Date: 2007-11-11
To: Thoughts
Miles today: 0.0

On March fourth, I will march forth. It will be cold. I will be ready. I am ready. I've been mentally ready for about 3 years. For these prep entries, I'm going to focus on how exactly this hike came to fruition, and why it did so. I've read several AT journals, and the ones I have learned the most from and admire the most are the ones that put it all out on the table. I'm an engineer (almost) by trade, so I will certainly record mileage data etc, but this journal's main purpose is to record my thoughts. It just happens to be online where friends, family, and other hikers can read it. Oh well.   Just like any good story, it began once upon a time in a far away place. AKA the NH seacoast. Born & raised. 22 years, same house. Mom, Dad, Brother (Ryan, 24), Sister (Julia 19). 2000 people in town. Grades 1-8 at town public school (8th grade class had 23 kids). Commuted to a private high school in southern Maine. I was also in scouting my entire youth, including getting my Eagle rank about 2 days before the 18th birthday deadline. Interestingly enough, scouting never exactly sparked my interest in the outdoors. I guess its like reading in that once you arent required to do it, it is actually enjoyable. Scouting is just something I had been doing for so long that it was almost as if I was "pot committed" as poker players would say. My motivation back then was more of a resume builder than a true passion.It has been hard for me to truly identify and define my passion in life until I became familiar with hiking (long distance especially). One self-observed character flaw I have noticed at this point in my life is that I tend to only participate enthusiastically in activities that I am naturally good at. School (up until college) was relatively easy. That's ont to say that I didnt work hard, but I understood the teachers, what they were looking for, most of the academic concepts, etc. I have played travel/varsity soccer as a goalkeeper at a high level since I was 11. Although I went to goalie camps and learned proper technique etc, I can honestly say that a majority of my success was due to natural talent. Even the few video games I play are the ones I am good at and can consistently win. This trait emerges in my weaknesses as well. I wouldn't say that I'm uncomfortable around other people, but I certainly consider myself introverted. I am not "good" at being with other people, so I avoid these situations.   This is where the AT comes in. I know it is truly a passion. The AT levels the playing field substantially, yet I have a burning desire to get on the trail ASAP. How does the AT level the playing field you might ask? I'll tell you why! In its simplest form, the AT is a walking path. Save fot the paralyzed and the babies out there, we can all walk. Also, the AT is NOT a race. There is no other team to beat, no award to win, just walking. Money also plays less of a factor than in other aspects of life. Expensive gear, cheap gear; it all pales in comparison to determination and attitude. The AT represents many of the old-school American ideals. Work hard enough (barring injury) and you'll make it. It also represents that perpetually diminishing idea that simplicity is something to strive for. Hike. Eat. Sleep. Repeat. The AT is my passion and I NEED to pursue it.