dear *marshall*. dear *marshall*. i just wanna start out by saying. i still love you. even when i was pregnant with you. it was very hard for me. so many times of torture was worth every minute of it. cuz wen i looked in to those big blue eyes. this was the first time i had ever felt true love. in my whole life. we have a problem marshall. the past 2 years..something really went wrong. i was so excited about your success yet so let down by your. betrayal. playing the role of both mum & dad must of taken a toll on you. more then i ever imagined. *marshall* i did the best i could. i went without seeking half. it was rong of me and i see it now as giving you everything. and never questioning ne thing you eva did. as you were perfect in my eyes. my unconditional love created a spoiled young man. an angry one too. now before god and every1 i must apologise cuz at the time. i thought it was the right thing to do. im torchered daily *marshall* by people always asking me where. such an angry young man ..................... being the only role model in your life of course they're gonna. blame me. the demeanin me needs to stop and i speak 4 lots of mothers. the words really hurt and they cut like a knife. but theres no way to mend a bleedin heart. if not 4my frenz who ave been there for me and yes. *marshall* they really truely care. i pray some day your not going to be alone and you'll ave frenz like. me.....and they wont be there just for your fame. and no more attacks on me. and vicious acts of heat cuz it really hurts. will the real marshall mathers please stand up?. and take responsibility 4his actions. and im gonna close this *marsh* by saying. its not too late for change. and always sincerely your only mother