It is not a pleasant sensation in any way. When you’re a youngster, you want to be loved, but you don’t have the means to stand up for yourself when you’re uncomfortable. The realization that one does not belong, coupled with the observation that other children are congregating without including oneself, is a very upsetting experience. You go through life believing that you are an oddball who does not deserve anyone’s affection or attention. You would assume that someone with this kind of history would have thicker skin, but in my experience, it didn’t work out that way.