[Jay-Z's Mom:]. Sean Carter was born December 4th. Weighing in at 10 pounds 8 ounces. He was the last of my 4 children. The only one who didn't give me any pain when I gave birth to him. And that's how i knew that he was a special child. [Jay-Z Verse 1]. They say "they never really miss you til you dead or you gone". So on that note i'm leaving after the song. So you ain't gotta feel no way about Jay so long. Atleast let me tell you why i'm this way Hold on. I was conceived by Gloria Carter and Adaness Revees. Who made love under the Siccamore tree. Which makes me. A more sicker emcee my momma would claim. At 10 pounds when i was born i didn't give her no pain. Although through the years i gave her her fair share. I gave her her first real scare. I made it from birth and i got here. She knows my purpose wasn't purpose. I ain't perfect i care. But i feel worthless cause my shirts wasn't matchin my gear. Now i'm just scratchin the surface cause what's burried under there. Was a kid torn apart once his pop disappeared. I went to school got good grades could behave when i wanted. But i had demons deep inside that would raise when confronted. Hold on. [Jay-Z's Mom:]. Shawn was a very shy child growing up. He was into sports. And a funny story is. At 4 he taught hisself how to ride a bike. A two wheeler at that. Isn't that special?. But i noticed a change in him when me and my husband broke up. [Jay-Z Verse 2]. Now all the teachers couldn't reach me. And my momma couldn't beat me. Hard enough to match the pain of my pops not seeing me SO. With that distain in my membrain. Got on my pimp game. Fuck the world my defense came. Then Dahaven introuced me to the game. Spanish Jose introduced me to cane. I'm a hustler now. My gear is in and i'm in the in crowd. And all the wavey light skinned girls is lovin me now. My self esteem went through the roof man i got my swag. Got a volvo from this girl when her man got bagged. Plus i hit my momma with cash from a show that i had. Supposedly knowin nobody paid Jaz wack ass. I'm geting ahead of myself by the way i could rap. That came second to me movin this crack. Gimme a second i swear. I will say about my rap career. Til 96 came niggas i'm here. Good-bye. [Jay-Z's Mom:]. Shawn use to be in the kitchen. Beating on the table and rapping. And um until the wee hours of the morning. And then i bought him a boom box. And his sisters and brothers said he would drive them nuts. But that was my way to keep him close to me and out of trouble. [Jay-Z Verse 3]. Good-bye to the game all the spoils the adreneline rush. Your blood boils you in a spot knowing cops could rush. And you in a drop your so easy to touch. No two days are alike. Except the first and fifteenth pretty much. And "trust" is a word you seldom hear from us. Hustlers we don't sleep we rest one eye up. And the drought to find a man when the well dries up. You learn to work the water without workin thirst til die YUP. And niggas get tied up for product. And little brothers ring fingers get cut up. To show mothers they really got em. And this was the stress i live with til i decided. To try this rap shit for a livin. I Pray i'm forgiven. For every bad decision i made. Every sister i played. Cause i'm still paranoid to this day. And it's nobody fault i made the decisions i made. This is the life i chose or rather the life that chose me. If you can't respect that your whole perspective is wack. Maybe you'll love me when i fade to black. If you can't respect that your whole perspective is wack. Maybe you'll love me when i fade to black