Najan ' s Journal Content . 9th First Seed Another bland dinner . Baked lamb and squash . I guess I shouldn ' t be surprised . Adeena is as predictable as the sunrise . Honestly , sometimes I think my goats have a more exciting life than I do . Every time I bring them here to the ruins , it ' s like they ' re seeing them for the first time . I envy them . But every day is the same for Najan and Adeena . Same meal , same awkward conversation , same tedious love - making . I can ' t even be angry with her . When I look across the table all I feel is … nothing . 12th First Seed I can scarcely believe what I ' ve found . One of my smaller goats , Husul , ran off while I was kicking dung off my sandal . I gave chase and found he had scrambled down into a vault beneath the ruins . It ' s dark down here , but not so dark that I need a candle to see . These old blue stones glow and hum softly . Even though it ' s nothing but cold , wet stone , there is something almost inviting about this place . I have decided to call it Husul ' s Cave . I can ' t wait to explore it more thoroughly . I already noticed some old books just waiting to be read . In the meantime , I must go suffer through another flavorless meal with Adeena . She ' s always asking me if I ' m pleased with the food . Offering to wash my clothes . Ruptga help me . 16th First Seed I ' ve found something — something that will change everything . I was leafing through one of the old books I found when I noticed something shimmering stuck in between the leaves . It was a talisman . It appeared simple at first , but when I rubbed away the dirt and grime I saw it was something priceless . Then an ethereal woman appeared . She was beautiful beyond measure . I could scarcely speak when I saw her , but she was so kind — she simply giggled . A sweet little laugh . It put me at ease long enough for me to introduce myself . Her name is Anexiel . She says she is an ancient spirit of the ruins — something like a saint , I guess . To my mind , she ' s something far greater than that . Her eyes are like the water in an oasis , and she has a voice like … oh look at me , playing the poet ! I cannot deny it — I have fallen in love with this spirit . If only she were flesh and blood … I would make her mine . 18th First Seed I am in agony . Anexiel is all I ' ve ever wanted . Each day my love for her grows , yet we cannot be together . She remains a wisp of air — tied to these twice - cursed ruins ! Oh how she teases me ! Dressed in that shimmering silk , tracing her ghostly fingertip down my shoulder . It ' s all so … intimate . I had to tell her how I felt . She said she needed time to think . I hope I haven ' t ruined things . 24th First Seed She loves me ! I knew it ! Sweet Anexiel finally confessed her love today , but now she is miserable too . Gods help us . 25th First Seed She has a plan ! My sweet Anexiel has been walking the halls of the vault , thinking , for what seems like days . She finally came to me and said that she can become flesh and blood , but she needs a " vessel . " Someone she can step into and live inside . I don ' t know how it works exactly . All I know is this vessel needs to have some magic in its blood . I started to despair , but then I remembered my wife . My Adeena . She ' s always had something in her . Something magical . Her mother called it " the gleam . " Maybe that will be enough . It has to be enough . I ' m bringing her here tomorrow .