Date: 2005-10-12
From: Confessions Again

To: Somewhere, head'n SOUTH
Miles today: 1400.0

I must confess, I could use some rest... but, the more I rest, the more restless I get and the more tired I seem. Not as bad as Stilts though, he seems to be a yawning machine as of late. RI has been RAINY, which makes running and other outdoor play that much more avoidable. I mean, we HAD to go in the rain on trail, but now... I recall my motto of old, NO SUN,NO FUN, I'M DONE! Hmmmm, how to apply?Is anyone else having the challenge of choosing the next trail of life? Me either, just asking.I wrote a poem in '96 that was published and one of the lines has always ran true for me, "...looking back will not find me lost..." Is that ever so true.Anyone in the Tampa Bay area on the weekend of Nov. 3rd,4th and 5th could see us cook up some chili a la delish. The State Championship is then for Florida(duh). Guess I'll have to practice up in Tulsa and in Texas.I am most likely heading to Texas for the National Recreation and Park Association Conference; anyone else going? I hope they will let me volunteer my registration away, FUNDS GETTING LOW LOW LOW.I gave Deb money for $1 a week in the Lotto hoping that great Karma would come while on the trail. Realistically, it will come later.Has anyone hear my REALISTICALLY philosophy that came about on the trail? Well, committ this to memory. Generally, when someone is heard saying "blah blah blah but, REALISTICALLY, it will be (something negative added here)..." It is generally a negative thing to follow when the word "Realistically" or "...let's be realistic..." are used by someone. But, I am here to change the world on this. The AT and the traveling adventure of the past 7 months have inside me created a new look at realistically. I say it all the time now with the notion and knowledge that what ever is REALISTIC to come...it WILL be a positive thing. It is the truth, everyone should think this way. I even have a few hikers that have adopted the notion and realistically, will forever be better people because of this. Really. This is not "POSITIVE THINKING" or INTUITIVE KARMA. No, this is the "Realistically Approach" as NOT seen on TV(yet ha ha) by Domino IrelandI confess, I hiked for almost 7 months and still am having a hard time answering a few simple questions that guide my career, lifestyle and ambitious directions; questions I hiked many many miles thinking about between rocks and roots. Dont come on the trail thinking you can solve life's problems. No, you can simply learn to be more alive.I think I get inundated by too many choices. The AT is so simple in that regard, just get up and walk. Follow blazes, if you loose them, stop, go back and find out where, continue on.I am a GREAT Consultant. Of course, in the things that I am an "expert" in. If anyone would like to know what those things are, would like to pay me for my time, energy, knowledge and-most of all- creativity, please let me know. I come inexpensive, unless your rich.If this seems direct, pompus...it is not meant to. Sometimes putting down your feelings means that you risk being seen by different eyes and opinion. I didnt need the trail to teach me that but it sure made this and many other facts that are metaphors for life REAL. That is one thing the trail will certainly do for you if you open your mind to it; it will be a huge metaphor(s) for life. Realistically, you all will be amazed at where I go from here.