RICKENHARP (after a long pause): It’s true I need something like that. I need to belong. I mean—okay, I’m a "nonconformist," but still, on some level I got a need to belong. Maybe rock bands are a surrogate family—the family unit is shot to hell, so ... the band is family for people. I’d do anything to keep it together. I need these guys. I’d be like a kid whose mom and dad and brothers and sisters were killed if I lost this band.