I would never have been in such a rush. I would never have tried to control. I would never have worn such 'fear lenses'. I would never have held on so tightly. I would have kept my boundaries set. My loving no's my unwavering yes's. Risked abandonment and stood by that. And thereby felt constant connect. This fountain of regret. This looking back with twenty-twenty. Torturous hindsight. If I knew then what I know now. This mountain of remorse. Won't repeat with my understanding. This wouldn't have happened. If I knew then what I know now. I would've gone slower. Pushed infrequent. Would not have rushed into such commitment. I would've shown restraint as my feet got wet. I would've baby-stepped into intimate. This fountain of regret. This looking back with twenty-twenty. This torturous hindsight. If I knew then what I know now. This mountain of remorse. Won't repeat with my understanding. This wouldn't have happened. If I knew then what I know now. I would've known much more. Known that time was all we had for future. Depth to unfold. I would've had more faith at every step. I would've kept intact through the whole process. Oh this fountain of regret. Is looking back with twenty-twenty. Torturous hindsight. If I knew then what I know now. This mountain of remorse. Won't repeat with my understanding. This wouldn't have happened. If I knew then what I know now