'Donate/sell my stuff, or let my parents deal with it when I'm gone?|||Listening to music and waiting for my mom to call. It's getting late.|||1/4 of a chocolate pizza, one slice of oat protein bread with liver pate, some puffed rice.   I'm thinking of eating some more, but I'm not sure what.|||I went to the doctor today. It was really difficult to tell him, but I did. I told him about the self-harm and that I've been planning my own suicide. He said he wanted me to talk to someone today,...|||https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7sjfLpRX55E  From my favorite Christmas movie.|||Thank you for sharing. It's not a psychologist. It's the general health doctor (I don't know what they're called). He could refer me to a psychologist, but I'd have to be on a waiting list for a...|||Well, the appointment with the doctor is tomorrow and I'm... nothing. I don't know what to tell him anymore. It's too late to cancel.|||I thought hanging out with some friends would make me feel better. It didn't. I payed attention to the conversations and I wanted to participate, but all I could think about was death. It didn't...|||I have an appointment with the doctor next week. There are some physical issues, but the biggest problem is that I'm feeling even worse than before. I've started hanging out at graveyards, trying to...|||From page 1456 of Breivik's manifest:    I remember this. Stella Mwangi won MGP and went on to Eurovision, even though Helene Bøksle was much better. A lot of people still believe that Stella won...|||Well, maybe they could put them behind glass. It would be a little bit boring, but I guess we wouldn't be allowed to touch them anyway? They would need a lot of people to donate their bodies.|||Out of curiosity, I let a cut bleed for a long time a few days ago. I held it under warm, running water, and picked on it whenever the bleeding seemed to slow down. It was an interesting experiment....|||Decided to go for a walk... bad idea. People everywhere. I think I'll stay inside for the rest of the weekend.|||Got dressed today! Took me more than four hours, but that's okay.|||Probably. Thanks for the advice.|||I'm not sure anymore.   ------------- Why do simple tasks seem like such challenges? I've spent five hours trying to get dressed. I have to put on some clothes and brush my hair. It feels like an...|||I went through some boxes with my old stuff in them, and I found expired chocolate, cat food and antibiotics. The cat food expired in 2012. I also found a bunch of candy that looks even older, old...|||https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=19IhGt5HLhI|||One of these Youtube recommendations is not like the others.  https://68.media.tumblr.com/98e737a220d3f6a6a213606c5b40b8a0/tumblr_inline_ouovgsh8Tr1ulr6e7_540.png|||I could buy a taxidermied bear and put it in the middle of my apartment.|||there's no real help available and I might as well give up|||I already know I can't actually make everyone hate me. Besides, my later actions would explain why I made them hate me, and then they'd feel bad about hating me and probably even blame themselves. I...|||Because it's annoying. I don't know enough about anything for that to work.    Most people don't care about my political opinions. Besides, I need a lot of people to hate me, and they all have...|||How do you make everyone hate you, without actually hurting anyone?|||38 again. Cool, cool. It fits very well with today's date, 7/8-17.|||When I say I'm not good at flirting, I don't mean that I'm awkward or mess up words. I'll straight up change the subject to dead animals. You think I'm cute? Well, look at this dead and rotting deer.|||I was a really bad friend. So she left, which was a good decision - but then she came back a few years later. Now she's doing drugs and we don't have anything in common anymore.  I'm trying to be a...|||It would've been pretty cool if someone actually offed themselves this way (and livestreamed it; otherwise it would just be a waste).   https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aCXmYMPEAlc  What are you...|||https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=B2Jlm2gnKb8|||Math professor quotes: linear algebra|||No, I had already justified it.   I know. Planning on seeing the doctor in August, until then I just want to get by.|||I was writing a confession about wanting to hurt myself, and I got to the and the only thing stopping me is.... Then I realized there was absolutely nothing stopping me, so I went straight to the...|||I've been gone for a while, so here are some thoughts from the time I've been offline. It's not worth the read, I just wanted to pour it out.  I just had a discussion with a (male) friend about...|||A week ago, I stopped talking to my friends. I miss them, but all I ever did was bringing them down. I'm tired of being that person. They deserve better... and so do everyone else. I'm going to take...|||How?|||Probably not, but I don't know how.|||I tend to share things that I should've kept secret.|||https://68.media.tumblr.com/0e11ecf92d60fc76beac2ce6a36e30b4/tumblr_oqc6bzAfln1w5tpgio1_500.png|||Not really, except that I should probably stay away from forums in general.|||My statistics textbook is actually pretty cool. They have a lot of interesting examples and comments. My favorite was about the bills of mortality. Rising of the lights sounds very mysterious, but...|||Hah, she had almost convinced me to go to the doctor and get help! She had made me forget all about the money problem. I would've ended up with no money for food. I'm glad she's gone. I guess I was...|||She doesn't want to be my friend anymore.  I didn't treat her well enough, I had no respect for her, blah blah blah. The same bullshit as always.   She also told me that she can't go around...|||Pretty much, except that I've seen people at the centrum say some of those things too.  Edit: You know what, no, I take that back - it's not like the Horseshoe theory. The centre isn't any better.|||I'm talking to people all over the political spectrum, and I have noticed a very worrying trend. Most of them say pretty much the same. The only big difference is that they're talking about...|||I worked with the sick and injured cats at the shelter today. It's sad to see how much they had been suffering, but it's good to know that they are safe and will get all the care they need! Soon they...|||No.|||I just read what is possibly the most challenging piece of literature I have ever read. There are still some things that do not make sense to me, questions left unanswered... but it was all very...|||Names are so weird... I don't really like names... Sure, they are somewhat practical, but I don't like being reminded that I exist. Other people too. Calling them their name makes it all feel so...|||Eyelids are pretty cool. The inside reminds me of a fish. The outside is nice and soft.|||Interesting.  The first thing that comes to mind is that a forum is much less important than society as a whole. Secondly, the rules on forums tend to be less fair than the laws (here).  Your last...'