'I've come to realize how often I resort to imagining violent circumstances and imagery in relation to people who make me upset. Granted, there are only a handful of topics that *really* set me off......|||I'm the type of person to fake my own death just to get a person to leave me alone.   Mainly because I'm also too socially awkward to just say exactly what I think or feel... or, when I do, I fluff...|||https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hUOKukkEck8&list=RD-_Y2jfK06pY&index=5  Favourite female artist at the moment.|||I think the problem is that sex has been approached as something entirely physical; removed from love, and mental/spiritual connection. I myself do not think there is an issue with sexual liberation,...|||Shit in my life is getting really weird. Like, I think I have a high tolerance for odd people, lifestyles, and situations... but even for me, this is just a bit much. You know how people get 'alarm...|||It's sort of difficult to say when I have no other dream experience to compare it to... like how do I know what separates my dreams from most peoples?  Well, I will say that when I tell another my...|||Yeah, I like your theory. It does make sense... especially what you said about blood being the essence of life, and a primal part of 'being'. Upon further reflection, I think my attraction and...|||Yeah, I've seen it suggested that the reason women may get menstrual cramps is to tell them to slow down, and relax, during their menstruation, and to hopefully rest. The thing about resting is...|||Not to, uh, get too personal or nosy here- but if your period started today, then you're synced really well with the moon... which is rare for women today. You would be on the White Moon cycle...|||I also posted this in a 4 thread, but I kind of want to post it here as well in case any INFP's can relate (I'm hoping someone else experiences this as well, and can perhaps shed some insight on why...|||It's weird but, I romanticize blood. I don't know how to describe it... but I find blood very beautiful and sexual. Simultaneously (and perhaps a bit paradoxically), I do not like physical violence...|||There has always been something about the approach to female sexuality in today's society that has really, really rubbed me the wrong way... I could never quite put my finger on what it is, or how to...|||https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=g8D8qVUh_c4  Memories... used to listen to this song on repeat.|||Steel|||I feel really scared and alone. I wish I just stayed in my bubble where it was safe.|||I get that people are always praising youthful faces, which may mean having a bit more fat/collagen in cheeks (it's one reason people start to look older in time, they tend to lose collagen and fat...|||https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GKiLEgAzFDQ&t=70s  Transcendent.|||Girl, I do the same thing! I get so much flack for it... my dad's family is all about appearing 'proper', and one time I was in my pajamas and an over-sized plaid shirt in the middle of the day and...|||I tell him my sense of self-worth is entirely based on my appearance.... how does he respond? Not by telling me I have other good qualities... not by saying he appreciates me intellectually. Nope.  ...|||I'm so grateful for you... you don't even know. You write out exactly what I'm feeling. What you said about calling yourself an asshole, and simultaneously smiling at it, and feeling gross about it,...|||At this point, my reason for existing is twofold: Beauty and Art.   Literally nothing else matters to me.   I want to create art. And to be art.|||Uhh... I think you're forgetting someone there, frienderino.   716921|||Do people EVER become famous/appreciated for their drawings? I feel as though it's always for painting... but I enjoy drawing/sketching infinitely more than painting... painting is so much more...|||Thank you. :) Although to be honest, I don't even feel disgust over having these particular traits... I've just realized that everything I value in life and want for myself is very physically focused...|||Is it weird that I somehow knew you were blonde? Like, I just felt it.   I know what you mean though, I naturally have light ash brown hair, and dye it red. The funny thing is that people think...|||Double post|||Fun facts about me:  - I'm extremely shallow  - I'm not a nice person  - Everything I do is to serve myself  - I will probably die alone|||https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2OQ99ROFlCk  I don't want to judge What's in your heart But if you're not ready for love How can you be ready for life?  Fucking hits deep.|||You just articulated everything I never could.   I wish I could identify as an alien... seriously. It would help to relieve me of the nagging guilt that I'm not a proper human. I constantly look...|||I think you're right, Lakigigar... they can't explain or understand us, so they invent a fancy label to brand us with. In a world of sameness, they can't make sense of the idea of individuals who are...|||Thanks again for taking the time to reply, and for caring enough to try and help me gain some clarity on this issue. To be honest though, I'm realizing that every reason I'm providing for why he...|||I think what incites more anger and hatred in me than anything is the disconnect between what I know to be true in my heart, and what the rest of the world believes and preaches. It's not just...|||Golden Candle I should add that my uncertainty is not a case where I wonder if there's someone better for me... it's a case where it's between him, and no one. And I'm not sure which is the one that...|||If anyone dislikes you, they must be operating on one small thing rather than looking at the entirety of who you are as a person, because you have sooooo many wonderful traits… too many to allow you...|||Hey, no worries, I sincerely hope everything is alright. <3 PM me if you ever need someone to talk to/rant to... I'm always happy to listen (read?).|||If you read all of my posts, you would know that my reason for looking down upon those who act as beasts is exactly because I do not think it is their true nature. I know they can do better, and am...|||When I play devil's advocate, I make it relatively apparent that I am not 'all in' with the mindset, but rather challenging the information presented for the sake of growth and consideration. I doubt...|||Group think... mob mentality... etc. One of my least favourite things about society. We need more critical thinkers and free thinkers. It's the followers who are responsible for the bad in the world,...|||Yes, you're right that man is in a constant battle with his natural impulses. If you've ever read the bible you would know that that is what the beast is, and that 666 is the number of man... even...|||Not if they wake up. I'll clarify something: I can forgive and even understand someone who does fucked up and selfish things, but knows that what they're doing is fucked up and selfish. If they can...|||Mmm, if 'we're' all beasts, then I am not a part of the 'we'. So, yes, perhaps everyone else is a beast, and I'm living in some sort of test of spirit... some matrix, or sadistic game. But I know...|||I seriously hate today's society so much. I'm tired of making excuses for everyone else and saying They just don't know better or They're good people deep down. No. I'm fucking sick and tired of...|||Like a heartless bitch.|||Forsaker isn't too dark! (I read your edit thing, and gave it a listen... it's really good!). Also, you're totally right about four sometimes being about getting real and 'gritty' (good word choice)....|||Thank you so much, you really have a knack for making people feel not only 'better', but actually accepted and understood... I appreciate that so much. I hope you're right about these not being...|||You shouldn't feel left out... I can usually relate to your posts quite strongly. I can relate to the feeling of almost being part male and part female from a mental perspective (if we're operating...|||I hope you're alright, and that things continue to improve for you. Your ability to stay strong and positive through such a scary situation is extremely admirable, as is the fact you stuck to your...|||Like I've really fucked up. I'm caught between a rock and a hard place.|||Yeah, you're not wrong. He does try to help me grow by pushing me out of my comfort zone. He's probably better than anyone I've ever met at actually getting me to do things. And I'd like to think...|||You're so right, and what you said about the pressure of the alternative being the only alternative.. damn, so fucking true. I got fired yesterday and was told that it's just 'not a good fit' for me;...'