In denial no. my life's a trial. I'm not denying. that every little bit hurts. It's a problem. that I'm not solving. Don't mind admitting. I feel like quitting this job. for a while getting away. before it gets any worse today. You're in denial. and that is final. You're not admitting. you should be quitting. all these. queens and fairies. and muscle Marys. the rough trade boyfriend. who in his pathetic own way. denies he's gay. Why can't you see?. This is a fantasy world. Think I'm going mad. How d'you know if you're. going mad?. Look at me I'm lonely. Look at me I'm sad. I'm not denying. I could be trying. a little harder. to deal with some of this stuff. Know what I'm thinking?. Less drugs and drinking. No cigarettes and you'd feel. a little less rough. Is that enough?. My life is absurd I'm living it. upside down. like a vampire working at. night sleeping all day. A dad with a girl who knows. he's gay. Can you love anyway?