2 years today I just pulled the blankets off the mirrors for the first time. Surprised at the new lines on my face that remind how I tried to catch an illusion. Hiding from me hiding from facing the height of what I hope to be. Kept all my eggs in someone else's basket. Thinking they would care enough to not let someone smash it. What's wrong with me I got this need to give back to a world that keeps me. And if I do just for myself it's like I'm selfish. 'Cause I always had this thing about staying grounded and down. And it's not been worth it to share with the people I pick that I sought to prove they care. And I feel like a pussy sayin' shit out loud. But I'm openin' my eyes and I see myself now. I left myself behind. While chasing after dreams I could never find. I lived for all your lives. A machine for you to unplug at any time. I just realized today that I've wasted away. Maybe it's too late - the end has a date - and I'm cramming for the final test. It hasn't been a total mess I'm just striving for higher. And humility will build me if I confess. Some people do what they chose some people look for every bump in the road. And some pretend and they play a good role. For the people that depend - they all come and go. Wrote half an album in 2 long days as I reflected and tried to take a hard next step. Of a spiritual kind so maybe I can find some sense as I pick apart a burdened mind. So I spread out on the floor all the pieces that I thought were fully formed. I see how much more I've got to go. I reach for a new drug to medicate my soul. I left myself behind. While chasing after dreams I could never find. I lived for all your lives. A machine for you to unplug at any time. Just realized today. I left myself behind. While chasing after dreams I could never find. I lived for all your lives. To forget about the answers I need to find. I just realized today that I've wasted away