Remind myself myself long ago. 'Fore drive 'fore I could vote. All the time holding a grudge. 'Fore I knew people could die just because. Shaft in a sling head for the bus. I knew what I liked was not very much. High at the time tied to the grid. Always afraid of those normal American kids. Oh all of my spirit leaked like a cut. I knew what I needed would never be enough. I was too high to change my bid. Always afraid to be a normal american kid. Always hating normal normal american empty summer days. Lightning crazed and cracked like an egg. High behind the garden shed. Painting myself as a normal American kid. I always hated it. High as high as high can loom. Under the sheets in my bedroom. I was high as high can get. Always afraid of those normal American kids. Oh bongs and jams and carpeted vans. Hate everything I don't understand. Hard times tightening the lid. I had to get away from those normal American kids. Always hated those normal American kids. Always hated those normal American kids