However, I do not have to buy myself a drink for the duration, and being on TV is a great way to start a conversation in a bar. The whole near-death issue allows me to say goodbye to Cherry. I am reconsidering everything in my life. I have been changed. Annealed. I need time to reflect, to go mad, to get sane, to drink, to be sober. I am a new person. I’ll call her when this spiritual journey is at an end.