Date: 2017-11-28
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Miles today: 0.0

It would be safe to say that those who know me may agree that I'm disciplined, structured, systematic, as well as sarcastic, grumpy, sentimental and bunch of other stuff that does not pertain directly to this story.Here is the conversation that has constantly gone in my head for the past 5 weeks. Disclaimer this may get a little messy....5 weeks ago:Mind: You know we are going back right?Body: Wait, what did you say?Emotion: But we just got home. It feels so good to be here. Everyone loves us here.Body: You know I'm pretty busted up, right?Mind; Yes I know. We will take some time to recover, recharge and visit. I have a plan. We will be just fine. Now leave me alone I have lots of planning to do.Heart: What are you searching for?Mind: We learned and figured out so much on the first half of the trail. There has got to be more in the second half. We need to get a better future, get more ideas.Fast Forward 5 weeks:Mind: Alright guys I have been researching, planning, testing and preparing for our trip.Body: I'm healed up but don't know how long it will last.Emotion: it sure feels good to be at home! I have had a fantastic time. Do we have to leave?Heart: Why are we doing this?Mind: We set a goal and we have to reach it. It's what we do. You guys have been there before you know what to do. Suck it up. You have to go through the suck to reap the reward. We will adapt and overcome. We always do.The Day:Body: Man, its cold and windy out here.Emotion: I'm really not feeling it. Usually I'm excited or at least anxious. I don't want to be here.Mind: These are the days we have been waiting for. The air is cool, no bugs and the views are more visible with all the leaves gone. We are in good shape to hike and we will only get stronger. We have all the right gear and I have planned this trip out to a tee. You guys will feel better in a few days.Heart: Something's not right.Day 2Body: Damn, its cold out there. We better warm up before we hike.Emotion: Is it going to be this cold all the time? What happens when it rains? I'm scared and want to go home.Mind: Relax guys, I got us covered. We have to finish this. We want to inspire people and teach them how to reach their goals and achieve their greatness. How will it look if we quit?Body and Emotion: You're the boss.Heart: What did they say?Later that dayBody: Man, I'm tired. This sucks!Emotions: I know I should be loving this right now but I'm not. His music is not even effecting me.Mind: They maybe right. We should be loving this. The weather is perfect, the trail is easy, the views are beautiful. We have time to think and plan. We can eat whatever we want and we don't have to deal with bills, traffic or reality. Something's not right. What should we do?Body: I don't know but I'm hungry.Emotion: I feel so confused.Mind: Maybe we should seek some council. Heart: What is the next best thing to do for Jeff and the family?Mind: I'm not sure. What do you think?Heart: The trail has given us everything we needed, asked for and more. Just because the length of the trail is 2189 miles doesn't determine our hike. We are not bound to man made boundaries, protocols, certifications, degrees or awards. Life is about learning, applying, teaching and caring. Our work on trail is complete. It's time to take what we gained and go be a better husband, dad, friend, business partner, author, speaker, inventor and man. Body: I'm in. This sucks! Not sure I would have made it anyways.Emotion: Me too! I can't wait get back home! But I'm kind of ashamed. It looks like we failed.Mind: What are people going to think (say)??Heart: We may come back to the trail someday. In fact I would bet on it. But we will return because we want to not because we think it defines us or our success. We walk in the spirit of truth not in the letter of the law. Not everyone will agree or understand and that's ok. We will always seek what is best not the approval of others.Mind: What is she going say?Body: She's pretty and she's strong!Emotion: I Love her!!Heart: Me too.