Why do I try - sometimes I need reasons. For leaving songs after I stop breathing. Long after I'm gone - what greater gift will be there. If I struggle if I dig deep go every night without sleep. Torturin' myself till I give every piece away and there's nothing left.. Till I don't wanna talk I don't wanna fuck. I just wanna shoot up into space where I can blow up. Into pieces that float into nowhere - I wanna go there. Where I won't know care where I won't know existence. Resistance for an instance for a moment. We can fight but every moment will always be lost.. I can't believe what you're sayin' now. Nothing is real except for pain now. Life is a deal I never made now. Tossed into skin - I need a way out. I had to blow my brains out. No matter how we spend our time. Every tick of the clock counting down. We lose our minds trying to find a way. To make it all stop - climbing for years. Out of fear that we won't reach the top. My hands are numb and I need to just drop. I can't believe what you're sayin' now. Nothing is real except for pain now. Life is a deal I never made now. Tossed into skin - I need a way out. I had to blow my brains out. I need a way out