When she spoke again, her voice had become quiet. "You see, I want my son to
be born, this son, this child, this part of John. I want him to live, and I want 
him to live a good life. I need to know that he’s going to be all right. I want
to protect him. And I know Breena thinks that makes me terrible, but I..."
She sighed. "I just don’t want to lose him, too. I need something to be set."
She laughed slightly. "Actually, I want everything to be set. But now I don’t
know. I’ve given up everything I had. Everything I had to offer my son, I gave
it all up to keep him safe in another way."