I cannot wait. or stick around. I'm giving up. I'm face down. it's not me. it's not you. but I'm still in this room. Hey you choose it. Hey you abused it. It's not you wipe the tears aside. and you cry and scream. in the middle of the night. wrapped in a blanket. but you told the lies. hey you choose it. hey abused it. hey refused it. hey you lose it. I cry and scream in the middle of the night. I can't go to sleep. I shake my head in the middle of the night. I can't go to sleep. It's not me it's not you. why can't I sleep.