Thank you for this question! To learn more about the intricacies surrounding age gaps and childhood sexual abuse, follow this link to a previous response we provided for another survivor processing a similar situation: https://stories.ourwave.org/en/answer/child-on-child-sexual-abuse-cocsa-can-a-victim-be-older-than-their-perpetrator-80
No matter how you choose to identify. You do not deserve the abuse you experienced. You are not alone.