I started out on the wrong foot. Now I’m not myself. I am Jekyll I am Hyde. Found this place to hide. Come seek me. Oh so up and down. So back and forth. So insecure. Can’t get this taste out of my mouth. Swallow it down. Pretend. Hold it hold it all in. Let it build up. Build a bomb. Blow it blow it away. Clear it all out. Just end it. I’m just a normal person. Without those problems. When did it change?. Admissions so embarrassing. I’m on the verge of tears again. Hold it hold it all in. Let it build up. Build a bomb. And blow it blow it away. Clear it all out. Just end itOh look I took the Band-Aid off. Did I take it off too soon?. Hysterical confession. My big courageous move. Don’t gasp at the predictable. A comforting lie can’t last preordained checklist of this awkward love. It’s so sad. Hold it hold it all in. Let it build up. Oh build a bomb. Blow it blow it away. Clear it all out. Just end it. Sort it sort it out. Just give it back. No thank you. Toss it toss it away. Eliminate. Just give up. I can’t decide. This tug of war. I’m feeling weak