Date: 2006-04-01
From: Whitley Gap

To: Henson Gap
Miles today: 11.0

11:30am - lunch @ low gap shelter. So, I think I may have just experienced that feeling I've been so excited for. We did 6 miles in a little over two hours and, although I was partially motivated by tremondous foot pain I feel pretty good. And, as I lie here feet throbbing in pain, I realize I have nothing I have to do but walk. I may have some loose ends to tie up and alot of me to sort through, but the only thing I have to do is grit my teeth, slip my boots on, sling on my pack and go for a walk - crazy. Tomorrow night we'll be in Helen. Hopefully my feet can recover slightly there.? - On the walk here I thought about how immenslely frustrated I was with the efact that I had no idea where I was (even though I was holding the map). Does this mean I have a control issue or am just goal orientated or is it that, psyhcologically, if you don't know the somewhere you are, you are, in a sense, no-where. and that may just be a concept I personally can't handle... plenty of time to think. 5 more miles to go today and then hopefully we'll hitch a ride to Helen. 7pm: I think I moved pretty fast today. I was happy with myself. I think I'll definitely continue to get stronger. My feet are still a problem, but I think we decided to stop in Helen for an extra day to get some rest. I'm really excited about the hotel and laundry. I'll let you in on a little secret. Every night I've een looking at the photo of K and me and I wonder. I mean, people become cuter to me because of personality, but does K even think I'm cute? I mean looks wise we don't match up. When we were in Boston together there was a mirror by the room door and as we werer walking out one time I mentioned that we didn't look like we went together he said he thought we did, but the more I htink about he's never once said I was beautiful or even hot, although I've never said that to him either. Our whole relationship has been kinda strange. I'll talk to him tomorrow anyway I hope he left me a message....Back to the trail I think we're gonna end up falling into a nice pace together afterall. The mind is funny, emotions and situations are funny. They all seem so permanently influencing and yet they all can change almost instantly. I think we're all getting along ok and we seem to be having fun. I gave B one and a half meals plus a power bar. That's something thats always been hard for me. It seems silly but my mother is such a hoarder and if she gives you something she thinks when your done with it she has the right to decide what happens with it.So, I tend to like to keep my own stuff and take as little as possible. But, I had extra and we're all going to be doing a lot of giving and taking and helping each other our over the next few months. It'll be good for me to be surviving partially due to cooperationand not just myself. Some things you can't do alone. I'm not really tired but we're getting up extra early to trek into Helen - we want all the time off possible so I'll try to sleep I'm surprised though by how little I get scared at night. I think it may be because of B - that's gotta be worth a few meals ;-) P.s. I don't want to make it sound like B keeps taking. He's already given me duct tape, mole skin, a mirror, and probably some other things too. I only told that story becase I was pointing out my own flaw - not trying to say he's a leech - I offered it to him - have I cleared that up enough yet? Good Bon Nuit.