We never saw from each other's sides or eye to eye. Just eye for eye lie for lie fight or flight. So much baggage need a luggage rack. But we carry on with our public spats and our feuds. Oh back in the news love taps when I dissed you. Like it was fun actually used to run. Back to the booth jump back in the studio. Give you a tongue lashing then you. Laughed at a stomach tat with the tomb stone. It was funny back in our youth. But then it wasn't after we knew. That we were done and actually through (and actually through). But if there's one fraction of truth. If it could be spun back I would do so many things different. 'Cause it was such a dumbass excuse. You hit me once and that I would use. To continue the pattern of abuse. Why did I punch back?. Girls your dad is a scumbag. I'm confused because. How come you can be a lord and a loser?. How come how come you can be a liar and a good father?. A good dad but a bad husband. Why are you a good father. A great dad but a bad husband?. You were the beat I love with a writer's block. Just a line that's hot that I forgot. We laughed a little cried a lot. I'll never forget when you came home and you held Hailie. Day before you went to jail and daily. How we would wait for that mail lady. Or by the phone for mom to call. And I watch you pull yourself up. And we decided on giving it one more try despite it all. You're my lightning rod when my sky gets dark. I'm your shiny rocks in that tiny box. When we tied the knot when we broke the knot. Every line we crossed we were supposed to not. Every time we fought the insults they got. Thrown too far. Words that we said that we didn't mean. The words that we meant that we didn't say. The ones that we thought that should've said. Letters written that we coulda read. Which maybe woulda lead to some good instead. And had this put to bed. But I'd be lying still if I wasn't sitting here asking myself. How come you can be a lord and a loser?. How come how come you can be a liar and a good father?. A good dad but a bad husband. Why are you a good father?. A great dad but a bad husband. (dad) (you said). Forever be a hero in my eyes (I reply). But there's always another side to a good father. A great dad but a bad husband. We brought out the worst in each other. Someone had to make the sparring end. 'Cause I loved you but I hated that me. And I don't wanna see that side again. But I'm sorry Kim. More than you could ever comprehend. Leaving you was fucking harder than. Sawing off a fucking body limb. Once upon a time where all we had. Maybe that was what drew us to each other. It was true love shit that we never knew was possible. We might have loved each other too much. And maybe that's what made us do what we did to each other. All the screw-ups. 'Cause you always thought that you was more in love with me. And I was thinking I was more in love than you was. For all the times that we thought it worked. 'Til we saw how wrong we were. When the dust settles now and all the dirt. And if I touch the rawest nerve all I want is for us not to hurt. And it's been an exhaustive search to find the words. But I just heard "Mockingbird". And got the urge to jot some verses and thoughts. The purpose was not to stir up open wounds. I've caused got a few and so have you. Or argue whose fault it was partly yours partly mine. But really no one's this is so tough. I'm getting choked up. Oh fuck it we both suck. We broke up got back together. We both thought we had forever. Not bad people just bad together. We were so nuts backstabbed each other. Another blow struck but there's no ducking this blow. 'Cause it's over and it's closure. But I'm not so sure how to close this I just don't know. How some people can be so good. At one thing and so fucked at a whole 'nother. Shit it's no wonder. How come you can be a lord and a loser?. How come how come you can be a liar and a good father?. A good dad but a bad husband. Why are you a good father?. A great dad but a bad husband. (dad) (you said). Forever be a hero in my eyes (I reply). But there's always another side to a good father. A great dad but a bad husband