Sir Amiel ' s Journal Contents . This journal is a record of failure . My failure . In the immediate sense , this is no doubt obvious . If you are reading this , you are probably standing over my body , slain in the depths of the Shrine of the Crusader . Perhaps the gods granted me the gift of at least glimpsing the holy Helm before I died , undeserving though I am . I must believe that you are indeed a holy knight , following in my footsteps in quest of the Crusader ' s Relics . It is to you , Sir Knight of my hopes , that I direct these words . May the account of my failures help you avoid my fate . Know that my failures encompass far more than my own death ( which is of little account , at the end of a long life ) . The high ideals of the Knights of the Nine , of service to the gods rather than men , of dedication to a higher purpose - - these are my failures , as I shall record here . As I write this , the scratching of my pen the only sound in the empty Priory , I am preparing to embark on my last quest for the Helm of the Crusader . I know that my chance of success is small . I am too old for such a task . This quest should have been taken up by the next generation of Knights of the Nine , while Sir Caius and Sir Berich and the rest of us stayed behind and spun tales of our days of glory . Alas , there is no next generation . Sir Berich is my embittered enemy , the rest of my old companions are all dead . There is only me , the last stubborn Knight of a Failed Order . For many years I blamed Sir Berich for the dissolution of the Order , but in my old age I have finally come to recognize my own part in those tragic events . I now believe that the seeds of our destruction were sown early , although the fruit did not ripen until late . Even in the first heady days , questing for the Cuirass with Sir Caius and Sir Torolf , I set the pattern of personal glory . The Cuirass was mine , and although it resided in the Priory , I wore it into battle and accepted the acclaim of my fellows and the people for its recovery . And so it went . The Sword and Greaves recovered of Sir Berich , became his personal arms , and the Gauntlets of Sir Casimir . Why not ? Should the holy weapons lie idle while there was evil to be vanquished ? And who more fitting to carry them than the knight who had proved himself worthy by their recovery ? So we told ourselves - - so I told myself - - but all that followed flowed from this . When Sir Berich wanted to take his Relics with him to the war , who was I to forbid him ? I , who had jealously considered the Cuirass my own and none other ' s ? Sir Berich was wrong , but I was wrong first , and the blame for the dispute over the Relics falls first on me , the leader and founder of the Knights , who should have set a higher example , but was instead first to claim a Relic for my own . Sir Berich ' s later actions I will leave for others to judge . But let it be known that I do not blame him for the dissolution of the Knights . If he would speak to me , I would tell him so myself . He and I are now all that are left of the original Knights . The others are all dead , and I have dedicated myself to recovering their bodies and interring them in the Priory Undercroft , as is fitting for such holy warriors . Alas that they did not have the leader they deserved . Now it is time for me to depart on my quest for the Helm . If you would follow in my footsteps , Sir Knight , know that the Priory basement , at least , will remain inviolate , I have sealed the stairs and only my ring will now open it . My brother knights will sleep in peace , in company with the Cuirass , the only Relic that remains in the Order ' s keeping . I say that , although the Order is officially dissolved , hoping and believing that the Knights of the Nine will one day be reborn . Perhaps you are the one to restore the Order . If so , go to the Priory in the West Weald . Use my ring to enter the vaults beneath the Priory House . There you will find the Cuirass , and claim it for your own if you are a true knight . May the Nine guard and guide you . Farewell . Sir Amiel Priory of the Nine The West Weald County Skingrad Year 153 of the Septim Era