Found my disorder. dissociative disorder. Everything is explained to me now. I found it out myself before pro's could tell me. Everything falls into place now. For one part its a evolutionairy...|||Iam exhausted, hopeless.. tired... Sad.. aware... Hopeless..   Everytime someone gives me a motivating speech its not working for me. Again and again iam being tested to my maximum degree. And iam...|||https://www.youtube.com/watch?app=desktop&persist_app=1&noapp=1&v=6kaCCAJyqQM  Likeable|||So once again ive been tested. And once again i did the right thing to avoid. I gave respect. I shared my stuff. I gave food. I gave sigs. And i gave permission to use my most valueable stuff. But...|||https://www.youtube.com/watch?app=desktop&persist_app=1&noapp=1&v=L3wKzyIN1yk|||So yesterday i started to confess my concernings about my current situation and my fear to breaklose on anger or whatever happens ehen o feel a freakout comig.  The results are funny. They placed...|||So i have to make up a plan to survive to high goals in the ( near ) future. First of all i should recover my eco clock and sleep and wakeup at time to get my mind fresh. Second, i should start...|||When ypu experience a soon death or terrible accident, life looks way more glorious than ever.|||So.. iam going to admit it... When i sport i start to become more normal... And in my case ' normal ' is scary af.  Iam starting to understand what iam doing. By trying to figure out how...|||After a bad start of tje day, i had a great end.  After a long long pefiod of tome i visited my almost family once again. In the beginning it was hard and pretty emotional, but after a while i...|||Instead of working on myself and finding myself back, iam forced in a position to spend all my energy on fighting against bad habits from the past. I refuse to fall back into my addiction from the...|||https://www.youtube.com/watch?app=desktop&persist_app=1&noapp=1&v=JCZMpdvH9xQ|||Jup.... The truth behind my life problems is lonelyness...  But iam the piece of shit that made it impossible to love someone anymore... Because i cant guarantee safety within the package iam in...|||Today os became concious about the fact that iam scared to become positive. Every moment i start to feel good i get a moment of panic. Somehow i keep telling myself that i dont deserve to be happy...|||Iam curious how some people cant see them selves... The place iam living at is the most interesting and weird place ive ever been yet.  The figures living here are more than special. Young...|||I would describe my life as cnfusing amd desperate atm.  But never have i reached this level of purity from the inside. I actually sacrificed everything, my selfrespect my honor my reputation my...|||680202|||680194|||I came tobthe conclusion that i failed... I failed life .  Iam a depressive hopeless failure that has no self respect.  I love life, but life doesnt love me. Iam a cursed fella.  But aside...|||HOLLAND!!!!!  Well...  From 2:08 suddenly your whole body gets chills. No thank you   https://www.youtube.com/watch?app=desktop&persist_app=1&noapp=1&v=xXeAh4ASERk|||So i finally figured it out. Iam really really in love, so much in love that iam starting to understand the dying without term. Its almost like she did some magicvoodoo shit on me.  Its really...|||Nixu Turlowe @picusviridus  Y'all probably enjoy this one :D   https://www.youtube.com/watch?app=desktop&persist_app=1&noapp=1&v=IKi03VoGbTw|||Iam changing day by day in a huge advance. Never before would i have taught that i would come in this position of self awareness.  Someone really changed my life amd the views i had on it. And i...|||Hi,  What game?|||Hello  No please no.. dont thank me!   https://www.youtube.com/watch?app=desktop&persist_app=1&noapp=1&v=Fdz6n0OJnxc  Allright! Thank me now :D|||Isnt music...  Still music to my ears   https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fviFNrWKzZ8|||Nice that you are trying to pickup sports!  Ive been to the gym but always stopped a short period after. But iam in need to pick it up again.  Tomorrow iam going to watch at a Krav Maga trainng,...|||I hate love. Everytime when i start to think iam overit, ready to continue life... It comes back more depressing than ever before.  And starting over again trying to focus on work sports healthy...|||Iam starting to realise that iam in a new life phase now... Always wanted to come so far... but looking back to the experience i needed to reach this... Can create alot of confusion tbh.  One...|||I really dont understand this topic tbh with you. Give me an example|||https://www.youtube.com/watch?app=desktop&persist_app=1&noapp=1&v=j-xxis7hDOE|||Evolution theory|||In the same shitty situation.|||Shall i start study at the police?|||Bo https://www.youtube.com/watch?app=desktop&persist_app=1&noapp=1&v=Ak-IaKOt7nA|||Iam curious about some people and how they can sleep at night after treating me like dogshit. While i gave them the emotional value i thinked they deserved.|||https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=4Dv6DV4LHQY  That should feel better|||Here is a new collection of noise specially for you!   https://www.youtube.com/watch?app=desktop&persist_app=1&noapp=1&v=uMNI-Av3km4  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GA-4FF3eANE ...|||Sigh... turn of that black mirror of yours... spend some time walking outdoor, maybe pickup your running condition?  Make some endorfine and upgrade your physical power. This will make you feel...|||I was thinkong... Couldnt we put some watermill things in the coast and gainenergy from it? I mean the waves will make them spin, and that will create a dynamo effect.  Or is this idea shit?|||It would be nice split the sea. Yeaaah|||I can confirm this chills feeling. If you play this track from 1:24 maybe you exerience it 2...    https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=uMNI-Av3km4  Yes you did feel it.. i know .. i know..|||So lots of things happened the last period of time. Been in a lot of trouble pain tears confussion and desperation. How do i feel now? New, concious, weak, but some how passionated to bring...|||Iam in love with someone who literally fucked up my mind. Big time.  She caused so much confussion that iam starting get mental about it tbh...  Someone who made me regret my whole life, and got...|||648138|||I became conscious about the fact that i have been spending a hell of a lot time in people that actually never deserved to be part of that time.  People who got everything i would not even dare to...|||Loved those! Thanks!|||647490647498647506647514|||Hey everyone.  Time for some inspiration from you all. I need wisdom and knowledge at the same time!  Share me some wonderful quote, in a picture or however you feel to express or share it. ...|||I fell in love with a girl. Created the most beautifull dreams because of her. Everything i jad trouble with became 0 effort.  Now i have a police record, fully injustice as they told me myself....