>> that's what i wear. 
 
 >> that's what i wear. 
 
 >> i'd kill for a 27 waste. 
 
 >> reality star kendra wilkinson traded in life in the playboy mansion as one of hugh hefner 's girlfriend for a life in indiana as wife of nfl wide sever hank baskett . 
 
 >> she and hank have welcomed a baby boy into their lives. congratulations. 
 
 >> thank you so much. 
 
 >> how is it switches gears from being in the playboy mansion to being wife and mother , whole new life? 
 
 >> it's amazing. i think my life has changed with the perfect timing and everything. i think, you know, i was that party girl . that party playboy girl. now i'm a wife and a mother . and i'm just enjoying every chapter of my life. this is where i should be in life right now. i've always said the word -- i've always said the number 24 , 24. that's the age i've always wanted to have kids and be married. 
 
 >> it all worked out. 
 
 >> it all worked out. i have the best husband, the best baby i could ever imagine. 
 
 >> you've been doing it all at once, though. the baby, the move. you were in l.a. and indianapolis. now you'll be in philadelphia soon. 
 
 >> how do you juggle it? 
 
 >> our chapters are in six months. every six months is a new move, a new -- it's great. it's crazy. an adventure. 
 
 >> a lot of moms struggle with getting the weight off. there's one scene i loved. you were in one of those sauna suits. it's a blue thing you put it on, you were trying to get skinny for your husband. i think we have -- this is the sauna suit. tell us how that thing worked out. 
 
 >> well, i really don't recommend that. because it's unhealthy. that was just a funny gag for the show and for my husband and everything. but, you know, that just really, you know, loses water weight. 
 
 >> what are you laughing at? 
 
 >> you have to lose it in a really good way. exercises and a good diet. 
 
 >> that's what i like about you. you're not afraid to put on the suit. after pregnancy everyone expects you to look a certain way. you didn't mind showing your belly. 
 
 >> i didn't mind it. i said to my show, if i'm going to have a reality show i want it to be real and want my fans to know i'm real. the cameras didn't think they could shoot that. i'm like, no. press play. shoot this. this is something i really want on tv. 
 
 >> is that something you wore on date night? i know you're concerned about getting that spark back. 
 
 >> i found the perfect dress for date night. i still felt insecure, though, because i -- you know, it was right after having the baby. i just -- you know, i was really insecure around that time. 
 
 >> you look like you've lost a lot of weight. how have you done it? 
 
 >> every day is changing. every day is a new day. i wake up and see something different about myself. i'm not trying to lose -- i love my body now. i love the weight. it's so funny you see celebrities all the time, i'm not a size 2. i'm like, yes, i'm not a size 2 anymore. 
 
 >> that's a good attitude. so many people in hollywood , they want to be as skinny as that. 
 
 >> you think women sometimes put too much pressure on themselves to get their shape back too quickly without enjoying the moment? it's truly one of the best experiences in life. why not let it go. 
 
 >> during pregnancy i enjoyed everything. i was eating everything. i was just having a good time. 
 
 >> jou still like the idea, just real quick, that you are doing this reality show , that you have cameras showing everything? do you still think it's a good idea on season 2 ? 
 
 >> i definitely think it's a good idea. the show will end one day. they're not going to follow me when it's time to take him to preschool, elementary school . that's when it's going to end. right now we're having a good time. you know, it's all fun. but, you know, i will -- i will -- the show will end, you know, one day. 
 
 >> it seems so difficult to find new things, new adventures to show on reality television . because there's just so much of it. and so many of those storylines are kind of played over. will yours be different and what will make that special? 
 
 >> you know what's funny? i was just about to tell you, you know how kate is on " dancing with the stars "? i just told my publicist today if i were asked to go on " dancing with the stars " i don't think i would do it. i would say no to it. i'm that mom that wants -- i want to be there every step. i know i'm here for three days. i don't want to spend three months away from my kid, my baby. 
 
 >> we wish you the best of luck on season 2 . catch it sunday night on "e." ||||| Kendra Wilkinson reveals she checked into a mental hospital at age 15 for having 'suicidal' thoughts 
 
 Holden/WireImage Kendra Wilksin said she began her downward spiral with drugs at age 13. 
 
 Long before Kendra Wilkinson entered the spotlight and became known as a bubbly blond Playboy model, she experienced some troubled times as a teenager. 
 
 In the new "E! True Hollywood Story" about the reality star, Wilkinson admits dabbling in drugs and self-mutilating during her short 24 years of life. 
 
 She said she was "about 13" when she had her first experience with cocaine after her friends introduced her to "this white stuff." 
 
 "I started feeling pretty good," Wilkinson said. "That was the start of my drug days." 
 
 By the time she was 15, Wilkinson was abusing drugs and was at one point "feeling suicidal" and "cutting myself." 
 
 "I had so much pain that I just wanted to die," she revealed. "It wasn't that I was trying to die, it was that the pain took away from my pain inside." 
 
 After Wilkinson admitted swallowing a "half-dozen or so medications" while at school, her mother, Patti, checked her into a secured psychiatric facility for two weeks. 
 
 "It was crazy in that place," the reality star told "THS." "We didn't see daylight. We weren't allowed outside. It was basically a jail, but it was a hospital." 
 
 Despite her family members being "scared to death," Wilkinson said the hospitalization "did not change me at all." 
 
 "I think it made me worse because in my heart I didn't want to change," she said. "People were forcing me, and that's something that does not work with me." 
 
 Wilkinson credits an instance when she almost died from a cocaine overdose as the moment that made her realize she needed to get her life together. 
 
 "I was bleeding from every hole in my body and I really thought I was going to die that night," she said. "But you know what, I survived, and I swear it was a couple of days after that that I had an epiphany. I just stopped drugs, stopped smoking cigarettes, stopped everything, and went home." 
 
 Admitting that her "devil years" were "very selfish," Wilkinson's attempt to repair her damaged relationship with her family took time. 
 
 "My mom did not take me back with open arms," she said. "I basically had to get on my knees and beg. I looked in her eyes [and said] 'I swear on my life, I am done.'" 
 
 After getting involved in sports and working a part-time job, the reformed teen found her way working at the Playboy mansion, where she ultimately met future boyfriend Hugh Hefner. 
 
 Now married to NFL star Hank Baskett and caring for their 3-month-old son, Hank IV, Wilkinson told E! Online that she's just "enjoying time" with her new family.
– Kendra Wilkinson may be among the most famous Playboy Playmates—not to mention married to a football star—but her younger years weren’t so bright. Previews for her upcoming E! True Hollywood Story show Wilkinson talking about using cocaine at 13 and cutting herself by 15, the New York Daily News reports. “I had so much pain that I just wanted to die,” she says, adding that she checked into a psychiatric facility for two weeks after swallowing a "half-dozen or so medications." Wilkinson found herself in the news for another reason yesterday after she apparently slammed fellow celebrity mom Kate Gosselin for appearing on Dancing With the Stars. “If I were asked to go on, I don't think I'd do it,” she said on Today. “I would definitely say no to it, because I am that mom that wants to be there every step. I don't want to spend three months away from my baby. I just couldn't do that.” She later tweeted she “didn’t mean to bash Kate.”