Yo we gotta start respectin life more y'all. You look at your brother man you gotta see yourself. Gotta see the God within him. Brothers gettin changed real quick over nothin. We losin too many of ours. Gotta recreate y'all. Yo check it. Knowin you the best part of life do I have the right to take yours. Cause I created you irresponsibly. Subconciously knowin the act I was a part of. The start of somethin I'm not ready to bring into the world. Had myself believin I was sterile. I look into mother's stomach wonder if you are a boy or a girl. Turnin this woman's womb into a tomb. But she and I agree a seed we don't need. You would've been much more than a mouth to feed. But someone I woulda fed this information I read. to someone my life for you I woulda had to leave. Instead I lead you to death. I'm sorry for takin your first breath first step and first cry. But I wasn't prepared mentally nor financially. Havin a child shouldn't have to bring out the man in me. Plus I wanted you to be raised within a family. I don't wanna go through the drama of havin a baby's momma. Weekend visits and buyin J's ain't gon' make me a father. For a while bearing a child is somethin I never wanted to do. For me to live forever I can only do that through you. Nerve I got to talk about them niggaz with a gun. Must have really thought I was God to take the life of my son. I could have sacrificed goin out. To think my homies who did it I used to joke about from now on. I'ma use self control instead of birth control. Cause $315 ain't worth your soul. $315 ain't worth your soul. $315 ain't worth it. [Lauryn Hill (two layers of vocals same words)]. I never dreamed you'd leave in summer. You said you would be here when it rained. [Common] Yo. Why didn't you stay. Seeing you as a present and a gift in itself. You had our child in you I probably never feel what you felt. But you dealt with it like the strong black woman you are. Through our trials and tribulations child's elimination. An intergration of thoughts I feel about the situation. Back and forth my feelings was pacin. Happy deep down but not joyed enough to have it. But even that's a lie in less than two weeks we was back at it. Is this unprotected love or safe to say it's lust. Bustin more than the sweat in somebody you trust. Or is it that we don't trust each other enough. And believe havin this child'll make us have to stay together. Girl I want you in my life cause you have made it better. Thinkin we all in love cause we can spend a day together. We talkin spendin the rest of our lives. It's too many black women that can say they mothers. but can't say that they wives. I wouldn't chose any other to mother my understanding. But I want our Parenthood to come from Planning. It's so much in my life that's undone. We gotta see eye to eye about family before we can become one. If you had decided to have it the situation I wouldn't run from. But I'm walkin findin myself in my God. So I can discipline my son with my writin. Not have a judge tellin me how and when to raise my seed. Though his death was at our greed with no one else to blame. I had a book of Afrikan names case our minds changed. You say your period hasn't came and lately I've been sleepy. So quit smokin the weed and the beadies and let's have this boy. [Lauryn Hill]. I never dreamed you'd leave in summer. You said you would be here when it rained. You said you would be here when it rained. Ohh I never dreamed you'd leave in summer. Now the situation's made things change. Things change. Why didn't you stay. Why didn't you stay.... I never dreamed you'd leave in summer. In summer. You said you would be here when it rained. When it rained it rained. Ohhhohh I never dreamed you'd leave in summer. You said you wouldn't leave. Now the situation's made things change. Things change why didn't you stay?. Stay stay stay stay stay stay stay. Mmmmm stayyy. Uh-uh. Ohh why didn't you stay...