Amy was with her dad and she had taken the kids and Rae was round her grandmothers looking after her which in a way I was grateful for , they where safe . But I also wanted someone here with me as I felt alone and scared as I laid down on the floor not being able to handle the pain anymore of it all . My phone continued to buzz and I just laid there staring at the caller ID , Brendan would n't stop ringing me and he would most likely come here eventually looking for me .
The idea sent shivers down my spine , I wanted so desperately to believe that he had n't killed someone but he had admitted it himself , right to my face and then expected me to be okay with it all .
Emotion: Fear