Hello there, In your current situation It would be helpful if you attend counseling sessions with a psychologist. Your inability to maintain a relationship may be as a result of some event in your past which changes the way you view relationships. When you talk to a psychologist he/she would give you an outsider s opinion of how your personality is and what needs to be done by you to lad a more fulfilling emotional life. So, reach out and seek help. It will only have a beneficial effect on you. Hope this helps, Please feel free to address any further queries to me,