What do I do to ignore what's behind me?. Do I follow my fate to escape blindly?. Do I hide my pride behind these bad dreams. And give into sad thoughts that are maddening?. Do I let go and try to stand it?. Or do I try to catch them red-handed?. Do I trust some and get fooled by phoniness?. Or do I trust nobody and live in loneliness?. The sunlight burns the skin of sleeping man. I make the right turns but I'm lost within. I put on my daily facade but then. I just end up. Getting hurt again. Chorus:. By myself (myself). I ask why (but in my mind I find). I can't rely on myself (myself). I ask why (but in my mind I find). I can't rely on myself. I can't hold on. (to what I want when I'm stretched so thin). It's all too much to take in. I can't hold on. (Playing against you I can't win). Without some failure sinking in. If I turn my back I'm defenseless. And to give in to fate seems senseless. If I hide my pride and I lie sleepless. and won't feel for the cope with my weakness. If I let them go i'll be outdone. But if I try to catch them i'll be outrun. If I'm killed by the questions like a cancer. Then i'll be buried in the silence of the answer. (chorus). By myself (myself). I ask why (but in my mind I find). I cant rely on myself (myself). I ask why (but in my mind I find). I can't rely on myself. I can't hold on. (to what I want when I'm stretched so thin). It's all too much to take in. I can't hold on. (Playing against you I can't win). Without some failure sinking in. How do you think. That I've lost so much. I'm always afraid. That I'm out of touch. How do you expect. That I will know what to do. When all I know. Is what you tell me to. Don't you (know). I can't tell you how to make it (go). No matter what it do how hard I (try). I can't seem to convince myself (why). I'm stuck on the outside(2x). I can't hold on. (to what I want when I'm stretched so thin). It's all too much to take in. I can't hold on. (Playing against you I can't win). Without some failure sinking in. I can't hold on. (to what I want when I'm stretched so thin). It's all too much to take in. I can't hold on. (Playing against me I can't win). Without some failure somewhere