I was 4 almost 5. My experience was not near death, it was death.I was in my bed sick. I had been very ill running fevers hitting 104. Mom says I hit 105 at some point. I remember being lowered into a cold tub of water, my mother frantically trying to bring the fever down. I would hallucinate the same thing when my fever got that high. The ceiling would start bouncing back and forth like a rubber band. It would begin lowering down on me. I would cry out thinking I was going to be crushed. In looking back now it was probably seizures.I was also vomiting every hour or less. When my stomach had nothing left I was dry heaving yellow mucus.Mom took me to the hospital seeing I was getting ready to die. I was little and my body had taken all it could. I was losing against whatever bug had hold of me.I was immediately rushed back to the ER beds and the room became busy with medical staff rushing around. They were asking mom questions as she watched me looking worried and trying not to cry.I felt so tired. I just wanted to sleep for a while. I remember telling everyone I was feeling much better. The sounds in the room started to get a hollow echo to them. I just wanted to close my eyes, so I did.The voices in the room continued to echo. I suddenly noticed my toes were touching the foot of the bed. I thought,u201dwow! I am a big girl!u201d I felt so proud. I opened my eyes to look and when I did I was looking at myself. I was laying on a gurney. I was blue. My eyes were slats. There were people around me frantically working. Mom was crying as she looked on.I wasn't upset or scared. A little confused. I knew I didn't have a body. I felt like I was part of everything and everyone. I moved upward and could see other rooms. I later detailed conversations that there is no way I could have known. I lifted out of the hospital and continued ascending. I began browsing thru time. I saw events from my short life. I later detailed things that occured before I could even talk. Things I should not be able to remember but do and in great detail. Ascended more. I felt at peace. There were no questions or unknowns. There were no fears or worries. I began drifting towards a light. It was beautiful. I wanted to touch it.Suddenly there was a pop. It felt like I was attached to a cord and someone grabbed it and jerked me down. I descended almost instantly.After that it's hazy. I obviously got better and went home. The experience has shaped me in so many ways. I know there is a place we go when we die. Oddly I still fear death. I can't understand why.So that's my near death experience. I hope it gives some one hope .