Some changes, nothing is tested. I suck as a human being. Not productive or happy, I'm a waste of potiential, I'm the exact employee's companies look out for. I can be great the first week and the quit the second. All because I can't get over how I'm treated because of what I am. I mean nothing bad, or mean. Just enough to constantly remind me of what I am. I don't think I'll ever be free of this or productive or happy. Hope, anticipation is the only thing that ever makes me happy. I am always disappointed by reality. I'm always disappointed by myself too. I don't think there is much I can do to fix this in myself. I definitely don't see a way. I think any impression of productivity I get is just me being humored. Just like how they all humor the idea of me being female but no one believes it. I'm a freak.