I don't know what I need. I'm scared of life I'm scared of what it means to me. This broken home is just not what it used to me. Too fast to slow me down. Too loud to drown me out. I doubt I'll ever get this ghost to what I was. Because I've seen the grim design as I hold on. I hope you talk about the future when I'm gone. But if I'm wrong I know the reason why. I I can't feel anything. I can't feel anything that's under my control. I I won't do anything. I won't do anything that's out of my control. I can see myself. Extended past the limits of my cry for help. I don't believe I've ever come this way before. So why do I know my way. What do I have to say and do. To drain that look of shame away from you. I knew we'd never find our peace. Hold on I hope you celebrate the best before I'm gone. But if I'm wrong I'll know that it was me. I I can't feel anything. I can't feel anything that's under my control. I I won't do anything. I won't do anything that's out of my out of my control. I don't know what you need. I'm scared of love I'm scared of what it means to me. This empty house is burning down around me. So cold I don't know why. So much for holding out. I hope I suffocate before I let you choke. On words you know I'd never say. Oh no. don't go. I want you to destroy me one more time. So when I die. I'll know you really loved me. I I can't feel anything. I can't feel anything that's under my control. I I won't do anything. I won't do anything that's out of my out of my control. Out of my control yeah