And everytime i stand. I fall back down. Bleeding healing. Waiting to come around. And everytime i land. It hurts even more. Reaching for the handle. Of a closed door. I check the rear view mirror. Like it's got all the answers. Looking up ahead. Seems pointless i can't answer. The phone or the messages. Or any type of contact. I miss it the most. The heat from the contact. The numbers keep coming. The drummer keeps drummin'. I'm wanna start running. I'm ready to start runnin'. Chase my breath. Don't want what comes next. Comparing new people to you. And that's not the best. Of it i loved it how. You started to cry. Reveal an ounce of loss. Before i left for the night. It was the most saw. Of a heart inside you. I've met people for a day. That hug harder than you. You're afraid scared. Cold and alone. Singing in the same key. With a different tone. You could have said please. With a blow so low. You hit damn hard. And i'm stronger than most. And everytime i stand. I fall back down. Bleeding healing. Waiting to come around. And everytime i land. It hurts even more. Reaching for the handle. Of a closed door. You wanna touch the bruise. You pick at the scab. You wanna break the bone. You wanna sign the cast. We did't last. And neither did this. You're worthless now. And so is a friendship. You're kiddin' yourself. With a lack of color. And remember to laugh. Everytime you stutter. With the digital toys. The clean cut boys. Your oversized coat. And robot voiced throat. How are the parties. The people and the liquor. How are the drugs. That you need to get thinner. It's all part of the deal. You without me. Me without you. Is gettin' harder to do. Still haven't got a clue. What it was this time. Like what's new with you. And who's hand replaced mine. Still can't believe. That it's come to this. Retracin' old steps. That i'm bound to miss. And everytime i stand. I fall back down. Bleeding healing. Waiting to come around. And everytime i land. It hurts even more. Reaching for the handle. Of a closed door