I do not think that epilepsy should make anyone feel bad about himself, as illness does not come out of choice, and a person can only treat an illness but not cause or prevent it. Also this taboo towards epilepsy is more a stereotypical view that defies such logic, as there have been very famous successful people who had epilepsy. But this stereotypical views of the society at large, makes them look at it differently as compared to any other medical illness. One cant change the view of the society at large in a short span of time, it would need more of it. Meanwhile you need to move on with your life, and not let this thought process effect you and your self esteem.