### Human: Mental Health First AidI am a Mental Health First Aid trainer for the National Council of Behavioral health. We now offer a virtual Option. I thought I would share that and encourage anyone interested in learning more to DM me and I will send details. It’s CPR for mental health!

### Assistant: I would love to know more about this. PLease and thank you


### Human: Mental Health First AidI am a Mental Health First Aid trainer for the National Council of Behavioral health. We now offer a virtual Option. I thought I would share that and encourage anyone interested in learning more to DM me and I will send details. It’s CPR for mental health!

### Assistant: Can u pm plsss n tha you


### Human: Mental Health First AidI am a Mental Health First Aid trainer for the National Council of Behavioral health. We now offer a virtual Option. I thought I would share that and encourage anyone interested in learning more to DM me and I will send details. It’s CPR for mental health!

### Assistant: hello i sent u a message!


### Human: Mental Health First AidI am a Mental Health First Aid trainer for the National Council of Behavioral health. We now offer a virtual Option. I thought I would share that and encourage anyone interested in learning more to DM me and I will send details. It’s CPR for mental health!

### Assistant: Sounds awesome.. can you pm me more info?


### Human: Mental Health First AidI am a Mental Health First Aid trainer for the National Council of Behavioral health. We now offer a virtual Option. I thought I would share that and encourage anyone interested in learning more to DM me and I will send details. It’s CPR for mental health!

### Assistant: Is this training very basic?


### Human: Mental Health First AidI am a Mental Health First Aid trainer for the National Council of Behavioral health. We now offer a virtual Option. I thought I would share that and encourage anyone interested in learning more to DM me and I will send details. It’s CPR for mental health!

### Assistant: Just sent 🌝


### Human: Mental Health First AidI am a Mental Health First Aid trainer for the National Council of Behavioral health. We now offer a virtual Option. I thought I would share that and encourage anyone interested in learning more to DM me and I will send details. It’s CPR for mental health!

### Assistant: Just responded!


### Human: Mental Health First AidI am a Mental Health First Aid trainer for the National Council of Behavioral health. We now offer a virtual Option. I thought I would share that and encourage anyone interested in learning more to DM me and I will send details. It’s CPR for mental health!

### Assistant: Can I use it for myself?


### Human: Mental Health First AidI am a Mental Health First Aid trainer for the National Council of Behavioral health. We now offer a virtual Option. I thought I would share that and encourage anyone interested in learning more to DM me and I will send details. It’s CPR for mental health!

### Assistant: [removed]


### Human: I just realized that when i zone out i’m actually dissociating?This has been happening to me for as long as i can remember,but i never thought anything if it. I only started Humaning it when someone told me that zoning out didn’t feel like i didn’t know who i was. I hope that i can talk to someone so i can get a better understanding as to why it happens. It honestly freaked me out when i started reading about dissociating because it’s exactly the way i feel.

### Assistant: Hey, I am not an expert in this field, but I've learned a lot about dissociating and stuff via the youtubechannel DissociaDID. That channel is ran by a DID-system, so someone who's mind is actually split into multiple personalities. I'm of course not saying you have DID too, but they do speak a lot about what dissociating is and they're generally nice people to listen to. My friend dissociates too (possibly due to PTSD) and she told me she recognized a lot that DissociaDID talks about, so it might help you too?


### Human: I just realized that when i zone out i’m actually dissociating?This has been happening to me for as long as i can remember,but i never thought anything if it. I only started Humaning it when someone told me that zoning out didn’t feel like i didn’t know who i was. I hope that i can talk to someone so i can get a better understanding as to why it happens. It honestly freaked me out when i started reading about dissociating because it’s exactly the way i feel.

### Assistant: Honest Human: I have always had maladaptive daydreaming issues, and sometimes I will zone out so bad for 5-10 minutes, and when I snap out of it I will realize I don’t remember what I was looking at or realize how much time has gone by. This usually happens after being under lots of stress, I am starting to think it’s my minds way of giving it a break, because when I’m under a ton of stress all I do is get bad anxiety and focus on what is stressing me out and play out hundreds of hypothetical scenarios in my mind. Is this similar to that? Or is this just my minds way of turning off and resting for a little bit?


### Human: I just realized that when i zone out i’m actually dissociating?This has been happening to me for as long as i can remember,but i never thought anything if it. I only started Humaning it when someone told me that zoning out didn’t feel like i didn’t know who i was. I hope that i can talk to someone so i can get a better understanding as to why it happens. It honestly freaked me out when i started reading about dissociating because it’s exactly the way i feel.

### Assistant: I dissociate a lot- it started at 11- i'm 29 now. I find it really scary, just feeling detached from my body and surroundings. I've never figured out why it happens.


### Human: I just realized that when i zone out i’m actually dissociating?This has been happening to me for as long as i can remember,but i never thought anything if it. I only started Humaning it when someone told me that zoning out didn’t feel like i didn’t know who i was. I hope that i can talk to someone so i can get a better understanding as to why it happens. It honestly freaked me out when i started reading about dissociating because it’s exactly the way i feel.

### Assistant: I know what you mean. In childhood I would just stare into space and kinda zone out, but people just thought it was something I did and didn't really look too much into it.


### Human: Misdiagnosed because I was “Too Young” to have something elseWhen it comes to my mental health, it’s all over the place and I’ll never have definite Assistants for it all, but the one thing that’s been weighing on my mind is how many years I lived with a misdiagnosis.  Here’s a little more context: I’ve been having Mental Health issues as early as I can remember but I didn’t get diagnosed until I was 14 when I was hospitalized after an attempt. I was written off as Major Depressive Disorder (MDD) and me being the little informative nut that I am I did more research on it and I always felt like it never fit. I was experiencing things that people with MDD hadn’t or it was never recorded with it, and I started to look at different disorders.  I didn’t want to self-diagnose myself (because we all know how annoying that is) but I really wanted an Assistant because I was doing therapy as well as medication, but they never helped. It either only worked for a period of time, or it did nothing but make me sick. I went to both my psychiatrist and psychologist and begged for a re-evaluation. But kept getting written off because I was 16 when I was asking and doing this research.  It wasn’t until my dad lost his job and had to switch insurance companies did I get a re-evaluation. I switched from some private insurance to Kaiser, and I wanted to tell them that I already had a diagnosis, but because of some technicalities I had to get re-evaluated. So, whatever, right? I wanted this to happen.  It turns out, that not only was I misdiagnosed, I had multiple different disorders. I am now officially diagnosed as being on the bipolar spectrum, possessing Borderline Personality Traits, as well as Generalized Anxiety Disorder.  So tl;dr I was diagnosed with depression when I was 14, and I wanted to get another evaluation done because it wasn’t helping and was denied that request.  Has this happened to anyone else?

### Assistant: It hasn't happened to me personally but I know someone that was told they don't have a mental illness because they're too young which is fucking stupid cause bro, mental illness does not give two shits about your age, just like a truck doesn't give two fucks whether you're a small child or an adult, its gonna fucking hit you the same.


### Human: Misdiagnosed because I was “Too Young” to have something elseWhen it comes to my mental health, it’s all over the place and I’ll never have definite Assistants for it all, but the one thing that’s been weighing on my mind is how many years I lived with a misdiagnosis.  Here’s a little more context: I’ve been having Mental Health issues as early as I can remember but I didn’t get diagnosed until I was 14 when I was hospitalized after an attempt. I was written off as Major Depressive Disorder (MDD) and me being the little informative nut that I am I did more research on it and I always felt like it never fit. I was experiencing things that people with MDD hadn’t or it was never recorded with it, and I started to look at different disorders.  I didn’t want to self-diagnose myself (because we all know how annoying that is) but I really wanted an Assistant because I was doing therapy as well as medication, but they never helped. It either only worked for a period of time, or it did nothing but make me sick. I went to both my psychiatrist and psychologist and begged for a re-evaluation. But kept getting written off because I was 16 when I was asking and doing this research.  It wasn’t until my dad lost his job and had to switch insurance companies did I get a re-evaluation. I switched from some private insurance to Kaiser, and I wanted to tell them that I already had a diagnosis, but because of some technicalities I had to get re-evaluated. So, whatever, right? I wanted this to happen.  It turns out, that not only was I misdiagnosed, I had multiple different disorders. I am now officially diagnosed as being on the bipolar spectrum, possessing Borderline Personality Traits, as well as Generalized Anxiety Disorder.  So tl;dr I was diagnosed with depression when I was 14, and I wanted to get another evaluation done because it wasn’t helping and was denied that request.  Has this happened to anyone else?

### Assistant: I was misdiagnosed three different times until I had a therapist that told me I had borderline personality disorder. It used to be against the diagnostic criteria to diagnose people under 18 with it but because it’s too much like “teenagers being teenagers” (which is bullshit). Lots of doctors are still too afraid to diagnose it under 18.


### Human: Misdiagnosed because I was “Too Young” to have something elseWhen it comes to my mental health, it’s all over the place and I’ll never have definite Assistants for it all, but the one thing that’s been weighing on my mind is how many years I lived with a misdiagnosis.  Here’s a little more context: I’ve been having Mental Health issues as early as I can remember but I didn’t get diagnosed until I was 14 when I was hospitalized after an attempt. I was written off as Major Depressive Disorder (MDD) and me being the little informative nut that I am I did more research on it and I always felt like it never fit. I was experiencing things that people with MDD hadn’t or it was never recorded with it, and I started to look at different disorders.  I didn’t want to self-diagnose myself (because we all know how annoying that is) but I really wanted an Assistant because I was doing therapy as well as medication, but they never helped. It either only worked for a period of time, or it did nothing but make me sick. I went to both my psychiatrist and psychologist and begged for a re-evaluation. But kept getting written off because I was 16 when I was asking and doing this research.  It wasn’t until my dad lost his job and had to switch insurance companies did I get a re-evaluation. I switched from some private insurance to Kaiser, and I wanted to tell them that I already had a diagnosis, but because of some technicalities I had to get re-evaluated. So, whatever, right? I wanted this to happen.  It turns out, that not only was I misdiagnosed, I had multiple different disorders. I am now officially diagnosed as being on the bipolar spectrum, possessing Borderline Personality Traits, as well as Generalized Anxiety Disorder.  So tl;dr I was diagnosed with depression when I was 14, and I wanted to get another evaluation done because it wasn’t helping and was denied that request.  Has this happened to anyone else?

### Assistant: Misdiagnosis is unfortunatly very common.There are still many misconceptions in the field of psychology,that we now know are BS,but for some reason psychs and therapists hold onto them like they are the 10 commandments. I have had expierience with different mental health professionals and my theory is that a lot of them have a favorite disorder.If they are intreguied by the symptomatics of bipolar,then every paitent who seeks help gets forced into the bipolar disorder fold. If they do not fit all the symptoms,they ll find a way around itut, or interpret certain things as fitting a symptom.- For exsample,say you are hyper because you have ADHD, and later on in life you also develop major depression.So those are two  seperate problems; but being hyper and depressed,kind of sounds similar to having bipolar with manic and depressive episodes,so there you go,you now are bipolar.


### Human: Misdiagnosed because I was “Too Young” to have something elseWhen it comes to my mental health, it’s all over the place and I’ll never have definite Assistants for it all, but the one thing that’s been weighing on my mind is how many years I lived with a misdiagnosis.  Here’s a little more context: I’ve been having Mental Health issues as early as I can remember but I didn’t get diagnosed until I was 14 when I was hospitalized after an attempt. I was written off as Major Depressive Disorder (MDD) and me being the little informative nut that I am I did more research on it and I always felt like it never fit. I was experiencing things that people with MDD hadn’t or it was never recorded with it, and I started to look at different disorders.  I didn’t want to self-diagnose myself (because we all know how annoying that is) but I really wanted an Assistant because I was doing therapy as well as medication, but they never helped. It either only worked for a period of time, or it did nothing but make me sick. I went to both my psychiatrist and psychologist and begged for a re-evaluation. But kept getting written off because I was 16 when I was asking and doing this research.  It wasn’t until my dad lost his job and had to switch insurance companies did I get a re-evaluation. I switched from some private insurance to Kaiser, and I wanted to tell them that I already had a diagnosis, but because of some technicalities I had to get re-evaluated. So, whatever, right? I wanted this to happen.  It turns out, that not only was I misdiagnosed, I had multiple different disorders. I am now officially diagnosed as being on the bipolar spectrum, possessing Borderline Personality Traits, as well as Generalized Anxiety Disorder.  So tl;dr I was diagnosed with depression when I was 14, and I wanted to get another evaluation done because it wasn’t helping and was denied that request.  Has this happened to anyone else?

### Assistant: When I was in 8th grade I had a school counselor mention to my parents that I may have bipolar disorder. My parents shamed me for reaching out to somebody about my problems and refused to get me help. A decade later, after my mental health continued to worsen every year, I finally pushed through that deep-rooted shame my parents instilled in me and saw a psychiatrist on my own. I was diagnosed with bipolar, which was no surprise to me (I had started to have full blown manic episodes with psychosis and deep depressions with suicidal thoughts and ideation).


### Human: Misdiagnosed because I was “Too Young” to have something elseWhen it comes to my mental health, it’s all over the place and I’ll never have definite Assistants for it all, but the one thing that’s been weighing on my mind is how many years I lived with a misdiagnosis.  Here’s a little more context: I’ve been having Mental Health issues as early as I can remember but I didn’t get diagnosed until I was 14 when I was hospitalized after an attempt. I was written off as Major Depressive Disorder (MDD) and me being the little informative nut that I am I did more research on it and I always felt like it never fit. I was experiencing things that people with MDD hadn’t or it was never recorded with it, and I started to look at different disorders.  I didn’t want to self-diagnose myself (because we all know how annoying that is) but I really wanted an Assistant because I was doing therapy as well as medication, but they never helped. It either only worked for a period of time, or it did nothing but make me sick. I went to both my psychiatrist and psychologist and begged for a re-evaluation. But kept getting written off because I was 16 when I was asking and doing this research.  It wasn’t until my dad lost his job and had to switch insurance companies did I get a re-evaluation. I switched from some private insurance to Kaiser, and I wanted to tell them that I already had a diagnosis, but because of some technicalities I had to get re-evaluated. So, whatever, right? I wanted this to happen.  It turns out, that not only was I misdiagnosed, I had multiple different disorders. I am now officially diagnosed as being on the bipolar spectrum, possessing Borderline Personality Traits, as well as Generalized Anxiety Disorder.  So tl;dr I was diagnosed with depression when I was 14, and I wanted to get another evaluation done because it wasn’t helping and was denied that request.  Has this happened to anyone else?

### Assistant: I'm pretty sure I've got borderline personality, I've felt that for quite a long time because there's something major stopping me forming appropriate relationships with others and my mood is extremely unstable. My doctor has been telling me for years that she thinks I'm bipolar (I don't think so, but it's along similar lines and shows someone else agrees that something isn't right). She's referred me countless times to see a psychiatrist or someone who can diagnose me and ideally put me on medication - I've done DBT, CBT, graded exposure therapy... I've literally done everything over the last few years within camhs and the community mental health team.


### Human: TW: Sexual abuse, neglect (but not focussed on these, it's actually a feel-good)It's 1am here in my part of upside-down land, and I just checked on my son, who is 18 months old.  He had uncovered himself in his sleep so I tucked him in, told him I love him, and kissed him on the forehead.  I was badly abused as a kid. Night is bad because it reminds me of creeping hands and shivering in the cold. The demons come out to play at night, and I'm most prone to flashbacks and switches at night.  But not tonight. Tonight I tucked my little boy in and kept him safe and warm, and he's sleeping soundly because that's all he knows.  Who knew a little boy could be the antidote just by existing? 😁

### Assistant: Bless you, children are therapy aren't they?! all he knows is love, you should be proud of yourself . I have 3 little girls, my youngest is 17 months. I hope nights get easier for you, being happy in the knowledge you cannot be hurt anymore and you are keeping your child safe and protected. Glad it was a good night x


### Human: TW: Sexual abuse, neglect (but not focussed on these, it's actually a feel-good)It's 1am here in my part of upside-down land, and I just checked on my son, who is 18 months old.  He had uncovered himself in his sleep so I tucked him in, told him I love him, and kissed him on the forehead.  I was badly abused as a kid. Night is bad because it reminds me of creeping hands and shivering in the cold. The demons come out to play at night, and I'm most prone to flashbacks and switches at night.  But not tonight. Tonight I tucked my little boy in and kept him safe and warm, and he's sleeping soundly because that's all he knows.  Who knew a little boy could be the antidote just by existing? 😁

### Assistant: I needed this bit of wholesome in life. I feel the same way with my dogs who I treat like my children. I'll have a very bad week and be very close to ending it all but all it takes to stop me is when my dog lays his head on my hand and sleeps. Thank you for this post, it helps a lot.


### Human: TW: Sexual abuse, neglect (but not focussed on these, it's actually a feel-good)It's 1am here in my part of upside-down land, and I just checked on my son, who is 18 months old.  He had uncovered himself in his sleep so I tucked him in, told him I love him, and kissed him on the forehead.  I was badly abused as a kid. Night is bad because it reminds me of creeping hands and shivering in the cold. The demons come out to play at night, and I'm most prone to flashbacks and switches at night.  But not tonight. Tonight I tucked my little boy in and kept him safe and warm, and he's sleeping soundly because that's all he knows.  Who knew a little boy could be the antidote just by existing? 😁

### Assistant: You deserve  a  good night in spite of your own problems and issues I see you creeping around this sub right about the same time I'm up and you are unfailingly offering comfort and love so I hope your night was good and I see you soon!🌼


### Human: I want it to endIm tired of everything im tired of my sensitive mind i dont wanna be in this world anymore

### Assistant: Life is definitely hard. I'm in a similar place myself, but I know that if I do end it, I will never have a chance to get better. I know it will hurt those I love the most and leave my pets alone. It's really hard to want to keep going when it feels like the weight of the world is on your shoulders from all the pain you've experienced, so try a few little things. Try to make or buy your favorite food and invite a person you love and trust to eat with you and do your favorite hobby together. Life is a collection of little moments and it's so easy to only remember the painful ones, but try to remember the little joys from each day. Notice every time you smile, even if it's barely there. Remember what made you smile and seek more of that. There's also a good chance there's a reason you feel this way and that getting help would be a good idea. Therapy, guided journaling, mental health workbooks, medication, diet change, exercise, etc. are possibilities. The main thing that has stopped me from unaliving myself is this one phrase I heard somewhere, Unaliving yourself is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. Meaning that whatever you're dealing with right now has a solution, it may not be easy, but it will lead you to a life you can be proud of, but you'll never have the chance to find it if you end it now. Life will always have pain, but we can balance the scales or even tip them in our favor by healing and finding the people/places/things that bring us the most joy, fulfillment, and meaning. I'm still trying to find that, but I feel a little better having chosen to at least go on for one more day.


### Human: I want it to endIm tired of everything im tired of my sensitive mind i dont wanna be in this world anymore

### Assistant: Dude don't think too much about it, just go buy some anime figures -


### Human: I want it to endIm tired of everything im tired of my sensitive mind i dont wanna be in this world anymore

### Assistant: hey i'm here for you


### Human: I want it to endIm tired of everything im tired of my sensitive mind i dont wanna be in this world anymore

### Assistant: What kind of things make you sensitive? What kind of triggers do you have?


### Human: I want it to endIm tired of everything im tired of my sensitive mind i dont wanna be in this world anymore

### Assistant: Keep an eye on what you allow yourself to think about. Anytime its something unhelpful, find something productive to think about; like what hobby you should try next, or an idea for your current hobby


### Human: I want it to endIm tired of everything im tired of my sensitive mind i dont wanna be in this world anymore

### Assistant: I know how society makes it seem like sensitivity can be a bad thing, but you're being yourself. You don't have to be tough all the time.


### Human: I want it to endIm tired of everything im tired of my sensitive mind i dont wanna be in this world anymore

### Assistant: Why?


### Human: I want it to endIm tired of everything im tired of my sensitive mind i dont wanna be in this world anymore

### Assistant: Channel your sensitive to more art form.  U are just very special.


### Human: For those who are mentally unstable and just worn out or broken/depressed, but not sure you’re even eligible to self diagnose such things because you have no clue whatsoever AND are not seeing a shrink because you can’t afford one; how are you handling it?

### Assistant: Badly. I'm angry all the time, broke, and my insurance doesn't cover a single therapist within 100 miles of me. I feel like I'm not going to be able to make it much longer, but I have to for my almost 2 year old daughter. I want to give up more than anything though.


### Human: For those who are mentally unstable and just worn out or broken/depressed, but not sure you’re even eligible to self diagnose such things because you have no clue whatsoever AND are not seeing a shrink because you can’t afford one; how are you handling it?

### Assistant: Been strongly suspecting I'm Autistic since 2016, but my DR doesn't believe women can be autistic and I've been looking up coping mechanisms, strategies, and just all over help on the internet, and it's been working well


### Human: For those who are mentally unstable and just worn out or broken/depressed, but not sure you’re even eligible to self diagnose such things because you have no clue whatsoever AND are not seeing a shrink because you can’t afford one; how are you handling it?

### Assistant: Well I like to read articles about how to help myself with my issues. The internet is FULL of articles about how to help your depression. Just be careful, bc there's some crazy stuff out there 😅


### Human: For those who are mentally unstable and just worn out or broken/depressed, but not sure you’re even eligible to self diagnose such things because you have no clue whatsoever AND are not seeing a shrink because you can’t afford one; how are you handling it?

### Assistant: There is a tonne of online help. Depending where you are located. If you’re in Australia, there’s less line you can call someone 24 seven , both the Blackdog Institute and beyond blue have fantastic resources, support groups available for free. You don’t always have to get help from a psychologist there a lot of other options out there. Good luck everyone xxxxxx


### Human: For those who are mentally unstable and just worn out or broken/depressed, but not sure you’re even eligible to self diagnose such things because you have no clue whatsoever AND are not seeing a shrink because you can’t afford one; how are you handling it?

### Assistant: I noped out of my career to take a break for who knows how long, and got a full time job which pays less but is far better for my health in the long run. Already found out that karma has hit 2 bullies at my old job big time, which is great. Still a long way to go.


### Human: For those who are mentally unstable and just worn out or broken/depressed, but not sure you’re even eligible to self diagnose such things because you have no clue whatsoever AND are not seeing a shrink because you can’t afford one; how are you handling it?

### Assistant: People can generally self-diagnose anxiety and depression. I suggest looking into CBT workbooks that you can work on at home.


### Human: For those who are mentally unstable and just worn out or broken/depressed, but not sure you’re even eligible to self diagnose such things because you have no clue whatsoever AND are not seeing a shrink because you can’t afford one; how are you handling it?

### Assistant: Pretty ok


### Human: For those who are mentally unstable and just worn out or broken/depressed, but not sure you’re even eligible to self diagnose such things because you have no clue whatsoever AND are not seeing a shrink because you can’t afford one; how are you handling it?

### Assistant: My wife helps me a lot. Also drugs helps some


### Human: For those who are mentally unstable and just worn out or broken/depressed, but not sure you’re even eligible to self diagnose such things because you have no clue whatsoever AND are not seeing a shrink because you can’t afford one; how are you handling it?

### Assistant: badly I've been suicidal since years now


### Human: I’m slowly giving upI’m only 19, however, it’s been becoming harder to live, or at least to live with myself as a person. I’ve been suffering with depression and anxiety for quite some time now, and my family only sees me as being “dramatic” or a “loser.” It’s hard for me to take care of myself hygiene wise, school wise, food wise, etc. I’ve cut friends and family out from my life and basically just hide away like a hermit. And, it sucks because I do try. I try to better myself, at least taking baby steps to do things that I used to love like drawing, dancing, and singing, etc. and trying to at least talk to my old friends and new college mates I’ve met this past year. But every single time I think I’m getting better, I always somehow crawl back into this rabbit hole, where I just sit in my room all day. I’ve pushed all of my friends away, and even new friends I meet in fear that I might bother them somehow. The last thing I want is to bother anyone around me, but I feel like that’s all I do. Hearing my family constantly tell me that I’m not trying or that I’m just a “loser” kills me, they don’t understand that I am trying my best. I honestly don’t have anyone to talk about this to in my life, so Im typing on here. Anyway, recently, especially this week, I really can’t think of any reason to why im even living at this point, it’s like I try… but I don’t feel like I’m doing anything beneficial for myself, I’m just tired. I don’t want to live anymore

### Assistant: This is typical depression behavior, don’t be too hard on yourself despite what others have to say to you. Easier said than done, I know. You can push through this. I hope you decide to reach out for help with a counselor or therapist. Learn some new coping skills. I’d suggest blowing bubbles (kinda like deep breathing), art!! (Since you love art), force yourself up and go for a walk! OR put on your favorite music, blast it REALLY loud and have a solo dance party!! My dms are always open! I may not always be on here, but I’ll do my best!


### Human: I’m slowly giving upI’m only 19, however, it’s been becoming harder to live, or at least to live with myself as a person. I’ve been suffering with depression and anxiety for quite some time now, and my family only sees me as being “dramatic” or a “loser.” It’s hard for me to take care of myself hygiene wise, school wise, food wise, etc. I’ve cut friends and family out from my life and basically just hide away like a hermit. And, it sucks because I do try. I try to better myself, at least taking baby steps to do things that I used to love like drawing, dancing, and singing, etc. and trying to at least talk to my old friends and new college mates I’ve met this past year. But every single time I think I’m getting better, I always somehow crawl back into this rabbit hole, where I just sit in my room all day. I’ve pushed all of my friends away, and even new friends I meet in fear that I might bother them somehow. The last thing I want is to bother anyone around me, but I feel like that’s all I do. Hearing my family constantly tell me that I’m not trying or that I’m just a “loser” kills me, they don’t understand that I am trying my best. I honestly don’t have anyone to talk about this to in my life, so Im typing on here. Anyway, recently, especially this week, I really can’t think of any reason to why im even living at this point, it’s like I try… but I don’t feel like I’m doing anything beneficial for myself, I’m just tired. I don’t want to live anymore

### Assistant: There are so many people here willing to help and that go through what you are currently going through.


### Human: I’m slowly giving upI’m only 19, however, it’s been becoming harder to live, or at least to live with myself as a person. I’ve been suffering with depression and anxiety for quite some time now, and my family only sees me as being “dramatic” or a “loser.” It’s hard for me to take care of myself hygiene wise, school wise, food wise, etc. I’ve cut friends and family out from my life and basically just hide away like a hermit. And, it sucks because I do try. I try to better myself, at least taking baby steps to do things that I used to love like drawing, dancing, and singing, etc. and trying to at least talk to my old friends and new college mates I’ve met this past year. But every single time I think I’m getting better, I always somehow crawl back into this rabbit hole, where I just sit in my room all day. I’ve pushed all of my friends away, and even new friends I meet in fear that I might bother them somehow. The last thing I want is to bother anyone around me, but I feel like that’s all I do. Hearing my family constantly tell me that I’m not trying or that I’m just a “loser” kills me, they don’t understand that I am trying my best. I honestly don’t have anyone to talk about this to in my life, so Im typing on here. Anyway, recently, especially this week, I really can’t think of any reason to why im even living at this point, it’s like I try… but I don’t feel like I’m doing anything beneficial for myself, I’m just tired. I don’t want to live anymore

### Assistant: I relate very much to what you wrote and I’m so sorry your family isn’t giving you the support you need. For me therapy is helping a lot but sometimes it just isn’t enough to get me out of bed and that’s Oke, it’s also important to be nice for yourself and take time to think. At the very least this stranger on the internet is proud of you for trying, it might feel like it isn’t enough what your doing to get better but you’ll get there. You’re stronger than you think.


### Human: I’m slowly giving upI’m only 19, however, it’s been becoming harder to live, or at least to live with myself as a person. I’ve been suffering with depression and anxiety for quite some time now, and my family only sees me as being “dramatic” or a “loser.” It’s hard for me to take care of myself hygiene wise, school wise, food wise, etc. I’ve cut friends and family out from my life and basically just hide away like a hermit. And, it sucks because I do try. I try to better myself, at least taking baby steps to do things that I used to love like drawing, dancing, and singing, etc. and trying to at least talk to my old friends and new college mates I’ve met this past year. But every single time I think I’m getting better, I always somehow crawl back into this rabbit hole, where I just sit in my room all day. I’ve pushed all of my friends away, and even new friends I meet in fear that I might bother them somehow. The last thing I want is to bother anyone around me, but I feel like that’s all I do. Hearing my family constantly tell me that I’m not trying or that I’m just a “loser” kills me, they don’t understand that I am trying my best. I honestly don’t have anyone to talk about this to in my life, so Im typing on here. Anyway, recently, especially this week, I really can’t think of any reason to why im even living at this point, it’s like I try… but I don’t feel like I’m doing anything beneficial for myself, I’m just tired. I don’t want to live anymore

### Assistant: You're not alone. I understand how you feel. I feel that way sometimes as well. Sometimes it's hard. Thats how life is supposed to be. It's supposed to test your limits. But you giving up is like losing the battle. If you can persevere through the challenges in front of you, and conquer them, it will be so worth it. You'll feel so much better knowing that you won that battle. And no one likes losing, do they? So look at life as a battle. Win that battle. Every little problem your presented with is meant to strengthen your resolve. You beat one problem, move on to the next. Keep moving, until you've conquered them all.


### Human: I’m slowly giving upI’m only 19, however, it’s been becoming harder to live, or at least to live with myself as a person. I’ve been suffering with depression and anxiety for quite some time now, and my family only sees me as being “dramatic” or a “loser.” It’s hard for me to take care of myself hygiene wise, school wise, food wise, etc. I’ve cut friends and family out from my life and basically just hide away like a hermit. And, it sucks because I do try. I try to better myself, at least taking baby steps to do things that I used to love like drawing, dancing, and singing, etc. and trying to at least talk to my old friends and new college mates I’ve met this past year. But every single time I think I’m getting better, I always somehow crawl back into this rabbit hole, where I just sit in my room all day. I’ve pushed all of my friends away, and even new friends I meet in fear that I might bother them somehow. The last thing I want is to bother anyone around me, but I feel like that’s all I do. Hearing my family constantly tell me that I’m not trying or that I’m just a “loser” kills me, they don’t understand that I am trying my best. I honestly don’t have anyone to talk about this to in my life, so Im typing on here. Anyway, recently, especially this week, I really can’t think of any reason to why im even living at this point, it’s like I try… but I don’t feel like I’m doing anything beneficial for myself, I’m just tired. I don’t want to live anymore

### Assistant: Like it or not you are not alone.


### Human: I’m slowly giving upI’m only 19, however, it’s been becoming harder to live, or at least to live with myself as a person. I’ve been suffering with depression and anxiety for quite some time now, and my family only sees me as being “dramatic” or a “loser.” It’s hard for me to take care of myself hygiene wise, school wise, food wise, etc. I’ve cut friends and family out from my life and basically just hide away like a hermit. And, it sucks because I do try. I try to better myself, at least taking baby steps to do things that I used to love like drawing, dancing, and singing, etc. and trying to at least talk to my old friends and new college mates I’ve met this past year. But every single time I think I’m getting better, I always somehow crawl back into this rabbit hole, where I just sit in my room all day. I’ve pushed all of my friends away, and even new friends I meet in fear that I might bother them somehow. The last thing I want is to bother anyone around me, but I feel like that’s all I do. Hearing my family constantly tell me that I’m not trying or that I’m just a “loser” kills me, they don’t understand that I am trying my best. I honestly don’t have anyone to talk about this to in my life, so Im typing on here. Anyway, recently, especially this week, I really can’t think of any reason to why im even living at this point, it’s like I try… but I don’t feel like I’m doing anything beneficial for myself, I’m just tired. I don’t want to live anymore

### Assistant: I think you’ve worked so incredibly hard to appease others that’s you’ve lost sight of what can truly make you happy. It’s so discouraging to hear family contradict all of your efforts and watching them twist it into nothingness, like they’re invalidating your feelings that you expressed in confidence (confide/confidential I wasn’t referring to a strong belief, kind of). I strongly suggest seeking out help via therapy/doctor/etc. or finding someone that you trust to talk with.


### Human: I’m slowly giving upI’m only 19, however, it’s been becoming harder to live, or at least to live with myself as a person. I’ve been suffering with depression and anxiety for quite some time now, and my family only sees me as being “dramatic” or a “loser.” It’s hard for me to take care of myself hygiene wise, school wise, food wise, etc. I’ve cut friends and family out from my life and basically just hide away like a hermit. And, it sucks because I do try. I try to better myself, at least taking baby steps to do things that I used to love like drawing, dancing, and singing, etc. and trying to at least talk to my old friends and new college mates I’ve met this past year. But every single time I think I’m getting better, I always somehow crawl back into this rabbit hole, where I just sit in my room all day. I’ve pushed all of my friends away, and even new friends I meet in fear that I might bother them somehow. The last thing I want is to bother anyone around me, but I feel like that’s all I do. Hearing my family constantly tell me that I’m not trying or that I’m just a “loser” kills me, they don’t understand that I am trying my best. I honestly don’t have anyone to talk about this to in my life, so Im typing on here. Anyway, recently, especially this week, I really can’t think of any reason to why im even living at this point, it’s like I try… but I don’t feel like I’m doing anything beneficial for myself, I’m just tired. I don’t want to live anymore

### Assistant: Im here for u if u want


### Human: I’m slowly giving upI’m only 19, however, it’s been becoming harder to live, or at least to live with myself as a person. I’ve been suffering with depression and anxiety for quite some time now, and my family only sees me as being “dramatic” or a “loser.” It’s hard for me to take care of myself hygiene wise, school wise, food wise, etc. I’ve cut friends and family out from my life and basically just hide away like a hermit. And, it sucks because I do try. I try to better myself, at least taking baby steps to do things that I used to love like drawing, dancing, and singing, etc. and trying to at least talk to my old friends and new college mates I’ve met this past year. But every single time I think I’m getting better, I always somehow crawl back into this rabbit hole, where I just sit in my room all day. I’ve pushed all of my friends away, and even new friends I meet in fear that I might bother them somehow. The last thing I want is to bother anyone around me, but I feel like that’s all I do. Hearing my family constantly tell me that I’m not trying or that I’m just a “loser” kills me, they don’t understand that I am trying my best. I honestly don’t have anyone to talk about this to in my life, so Im typing on here. Anyway, recently, especially this week, I really can’t think of any reason to why im even living at this point, it’s like I try… but I don’t feel like I’m doing anything beneficial for myself, I’m just tired. I don’t want to live anymore

### Assistant: I feel you . For me even getting out bed is getting hard and falling asleep is harder. Staying in my room is depressive and going out is too overwhelming. Family thinks I'm just a lazy brat. No one to talk because i pushed everyone away. Reading your post i felt it connected legit have tears right . It's like nothing excites me. There is nothing to look forward. I used to be a very ambitious person now all i have is anxiety and depression. How do I cope i have no idea


### Human: I’m slowly giving upI’m only 19, however, it’s been becoming harder to live, or at least to live with myself as a person. I’ve been suffering with depression and anxiety for quite some time now, and my family only sees me as being “dramatic” or a “loser.” It’s hard for me to take care of myself hygiene wise, school wise, food wise, etc. I’ve cut friends and family out from my life and basically just hide away like a hermit. And, it sucks because I do try. I try to better myself, at least taking baby steps to do things that I used to love like drawing, dancing, and singing, etc. and trying to at least talk to my old friends and new college mates I’ve met this past year. But every single time I think I’m getting better, I always somehow crawl back into this rabbit hole, where I just sit in my room all day. I’ve pushed all of my friends away, and even new friends I meet in fear that I might bother them somehow. The last thing I want is to bother anyone around me, but I feel like that’s all I do. Hearing my family constantly tell me that I’m not trying or that I’m just a “loser” kills me, they don’t understand that I am trying my best. I honestly don’t have anyone to talk about this to in my life, so Im typing on here. Anyway, recently, especially this week, I really can’t think of any reason to why im even living at this point, it’s like I try… but I don’t feel like I’m doing anything beneficial for myself, I’m just tired. I don’t want to live anymore

### Assistant: Listen man we all go through hard times. Join a gym pug everything into it have goals never give up! Life’s important don’t let anything or anyone hold you back!


### Human: I have a strong feeling to kill myself very soon. Don't know what to do anymore(F17) I'm depressed, I have PTSD and anxiety disorder. I've been isolating myself for quite a while now. I can't talk about it with my family too, because they'd beat me up saying I'm not grateful to be alive. This year I was supposed to go into college but my parents choose to not care about me and my further education. They see mental health as something people made up themselves. It's really frustrating. I'm from Indonesia growing up dirt poor, while having 5 older siblings, 4 of em are stepsister and stepbrothers. It's just constant mental abuse each day everyday. I got ptsd from the moment I was sexually assaulted when I was still in kindergarten, the harassment continues till I'm 14 y'o

### Assistant: I'm so sorry that happened to you ❤ I hope your soul finds peace ❤ just hang in there things have to get better eventually


### Human: I have a strong feeling to kill myself very soon. Don't know what to do anymore(F17) I'm depressed, I have PTSD and anxiety disorder. I've been isolating myself for quite a while now. I can't talk about it with my family too, because they'd beat me up saying I'm not grateful to be alive. This year I was supposed to go into college but my parents choose to not care about me and my further education. They see mental health as something people made up themselves. It's really frustrating. I'm from Indonesia growing up dirt poor, while having 5 older siblings, 4 of em are stepsister and stepbrothers. It's just constant mental abuse each day everyday. I got ptsd from the moment I was sexually assaulted when I was still in kindergarten, the harassment continues till I'm 14 y'o

### Assistant: You are not alone in how you are feeling. It's hard being a teenager, even without the trauma of assault and abuse and neglect. The important thing to remember is that the problems you are facing are temporary. Life does get easier. There is definitely a lot of stress when you first become an adult and are responsible for yourself, but there is also a lot of potential and many beautiful possibilities of things you can do with your life. You owe it to yourself to stick around long enough to explore some of those possibilities. It doesn't make sense to decide to die before you've had a chance to actually live and experience things that might make you happy. Think of the girl you were in kindergarten, before the trauma, and ask yourself what she would want out of her life. What were her dreams and aspirations? If you feel like you have nothing in life, then you also have nothing to lose by trying something new. To beat depression, you have to break the routines and situations that have trapped you there. You have to find friends and meaningful activities to pursue. I don't know how much freedom you have to accomplish these things in your country and at your age, but I know it is worth trying. Don't tell yourself it's hopeless, I can never be happy, because there is no way to know what can happen until you try it.


### Human: I have a strong feeling to kill myself very soon. Don't know what to do anymore(F17) I'm depressed, I have PTSD and anxiety disorder. I've been isolating myself for quite a while now. I can't talk about it with my family too, because they'd beat me up saying I'm not grateful to be alive. This year I was supposed to go into college but my parents choose to not care about me and my further education. They see mental health as something people made up themselves. It's really frustrating. I'm from Indonesia growing up dirt poor, while having 5 older siblings, 4 of em are stepsister and stepbrothers. It's just constant mental abuse each day everyday. I got ptsd from the moment I was sexually assaulted when I was still in kindergarten, the harassment continues till I'm 14 y'o

### Assistant: I'm sorry you're going through that. With time (and effort - soo much effort) it gets a lot better


### Human: I have a strong feeling to kill myself very soon. Don't know what to do anymore(F17) I'm depressed, I have PTSD and anxiety disorder. I've been isolating myself for quite a while now. I can't talk about it with my family too, because they'd beat me up saying I'm not grateful to be alive. This year I was supposed to go into college but my parents choose to not care about me and my further education. They see mental health as something people made up themselves. It's really frustrating. I'm from Indonesia growing up dirt poor, while having 5 older siblings, 4 of em are stepsister and stepbrothers. It's just constant mental abuse each day everyday. I got ptsd from the moment I was sexually assaulted when I was still in kindergarten, the harassment continues till I'm 14 y'o

### Assistant: You need to see a therapist, I say that with so much compassion. Herr is a mental health resource  in your area. Please contact them and talk with them about your situation.  You are loved.


### Human: I have a strong feeling to kill myself very soon. Don't know what to do anymore(F17) I'm depressed, I have PTSD and anxiety disorder. I've been isolating myself for quite a while now. I can't talk about it with my family too, because they'd beat me up saying I'm not grateful to be alive. This year I was supposed to go into college but my parents choose to not care about me and my further education. They see mental health as something people made up themselves. It's really frustrating. I'm from Indonesia growing up dirt poor, while having 5 older siblings, 4 of em are stepsister and stepbrothers. It's just constant mental abuse each day everyday. I got ptsd from the moment I was sexually assaulted when I was still in kindergarten, the harassment continues till I'm 14 y'o

### Assistant: Heyyy i really hope you're okay , and I'm sorry you have to go thru shit like this , but if you ever want to talk or vent out I'm here for you , it'll be okay and things will get better and let me tell you , you are not a whore or anything they say , i love you and i know you can find your way back , will always pray for you


### Human: Im actively ruining my life, and most likely my future. Please help me.Im suffering from depression and anxiety right now. Im forgetting to do normal stuff like eat, shower, and brush my teeth. Im spending entire days in my room having panic attacks. I cant do anything anymore since im just not motivated and I give up immediately. Im self isolating myself. Nothing is fun anymore, and I feel like I want to die all the time. Please help me get my life back on track. At this point its either that or death.

### Assistant: I am going through the same situation. Humans should have a restart button


### Human: Im actively ruining my life, and most likely my future. Please help me.Im suffering from depression and anxiety right now. Im forgetting to do normal stuff like eat, shower, and brush my teeth. Im spending entire days in my room having panic attacks. I cant do anything anymore since im just not motivated and I give up immediately. Im self isolating myself. Nothing is fun anymore, and I feel like I want to die all the time. Please help me get my life back on track. At this point its either that or death.

### Assistant: the self isolation is due to your anxiety lack of motivation is your depression. The first step to change your life for the better is mindset reset. changing the way you think from negative to positive is a start and to start small and make little changes at a time. First thing to do is use a planner or a journal notebook or I can send you samples that I use for my clients is make a list of what you need to do each day and what you want to do. I would also look into getting a life coach they can help you take steps to get you out of your funk and guide you to make changes for the positive. I specialize in Mindset reset and am a mental health life coach who specialize in mental health disorders and transitions in life.


### Human: Im actively ruining my life, and most likely my future. Please help me.Im suffering from depression and anxiety right now. Im forgetting to do normal stuff like eat, shower, and brush my teeth. Im spending entire days in my room having panic attacks. I cant do anything anymore since im just not motivated and I give up immediately. Im self isolating myself. Nothing is fun anymore, and I feel like I want to die all the time. Please help me get my life back on track. At this point its either that or death.

### Assistant: Are you in therapy? Do you have anyone in your life who can force you or encourage you to do things?


### Human: Im actively ruining my life, and most likely my future. Please help me.Im suffering from depression and anxiety right now. Im forgetting to do normal stuff like eat, shower, and brush my teeth. Im spending entire days in my room having panic attacks. I cant do anything anymore since im just not motivated and I give up immediately. Im self isolating myself. Nothing is fun anymore, and I feel like I want to die all the time. Please help me get my life back on track. At this point its either that or death.

### Assistant: YOU ARE A STRONG PERSON, DON'T LET YOURSELF DOWN. YOUR MIND IS TRICKING YOU INTO A BETA MALE SENSE. OVERCOME IT AND SAVE YOURSELF FROM DOING SOMETHING YOU'RE GOING TO REGRET. I PROMISE YOU, THOSE THOUGHTS ARE FROM THE DARKNESS, AND THE DARKNESS WILL CONSUME YOU IF YOU LET IT. YOU ARE A STRONG HUMAN AND YOU ARE VERY STRONG, AS SOMEONE WHO HAS GONE THROUGH THE SAME THING, YOU WILL WASTE TIME THINKING ABOUT NEGATIVES INSTEAD OF THE POSITIVES AND ALL OF THAT BECAUSE THE WAY OF THE DARK SIDE OF  THE MIND IS SO POWERFUL, IT'S GOING TO TURN YOU NOWHERE IF YOU LET IT. IN FACT, YOU KNOW DEATH HIMSELF IS GOING THROUGH THE EXACT SAME THING. HE DOES THE SAME THING  OVER AND OVER AGAIN AND GUIDES HUMAN SOULS TO THE DOOR TO THE AFTERLIFE, BUT HE HASN'T GIVEN HIMSELF TO DEPRESSION AS HIS JOB IS DEPRESSING AND HE'S STILL A CHAD INDIVIDUAL WHO HASN'T GIVEN UP.


### Human: Im actively ruining my life, and most likely my future. Please help me.Im suffering from depression and anxiety right now. Im forgetting to do normal stuff like eat, shower, and brush my teeth. Im spending entire days in my room having panic attacks. I cant do anything anymore since im just not motivated and I give up immediately. Im self isolating myself. Nothing is fun anymore, and I feel like I want to die all the time. Please help me get my life back on track. At this point its either that or death.

### Assistant: We do not have a traditional reset button that can we can reset ourselves back to factory reset and wipe the slate clean. we do have the option to reset our minds or change how we think. There are many different names for this mindset reset, mind hacking, rewiring your mind. It all means the same thing what it is changing the way you think. Our brains are hardwired to protect ourselves from harm, embarrassment, and to keep us alive. We are predisposed from genetics to do certain things. What makes us different from each other is our conscious thought process. These are  the things we think about voluntary what we like what we do not like. When we avoid things we do not like or want that is subconscious thinking. What I do that is a little different from many other coaches is I cut the process down I use hypnotherapy which is just a fancy way that we go into your subconscious mind to figure out your triggers (the reason for why you do what you do or think what you do) and what your hearts desires are (what you want or dream of being) and through mediation and scripts that we put together and I you record and play back you hear your own voice it basically creates a different inner voice that tells you how to think differently. then through coaching you learn how to be more aware of your conscious thoughts and make them more active and you rely less on your subconscious thoughts.


### Human: Im actively ruining my life, and most likely my future. Please help me.Im suffering from depression and anxiety right now. Im forgetting to do normal stuff like eat, shower, and brush my teeth. Im spending entire days in my room having panic attacks. I cant do anything anymore since im just not motivated and I give up immediately. Im self isolating myself. Nothing is fun anymore, and I feel like I want to die all the time. Please help me get my life back on track. At this point its either that or death.

### Assistant: Do you know: nowmattersnow.com? It has a lot of really insightful content, DBT based. You don't need to solve everything at once.


### Human: Im actively ruining my life, and most likely my future. Please help me.Im suffering from depression and anxiety right now. Im forgetting to do normal stuff like eat, shower, and brush my teeth. Im spending entire days in my room having panic attacks. I cant do anything anymore since im just not motivated and I give up immediately. Im self isolating myself. Nothing is fun anymore, and I feel like I want to die all the time. Please help me get my life back on track. At this point its either that or death.

### Assistant: Its all brain chemical balance my friend, during the attack, focus on your breathing, how the air gets in and out of your lungs, try the 4-7-8 breathing: inhale for 4 seconds, retain the air for 7 seconds, exhale for 8 seconds, repeat 5-10 times if you need more, do some more.If you still need some more you can try with the 3x3, name 3 things you can see, 3 things you can smell and 3 things you can hear. Then try some herbs my friend, tea or mother tinctures, a mix of valerian, rosemary, lavanda, chamomille, rose, will relax you, and seek some professional help, if you cannot afford a professional therapist, at least talk to a friend or to a relative


### Human: Im actively ruining my life, and most likely my future. Please help me.Im suffering from depression and anxiety right now. Im forgetting to do normal stuff like eat, shower, and brush my teeth. Im spending entire days in my room having panic attacks. I cant do anything anymore since im just not motivated and I give up immediately. Im self isolating myself. Nothing is fun anymore, and I feel like I want to die all the time. Please help me get my life back on track. At this point its either that or death.

### Assistant: Force yourself to do stuff that can make you feel better, cry when and where you want to, even if you might think that people are getting bothered by you, because noone can come to see if you are okay if they can't see you aren't


### Human: Im actively ruining my life, and most likely my future. Please help me.Im suffering from depression and anxiety right now. Im forgetting to do normal stuff like eat, shower, and brush my teeth. Im spending entire days in my room having panic attacks. I cant do anything anymore since im just not motivated and I give up immediately. Im self isolating myself. Nothing is fun anymore, and I feel like I want to die all the time. Please help me get my life back on track. At this point its either that or death.

### Assistant: i’m so sorry. i wish there was a way that someone could magically fix it all but there isn’t. it takes so much time but it does get better. i hope you find someone to talk to and the support you need. you will get there and i’m rooting for you.


### Human: I just got denied life insurance...I'm a 29 year old married female who owns two businesses and applied for life insurance through my local Edward Jones agent to cover my funeral expenses if I should pass before my husband.  My Edward Jones agent just notified me that the ONLY reason I was denied was because I am MEDICATED for anxiety and depression. Never had any suicidal thoughts or episodes.  I run two businesses, of course I have anxiety.  I'm flabbergasted by the denial and just want to know how anyone living in modern American can get approved for life insurance if an otherwise healthy person can't be MEDICATED for anxiety and/or depression!

### Assistant: I want to suggest you post this in r/legaladvice because this doesn't sound legal. It also sounds counter productive. You're on that medication so you DON'T off yourself, and you're being penalized for it? That makes so very little sense.


### Human: I just got denied life insurance...I'm a 29 year old married female who owns two businesses and applied for life insurance through my local Edward Jones agent to cover my funeral expenses if I should pass before my husband.  My Edward Jones agent just notified me that the ONLY reason I was denied was because I am MEDICATED for anxiety and depression. Never had any suicidal thoughts or episodes.  I run two businesses, of course I have anxiety.  I'm flabbergasted by the denial and just want to know how anyone living in modern American can get approved for life insurance if an otherwise healthy person can't be MEDICATED for anxiety and/or depression!

### Assistant: Omg, wtf?! That is so absurd.


### Human: I just got denied life insurance...I'm a 29 year old married female who owns two businesses and applied for life insurance through my local Edward Jones agent to cover my funeral expenses if I should pass before my husband.  My Edward Jones agent just notified me that the ONLY reason I was denied was because I am MEDICATED for anxiety and depression. Never had any suicidal thoughts or episodes.  I run two businesses, of course I have anxiety.  I'm flabbergasted by the denial and just want to know how anyone living in modern American can get approved for life insurance if an otherwise healthy person can't be MEDICATED for anxiety and/or depression!

### Assistant: Sounds like discrimination and grounds for law suit


### Human: I just got denied life insurance...I'm a 29 year old married female who owns two businesses and applied for life insurance through my local Edward Jones agent to cover my funeral expenses if I should pass before my husband.  My Edward Jones agent just notified me that the ONLY reason I was denied was because I am MEDICATED for anxiety and depression. Never had any suicidal thoughts or episodes.  I run two businesses, of course I have anxiety.  I'm flabbergasted by the denial and just want to know how anyone living in modern American can get approved for life insurance if an otherwise healthy person can't be MEDICATED for anxiety and/or depression!

### Assistant: I got denied too. Get your Dr to write a note saying that you are not suicidal. That worked for me.


### Human: take care of yourself, you only have you.Sometimes, the only person who can heal yourself is you.

### Assistant: Self-care is good also remember to learn gratitude and empathy. That's how you communicate and love yourself. Also you forgive and build resilience.


### Human: Why don't people understand that trauma us trauma, period?trauma IS* trauma***  I feel like my childhood trauma that has been a result of emotional, verbal, psychological, and mild physical abuse is not considered as serious to people in my life than other forms, like serious physical abuse or sexual abuse.  I experienced this form of abuse from my mother and from my family throughout my life, which has led me to become fearful and hesitant around adult women. I use defence mechanisms and disassociate often, especially when these women are in my personal space (my room or my home for instance). I have been open to my dad about this, I have only lived with him for about a year now. He started to date this new girl a week ago and wants to move her in. I expressed my discomfort about this and told him how I would be more comfortable about it. I explained to him why I am the way I am. I explained what happens.  Yesterday he brings this girl over out of the blue without telling me. I shut myself in my room. It's her first time sleeping over and I didn't sleep. I cried the whole night and eventually packed my stuff and just left and drove an hour to my boyfriends house.  If I were sexually molested by a man, and was uncomfortable around other adult men I do not know, would he bring strange men into the home suddenly without notice? Having them live and be in the space that I'm supposed to feel safe in without my input? Why would he do this with this girl when I have been open and honest about everything? Trauma is trauma. Every form of trauma deserves to be taken seriously. Every person should be able to have their areas where they feel safe in without worrying about feeling invaded or violated.  On-top of it, he continues to make comments which make me uncomfortable. I don't know how else to tell him to stop. I can't necessarily move out, it's a very complicated process. I would need to quit a job I have only been working for a month and move in with my boyfriend who lives in a very small roach infested apartment or risk going broke and going through my savings living on my own, which I would still need to quit my job because nothing in my city is affordable to live in where I can live alone and bring my cat. I wanted to live there for just a bit more, keep my job for at least 2 months more so I can get support when I get surgery and have to not work for a while, and then transition to moving here when I hopefully start a program I been waitlisted for in the fall.  It just sucks. Fuck.

### Assistant: I don't even know why they don't understand.


### Human: Why don't people understand that trauma us trauma, period?trauma IS* trauma***  I feel like my childhood trauma that has been a result of emotional, verbal, psychological, and mild physical abuse is not considered as serious to people in my life than other forms, like serious physical abuse or sexual abuse.  I experienced this form of abuse from my mother and from my family throughout my life, which has led me to become fearful and hesitant around adult women. I use defence mechanisms and disassociate often, especially when these women are in my personal space (my room or my home for instance). I have been open to my dad about this, I have only lived with him for about a year now. He started to date this new girl a week ago and wants to move her in. I expressed my discomfort about this and told him how I would be more comfortable about it. I explained to him why I am the way I am. I explained what happens.  Yesterday he brings this girl over out of the blue without telling me. I shut myself in my room. It's her first time sleeping over and I didn't sleep. I cried the whole night and eventually packed my stuff and just left and drove an hour to my boyfriends house.  If I were sexually molested by a man, and was uncomfortable around other adult men I do not know, would he bring strange men into the home suddenly without notice? Having them live and be in the space that I'm supposed to feel safe in without my input? Why would he do this with this girl when I have been open and honest about everything? Trauma is trauma. Every form of trauma deserves to be taken seriously. Every person should be able to have their areas where they feel safe in without worrying about feeling invaded or violated.  On-top of it, he continues to make comments which make me uncomfortable. I don't know how else to tell him to stop. I can't necessarily move out, it's a very complicated process. I would need to quit a job I have only been working for a month and move in with my boyfriend who lives in a very small roach infested apartment or risk going broke and going through my savings living on my own, which I would still need to quit my job because nothing in my city is affordable to live in where I can live alone and bring my cat. I wanted to live there for just a bit more, keep my job for at least 2 months more so I can get support when I get surgery and have to not work for a while, and then transition to moving here when I hopefully start a program I been waitlisted for in the fall.  It just sucks. Fuck.

### Assistant: I don’t understand why so many people hold the impression that women are incapable of abuse/assault or that if women do it, it isn’t “as bad”. Your feelings and your situation are valid, and I’m so sorry your dad isn’t understanding and respecting that. I feel like bringing a new person over out of the blue is pretty disrespectful when you live with anyone, but especially so in your case. I really hope you’re able to find a comfortable, safe solution soon


### Human: Discord support group- I want to celebrate you doing your best with you every dayHey guys,  I've had depression, anxiety, dpdr on and off for a decade now. I've been going to therapy for 3 years and am finally getting to a place where I am better at taking care of myself and am nicer to myself. Some days are more challenging than others, on rough days I'd always wished I had someone who'd tell me it's okay if the best I can do today is lay in bed.  Everybody's struggles are different and although I may never be able to understand what you are going through, I'd like to celebrate you for trying your best. Our 'best' looks different every day, your best today could be drinking a cup of water or getting out of bed or maybe your best is lying in bed. If you'd like, I would love to hear you and celebrate your best with you every day.  There are a lot of discord support groups out there. My goal with this one is to focus on celebrating the small wins because life is hard. Everyone's best is different and are all worthy of celebration.  This is my 1st time starting a discord group, I want to create a safe and helpful place for people. Anyone interested in moderating, please DM me!  As this is a new space, I'd love to hear from you guys. How can I best support you? What would you like to see in this group? I will be constantly tweaking and making changes to best serve you.  In order to take care of my own mental health, I limit my social media use. I will check in as much as I possibly can, I am excited to hear from you guys.  Today:

### Assistant: I’d love to join! 😇


### Human: Have to get rid of my 2 cats unless I can find something else to doSo I've been homeless since August, my 2 cats were being watched by my brother but he doesn't like cats so on October 28 someone else able to watch them took them for about 3 weeks. Then after that was able to find someone in a pet group that said he can watch them but about 5 days later asked me to watch them while he goes out of town for a day. Well when I messaged to bring them back he ghosted me. Now they are in a cage on my dads back porch which isn't that humane in my opinion. I've tried everything I can to find someone able to watch them but nothing useful. My dad and most of my family has told me to just give them up. The only person that still thinks I should keep them also is the only one that knows my mental health issues and that my cats play a big part in supporting me mentally. Im really unsure what to do, my dad doesn't want them on his porch anymore and I think it's inhumane to have them there but I cant find anyone to watch them. My dad has a point on them being too much of a financial burden at the moment but they are probably the only reason I'm still alive which he doesn't really know anything about my mental health issues. What should I do?

### Assistant: I lost my bearded dragon last January who was by far my best friend & without a doubt an unlicensed emotional support pet. I can tell you that the 5 years she was a live & i owned her 3 times I was about to take my life & her presence stopped me from doing so.


### Human: Have to get rid of my 2 cats unless I can find something else to doSo I've been homeless since August, my 2 cats were being watched by my brother but he doesn't like cats so on October 28 someone else able to watch them took them for about 3 weeks. Then after that was able to find someone in a pet group that said he can watch them but about 5 days later asked me to watch them while he goes out of town for a day. Well when I messaged to bring them back he ghosted me. Now they are in a cage on my dads back porch which isn't that humane in my opinion. I've tried everything I can to find someone able to watch them but nothing useful. My dad and most of my family has told me to just give them up. The only person that still thinks I should keep them also is the only one that knows my mental health issues and that my cats play a big part in supporting me mentally. Im really unsure what to do, my dad doesn't want them on his porch anymore and I think it's inhumane to have them there but I cant find anyone to watch them. My dad has a point on them being too much of a financial burden at the moment but they are probably the only reason I'm still alive which he doesn't really know anything about my mental health issues. What should I do?

### Assistant: I wish I had something more to say, I’m sorry that you haven’t been able to find them a place to stay. My advice is to share with your family that you are struggling mentally and that the cats help you. I feel that, my mental health plummeted when I didn’t have pets.


### Human: Bruh I'm fookin stoopid..I am at work right now, and just overshared a bit. 🤣  I was telling my coworker about how my boyfriend first met my Mom. [My Mom is an addict, my whole family is full of them].  I had warned my boyfriend that my Uncle was especially bad, and used to steal cars and was on heroin. He shot up in the house. [Good things to know when you're from a good family and not used to chaos like that, when you're staying the night somewhere for the first time].  Anyway, as soon as this boy comes through the door my Momma starts her shit. Talking about:  You know Stephanie's uncle, right?  Mhm  Well, we're gonna go pick him up, he's having some people come by.  He looked at me and asked if he needed to go lock his car. I was like, probably, idk.  This boy goes outside to lock his car, and my Mom deadass looked at me and was like:  If he cranks it, he's not coming back.  I started laughing when I told my coworker about it, she looked mortified. 🤣  In this house we laugh at our trauma. Idk. Bless. Have a great day.  Edit:  Bro my coworker has been gone for almost an hour. I am WEAK 🤣🤣🤣  God, I hate it here, somebody help me. 🤣

### Assistant: Lol, sorry about your coworker's reaction. I think it was sort of funny, yes dark but it's your life you know? And nah you're not stupid, I think it's natural that you wanted to share your life with someone you think is nice. I hope she's not weird about it later. Have a good day!


### Human: Bruh I'm fookin stoopid..I am at work right now, and just overshared a bit. 🤣  I was telling my coworker about how my boyfriend first met my Mom. [My Mom is an addict, my whole family is full of them].  I had warned my boyfriend that my Uncle was especially bad, and used to steal cars and was on heroin. He shot up in the house. [Good things to know when you're from a good family and not used to chaos like that, when you're staying the night somewhere for the first time].  Anyway, as soon as this boy comes through the door my Momma starts her shit. Talking about:  You know Stephanie's uncle, right?  Mhm  Well, we're gonna go pick him up, he's having some people come by.  He looked at me and asked if he needed to go lock his car. I was like, probably, idk.  This boy goes outside to lock his car, and my Mom deadass looked at me and was like:  If he cranks it, he's not coming back.  I started laughing when I told my coworker about it, she looked mortified. 🤣  In this house we laugh at our trauma. Idk. Bless. Have a great day.  Edit:  Bro my coworker has been gone for almost an hour. I am WEAK 🤣🤣🤣  God, I hate it here, somebody help me. 🤣

### Assistant: Cranks it?


### Human: Should i go to art school?Im 13 and, like to draw, and i want to go on an  art school. Its my dream and drawing is the only thing that im at least a bit  good at and feel comeforttable doing it, and i want to do something more with it. but am i good enough? Is it worthy? And if not where should i go? its getting me really depressed, and drawing is my only escape. But now i feel like im failing even in that.  someone please help

### Assistant: I 100% get where you are coming from. When I was 13, I loved art so much and I still do!! you are only 13, don’t stress yourself too much about what you are wanting to do in life, you still have so far to go. But definitely try and get into a wide range of styles for your portfolio, and try and be in art classes each year (if possible). My high school had an art competition each year and it was a great place for your art to get awards, maybe your school has the same. Also, try and figure out what you are wanting to do in art! Character design, animation, etc etc, and try and get some practice in, Small practice here and there will 100% help so so much, especially from such a young age. But, most importantly, do not let art become a source of stress. Let it be an outlet! If something is stressing you out, you will definitely try to stop doing it as much as possible. Try to just relax, make a place for yourself in the art community, and all will be okay :)  there are tons of experienced artists who can help.


### Human: Should i go to art school?Im 13 and, like to draw, and i want to go on an  art school. Its my dream and drawing is the only thing that im at least a bit  good at and feel comeforttable doing it, and i want to do something more with it. but am i good enough? Is it worthy? And if not where should i go? its getting me really depressed, and drawing is my only escape. But now i feel like im failing even in that.  someone please help

### Assistant: Art is practice, practice practice, so if you're 'not good enough', that just means you're 'not good enough yet'. If you love drawing, just keep doing it. Maybe see if you can do a preperation program or something like that when you're 15 or 16.


### Human: Should i go to art school?Im 13 and, like to draw, and i want to go on an  art school. Its my dream and drawing is the only thing that im at least a bit  good at and feel comeforttable doing it, and i want to do something more with it. but am i good enough? Is it worthy? And if not where should i go? its getting me really depressed, and drawing is my only escape. But now i feel like im failing even in that.  someone please help

### Assistant: Hello, I’m from the UK and I’ve done a two year course for art and design and now I’m halfway through my fine art degree at university. Art has always been my thing too from when I was young and tbh going on to art school was the best decision ever, they don’t expect you to be perfect when you get there but they want to see someone with an open mind and is dedicated to working on their skills. If you do go there you will be exposed to so much new information about art, like design, fine art, art history, everything! When I look back to when I started to where I am now my art has significantly improved and developed. If you’re doing drawing and feel like that’s your thing then you definitely have what it takes to go there!


### Human: Should i go to art school?Im 13 and, like to draw, and i want to go on an  art school. Its my dream and drawing is the only thing that im at least a bit  good at and feel comeforttable doing it, and i want to do something more with it. but am i good enough? Is it worthy? And if not where should i go? its getting me really depressed, and drawing is my only escape. But now i feel like im failing even in that.  someone please help

### Assistant: I totally agree with what u/sasosushi and u/zahrarosemass have said. I think they have given you excellent advice. Especially about not allowing your art and thinking about the future to stress you out.


### Human: I can't seem to memorize or process sentences in my textbookI've heard that long term depression can cause damage to the brain (I've had depression for five years and im slowly progressing out of it) and for the past few months i feel like my brain stopped processing things like i have to read a paragraph minimum four times to read and process and understand it. Is it because of depression or is it something else? And how do i fix this? Do i need help? And how do i approach my parents about this?

### Assistant: I knew something wasn't right with me when I couldn't do my job by remembering 7 digit product codes.  I then started to forget lines from films, a game we used to play while working, and it got so bad that I forgot celebs and relatives had died.


### Human: I can't seem to memorize or process sentences in my textbookI've heard that long term depression can cause damage to the brain (I've had depression for five years and im slowly progressing out of it) and for the past few months i feel like my brain stopped processing things like i have to read a paragraph minimum four times to read and process and understand it. Is it because of depression or is it something else? And how do i fix this? Do i need help? And how do i approach my parents about this?

### Assistant: This is incredibly common, at least in my experience, though I wouldn’t really call it “damage to the brain.” What happens (to the best of my knowledge) is that depression resides in the part of the brain that makes memories. People with severe depression can have a hard time remembering stuff because they have a hard time physically committing things to memory. Also with the whole “loss of interest/inability to focus” symptoms, it can make it really hard to read, study, get work done, etc. Don’t be ashamed to reach out and get some help - sometimes it’s just a matter of finding a different way to absorb information instead of staring at scrambled words on a page! Hope this helps a little! You’re not alone


### Human: I can't seem to memorize or process sentences in my textbookI've heard that long term depression can cause damage to the brain (I've had depression for five years and im slowly progressing out of it) and for the past few months i feel like my brain stopped processing things like i have to read a paragraph minimum four times to read and process and understand it. Is it because of depression or is it something else? And how do i fix this? Do i need help? And how do i approach my parents about this?

### Assistant: Hi, I've experienced this and it progressively got worse. I was unable to form sentences, I couldn't learn new materially easily, etc. I have C-PTSD with major depression.


### Human: I can't seem to memorize or process sentences in my textbookI've heard that long term depression can cause damage to the brain (I've had depression for five years and im slowly progressing out of it) and for the past few months i feel like my brain stopped processing things like i have to read a paragraph minimum four times to read and process and understand it. Is it because of depression or is it something else? And how do i fix this? Do i need help? And how do i approach my parents about this?

### Assistant: This has nothing to do with the mental health aspect of your situation, but I struggle with a few problems myself. To the same degree that my memory often fails me. With text books ESPECIALLY this helped. absorbing text books like a sponge


### Human: I can't seem to memorize or process sentences in my textbookI've heard that long term depression can cause damage to the brain (I've had depression for five years and im slowly progressing out of it) and for the past few months i feel like my brain stopped processing things like i have to read a paragraph minimum four times to read and process and understand it. Is it because of depression or is it something else? And how do i fix this? Do i need help? And how do i approach my parents about this?

### Assistant: Hey dude, don't stress too much okay? Some people just don't learn by reading straight from the textbook. You just need to take deep breaths and try to figure out a way that works for you. If you get too stressed about it, it will not help you. An example of something you could do is maybe create flashcards and use those. Maybe try some online quizzes.


### Human: Confessing to being jealous of my friends having other friends and seeing people being acceptedI am not really sure how to put this but let me start.  I do not have many IRL friends ( long story why) but I can tell I have been bullied a lot yet this is another story.  I have been feeling like this for quite some time but I was not really ready to talk about it. Somehow I get like mega envious and jealous at people having friends both online and IRL, it kinda goes like that, I see a friend of mine posting a photo of him being somewhere with his friends or just telling me he needs to go because he is meeting his other friends and while I never say it or even show it. Inside me I just feel like, I knew it, they all actually hate me, they are just friends with me because they don't want to hurt me and so on. And then as far as online friends go, so many people my age have friends online from all around the world from gaming and I actually take pride in the fact that I have quit gaming as it turned into an addicting habit with me. And another thing is, I know there are other communities as well that could accept me and I try to be active in other communities both online and IRL that share my interests and I rarely make friends there.  And when I make them it's again that feeling I am not their only online friend of them, they have others as well, I am not special for them in many way, judging by the amount of followers, the likes and followers they have, the other friends they have are more plenty, and more important to them as I am. They probably just talk to me because they feel sorry for me, or they will just ditch me because I am not as perfect as their other friends are.  Another thing is, Like people meeting up with their foreign friends when they travel to their country and then posting about it online. Well I have tried it once and like out of like 10 people or more one was down for it. I don't know like even that seems to be hard for me and I barely even get accepted. ( I am LGBT BTW) Like I understand that I am probably sentenced to fellow LGBT and ally friends, but there are so few and I am so freaking done of people having many bad friends or having no friends at all and then complaining about it and when I offer themselves to be friends with them, they say no because I am LGBT.  Sorry about the long post, just had to vent.

### Assistant: This is something that hits close to home, as I used to feel this way too. When I was younger, I was delusional in thinking I could be popular and have a bunch of friends, and while I was friendly towards a large handful of people, most of my relationships were superficial and short lasted. Whenever I saw my “friends” hang out on Instagram, I would feel jealous and depressed that I wasn’t invited. I don’t think you asked for advice, and I’m not saying this will help you in any way, but it’s something to keep in mind: reconsider your relationships with people and what you truly desire. My desire was to be popular since I have an innate fear of abandonment from those I love. I realized this and began to slowly accept myself (and I’m still working on it). Quarantine has actually made it apparent on who are and are not my friends, as they are the people I still text today. They’re the people I feel comfortable around, and I don’t have to “impress” them or put on a facade of extroversion around. I know this sounds like I’m only talking about myself, but I thought that you might benefit from it. I apologize if you don’t, but I do hope you are able to overcome this. Much love from over the internet ❤


### Human: Confessing to being jealous of my friends having other friends and seeing people being acceptedI am not really sure how to put this but let me start.  I do not have many IRL friends ( long story why) but I can tell I have been bullied a lot yet this is another story.  I have been feeling like this for quite some time but I was not really ready to talk about it. Somehow I get like mega envious and jealous at people having friends both online and IRL, it kinda goes like that, I see a friend of mine posting a photo of him being somewhere with his friends or just telling me he needs to go because he is meeting his other friends and while I never say it or even show it. Inside me I just feel like, I knew it, they all actually hate me, they are just friends with me because they don't want to hurt me and so on. And then as far as online friends go, so many people my age have friends online from all around the world from gaming and I actually take pride in the fact that I have quit gaming as it turned into an addicting habit with me. And another thing is, I know there are other communities as well that could accept me and I try to be active in other communities both online and IRL that share my interests and I rarely make friends there.  And when I make them it's again that feeling I am not their only online friend of them, they have others as well, I am not special for them in many way, judging by the amount of followers, the likes and followers they have, the other friends they have are more plenty, and more important to them as I am. They probably just talk to me because they feel sorry for me, or they will just ditch me because I am not as perfect as their other friends are.  Another thing is, Like people meeting up with their foreign friends when they travel to their country and then posting about it online. Well I have tried it once and like out of like 10 people or more one was down for it. I don't know like even that seems to be hard for me and I barely even get accepted. ( I am LGBT BTW) Like I understand that I am probably sentenced to fellow LGBT and ally friends, but there are so few and I am so freaking done of people having many bad friends or having no friends at all and then complaining about it and when I offer themselves to be friends with them, they say no because I am LGBT.  Sorry about the long post, just had to vent.

### Assistant: I totally relate to this. When I was younger I was alway considered intelligent nd extroverted and I believed the world was a fair playing field for everyone. But fast forward a. Couple of years and losing friends, and coping w physical and bad mental health problems changed my outlook. i. Come from an asian back ground where competition is normal and parents love to compare their Chilrens grades and achievements and brag about their honour and wealth and respect etc which can beome very toxic an overwhelming. I always look at people around me who are luckier because they are taller or have a stable family background or are attractive physically and personality wise and wealthy or seem like their life is very figured out and it seems so unfair that my life Is nothing like that. I’m 17 currently n get told a lot of too young to be this pessimistic and my parents often say I’m overreacting but seeing the ugly and hard side of life from a young age damaged me a lot and I’m not sure how to recover as I don’t have a lot of adults in my life I cxan be honest or vulnerable with and my parents are worried I’ll say something that could damage their reputation in my local community. I’m also bi btw :)) and have never been accepted by family on other things so I’m v closeted


### Human: Confessing to being jealous of my friends having other friends and seeing people being acceptedI am not really sure how to put this but let me start.  I do not have many IRL friends ( long story why) but I can tell I have been bullied a lot yet this is another story.  I have been feeling like this for quite some time but I was not really ready to talk about it. Somehow I get like mega envious and jealous at people having friends both online and IRL, it kinda goes like that, I see a friend of mine posting a photo of him being somewhere with his friends or just telling me he needs to go because he is meeting his other friends and while I never say it or even show it. Inside me I just feel like, I knew it, they all actually hate me, they are just friends with me because they don't want to hurt me and so on. And then as far as online friends go, so many people my age have friends online from all around the world from gaming and I actually take pride in the fact that I have quit gaming as it turned into an addicting habit with me. And another thing is, I know there are other communities as well that could accept me and I try to be active in other communities both online and IRL that share my interests and I rarely make friends there.  And when I make them it's again that feeling I am not their only online friend of them, they have others as well, I am not special for them in many way, judging by the amount of followers, the likes and followers they have, the other friends they have are more plenty, and more important to them as I am. They probably just talk to me because they feel sorry for me, or they will just ditch me because I am not as perfect as their other friends are.  Another thing is, Like people meeting up with their foreign friends when they travel to their country and then posting about it online. Well I have tried it once and like out of like 10 people or more one was down for it. I don't know like even that seems to be hard for me and I barely even get accepted. ( I am LGBT BTW) Like I understand that I am probably sentenced to fellow LGBT and ally friends, but there are so few and I am so freaking done of people having many bad friends or having no friends at all and then complaining about it and when I offer themselves to be friends with them, they say no because I am LGBT.  Sorry about the long post, just had to vent.

### Assistant: I feel. Like other people have solid friends too and can’t relate.


### Human: HELPPLEASE DO COMMENT I NEED THIS HELP OR I WILL JUST DIE  I found this app after an anonymous recommendation.  Something is fucked up with my mind and I don't know what it is.  I have random highs and downs but they have suddenly stopped and its just a below below average feeling now.  I have no emotional expression on my mind but I just keep acting like I have some kind of emotion's.  But there is something fucked up than this that I can not post publically.  I really want to end this either by dying or just getting some help this is the last straw.  EDIT: one more thing (you can call it an ability) is that I have a high level of imagination not in the maniacal way but I can just imagine real like surroundings if I am given the context. But it also backfires when someone is in pain and I try to feel it.

### Assistant: Like you're dead inside and just acting?


### Human: HELPPLEASE DO COMMENT I NEED THIS HELP OR I WILL JUST DIE  I found this app after an anonymous recommendation.  Something is fucked up with my mind and I don't know what it is.  I have random highs and downs but they have suddenly stopped and its just a below below average feeling now.  I have no emotional expression on my mind but I just keep acting like I have some kind of emotion's.  But there is something fucked up than this that I can not post publically.  I really want to end this either by dying or just getting some help this is the last straw.  EDIT: one more thing (you can call it an ability) is that I have a high level of imagination not in the maniacal way but I can just imagine real like surroundings if I am given the context. But it also backfires when someone is in pain and I try to feel it.

### Assistant: Describe the highs and lows. Are they like depression and mania(Bipolar)?


### Human: HELPPLEASE DO COMMENT I NEED THIS HELP OR I WILL JUST DIE  I found this app after an anonymous recommendation.  Something is fucked up with my mind and I don't know what it is.  I have random highs and downs but they have suddenly stopped and its just a below below average feeling now.  I have no emotional expression on my mind but I just keep acting like I have some kind of emotion's.  But there is something fucked up than this that I can not post publically.  I really want to end this either by dying or just getting some help this is the last straw.  EDIT: one more thing (you can call it an ability) is that I have a high level of imagination not in the maniacal way but I can just imagine real like surroundings if I am given the context. But it also backfires when someone is in pain and I try to feel it.

### Assistant: Hey hun, please don't die. You're loved. That being said, you might have bipolar disorder. My ex has it and what you're describing sounds like the symptoms. Of course I'm no Dr, it's just an educated guess. PM me if you need to talk. Hugs.


### Human: HELPPLEASE DO COMMENT I NEED THIS HELP OR I WILL JUST DIE  I found this app after an anonymous recommendation.  Something is fucked up with my mind and I don't know what it is.  I have random highs and downs but they have suddenly stopped and its just a below below average feeling now.  I have no emotional expression on my mind but I just keep acting like I have some kind of emotion's.  But there is something fucked up than this that I can not post publically.  I really want to end this either by dying or just getting some help this is the last straw.  EDIT: one more thing (you can call it an ability) is that I have a high level of imagination not in the maniacal way but I can just imagine real like surroundings if I am given the context. But it also backfires when someone is in pain and I try to feel it.

### Assistant: Please go to a doctor. You need help and that’s okay. The world needs you here.