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They wrote:
D> Derek,  Did your mother offer any explanations at all as to *why* she
D> doesn't want contact?? I had a girl in my group that found her bmom too
D> and the same thing happened. She asked me to make the initial phone call
D> which I did. Her bmom was *very* upset that her confidentuality was
D> forsaken and all that nonsense. The reason I say nonsense isn't because I
D> don't agree with confidentuality but because the *way* her bdaughter
D> her was through very public records and no-one bent or broke rules in any
D> way. The bmom wouldn't discuss much other than a brief medical history
D> didn't even ask me any questions at all about her bdaughter. As a matter
D> of fact, she was one of the COLDEST people I've ever spoken to in my
D> life!! She didn't ask me *how* Joanne was, what her name was, where she
D> lived, if she had a good life, what she looks like or anything. I was
D> amazed! Then we began wondering if just *maybe* bmom was raped?? Maybe
D> that's why the coldness and all. We'll never know. Joanne has this lady's
D> name and address and the phone numner is still the same because Joanne
D> will every now and then call and just listen to her machine to hear her
D> voice but will never leave a message. One thing that bothers us is the
D> fact that this woman wouldn't give us a clue as to who the bdad is!!
D>
D> Another thing you can consider is the fact that your bmom may be
D> or whatever and may not have told her husband or their kids about you.
D> That's another reason I've found bmoms keep the secret. There was alot of
D> shame involved years ago to be unwed and pregnant and unfortunatly some
D> bmoms still feel that today. It's been embedded in their minds I guess.
D> It's nothing today to see highschools with nurseries and daycares so teen
D> moms can continue their educations. It's also nothing to see a very young
D> girl walking down your street extremely pregnant! Although it's not a
D> pleasant thing to see, it's there and society has accepted it. My brother
D> who was placed for adoption was born in 1971. Even then there was stigma
D> attached to an unwed mom and my mom felt horrified and ashamed everywhere
D> she went where people knew her. NOT ashamed of her child but of herself.
D> She has never forgotten that feeling. Hospitals and agencies also played
D> huge role in making these moms feel degraded and less than human as well.
D> Hopefully this will give you alittle insight as to *why* (maybe) your
D> has reacted this way. In all seriousness though, it's usually the other
D> way around. The bdad usually wants no contact and the bmom does! At least
D> in your situation your bdad DOES desire some form of contact and I wish
D> you well and lots of luck with this new found relationship!!
D>

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assistant: Actualy, what happened was, the C.A.S. found her in April of this year, and
at
that time she said she has too many things on the go to meet right away, but
that she wanted to meet in July which was fine. You see, I never actually
talked to her, it was all through  C.A.S.  but when july came arround, my
bmom
was comtacted severel times and just didn't return any of the calls. So it
was
decidid that she had changed her mind.
ound
nd
Perhaps its best then that they didn't meet. I might have caused more damage
than good...
emarried
Its funny you should say that becouse at the time my mother got pregnant with
me, my father was married to another woman. As a result, 27 years later I
have
a older half brother ans sister and a yunger half brother and sister.
mom
I know what you mean there, it did seen a little strange to me that at first
my mother wanted contact , but then changed her mind. I've learned to live
with out any parents for 27 years now, and at times I feel like I"m fighting
the whole world. Now that I"m going to meet my father, and brothers and
sisters, it may make like just a little easier to handdle.
Write back soon, and thank you for theinterest you have shown.
                                Derek Henderson
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