Yes, sadly :/ ...  sometimes I would just wallow in my misery fully intentionally just to feel something when it got really bad. It was still better than apathy yuck. But not at all healthy.|||When you say sense of longing, I connect with that much more. It's more like I'm a figment of of a dream, someone's imagination, and until I wake up, I'm assuming pass away, I won't understand it....|||I was depressed throughout high school and up until starting university for about a period of 6 years of which I remember very little of except how inwardly angry, just furious I was with the world...|||That's the first part that went away, the very slight resentment I ever felt, but I'm purely worried about not caring about others anymore. hmm I think I know that feeling. It's like the emotional...|||I'm having major issues with the exact same thing. I hate schedules, they gross me out. Smelling the roses is what life's all about ;)  On a serious note lately (over the last month) I've just...|||Welcome :) I struggle with not picking my things up and leaving for wherever my legs can take me. My home would then be my path. But how so do you mean? elaborate?|||Thank you for the link, yeah those words were like a checklist for me, usually apathy with nihilism, cynicism with misanthropy very connected to each other :/.. Ah boundaries, never good with those,...|||For the last couple of months I've avoided everyone. I've avoided all my friends, though I did give them so many explanations. That it wasn't them, it was me, that yes I knew they were there for me...|||I feel like I'm losing my empathy. Or rather I have a bad feeling that I'm losing my empathy. What is this? Anyone ever feel like this? I don't like it. I feel like I'm not feeling things as strongly...|||Kill myself and avoid the situation in it's entirety  :mellow: meh... avoid avoid avoid|||I would have previously, in fact I still do in a way. But, more so, just that I feel different in terms of the regular population or my perspective of it rather. I didn't really have an interest in...|||Lurking because my best friend is an INTP and I find it interesting|||Fears|||If you ever get caught in a loop; You have morose feelings of a sort and you avoid others to prevent it negatively effecting them because, I don't know you feel ungrateful or as if you're being...|||Thanks for the info :) been away from the forums for a bit!|||Revolutionist It's good music what can I say? :D do you have any favourites?   I know it's great! They were so ahead of their time.  Whenever I listen to a band too much ( all the time) I try and...|||ahahah thank you...|||It's one of my favourite songs though I do not listen to them specifically often.|||Television??? Marquee Moon, have you heard it? :D My favourite bands of all time, The Strokes, Julian Casablancas, The Animals, The Horrors, Pixies, The Arctic Monkeys, Novembre, The White Stripes,...|||Alas, only on the internet. But that's something still :)|||Anytime! :)|||But the fact that you try is a lot more than what some would do? I say good for you :) Keep practicing, you're probably better than you think.|||Funnily enough, same here haha I don't know really. I think maybe an epiphany. Sort of like, wow someone can be thinking on the same bandwidth as I am. I never realized there were people who I can...|||Very much so! You've succeeded! :D What instruments do you play?  hey Revolutionist, fancy seeing you here!|||I see!  I don't think you're evil yet either! I mean I don't think I will! I mean you're not. You are not. hahaha I've admitted to it very openly when I've felt I was as if I were truly evil, but...|||Hi! Privet! Salam!  Welcome! I'm new here myself too :)  I used to say the same myself, about countless interests. As a kid (though I knew it was ridiculous) I sometimes said I'd have a different...|||Aha even better. Oh cool! I'm not very used to mbti for others yet. But I heard INTJ is like, er, cool. Like er coughevil mastermindscough but I'm probably completely wrong right? The only people I...|||hahahaha :') Try that in real life, the reactions are great :laughing: So have you taken the mbti too? care to share?|||oh you, I like you.|||Chance to let you thiiink I'm an expert. hmm why not, it sounds good to me, I give you full credit for this new career direction. If 20 years down the line I were to win an honor, or asked why...|||bahahahaha-oh wait I lost my chance???|||A picture on the internet caught my eye, voila, google image search. I can't help myself I get sudden extreme curiosity :tongue:|||oh I'll definitely check it out then! haha originally it's Italian so you wouldn't normally come across it I just like to look up anything that grabs my attention :P|||hahaha it's Corto Maltese! A comic book character by the late Hugo Pratt. Wow I haven't even seen the Time bandits (fail on my part) but I saw the trailer and I see that :laughing:  Now I'll have to...|||0____0 eh. I will keep it in mind!|||Thank you! That's great, love your name... haha maybe he's just misunderstood, trying to be friendly :laughing:|||Heyy  So I've looking through these forums every once in a while and I thought might as well join in, because I might as well join in. But really everyone seems awesome and cool.  :blushed: I'm an...