'Dearest Almighty Universe,  Seriously, wtf?!? Why must you always toy with my feelings? Are you trying to push me off the edge? Bc I'm already walking on it.   I HATE you with a passion.  Me|||I'm feeling really anxious about returning to the social media world after a long absence. Unfortunately, it's the only way to contact certain people because I don't have any other way to contact...|||Believe me...I can relate. Don't worry, enlightenment will come.|||Your personality type:                  Peacemaker (VOI-S)                                                                                                                                          ...|||Deep down inside, I just know that we will meet again. To be honest, I absolutely don't want to see you again, but I intuitively know that it's not over between us. And if I don't see you again in...|||Lately Ix92ve become obsessed with personal finance. I have my ESTP friend to thank for bringing to light the importance of being financially smart. I donx92t really need a lot of money, just enough to...|||Note to self: Don't fantasize about the next potential mate you meet. Be more realistic this time. Accept what is.|||Emotionally numb. Tired of feeling.|||These past couple of months I have been experiencing synchronicity in the form of numbers, particularly 1:11, 11:11, 2:22, and 4:44. Just today I saw 111 three times.   Patiently waiting for...|||I'm sad, but I have to survive.|||Infp!|||I tried it once. We hit it off pretty well via text for a month. He led me on and made me think there was something there. He even said he liked me. Then when we finally met...I thought our meeting...|||I sent you a long-ish message on New Year's Eve meant as somewhat of a farewell. However, you only took it as a simple New Year's greeting, as all I received was a short thank you for my kind...|||At the end of the day, I'm the delusional fool who ends up suffering. Nice people finish last.|||If I know what to do and I've done it before, then why is it more difficult this time around?  Letting go...|||I used too much of my heart recently and yes, I did feel worthless. But when I also use too much of my head, I also feel worthless. :(|||I normally don't like crowds, but it felt nice to be walking around in the city tonight. I enjoy the feeling of anonymity; the chances of running into a familiar face and being forced to have small...|||Why is it that whenever I'm with you, my sorrows melt away? However, when we finally part ways, my tears can't stop falling?  Yes, you just want to be friends. I get it.  I'm trying to accept...|||Geez..that's a loooooong time. lol It took me at least 5 years to get over someone I was never even with. So maybe for me, 750 years?? :laughing:|||How long more until I can get over this heartache?? Hit me with amnesia so I could purge 30 years worth of memories from my life. Or turn me into one of those Cybermen from Doctor Who.|||So I accidentally forgot my smartphone in my work vehicle at my office today. My Supervisor had already left with the keys by the time I realized it, plus I didn't have his personal contact info to...|||In the past few weeks there hasn't been a day that I didn't shed a tear...   I think it's time to regain my sense of rationality and rebuild my walls...|||Ok, so maybe I overreacted without knowing the whole story. After all, sometimes I can't help but think the worst of a situation. However, now I realize more and more that maybe it IS time to let go....|||So I guess this is it then? I've just wasted all my time on you once again. :(   Why does this always happen to me? No matter what I do, it seems the same patterns always repeats itself. What wrong...|||I never thought that day would come when a person becomes my drug...when a dose of him brings me to an amazing high, and the absence of him puts me into the most unbearable state of withdrawal.|||Dear Cosmos,    I see a trend. Every time I get my hopes up you always seem to find a way to bring them down.     I'm not going to fall for it this time.|||I will never forget the very first time I felt alone and  misunderstood...the very first time I felt like I never truly belonged in this world.   I was only five then and now I'm thirty. ...|||Thank you for your support and advice, Monsieur Melancholy. I'm indeed taking on too much at once and I think I need to find a way to untangle myself. Went for a walk at the park today and that...|||I reached the threshold and broke down in tears again tonight. I hate feeling this way! For once I'd like to rid myself of all emotion.|||Why can't I, just for once, be optimistic and allow myself to be happy??|||Annoyed at myself for worrying about people who don't even give a sh*t about me.|||INTP for me. I also remember testing ISFJ when I was younger.|||I must be a fool for getting all worked up over you.  You probably only see me as a temporary plaything to be discarded as soon as you grow bored.    The emotional and spiritual connection is...|||After an amazing month full of adventure, I'm back to reality.  I really don't want to be here. :(   Doctor Who, will you whisk me away to another world?|||You took the words right out of my mouth. I was going to write the same thing.|||I went for the sole purpose of learning and improving my skills, but had to put myself through very uncomfortable social situations. I tried to be more social by joining in, but in the end I failed. ...|||I think may I have lost my voice now but I felt immediate relief after a good scream. I hope you felt the pain in my rage.|||Thanks for your comment  CircusCat!  I totally agree. Often I'm afraid to express my emotions for fear they might react that way. And sometimes I feel that they just don't want to hear what I have to...|||Rarely do I open up to people, but every time I do I always feel like I'm a nuisance to them.  :(|||So you're back in town for a short time and we're finally going to have that date we never had so many years ago. To be honest, while you may sound excited, I just really want to get this over with...|||I highly recommend this book A Mind For Numbers: How to Excel at Math and Sciences(Even if you flunked Algebra)* by Barbara Oakley. The author herself struggled with math in her school years but...|||I feel awful for feeling this way about you.  I thought I would be happy.  After all, I gave you all the encouragement to break out of your shell in order to set out on an incredible journey.  But...|||My inner world is dark at the moment.  However, without dark there would be no light. I just need to find the light switch somewhere in there.|||90% of my life I've had my hair long - shoulder length to mid-back.  Personally, I just find longer hair easier to manage because I can easily tie it in a ponytail.  I think I've had my hair above...|||This emotional pain and anger I feel....will it ever go away??  Happiness comes from within I tell myself but....|||I tend to prefer guys closer to my age, ranging up to 5 years younger or  5 years older.  As I'm getting older though, I don't mind guys up to 10 years older.  But there's just no way I would date...|||I'm here thinking about all the friends I cut ties with. I know it's partly my fault for pushing them away, but if all I feel is sadness when I think of them then it's all for the better.   I'm...|||I'm not as strong as other people imagine me to be.  Truth is...I've fallen into a hole I don't think I can ever climb out of. :(|||https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G6aBAQsq5jI  I <3 Taka!! :th_love:|||Funny...just moments ago I was writing in my private journal about how I feel like I'm falling back into an existential depressive state.  Then I logged on to PerC and saw this post.    Existential...'