Journal of the Lord Lovidicus Summary . A journal kept by a noble - man , in which he admits his love for a servant orc and describes her subsequent pregnancy . It also briefly describes him going mad after being locked in his chambers for an extensive amount of time . Content . Entry 1 . . Beauty ! Pure and sublime . That is the only way to accurately describe my love , the maiden gro - Malog . True , the Orcs of Tamriel are often vilified by the other citizens of the Empire , and rarely would they be considered a pleasure to look upon . So , is my maiden Luktuv a rare breed of Orc , unlike the rest of her kin in physical appearance ? Nay . In fact , she is the perfect representative of her race , green skin , muscular frame and all . But beautiful she is , all the same . For who am I to judge ? Who am I to criticize when so many would condemn my very existence ? I can only hope my love is as understanding when she learns of my unique condition , for I have yet to reveal that most precious of secrets . Entry 2 . . Damn the politics of my station ! Taxation and trade negotiations and meetings with disingenuous aristocrats - - it ' s sometimes enough to make me regret my birthright altogether . I ' ve spent the latter half of my life hiding my identity , guarding my secret . But now I am faced with an even greater challenge , for if word were to get out that I have fallen in love with a servant - - and an Orc , no less - - I would be all but ruined ! Such is the life of the Cyrodilic nobleman . Entry 3 . . Curse me for a coward , but I have not yet found the strength to tell my beloved Luktuv the truth . Perhaps it ' s for the best , for what benefit is there in her knowing ? She would share all of my fears but none of my abilities . Her life would become one of doubt and uncertainty . Still , if she is to spend her remaining mortal days with me , she has the right to know the truth . Entry 4 . Joy and exaltation ! She is with child ! My beloved Luktuv is carrying my child ! The midwives predict a boy , and we have already settled on the name Agronak . In truth , I never realized such miracles were even possible , but the Divines have granted us their blessing , and so shall it be . I must wonder , of course , if my dear child will share in my Dark Gift . Only time will tell . Entry 5 . Tonight the truth will be revealed . I will tell my beloved Luktuv everything . She will know who and what I am , and we will decide how best to raise the precious child that grows in her womb . Entry 6 . Betrayal ! Foul and loathsome harlot ! How dare Luktuv question my motives , question the love I have for my own unborn child ! When she learned the truth , that I , the Lord Lovidicus , am no longer human , that I have walked Tamriel as a vampire for the past two hundred years , how quickly she judged me ! So , I am a monster , am I ? Perhaps I should have proven her right . Perhaps I should have drained her dry when I had the chance ! But I loved her , as deeply as a man has ever loved a woman , and I wanted nothing more than to bring our baby into this world and embrace my new role as father . Perhaps when Luktuv has come to her senses - - for she refuses to come out of her room - - we can have rational discourse about our future . I do not , however , retain much hope . Entry 7 . Imprisoned ! Imprisoned in my own home ! While I slept , Luktuv locked me in my own private chambers . She called to me through the doors , told me of her plan to escape with our unborn child . She means to keep my baby from me ! When I get free , I will find the traitorous whore and rip the child from her very womb ! Entry 8 . Two weeks . Two weeks have passed since Luktuv locked me in my quarters . Try as I might , I cannot free myself . I cannot breach the doors ! If I don ' t feed soon , I feel I will go mad . Entry 9 . Food blood blood blood blood I need it I need blood need blood .