I have felt rather disconnected from Dr. A all weekend long . I 'm a little gun shy after my major acting out episode last Thursday and then my fear filled Friday appointment . He had compared me to a skittish deer , and that 's not far off .
I heard a loud noise -LRB- in the form of Dr. A saying ` No ' ) and my feet skidded in panic under me ; I could n't get away fast enough .
Emotion: Fear