text: XXXTentacion: Look how fast I’ll fuck that up ’cause I couldn’t control my fucking anger.  You feel me? I disgust myself. Every day I’ll have no pride looking in the mirror. I disgust myself. And you know what, it’s funny, I love it.
  Man: Damn.
  XXXTentacion: I love that I disgust myself. I eat my negativity every single day. And you know what comes up more? More negativity. And no matter where I go or where I search for any sort of reassurance, something’s gonna fuck me over, bruh.
  Woman 1: So where’s your positivity?
  XXXTentacion: There is none.
  Woman 1: Why?
  XXXTentacion: It’s not me.
  Woman 1: Why?!
  XXXTentacion: That’s my positivity. got positivity.
  Woman 1: So what’s up?
  XXXTentacion: She doing the wrong thing though. So, let me ask you a question, right? You’re in jail. Your homeboy that you take care of, right? He fucked your girlfriend. Right? He fucked your girlfriend, gave her lots of drugs, and fuck her, and fuck her, right? You come home. First you took care of her for like three, four months. Take care of her for a while. She ain’t got nobody to take care of her. Clothes. Shoes. A house to stay in. A four-bedroom apartment. You feel me? Kittens. All types of crazy shit, you feel me, dropping bands. Right? You get out. The people you take care of. You get out. The day you get out, you see her, right? She kiss you on your lips, you feel me, feel up on you da da da. “I love you, I would never do anything to hurt you,” da da da. You go, you go to the, you go to the house. And your dog. Before she tell you. Before she tell you. Before he told her to tell you. Make sure you tell me the truth and I’ll forgive you. You tell her to tell you. You go home. Y’all fine, y’all smokin, y’all chillin’, da da da. You order pizza, you making sure everybody straight. You on the phone. Your dog tell you, your dog tell you that nigga fucked your bitch. Telling you he fucked your bitch. I will kill this bitch if she play with me. That’s the real deal. You feel me. On some shit like that. And I think any man would bruh. Any man would bruh.
  Man: I feel you but damn, bro.
  XXXTentacion: Yeah bro. Yeah bro. 
  Man: It’s no use worrying about these things man. 
  XXXTentacion: No, I know it’s not, bruh. 
  Man: I understand where you’re coming from… 
  XXXTentacion: Yeah. You come home. Your dogs robbing you. The niggas you took care of since they met you. And gave everybody face. Nobody dropped no money on your commissary. The only person that looked out for you was your mom. The only people that answer was really her, my mom, and my basically brother . And even then, she came to visitation, dog. Visitations telling me I could trust her, right? The first time it happened, I don’t mean to put your business out there, but I’m doing it to you since you like to put your business out there, you like to say shit about me. She came to my visitation and let me know, and I forgave her, you feel me. I had to scare it out of her. I had to sit there and scare it out of her. That’s why I’m tellin’ y’all brother. Let me do my thing, you feel me. I know how to get the truth out of her.
  So. I’m in my . All the old heads, you know the cool ones been through this a thousand times. “Your bitch gone fucked somebody, fam, you gotta get over it. You need to forgive her and move on once you get the truth.” Once you get the truth, you feel me? But if you can’t get the truth just forget that shit. “It’s gonna happen,” they tellin’ me. I’m like, “Nah, not her bruh, she love me, she care about me, she know better, I’ma kill her, da da da, da.” You feel me? They was like, “What you gonna kill her for? You probably the type of nigga that kill your bitch and then kill yourself, ain’t it?” And I was like, “Yeah.” They was like, “That’s weak. You weak if you do that. You weak. A real man gonna forgive her, and then move on.” Once you get the truth, right?
  So. I don’t like to be called weak. I don’t like to be called pussy. So you know what I did? I got out expecting these things. ’Cause you know what level of frequency my mind is on. I got out because I knew what was going to happen. So she did that to me, right? You know what I did? I forgave her. Pat on the back. Don’t lie to me. You feel me? She wasn’t with me at the time so I’ll give her that. She wasn’t with me. You feel me? But you just picturing. And I’ve seen it done, don’t get me wrong. And I fucked another nigga bitch while he was in jail. This bitch , I don’t know if you know her. . She used to hang out with , I fucked that shit . I ran through that shit and then I beat up . I beat up her boyfriend.
  Woman 1: I used to date .
  XXXTentacion: I beat him up. I beat that nigga up. Fuck that soft-ass nigga.
  Woman 1: You’re funny.
  XXXTentacion: I beat that soft nigga up. I slapped him. I palm-slapped him. 
  So did that to me, right? But because I was in, locked up, I’m like, “All right, OK, it’s cool.” But then, sure enough, I get out. So you know what I do, initially? ’Cause I used to fuck her up bruh. I used to fuck her up, bruh. You know what I did? I didn’t touch her. I didn’t touch her. I forgive her. I forgive her. I forgive her . I just wanted the truth. And bits and pieces kept coming out from somebody else that I’ve never heard, right? Bits and pieces, bits and pieces, bits and pieces. So I’ma say this.
  Oh here go this other bitch. Hello? Twenty minutes away? All right. Just text me when you’re here.
  Woman 1: Where are you going? Where the fuck you going?
  XXXTentacion: That was just . She about to smoke me up. Y’all want some smoke? What’s his name and them supposed to still come, supposed to come. But yeah that bitch was supposed to smoke me up.
  But yeah. She did that to me. And bruh. Shit keep comin’ out bruh. And then she’ll drop me bits and details, right? And then she tell me she don’t know what happened. Remember how she told you that she didn’t remember? When I was in that room, she says, I was like, “Tell me the truth bruh and I’ll let it go. Tell me the truth. Just tell me truth.” 
  And then I asked her another question just to catch her in her lie. Just to catch her and make sure I know she lyin’. ’Cause now I know she lying about certain parts. And I’ma get it out of her. I’m not gonna hit her. But then I asked her, I was like, “Did sleep in that bed with you?” You know what she said before? “No.” “No.” slept in the bed with her. Now, I’m gonna tell you how I pieced together your lie. I’ma tell you in a second. I ain’t gonna hit you. I just want the truth. I want the truth so I can move on with my life.
  Yeah, I pieced together one of her lies, but yeah, she slept in the bed with that nigga. She said they didn’t, but you know this bitch lying. You know this bitch lying. You know this bitch is lying. I’ma tell you everything. I’ma tell you every detail and how I finally got to piece this shit together. But , if you love or respect me, I just want the truth out of this girl, then she can leave.
  Woman 1: I can’t give y’all private time. This here. She gotta speak right now, ’cause that’s what we’re doing. Like, I’m sorry. We’re already like— 
  XXXTentacion: Hell nah. 
  Woman 1: Like, I feel you.
  XXXTentacion: 
  Woman 1: Bro, like, I don’t know what you wanna do. Because I don’t even know you like that. Real shit. I wouldn’t disrespect you either. Out of respect not only for myself but because I wouldn’t do that to anybody. . You’re a woman so...
  Unidentified Woman: What are you asking me?
  Woman 1: I’m saying, like, what y’all wanna do.
  XXXTentacion: I’ll tell you. I’m going to leave. If you love me . I’ll leave in the morning. But if you love me, you make sure she’s straight bruh. Because as fucked up as—
  Woman 1: She can stay here!
  XXXTentacion: As much as I’ve told you. You know what’s funny as fuck, I still love this bitch bruh. It’s crazy as fuck. You’re gonna find someone. Just like you love your mom, you feel me? Just as much as you love your mom, you’re gonna find someone that make you feel equivalent. And just like you. And then you will feel how I feel. And I’m telling you. I’m telling you to your face—you’re not gonna jump off a cliff, I’m just crazy for that shit—but my nigga, you’re gonna go through the same shit. Somebody gonna hurt you this way, and you’re not gonna know how to deal with it. You’re not gonna know how to deal with it. ’Cause you’re not going to walk away, ’cause that’s your bitch. You’re not going to walk away. You’re not going to consistently hit them, because that shit, it fucked them up, you feel me?
  Woman 1: For me, it never gets to that fuckin’ point.
  Man: All right. 
  Woman 1: I don’t take it 
  Man: Yeah bro. I haven’t been through that bro. But did you hear what she said? I didn’t let—
  XXXTentacion: It didnt get to that point.
  Man: Exactly. Nah, look. If I see somebodys whos on some shit like you, Im with them, and then like theyre just for everybody. Then that just shows me, like, bro, I cant get too deep or, like, crazy with this person, you feel me? Because then, off rip, like, Ima have to be like always there, like, damn, shes for everybody, you feel me? And then when my back is turned, of course everybody’s gonna be for everybody so at the end of the day, you cant stop that.
  XXXTentacion: Who’s everybody? 
  Woman 1: It’s different on both sides.
  Man: But listen though. At the end of the day. They do have people who know how other people move and still try to work it out, you feel me? At the end of the day you do not have to kill yourself. Love counselor or some shit. You feel me? And y’all put on all your differences. Have like a professional. 
  XXXTentacion: She just need to tell me the truth.
  Woman 1: That’s one of the most annoying things, I can relate to that because that just happened to me and .
  XXXTentacion: Nigga wasn’t telling the truth.
  Woman 1: He held it, he held onto it. It wasn’t even the truth. It wasn’t even the truth. I don’t know what happened, but he heard from somebody that I cheated on him. During that, I wasn’t even with him. I was not with him. I don’t have to fuckin’ lie. 
  XXXTentacion: That was the only reason why I gave her a pass on her whole situation with her ex. And I believe her. But she probably lie about that too.
  Woman 1: That’s what I’m saying . It’s annoying as fuck...
  XXXTentacion: Bruh, I’ma get myself—I’ma get arrested either way. Look, .
  Woman 1: I got over it. You can do the same but this shit?
  Man: You can get over things.
  XXXTentacion: I’ma get arrested. look, I’ma get arrested either way. Would you rather me get arrested happy, or miserable. ’Cause I will go in that shit and I will kill myself. And you know I’m capable of it. I will go in that shit and I will kill myself. So would you rather me be either happy, or miserable.
  Man: Why you are so obsessed with wanting to killing yourself?
  XXXTentacion: I’m not obsessed with wanting to kill myself.
  Man: Nah but you keep on screaming like you want to kill yourself.
  XXXTentacion: Yeah, ’cause I’ve reached a point my life bruh where there’s a lot of obstacles that are mental. You don’t know the pain bruh. You just don’t know.
  Man: Understand, but listen to me now. kill yourself bruh. That shit is like . If you feel that way you need to go a pastor and they’ll baptize you.
  Woman 1: Exactly!
  XXXTentacion: We’re different people.
  Unidentified Woman: If you want better for yourself, if you want the cycle to stop you have to go for something that will stop it. I’m not saying you’re gonna find that through a God, you could find that through any source ...
  XXXTentacion: What nobody’s understanding, I put my source of happiness in another person, which was a mistake initially, right? But she fell through on every occasion until now. Until I started fucking her up bruh. But I started fucking her up because she made one mistake. And from there, the whole cycle went down. Now she’s scared. That girl is scared for her life. Which I understand. ’Cause , you seen me. You know what I do to people. know, all of them boys knew. It’s on fucking New Times. I’m on New Times for stabbing, how many people they put in the news, they said three, it was eight. In Deerfield. She know that. She’s seen this shit. She’s seen when I came back from stabbing in Orlando. She seen when I came back. Had a brand new laptop. No tears on my face, no remorse. I just knew I was going to jail. She know. So she’s scared. She thinks I’m going to kill her. She doesn’t realize, once I hear the truth, bruh, I can make a real decision bruh. And I’m saying that to you, I’m saying that out loud. The sooner, I mean it bruh, something positive could come out of that. And I’m not forcing you to say something that—
  Woman 1: And that, that’s light right there. Something positive can come out of that. I don’t, I don’t, I don’t—please don’t get me wrong, I looked at you just now, and I seen something different. And I’m not saying that in a bad way. It’s a good way. I just seen fear in your eyes. That’s what I seen. But I feel something different. If there’s something that you’re not saying—bro.
  XXXTentacion: Just get this shit over with, bruh.
  Woman 1: You feel me?
  XXXTentacion: Look. 
  Woman 1: Because I can’t—that’s it.
  Unidentified Woman: the truth. 
  Woman 1: Well, see. That’s it. I don’t know. This is the thing. Either you believe that. And you leave it alone.
  XXXTentacion: It’s funny how bits and pieces come out, and every time something relevant come out, you got some new info. 
  Woman 1: What else can happen? You feel me?
  XXXTentacion: All I can do at this point bruh. Nah. I got something that I’m going to say to her that’s going to make her think. I’m not going to put my hands on her, as I said, I respect y’all house. I just did something that was completely crazy as fuck. That is it for the night. Or, at all. I’m tired bruh. This shit pointless bruh.
  Woman 1: Yes.
  XXXTentacion: Nah, I mean everything bruh, I mean everything is pointless bruh. This shit all pointless.
  Woman 1: It—it may seem pointless—
  XXXTentacion: Nah, I’m not talking about life and shit, period. I’m just saying anything that has involved itself with me has been pointless. Therefore I’ma just go back bruh. I’ma go back in the morning bruh. I’ma pipe this shit up bruh. Take care of her please bruh. I’ma leave y’all with a little 500 bruh. I’ma get money and I’ma give it to her bruh. Just make sure she straight bruh. Pipe that shit up bruh. Fuck it.
  I know you don’t want me to have private time bruh, but just let me figure my shit out so that way when I go in the morning bruh I’m straight bruh. I’ma get this shit over with. I just need y’all to trust me. I don’t got nothing else to lose at this point, ’cause she done told me some other shit bruh that she did not tell me before so I know she’s lying. So all I can get now is the truth. I already heard enough. I’m already gonna tell her what I know.
  Woman 1: But like you just said at this point give you private time.
  XXXTentacion: I’ll go outside bruh. No, outside the front bruh. I need to talk to that girl bruh. Let’s just work it out to where I can leave bruh.
  Woman 1: I don’t want you to—
  XXXTentacion: You tryna have me sit here.
  Woman 1: I don’t want you to have to stay in a space or area, but 
  XXXTentacion: That’s what I’m saying!
  Woman 1: Have her leave. If that’s the situation, have her go stay .
  XXXTentacion: No she don’t want to go to the Airbnb. Bruh. I’m telling you bruh. I handle everything bruh. When anything goes down and anybody leaves, it comes through me. Everything.
  Woman 1: So what the fuck was before you?
  XXXTentacion: Orlando. Orlando and then distant shows that I would get and people that I would meet. They would start fuckin’ with it. How do you think everybody got a career? I did all that shit bruh and niggas still fucking me over bruh. So, let me talk to her and I’m straight. That’s it. 
  Woman 1: I know but, bro, like, I’m not, I can’t do that.
  XXXTentacion: Then I’ll sit right here. Or just let me leave. Tonight, bruh, I’m done with this shit bruh. I mean it bruh. I’m done bruh. I’m done with this shit.
  Man: You have a friend here that’s looking out for you. She looking out for you ’cause at the end of the day she’s real right now bro, so you don’t have to be inside jail right now.
  Woman 1: That is not the fucking spot to be in. 
  Man: At the end of the day you say nobody care about you.
  XXXTentacion: She care. Let me explain something to y’all. You wanna know why I couldn’t stay at , ? 
  Woman 1: I already know.
  XXXTentacion: Nobody like her. 
  Man: Bro, you have a life and a career ahead of you.
  XXXTentacion: I don’t care about that. 
  Man: Listen to me bro. You need to care about that cause at the end of the day that girl life and yours . You have to love and care yourself before anything else. No disrespect homegirl, you feel me, at the end of the day you can’t want to kill yourself over something like that bro. If that’s what’s making you feel like your world is not whole, and you just want to get rid of life and like, I wanna go to jail and just take care of her and at the end of the day, it’s just gonna be the same shit . That shit do not make no sense bruh. You’re young, my man. I’m 26 bro. I’m here to tell you that that shit don’t make no sense.
  XXXTentacion: I hear you.
  Man: How old are you?
  XXXTentacion: I’m 18.
  Man: You’re 18 fucking years old my man. You got mad time ahead of you.
  XXXTentacion: I love it when people tell me that. You ever see somebody get their tongue cut out?
  Woman 1: Bro!
  XXXTentacion: Let me ask you something, how old are you?
  Unidentified Woman: 19.
  XXXTentacion: How old are you?
  Woman 1: 21.
  XXXTentacion: You’re 26? You ever seen somebody get their tongue cut out? You ever seen somebody get their tongue cut out? 
  Man: This is crazy. I feel like this is “Maury.” 
  XXXTentacion: You ever seen somebody get their tongue cut out?
  Man: Nah.
  XXXTentacion: You ever seen somebody get raped?
  Man: Nah.
  XXXTentacion: That’s a lot of shit. Being 18 don’t got nothing to do with it brah. You ever have to live with the pride of your mother being a stripper when you was younger? You ever seen somebody try to kill your mom in front of you?
  Man: You can’t make that like half of your life—
  XXXTentacion: You gotta go through it first. You gotta go through it first.
  Man: —like fuck up your whole process of thinking—
  XXXTentacion: I’m telling you, you gotta go through it.
  Man: Nah.
  XXXTentacion: I feel what you’re saying though, don’t get me wrong, but you have to go through it. You could go get raped and I could tell you suck it up. But every night you go to sleep and you remember what you seen and you remember how it felt and you remember that horrible feeling in your soul. Nobody can comfort you. It’s something I gotta deal with.
  Man: I know, I hear you bro. But that’s why they have counseling. You feel me? And people who really care for themselves and their own life, they go there—
  XXXTentacion: I don’t care about my life.
  Man: Bro you have to care about your life.
  XXXTentacion: I don’t have to.
  Man: You need to care about your life. I care about my life. To hear somebody else not care about their life, that make me feel some type of way bro.
  Woman 1: First of all, it’s not even that deep, you’re supposed to hear your heart beat.
  XXXTentacion: What do you think about that? Fuck that bro.
  Woman 1: You gotta feel that bro.
  Unidentified Woman: There’s many circumstances that could 
  XXXTentacion: Y’all think about it way too—it’s straight bruh. I’ma just be out in the morning 
  Man: At the end of the day I hear everything you’re saying 
  XXXTentacion: Once you get to the parking garage, call me. Which floor are we on? We’ll come down. Yeah. All right I’m about to call you right back.
  Man: At the end of the day, if you see in your life that people’s fucking you over, you’re supposed to take away yourself from all that fuckery and all that circle of fucking you over and put yourself in something—
  XXXTentacion: She’s scared. Scared and stupid pretty much.