(yeah). I just came from the school. Another day that everyone used me like a tool. Why am I always the one being called fool. That ain't cool. But things keep repeating. Once and once again. All what I want is love. But all what I get is pain. Mother said me to never forget to smile. But she ain't being here for a while. Things changed. And people became more strange. I'm trying to keep me calm. But all what I see is rage. At every new time they hurt me. Another time that I'll feel like an hostage. It's being hard to keep crawling to the stage. Is it all about my pretty dam faith?. I'm there for them. But when I need them the most they always say. ''sorry I'm late''. And my answer: don't worry mate. You just forgot about my own case... again. And again. I need you close. Just hold me here and don't let go. I need you so close. I need you close. Just hold me here and don't let go. I need you so close. Dear mind I made it throught the day. I may have said ''I'm fine thanks''. To everyone gettin' on my way. But I swear I didn't mean it once. But it was enough to make it pass throught their scanner. Cause people are always asking ''how you going''. But they don't actually wait for an answer''. Maybe you're even dying or lying that doesn't matter. You have a lot to say? send them a letter. Or just write it down in your diary. Until it feels a bit better!. Yeah believe me it will. The rage goes away but the pain stills. On my heart in my mind. It's running all my body. She's gettin'hard to find. I'm feeling like I'm giving up. Or I'm just losing another fight. No please hold it tight!. But my nightmares became all real. I'm supposed to feel stuffs. That I can no longer feel. People are screaming around. And I'm just trying to be taken with the crowd. Cause they hate me and that breaks me. They tear me down and that takes me. I'm just trying to be good but they hate me!. They never wanted me to stay. Everytime I tried to get closer they just pulled me away. So now I'm darker and colder. That's what they say. 'cause really deep inside I'm feeling. I'm still beeding. You can't hear me but I'm screaming!. I'm stuck and I'm never getting free. I wish I could have faith but they've murdered me. I need you close. Just hold me here and don't let go. (yeah let's do it). (yeah just let it go... nah). I need you so close. I need you close. Just hold me here and don't let go. I need you so close. So that's my life. I think I'm lost on time. Right now. And forever