When last I spoke to Carol I said:. "I can't pretend it gets easier". she said:. "I've hung on. I have edged around this narrow ledge. since the day I was born in 1975". When last I spoke to Carol I said:. "I can't pretend. I feel love for you.". she said:. "I've hammered. a smile across this pasty face of mine. since the day I was born in 1975". When I said goodbye to Carol. black earth upon the casket fell. she had faded to. something I always knew. to the rescue. nobody ever comes