we walked along the beach. What a moon lit night. He held my hands in his. He kissed me he said. I wanna spend my life with you. I want you for my wife. Just then i thought. What about the times you lied to me. What about the times you said no one would want me. What about all the shit you've done to me. What about that. What about that. What about the times you yelled at me. What about the times i cried. You wouldn't even hold me. What about those things. What about that. What about that. I took a pause. And then a deep sigh. He looked right into my eyes. As he said. I know i didn't say somethin' wrong. I didn't have the courage to say. But then i thought. Oh. What about the times you hit my face. What about the times you kept on when i said. No more please. What about those things. What about that. What about that oh. What about the times you shamed me. What about the times when you said you didn't fuck. Her. She only gave you head. What about that. What about that. Don't wanna live my life in misery. Don't tell me you did it 'cause you love me. I don't believe. I'm sick and tired. Your deceptive games. Wonder where. You have been. I can't live life wondering. My heart was poundin'. But the time had come. To stop lettin' my whisperin' heart control me. And tellin' my screamin' mind what to do. I looked him straight in the eye. And then i said