Date: 2018-06-09
From: Bear mountain bridge motel

To: Bear mountain bridge motel
Miles today: 0.0

I Slept like a baby but heard a couple of trucks on the road out front. Not enough to disturb my sleep though. I got up at 7:30 ready to relax and recover today. I'll have to get groceries for the next 3 days and I plan to post my journal entries since I have electricity and wifi here. I showered and dressed and sat on the motel porch with my feet up for a while working on my schedule so I can pick up my next supply box and work out the food I need before then. Then I paid for my stay tonight and got a suggestion for breakfast and grocery store. I walked down the street a block to Perry's and enjoyed scrambled eggs with bacon, spinach, Swiss and potatoes along with orange juice and coffee. It's a little cafe at a Ducati motorcycle shop and there were several people there that sound like they ride together and one flamboyant female who was annoying but entertainment at the same time. I talked to the owner for a few minutes before walking back to the motel. I sat down again on the porch and received a text from Kyle asking me to call. Unfortunately I was reminded of how stressful my career is and the conversation left me upset and feeling guilty about not being there. I called Brian after so we could talk about it and I could begin to process. I'll have to work through these emotions and it will likely take me a few days. River stopped by on her way to the post office and dropped off some gear in my room. Today I get to help her slack pack! She'll be going to do the 11 miles I did yesterday. This way we'll be on the same trail sections again. Her Uber came and she was off after getting her boxes from the post office. Since I'm going to the grocery store I can pick up what she needs. After more journaling I summoned an Uber and headed out to get the shopping done. By far the nicest driver and there is a snack basket and cooler with bottled water in the back seat. Spotless car! I have a specific list so I don't buy too much. I scored 2 oatmeal and some Ziploc bags from the hiker box, so I crossed those off the list. Uber took a long time to pick me up from the grocery store so I ate the raspberries and ran into Rite Aid while I waited, looking for body glide for River. It's so hard to find!Back at the motel I'm still in a funk about the news from my office. I pack up my 3 days of food into the freezer bags and into my food bag. I ate my kale salad after spilling some on the floor, I despise those bags, and spending 10 minutes picking up the pieces. Thankfully it didn't have dressing on it yet. It's almost 5 and I talk to Brian again. I'm trying to assess how I feel and work through it.I'm feeling depressed and wondering if things would have been different if I were at the office. Likely not. I can't control the situation. People make their own decisions of what's best for them at the time. Sometimes the grass just looks greener somewhere else and they jump over the fence. I feel unappreciated and dumped on. I have to give this up to God and refocus myself on my journey. This is my time. River finished her hike around 7 and got an Uber back. Apparently not all hikers get stranded at the bookstore. Having already eaten I declined dinner and watched TV for a while before bed. Animal Planet. A show about prosthetics for animals which was very interesting. Then a few minutes of news for the weather and I shut it off at 10:15 and put the AC unit on low fan. Another night of good sleep and I'll be ready for Bear mountain!