I remember now but I still have my doubts. I think it's gonna be today. Everybody came but it's just not the same. Why did it have to be today?. Now my chest is tight – no I am not all right. It doesn't have to be this way. Why does it have to be this way?. I don't know what's wrong. It's like I'm too far gone. It doesn't matter anyway. Fear is in my heart – just when I stop it starts. And I can never live this way. Freedom in a cage – no sun and too much rage. I don't know how much I can take. Push it down inside but it knows just where I hide. I know that "normal" is hard to fake. Bleeding into life – it's like a thousand knives. Are slowly turning me to this. Why does it have to be like this?. I don't know what's wrong. It's like I'm too far gone. It doesn't matter anyway. Fear is in my heart – just when I stop it starts. And I can never live this way. I lost again today.... I don't know what's wrong. It's like I'm too far gone. It doesn't matter anyway. Fear is in my heart – just when I stop it starts. And I can never live this way. Living with a curse sometimes it's even worse. It slowly kills me everyday. Something I despise is gonna take my life. I guess I'll try again today