text: IM GONNA DIE SOON - XXX
  Im gonna die soon, and Im not sure when, I cant say goodbye, I dont know how to, if I could than I never cared, the point is, Im at the end, I can either reach my prime or I can fold now, Ive never folded in my life on what I wanted, but, Im scared of myself, Ive done the craziest things you could imagine, I wanna say Ive seen it all, but I cant and thats what scares me, Im scared of myself, what if I get worse than this? what if I hurt the people I love, what if I keep on with my insanity, I never counted on having to be insane forever, only momentarily to achieve what I wanted, Im scared, Ive never been real deal scared before, but I wanna cry, I wanna let go, and Im ready, but that what if is that twinke of light for me, but its disappearing, because Im forcing it too, after me, after you, whos next who else do I have to kill , who else do I have to break, I want to end this now, myself - xxx