Too Good to Be True: A Memoir
A Q&A with Ben AnastasSusan Choi is the author of three acclaimed novels,The Foreign  Student(winner of an Asian American Literary Award),American  Woman(a Pulitzer Prize finalist) andA Person of Interest(finalist for the PEN/Faulkner Award).  She recently won a 2012 James Beard  Foundation Award for her food writing.Susan Choi:What made you want to write this book?Ben Anastas:I’m not sure that I ever really wanted to  writeToo Good to Be True. The motivation behind the book ran much  deeper than that. The word “want” implies a choice, and when I started  writing the book’s first pages, having the freedom to choose what to do with  my life—even calling myself a writer—felt like a privilege I had lost.I was 41 and my literary career was flat lining. I hadn’t published a  book in the U.S. in almost ten years, and the magazines I’d been writing for  had either disappeared or stopped answering my emails I’d lost my marriage  in a mind-bending divorce drama. I was scrambling to keep it all together  and telling myself that rescue was just around the corner and everything  would be fine—but when the book starts, in the fall of 2010, my financial  life was about to hit rock bottom.Nothing I tried was working. So I started over again, from the beginning.  I took an empty notebook and a couple of pens and I started going into my  son’s room when he wasn’t there and writing about what was happening, what  getting lost in too much life really felt like.SC:This book is so startling, and funny, and  disturbing, and gut-wrenchingly honest. Were there people in your life you  particularly hoped would or wouldn’t read it?BA:If you’re startled as a reader or moved to laughter  and/or tears, then I must have done my job, right?You never know what episodes from your private life will end up making it  into a novel. I knew my parents would have to readToo Good to Be  Trueeventually, but I did put it off until I felt confident about what  I was doing. The title comes from some very bad therapy that my brother, my  sister and me all had during the summer of 1972—a lifetime ago—while our  mother was being treated for depression. Their marriage was ending, it was a  low-point in their lives, and we were bystanders in a drama that we didn’t  understand. I feel very protective of my parents so I was worried from the  start about how they would react to those sections of the book. I just had  to gulp and hand the manuscript over.SC:How did fatherhood affect the writing of this book,  if at all?  How has it affected your writing in general?BA:My son, who’s five now and too young to read the  book—another sigh of relief—is the driving force behindToo Good to Be  True, even when he’s not present, and the final chapter is a kind of  letter to him explaining what I’ve been up to. So, in a very real sense, the  book wouldn’t exist without him. You really do need a reason to go on when  you find yourself broke at forty-one and hiding collection notices in your  underwear drawer, and he was a very big reason why I managed to go on.When a child’s room is empty, you really know it. There’s no clamor  inside, no calls for “Daddy,” no astonishing new mess to clean up. As a  part-time father, it’s a quiet that I’ve had to learn to get used to. There  was something very satisfying about the ritual of going into his room and  trying to find my way on paper. His bed was made and empty, his stuffed  animals were heaped at my side, his clothes were stacked on the dresser and  there I was with my notebook, trying to untangle the mystery of my origins  so he wouldn’t have to.SC:What comes next?BA:There’s a novel brewing. Definitely fiction. I’ve  had my fill of reality experiments!