'Since I live in the one of the prime areas for seeing the full eclipse, I really hope that the traffic is at least somewhat manageable because I still have to work on Monday. I knew that I should...|||I have to keep telling myself that I will get into an occupational therapy program  somewhere, even if I don't have any experience as a CNA or EMT and even  if I suck at standardized testing.|||Today I got to feel what it's like to dislocate your shoulder. It hurts as much as they say it does.|||I'm trying not to feel resentful of trying to do the right thing all of the time and feeling like I don't get anything out of it.|||I wish that the constant voice that tells me that I'm not good enough,  not productive enough,  and is currently telling me that I'm partially  to blame for my grandma's dementia would just shut the...|||I've already finished my major. I'm a non-trad playing catch up so I can start applying for the 2019-2020 year.|||So instead of taking college algebra this fall, I might have to take chemistry or physics instead due to all of the college algebra sections being full. But of course I need to email the schools that...|||I hope I find a counselor that's a good fit. I have one or two local ones in mind that focus on the kind of therapy and areas that I need to work on, but I think it's a step in the right direction....|||After having a rough day emotionally for no reason and exhausting myself from trying not to cry at work all day, I've decided to suck it up and call about counseling tomorrow.|||The argument of everybody else does it has never worked for me. You have  to actually give me a good reason for something, otherwise I'm not  going to do it or I'm going to do the opposite just to...|||I guess the road paved with good intentions leads to frustration,  especially when you drive an hour and a half to spend another hour and a  half convincing someone that you're not their shitty...|||I got the news today that Grandma has fluid on her heart, which means  she's pretty much screwed. The nursing home is going to keep an eye on  her, but she has a do not resuscitate order, so when she...|||The cat ruined my photogenic moment by getting out of the New Belgium  Folly beer box I had opened for him because he had wanted to lay in it.|||Grandma thinks that I need someone to take care of me, which is worse than her fear of leaving me alone. Fuck.|||https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8SLL5ChXsd8|||The fucking people at Grandma's nursing home tried to get us to pay an extra  thousand a month for therapy without doctor's orders. They called me  first because they thought I would say yes, but of...|||So I went on a date tonight. I think I made a friend, anyway. I'm not really interested in dating him though because he's too dominant for my tastes and his energy is like a force of nature, when I...|||I finally called to make a counseling appointment and of course, I have to see a nurse practitioner before I can be referred to the counselor, but I'll go with it if it turns out that the counselor...|||One of these days, I will stop feeling guilty for putting myself first. I know a lot of it is wrapped in my guilt in having to put Grandma in a nursing home and my having to deal with grief over her...|||So I'm working on a poem that makes me uncomfortable and that I don't  really feel qualified to write, but maybe that's why I should write it  and read it tomorrow night.|||So thanks to being a teeth grinder and jaw thruster, my cheeks hurt due to stress. Yay.|||So  I already have one series with a long timeline that takes place between  the mid-2020's to maybe the late 2070's, but since I decided that  series takes place in an alternate dimension because...|||I got a sparkle (bonus points) for my discussion board posts in Abnormal Psych last week. I'll take it.|||I'm pretty sure I got the stupid APA citation right, but of course I had  to go into freakout mode and make sure they were all right, even if it  was just a discussion board post.|||So on the discussion board for my Abnormal Psychology class this week, I have no partner for the biological perspective. Really?|||629458  629466  Took some selfies without glasses.|||I go back for x-rays and a checkup on my foot on Tuesday. I had ended up bruising a bone a couple of weeks ago and since then, I've been wearing a smaller boot and a much larger boot at work. I...|||I just did a facepalm because one of my online professors called bonus points sparkles in her syllabus.|||I tripped on the stairs tonight and now I have a spectacular bruise forming on my bunion.|||In reference to me probably getting bronchitis from a customer, I texted a friend.   Some of the pervy old guys who like to hit on me might be glad to have passed on an std.|||I was officially diagnosed with bronchitis this morning and was given antibiotics for pneumonia as a precaution. I really hope the antibiotics help rid of the low-grade fever I've had since Tuesday....|||Now I'm starting to think that this cough I've had for the past couple of days is bronchitis because now I'm running a fever.|||Instead of freaking out about what all I have to do over the next year  and worrying about not having an appropriate background for OT, I'm  going to go ahead and take a CPR class through the local...|||https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=c1p2CIdas-Y|||608202  The lighting's weird, but whatever.|||Fine, universe. I won't joke about taking cow heart dissection parts  that look like roast beef as part of Thanksgiving dinner to relatives I  don't like. It's probably bad karma.|||I had to permanently put my grandma in a nursing home earlier this week. I really think she doesn't have more than a few months left and now I'm really trying not to let the grief and loneliness...|||Dear body, I know it's been an emotionally exhausting week, but I really hope you've caught up on sleep at this point. I can't regularly take three and a half hour naps.|||Choking on thin air has to be a special talent of some kind. Also, having to listen to Jingle Bells from a Christmas display for 2+ hours at work tonight made me want to kill someone.|||So  two customers were talking about their several marriages and the guy  said,If I hadn't gotten married, I wouldn't have had to pay fucking  child support.  I wanted to say, Then you...|||The bathtub drain is now partially unclogged. I'll fight with it more in the morning.  Also, Grandma is probably coming home on Monday, which means doing a last minute deep clean of the house...|||I managed to get an A on my A&P test and I'm pretty sure I was the only one who did.|||In my case, curiosity should not trump listening to complete fucking idiots.|||Goddamn it. I was doing well, but now the stress and loneliness is starting to kick back in.|||I'm currently taking Anatomy and Physiology as a prerequisite for occupational therapy.|||I hope that one of these days I won't be ruled by the little voice that tells me I'm not good enough.|||13-year-old-me: I won't ever need algebra, lulz.   26-year-old me: I have to take college algebra next semester because it's a requirement for other OT prerequisites and I am totally not prepared....|||Maybe I should just focus on getting into 4 OT programs in Missouri and KU  and save myself taking even more classes than what I have to.|||I  need a new hobby or a vacation or something to distract me and  something to channel my stress into. All I want to do is hide, but I'm  not allowed to do that because I have obligations. It'd be...|||In the continuous old, creepy, sexist men saga,  I got called good girl, good sweetie,  and baby in one transaction.'