(hook). I'm going through changes. I'm going through changes. (verse 1). Lately I really feel like I'm rolling for delph like philly. Feel like I'm losing control of myself. I sincerely Apologize if all that I sound like. Is I am complaining. But life keeps on complicating. And I'm debating on leaving this world this evening. Even my girls can see I'm grieving. I try and hide it but I can't. Why do I act like I'm all high and mighty. When inside I'm dying. I am finally realizing I need help. Can't do it myself too weak. Two weeks I've been having ups and downs going. Through peaks and valleys. Dilly-dallying 'round with the idea of ending this Shit right here. I'm hating my reflection I walk around the house. Tryin' to fight mirrors. I can? t stand what I look like here I look fat. But what do I care? I could give a fuck. Only thing I fear is hailie. I'm afraid if I close my eyes then I might see her shit. (hook). I'm going through changes. I'm going through changes. (verse 2). I lock myself in the bedroom bathroom napping at noon. Yeah dad's in a bad mood. he's always snapping at you. Marshall what happened that you. can't stop with these pills. And you've fallen off with your skills. And your own fans are laughing at you. You've become a problem you're too pussy to tackle. Get up be a man stand. A real man would of had this shit handled. Know you just had your heart ripped out and crushed. They say proof just flipped out. Homie just whipped out and bust nah. It isn't like dudey to do that he wouldn't fuckin. Shoot at nobody he'd fight first. But dwelling on it only makes the night worse. Now I'm popping vics percs and methadone pills. "yeah em tight verse you killed it". Fuckin' drug dealers hang around me like yes-men. And they gonna do whatever I says when I says it. It's in their best interest to protect their investment. And I just lost my fucking best friend so fuck it I guess then. (hook). I'm going through changes. I'm going through changes. Don't know what I'm gonna do. But I just keep on going through changes. (verse 3). My friends can't understand this new me that's. Understandable man. But think how bananas. you'd be you'd be an animal too. If you were trapped in this fame and caged in it like a zoo. And everybody's lookin? at you. what you want me to do?. I'm starting to live like a recluse and the truth is. Fame is starting to give me an excuse. to be at a all time low. I sit alone in my home theater. Watching the same damn dvd of the first tour. The last tour he was still alive and it hurts. So I fast forward. sleeping pills will make me feel alright. And if I'm still awake in the middle of the night. I just take a couple more yeah. you're motherfucking right. I ain't slowing down for no one. I am almost homeward bound. Almost in a coma yeah homie. come on dole 'em out. "daddy don't you die on me. Daddy better hold your ground! ". Fuck don't I know the sound of that voice. Yeah baby hold me down. (hook). I'm going through changes. I'm going through changes. Don't know what I'm gonna do. But I just keep on going through changes. (verse 4). Wake up in the hospital full of tubes. Plus somehow I'm pulling through. Swear when I come back I'ma be bulletproof. I'mma do it just for proof. I think I should state a few facts. 'cause I may not get a chance again to say the truth. Shit it just hit me that what if. I would not have made it through. I think about the things. I would have never got to say to you. I'd never get to make it right. so here's what I came to do. Hailie this one is just for you whitney and elaina too. I still love your mother that will never change. Think about her every day. We just could never get it together. Hey wish there was a better way for me to say it. But I swear on everything. I'll do anything for her on any day. There are just too many things to explain. When it rains guess it pours. Yes it does wish there wasn't any pain. But I can't pretend there ain't. I ain't placing any blame I ain't pointing fingers. Heaven knows I never been a saint. I know that it feels like we just pissed away our History. and just today I looked at your picture almost hate to say. I miss you sub-consciously. Wish it didn't end this way but I just had to get Away. Don't know why I don't know what else to say I guess I'm. (hook). I'm going through changes. Don't know what I'm gonna do. But I just keep on going through changes. I'm going through changes