The author's family background and upbringing, particularly the behavior of his father and grandfather who are comfortable and enjoy talking to people, could have contributed to his struggles with conversations. Growing up in an environment where conversation skills are valued and practiced may have created pressure or expectations for the author to excel in this area. This could have led to feelings of inadequacy or self-doubt when he perceived himself as not meeting those expectations. Exploring this further could provide insights into the author's beliefs about communication, self-worth, and social interactions, helping him understand the root causes of his difficulties and work towards overcoming them.