Date: 2014-03-19
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So much for being in stellar shape for the start of my thru hike. Even though I have not been on my feet as much as I would have liked, I decided it was better off taking it easy for the most part. The most recent reason being I had just had some wisdom teeth yanked out. Though I do need to break in some backup shoes for when my boots need to be retired.Everyone on the east coast would think I'm a total nut/idiot for leaving San Diego for the AT. Perfect sunny 80 degree weather every single day with zero humidity here. For all you East coast people who have never been here, just imagine how strange it is to live where every single day is a beach day. It sounds too good to be true, but it's pretty much a reality. It really is amazing but I also think its disorienting. You also just have to get used to people freaking out if the temperature changes by 4 degrees. I'm obviously setting myself up for a cliche "I'm going to miss this" moment, but I really don't think I am. I mean being cold and wet for a few days at a time isn't my definition of fun, but I like a little suffering. I think its good for you.The closer my launch off day gets, the more I realize how right this decision in my life is. Sure, I could fail miserably and I may not be as mentally strong or prepared as I think I am. Or catastrophe can happen and I won't get to experience the AT. Either way, my intuition is telling me that this choice was a good one. Even if it turns out to be short lived or something unspeakable happens. There has never been a time in my life where I was completely content like I am right now. I don't have a job, I'm not studying, and I don't have a career in mind. How is that possible? I think its because I've let go of the "resistance". The resistance to just be. To just do. I'm here and I'm in the now. I'm smiling ear to ear right now. I'm that guy who goes to the beach on rainy days and loves it.The darker side of my thoughts about taking advantage of my youth is that I've lost faith in humanity overall a long time ago. Its not that I think people are inherently bad. I know there's amazing people all over. Some with greatness that I can't even comprehend or can be a witness to. I don't even blame people who do terrible things. I'm not in their shoes... but I could have been and so could have you. The stress of viewing the world in a certain light takes its toll when you indulge in it too long. When you learn or see certain things, they don't simply go away. A reality sinks in where there are virtual fences set up and the other side of fence does not have green grass like the one I walk on. I read that the AT tends to restore your faith in humanity. That it helps you better appreciate nature and things being left as they should be. That it will probably make me want to distance myself even further from where our society is heading towards. We'll see I hope. All I know is that this life I'm living is temporary and so is the world. Anyways. Let's do this. I've got nearly 2 weeks left. Sure, I would like to get going right now but hey... I'm getting better at just taking it one moment at a time. What am I doing on here anyway? I'm in a rock climbing gym. I'll get back to having some fun