As I'm doing my hair. Preparing for another day. A kiss upon my cheek. He's here reluctantly. Ask if I'm gonna be out late. And I say I won't be long. Just hanging with the girls (boys). A lie I didn't have to tell. Because we both know. Where I'm about to go. And we know it very well. I know that he knows I'm unfaithful. And it kills him inside. To know that I am happy with some other guy. I can see him dying. I don't wanna do this anymore. I don't wanna be the reason why. Everytime I walk out the door. I see him die a little more inside. I don't wanna hurt him anymore. I don't wanna take away his life. I don't wanna be. A murderer