hear
his step in the house my heart beats as if it would burst, when I
hear his voice I am ready to faint. I still had you; now I have you no
longer. Oh, my little Jean! Do you think I could live between you two?â

âYes, I should love you so much that you would cease to think of it.â

âAs if that were possible!â

âBut it is possible.â

âHow do you suppose that I could cease to think of it, with your brother
and you on each hand? Would you cease to think of it, I ask you?â

âI? I swear I should.â

âWhy you would think of it at every hour of the day.â

âNo, I swear it. Besides, listen, if you go away I will enlist and get
killed.â

This boyish threat quite overcame her; she clasped Jean in a passionate
and tender embrace. He went on:

âI love you more than you think--ah, much more, much more. Come, be
reasonable. Try to stay for only one week. Will you promise me one week?
You cannot refuse me that?â

She laid her two hands on Jean's shoulders, and holding him at arm's
length she said:

âMy child, let us try and be calm and not give way to emotions. First,
listen to me. If I were ever to hear from your lips what I have heard
for this month past from your brother, if I were once to see in your
eyes what I read in his, if I could fancy from a word or a look that I
was as odious to you as I am to him--within one hour, mark me--within
one hour I should be gone forever.â

âMother, I swear to you--â

âLet me speak. For a month past I have suffered all that any creature
can suffer. From the moment when I perceived that your brother, my other
son, suspected me, that as the minutes went by, he guessed the truth,
every moment of my life has been a martyrdom which no words could tell
you.â

Her voice was so full of woe that the contagion of her misery brought
the tears to Jean's eyes.

He tried to kiss her, but she held him off.

âLeave me--listen; I still have so much to say to make you understand.
But you never can understand. You see, if I stayed--I must--no, no. I
cannot.â

âSpeak on, mother, speak.â

âYes, indeed, for at least I shall not have deceived you. You want me to
stay with you? For what--for us to be able to see each other, speak to
each other, meet at any hour of the day at home, for I no longer dare
open a door for fear of finding your brother behind it. If we are to
do that, you must not forgive me--nothing is so wounding as
forgiveness--but you must owe me no grudge for what I have done. You
must feel yourself strong enough, and so far unlike the rest of the
world, as to be able to say to yourself that you are not Roland's son
without blushing for the fact or despising me. I have suffered enough--I
have suffered too much; I can bear no more, no indeed, no more! And it
is not a thing of yesterday, mind you, but of long, long years. But you
could never understand that; how should you! If you and I are to live
together and kiss each other, my little Jean, you must believe that
though I was your father's mistress I was yet more truly his wife, his
real wife; that, at the bottom of my heart, I cannot be ashamed of it;
that I have no regrets; that I love him still even in death; that I
shall always love him and never loved any other man; that he was my
life, my joy, my hope, my comfort, everything--everything in the world
to me for so long! Listen, my boy, before God, who hears me, I should
never have had a joy in my existence if I had not met him; never
anything--not a touch of tenderness or kindness, not one of those hours
which make us regret growing old--nothing. I owe everything to him! I
had but him in the world, and you two boys, your brother and you. But
for you, all would have been empty, dark, and void as the night. I
should never have loved, or known, or cared for anything--I should not
even have wept--for I have wept, my little Jean; oh, yes, and bitter
tears, since we came to Havre. I was his wholly and forever; for ten
years I was as much his wife as he was my husband before God who created
us for each other. And then I began to see that he loved me less. He was
always kind and courteous, but I was not what I had been to him. It
was all over! Oh, how I have cried! How dreadful and delusive life is!
Nothing lasts. Then we came here--I never saw him again; he never came.
He promised it in every letter. I was always expecting him, and I never
saw him again--and now he is dead! But he still cared for us since he
remembered you. I shall love him to my latest breath, and I never will
deny him, and I love you because you are his child, and I could never
be ashamed of him before you. Do you understand? I could not. So if you
wish me to remain you must accept the situation as his son, and we will
talk of him sometimes; and you must love him a little and we must think
of him when we look at each other. If you will not do this--if you
cannot--then good-bye, my child; it is impossible that we should live
together. Now, I will act by your decision.â

Jean replied gently:

âStay, mother.â

She clasped him in her arms, and her tears flowed again; then, with her
face against his, she went on:

âWell, but Pierre. What can we do about Pierre?â

Jean answered:

âWe will find some plan! You cannot live with him any longer.â

At the thought of her elder son she was convulsed with terror.

âNo, I cannot; no, no!â And throwing herself on Jean's breast she cried
in distress of mind:

âSave me from him, you, my little one. Save me; do something--I don't
know what. Think of something. Save me.â

âYes, mother, I will think of something.â

âAnd at once. You must, this minute. Do not leave me. I am so afraid of
him--so afraid.â

âYes, yes; I will hit on some plan. I promise you I will.â

âBut at once; quick, quick! You cannot imagine what I feel when I see
him.â

Then she murmured softly in his ear: âKeep me here, with you.â

He paused, reflected, and with his blunt good-sense saw at once the
dangers of such an arrangement. But he had to argue for a long time,
combating her scared, terror-stricken insistence.

âOnly for to-night,â she said. âOnly for to-night. And to-morrow morning
you can send word to Roland that I was taken ill.â

âThat is out of the question, as Pierre left you here. Come, take
courage. I will arrange everything, I promise you, to-morrow; I will
be with you by nine o'clock. Come, put on your bonnet. I will take you
home.â

âI will do just what you desire,â she said with a childlike impulse of
timidity and gratitude.

She tried to rise, but the shock had been too much for her; she could
not stand.

He made her drink some sugared water and smell at some salts, while
he bathed her temples with vinegar. She let him do what he would,
exhausted, but comforted, as after the pains of child-birth. At last she
could walk and she took his arm. The town hall struck three as they went
past.

Outside their own door Jean kissed her, saying:

âGood-night, mother, keep up your courage.â

She stealthily crept up the silent stairs, and into her room,
undressed quickly, and slipped into bed with a reawakened sense of that
long-forgotten sin. Roland was snoring. In all the house Pierre alone
was awake, and had heard her come in.



CHAPTER VIII

When he got back to his lodgings Jean dropped on a sofa; for the sorrows
and anxieties which made his brother long to be moving, and to flee
like a hunted prey, acted differently on his torpid nature and broke the
strength of his arms and legs. He felt too limp to stir a finger, even
to get to bed; limp body and soul, crushed and heart-broken. He had
not been hit, as Pierre had been, in the purity of filial love, in the
secret dignity which is the refuge of a proud heart; he was overwhelmed
by a stroke of fate which, at the same time, threatened his own nearest
interests.

When at last his spirit was calmer, when his thoughts had settled
like water that has been stirred and lashed, he could contemplate the
situation which had come before him. If he had learned the secret of his
birth through any other channel he would assuredly have been very wroth
and very deeply pained, but after his quarrel with his brother, after
the violent and brutal betrayal which had shaken his nerves, the
agonizing emotion of his mother's confession had so bereft him of energy
that he could not rebel. The shock to his feeling had been so great as
to sweep away in an irresistible tide of pathos, all prejudice, and all
the sacred delicacy of natural morality. Besides, he was not a man made
for resistance. He did not like contending against any one, least of
all against himself, so he resigned himself at once; and by instinctive
tendency, a congenital love of peace, and of an easy and tranquil life,
he began to anticipate the agitations which must surge up around him and
at once be his ruin. He foresaw that they were inevitable, and to avert
them he made up his mind to superhuman efforts of energy and activity.
The knot must be cut immediately, this very day; for even he had fits of
that imperious demand for a swift solution which is the only strength
of weak natures, incapable of a prolonged effort of will. His lawyer's
mind, accustomed as it was to disentangling and studying complicated
situations and questions of domestic difficulties in families that had
got out of gear, at once foresaw the more immediate consequences of his
brother's state of mind. In spite of himself, he looked at the issue
from an almost professional point of view, as though he had to legislate
for the future relations of certain clients after a moral disaster.
Constant friction against Pierre had certainly become unendurable. He
could easily evade it, no doubt, by living in his own lodgings; but even
then it was not possible that their mother should live under the same
roof with her elder son. For a long time he sat meditating, motionless,
on the cushions, devising and rejecting various possibilities, and
finding nothing that satisfied him.

But suddenly an idea took him by storm. This fortune which had come to
him. Would an honest man keep it?

âNo,â was the first immediate answer, and he made up his mind that it
must go to the poor. It was hard, but it could not be helped. He would
sell his furniture and work like any other man, like any other beginner.
This manful and painful resolution spurred his courage; he rose and went
to the window, leaning his forehead against the pane. He had been poor;
he could become poor again. After all he should not die of it. His eyes
were fixed on the gas lamp burning at the opposite side of the street.
A woman, much belated, happened to pass; suddenly he thought of Mme.
Rosemilly with a pang at his heart, the shock of deep feeling which
comes of a cruel suggestion. All the dire results of his decision rose
up before him together. He would have to renounce his marriage, renounce
happiness, renounce everything. Could he do such a thing after having
pledged himself to her? She had accepted him knowing him to be rich.
She would take him still if he were poor; but had he any right to demand
such a sacrifice? Would it not be better to keep this money in trust, to
be restored to the poor at some future date.

And in his soul, where selfishness put on a guise of honesty, all these
specious interests were struggling and contending. His first scruples
yielded to ingenious reasoning, then came to the top again, and again
disappeared.

He sat down again, seeking some decisive motive, some all-sufficient
pretext to solve his hesitancy and convince his natural rectitude.
Twenty times over had he asked himself this question: âSince I am this
man's son, since I know and acknowledge it, is it not natural that I
should also accept the inheritance?â

But even this argument could not suppress the âNoâ murmured by his
inmost conscience.

Then came the thought: âSince I am not the son of the man I always
believed to be my father, I can take nothing from him, neither during
his lifetime nor after his death. It would be neither dignified nor
equitable. It would be robbing my brother.â

This new view of the matter having relieved him and quieted his
conscience, he went to the window again.

âYes,â he said to himself, âI must give up my share of the family
inheritance. I must let Pierre have the whole of it, since I am not his
father's son. That is but just. Then is it not just that I should keep
my father's money?â

Having discerned that he could take nothing of Roland's savings, having
decided on giving up the whole of this money, he agreed; he resigned
himself to keeping Marechal's; for if he rejected both he would find
himself reduced to beggary.

This delicate question being thus disposed of he came back to that of
Pierre's presence in the family. How was he to be got rid of? He was
giving up his search for any practical solution when the whistle of a
steam-vessel coming into port seemed to blow him an answer by suggesting
a scheme.

Then he threw himself on his bed without undressing, and dozed and
dreamed till daybreak.

At a little before nine he went out to ascertain whether his plans were
feasible. Then, after making sundry inquiries and calls, he went to his
old home. His mother was waiting for him in her room.

âIf you had not come,â she said, âI should never have dared to go down.â

In a minute Roland's voice was heard on the stairs: âAre we to have
nothing to eat to-day, hang it all?â

There was no answer, and he roared out, with a thundering oath this
time: âJosephine, what the devil are you about?â

The girl's voice came up from the depths of the basement.

âYes, M'sieu--what is it?â

âWhere is your Miss'es?â

âMadame is upstairs with M'sieu Jean.â

Then he shouted, looking up at the higher floor: âLouise!â

Mme. Roland half opened her door and answered:

âWhat is it, my dear?â

âAre we to have nothing to eat to-day, hang it all?â

âYes, my dear, I am coming.â

And she went down, followed by Jean.

Roland, as soon as he saw him, exclaimed:

âHallo! There you are! Sick of your home already?â

âNo, father, but I had something to talk over with mother this morning.â

Jean went forward holding out his hand, and when he felt his fingers
in the old man's fatherly clasp, a strange, unforeseen emotion thrilled
through him, and a sense as of parting and farewell without return.

Mme. Roland asked:

âPierre is not come down?â

Her husband shrugged his shoulders.

âNo, but never mind him; he is always behind-hand. We will begin without
him.â

She turned to Jean:

âYou had better go to call him, my child; it hurts his feelings if we do
not wait for him.â

âYes, mother. I will go.â

And the young man went. He mounted the stairs with the fevered
determination of a man who is about to fight a duel and who is in a
fright. When he knocked at the door Pierre said:

âCome in.â

He went in. The elder was writing, leaning over his table.

âGood-morning,â said Jean.

Pierre rose.

âGood-morning!â and they shook hands as if nothing had occurred.

âAre you not coming down to breakfast?â

âWell--you see--I have a good deal to do.â The elder brother's voice was
tremulous, and his anxious eye asked his younger brother what he meant
to do.

âThey are waiting for you.â

âOh! There is--is my mother down?â

âYes, it was she who sent me to fetch you.â

âAh, very well; then I will come.â

At the door of the dining-room he paused, doubtful about going in first;
then he abruptly opened the door and saw his father and mother seated at
the table opposite each other.

He went straight up to her without looking at her or saying a word, and
bending over her, offered his forehead for her to kiss, as he had done
for some time past, instead of kissing her on both cheeks as of old.
He supposed that she put her lips near but he did not feel them on his
brow, and he straightened himself with a throbbing heart after this
feint of a caress. And he wondered:

âWhat did they say to each other after I had left?â

Jean constantly addressed her tenderly as âmother,â or âdear mother,â
 took care of her, waited on her, and poured out her wine.

Then Pierre understood that they had wept together, but he could not
read their minds. Did Jean believe in his mother's guilt, or think his
brother a base wretch?

And all his self-reproach for having uttered the horrible thing came
upon him again, choking his throat and his tongue, and preventing his
either eating or speaking.

He was now a prey to an intolerable desire to fly, to leave the house
which was his home no longer, and these persons who were bound to him by
such imperceptible ties. He would gladly have been off that moment,
no matter whither, feeling that everything was over, that he could not
endure to stay with them, that his presence was torture to them, and
that they would bring on him incessant suffering too great to endure.
Jean was talking, chatting with Roland. Pierre, as he did not listen,
did not hear. But he presently was aware of a pointed tone in his
brother's voice and paid more attention to his words. Jean was saying:

âShe will be the finest ship in their fleet. They say she is of 6,500
tons. She is to make her first trip next month.â

Roland was amazed.

âSo soon? I thought she was not to be ready for sea this summer.â

âYes. The work has been pushed forward very vigorously, to get her
through her first voyage before the autumn. I looked in at the Company's
office this morning, and was talking to one of the directors.â

âIndeed! Which of them?â

âM. Marchand, who is a great friend of the Chairman of the Board.â

âOh! Do you know him?â

âYes. And I wanted to ask him a favour.â

âThen you will get me leave to go over every part of the Lorraine as
soon as she comes into port?â

âTo be sure; nothing could be easier.â

Then Jean seemed to hesitate, to be weighing his words, and to want to
lead up to a difficult subject. He went on:

âOn the whole, life is very endurable on board those great Transatlantic
liners. More than half the time is spent on shore in two splendid
cities--New York and Havre; and the remainder at sea with delightful
company. In fact, very pleasant acquaintances are sometimes made among
the passengers, and very useful in after-life--yes, really very useful.
Only think, the captain, with his perquisites on coal, can make as much
as twenty-five thousand francs a year or more.â

Roland muttered an oath followed by a whistle, which testified to his
deep respect for the sum and the captain.

Jean went on:

âThe purser makes as much as ten thousand, and the doctor has a fixed
salary of five thousand, with lodgings, keep, light, firing, service,
and everything, which makes it up to ten thousand at least. That is very
good pay.â

Pierre raising his eyes met his brother's and understood.

Then, after some hesitation, he asked:

âIs it very hard to get a place as medical man on board a Transatlantic
liner?â

âYes--and no. It all depends on circumstances and recommendation.â

There was a long pause; then the doctor began again.

âNext month, you say, the Lorraine is to sail?â

âYes. On the 7th.â

And they said nothing more.

Pierre was considering. It certainly would be a way out of many
difficulties if he could embark as medical officer on board the
steamship. By-and-by he could see; he might perhaps give it up.
Meanwhile he would be gaining a living, and asking for nothing from his
parents. Only two days since he had been forced to sell his watch, for
he would no longer hold out his hand to beg of his mother. So he had no
other resource left, no opening to enable him to eat the bread of any
house but this which had become uninhabitable, or sleep in any other
bed, or under any other roof. He presently said, with some little
hesitation:

âIf I could, I would very gladly sail in her.â

Jean asked:

âWhat should hinder you?â

âI know no one in the Transatlantic Shipping Company.â

Roland was astounded.

âAnd what has become of all your fine schemes for getting on?â

Pierre replied in a low voice:

âThere are times when we must bring ourselves to sacrifice everything
and renounce our fondest hopes. And after all it is only to make a
beginning, a way of saving a few thousand francs to start fair with
afterward.â

His father was promptly convinced.

âThat is very true. In a couple of years you can put by six or seven
thousand francs, and that well laid out, will go a long way. What do you
think of the matter, Louise?â

She replied in a voice so low as to be scarcely audible:

âI think Pierre is right.â

Roland exclaimed:

âI will go and talk it over with M. Poulin: I know him very well. He is
assessor of the Chamber of Commerce and takes an interest in the
affairs of the Company. There is M. Lenient, too, the ship-owner, who is
intimate with one of the vice-chairmen.â

Jean asked his brother:

âWould you like me to feel my way with M. Marchand at once?â

âYes, I should be very glad.â

After thinking a few minutes Pierre added:

âThe best thing I can do, perhaps, will be to write to my professors at
the college of Medicine, who had a great regard for me. Very inferior
men are sometimes shipped on board those vessels. Letters of strong
recommendation from such professors as Mas-Roussel, Remusot, Flanche,
and Borriquel would do more for me in an hour than all the doubtful
introductions in the world. It would be enough if your friend M.
Marchand would lay them before the board.â

Jean approved heartily.

âYour idea is really capital.â And he smiled, quite reassured, almost
happy, sure of success and incapable of allowing himself to be unhappy
for long.

âYou will write to-day?â he said.

âDirectly. Now; at once. I will go and do so. I do not care for any
coffee this morning; I am too nervous.â

He rose and left the room.

Then Jean turned to his mother:

âAnd you, mother, what are you going to do?â

âNothing. I do not know.â

âWill you come with me to call on Mme. Rosemilly?â

âWhy, yes--yes.â

âYou know I must positively go to see her to-day.â

âYes, yes. To be sure.â

âWhy must you positively?â asked Roland, whose habit it was never to
understand what was said in his presence.

âBecause I promised her I would.â

âOh, very well. That alters the case.â And he began to fill his pipe,
while the mother and son went upstairs to make ready.

When they were in the street Jean said:

âWill you take my arm, mother?â

He was never accustomed to offer it, for they were in the habit of
walking side by side. She accepted and leaned on him.

For some time they did not speak; then he said:

âYou see that Pierre is quite ready and willing to go away.â

She murmured:

âPoor boy!â

âBut why 'poor boy'? He will not be in the least unhappy on board the
Lorraine.â

âNo--I know. But I was thinking of so many things.â

And she thought for a long time, her head bent, accommodating her step
to her son's; then, in the peculiar voice in which we sometimes
give utterance to the conclusion of long and secret meditations, she
exclaimed:

âHow horrible life is! If by any chance we come across any sweetness
in it, we sin in letting ourselves be happy, and pay dearly for it
afterward.â

He said in a whisper:

âDo not speak of that any more, mother.â

âIs that possible? I think of nothing else.â

âYou will forget it.â

Again she was silent; then with deep regret she said:

âHow happy I might have been, married to another man!â

She was visiting it on Roland now, throwing all the responsibility of
her sin on his ugliness, his stupidity, his clumsiness, the heaviness of
his intellect, and the vulgarity of his person. It was to this that it
was owing that she had betrayed him, had driven one son to desperation,
and had been forced to utter to the other the most agonizing confession
that can make a mother's heart bleed. She muttered: âIt is so frightful
for a young girl to have to marry such a husband as mine.â

Jean made no reply. He was thinking of the man he had hitherto believed
to be his father; and possibly the vague notion he had long since
conceived, of that father's inferiority, with his brother's constant
irony, the scornful indifference of others, and the very maid-servant's
contempt for Roland, had somewhat prepared his mind for his mother's
terrible avowal. It had all made it less dreadful to him to find that
he was another man's son; and if, after the great shock and agitation
of the previous evening, he had not suffered the reaction of rage,
indignation, and rebellion which Mme. Roland had feared, it was because
he had long been unconsciously chafing under the sense of being the
child of this well-meaning lout.

They had now reached the dwelling of Mme. Rosemilly.

She lived on the road to Sainte-Adresse, on the second floor of a large
tenement which she owned. The windows commanded a view of the whole
roadstead.

On seeing Mme. Roland, who entered first, instead of merely holding out
her hands as usual, she put her arms round her and kissed her, for she
divined the purpose of her visit.

The furniture of this drawing-room, all in stamped velvet, was always
shrouded in chair-covers. The walls, hung with flowered paper, were
graced by four engravings, the purchase of her late husband, the
captain. They represented sentimental scenes of seafaring life. In the
first a fisherman's wife was seen, waving a handkerchief on shore, while
the vessel which bore away her husband vanished on the horizon. In the
second the same woman, on her knees on the same shore, under a sky shot
with lightning, wrung her arms as she gazed into the distance at her
husband's boat which was going to the bottom amid impossible waves.

The others represented similar scenes in a higher rank of society. A
young lady with fair hair, resting her elbows on the ledge of a large
steamship quitting the shore, gazed at the already distant coast with
eyes full of tears and regret. Whom is she leaving behind?

Then the same young lady sitting by an open widow with a view of the
sea, had fainted in an arm-chair; a letter she had dropped lay at her
feet. So he is dead! What despair!

Visitors were generally much moved and charmed by the commonplace pathos
of these obvious and sentimental works. They were at once intelligible
without question or explanation, and the poor women were to be pitied,
though the nature of the grief of the more elegant of the two was not
precisely known. But this very doubt contributed to the sentiment.
She had, no doubt, lost her lover. On entering the room the eye
was immediately attracted to these four pictures, and riveted as if
fascinated. If it wandered it was only to return and contemplate the
four expressions on the faces of the two women, who were as like each
other as two sisters. And the very style of these works, in their
shining frames, crisp, sharp, and highly finished, with the elegance of
a fashion plate, suggested a sense of cleanliness and propriety which
was confirmed by the rest of the fittings. The seats were always in
precisely the same order, some against the wall and some round the
circular centre-table. The immaculately white curtains hung in such
straight and regular pleats that one longed to crumple them a little;
and never did a grain of dust rest on the shade under which the gilt
clock, in the taste of the first empire--a terrestrial globe supported
by Atlas on his knees--looked like a melon left there to ripen.

The two women as they sat down somewhat altered the normal position of
their chairs.

âYou have not been out this morning?â asked Mme. Roland.

âNo. I must own to being rather tired.â

And she spoke as if in gratitude to Jean and his mother, of all the
pleasure she had derived from the expedition and the prawn-fishing.

âI ate my prawns this morning,â she added, âand they were excellent. If
you felt inclined we might go again one of these days.â

The young man interrupted her:

âBefore we start on a second fishing excursion, suppose we complete the
first?â

âComplete it? It seems to me quite finished.â

âNay, madame, I, for my part, caught something on the rocks of Saint
Jouain which I am anxious to carry home with me.â

She put on an innocent and knowing look.

âYou? What can it be? What can you have found?â

âA wife. And my mother and I have come to ask you whether she had
changed her mind this morning.â

She smiled: âNo, monsieur. I never change my mind.â

And then he held out his hand, wide open, and she put hers into it with
a quick, determined movement. Then he said: âAs soon as possible, I
hope.â

âAs soon as you like.â

âIn six weeks?â

âI have no opinion. What does my future mother-in-law say?â

Mme. Roland replied with a rather melancholy smile:

âI? Oh, I can say nothing. I can only thank you for having accepted
Jean, for you will make him very happy.â

âWe will do our best, mamma.â

Somewhat overcome, for the first time, Mme. Rosemilly rose, and throwing
her arms round Mme. Roland, kissed her a long time as a child of her own
might have done; and under this new embrace the poor woman's sick heart
swelled with deep emotion. She could not have expressed the feeling;
it was at once sad and sweet. She had lost her son, her big boy, but in
return she had found a daughter, a grown-up daughter.

When they faced each other again, and were seated, they took hands and
remained so, looking at each and smiling, while they seemed to have
forgotten Jean.

Then they discussed a number of things which had to be thought of in
view of an early marriage, and when everything was settled and decided
Mme. Rosemilly seemed suddenly to remember a further detail and asked:
âYou have consulted M. Roland, I suppose?â

A flush of colour mounted at the same instant on the face of both mother
and son. It was the mother who replied:

âOh, no, it is quite unnecessary!â Then she hesitated, feeling that
some explanation was needed, and added: âWe do everything without saying
anything to him. It is enough to tell him what we have decided on.â

Mme. Rosemilly, not in the least surprised, only smiled, taking it as a
matter of course, for the good man counted for so little.

When Mme. Roland was in the street again with her son she said:

âSuppose we go to your rooms for a little while. I should be glad to
rest.â

She felt herself homeless, shelterless, her own house being a terror to
her.

They went into Jean's apartments.

As soon as the door was closed upon her she heaved a deep sigh, as if
that bolt had placed her in safety, but then, instead of resting as she
had said, she began to open the cupboards, to count the piles of linen,
the pocket-handkerchiefs, and socks. She changed the arrangement to
place them in more harmonious order, more pleasing to her housekeeper's
eye; and when she had put everything to her mind, laying out the towels,
the shirts, and the drawers on their several shelves and dividing all
the linen into three principal classes, body-linen, household-linen, and
table-linen, she drew back and contemplated the results, and called out:

âCome here, Jean, and see how nice it looks.â

He went and admired it to please her.

On a sudden, when he had sat down again, she came softly up behind his
arm-chair, and putting her right arm round his neck she kissed him,
while she laid on the chimney-shelf a small packet wrapped in white
paper which she held in the other hand.

âWhat is that?â he asked. Then, as she made no reply, he understood,
recognising the shape of the frame.

âGive it me!â he said.

She pretended not to hear him, and went back to the linen cupboards. He
got up hastily, took the melancholy relic, and going across the room,
put it in the drawer of his writing-table, which he locked and double
locked. She wiped away a tear with the tip of her finger, and said in a
rather quavering voice: âNow I am going to see whether your new
servant keeps the kitchen in good order. As she is out I can look into
everything and make sure.â



CHAPTER IX

Letters of recommendation from Professors Mas-Roussel, Remusot, Flache,
and Borriquel, written in the most flattering terms with regard to Dr.
Pierre Roland, their pupil, had been submitted by M. Marchand to the
directors of the Transatlantic Shipping Co., seconded by M. Poulin,
judge of the Chamber of Commerce, M. Lenient, a great ship-owner, and
Mr. Marival, deputy to the Mayor of Havre, and a particular friend of
Captain Beausires's. It proved that no medical officer had yet been
appointed to the Lorraine, and Pierre was lucky enough to be nominated
within a few days.

The letter announcing it was handed to him one morning by Josephine,
just as he was dressed. His first feeling was that of a man condemned
to death who is told that his sentence is commuted; he had an immediate
sense of relief at the thought of his early departure and of the
peaceful life on board, cradled by the rolling waves, always wandering,
always moving. His life under his father's roof was now that of a
stranger, silent and reserved. Ever since the evening when he allowed
the shameful secret he had discovered to escape him in his brother's
presence, he had felt that the last ties to his kindred were broken. He
was harassed by remorse for having told this thing to Jean. He felt that
it was odious, indecent, and brutal, and yet it was a relief to him to
have uttered it.

He never met the eyes either of his mother or his brother; to avoid his
gaze theirs had become surprisingly alert, with the cunning of foes who
fear to cross each other. He was always wondering: âWhat can she have
said to Jean? Did she confess or deny it? What does my brother believe?
What does he think of her--what does he think of me?â He could not
guess, and it drove him to frenzy. And he scarcely ever spoke to them,
excepting when Roland was by, to avoid his questioning.

As soon as he received the letter announcing his appointment he showed
it at once to his family. His father, who was prone to rejoicing over
everything, clapped his hands. Jean spoke seriously, though his heart
was full of gladness: âI congratulate you with all my heart, for I
know there were several other candidates. You certainly owe it to your
professors' letters.â

His mother bent her head and murmured:

âI am very glad you have been successful.â

After breakfast he went to the Company's offices to obtain information
on various particulars, and he asked the name of the doctor on board
the Picardie, which was to sail next day, to inquire of him as to the
details of his new life and any details he might think useful.

Dr. Pirette having gone on board, Pierre went to the ship, where he was
received in a little state-room by a young man with a fair beard, not
unlike his brother. They talked together a long time.

In the hollow depths of the huge ship they could hear a confused and
continuous commotion; the noise of bales and cases pitched down into
the hold mingling with footsteps, voices, the creaking of the machinery
lowering the freight, the boatswain's whistle, and the clatter of chains
dragged or wound on to capstans by the snorting and panting engine which
sent a slight vibration from end to end of the great vessel.

But when Pierre had left his colleague and found himself in the street
once more, a new form of melancholy came down on him, enveloping him
like the fogs which roll over the sea, coming up from the ends of the
world and holding in their intangible density something mysteriously
impure, as it were the pestilential breath of a far-away, unhealthy
land.

In his hours of greatest suffering he had never felt himself so sunk
in a foul pit of misery. It was as though he had given the last wrench;
there was no fibre of attachment left. In tearing up the roots of every
affection he had not hitherto had the distressful feeling which now came
over him, like that of a lost dog. It was no longer a torturing mortal
pain, but the frenzy of a forlorn and homeless animal, the physical
anguish of a vagabond creature without a roof for shelter, lashed by the
rain, the wind, the storm, all the brutal forces of the universe. As he
set foot on the vessel, as he went into the cabin rocked by the waves,
the very flesh of the man, who had always slept in a motionless and
steady bed, had risen up against the insecurity henceforth of all his
morrows. Till now that flesh had been protected by a solid wall built
into the earth which held it, by the certainty of resting in the same
spot, under a roof which could resist the gale. Now all that, which it
was a pleasure to defy in the warmth of home, must become a peril and
a constant discomfort. No earth under foot, only the greedy, heaving,
complaining sea; no space around for walking, running, losing the way,
only a few yards of planks to pace like a convict among other prisoners;
no trees, no gardens, no streets, no houses; nothing but water and
clouds. And the ceaseless motion of the ship beneath his feet. On stormy
days he must lean against the wainscot, hold on to the doors, cling to
the edge of the narrow berth to save himself from rolling out. On calm
days he would hear the snorting throb of the screw, and feel the
swift flight of the ship, bearing him on in its unpausing, regular,
exasperating race.

And he was condemned to this vagabond convict's life solely because his
mother had yielded to a man's caresses.

He walked on, his heart sinking with the despairing sorrow of those who
are doomed to exile. He no longer felt a haughty disdain and scornful
hatred of the strangers he met, but a woeful impulse to speak to them,
to tell them all that he had to quit France, to be listened to and
comforted. There was in the very depths of his heart the shame-faced
need of a beggar who would fain hold out his hand--a timid but urgent
need to feel that some one would grieve at his departing.

He thought of Marowsko. The old Pole was the only person who loved
him well enough to feel true and keen emotion, and the doctor at once
determined to go and see him.

When he entered the shop, the druggist, who was pounding powders in a
marble mortar, started and left his work.

âYou are never to be seen nowadays,â said he.

Pierre explained that he had had a great many serious matters to attend
to, but without giving the reason, and he took a seat, asking:

âWell, and how is business doing?â

Business was not doing at all. Competition was fearful, and rich folks
rare in that workmen's quarter. Nothing would sell but cheap drugs, and
the doctors did not prescribe the costlier and more complicated remedies
on which a profit is made of five hundred per cent. The old fellow ended
by saying: âIf this goes on for three months I shall shut up shop. If I
did not count on you, dear good doctor, I should have turned shoe-black
by this time.â

Pierre felt a pang, and made up his mind to deal the blow at once, since
it must be done.

âI--oh, I cannot be of any use to you. I am leaving Havre early next
month.â

Marowsko took off his spectacles, so great was his agitation.

âYou! You! What are you saying?â

âI say that I am going away, my poor friend.â

The old man was stricken, feeling his last hope slipping from under him,
and he suddenly turned against this man, whom he had followed, whom he
loved, whom he had so implicitly trusted, and who forsook him thus.

He stammered out:

âYou are surely not going to play me false--you?â

Pierre was so deeply touched that he felt inclined to embrace the old
fellow.

âI am not playing you false. I have not found anything to do here, and I
am going as medical officer on board a Transatlantic passenger boat.â

âO Monsieur Pierre! And you always promised you would help me to make a
living!â

âWhat can I do? I must make my own living. I have not a farthing in the
world.â

Marowsko said: âIt is wrong; what you are doing is very wrong. There is
nothing for me but to die of hunger. At my age this is the end of all
things. It is wrong. You are forsaking a poor old man who came here to
be with you. It is wrong.â

Pierre tried to explain, to protest, to give reasons, to prove that he
could not have done otherwise; the Pole, enraged by his desertion, would
not listen to him, and he ended by saying, with an allusion no doubt to
political events:

âYou French--you never keep your word!â

At this Pierre rose, offended on his part, and taking rather a high tone
he said:

âYou are unjust, pere Marowsko; a man must have very strong motives to
act as I have done and you ought to understand that. Au revoir--I hope I
may find you more reasonable.â And he went away.

âWell, well,â he thought, ânot a soul will feel a sincere regret for
me.â

His mind sought through all the people he knew or had known, and among
the faces which crossed his memory he saw that of the girl at the tavern
who had led him to doubt his mother.

He hesitated, having still an instinctive grudge against her, then
suddenly reflected on the other hand: âAfter all, she was right.â And he
looked about him to find the turning.

The beer-shop, as it happened, was full of people, and also full of
smoke. The customers, tradesmen, and labourers, for it was a holiday,
were shouting, calling, laughing, and the master himself was waiting
on them, running from table to table, carrying away empty glasses and
returning them crowned with froth.

When Pierre had found a seat not far from the desk he waited, hoping
that the girl would see him and recognise him. But she passed him again
and again as she went to and fro, pattering her feet under her skirts
with a smart little strut. At last he rapped a coin on the table, and
she hurried up.

âWhat will you take, sir?â

She did not look at him; her mind was absorbed in calculations of the
liquor she had served.

âWell,â said he, âthis is a pretty way of greeting a friend.â

She fixed her eyes on his face. âAh!â said she hurriedly. âIs it you?
You are pretty well? But I have not a minute to-day. A bock did you wish
for?â

âYes, a bock!â

When she brought it he said:

âI have come to say good-bye. I am going away.â

And she replied indifferently:

âIndeed. Where are you going?â

âTo America.â

âA very fine country, they say.â

And that was all!

Really, he was very ill-advised to address her on such a busy day; there
were too many people in the cafe.

Pierre went down to the sea. As he reached the jetty he descried the
Pearl; his father and Beausire were coming in. Papagris was pulling,
and the two men, seated in the stern, smoked their pipes with a look
of perfect happiness. As they went past the doctor said to himself:
âBlessed are the simple-minded!â And he sat down on one of the benches
on the breakwater, to try to lull himself in animal drowsiness.

When he went home in the evening his mother said, without daring to lift
her eyes to his face:

âYou will want a heap of things to take with you. I have ordered your
under-linen, and I went into the tailor's shop about cloth clothes; but
is there nothing else you need--things which I, perhaps, know nothing
about?â

His lips parted to say, âNo, nothing.â But he reflected that he must
accept the means of getting a decent outfit, and he replied in a very
calm voice: âI hardly know myself, yet. I will make inquiries at the
office.â

He inquired, and they gave him a list of indispensable necessaries. His
mother, as she took it from his hand, looked up at him for the first
time for very long, and in the depths of her eyes there was the humble
expression, gentle, sad, and beseeching, of a dog that has been beaten
and begs forgiveness.

On the 1st of October the Lorraine from Saint-Nazaire, came into the
harbour of Havre to sail on the 7th, bound for New York, and Pierre
Roland was to take possession of the little floating cabin in which
henceforth his life was to be confined.

Next day as he was going out, he met his mother on the stairs waiting
for him, to murmur in an almost inaudible voice:

âYou would not like me to help you to put things to rights on board?â

âNo, thank you. Everything is done.â

Then she said:

âI should have liked to see your cabin.â

âThere is nothing to see. It is very small and very ugly.â

And he went downstairs, leaving her stricken, leaning against the wall
with a wan face.

Now Roland, who had gone over the Lorraine that very day, could talk of
nothing all dinnertime but this splendid vessel, and wondered that his
wife should not care to see it as their son was to sail on board.

Pierre had scarcely any intercourse with his family during the days
which followed. He was nervous, irritable, hard, and his rough speech
seemed to lash every one indiscriminately. But the day before he left
he was suddenly quite changed, and much softened. As he embraced his
parents before going to sleep on board for the first time he said:

âYou will come to say good-bye to me on board, will you not?â

Roland exclaimed:

âWhy, yes, of course--of course, Louise?â

âCertainly, certainly,â she said in a low voice.

Pierre went on: âWe sail at eleven precisely. You must be there by
half-past nine at the latest.â

âHah!â cried his father. âA good idea! As soon as we have bid you
good-bye, we will make haste on board the Pearl, and look out for you
beyond the jetty, so as to see you once more. What do you say, Louise?â

âCertainly.â

Roland went on: âAnd in that way you will not lose sight of us among
the crowd which throngs the breakwater when the great liners sail. It
is impossible to distinguish your own friends in the mob. Does that meet
your views?â

âYes, to be sure; that is settled.â

An hour later he was lying in his berth--a little crib as long and
narrow as a coffin. There he remained with his eyes wide open for a long
time, thinking over all that had happened during the last two months of
his life, especially in his own soul. By dint of suffering and making
others suffer, his aggressive and revengeful anguish had lost its edge,
like a blunted sword. He scarcely had the heart left in him to owe any
one or anything a grudge; he let his rebellious wrath float away
down stream, as his life must. He was so weary of wrestling, weary of
fighting, weary of hating, weary of everything, that he was quite worn
out, and tried to stupefy his heart with forgetfulness as he dropped
asleep. He heard vaguely, all about him, the unwonted noises of the
ship, slight noises, and scarcely audible on this calm night in port;
and he felt no more of the dreadful wound which had tortured him
hitherto, but the discomfort and strain of its healing.

He had been sleeping soundly when the stir of the crew roused him.
It was day; the tidal train had come down to the pier bringing the
passengers from Paris. Then he wandered about the vessel among all
these busy, bustling folks inquiring for their cabins, questioning
and answering each other at random, in the scare and fuss of a voyage
already begun. After greeting the Captain and shaking hands with his
comrade the purser, he went into the saloon where some Englishmen were
already asleep in the corners. The large low room, with its white marble
panels framed in gilt beading, was furnished with looking-glasses,
which prolonged, in endless perspective, the long tables, flanked by
pivot-seats covered with red velvet. It was fit, indeed, to be the
vast floating cosmopolitan dining-hall, where the rich natives of two
continents might eat in common. Its magnificent luxury was that of great
hotels, and theatres, and public rooms; the imposing and commonplace
luxury which appeals to the eye of the millionaire.

The doctor was on the point of turning into the second-class saloon,
when he remembered that a large cargo of emigrants had come on board
the night before, and he went down to the lower deck. He was met by a
sickening smell of dirty, poverty-stricken humanity, an atmosphere of
naked flesh (far more revolting than the odour of fur or the skin of
wild beasts). There, in a sort of basement, low and dark, like a
gallery in a mine, Pierre could discern some hundreds of men, women, and
children, stretched on shelves fixed one above another, or lying on the
floor in heaps. He could not see their faces, but could dimly make out
this squalid, ragged crowd of wretches, beaten in the struggle for
life, worn out and crushed, setting forth, each with a starving wife and
weakly children, for an unknown land where they hoped, perhaps, not to
die of hunger. And as he thought of their past labour--wasted labour,
and barren effort--of the mortal struggle taken up afresh and in vain
each day, of the energy expended by this tattered crew who were going to
begin again, not knowing where, this life of hideous misery, he longed
to cry out to them:

âTumble yourselves overboard, rather, with your women and your little
ones.â And his heart ached so with pity that he went away unable to
endure the sight.

He found his father, his mother, Jean, and Mme. Rosemilly waiting for
him in his cabin.

âSo early!â he exclaimed.

âYes,â said Mme. Roland in a trembling voice. âWe wanted to have a
little time to see you.â

He looked at her. She was dressed all in black as if she were in
mourning, and he noticed that her hair, which only a month ago had been
gray, was now almost white. It was very difficult to find space for four
persons to sit down in the little room, and he himself got on to his
bed. The door was left open, and they could see a great crowd hurrying
by, as if it were a street on a holiday, for all the friends of the
passengers and a host of inquisitive visitors had invaded the huge
vessel. They pervaded the passages, the saloons, every corner of the
ship; and heads peered in at the doorway while a voice murmured outside:
âThat is the doctor's cabin.â

Then Pierre shut the door; but no sooner was he shut in with his own
party than he longed to open it again, for the bustle outside covered
their agitation and want of words.

Mme. Rosemilly at last felt she must speak.

âVery little air comes in through those little windows.â

âPort-holes,â said Pierre. He showed her how thick the glass was,
to enable it to resist the most violent shocks, and took a long time
explaining the fastening. Roland presently asked: âAnd you have your
doctor's shop here?â

The doctor opened a cupboard and displayed an array of phials ticketed
with Latin names on white paper labels. He took one out and enumerated
the properties of its contents; then a second and a third, a perfect
lecture on therapeutics, to which they all listened with great
attention. Roland, shaking his head, said again and again: âHow very
interesting!â There was a tap at the door.

âCome in,â said Pierre, and Captain Beausire appeared.

âI am late,â he said as he shook hands, âI did not want to be in the
way.â He, too, sat down on the bed and silence fell once more.

Suddenly the Captain pricked his ears. He could hear the orders being
given, and he said:

âIt is time for us to be off if we mean to get on board the Pearl to see
you once more outside, and bid you good-bye out on the open sea.â

Old Roland was very eager about this, to impress the voyagers on board
the Lorraine, no doubt, and he rose in haste.

âGood-bye, my boy.â He kissed Pierre on the whiskers and then opened the
door.

Mme. Roland had not stirred, but sat with downcast eyes, very pale. Her
husband touched her arm.

âCome,â he said, âwe must make haste, we have not a minute to spare.â

She pulled herself up, went to her son and offered him first one and
then another cheek of white wax which he kissed without saying a word.
Then he shook hands with Mme. Rosemilly and his brother, asking:

âAnd when is the wedding to be?â

âI do not know yet exactly. We will make it fit in with one of your
return voyages.â

At last they were all out of the cabin, and up on deck among the crowd
of visitors, porters, and sailors. The steam was snorting in the huge
belly of the vessel, which seemed to quiver with impatience.

âGood-bye,â said Roland in a great bustle.

âGood-bye,â replied Pierre, standing on one of the landing-planks lying
between the deck of the Lorraine and the quay. He shook hands all round
once more, and they were gone.

âMake haste, jump into the carriage,â cried the father.

A fly was waiting for them and took them to the outer harbour, where
Papagris had the Pearl in readiness to put out to sea.

There was not a breath of air; it was one of those crisp, still autumn
days, when the sheeny sea looks as cold and hard as polished steel.

Jean took one oar, the sailor seized the other and they pulled off.
On the breakwater, on the piers, even on the granite parapets, a crowd
stood packed, hustling, and noisy, to see the Lorraine come out. The
Pearl glided down between these two waves of humanity and was soon
outside the mole.

Captain Beausire, seated between the two women, held the tiller, and he
said:

âYou will see, we shall be close in her way--close.â

And the two oarsmen pulled with all their might to get out as far as
possible. Suddenly Roland cried out:

âHere she comes! I see her masts and her two funnels! She is coming out
of the inner harbour.â

âCheerily, lads!â cried Beausire.

Mme. Roland took out her handkerchief and held it to her eyes.

Roland stood up, clinging to the mast, and answered:

âAt this moment she is working round in the outer harbour. She is
standing still--now she moves again! She is taking the tow-rope on board
no doubt. There she goes. Bravo! She is between the piers! Do you hear
the crowd shouting? Bravo! The Neptune has her in tow. Now I see her
bows--here she comes--here she is! Gracious Heavens, what a ship! Look!
Look!â

Mme. Rosemilly and Beausire looked behind them, the oarsmen ceased
pulling; only Mme. Roland did not stir.

The immense steamship, towed by a powerful tug, which, in front of
her, looked like a caterpillar, came slowly and majestically out of the
harbour. And the good people of Havre, who crowded the piers, the beach,
and the windows, carried away by a burst of patriotic enthusiasm,
cried: â_Vive la Lorraine!_â with acclamations and applause for this
magnificent beginning, this birth of the beautiful daughter given to the
sea by the great maritime town.

She, as soon as she had passed beyond the narrow channel between the two
granite walls, feeling herself free at last, cast off the tow-ropes and
went off alone, like a monstrous creature walking on the waters.

âHere she is--here she comes, straight down on us!â Roland kept
shouting; and Beausire, beaming, exclaimed: âWhat did I promise you!
Heh! Do I know the way?â

Jean in a low tone said to his mother: âLook, mother, she is close upon
us!â And Mme. Roland uncovered her eyes, blinded with tears.

The Lorraine came on, still under the impetus of her swift exit from the
harbour, in the brilliant, calm weather. Beausire, with his glass to his
eye, called out:

âLook out! M. Pierre is at the stern, all alone, plainly to be seen!
Look out!â

The ship was almost touching the Pearl now, as tall as a mountain and
as swift as a train. Mme. Roland, distraught and desperate, held out her
arms towards it; and she saw her son, her Pierre, with his officer's cap
on, throwing kisses to her with both hands.

But he was going away, flying, vanishing, a tiny speck already, no more
than an imperceptible spot on the enormous vessel. She tried still to
distinguish him, but she could not.

Jean took her hand.

âYou saw?â he said.

âYes, I saw. How good he is!â

And they turned to go home.

âCristi! How fast she goes!â exclaimed Roland with enthusiastic
conviction.

The steamer, in fact, was shrinking every second, as though she were
melting away in the ocean. Mme. Roland, turning back to look at her,
watched her disappearing on the horizon, on her way to an unknown land
at the other side of the world.

In that vessel which nothing could stay, that vessel which she soon
would see no more, was her son, her poor son. And she felt as though
half her heart had gone with him; she felt, too, as if her life were
ended; yes, and she felt as though she would never see the child again.

âWhy are you crying?â asked her husband, âwhen you know he will be back
again within a month.â

She stammered out: âI don't know; I cry because I am hurt.â

When they had landed, Beausire at once took leave of them to go to
breakfast with a friend. Then Jean led the way with Mme. Rosemilly, and
Roland said to his wife:

âA very fine fellow, all the same, is our Jean.â

âYes,â replied the mother.

And her mind being too much bewildered to think of what she was saying,
she went on:

âI am very glad that he is to marry Mme. Rosemilly.â

The worthy man was astounded.

âHeh? What? He is to marry Mme. Rosemilly?â

âYes, we meant to ask your opinion about it this very day.â

âBless me! And has this engagement been long in the wind?â

âOh, no, only a very few days. Jean wished to make sure that she would
accept him before consulting you.â

Roland rubbed his hands.

âVery good. Very good. It is capital. I entirely approve.â

As they were about to turn off from the quay down the Boulevard
Francois, his wife once more looked back to cast a last look at the high
seas, but she could see nothing now but a puff of gray smoke, so far
away, so faint that it looked like a film of haze.





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