I will never be first in anything for you. But I like when you fool me. And I know you'll replace me there's an opening. Resentful and insecure?. I think it's just reality. Running out of control. So tired my conscience is full. I'm overwhelmed a future I can't behold. And even though I tried. You know I can't deny. I just can't stop looking up who you are. I buy in against my better judgement. Against my better judgement. (Chorus). Falling behind in a race within my mind. Tripping over hurdles that I put up and that's why. I placed in second in your life. These online memories photos at the beach. and all the stories I was told by you. Not easy to forget I'm right when I suspect. They weren't simple things that you've been through. I buy in against my better judgement. Against my better judgement. Falling behind. Falling behind