Trying to pretend it`s perfect. wish that I could run away and hide. in someone else's life. Feel like I'm 5 and helpless. Like a child left alone. Crying through the night. And when you yell at me. I get scared of you. All I want is to be close to you. I wish I could tell you the way I feel. But I can't break through. I don't wanna talk about it. I don't say another word. I've already said too much. Cause you just never seem to get it. Do you even care how much it hurts?. To hate the one you love. And I'm just waiting for the day. when I when I don't have to. dig up through the landmines. So afraid if I say the wrong thing. That you`re gonna blow up at me. Till I crumble to the ground. Finally I'm getting stronger. And if I have to walk away. I will and I won't turn around. If you saw my tears. would you look away?. Hold me close?. Would you beg to stay?. If I fall apart. and let you see inside?. Would you tell me it`s alright?. I don't wanna talk about it. I don't say another word. I've already said too much. Cause you just never seem to get it. Do you even care how much it hurts?. To hate the one you love. And I'm just waiting for the day. when I I don't have to. dig up through the landmines. How can I be so conflicted?. You`re the light and the darkness in my heart. You'll always have a place inside it. How can loving you be so hard?. Just want it to be ok. Someday someday..... I don't wanna talk about it. I don't say another word. I've already said too much. Cause you just never seem to get it. Do you even care how much it hurts?. To hate the one you love. And I'm just waiting for the day. when I can finally leave all this hurt behind. So I don't have to dig up through the landmines. I don't have to dig up through the landmines. Dig up through the landmines.