A lonely cry for help reaching out for help to anyone. A silent prayer to God to help you on your way. I've been depressed so long. It's hard to remember when I was happy. I've felt like suicide a dozen times or more. But that's the easy way that's the selfish way. the hardest part is to get on with your life. You're searching in the dark. clutching at straws to find a way. You take the Tarot cards and throw them to the wind. Your questions your beliefs. your inner thoughts your whole existence. And if there is a God then answer if you will. And tell me of my fate tell me of my place. Tell me if I'll ever rest in peace. If you could live your life again. Would you change a thing or leave all the same. If you had the chance again. Would you change a thing at all. When you look back at your past. Can you say that you are proud of what we've done. Are there times when you believe. That the right you thought was wrong. All of my life I have believed. Judgement of Heaven is waiting for me.