I don't think i am what i was before. Becuase i never watched anyone die before. I wish i never left home. I wish i left it all alone. Temptation is a disease. Cause you never do as you please. Your body takes over your mind don't care. Never think twice what might happen... out there!. Screaming Screaming Screaming Screaming. Go straight in for the ultimate sin!. Nobody else ever seems to CARE!. So i took what i thought was mine. And i went for a very long time. And i thought i knew what happened to you. You told me exactly what to do. So I did it right stayed up all night. Felt like killing myself for you. I don't think I think like I did before. I never watched anyone die before. I felt like I died as well. The look the words the smell. The way you looked at me. As if I'd never been free. I remember the words like a favorite song. Cause I forget the way things went wrong. Faked a picture of perfect health. I realized I was killing myself. I don't think I am what I was before. I never watched anyone die before. I dream in slow motion and I wake up screaming. By Matt. QOTSA FOREVER