I did all that I should well all that I could. but will I be clean. I did all that I should well all that I could. but it isn't me. all my strength is dead and gone. slept as long I could as long as I should. to find comfort here. slept as long I could as long as I should. but I still have fear. all my strength is dead and gone.... black letter day. all the fun / joy / strength. ..has gone away. I drank all that I could much more than I should. in simple despair. I drank all that I could much more than I should. to find someone there. I hope monday will be a better day.