This is the moment when the gods expect me. To beg for help but I won't even try. I want nothing in the world but myself to protect me. But I won't lie down roll over and die. All I have to do is to forget how much I love him. All I have to do is put my longing to one side. Tell myself that love's an ever-changing situation. Passion would have cooled and all the magic would have died. It's easy it's easy. Until I think about him as he was when I last saw him. And how he would have been were I to be with him today. Tender in his manner and my self-consolation. All I ever wanted and I'm throwing it away. It's easy easy as life. All I have to do is to pretend I never knew him. On those very rare occasions when he steals into my heart. Better to have lost him when the ties were barely binding. Better the contempt of the familiar cannot start. It's easy it's easy. Until I think about him as he was when I last touched him. And how he would have been were I to be with him today. Those very rare occasions don't let up they keep on coming. All I ever wanted and I'm throwing it away. It's easy it's easy as life. And then I see the faces of a worn defeated people. A father and a nation who won't let a coward run. Is this how the gods reward the faithful through the ages. Forcing us to prove that all the hardest things we've done. Are easy so easy. And though I'll think about him until the earth draws in around me. And though I choose to leave him for another kind of love. This is no denial no betrayal but redemption. Redeemed in my own eyes and in the pantheon above. It's easy it's easy it's easy as life