Computer evidence shows Lanza's interest in pedophilia 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
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 NEWTOWN -- Adam Lanza had an interest in pedophilia. 
 
 On his computer hard drive was a screenplay, "Lovebound," that describes a relationship between a 30-year-old man and a 10-year-old boy, as well as documents advocating for "pedophiles' rights and the liberation of children." 
 
 He also discussed with a friend how it was "a disease that needed to be treated and not looked at as evil," according to the State Police report on the shooting released late last month. 
 
 Smiggles, a screen name state police said Lanza used, made hundreds of posts on a now-defunct online forum, "Shocked and Beyond," that focused on mass shootings after Columbine. 
 
 In a post dated Dec. 30, 2009, Smiggles said, "I used to think I was asexual, but the primary reason why I thought that was because my BMI (body mass index) was 14." At the time of his death nearly three years later, he was 6 feet tall and weighed 112 pounds. 
 
 Smiggles also posted on the forum, "I castrated myself when I was 15 to rebel against society." 
 
 Danbury State's Attorney Stephen Sedensky said he was "unaware of any information" about Lanza attempting to castrate himself. 
 
 While there is still no concrete evidence that Lanza was a pedophile -- or a victim of one -- the material does point to an internal conflict that may have plagued Lanza in the years before he walked into Sandy Hook Elementary School and took the lives of 20 young children and six educators before killing himself the morning of Dec. 14, 2012. 
 
 "Certainly, there isn't enough evidence to come to a firm conclusion," said Dr. Fred Berlin, director of the sexual behaviors consultation unit at Johns Hopkins University, "but it sounds like he was conflicted about these issues. It's possible he had an attraction (to children) or he knew people who had them and he was trying to sort it out. But it's still a long way from explaining what he did." 
 
 Berlin said one could speculate that Lanza, if he had pedophilia tendencies, could have targeted the elementary school in an attempt to eliminate temptation. 
 
 "The idea is that someone who has a strong desire for something and they're forbidden to act upon it, they can be angry at the source of temptation," he said. "It's not unreasonable, given what happened. There must have been a tremendous amount of rage inside of him." 
 
 He stressed, however, that the idea is just a hypothesis and there isn't enough evidence at this point to either refute or support the claim. 
 
 "It's just more pieces to an incredibly complex puzzle," he said. 
 
 It's a puzzle that may never be solved. Despite a nearly yearlong investigation and thousands of documents investigators have examined in a search for answers, what motivated Lanza to walk into Sandy Hook Elementary School that day remains a mystery. 
 
 Mary Ellen O'Toole, a retired FBI behavioral analyst whose expertise is in mass homicides and school violence, said there is a compulsive aspect to many pedophiles that isn't apparent in the evidence released to date on Lanza. 
 
 "These urges come back repeatedly, and they aren't satisfied by one instance," she said. "I would expect to see a more compulsive nature to the inquiry. When searching a home, you would expect to find volumes of material on the subject." 
 
 She added that investigators would expect to see some kind of searches pertaining to a sexual curiosity on most 20-year-olds' computers. Lanza's hard drive, however, was filled with documents pertaining to his research of mass shootings, images of Lanza holding a handgun to his head and a smattering of information related to the rights of pedophiles. 
 
 While additional evidence hasn't surfaced in the Lanza case, O'Toole said that doesn't mean it didn't exist. 
 
 "It could mean the investigators didn't find it or it was part of what was destroyed," she said. 
 
 Lanza made every effort to destroy his hard drive before his rampage, which included killing his mother in her bed at home. He also redacted a number of comments he left on social media forums that may have discussed the topic. 
 
 Dr. Charles Herrick, the head of psychiatry at Danbury Hospital, said it is difficult with the information released to date to know if Lanza's interest in pedophilia had any influence on his behavior. 
 
 "The material related to his obsession with mass shootings is far more compelling about what is driving his behavior," he said. 
 
 Herrick said that while perpetrators of any kind of abuse tend to have been abused themselves, there is no indication that Lanza was molested. 
 
 "That's pretty common," he said, "but they don't usually think about it in such a intellectual way. If abused, why would someone seek to justify it?" 
 
 Dr. Harold Schwartz, chief of psychiatry at the Institute for Living in Hartford and part of the 16-member Sandy Hook Advisory Commission, said there was not enough information in the documents to say whether Lanza may have been a victim himself of a pedophile. 
 
 Members of the commission, appointed by the governor last year to make recommendations on school safety, mental health and gun violence after the shooting, have been openly critical of the state police report on the shooting, saying the report released late on a Friday afternoon was all but indecipherable. 
 
 The report is so disorganized that the commission has accepted the help of a Hartford law firm to turn the 6,700-page file -- an online collection of hundreds of individual documents without a table of contents or index -- into a searchable database. 
 
 "I think all of us have gone into the document pages and were just never quite sure whether we missed something or have gotten to the thing that matters most to us," said Hamden Mayor Scott Jackson, chairman of the commission. 
 
 Staff writer John Pirro contributed to this report. ||||| Newtown 
 
 An unearthed recording of the Sandy Hook shooter and his chatroom postings raise more troubling questions about the answer we don’t have: Why he targeted little kids. 
 
 Among the thousands of documents generated by the police investigation into the Sandy Hook Massacre is one noting that Adam Lanza adopted the username Smiggles on an online forum favored by fans of mass-shooting videos. 
 
 In one of his postings on ShockedBeyondBelief.com, Smiggles announced that he had called into a radio talk show in Oregon. He even posted a link to an archived recording of his on-air chat with radio host John Zerzan. 
 
 Thanks to blogger Reed Coleman, who first tracked it down, and to the New York Daily News for confirming it was indeed Lanza, we can listen to the killer’s voice and get a measure of a madness that was all the more horrifying because he was remarkably articulate and seemingly logical. 
 
 Babbling and raving would have been less disturbing than hearing Lanza calmly explain why Travis the chimp attacked his trainers not because of his feral nature, but because he was raised much in the way of a human child. 
 
 “His attack can be seen entirely parallel to the attacks and random acts of violence that you bring up on your show every week, committed by humans, which the mainstream also has no explanation for,” Lanza said. “I just don’t think it would be such a stretch to say that he very well could have been a teenage mall shooter or something like that.” 
 
 But Lanza himself was not just another mall shooter, or school shooter. 
 
 What made Lanza different was that he targeted young kids. You can listen to that tape a hundred times and it will still not tell you why. 
 
 But there are hints in some of the other Smiggles postings. A Dec. 20, 2011, exchange between Smiggles and two other posters, with the usernames Gluth and Ivan, jumped out at me. 
 
 Smiggles: “Literature is simply another coping mechanism for children who’ve been mindfucked by culturapists. They’re carried to other worlds in the stream of semen.” 
 
 Gluth: “Doesn’t anybody else notice that Smiggles sometimes sends huge ‘I AM A PEDOPHILE’ signals?” 
 
 Gluth is implying that this is not the first time. He goes on. 
 
 Gluth: “No offense buddy but children in a semen stream? What the hell did you smoke?” 
 
 Smiggles responds with only a smiley face. 
 
 Ivan approves. 
 
 Ivan: “I like Smiggles, he talks about children in a sexual way and is a cool guy.” 
 
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 Ivan is also suggesting that this is not the first time. I have to wonder if there are other such exchanges among the many that Lanza deleted from the forum just prior to embarking on the massacre in which he would murder 20 children and six adults. 
 
 The reason that I took note to this surviving exchange with Gluth and Ivan goes back to when the Connecticut State Police released their report. I had until then figured that Lanza was likely bullied at the school and that he might have felt it more keenly because he was a new kid whose family had just moved to Connecticut from New Hampshire. 
 
 But the state police report suggested that he harbored no particular anger toward Sandy Hook Elementary or its students. 
 
 “The shooter indicated that he loved the school and liked to go there,” the report said. 
 
 The report further suggested that Lanza’s motive may remain a mystery. 
 
 “Unfortunately, that question may never be answered conclusively, despite the collection of extensive background information on the shooter through a multitude of interviews and other sources,” the state police allowed. “The evidence clearly shows that the shooter planned his actions, including the taking of his own life, but there is no clear indication why he did so, or why he targeted Sandy Hook Elementary School.” 
 
 I had been writing about gun violence for 30 years and I had covered literally hundreds of murders involving young victims. I had covered Columbine and Virginia Tech. But I had never encountered anything like the massacre at Sandy Hook and it seemed to me unacceptable not to try to at least understand how this could have possibly happened. 
 
 I then saw in the state police report that among the items detectives found in Lanza’s room were “materials regarding the topic of pedophilia and advocating for rights for pedophiles.” There was also a “screenplay or script” titled Lovebound “describing a relationship between a 10-year-old boy and a 30-year-old man.” 
 
 I had always felt there had to be a sexual component to the fascination with guns and I had noted that Lanza himself called it a “fetish.” I commenced to write a piece suggesting that the Sandy Hook killer may have been acting out of some kind of homicidal pedophilia. I sought to make clear from the first sentence that I was engaging in speculation. 
 
 “So maybe 20-year-old Adam Lanza was a kind of pedophile whose idea of having sex with kids was to shoot them,” I wrote. 
 
 I then settled back into reporting on the contents of the report. I described the remarkable courage of 6-year-old Jesse Lewis when Lanza’s gun jammed. Lewis used a moment when he could have saved himself to call to a group of classmates. 
 
 “Run!” he said. 
 
 Some time after the article was posted, I received a call from a woman who identified herself as a media liaison for the families of the murdered children, presumably including Jesse Lewis. She informed me that the families had been deeply offended and greatly distressed by what I had written. 
 
 I assured the woman that, other than the families themselves, nobody could feel worse than I did that I had caused them any added pain. She asked why I had written such a thing. I could only think to say that I had gone from killing to killing to killing for year after year after year and I had I had felt compelled to address another why, that being the one the state police seemed to have taken pains to avoid. 
 
 I told woman I would write the families a letter, but afterward I decided it would be better to offer a more public explanation. I did so in an article about the first anniversary of the shooting and what the Founding Fathers might think about the massacre of 20 school kids. 
 
 The explanation did not make me feel any better about having distressed the families. I did not mind that even people at The Daily Beast had objected to my speculation as to Lanza’s motive. The Columbia Journalism Review, which did not even manage to spell my name correctly, charged that I had been unethical. 
 
 As I said in an email to the CJR writer, “I am not saying I am always close to right. But I always make an entirely honest effort.” 
 
 Even with Smiggles, I am not close to certain that Lanza was indeed a kind of homicidal pedophile. I do believe his postings confirm there are legitimate grounds for considering it. ||||| Newtown Report 
 
 Monday’s report doesn’t conclusively name a reason for the shooting last December, but we know why Adam Lanza was at the elementary school: He wanted to shoot kids. 
 
 So maybe 20-year-old Adam Lanza was a kind of pedophile whose idea of having sex with kids was to shoot them. 
 
 A hint at that is in the report on the Sandy Hook Elementary School murders released on Monday by the Connecticut state attorney’s office in Danbury. 
 
 Among the items the report says detectives found in Lanza’s room were “materials regarding the topic of pedophilia and advocating for rights for pedophiles.” 
 
 The report adds, “Not child pornography.” 
 
 But maybe Lanza’s equivalent of kiddie porn was a five-second dramatization of children being shot that was found among this things at home. 
 
 He also had a POV video game called School Shooter that allows the player to gun down students with gruesome results. 
 
 In the game, the shooter wears fingerless black gloves, just like Dylan Klebold did at the Columbine High School massacre that the report says Lanza was fixated on. 
 
 Only Lanza went after much younger victims at Sandy Hook, a choice the report indicates cannot be easily explained by any particular unpleasant experience, real or imagined, that Lanza seems to have had when he was at student there. 
 
 In preschool before he arrived at Sandy Hook, Lanza is said by the report to have exhibited such worrisome signs as “repetitive behaviors, temper tantrums, smelling things that were not there, excessive hand washing and eating idiosyncrasies.” 
 
 But of his time at Sandy Hook, the report says: “The early school years have him portrayed as a nice kid, though sort of withdrawn. He loved music and played saxophone.” 
 
 “He would attend play groups and parties,” the report says. 
 
 The report—which calls Lanza “the shooter,” just like in his game—adds, “The shooter indicated that he loved the school and liked to go there.” 
 
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 One thing that seems notable in retrospect is the book Lanza made as part of a class project in the fifth grade. He titled it Big Book of Granny. The hero has a cane that is really a gun and uses it to shoot numerous people, children among them. 
 
 As he proceeded on to sixth grade and middle school, he was said by a teacher who was interviewed by the detectives to have gotten As and Bs, done his homework, and had at least some friends. He was never in any trouble of note. 
 
 The big change seems to have come in the seventh grade. A teacher described him as “intelligent but not normal?” He was said to have had “antisocial issues,” withdrawing and refusing to participate in class. He appeared to have a violent nature. His writing assignments were filled with “a disturbing level” of mayhem, war, and death. 
 
 During this same period, his mother, Nancy Lanza, noted that her son had given up sports and stopped riding his bike and climbing trees and playing the saxophone in the school band. He did join the tech club in high school and even had a LEN (pizza and computer games) party at his home. 
 
 And while he continued to write about violence, the report notes that he also wrote about “human nature, perception, judgment, morality, lack of control, prejudice, empathy, suicide, mental illness, existential crisis, urban exploration of abandoned areas, hiking and cookies.” He turned unexpectedly lyrical when he was asked to write a poem. 
 
 But school was becoming ever more a struggle, and he was becoming ever more withdrawn. The report waxes clinical as it says: “His school issues related to his identified emotional and/or Pervasive Developmental Disorder (PDD) spectrum behaviors. His high level of anxiety, Asperger’s characteristics, Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD) concerns and sensory issues all impacted his performance to a significant degree, limiting his participation in a general education curriculum. Tutoring, desensitization and medication were recommended.” 
 
 The report goes on, “The shooter refused to take suggested medication and did not engage in suggested behavior therapies.” 
 
 He was extremely picky about what he ate and insisted that foods be arranged in a particular order on his plate. He would only eat certain things with certain utensils. He washed his hands again and again, just as he had in preschool, and he repeatedly changed clothes, leaving his mother to do his laundry every day. Nobody was allowed in his room, where the windows were covered with black garbage bags secured with duct tape. 
 
 Deliverymen were asked not to ring the doorbell lest the noise disturb him. He required others to open doors for him because he so abhorred touching the knobs or other metal objects. 
 
 “Often going through a box of tissues a day to avoid contact,” the report says. 
 
 He also did not like birthdays or holidays, and he refused to let his mother put up a Christmas tree, which she took as a sign that he lacked emotion. He did not like the family cat, so the mother gave it away. 
 
 “When the shooter had his hair cut, he did not like to be touched and did not like the sound of clippers, so they were not used much,” the report says. “He would sit with his hands in his lap and always look down, giving one-word answers if the cutter tried to engage him in conversation.” 
 
 The mother told people that because her son had Asperser’s he was unable to experience emotion. She asked him if he would feel badly if something happened to her. 
 
 “No,” he said. 
 
 He had a cell phone, but he neither made nor accepted calls, apparently using it only for emails and texts. He ceased speaking to his mother in person, communicating with her only by email even when they were both in the house. 
 
 Oddly, what he did venture out to do, what he apparently loved even more than School Shooter, was a game called Dance Dance Revolution. 
 
 From 2011 right up until his final month, he would play an arcade version in a local movie theater lobby on most Fridays and Saturdays, always wearing a specific outfit that featured a gray hoodie, staring at the video screen and moving his feet in time with the flashing lights for hours, showing no sign of fatigue until he was suddenly exhausted. 
 
 He kept videos of himself playing Dance Dance Revolution along with the video clip of school kids being shot. 
 
 He also had selfies that featured him holding a handgun to his head, holding a rifle to his head, and posing with a rifle and a shotgun, his pockets stuffed with 30-round magazines. 
 
 His mother was of the unfortunate opinion that firearms would teach him responsibility and give him confidence. She long been taking him to shooting ranges, and together they had taken the NRA gun safety course. She apparently tried to impart a little holiday spirit in him when she wrote him a check dated “Christmas Day” of 2012 and bearing the notation “CZ83,” meaning for a CZ83 pistol. 
 
 She remained an unshakably devoted mother and made sure to cook his favorite meals to get him through her absence as she embarked on December 10, 2012, for a three-day trip to see family in New Hampshire. He bumped his head before he left and it bled a bit, but she could not have taken it as a portent. He seemed fine when she departed. 
 
 He had bought himself a GPS, and investigators say it shows he drove in the vicinity of Sandy Hook Elementary School on the afternoon of December 13. His mother returned home around 10 p.m. that night. 
 
 She was in bed the next morning when Adam Lanza entered with the one kind of object he apparently had no trouble touching: a firearm. He placed a .22 caliber rifle to her head and curled his finger around the metal of the trigger four times. 
 
 “Someone in the area reported hearing ‘two or three’ gunshots in the neighborhood between 8:00 a.m. and 9:00 a.m,” the report says. “That person thought them to be from hunters, though the person indicated the shots did ‘sound unusually close.”’ 
 
 Lanza then set off with a Bushmaster assault rifle, two pistols, and hundreds of rounds of ammunition, all of it having been purchased by his mother. He does not seem to have been propelled by some monstrous psychosis as had apparently driven the Washington Navy Yard shooter. 
 
 “It is important to note that it is unknown, what contribution, if any, the shooter’s mental health issues made to his attack,” the report says. “Those mental health professionals who saw him did not see anything that would have predicted his future behavior.” 
 
 But there is a suggestion of a blindness on the part of the investigators along with the mental health folks when the report says, “He was undoubtedly afflicted with mental health problems; yet despite a fascination with mass shootings and firearms, he displayed no aggressive or threatening tendencies.” 
 
 How can a fascination with mass shooting and firearms not be a predicator of somebody using a firearm to perpetrate a mass shooting? 
 
 A fascination with guns almost has to be sexual on some displaced and pathetic level—Freud was only wrong about women. And Lanza proved his predilection by his actions in the same way as any pedophile, by targeting children. 
 
 As the otherwise insightful report notes, he does not seem to have gone to the school seeking vengeance for some long-ago wrong. The report adds, “He was never assigned to the classrooms where the shootings occurred.” 
 
 He was there because he wanted to shoot kids. He began by killing the 47-year-old principal, Dawn Hochsprung and the 56-year-old school psychologist, Mary Sherlach, because they came into the hallway after he shot his way in through the locked front doors with eight rounds. 
 
 In Classroom 10, he began by shooting the teacher, Victoria Soto, to get her out of the way. Six-year-old Jesse Lewis was standing next to her and was apparently grazed in head by a bullet fragment, but he stayed on his feet, facing the gunman. Lanza was proceeding to do what he really wanted, to kill children, when the rifle jammed. 
 
 Jesse could have used this moment to try to save himself, but he was the kind of kid who always imagined himself a peacekeeper and protector when he played soldier, sometimes patrolling his family’s yard in a plastic helmet, other times arranging his toy troopers in the bathtub to protect the rubber duckies. His mother, Scarlett Lewis, would later note in her fine book, Nurturing Healing Love: A Mother’s Journey of Hope & Forgiveness, that he had inscribed “I love you” along with several hearts in the frost on the car door when he left for school that morning. He now called to nine children who were on the other side of the classroom, holding hands. 
 
 “Run!” he told them. 
 
 The others dashed out of the room to safety just as Lanza got the gun cleared. Lanza then shot Jesse in the forehead. Lanza also killed behavioral therapist Anne Marie Murphy, firing through her to kill the child she was trying to protect with her body in her own display of remarkable courage. Lanza killed three more youngsters there. 
 
 In Classroom 8, he killed the teacher, Lauren Rousseau, and her assistant, Rachel D’Avino, along with 15 youngsters, riddling them with bullets. Investigators recovered 80 spent shell casings from Classroom 8. 
 
 The 49 expended rifle shell casings back in Classroom 10 were joined by a single shell casing from a Glock semi-automatic pistol as Lanza placed it to his head just like in the selfies and took his own life as the first police officers arrived at the school. He was found to have 253 live rounds on his person. The rifle was found nearby, one end of the sling having become detached from the butt. The safety was set to “fire.” 
 
 As for the shooter, “He was wearing a pale green pocket vest over a black polo style short sleeve shirt over a black t-shirt. He had yellow colored earplugs in each ear. He was wearing black cargo pocket pants, black socks, black sneakers, a black canvas belt and black fingerless gloves on each hand.” 
 
 The gloves were just like those Dylan Klebold had worn at Columbine High School. The difference was that this was at an elementary school. 
 
 “The obvious question that remains is: ‘Why did the shooter murder twenty-seven people, including twenty children?’” the report says. “Unfortunately, that question may never be answered conclusively.” 
 
 One thing is for sure. The motive must have had something to do with the age of most of the victims.
– Adam Lanza, pedophile? The 20-year-old who perpetrated the Sandy Hook massacre and killed himself on Dec. 14, 2012, kept documents on his hard drive showing an interest in pedophilia, the San Francisco Chronicle reports. Topping the list is a screenplay, Lovebound, that depicts a relationship between a 10-year-old boy and a 30-year-old man. There are also documents in support of "pedophiles' rights and the liberation of children." What's more, Lanza told a friend that pedophilia was "a disease that needed to be treated and not look at as evil," according to a police report on the shooting. Appearing as Smiggles in an online forum, Lanza posted that children are duped by "culturapists" and "carried to other worlds in the stream of semen," reports the Daily Beast. Someone responded: "Doesn’t anybody else notice that Smiggles sometimes sends huge 'I AM A PEDOPHILE' signals?" If Lanza was battling pedophilic urges, that's "still a long way from explaining what he did," said Fred Berlin, an expert in sexual behavior, but he doesn't rule it out. Michael Daly puts it more bluntly at the Daily Beast: "So maybe 20-year-old Adam Lanza was a kind of pedophile whose idea of having sex with kids was to shoot them." (A seven-minute call Lanza made to an Oregon radio station in 2011 grabbed headlines last week.)