feels like a spectator and not a participant 
(ROOT (S (VP (VBZ feels) (PP (IN like) (NP (NP (DT a) (NN spectator)) (CC and) (RB not) (NP (DT a) (NN participant)))))))
(ROOT (S (VP (VBZ ) (PP (IN ) (NP (NP (DT ) (NN )) (CC ) (RB ) (NP (DT ) (NN )))))))