I wouldn't have compromised as much.. So much of myself for fear of having you hating me.. I would've sung so loudly. It would've cracked myself.. I became so self-conscious of anything exuberant.. I wouldn't have sold myself short.. I wouldn't have kept my eyes glued to the ground.. If I had've known my invisibility would not make a difference. I would've run around screaming proudly at the top of my voice.. I wouldn't have said it was in fact luck. I'm talking idealism here.. I would not have been so self-deprecating. I wouldn't have cowered for fear of having my eyes scratched out.. I wouldn't have cut my comfort off.. I wouldn't have feigned needlessness.. I would not have discredited every one of their compliments.. It was your approval I wanted.. Your congratulations..