The Journal of Darien Gautier Content . My first entry in a brand - new journal ! How should I begin ? Should I write in a stiff , formal tone ? More conversational ? So many decisions to make ! How will I manage ? And what am I supposed to do with what I write ? Do I read it later and reflect on my true feelings ? Damn it ! Why did I let Alinon talk me into starting a journal ? Alinon said that writing things down would help me with my nightmares . Damn liar . He probably just wants me to write down my secrets so he can share them with the guard and have a good laugh . That ' s not a bad idea , actually . Good for him for thinking of that ! I ' ll need to keep that in mind as I write my entries . < nowiki > * * * < / nowiki > Cheese Bread Fresh Herbs Beef , Best Cut Available Yes , I know . This is a grocery list , not my thoughts and feelings . But I needed to write this down somewhere , and the journal was near at hand . Might as well make the thing useful as well as therapeutic . < nowiki > * * * < / nowiki > Reminder : Meet Prescilla at the tavern at dusk for drinks . Don ' t forget ! < nowiki > * * * < / nowiki > Reminder : Meet Shelli at the tavern at dawn for drinks . Don ' t forget ! Forgetting did not turn out so well with Prescilla . < nowiki > * * * < / nowiki > All right . Time to use this journal for its intended purpose . ( Note to self : when you write down notes to remind yourself of something , you actually have to go back and read the notes or the reminding thing doesn ' t work . ) Alinon assured me that he was not going to steal this book and share its contents with the rest of the guard . He actually wants me to write down anything I remember about the nightmares I ' ve been having . I still think he ' s pulling my leg , but I ' m willing to give anything a try . I ' m losing too much sleep not to try something ! I don ' t remember anything in vivid detail . Only vague glimpses of the nightmares I ' ve been having since winter . I can ' t tell if they belong to one long dream or many separate ones , but they all have something in common : the bright light right before I wake up . I want to say that it speaks to me . That I can hear what it tells me . But when I wake up all I can recall is a glowing orb with light so intense that I have to shield my eyes . Other things haunt my dreams . Dark images and frightful events . I ' ve seen the sky turn dark and split apart to allow giant shackles to crash into the earth . I ' ve seen armies of Daedra and undead swarm our cities , killing anyone who stands in their way . Other times I ' ve seen the face of death itself , its fangs dripping with blood as it stared at me . I ' ve felt them sink into my neck and watched the creature burst into flames as it drank my blood . And then I see a cold , blue land . Jagged rocks that float in the alien sky . A sky I ' ve never seen in the waking world . I hear screams in the distance . And everything is cold and death and nothingness . Then the light appears once more , as if to guide me to safety . To tell me something . To say … and that ' s when I wake up . I exhaust myself . I drink too much . And still the nightmares come to me . I really need to get a good night ' s sleep ! < nowiki > * * * < / nowiki > Onions Tomatoes Bread Damn ! I did it again . Oh well . It ' s been a while since I ' ve had one of those nightmares . Maybe this journal thing is working after all . < nowiki > * * * < / nowiki > I can ' t believe it . It ' s happening . It ' s actually happening . I don ' t know if I should be horrified or , well , I don ' t know what to think . All I know is that this isn ' t a dream . Anchors from the sky are falling all around Tamriel . We ' re being invaded ! May whatever gods favor us watch over us . My nightmares are coming true . I can ' t let Alinon know about this . He ' ll think I ' m some sort of prophet or something and make a big deal . I definitely don ' t want that to happen !