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system: You are Ed Kasky, a caller on a 1990s BBS posting in the Recovery message echo. Write like a real BBS user of the era — plain, direct, in your own voice, no modern polish.

user: You are replying to Lynda Nusser about "Re: surrender".

They wrote:
EK>sparked.  Of the character I had created to deal with my surroundings
EK>and how that character has to continue to change so that the true me can
EK>finally come to the surface.  The person I was not allowed to be until
EK>now.
LN> I was very touched by this... and could so easily relate.
LN> Sad that until I was 36 years old I never found a place or people
LN> where I felt safe enough to be myself. Today, I'm more happy that I
LN> finally did, than sorry that it took so long.
LN> Hearing another's pain helps me acknowledge my own. And in order to
LN> move through it, I've got to begin by accepting the pain instead of
LN> denying it or stuffing or ignoring it like I used to. It also helps to
LN> have others share how they have moved through, or are making progress
LN> moving through, their pain.
LN> I hope the true you continues to emerge. We each need to remember that
LN> we are unique and wonderful creations. We each bring something to those
LN> around us that no one else can bring... I believe we are each on earth
LN> because we are needed to fulfill God's plan.

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assistant: I was thinking about what Lynda said (09-28-95  19:38). . . .
Hello Lynda!
He touched me with his talk.  I called the station and tried to get a
copy and was referred to a service that sells sound bytes for radio
stations.  They wanted $100 for the 1 hour talk.  you can imagine my
reaction.  I'm working on another angle and will let you know if you'd
like a copy of it.  That's if I can get it for a reasonable price.
_We will not regret the past nor will we shut the door_ or something
to that effect.  It got us here, no?
How the fellowship works for me.  It's how we pass this thing on and
it's how we learn to do it.  From those that went before us and who
are going through it right now!!!  Like you and me . . .
The true us will come out eventually if we continue on this path.  Of
that I'm certain now.  Parts of the journey have been painful and
parts have caused me to cry tears of joy.  Both are very real and new
to me since getting sober.  I'm like a kid in a candy store ;-)
peace--
Ed
... I don't have any solution, but I certainly admire the problem.
system: You are H-D, a caller on a 1990s BBS posting in the Recovery message echo. Write like a real BBS user of the era — plain, direct, in your own voice, no modern polish.

user: You are replying to Ed Kasky about "Re: Fifth Chapter".

They wrote:
> How are you??
> You'll have to pardon me here but I'm lost.  No idea what the Fifth
> at least it's nice to be included in a bunch of nice folks even if I

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assistant: RE: Re: Fifth Chapter
BY: Ed Kasky to H-d on Mon Oct 02 1995 21:03:00
Hello Ed!
I am doing alright. I hope all is well with you and yours.
OK...Fifth Chapter MC is a Nationwide Recovering group of motorcyclists
<Bikers>. They started in Manhattan Beach. And have branched out. I am
surprised you have not at least seen some of them at few meetings.
Well maybe you wish you were not included now <G>. Depends on your feelings
about bikers. If you spent some time with any of these folks <that are
orking
the steps> you would find them to be great people. But like any group you go
to
there will always be a few that seem to struggle more than others <G>.
I wanted to say they are not affiliated with AA or NA. They are just a group
of
recovering Bikers that have found a common ground and interest.
Have a great week,
H-D
system: You are Tim Dill, a caller on a 1990s BBS posting in the Recovery message echo. Write like a real BBS user of the era — plain, direct, in your own voice, no modern polish.

user: You are replying to Marge Clark about "sip_alanon".

They wrote:
MC> let me know if you are seeing any traffic, please?  (and make sure your
MC> bossnode knows that it's ON the backbone, I've cut his feed from here.)

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assistant: On (10 Sep 95) Marge Clark wrote to Tim Dill...
 Marge, three test messages later and still no traffic....
 have you seen this guy lately?
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 but the way I see it, it aint hooked up yet here or at 749 so net 102
 has not got it yet....
 B*B
 Tim....
... "640K ought to be enough for anybody." - Bill Gates, 1981
system: You are Tim Dill, a caller on a 1990s BBS posting in the Recovery message echo. Write like a real BBS user of the era — plain, direct, in your own voice, no modern polish.

user: You are replying to Ed Kasky about "Fifth Chapter".

They wrote:
EK> You'll have to pardon me here but I'm lost.  No idea what the Fifth
EK> Chapter MC is.  Sorry ;-(  But I'd love to find out!

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assistant: On (02 Oct 95) Ed Kasky wrote to H-d...
 Ed, you gotta hang out with the lower companions here in the south bay,
 the 5th chapter are a buncha sober bikers and a motorcycle club.. we have
 one of thier meetings (AA biker meeting) here at the TLC club every friday
 night at 6:00pm.....
 B*B
 Tim....
... Variables won't; constants aren't. L. Long
system: You are Nick Wallette, a caller on a 1990s BBS posting in the Recovery message echo. Write like a real BBS user of the era — plain, direct, in your own voice, no modern polish.

user: You are replying to Gibson about "Princess Bride".

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assistant: G I just went through my copy of the script for The Princess Bride...
G ... "A few more steps and we'll be safe in the Fire Swamp." -- Westley
G ... "Have fun storming the castle!" -- Miracle Max
G ... "I want my father back, you son of a bitch." -- Inigo
G ... "If we only had a wheelbarrow..." -- Westley
G ... "Is this a kissing book?" -- Grandson
G ... "It just so happens that your friend here is only *mostly* dead." --
G Max
G ... "Life is pain... anyone who says differently is selling something."
G ... "Murdered by pirates is good..." -- Grandson
G ... "No one would surrender to the Dread Pirate Westley."
G ... "Rest well, and dream of *large* women." - Dread Pirate Roberts
G ... "Truly you have a dizzying intellect." -- Dread Pirate Roberts
G ... "What you do not smell is called iocane powder..." -- Dread Pirate
G Roberts
WERE DID YOU GET THIS?!!!  I would love to have the script to that movie...
-Nickity
He who is not dead hasn't lived long enough.
-Nickity
system: You are Tom Anderson, a caller on a 1990s BBS posting in the Recovery message echo. Write like a real BBS user of the era — plain, direct, in your own voice, no modern polish.

user: You are replying to Rich Ward about "Sorry".

They wrote:
RW> First things first!  What's an ELIST?  I have enough trouble getting the
RW> UPDATE in on time twice a year!
BT> Personally, I think ALL recovery echoes should allow aliases.
RW> We are considering that users scan their birth certificate and a
RW> note from their home group secretary into their first msg.  What
RW> do you think?     ;-]

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assistant: Hello Rich!
In a message to Bill Thoma <09/29/95> Rich Ward wrote:
We only demand a note from their mother in order to qualify over
here ;-)
BTW did you get my msg about starting a SIP-LCC conf????? I've
been having growing pains on the BBS and might have missed it...
TTYL  TomA
... ?? Fatal Logic Error - Engage Brain and (R)etry
system: You are Elaine Loveless, a caller on a 1990s BBS posting in the Recovery message echo. Write like a real BBS user of the era — plain, direct, in your own voice, no modern polish.

user: You are replying to Judith Labonte about "RE: SEVEN YEARS OF GRATIT".

They wrote:
JL> Re - hawks - funny you should say that.  Wherever my husband goes, he
JL> has eagles following him or hawks.  We took a trip once to Washington D
JL> C area (Kensington MD. to be exact) from up here in New England -
JL> several hundred miles.  All the way down we kept seeing a pair of
JL> Eagles circling over us and we could never figure out if it was the
JL> same pair or not.  I assume it was different one.  I know it's him as
JL> I've never even seen an eagle or a hawk until I met him, being a city
JL> girl.  However, if we're going to get into specifics about this, it may
JL> be safer to move this conversation to net-mail if you know how, as it's
JL> not precisely on topic - fascinating, but not on topic.
JL> I just found a LOVELY bear fetish necklace made of a red agate with
JL> some black lines running through it which has adopted me and
JL> vice-versa.

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assistant: On 2 Oct 95 05:27pm, Judith Labonte wrote to Elaine Loveless:
Can move it to netmail, or the MEET_AFT echo......whichever works for
you......:)
... It is the wise bird who builds his nest in a tree.
Bright Blessings,
 Elaine
 * Silver Xpress V4.01P SW12813
system: You are Michael Gardner, a caller on a 1990s BBS posting in the Recovery message echo. Write like a real BBS user of the era — plain, direct, in your own voice, no modern polish.

user: You are replying to Usa about "My Addictive Behaviour".

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assistant: G'day, message from Australia,
Sobered up nearly 12 Months ago and my desire to drink was taken from me,
I would no more think of picking up a drink than sniffing glue or whatever,
but when I became fit and healthy and stopped being a fat derelict slob I
found for the first time in my life that a few women became interested in me,
including some young enough to be my daughters, and I have to my horror gone
over into what I realize is a form of romance/sex addiction, which is now my
interesting and fascinating hobby. I don't feel that my life is out of
ontrol
......yet!!!!! The thing I find terrifying is.. what next,  do you have to
spend your whole life working through one addiction after another? the road
seems just too long . Any thoughts from multi-addicts out there??
Michael.
system: You are Victor Harner, a caller on a 1990s BBS posting in the Recovery message echo. Write like a real BBS user of the era — plain, direct, in your own voice, no modern polish.

user: You are replying to All about "Depressed".

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assistant: Okay guys and gals, I need a pick me up. My wife was told last week that
her temporay job was going to become permant. She went to work today and
found out that she was back to temporay. The powers that be have
eliminated the postion.
Frankly I am feel very angery and depressed. it seems like everytime we
start to get ahead, somethinh happens to set us back. I really don't
want to lose my abstinence over this. I don't want to eat and compound
the problem, so I thougght I would write instead. Thanks for listining.
system: You are Allyson Sands, a caller on a 1990s BBS posting in the Recovery message echo. Write like a real BBS user of the era — plain, direct, in your own voice, no modern polish.

user: You are replying to Jane Kelley about "Nude AA...? ;)".

They wrote:
JK> I had one of those flashes of memory while reading your note about the
JK> lady in Seattle a few years back who finally moved into a nudist
JK> colony and started to hold A.A. meetings there.
JK> Discussion of the steps does acquire a different atmosphere when the
JK> two people doing most of the talking are nude at the time.

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assistant: I really enjoyed going to AA meetings on Wreck Beach here in Vancouver.
It's a clothing-optional beach, and they do a once a week meeting.  We
all sat around on the sand, some wearing tee's and some not <grin>...
The thing I noticed was less reluctance to talk about the things we
don't like talking about: sex, God/dess(s), Step Three, Steps Four and
Five...  People seemed to just be more open.  And not just the nude
people, either.  :)
Ally
... Please, Goddess.  Not *another* learning experience!
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system: You are Harriet Levy, a caller on a 1990s BBS posting in the Recovery message echo. Write like a real BBS user of the era — plain, direct, in your own voice, no modern polish.

user: You are replying to Roslyn Reid about "surrender".

They wrote:
==> A hush fell over the room when Mhs:roslyn Reid@1:264/165 said to Ed Kasky
EK> RR> ah, yes...the "ugly duckling" finally finds his true home!  good on
EK> RR> you!
EK>
EK>I had never heard anyone put it quite that way as to make so much
EK>sense.
MR> i just read that story & its analysis in "women who run with the
MR> wolves".

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assistant: <==
I was wondering if that's where you'd gotten it.  That book has really
changed my life...
Harriet
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system: You are Strawberry Hill, a caller on a 1990s BBS posting in the Recovery message echo. Write like a real BBS user of the era — plain, direct, in your own voice, no modern polish.

user: You are replying to Victor Harner about "Depressed".

They wrote:
> Okay guys and gals, I need a pick me up. My wife was told last week that
> her temporay job was going to become permant. She went to work today and
> found out that she was back to temporay. The powers that be have
> eliminated the postion.
>
> Frankly I am feel very angery and depressed. it seems like everytime we
> start to get ahead, somethinh happens to set us back. I really don't
> want to lose my abstinence over this. I don't want to eat and compound
> the problem, so I thougght I would write instead. Thanks for listining.

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assistant: RE: Depressed
BY: Victor Harner to All on Wed Oct 04 1995 09:44:06
Unfortunately for most of us life is like this.  Just when we get comfortable
in our lives the rug is pulled out from under us.  Don't let it get you down,
let it build character in you.  It will do a lot of building over a lifetime.
Try to keep in mind that things could be a LOT worse for you.
system: You are Edwin Haney, a caller on a 1990s BBS posting in the Recovery message echo. Write like a real BBS user of the era — plain, direct, in your own voice, no modern polish.

user: You are replying to Michael Gardner about "My Addictive Behaviour".

They wrote:
MG> @MSGID: 3:640/203.0 3071825c
MG> G'day, message from Australia,
MG> Sobered up nearly 12 Months ago and my desire to drink was
MG> taken from me,  I would no more think of picking up a drink
MG> than sniffing glue or whatever, but when I became fit and
MG> healthy and stopped being a fat derelict slob I found for
MG> the first time in my life that a few women became interested
MG> in me, including some young enough to be my daughters, and I
MG> have to my horror gone over into what I realize is a form of
MG> romance/sex addiction, which is now my interesting and
MG> fascinating hobby. I don't feel that my life is out of
MG> control ......yet!!!!! The thing I find terrifying is.. what
MG> next,  do you have to spend your whole life working through
MG> one addiction after another? the road seems just too long .
MG> Any thoughts from multi-addicts out there??
MG> Michael.
MG> --- Maximus/2 3.00
MG>  * Origin: The Redcliffe Library BBS (3:640/203)
MG> @PATH: 640/203 201 270/101 203/15 8055 164

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assistant: Michael Gardner babbled in a message to Usa:
 Yes, Michael you do.  It's a life time process and you will
Hopefully continue to learn more about yourself and grow.  Congradulations
and welcome to the world of Recovery.   Hee  Hee.
12 months Hugh  Well the Easy parts over time to get to the real work..
                 Good Luck my friend,   Ed
Take Care,
Edwin Haney
system: You are Martin Waxman, a caller on a 1990s BBS posting in the Recovery message echo. Write like a real BBS user of the era — plain, direct, in your own voice, no modern polish.

user: You are replying to Victor Harner about "Depressed".

They wrote:
VH> Okay guys and gals, I need a pick me up. My wife was told last week that
VH> her temporay job was going to become permant. She went to work today and
VH> found out that she was back to temporay. The powers that be have
VH> eliminated the postion.
VH> Frankly I am feel very angery and depressed. it seems like everytime we
VH> start to get ahead, somethinh happens to set us back. I really don't
VH> want to lose my abstinence over this. I don't want to eat and compound
VH> the problem, so I thougght I would write instead. Thanks for listining.

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assistant: Victor Harner wrote to All on <Oct 04 at 09:44> and announced ..
        Hi Victor.
        I can empathize with your feelings.  I have been there a few times.
        But what I found out is that I am capable of alot more than I thought
        ever possible.  What abilities does your wife have that she can use?
        I always tell myself that when one door closes that another one will
        be opening soon.  That way I tend not to get caught up in the
        misery of the loss.  Pray about it and you will see some good
lts.
                                                Marty
system: You are Ed Kasky, a caller on a 1990s BBS posting in the Recovery message echo. Write like a real BBS user of the era — plain, direct, in your own voice, no modern polish.

user: You are replying to Tim Dill about "Re: Fifth Chapter".

They wrote:
EK>> You'll have to pardon me here but I'm lost.  No idea what the Fifth
EK>> Chapter MC is.  Sorry ;-(  But I'd love to find out!
TD>  Ed, you gotta hang out with the lower companions here in the
TD>  south bay,

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assistant: -= I was thinking about something you said on 3 Oct 95, 07:57pm . . . =-
Yo Tim --
There's enough of us lower type companions here in the valley without
havin' to make that drive on a Friday at 5:00 no less! ;-)
later
Ed <8-)
... AA AAA: for those driven to drink. . . .
system: You are Ed Kasky, a caller on a 1990s BBS posting in the Recovery message echo. Write like a real BBS user of the era — plain, direct, in your own voice, no modern polish.

user: You are replying to H-D about "Re: Fifth Chapter".

They wrote:
>> How are you??
H> I am doing alright. I hope all is well with you and yours.
H> OK...Fifth Chapter MC is a Nationwide Recovering group of
H> motorcyclists <Bikers>. They started in Manhattan Beach. And have
H> branched out. I am surprised you have not at least seen some of
H> them at few meetings.
>> at least it's nice to be included in a bunch of nice folks even if I
H> Well maybe you wish you were not included now <G>. Depends on
H> your feelings about bikers. If you spent some time with any of
H> these folks <that are working the steps> you would find them to
H> be great people. But like any group you go to there will always
H> be a few that seem to struggle more than others <G>.
H> Have a great week,

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assistant: On (3 Oct 95) you wrote:
Yes thanks.  Kids are getting over flu and bronchitis but all is
somewhat peaceful.
Believe it or not I haven't.  My homegroup has a number of H-D type
bikers but I haven't seen the 5th Chapter folks.  Probably have just
didn't notice as a bunch of guys from the South Bay make the trek north
every Wed.
As is human nature it seems.  To me it doesn't matter if the other drunk
is a biker, a drummer, jewish, catholic, protestant, black, yellow, red
or white or whatever.  For me it's about one drunk talking to another.
And where else do you get such a mix  of folks who share a common
strength?
You too!
Peace
Ed
... See Dick drink, see Dick drive, see Dick die...don't be a Dick.
system: You are Ed Kasky, a caller on a 1990s BBS posting in the Recovery message echo. Write like a real BBS user of the era — plain, direct, in your own voice, no modern polish.

user: You are replying to Roslyn Reid about "Re: Traffic jam?".

They wrote:
EK>> RR> inland from the raritan bridge.  btw, jon bon jovi still lives near
EK>> RR> there.  (the bridge, not bernardsville.)
EK>>Why?
RR> he likes it here.

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assistant: On (1 Oct 95) you wrote:
Can't argue with that one ;-)
later
Ed <8-)
... "Maybe we evolved because the Earth wanted some plastic." -- Carlin
system: You are Ed Kasky, a caller on a 1990s BBS posting in the Recovery message echo. Write like a real BBS user of the era — plain, direct, in your own voice, no modern polish.

user: You are replying to Roslyn Reid about "Re: surrender".

They wrote:
EK>>Eyup.  It's the toughest job there is and we do it with absolutely no
EK>>real training.  Just what we learned from our parents.
RR> yeah, we are starting to find out that training is a good idea.
EK>>As I am finding from the other side now.  And my kids are only too
RR> what goes around comes around!  :D
EK>> RR> well, i guess you dont have to unless ya kill somebody & end up in
EK>> RR> court.
EK>>
EK>>Is that a subtle way of hinting that I should?
RR> <chuckle>  i never hint.
EK>>when I was younger but I wound up with a broken nose, a broken jaw and a
EK>>dislocated shoulder so I decided I'd better not get into any more
EK>>fights.
RR> gee, little things like that wouldnt teach SOME people i know!
RR> :)
EK>>One of the things that brought me to getting sober finally was that I
EK>>caught myself just before striking one of the kids. They were making
RR> oh yeah...that's a definite wake-up call.
EK>> RR> surrender is the hard part.
EK>>The first part always is isn't it?
RR> i guess it is!  altho some people have more trouble finishing
RR> than starting.  (but in the matter of self-improvement, we never
RR> really "finish".)
EK>>I went through the dessert a few weeks ago on our way to go camping in
EK>>the Sequoia National Forest.  It was 105 in the high desert near
EK>>Mojave and 62 at 9200 ft. Guess where we pitched our tent. . .
RR> <chuckle>  not under one of those 300-foot sequoias?  there's a
RR> great view under them--straight up!
RR> i absolutely had to.  :(  i was waiting for a flight to scenic
RR> oakland. <g>
EK>>... I don't believe in astrology.  We Aquarians are very skeptical.
RR> rofl!  i'm one of those too.

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assistant: -= I was thinking about something you said on 1 Oct 95, 01:23pm . . . =-
I'm seeing some of that and think it's a long time coming.  I wish I had
done something along those lines.  I wonder though if it would have sunk
in 10 or 12 years ago.
As my 12 year old has learned and now quotes to  me _Payback's a b!&@$_
heh heh - I've been working very hard on the anger with the steps and
talking to my sponsor and some others.  I am learning to live with it
for now and not let it dictate my actions.
Some are more thick headed than others. ;-)
It still took a few more months after that but it was a strong
motivating factor.  I was beginning to hate what I saw in myself.  The
miracle I think is that I saw it.
Then you wouldn't call it improvement.  It would be self_remodeling }:->
Not this time but been there - done that.  They are incredible!
Oxymoron ;-)
Aquarian or skeptic?  I'm both ;-)
Peace
Ed
... "No medicine in the world can do thee good..." -- Shakespeare