Date: 2005-03-05
From: Harrisonburg, VA

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Miles today: 0.0

Okay, so I definitley have to return to the trail. The sooner the better!! I emailed Apple Pie today and some other folks trying to figure out what my best course of action is for continuing my hike. It has been nice being home and I'm glad that I could help out my family with some stuff and reorganize my hike, but I miss the hiking, the snickers bars, the privies, the snow!!, the frozen boots, the water with floaties in it, the mice, Apple Pie, and Mallrat, but he abandoned me (haha)! Alright, so here is the tentative plan. Stay at home for the rest of the week because my mom is having foot surgery and I want to be around to help her get back on her feet...pardon the pun. Then head back to the trail on Sunday or sometime early next week!! I cannot wait. I think I am going to go back up my pack now...haha!! I thought we would go with my favorite movie quote ever...and it just so happens to be from Chasing Amy. In case you don't figure it out from this quote, I am a hopeless romantic!! Enjoy!Alyssa: Why are we stopping? Holden: Because I can't take this. Alyssa: Can't take what? Holden: I love you. Alyssa: You love me? Holden: I love you. And not, not in a friendly way, although I think we're great friends. And not in a misplaced affection, puppy-dog way, although I'm sure that's what you'll call it. I love you. Very, very simple, very truly. You are the epitome of everything I have ever looked for in another human being. And I know that you think of me as just a friend, and crossing that line is the furthest thing from an option you would ever consider. But I had to say it. I just, I can't take this anymore. I can't stand next to you without wanting to hold you. I can't, I can't look into your eyes without feeling that, that longing you only read about in trashy romance novels. I can't talk to you without wanting to express my love for everything you are. And I know this will probably queer our friendship - no pun intended - but I had to say it, because I've never felt this way before, and I don't care. I like who I am because of it. And if bringing this to light means we can't hang out anymore, then that hurts me. But God, I just, I couldn't allow another day to go by without just getting it out there, regardless of the outcome, which by the look on your face is to be the inevitable shoot-down. And, you know, I'll accept that. But I know... I know that some part of you is hesitating for a moment, and if there is a moment of hesitation, then that means you feel something too. All I ask, please, is that you just, you just not dismiss that - and try to dwell in it for just ten seconds. Alyssa, there isn't another soul on this fucking planet who has ever made me half the person I am when I'm with you, and I would risk this friendship for the chance to take it to the next plateau. Because it is there between you and me. You can't deny that. Even if, you know, even if we never talk again after tonight, please know that I'm forever changed because of who you are and what you've meant to me, which - while I do appreciate it - I'd never need a painting of birds bought at a diner to remind me of. So good! Off to pack...again!Cheers,Chasing Amy