'What an awesome first experience with meditation. Weird, scary...hopefully it has show you some of the limitless potential of the mind.   I focus on trance meditation, but I have also done zazen...|||Some thoughts, may they help you:  Our emotions are in a constant state of chaos. One minute everything is perfect and has always been perfect, the next minute nothing is perfect and could never be...|||Somewhere in childhood I had a thought. I'm going to read everything and be a genius and say amazing things all the time.   It took another 20 years for me to tell myself to shut the hell up.  ...|||Family in Italy and Israel. At one point I was going to make aliyah and join the IDF with my cousins, to be able to call myself an Israeli. Instead I went to college in Philadelphia. Then moved down...|||INFJ's love talking about love.  The first time I felt love was with a Norwegian blonde girl. She was beautiful inside and out. I loved hearing her speak, hearing her ideas. She was a pianist, I...|||Haba Aba Daba Aba I'm not fully sure I can understand why one would call that pretentious, hate the creator, then mock the piece, then quote Schopenhauer on the epistemology of artwork. I loved that...|||I'm on the alpha male side of the spectrum, so emotion has always been a very curious subject for me. I am an empath, yet I lift weights and am extremely fit. I tend to let only few friends close,...|||Chocolatentropy I agree. Such are the actions of someone who is uncomfortable in their own skin. You are not alone in that, ever.|||I was an art major. I was given scholarships for my portfolio, the dean of my school even bought my artwork. I thought that was direction. Art was just something I was always good at, it was not a...|||Most people's actions are directed by two things: control and fear; and they will fight hard as hell to deny it.   The point at which the pain of staying the same was greater than the pain of...|||I like using the Sanskrit word for reincarnation: Samsara, to describe some of my behaviors. When I am alone I may be profoundly comfortable, but at some point I will begin missing company. When I am...|||Glassland I can empathize deeply, I believe that in your snapshot lies pieces of someone that I once was. I once romanticized my hardships and turned them into manifesto-like certainties. I once...|||ani medabere ivrit...hebrew is a beautiful language. I miss Israel a lot.|||If I have to go back and forth in my head about whether or not I have romantic feelings for a girl, I most likely do not. I've recognized this pattern in myself, but in the past I would alternate...|||http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6M17aG_Po2Y|||banned for changing your avatar|||Revenge ban for previously banning me.|||OldManRivers I look forward to your posts when I see them. That one word was so much. Thanks for everything you've ever said on here.  As for me, I'll finally have my masters, or doctorate. I...|||Max  ‘Love at first sight’ always sounded like a bullshit retrograde reinterpretation. Like something lifted from those perfectly banal movie love affairs and pop-culture dreams by couples that...|||Facebook is like looking out of a window at a summer day.  Reddit seems to be a race to the most satirical, sardonic comment.   Tumblr is like building a digital bedroom, except I already have...|||Hey frosty I'll trade you a fuck if you'll give me your dunkaroos for it at lunch.   My mom packed it for me today :dry:|||Banned for shooting Ketamine out of your username|||Philadelphia, born and raised!|||I'm a leo, but my moon is in pisces. I have no idea what that means though!|||http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qj1ErN7tn9A|||I am indoctrinated into an academic mindset. Falsefiability, reproducibility, objectification...all not exactly feely feely. I am not limited to this though, very spiritual somehow. The truce made to...|||I tend to see this type of metaphor/simile-infused mindset in terms of Piaget's stages of development and neuroscience (because its interesting stuff to me).   Within the Symbolic Functioning of...|||I was 8. Found the guitar! Also I grew a sick beard and watched cartoon network forever.|||Welcome to the forum!   When I first joined I didn't think I would actually stick around...my username is even a joke to be honest, yet I found myself really loving the people on here. I feel you...|||Welcome to the forum! 25 years of experience, wow! I am sure your opinions and knowledge will be valuable to many, and I hope you enjoy your time here.|||Hello Lisa, welcome to the forum! This site is really wonderful -- I hope you find it as enjoyable as I have, and hope to learn more about you in the infj section as well as around the site.|||Banned for an analysis of variance.|||good choice! love that book too.   good luck in school.|||Banned for being two standard deviations to the left, your z-score is perplexing me.|||here's mine:   http://i.imgur.com/JKnuX7I.gif|||Whats your favorite book? What are you doing with your life?|||Maybe my lack of fear is ignorance alone.  I don't fear death.  I actively want my loved ones to die before me, because I can't bear the thought of them having to suffer my own death. There is...|||@INeverJustThink Sorry I am just responding! Work two jobs...school starts tomorrow.    From someone struggling with severe lonliness (while surrounded by people) and low-grade cyclothymia...I...|||kay002 I see you mention defense mechanisms. I think lots of people remain locked in Freud's concepts, but I suggest looking up Vaillant's categories/hierarchy as well!  For instance, defense...|||Hey everyone go get hit by a bus or do heroin ok?  Thanks!  Yeah...I tend to compartmentalize my sociopathic dictator into one corner of my mind, starved of any real resources. Its a little North...|||INeverJustThink   Its all a balancing act with alone time. Easy to fall. Its like saying because I love sleep, I won't get out of bed. I need people communion time, dearly. Because people that...|||The least stupid thread I've seen, ever.   bubbleboy wish I knew you, I'd have gone with you.   I think people need a witness. Need someone to see, hear, touch them. I agree with Jung in his...|||I actually like the fact that I can draw the human body, either gender, in any pose, just from figuring out where the spine is as reference for the rest of the body.  I like that I am at a point...|||Went to a place called kungfu neck tie tonight. Hipster bar.   Oh my god its like fuck parenthetical girls their music is shit   I screamed MILK ME in his face and he gave me an OMG WTF BRO...|||I yell two things at strangers. Its my form of exhibitionism: less dick, more OMG WTF BRO. 1. MOM!? and 2. MILK ME. <3  But no for real, my mom smokes long cruella deville cigs and drives a...|||Some ridiculous encounters lately:  I met a troupe of young people dressed as old people (diapers, canes, medical gowns) in a forest chanting sponge bath. There was a guy on psychedelics...|||When the leaves first turn lime green before they settle into a darker shade, and when they turn into yellow and fire before they fall. I like the whole transition, always sort of reminded me of a...|||How true! Kubla Khan is my absolute favorite...But hey, Frankenstein and even Dr Jekyll and Mr Hyde were inspired by dreams as well. And I agree: pain is the engine that starts it all. Catharsis to...|||Klaro26 It was true in a dream at least. This was my Kubla Khan of sorts. Literally, I woke up from a dream in another dream, to a woman made of stone, and she just wanted to escape and be me.|||revised. (like this one)  Antedeluvia. The dream idea.   It was an error to think I did not know the mason yet there I was awoken by a woman made of stone. His tools ripped from the body of a...'