I just need this to be all right. I can't feel this another night. I can't take this I come unglued. I might breakdown in front of you. Necessary to medicate. I'm not sleeping can't stay awake. Can't see through this. Too much pressure. Drowning in this. Too much pressure. If you need me I'll be here. Half unconscious to escape my fear. My head hurts this s*** isn't getting me high. My chest is so tight I think I am going to die. My stomach's in knots and the room starts to spin. As I wait for this valium to slowly kick in.