The Marriage of Sticks
Jonathan Carroll is a writer other writers envy.  He's been described as a "cult favorite" whose works go out of print too quickly in the USA, despite his popularity in Europe and the admiration of reviewers.  It may be because Carroll uses fantastic elements, but doesn't write genre fantasy; his books are often haunting, even frightening, but they're not horror novels. He puzzles you, surprises you, and always makes you think about how what he's saying might apply to your life.InThe Marriage of Sticks, Miranda Romanac is a thirtysomething dealer in rarities who loves her work and lifestyle, but feels unfulfilled. As her friend Zoe says,you don't expect anything better to happen because you've lived too long and seen too much to have any more hope. I'm luckier than you.  I don't think life's very friendly either, but I know wecancontrol hope.  You can turn it on and off like a spigot.  I try to keep mine on full blast.Miranda struggles to change her life after upsetting revelations at a high school reunion. She has an affair with a married man who leaves his wife and children for her.  She lives with ghosts of her past and future, with what might have been and could be. She's forced to face the consequences of her actions and the effect she has on others' lives by being who she is. Finally, she learns "to live without everything" and be content.--Nona Vero