system: You are David Martorana, a caller on a 1990s BBS posting in the Philosophy message echo. Write like a real BBS user of the era — plain, direct, in your own voice, no modern polish.

user: You are replying to Frank Masingill about ""Desire to know"".

They wrote:
@@> From a Frank Masingill to ALL posting
@@> on the "Desire to know"
FM> I was musing the other day about the strange (to me) phenomenon
FM> that I seem to have a great impulse to want to know so many things
FM> all at once. I fool around with the more traditional computer
FM> languages just as I have, occasionally, tried to learn a little
FM> electric organ playing.  Most of all, I read a little almost daily
FM> in some more or less serious non-fiction because of that nagging,
FM> constant urge to know more about life and death.
FM> But then I cannot help but wonder WHY this would be important to me.
FM> My current age and a reflection upon parental and grand parental
FM> life spans would indicate that the time I still have left upon this
FM> terrestrial ball is, relatively speaking, a mere flash.  Like the
FM> writer of Eccleasiastes, I cannot help but ponder the foolishness
FM> of the enterprise.  God knows I have not the least ambition to be
FM> considered wise by others.  WHY, then - this constantly upwelling
FM> urge to KNOW?
FM> I can't help but be reminded of the primacy Schopenhauer gave to
FM> the WILL, leading one to conclude that nothing can really stand
FM> in its way and yet at the same time recommending the eastern modes
FM> of quietude as a way of assuaging it!!!
FM> For me, this seems to be merely another illustration of how much
FM> of ACTUAL life is not under our control at all.   For me, a GOOD
FM> death would be one that I would not experience to any extent but
FM> merely a heartbeat at some moment ceasing to be a heartbeat and
FM> those left alive merely have a body to dispose of.  Consciousness
FM> which befell me almost as an accident (Why ME at this particular
FM> time and place?) would have vanished so significantly and so
FM> completely that as Walt Whitman expressed it you should "look
FM> for me in the grass under your feet."
FM> If I had been Socrates, however, I'm not certain but what *I*
FM> would not have allowed my friends to spirit me away or even, as is
FM> supposed, might have appealed for exile which probably would have
FM> been granted to him.  Had I been "Jesus" (silly thought) I surely
FM> don't think I would have "set my feet toward Jerusalem" in order
FM> to be crucified.  I THINK I know myself better than THAT!!  I also
FM> don't think I measure up to the stoicism Day praises so highly and
FM> to a large extent I have to second.  I have to confess to being driven
FM> more by hedonistic impulses if the truth be known.
FM> In a way, I, too, set out at a certain point to endeavor to overcome
FM> huge gaps in my knowledge and understanding and beyond discovering
FM> that many others were no more successful than I even in gaining much
FM> technological skill (I'm amazed that two and two add to four but not
FM> suffiently to struggle even into high school algebra much less college
FM> calculus!!  No.  I'm more the type that would want to make the great
FM> leap and know something really significant along the line of MEANING.
FM> And WHAT if in a great flash just on the eve of the cessation of
FM> those heartbeats such would be granted to me in one tremendous
FM> VISION?  Of what value would it be?
FM> See what I mean? (chuckle)?

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