I try to recall what it was you said to me just then. but this train keeps on rocking me back to sleep. and I fear come tomorrow I won't even remember your name. I'd make myself remember. Make myself recall. but these promises and these vows I made you now. seem to have no voice at all. The color of the canyons. When first it was said I love you. But these colors and these canyons. now all seem silly and small. I don't understand at all. how these colors in my memory just fade. into such a pale shade of grey. and cold rails remind me of your cold feet. and my eyes expect to see you behind every door. but when I shut my eyes. I can't even recall what it is that you wore. My god was that only yesterday. I can't even remember your face. I feel so far away. I make myself remember. Make myself recall. but these promises and these vows I made you now. seem to have no voice at all. The color of the canyons. When first it was said I love you. But these colors and these canyons. now all seem silly and small. I don't understand at all. how these colors in my memory just fade away. into such a pale shade of grey. *I say to myself My god I used to love him. I wanted to share with him my womb and my world. But now I stare at him as though through a glass wall. I say I used to love him but now I feel nothing for him at all. My god how could this be. Won't you please explain this to me. Now sleep sings to me in a sweet and urgent voice. And I fear that I have no choice but to forget these flowers. these daisies you gave me the offerings you made me. the vows that we swore by swearing we'd be together. always and forever the children we named and now we'll never have. and I know I'm supposed to meet you. I don't even think I'll remember your name tomorrow. I make myself remember. Make myself recall. but these promises and these vows I made you now. seem to have no voice at all. The color of the canyons. When first it was said I love you. But these colors and these canyons. now all seem silly and small. I don't understand at all. how these colors in my memory just fade away. into such a pale shade of grey.