Was this how Buddy pictured herself? The idea was grotesque, ludicrous, until I realized how tragic it was. Of course this was how she saw herself. It was probably how she'd looked when young, when still a rising-star researcher. And probably still did in her mind's eye. What about the walking-dead body the rest of the world saw? That was just a prison, chummer, a prison of flesh that young girl's got herself trapped, in. No wonder Buddy spend most of her time in the Matrix. It was the only place she could be herself.