[Chorus: Ja Rule]. Love don't love me. Is the only thing that seems to hold me. God can you explain why. Love don't love me. Is the only thing that seems to hold me. God can you explain why. [Ja Rule]. I sit alone in my four cornered room staring at candles. Gettin hot tryin to handle this hand that's been dealt to me. I don't need especially in this world overwhelmed with greed. See we cut from a different tree. Y'all niggaz hope and I wish a nigga would fuck with INC. Went through the troubles and the struggle of hustlin and runnin (what). So the ones that come behind don't' run through nothin. They would fear no man but God and do a lot of frontin. And I'm here to tell the world that pain is lovin'. Like when I die I hope it rains. Cuz if it does that mean the lord shared them niggaz pain. Here lie our man slain. And I would get out the game if I could. But I promised all my life to my kids I'd make good. Can't stand my father and love my momma. STILL I TRY God can you explain why. [Chorus]. [Ja Rule]. I live my life under pistol cuz lately love ain't been a issue. With who's gone miss you when you dead and gone. Will my name live on? Or will I be the last to die and breathe and eat. Cuz I need a little love and affection and baby. I live like every day was my last one. Dang I've been living my life... (haha yea). Like I'm a leave this world unmarked smiles combed to horror. For all them days when it rains. And it feels like thangs ain't gettin no better for me. Nobody loves me sometimes I wish God could come down and hug me. And wipe the tears from eyes. Cuz in my heart I know only the strong survive. And I die for my family so they can live a better life. I try God can you explain why. [Chorus]. [Ja Rule]. I'll sacrifice my life fuck all the dumb shit. Cuz being black and broke's gettin redundant. My grow to be a world leader like X and King. If I can live a longer than Pac and BIG. What do (?) niggaz run red you could tell by the lives we live. If it changes it'll be God's prediction so pain inflicted like Jane's Addiction. Live right like Christians but dance with the death. It's like callin' stones a devil the road is unlevel. Still I walk through the valleys of shadows of death gasping for air. Breathe in my last breath. My daughter told me first words my son walked his first steps. And all through life we anticipate death. And if pain is truly love for my family I DIE God can you explain why.