text: So, what were gonna do is,
  were gonna play back
  some of the bands new songs.
  Therell be no cameras allowed
  in there.
  Therell be no video,
  no bags in there.
  You can only walk in
  with paper and a pencil.
  - Were ready.
  - Are there any questions?
  You want a single?
  Camera over here.
  Was there ever a moment you
  thought about stopping with Metallica
  or the whole band was falling apart?
  Was it a kind of a power struggle
  between you and him?
  How did you manage
  to solve this crisis?
  Where in Gods name are you
  getting this aggression from
  on this new album?
  Wheres it coming from?
  Why did it take so long to release
  an album with the new songs?
  After years,
  is it possible to retain the fire
  that, you know, you guys once had
  at the beginning?
  Do you think the young generation of
  metal fans will accept the new album?
  Eighty-five million records, years.
  I think its albums
  and various official releases.
  One word.
  Oh, my God.
  One word to span our career?
  We are scanning the scene
  In the city tonight
  Were looking for you
  To start up a fight
  There is an evil feeling in our brains
  But its nothing new
  You know it drives us insane
  Running, on our way
  Hiding, you will pay
  Dying, deaths
  Running, on our way
  Hiding, you will pay
  Dying, deaths
  Searching
  Seek and destroy
  Searching
  Seek and destroy
  Thank you!
  After years of headbanging,
  Metallica bassist Jason Newsted
  has quit the band, citing:
  Private and personal reasons
  and the physical damage that Ive done
  to myself over the years
  while playing the music I love.
  Metallicas management had no
  comment when asked by MTV News
  if theres a replacement
  waiting in the wings.
  But the band is still scheduled to begin
  recording a new album this spring.
  Thats the news for now.
  Stay tuned for more news.
  I mean, I think everybody understands
  the concept of trusting instincts.
  Thats getting to a place where
  you dont let egos and let stuff
  get in the way of artistic expression.
  You know?
  I mean, do you wanna say more?
  I think everybody understands...
  I met Metallica through
  Q Prime Management,
  after having seen me work
  with another band of theirs,
  when they called
  and said that Metallica,
  with Jason announcing
  that he was exiting the group,
  needed to take a look
  at itself and say:
  Well, whats going on here? Weve lost
  touch with our personal relationships,
  and face some of the issues that I think
  Q Prime felt that they were headed for.
  You know, we havent really worked
  together for almost nine months.
  When we were talking a couple
  of days ago about whether--
  You know, if we wanted
  to do this film or not,
  I was wondering if having these
  guys in here would affect that.
  Because Im just--
  Theres an intimacy that you get
  when its just a few people
  in the room,
  and Im just wondering
  if thats gonna get lost,
  if were gonna go back
  to sort of, like,
  battling each other and trying
  to be, like, all strong and--
  What intimacy?
  What the fuck are you talking about?
  I think, to me, its not gonna
  be a matter of whether
  the cameras are in play,
  but whether or not you guys
  are free enough
  to risk being seen by other people.
  Were here in the Presidio
  in San Francisco,
  and this is gonna be the location
  where Metallica
  is gonna start recording
  their next album.
  We decided that we didnt wanna
  go back into a studio again
  and do kind of, like, the same thing
  we had done before.
  We had to kind of change things up.
  And this is one of the things
  that we talked about,
  was to go into a space
  thats not a studio,
  bring in kind of, like, a portable studio
  or a makeshift studio,
  and basically make
  the situation uncomfortable.
  You know, dont buy new furniture,
  dont paint the walls.
  Dont do anything.
  Just keep it Spartan, keep it crude.
  Theyre such a success
  that you can get comfortable.
  I dont think they wanna be
  comfortable.
  Theres definitely a vibe in here.
  They got a lot of attitude,
  and I think they want it
  to come out on this next album.
  How did you approach
  this record differently?
  Did you talk about things, did you
  have ideas, keywords, things like that,
  that you wanted to put across
  before you started
  putting the whole thing together?
  Well, ego was a big one.
  Coming in here
  and not bringing a riff,
  not bringing a song,
  not bringing a title. Nothing.
  Me and James did not meet
  somewhere else
  and come in here with material,
  with songs, with music.
  This time we all got in a room
  and just started playing.
  And thats how we wrote songs.
  The idea is it should
  sound like a band getting together
  in a garage for the first time.
  Only the bands Metallica.
  I really like going fast.
  Just go off and meditate
  in the wind, you know.
  As corny as it sounds, it works,
  and it feels good.
  Its a good way to just let the weight
  of the world off every once in a while.
  It is-- It is kind of strange being,
  you know,
  like, a famous guy. You know.
  This is-- This is part of me
  thats trying to be unfamous, I guess.
  But its also
  go-against-the-rules attitude.
  You know, is this a big pose?
  I mean, yes, this is a pose.
  I mean, am I driving down the street
  to not get noticed in this thing?
  I mean, rebellious is kind of
  what this says, I would say.
  - Have you got a plug-in here?
  - Wait.
  So, what exactly are you doing?
  Well, youll just hold it
  above the pickups.
  Oh, okay. I got you.
  Yeah!
  Give me fuel, give me fire
  Give me that which I desire
  I got some bad news.
  Gonna have to--
  Change the lyrics?
  I like this thing, Bob.
  - What?
  - I like this thing.
  I used to kid myself that art was
  my great escape away from music.
  And I think Ive become
  increasingly aware
  that my interest in art, music
  and Metallica
  is not separate from anything.
  You know, where does he feel
  that theres enough
  of that kind of gold thing?
  How come there isnt
  another strokes
  up in that black area up there,
  where its kind of bare?
  Where are the starting points
  and the end points,
  if you know what I mean?
  Whens a song done?
  What the fuck does
  that mean, anyway? Done.
  Whens a record done?
  You know, where does a record start?
  Where does it end?
  Where does the process start?
  Where does the process end?
  All that type of stuff.
  Do you know what I mean?
  - Daddy!
  - Its really interesting.
  Yes, sweetie.
  I dont feel anything great there.
  I dont think
  its that great of a riff either.
  - How do you hear the riff then?
  - I like that:
  And then:
  Yeah.
  In nine days, itll be
  my two-year anniversary of surfing.
  Its taken the place of a lot
  of bad things in my life.
  So I basically stopped doing
  the drugs that I was doing
  and cut way back on my drinking.
  You cant surf
  when youre hung-over.
  You cant surf if youve been up
  all night. Well, at least I cant.
  Theres a sort of individualism,
  also, about surfing that I like.
  I mean, when its your moment, man,
  thats your moment and yours alone.
  And no one can help you.
  For all intents and purposes, we go
  into this record completely equal.
  Everybody contributing
  just as much on the lyric front
  as James contributing
  with drum parts and...
  As soon as you started talking
  about that, I just like...
  Yeah. Yeah. You flash back now.
  Well...
  You wanna hear it with vocals?
  Go sing it.
  You guys had some rules
  about that before.
  Quite frankly, I dont give a fuck.
  Im tired of arguing.
  You couldnt talk about his lyrics,
  therefore, he couldnt talk about
  your drumming.
  - Right.
  - Do you know what I mean?
  And you and him did the solos,
  so you werent allowed to comment
  on the solos.
  Do you know what I mean?
  There was, like, rules.
  Are you telling me that
  those boundaries are gone now?
  In the past, what we did was
  started with a bunch of ideas existing
  on tape from everybody.
  Then me and James would sit down
  and turn those ideas into songs.
  And then we would tell the rest
  of the band what to play
  and when to play
  and how to play it.
  There was never any,
  just, other ways of doing it.
  You know, its a whole new thing
  for me.
  You know, writing in front
  of everybody,
  because Ive always just gone
  into my own head
  and wrote stuff down,
  instead of taking things from outside
  and putting them down.
  What I was thinking is, is like--
  These are the hands that--
  This is the face that--
  So its, like--
  Building a Frankenstein
  or something?
  - Yeah. Pretty much.
  - Building what?
  - This is the top of my head thats flat.
  - A Frankenstein.
  These are my bolts...
  Were on the same
  stream of consciousness here.
  Were just all working
  on the same creative wavelength.
  And its inspiring to me.
  Now I can further express myself
  with these lyrics
  now that, you know, James has
  opened that door for Lars and I.
  - This is clay, right?
  - Yeah.
  - Not clam.
  - Clay.
  These hands finger the clam.
  These are the eyes
  That cant see through me
  This is the tongue
  That speaks on the inside
  Make sure you really, like,
  spit cant see me.
  These are the eyes
  That cant see me!
  These are the eyes
  That cant see me
  These are the hands
  That drop your trust
  - This is the--
  - Yeah.
  This is the eye--
  Yeah.
  This is the eye
  That cant see me
  This is the hand
  That drops your trust
  These are the boots
  That kick you around
  This is the voice of silence no more
  - What is this about?
  - Well, I mean, I said Frankenstein.
  Its not that far off,
  talking about pieces of things.
  So, I mean, some kind of monster.
  Some kind of monster?
  - You know?
  - Some kind of monster.
  - It is-- It is good.
  - You know what I mean?
  I like that.
  Some kind of monster
  Some kind of monster
  The monster lives
  We come now to create
  our album of life.
  Throughout our individual
  and collective journeys,
  sometimes through pain and conflict,
  weve discovered the true meaning
  of family.
  As we accomplish ultimate
  togetherness,
  we become healers of ourselves
  and the countless who embrace us
  and our message.
  We have learned,
  and we understand.
  Now we must share.
  - So thats just--
  - A mission statement.
  - A what statement?
  - Mission statement.
  - Mission?
  - Yeah, mission.
  - Its like-- You know, it sets a goal,
  - Right.
  so you just can, like, just always be
  reminded of, you know--
  You know, what the ultimate goal is.
  All right.
  Its my world, you cant have it
  Its my world, you cant have it
  Its my world, you cant have it
  Its my world, my world
  You cant have it
  Sucker!
  Excellent.
  Come on, little man. Lets go.
  Skylar, do you want your purse?
  - Daddy.
  - Ill come. Ill come.
  Come, Daddy. Come, Daddy.
  I dont know how you guys feel, but
  its really awesome what were doing.
  The four of us can just go
  in a fucking room
  and roll that kind of shit
  out of our sleeves.
  Pull it out of thin air, man.
  Its so exciting, because
  that has just never happened before.
  I couldnt get to sleep last night,
  because I was still wired from it all.
  How do you feel? You dont
  seem really psyched about it.
  What the hell.
  - Hows it going? Good to see you.
  - Yeah, thank you.
  - How many bears did you kill?
  - Two.
  Russias fucked up.
  You know, it was like,
  you put a bottle of water here
  on the table.
  That was it,
  a bottle of vodka sitting there.
  - Did you drink vodka?
  - Hell, yeah.
  - You did?
  - What else is there to drink?
  As soon as you got there,
  it was like, Na zdoroviya!
  Na zdoroviya!
  Thats a pretty big bear.
  - Is bear edible?
  - They were no good to eat.
  That freaked me out when
  they didnt take any meat.
  You know, they have been hibernating
  for three months,
  so they havent pissed or shit
  or nothing.
  - Oh, so theyre toxic?
  - Yeah.
  Third day, I killed my bear,
  and I was just in camp
  for the rest of the time.
  I was like, Oh, my God.
  - Worked on lyrics?
  - Yeah. I actually did.
  That was a lot of time, man.
  A lot of time.
  I worked on lyrics in Siberia.
  How to drink vodka
  and work on lyrics.
  Temptation
  Wreck my head
  Temptation
  Make you dead
  Temptation
  Sucks my soul
  Temptation
  Fill no hole
  Temptation
  Fuck you up
  Temptation
  No, no, no, no
  I cant say no
  Cant say no
  No
  No
  No, no, no
  Cant say no
  Oh, no
  I cant say no
  Go away
  Leave me be
  Just leave me be
  So, what were the reactions you got
  from those close?
  I mean, how did the family react?
  Im just-- I dont know.
  Sometimes Im a real ass about it
  and just come in and say,
  Oh, by the way,
  Im going to Russia for two weeks
  right here.
  You know, and, What? You know.
  Yeah, Im getting better at that,
  you know,
  because that was the most
  I missed my family ever.
  - You know?
  - Right.
  And it was, you know,
  Castors first birthday I missed.
  - Right.
  - And it was--
  Of course, we had a little vodka
  to Castor.
  Did a little shot for him
  and everything.
  But I wouldve loved to have
  been able to get ahold of home.
  Whos here?
  This is Daddy working.
  - This is where Dad works?
  - Yeah.
  - What does your dad do for work?
  - Drums.
  - He plays drums?
  - Yeah.
  - Let me play drums.
  - Is he good at it?
  - Daddy, wanna play drums?
  - I played drums a lot today already.
  Im okay. You play for a while.
  - Those guys,
  - Thats very good.
  you know, their plate is filled
  with many, many things.
  And music is just one of the things.
  - Say, Bye, James.
  - Bye, James.
  Bye, buddy.
  I chose not to have children
  and do those kind of things.
  My music, thats my children.
  You know?
  Daddys gonna stay and work
  for a little while.
  But since I decided to do it
  with music,
  then thats what I have
  to fill my time with.
  Echobrain is one of the projects
  that Ive been working on for years.
  And now its come to fruition.
  And then when it comes to the time
  where my main cat, James,
  tells me that basically
  he couldnt be in a band with me
  if I did the--
  Took this other project to this level.
  And after years of working
  together and going on buses
  and, you know, the stories, man...
  There was no way that this thing
  that I was doing
  could affect the monster of Metallica.
  I just dont see how it could.
  And so-- And saying things like that,
  I couldnt accept that kind of
  limited acceptance.
  I also know that this relationship
  is not over.
  You know, hell-- Itll come
  around again at some point.
  You guys will make contact.
  At that time the managers suggested
  that we have a psychotherapist
  come in,
  a man that meets
  with pro-ball teams,
  you know, big-ego, big-dollar guys
  that cant get along
  but have to make
  some kind of entity flow
  so everybody else and everybody
  can make their money.
  And I actually said:
  I think that this is
  really fucking lame
  and weak that we
  cannot get together. Us.
  Look, the biggest heavy band
  of all time.
  And the things weve been through,
  and decisions weve made
  about squillions of dollars
  and squillions of people.
  And this, we cant get over this?
  Was it more than just
  the Echobrain thing?
  Because thats, like, you know,
  what has been discussed.
  He felt like he wasnt free enough
  to do what he needed to do.
  Since he wasnt getting his creativity
  out enough in Metallica,
  he needed to get it out
  somewhere else.
  And I totally understand that now.
  And...
  On my side of that was,
  I didnt want him to enjoy that
  more than Metallica.
  I didnt want anyone
  to leave Metallica.
  I didnt want to feel
  that we werent enough
  or something like that.
  And it was-- Through my--
  I guess the way I learned how
  to love things
  was just to choke them to death.
  You know?
  Dont go anywhere. Dont leave.
  You know?
  You have to stay here.
  Okay.
  Need a pen, none of this pencil shit.
  Check it out, man,
  he cant even fucking spell it right.
  Metllica.
  Weve only been together years.
  I feel guilty that Im not inspired
  all the time.
  You know, especially
  when everyone else is.
  Its like, Okay.
  We kind of get to the point
  where the song is looped twice
  in the Pro Tools,
  and I know Bobs gonna hit me up
  for some kind of lyric ideas.
  Oh, shit. I was, like,
  dreading the whole process.
  Its like, Why are you dreading it?
  Why dont you just--?
  Well, youre dreading it
  because of what?
  - Lets get to the fear.
  - Well, because I didnt have anything.
  - And so if you didnt have anything--
  - Wasnt inspired enough
  to have something or letting down
  the team or some vibe like that.
  One, two, three, five.
  Say it, Im lonely, yeah
  Motherfucking in my head
  Its like Im almost,
  like, racing against time.
  Theres, like, weird-ass fear of like:
  I gotta come up with something
  myself really quick
  before somebody else comes up
  with something for me.
  And then if I dont like it
  or dont percent embrace it,
  then Im just being a selfish,
  you know, insular asshole.
  Its a fear response.
  When were up against a fear,
  thats the time to move into it,
  forward.
  Because theres going to be
  some kind of genius there
  or some kind of breakthrough.
  Motherfucker, yeah
  Metallica. Metallica.
  Kirk.
  Kirk.
  Kirk. Kirk!
  - Kirk.
  - Kirk!
  - Kirk.
  - Kirk!
  - Yes.
  - Kirk.
  - James is trying to talk to you.
  - Sorry, man.
  Yeah, its a bit stock.
  Check it out, guys.
  I dont know how you feel.
  Im in a shit mood.
  And Im not digging it right now.
  Even last night, I gotta tell you,
  everybody kind of looked--
  I hate to tell you, looked pretty burnt.
  I agree.
  And if we dont start earlier
  and end earlier, Im just--
  Im not gonna be in a good mood
  for the rest of this shit, you know?
  That was totally weird for me.
  You hear that, Bob?
  Why dont you try getting
  a more solid beat.
  - Regular.
  - Oh, well, you can call it regular.
  - You called it regular.
  - No, Im trying not to call it regular,
  because I know it bugs you
  when I call it regular.
  So a little more solid, then.
  Fuck!
  Maybe we should talk
  about next week.
  - Well, all next week is therapy.
  - Yeah.
  Do we have to do that?
  Can we sack Phil?
  I mean, we gotta find--
  We gotta find a balance to not--
  You know, the Phil stuffs important,
  and I hope we all feel that thats
  an investment in the music.
  Its an important part of the record.
  Get all holy again
  Let me just go put one together.
  Get all holy again
  - Its just real confusing sounding.
  - Its just jacking the vocals all up.
  I mean-- I mean,
  its clever and everything.
  But, I mean, I dont see
  what it does to the--
  I think thats how you hear it, dude.
  Thats fine.
  Im just trying to do something
  different.
  I mean, Im-- Im used to having
  the drummer do the beat part.
  You know what I mean?
  Holding it together.
  What Im hearing is...
  Choose my words carefully here.
  Its pretty straightforward.
  And the guitar shit, its--
  You know, its a little stock.
  So I started trying to introduce
  some kind of edge to it on the drums.
  Those things we throw out
  to each other are complete bullshit.
  You know? It sounds too stock.
  It sounds too normal to me.
  I mean--
  You know what I mean?
  Youre saying this shit
  so you can get your point across
  about doing a drum beat.
  I mean... You know,
  it doesnt hold any water.
  - To you.
  - It doesnt.
  I think its fucking stock. What--?
  Which part of that is unclear to you?
  I think it sounds stock to my ears.
  I mean, do you want me
  to write it down? I think--
  - Oh, yeah, please write it down.
  - It feels stock, okay?
  - I cant hear you.
  - So l--
  No, when you say-- Youre telling
  me what to play, right now.
  Youre telling me, You should
  play with what Kirks doing.
  - And Im telling you its stock.
  - Dude, fine.
  You know what, you guys, why dont
  we just go in and hammer it out,
  all right, instead of hammering
  on each other.
  Were in shit moods, and were not
  gonna get anything done here today.
  - All you wanna do is pick a fight.
  - I dont wanna pick a fight.
  This is so silly.
  Youre just sitting there going:
  Im in a really pissy mood and--
  And I fucking told you
  straight up that I was!
  - Right.
  - And what are you trying to do?
  Im not trying to do fucking shit.
  Youre just sitting here
  being a complete dick.
  Youre-- Youre really helping matters.
  Youre really good at that.
  I was straight up with you,
  and I told you, Im in a shit mood.
  And what have you been doing?
  Fucking picking at me all night.
  Come on, guys.
  Weve got better things to do.
  Yeah, I do. I do.
  Metallica front man, James Hetfield,
  has entered a rehabilitation facility
  to undergo treatment for alcoholism
  and other undisclosed addictions.
  In a statement posted
  on Metallicas official website,
  the band writes, James has entered
  an undisclosed facility,
  and he will continue to receive
  treatment until further notice.
  Until then we have postponed
  all current activities,
  including recording sessions
  for our new album.
  Metallica, whose hard-partying ways
  earned them the nickname Alcoholica,
  have been working on their follow-up
  to the double disc...
  I think its easy to see that,
  in those days,
  Metallica brought a kind of
  physicality to rock n roll.
  Lets say the Beatles,
  the Rolling Stones,
  you know, and all that inspired
  some of the British rock music
  that then developed after that.
  And lets say the metal music
  and Led Zeppelin and Black Sabbath
  and all of that.
  And then, out of that again,
  then, lets say,
  then came Lars
  and all of that and being--
  So I think that they have certainly
  a place in all of that, I think.
  Lars had a very good vision
  at the time
  of where he saw that particular--
  You know, the metal music going,
  because he could see it
  with European ears and eyes maybe.
  Dont you feel that its great for you
  to have your fathers perspective on
  who you are and what youre doing?
  I think thats incredible.
  You talk about the lineage...
  Which we did,
  we talked a little bit
  about your grandfather.
  Its very difficult to admit it,
  especially with him standing next to me.
  Its easier to talk about it
  when hes not in my presence.
  But...
  Of course it is.
  What would you--?
  What would you say in private?
  - To who?
  - To anybody, without him here.
  Say it.
  You know, what would it be?
  Well, I mean, Ive already said it
  to you countless times.
  Well, have you said it to him?
  You brought it up. I didnt bring it up.
  What is it you feel youve said
  that youre not saying now?
  I think maybe in some ways
  some of the--
  To me thats--
  Fear of status quo comes a little bit
  from this direction over here.
  I think that--
  I mean, theres nothing worse
  than when I have to go to him
  and play the new record
  and know theres something
  on there that sucks.
  And he can see right through that
  in two and a half seconds flat.
  Comments on that one?
  I would say, you know, if you said:
  If you were our adviser,
  what would you say?
  Then I would say, Delete that.
  I mean-- I mean,
  I dont know for you guys.
  For me, it doesnt cut it.
  You know?
  - But--
  - Interesting. I mean, its interesting.
  You know, now-- I mean, other
  than the people involved here,
  the only other people whove heard
  any of this music is Cliff Burnstein.
  When Cliff Burnstein heard that, he
  thought that should open the record.
  Yeah. I mean, that could well be.
  But Im pretty sure that--
  That I really-- That I really--
  I really dont think so.
  You know?
  I really dont think so.
  - Right.
  - For me, that--
  That doesnt sound right
  or something. You know?
  Unless Im a guy
  thats kind of shouting
  in some kind of echo chamber.
  So I think one
  of our responsibilities here
  is to act like a band
  thats still continuing.
  Were going on.
  Were doing our exploring.
  Were exploring ourselves individually,
  were exploring our relationships.
  And we really need to get together,
  talk about this,
  act like the band exists,
  because it does exist.
  And if we dont do that,
  then we are the coproducers
  of the process slipping off the planet.
  This is a bit
  of a shit sandwich, though.
  What does it--?
  The unravelling of a band?
  And then there were two?
  So a good friend of mine
  phoned me.
  And he knew where James was.
  - Really?
  - Yeah.
  He couldnt even imagine James
  doing anything for six months.
  Im prepared for the worst.
  Im pretty confident that, you know,
  we will come together
  when the time is right.
  But knowing when
  that time will come,
  or not knowing
  when that time will come,
  is very, very uncomfortable.
  I hope that at some point
  he will come back
  and try and finish the making
  of this record.
  lf...
  If he walked away from Metallica,
  Im not sure
  that it would surprise me.
  Say your prayers, little one
  Dont forget, my son
  To include everyone
  Ive always felt that James
  was a softer, more caring,
  compassionate person than he
  allowed himself to be to most people.
  I can remember
  from the Dave Mustaine days,
  I mean, when him and Dave Mustaine,
  these guys, they started right away
  with their big, you know,
  chests beating and their mannerisms,
  and the whole thing was very much
  about this kind of, like, macho--
  It was just, like--
  I couldnt deal with that stuff.
  And looking back on, I mean,
  what was that, years ago,
  I mean, I just felt so alienated,
  because it was just so far removed
  from the upbringing
  that I come from.
  Well, heres to you, my friends.
  But then, at the same time,
  Im starting to realizing now
  that the sort of depressive things
  that show up
  as a result of the alcohol
  and stuff like that,
  it was just very difficult for him
  to communicate from the heart.
  - You want some or not?
  - And not hide behind
  a lot of these different fronts.
  Whether its alcohol, that gives
  him a false sense of strength
  or the front man in Metallica
  or, you know, macho bullshit
  and all that stuff.
  All right, now you guys are drunk,
  and Im drunk.
  Now this is the fun part, man.
  I want to help him.
  I want to be there for him.
  And I want to do the best I can
  to make him the best person
  that he can be.
  So I dont know how the fuck
  its gonna play out.
  Its really healthy for me to be here
  without any pressure
  or anything related to the band
  or anyone who would remind me
  of the band.
  And to recognize whats real.
  Our sessions with Phil really stirred up
  a lot of things in James
  that he thought that he needed
  to address.
  Mentally, its really taken--
  Taken its toll on myself, you know,
  and Im very worried about him.
  And, you know, whenever
  you check yourself into rehab,
  they dont-- They dont focus on, you
  know, the fact that youre an alcoholic.
  They go much deeper, you know?
  I mean, they go way deep.
  They crack you open
  and then spill you out
  and examine all the things
  that are on the table.
  Ive spoken to him a few times,
  and, you know,
  I know hes having a rough trip.
  No matter how bad it gets, eventually
  things seem to sort themselves out,
  sooner or later.
  Whether its good or bad,
  they sort themselves out.
  I watched the people
  around the world say
  what a great guitar player Kirk is
  and what a piece of shit I am.
  And that I got kicked out of Metallica.
  And I wasnt good enough for them.
  And that I was a loser.
  And Ive had to deal with that
  for almost years.
  Its a dreadful experience.
  Its been hard, Lars.
  Its been hard to watch everything that
  you guys do and you touch turn to gold
  and everything I do fucking backfire.
  And Im sure theres
  a lot of people that
  they would consider my backfire
  complete success.
  You know? And am I happy
  being number two? No.
  You know? Youre just now
  encountering something
  Ive been going
  through years.
  Ive never had a chance
  to be able to tell you without
  talking to Lars, the guy in Metallica.
  Never talked to my little Danish
  friend again. You know?
  I remember the day you and I talked
  about digging a hole in fucking dirt
  and smoking hash
  through the ground.
  That to me is the stuff thats, like--
  You know? And weve never had
  very many moments like that.
  Do I feel some guilt? Yes, I do.
  But at the same time,
  its difficult for me to comprehend
  that the only thing that you feel
  when you look back
  on the last years
  is rooted in the Metallica thing.
  Okay.
  Have you ever thought what--?
  What Ive been through?
  I think Ive had an awareness
  of the pain I caused you.
  Thats not what I said.
  Okay.
  Do you have any idea--?
  - Of what I put you through.
  - No, no, no, what I went through.
  I mean, people hate me
  because of you.
  You know, I walk down the street,
  and I hear some piece of shit
  say Metallica at me,
  and they do that to taunt me.
  I mean, when I would hear Metallica
  on the radio,
  I would be like,
  God, I have to turn this off,
  because I just keep thinking,
  I fucked up!
  Right.
  Ive been waiting for this day
  for a long time.
  You know? And by no means
  is it done because
  somebody else very important
  is not here.
  Right.
  Do I wish it was all over again,
  and you guys woke me up and say:
  Hey, Dave, you know what?
  You need to go to AA? Yeah.
  Id give anything for that chance.
  Is there any last words you wanna
  say to everybody out there?
  Metal up your ass!
  Okay, thank you. This is Donna Davis,
  and this is Metallica.
  This is, like, a pretty bitchin club
  to play the first fucking gig.
  - Yeah.
  - How do you guys feel?
  - Stoked.
  - Freaking out.
  - Freaking out?
  - Totally. Totally.
  Its un-fucking-believable is what
  it comes down to. Can I say that?
  - You can say whatever you want.
  - Its fucking unbelievable.
  Echobrain. Yeah.
  I dont know, I just-- All of a sudden
  this became such a big production.
  I dont understand.
  Its like all of a sudden, like--
  I get one phone call, its like everybody
  and their fucking brother are in town.
  I thought itd be Jason, like,
  playing with his new band
  in front of, you know, like, drunks
  down at some bar or something.
  And now, I guess, to my own
  ignorance or something, l--
  Thats what-- I guess thats
  what I wanted it to be.
  So now Im realizing that supposedly
  its a little more of a big deal than that.
  - Hey, whats happening, man?
  - Whats going on?
  - Sounded good, man. Very good.
  - Thanks. Thanks, man, thanks.
  - Awesome. Awesome.
  - Oh, thanks. Right on.
  - Im Lars. How you doing?
  - Nice to meet you.
  Wheres Jason?
  - Jas?
  - I dont know.
  I think he went back to--
  I think he already fucking bailed.
  - He went back to--
  - Really?
  Nice. Go back to say hey,
  and hes, like, fucking gone.
  Elvis has left the building.
  Theres Zach. Hey, Zach.
  See, hes even blowing me off.
  Jason blows me off.
  Zach blows me off.
  How quick we become
  yesterdays news.
  No-- No kidding.
  See, theres a guy
  in an Echobrain T-shirt.
  Yeah, thats Steve over there.
  He works at the studio with us.
  Well, he is.
  - Really?
  - Yeah.
  I remember that guy.
  I remember him.
  He worked at the studio.
  - Which guy?
  - Over there.
  - The guy in the red shorts?
  - No, the guy in the black
  thats walking across right now.
  Kessel.
  Todd. He works at the studio too,
  doesnt he?
  - Who?
  - Todd over there.
  Im sure theyre all here, Bob.
  I mean, the only two people
  in the Bay Area
  not working for him is me and you.
  Hetfields gonna freak.
  Im in fucking hell.
  This whole gig has brought
  all of this on.
  Yes, it has.
  Its made me feel like--
  - You really wanna come clean.
  - It made me feel like such a loser.
  I mean, I cant hold my band together,
  you know.
  I start records,
  I dont finish them.
  I fucking--
  Jason is the future.
  Metallicas the past.
  Ive never had a break like this
  in years.
  Do you know what I mean? And just--
  Whats been kind of getting me
  is just not knowing.
  You know what I mean? Not knowing
  and not hearing, it just eats away at you.
  - Kirk talked to him.
  - I talked to James today.
  What did he say?
  He basically said that,
  you know, he just--
  His familys the priority right now,
  and he needs time to work
  on his family
  before he can reach out
  to his other family, being us.
  And that he loves us,
  and he just needs for us
  to understand that he needs time.
  And he also went on
  about how difficult it was
  talking to you about it,
  because he felt pressured.
  And, you know, he spoke
  about how you always need
  to be in control of the situation or in
  control of the schedule or whatever.
  And he said that this is a time
  he needs complete control
  of the situation.
  And he said, you know, all the
  Marc Reiters and the Bob Rocks,
  all that stuff, you know, just has--
  I cant think of that right now.
  So, you know, I got the feeling that
  he kind of lumps in your relationship
  with the business side of things,
  which was actually
  really surprising to me.
  But I think thats--
  You know, that explains--
  I think that explains a lot
  on why he hasnt spoken to you.
  Were just in limbo, and the longer
  James chooses to stay away
  from dealing with us,
  the further we drift apart.
  And I just feel so disrespected.
  And thats the key thing.
  Was the future of the group
  ever in doubt?
  Even when James went
  into rehab, do you think?
  Lars and I, we were wondering
  when James was going to finally feel
  like he was in a situation
  where he can come back
  to the band.
  And after a certain amount of months,
  you know, Lars and I started to think:
  Well, is he ever gonna come back
  to the band?
  And that was a really big question
  on our plates.
  Whether or not, you know,
  he wanted to come back.
  James wrote something in the new
  issue of our magazine, So What!
  He wrote a kind of
  a little handwritten note.
  That note was probably
  the most heartfelt thing
  that Id ever seen come
  from his mind.
  Tomorrow is shaping up,
  or is gearing itself up to be,
  yes, the first sit-down
  with one James Hetfield post-rehab.
  Why are we filming this?
  I dont know.
  Were in very different places.
  Or at least I am in a very different
  place than I was from the Presidio.
  Thats a huge understatement.
  So we just have to find that if--
  You know, if the movie will be
  as intense, you know.
  To me there was a lot of intrusion,
  and I kind of went with it and felt--
  I felt uncomfortable.
  I felt uncomfortable with it.
  You know, a boom
  following me around,
  and it just felt like I was
  in the spotlight all the time.
  And I didnt--
  I guess I dont really like that feeling.
  While we were in the Presidio
  filming you guys playing,
  - did you feel it then too?
  - Yeah.
  It was-- It was pretty much
  all the time.
  Do you think youre
  in a better place now?
  - We gotta find some...
  - Im definitely in a better place.
  Some place that
  makes you feel comfortable.
  And the last thing we wanna do
  is have it impede on your music,
  because thats more important
  than anything.
  You know, one answer
  may be there--
  Maybe there shouldnt be a film.
  I mean, thats the range of possibilities
  that we should really think about,
  because, I mean,
  why do you guys want a film?
  Even you said you hope
  that the film is made. I mean--
  Thats a big question,
  because, for me, it was really just--
  It came along with being in Metallica.
  Hey, were gonna do this.
  Oh, okay.
  Thats part of this, all of this...
  The bigness of Metallica,
  and Im kind of tired of it.
  You might look at it as a friend.
  To me, its been a beast.
  And its sucked a lot of me into it.
  You were maybe the keeper
  of the beast at one point.
  You know, because you were the
  champion of that fifth-- That entity.
  And, of course,
  you gotta find the right balance
  between what
  everybodys personal needs are,
  but if Metallica collectively decides
  to do this,
  then I think Metallica
  can make it happen.
  I dont know. That scares me again.
  Metallica is three individuals.
  And three individuals have to decide
  if its good to do.
  But I still think that the priority
  is the collective
  until all the people involved
  in the collective
  say that the priority
  is the individual.
  And so far, youre the only one
  that said the priority is the individual.
  I havent said that.
  He hasnt said that.
  I havent heard him say that.
  So I feel that its still--
  Theres still an unbalance there.
  We met from, like, maybe,
  I dont know, six or eight weeks
  before we actually picked up
  the project again.
  That was when we came in,
  and it was the first time
  we actually used this studio, HQ.
  Anyway, here we are. HQ.
  Right on. Well, were here.
  And the cameras here.
  And my friend the boom is here.
  - Hovering.
  - Yeah. Cool.
  Do you want me to play the music?
  Yeah, lets go. Im--
  Ill put the big speakers on.
  I was afraid to pick up a guitar
  and fearful of what would happen.
  Would I not like it? Would I love it?
  Would I not be able to write
  anything cool?
  Would I write just recovery stuff?
  James.
  It was probably the best sound
  Ive ever heard in my life,
  just the fact that you
  were playing guitar in here.
  - Hey, Zach.
  - Right on, brother.
  Play a riff.
  - What?
  - Nothing.
  See? It feels pretty good, doesnt it?
  - Yeah.
  - It feels like the next day.
  A year later, the next day.
  It will be interesting
  working on this schedule,
  because we really havent.
  Its gonna be great.
  And kind of the overview is, you know,
  the less time we have here,
  the more productive well be,
  in a way, you know?
  Its like were more focused
  on getting the stuff done.
  That all sounds really good.
  Okay. Now, lets revisit it in a week.
  So I think that, dont talk it, walk it.
  At some point, we are gonna
  have to work a little harder.
  - Yes.
  - You know, when that feels right.
  What do you mean?
  What does that mean?
  - What does that mean?
  - Yeah.
  When you say harder,
  does that mean more hours?
  You know, if we can go deep
  real quick,
  be intense...
  I spoke up because,
  What does that mean,
  we have to, you know,
  do eight hours now?
  - And I got fearful right then.
  - Thats okay.
  I mean, its like... Yeah.
  - To do eight hours?
  - No.
  Any lyric ideas?
  Im searching for--
  Searching for doughnuts.
  - Searching for doughnuts
  - Searching for doughnuts
  What was the whole thing
  from yesterday?
  - The Buddhist--
  - Guarantee-- What?
  No, the Buddhist thing that you had.
  Birth is pain, life is pain,
  death is pain.
  The cycle of suffering.
  Its called samsara.
  Where are you with this, James?
  Somewhere else.
  Wheres todays sweat going?
  Ive worn out being afraid.
  My endless parade
  of fear that Ive constantly made.
  My lifestyle determines
  my deathstyle.
  A rising tide that pushes
  to the other side.
  Ive worn out being afraid
  Endless parade
  Of fear that Ive constantly made
  Frantic tick tick tick tock
  I gladly trade
  Oh, I need know the answer
  Where Ill be laid
  I cant find it
  - It just-- It doesnt work.
  - The great--
  You did one great thing.
  You went:
  You did this one syncopated thing.
  Do the whole verse like that.
  Ive worn out always being afraid
  An endless stream of fear
  That Ive made
  Frantic tick tick tock
  Ill gladly trade
  Its weird. Its weird. And it works.
  No, but the second time you felt
  really comfortable with it.
  - Right.
  - Oh, by the way, its quarter to .
  I gotta get rolling, guys. Sorry.
  I feel like the bad guy saying,
  I gotta go because its : .
  If we all know, and we all do know,
  that : is kind of the stop time,
  then, I dont know, then I wont feel
  like the heel here, saying:
  I gotta go eat dinner
  with my kids, you know.
  Because I have a feeling
  Im gonna walk out of here,
  and youre gonna go in there
  and listen to this stuff,
  - and its like, thats not right.
  - Thats not.
  I mean, if I wanna listen to it,
  Ill go and listen to it.
  But we should at least listen to it--
  But I know youll sit there
  and start talking with Bob.
  Maybe Bob doesnt wanna sit
  in there, and when Im gone,
  things get talked about
  and decisions are made.
  And I feel I walk into something
  thats already kind of decided.
  And its a total uphill battle
  for me a lot of times.
  I dont like that feeling.
  Well, thats, like,
  just like the last years,
  - Yeah.
  - for me.
  Well, lets talk about this
  tomorrow, then, all right?
  - Or do you wanna take time out--?
  - No, I dont have time right now,
  because its past .
  Its hard to introduce structure
  into this, and Im trying.
  So, what do you think, Lars?
  Can we hear the song
  from yesterday?
  That we all heard together?
  How is that different?
  Because we all heard it
  together already.
  - He wants to be part of everything.
  - Was I in there?
  Yes, you were.
  We all heard it together yesterday.
  - You came in.
  - All right.
  As long as you dont talk about it.
  - Is that a way around it, or--?
  - That is definitely a way around it.
  How about if we just save up
  the tension?
  Seriously. I mean, thats okay,
  because tension produces results.
  Im excited to see
  what you learned here.
  Up and back. Up and freeze.
  What is this called?
  Arabesque.
  Super proud of you, sweetie.
  Im so glad I got to see it.
  Im working on--
  Really hard, on being
  the best dad and father
  and husband I can be.
  And the best me.
  You worked hard.
  I dont wanna lose
  any of the stuff I have.
  I know it could all go away
  at one time,
  and thats a tough part of life.
  And then-- And its just--
  Its a total rebirth for me,
  looking at life in a whole new way.
  You know, all the other drinking and
  all the other junk that I was stuck in,
  it was so predictable, so boring.
  Im out there looking for excitement
  in all this stuff.
  The results are the same, man.
  I wake up the next day somewhere
  in some bed,
  I dont know who this person
  is next to me,
  and Im drunk, completely hung-over
  and have a show to do.
  And the result is the same.
  You know?
  When life now is pretty exciting.
  You dont know
  whats gonna happen
  when youre kind of clear
  and here and in the now.
  In the moment.
  My lifestyle determines
  My deathstyle
  A rising tide
  That pushes to the other side
  My lifestyle determines
  My deathstyle
  A rising tide
  That pushes to the other side
  I think those two feel the best to me.
  Its a tough one to decide.
  They all kind of got
  some charm, dont you think?
  Yeah, Id be interested to hear
  the first one.
  From the first take.
  Well, lets play it.
  - Is it okay?
  - Are we allowed?
  - Yeah, we are.
  - Do we have--?
  - We never really settled that, did we?
  - We didnt settle it.
  Yes. Were allowed.
  Well, Id like to hear it.
  Feel free to leave the room, whoever
  doesnt want to be part of that.
  I felt like it was an agreement.
  Were gonna work from to
  and then we would not work.
  Well, if Lars and I
  listen to something
  or go through the Presidio stuff,
  its not because we wanna do
  something behind your back.
  Its for you.
  And basically what I heard
  is, No, I cant do that.
  - What the fuck is that?
  - I dont know, my mind gets lopsided.
  The more it goes in a different
  direction, the harder it is.
  The harder it is to get that back.
  What is it you have to get back?
  Some control. Some sense
  of involvement in the band.
  When I was running this morning,
  I was thinking about seeing you today,
  and the word fuck
  just comes up so much.
  Seriously, its really true.
  - Is that in anger?
  - No, just, Fuck!
  Fuck.
  I just think youre
  so fucking self-absorbed.
  And what makes it worse is
  that you always talk about...
  You always talk about me.
  You use the word control
  and manipulation a lot.
  I think you control on purpose,
  and I think you control inadvertently.
  I think you control by the rules
  you always set.
  I think you control by how you
  always judge people.
  I think you control by your absence.
  I think you control all of this
  even when youre not here.
  I dont understand who you are.
  I dont understand the program.
  I dont understand all this stuff,
  okay?
  I realize now that I barely
  knew you before.
  And all these rules
  and all this shit, man,
  this is a fucking rock n roll band.
  I dont want fucking rules.
  I understand that you need
  to leave at .
  I respect it.
  But dont tell me I cant sit and listen to
  something with Bob at : if I want to.
  What the fuck is that?
  You know, I dont wanna end up
  like Jason, okay?
  I dont want to be pushed away.
  I dont want it to happen twice.
  Lets do it, and lets fucking do it
  full-on or lets not do it at all.
  Fuck. See?
  Fuck.
  Fuck!
  Fuck!
  Yeah!
  - Yeah!
  - Metallica. Yeah!
  Rock n roll.
  Lets hear it for Elena!
  Were not anywhere near
  getting any issues resolved.
  Well, lets get them.
  Thats what were here to do.
  I dont know. I guess the playing part,
  being in the room,
  and then mainly being in the room
  with Lars, playing music together.
  I guess I had higher expectations,
  and I dont know,
  maybe Im disappointed in myself.
  Maybe... I dont know.
  You wanna talk about that?
  I mean, what does that mean?
  Im not enjoying being in the room
  with you playing.
  Searching
  Seek and destroy
  Searching
  Seek and destroy
  Searching, yeah
  Seek and destroy
  If you are not having any fun,
  let me let it be known to you that
  Im not having a lot of fun either.
  But Ive-- I am not interested
  in playing music with you
  if youre not happy in there.
  I just dont want to be a--
  Become a fucking parody.
  Okay? So if youre not happy
  playing music with me:
  Is there enough that connects us
  to hold on
  for a way through this?
  I dont know.
  There are moments
  where I really doubt it.
  Really doubt it.
  Im glad you said that.
  Because I really, deep down,
  feel sometimes that its just...
  Theres just some empty, just...
  Just an ugly feeling inside.
  Just... I dont know.
  How much work
  do we gotta put into this?
  - Then youre doing the:
  - Yeah.
  Lets do our little roundtable thing
  right now, quickly.
  Everybodys gotta participate.
  Lars, come on.
  Hey, Castor, why dont you look at all
  the boys-- The men, I should say.
  And say bye to everybody.
  Bye, Castor.
  Thank you for coming.
  - Is Daddy going bye?
  - No, your dadas staying here, okay?
  - Bye, guys.
  - See you.
  So, whats the deal? How does
  everybody feel about what they heard?
  The chorus lyrics will definitely work
  in that feel.
  - Yeah.
  - That kind of intro bit thats on there.
  - What about you? What do you think?
  - Its good.
  You think its good? Was there
  anything in particular that you...?
  No, I wasnt paying attention
  that detailed.
  Thats just-- Its a lot of good stuff.
  I can take you back, when me and him
  were alone in my room, in
  listening to the new wave of
  British heavy-metal singles.
  As soon as there was somebody else
  in the room,
  it just became this, like-- It just had
  a very different energy to it.
  - Is there any of that thats usable?
  - Yeah.
  - Thats a fuck-- Thats a fucking bitch.
  - Lets do another version of it, okay?
  The first time I got
  a real awareness of it
  was when Mustaine came
  into the picture.
  When James was with Mustaine,
  he became like he never
  really cared about me.
  One time during the recording
  of the Ride the Lightning record,
  where me and him went out and--
  So beers later,
  it was like, Oh, dude, I love you.
  But it could never have materialized
  until it got to that -beer point
  and we were alone.
  That was good.
  Are you sure I dont have
  to play it again?
  Yeah, Im sure.
  Its good practice, though.
  - For what?
  - The road.
  - When?
  - A couple years.
  From day one, its been competitive.
  And in a way, thats what has made
  Metallica what it is.
  Thats whats driven us further.
  What feels good to you?
  I dont know.
  Im gonna try a bunch more.
  Can you try maybe like a:
  Almost like a strum.
  My parents split
  when I was or .
  And then my mom passed on
  when I was .
  The only thing I felt that I really had,
  at that point, was music.
  My wanting to keep everything
  under control,
  and, you know, its out of a fear
  of my abandonment issues.
  Im afraid to get close to people
  because I dont know how to do it.
  I dont know
  how youre supposed to do it.
  - Cool.
  - That last one was pretty good.
  Yes.
  Thats the first amp I ever owned.
  That right there.
  I think we have it.
  Okay.
  Okay. Now we gotta talk about it.
  You started talking about the idea of
  the guitar solo, as we have known it,
  maybe being something that was
  a little outdated
  and maybe reintroducing
  some riff-o-rama things.
  But can I say something
  that I think is bullshit?
  This whole fucking solo out,
  you know, dates the whole thing.
  Thats so bullshit. You know?
  If you put a guitar-- If you dont play
  a guitar solo in one of these songs,
  that dates it to this period.
  And that cements it to a trend
  thats happening in music right now.
  I think thats stupid,
  and I think its totally trendy.
  I know thats not what I said.
  Its always been about,
  like, where could it go
  thats kind of new and interesting,
  instead of just repeating
  something from the past.
  Im not interested in playing
  traditional guitar solos anymore.
  - You know, thats just-- For me, its--
  - And you told me that.
  Its just boring, you know.
  To me, if you can add a colour
  to the song
  that satisfies you and works
  for the song,
  then thats what we should do with it.
  But I dont wanna get in the position
  where its like,
  we put something down on the tape
  to satisfy your ego,
  my ego, Lars ego or James ego.
  I think it should serve
  whats going down.
  Like, in other words, there shouldnt be,
  like, a rule of no solos.
  There shouldnt be a rule of solos.
  It should be--
  And I agree.
  I mean, it really is, to me,
  all about serving the song,
  and, you know,
  I feel much better about that,
  because, you know, I just dont wanna
  follow certain trends
  that I see other bands following.
  We dont necessarily have
  to stick to our traditional way,
  but we also dont have
  to follow that trend.
  Im actually very, very comfortable
  with my role in the band, you know?
  Ive actually always been very, very
  comfortable with my role in the band.
  Im not a really egotistical person.
  In fact, Ive-- I spend a large
  amount of my time trying to, like,
  downplay my ego
  and get it even smaller and smaller.
  Thats part of my beliefs.
  I try to be an example
  of being egoless to the other guys.
  Hi! This is Kirk from Metallica.
  And if you want money,
  youll listen to us.
  And then some other guys
  gonna give you cash.
  Twenty years worth of integrity,
  and, you know,
  credibility and all that.
  The next five minutes
  is gonna change all that.
  Hey, man, keep it locked right here,
  and-- What?
  Well help you score $ .
  This is James from Metallica.
  Survey says, you need cash.
  Your money-shot to snatch
  a bunch of cash is coming soon.
  In order to suck both
  nationwide radio chains off,
  we are now standing here
  having to do this fucking stupid thing.
  Up to motherfucking grand,
  goddamn it!
  Win a bunch of money.
  And walk away.
  This is stupid!
  Sharpen that booger-picking finger
  and be the th--
  Hey, its Lars from Metallica. Im
  about to stick grand up your ass.
  One dollar at a time.
  I was telling Lars last night
  that was hard for me to see
  - you guys squirm like you were.
  - Yeah.
  Because I wanted to say anything,
  and its not my place to say anything.
  I cant imagine Bono or the Edge
  going on the radio,
  saying what you guys
  are being asked to say.
  - Dad, can I have one of those?
  - Go for it.
  Should we catch up
  on all this radio stuff?
  Okay. Now, theyre
  the biggest chain in America.
  You know, its like stations
  or something.
  And if you guys think its crappy, as a
  radio thing, those guys think its good.
  I mean, thats their idea.
  We didnt come up with that.
  So strategically--
  Why are we doing it, then?
  Just to make them happy?
  Yes.
  Thats exactly what theyre doing.
  And they wont say, Fuck you,
  you never do anything for us.
  Were gonna fuck you
  on the next record. 
  People would do that?
  Because you didnt give us something,
  were gonna fuck you?
  Yes, James. They would.
  Im not saying that they
  can always get away with it.
  Thats so funny.
  - It wouldnt stop them from trying.
  - Im glad its your world.
  I understand the wash your back,
  you wash mine thing.
  Wash my-- Ill wash your back
  so you dont stab mine,
  - Right.
  - is more like it.
  Okay. Why dont we get off
  the phone, then.
  Well, you know, we should have this
  conversation some more next week.
  - Later.
  - Okay.
  - See you.
  - Bye-bye.
  Thats insanity. Were gonna hurt you
  because we didnt get something.
  I wash your back
  so you dont stab mine.
  Well, thats a good line for a song.
  I guess I just want something
  to rhyme with mine right now.
  Wash your back so you wont...
  Wash your back
  so you wont stab mine.
  Step on a landmine.
  Keep you in my back pocket.
  Blind leading the blind.
  Ill rip out your fucking spine.
  Okay.
  All right.
  Wash your back
  So you wont stab mine
  Get in bed with your own kind
  Wash your back
  So you wont stab mine
  Get in bed with your own kind
  - That was really good.
  - Are you pulling my mike?
  - That was really good.
  - It was.
  - Really good.
  - So then, the part--
  Landmine
  Landmine
  No landmines
  No landmines
  Rock lobster
  Wash your back
  So you wont stab mine
  Get in bed with your own kind
  Theres a witch at the foot of my bed.
  Did you--?
  Did you hear what Lars said?
  He says, Yeah, Kirk stopped reading,
  and I stopped moping.
  - Thats what you said.
  - Thats not what I said.
  - Whatd you say?
  - I said, I stopped sulking.
  Oh, sulking.
  Shit!
  In the months since hes
  parted company with Metallica,
  ex-bassist Jason Newsted has been
  apparently more musically active
  than his former band mates.
  While Metallica drummer Lars Ulrich
  was pursuing Napster,
  and singer James Hetfield
  battled alcoholism,
  Newsted hooked up in the studio
  with legendary metal band Voivod.
  Our own lann Robinson got all the
  answers on Newsteds new ventures
  and the current state
  of his relationship with Metallica.
  A good friend hinted
  that Jason would really like
  to join the band again.
  Man, I popped his little bubble
  for a second and-- I dont know, man.
  Ill be quite honest.
  I think the heart and soul of Metallica,
  from this point on,
  and has been for a while, since
  Cliff died, is the three of you guys.
  I think you will never, ever, ever find
  a permanent bass player.
  My opinion.
  There was also tragedy
  in rock this week.
  Metallicas bassist Cliff Burton
  was killed in a bus accident
  while the band was on tour
  in Sweden. He was .
  Metallica bassist Cliff Burton
  was buried on Tuesday
  in the San Francisco area.
  Remaining members of the band...
  Jason Newsted.
  He replaced Cliff Burton,
  who was killed in an auto accident
  in September.
  Jason told...
  It pisses me off that Cliff left us
  because wed never have
  that initial four guys
  just going on and on.
  You know, when I talk about it,
  its like that happened for a reason.
  And were-- Were dealing with that.
  I gotta capitalize
  on whats being said right here.
  The Cliff message that I get
  from him to you guys is,
  that treasure the three of you.
  Treasure every moment
  that the three of you have.
  And the four of you have.
  You know, treasure--
  Treasure it because you never know.
  And one of the sad things
  that happens when somebody dies
  is that people have never
  taken the time along the way
  to really embrace each other
  every day. You know?
  Its a sin if you--
  You know, if you let that go.
  Phil has been like an angel for me.
  Hes been sent to help me.
  And, you know, Ive got
  my own thoughts about all that,
  you know, a father figure,
  the dad that never was
  and all of that, that it makes
  me comfort--
  It comforts me.
  But also, we dont want to have
  our hand held through life.
  Wed like to be able to stand proud
  ourselves and move on.
  Therell be a time for that.
  And we just have to discuss
  when that is.
  You know, there is purpose
  behind the way I do it.
  I think its very effective.
  I have to decide whether
  Im going to push it or not.
  It sometimes is a distraction.
  So, what part of our career
  are you gonna manage today?
  I thought Id do the whole thing,
  since you guys cant do anything.
  If you guys could run something,
  then it would be easy to step back.
  Because you cant, you know...
  Is today the first day youre
  gonna play drums?
  - I dont wanna get into that.
  - Okay.
  No. I dont think
  Im gonna do the drums.
  - I think its time--
  - Maybe I should.
  - Yeah. I think its time.
  - Although, actually, Im kind of...
  Well, its about the only thing
  you havent done.
  - I havent sung.
  - Right.
  We got to a point
  where we sat down and told Phil
  that we wanted to scale Phil back
  to every other week.
  And we were getting ready
  to implement that
  four weeks from when
  the decision was made.
  And two weeks
  after the decision was made,
  we had to sit Phil down and say
  that we were not ready to do that.
  Because we got really...
  I dont know. Scared, I guess.
  There were some things
  that were going on at the time
  that, really, Phil helped with a lot.
  Live from the news leader
  in Northern California.
  NewsCenter . Night Beat.
  The Metallica v. Napster battlefield
  moved to San Mateo today.
  Metallica drummer Lars Ulrich
  delivered a list of screen names
  of people who have downloaded
  the bands music online.
  Metallica is suing Napster,
  a website that provides software
  which allows people to download
  music on the Internet without paying.
  Metallica drummer Lars Ulrich testified
  before a Senate committee
  earlier this month that Napster has
  hijacked our music without asking.
  The band said
  that over people
  are downloading its music for free.
  A group of former Metallica fans
  staged a protest at the courthouse.
  I dont want anything to do
  with Metallica anymore.
  Im gonna be trashing their CDs.
  I took all my CDs,
  and Im gonna be destroying them.
  Are you proud
  of what you achieved with Napster?
  Are you proud in hindsight
  of what you pulled off?
  Being the most hated man
  in rock n roll?
  Yeah, that was-- That was my goal.
  I got an idea.
  Im kind of bored this summer.
  Everythings going a little too well.
  Lets see, I wanna turn myself
  into the most hated fucking
  asshole in rock n roll, yeah.
  Like, good afternoon, my name is, you
  know, like, Lars Ulrich, from Metallica.
  I worked for years to get
  where I am today.
  Me and my buddy
  James Hetfield here
  have shed blood, sweat and beer
  to get where we are today.
  Beer, good.
  Who do you think you are?
  I mean, just, you know,
  because you, like, made us rich,
  you think you can get free stuff?
  Songs that we spent upwards
  of, you know,
  like to hours writing
  and recording.
  Our team of lawyers and researchers
  have your names,
  and you Napster users, well see you
  in jail getting gang-raped.
  Some minutes
  I have all this strength,
  and I can stand there and just go,
  Fuck you, fuck you, fuck you.
  Im bulletproof, it doesnt matter.
  I got Hetfield and Hammett,
  and were a team, and fuck you.
  You know what I mean?
  Five minutes later,
  it means nothing, and I just
  become really vulnerable.
  You know,
  we never sat there and thought
  about where Napster
  was gonna end up.
  We never sat there and talked about
  what shots we were gonna take.
  We just sat there and thought about,
  this was something we had to do.
  So wait a sec.
  That was awesome!
  Its like I had to stay
  on the course that I was on
  and stay to my convictions,
  but it was eating away at me inside.
  And then maybe it could go
  lyrically to:
  What difference did l/we actually
  make? Its a great question. Great.
  And if that could-- Its like if that
  question could get thrown out there,
  but remain unanswered,
  I think thats really strong.
  All the shots I take
  What difference did I make?
  All the shots I take
  I spit back at you
  All the shots I spit back at you.
  Thats awesome, dude.
  Fucking...
  - Fuck me.
  - And the what difference did I make
  - fit right in.
  - Really awesome. Right on.
  These two kicks,
  are they the same as--?
  - Its different.
  - Okay.
  Go to the master. What really gets
  my dick hard is starting on:
  You know, there.
  Then these are awesome.
  Lars, what I wanna know is,
  do the four of you just go in there
  and just jam?
  Youre hearing excerpts
  of three-hour jams.
  Youre hearing-- Look at it as a funnel.
  Youre hearing the very part
  of the bottom of the funnel.
  - Right.
  - You can almost equate
  - what were doing now to arranging.
  - Youre like Pollock, the painter.
  He is. Hes Pollock,
  the funnel-arranger guy.
  Its gonna sound fucking amazing
  at the stadium
  with people
  fucking raising the evil horns
  up to the sky and saying,
  Metallica, baby.
  Oh, can we fast-forward
  to that right now?
  I think what Id like to do is,
  Id like to talk about
  this touring thing that has come up.
  Were very cognizant of the fact
  that things have changed
  for you guys.
  And theyve changed
  for many, many reasons.
  Why cant we figure out what works
  best for everybody
  in their personal lives,
  plus what works best as a business?
  What if you just do a stadium tour,
  where you play Friday, Saturday
  and Sunday,
  and then you go home
  the rest of the week?
  I just wanna put out that,
  you know, it might be a kind
  of uncomfortable vibe here
  because people might not know
  how Im feeling about touring,
  and I dont really know either.
  You know? Until I get there.
  And, you know, I wanna tour.
  I dont wanna fall off the wagon,
  you know.
  I dont wanna go out there--
  I dont know what its like.
  Doing things for the first time again, as
  I think Ive said before, its a little scary.
  I dont know about you,
  but its, like, summertime.
  And to me, its fucking
  beer-drinking weather, yeah?
  Yeah. Well, Im gonna take time
  right now and fucking have myself one,
  and I just wanna say cheers
  to all you guys
  and fucking thanks for coming down
  and getting nutty with us. Cheers.
  I blew my voice out
  on the Black Album,
  doing So What, the cover song.
  And we had a bunch of Metallica
  songs to do after that.
  And I went to this coach. I didnt--
  I didnt wanna go. I was scared.
  I thought he was gonna make me
  sing operatic.
  But I went there,
  and we just did warm-up stuff like this,
  and this is the tape. And Ive had
  this same tape for-- Since then.
  - Was there a turning point?
  - Yeah.
  I think when we had accumulated
  what we thought to be,
  you know, a great kind of...
  I dont know,
  cross section of material,
  we took stock, so to speak.
  The only songs that
  are gonna make it to the album
  are the songs that
  all four of us vote on.
  And out of -plus songs,
  only four songs got all four votes.
  Sweet Amber
  Sweet Amber
  Sweet Amber
  How sweet are you?
  How sweet does it get?
  How sweet are you?
  How sweet does it get?
  - Yeah, right.
  - Wow.
  I mean, theres some explosive playing.
  The shit just takes off.
  Its like you guys have spent
  all this time
  to come back to find yourselves.
  - Thats what it sounds like to me.
  - All right, to go.
  Yeah, how are you doing?
  Do you wanna hear more?
  - Wanna hear more?
  - Im just getting started.
  Squeeze all within my hands
  Choke within my hands
  Im madly in anger with you
  Im madly in anger with you
  Im madly in anger with you
  Time, time, times like this
  - Boy
  - You got what youre coming to
  - So
  - Destruct the power within all
  Across your spine
  So that gets broken too
  Temptation, fill no hole
  No
  No, no
  Temptation
  You know, the first four songs
  youve played me,
  all pretty much knocked me out.
  Okay? But if youve got it going, you
  want it to hammer all the way through.
  You want people to be able
  to really listen and say:
  Jesus Christ, theres
  no letting up from these guys.
  Theres no fucking letup.
  Fuck ballads. You know?
  There definitely is some Presidio stuff
  that I felt, maybe--
  You gotta analyse it. Maybe youre
  watering it down in some way.
  Thats all.
  - Its your call.
  - Yeah.
  I know that...
  Temptation,
  I remember writing that thing.
  It came out.
  It flowed, totally, instantly.
  Temptation kind of sums up
  all the lyrics
  that are in this new kind of project.
  So-- And that-- And its cool
  because that was done
  long before recovery
  and all that, so...
  I mean, I can tell that youre singing
  your heart out.
  Youre definitely wearing your heart
  on your sleeve on that song.
  To me, its more like a jam.
  Is there a song in there?
  Potentially.
  You know, theres almost nothing
  there that cant be turned
  into something better than it is
  or something
  that could probably
  get pretty fucking close
  to being something
  on a Metallica record.
  You know, but then it just goes away
  from what the purpose--
  At least, what I see the purpose
  being today,
  which is show up with what you--
  You know, what are your A-pluses?
  You know?
  Well, when I hear Lars talk
  about We can whip anything
  into decent shape, I agree.
  And we did that on
  Load and ReLoad.
  And this is us trying to choose
  before we take it to those extremes,
  you know?
  - Exactly.
  - That makes sense.
  That was a pretty major thing that I
  think Lars and I clicked on together,
  that, wow, Id heard him,
  and he heard me.
  Oh, its like, Oh, okay.
  Its like it takes the cutting edge
  off of it
  or the personal attack off of it,
  you know?
  Things are a lot less dramatic
  than they used to be
  within the chemistry
  of the four of us.
  Less head games, abuse of power
  and soap-opera bullshit.
  But can we just do one thing?
  For lack of a better word,
  when it comes in with the drums,
  I just want you to scream,
  Fuck,
  as hard as you can fucking scream.
  Fuck
  Okay. It should be slower.
  It should be more like:
  I want four of them. Do it again.
  Lars is selling paintings
  because hes ready to move on
  to the next ten years
  or next decade
  or next phase of his life.
  And a lot of what these paintings and
  a lot of what this house represents
  is the last ten years versus
  a husband and father of two.
  Hes getting rid of some pretty
  major and important pieces
  in the majority of his collection.
  Hes wiping the slate clean.
  Midnight, New York City.
  One last look at the paintings.
  Oh, well.
  - Its a celebration.
  - This is a celebration.
  - Of how far youve come.
  - Its a celebration.
  With Phil Towle.
  This is a celebration.
  Some paintings have visited us
  for a while.
  And now we wanna share them
  with other people.
  - Okay?
  - Right, yeah. Thats it.
  - Its a choice.
  - Okay, cool.
  I never looked at it as an investment,
  but I always looked it as--
  Versus some of the other guys
  that may be, like, taking
  a big pile of money and parking
  it in the bank,
  I would always, like, take a big pile
  of money and park it on my wall.
  I can just feel some of the adulation
  that other people have thrown
  at these paintings,
  and that makes me proud.
  Ive never been this close to it.
  These are great paintings, whether
  they sell for a dollar or for $ million.
  The only thing that matters
  is what pleasure
  and what feeling you get out of that
  moment you have with that painting.
  And its never been
  about dollars and cents.
  Its always been about something
  greater than that.
  But, fuck, they do look awesome.
  I mean, fuck.
  Its been a good time.
  - And it will be a good time.
  - To the future.
  I feel better about this
  than I thought I would, actually.
  - Its weird, I dont know why.
  - Yeah.
  Shit.
  $ .
  $
  on the telephone.
  Its two of you in the room,
  selling right, fair warning at $ .
  Jean Paul, $ .
  Twenty-one is the moderna
  on the reverse,
  the Jean-Michel Basquiat showing
  on the screen there on my right.
  - All right, here we go.
  - Be strong, my friend.
  $ . At $ . million.
  . million.
  $ .
  $ .
  - Can we get more cocktails?
  - $ --
  - .
  - . . .
  - .
  - $ million.
  - Come on, .
  - For you, sir, $ .
  $ .
  And selling at $ million.
  Brett, yours at million.
  - All right.
  - Hi.
  It went well.
  I got myself drunk to numb the pain.
  But it went well. Im happy.
  Like, lets talk about the zone
  for a minute.
  Because there is a way to help
  a person-- Persons get in a zone.
  To-- I mean, you could consider
  seriously doing some meditative,
  or apply the meditative principles
  to music, all right?
  I dont want this to sound
  too way-out,
  but if you do that,
  the four of you are out there,
  and you do it anyway, unconsciously,
  you do a musical meditation
  by starting to jam with each other.
  I just think,
  no matter how you look at it,
  Ive been making records a very
  long time, and it really comes down
  to how much work you put in
  and how much...
  You know, its just tough. Sometimes
  its just-- Its just tough work.
  And I like to stretch the frontiers
  of what people accept, okay?
  And I understand about that.
  And l--
  I dont want, for my mind, to settle...
  I guess Im not gonna
  be playing today, then, huh?
  Well, Im gonna go out
  and make phone calls.
  So everybodys...
  You know, weve had
  a fabulous few weeks
  with a lot of great productivity,
  a lot of really good stuff going on.
  The more we feel good
  about ourselves and each other
  and the higher we ascend,
  the more challenging
  it will be to our psyches.
  You know, I understand it.
  I embrace it and all that stuff,
  but sometimes it just bugs me.
  I think the-- That thing was
  kind of bugging me yesterday.
  All of them around the studio,
  it was just kind of, like--
  That way of thinking, it just
  doesnt work for me all the time.
  And I was a little pissed off at it,
  because right now in my life
  its not really working for me.
  - Im glad to know thats how you feel.
  - I agree with that wholeheartedly.
  And if you feel that way
  and wish to share that more directly,
  - Id appreciate that too.
  - Rather than tearing the signs down?
  - Yeah.
  - We pay him $ a month
  to be pretty much available
  at our beck and call.
  So when this records done,
  do we want to collectively end
  the $ -a-month, full-on thing?
  Im afraid hes under the impression
  that hes, like, in the band, you know?
  Yeah.
  And I see him coming on the road,
  maybe, for a week.
  But after that I dont-- I dont see him
  holding our hand
  any further than that.
  So is that something we wanna
  present to him, then?
  - Yeah. I think that--
  - Okay.
  I think its something--
  Yeah, I think its something
  we need to do
  for our own well-being.
  Yeah, because
  Im feeling uncomfortable.
  Yeah, hello? Hello, hello.
  Are they on the phone?
  Theyre on the phone,
  and they need you.
  Oh, okay.
  - James Hetfield is in the room.
  - Hey there.
  - Hey, James, how you doing?
  - Pretty good.
  Ill let Marc do the talking. Hes
  the one whos been talking to MTV.
  Okay, this afternoon,
  the official offer came in for ICON.
  - Assuming you wanna do it.
  - Lets do it.
  Cool, man.
  Yeah, Im jazzed about it.
  The only thing that you guys
  are required to do
  is show up for rehearsal
  and then show up
  for the show on the rd,
  and at the end of the show
  you guys take the stage
  and perform a little bit.
  - So, whats Jasons role in all this?
  - What? Who?
  Cliff? I mean,
  I dont think Jason has any role.
  He lost his icon status
  when he left Metallica.
  - Nice one, Cliff.
  - Thank you.
  I think MTV would like the fact
  that this would most likely be
  the introductory performance
  of Metallica with a new bass player,
  whether its the new member
  or whoever.
  When is it supposed to be?
  May what?
  May rd. Saturday, May rd.
  See, that means youd have
  to hire someone by the nd.
  - Okay.
  - I think it can happen.
  Youd be required to be in
  Los Angeles for all of two days...
  Because we didnt get a new
  bass player, I think a lot of people
  thought maybe that we were
  having trouble finding one.
  We never started looking for a new
  bass player until two months ago.
  We worked on ourselves,
  identified what part can we work on
  so when someone else steps in,
  its clean.
  Theyre not stepping in our shit,
  you know?
  All right, thinking about
  bass players, finally?
  So were gonna need
  a fourth member.
  You know, we know youre
  a great bass player. Its the vibe.
  We need to make sure...
  Jason kind of triggered this whole thing
  a couple of years ago.
  And I cant believe its been two years.
  And now weve gone through some...
  We realized that we kind of wanted
  somebody who was, like, our age.
  Somebody who had been
  around the block a couple times.
  Weve grown a lot, man.
  These three guys
  and this band.
  And last time, when we did this
  years ago,
  years ago, I guess it was,
  we literally sat down and started
  auditioning bass players,
  you know, the day after
  the funeral for Cliff.
  So now its years later,
  different circumstances.
  When Jason left,
  he took his basses with him.
  Do you want a four or five?
  Whatever.
  What five-strings do you have?
  This ones a five-string.
  Keep searching
  Keep on searching
  This search goes on
  This search goes on
  The band-- These guys
  collectively probably own,
  like, five to guitars,
  so theyre not all here.
  On and on
  Tick tick tick tick tick tick tock
  Frantic
  Tick tick tick tick tick tick tock
  Frantic
  Tick tick tick tick tick tick tock
  Frantic
  Tick tick tick tick tick tick tock
  You went into
  another voice there, dude.
  Which one of me are you talking to?
  Think that we should just spend the
  next two and a half hours with this guy.
  Dont you?
  I had a vision of us jamming
  with him the last hour.
  I guess I just feel this is just
  kind of, like, weird to keep,
  like, just doing our own thing.
  It just feels not welcoming.
  This morning I heard him say
  he was pretty comfortable.
  Its not about what he says.
  Its about what I feel.
  - All right?
  - Are we cool, James?
  Yeah. I guess the only other thing
  Id like to say is,
  you know, when we leave this up
  to just how were feeling,
  a lot of it depends
  on how youre feeling.
  You know,
  when you say those things.
  Not that I wanna break up
  what you guys are discussing,
  if you wanna go deeper, you know?
  But I think what might be really good
  is to treat this with respect,
  go out and do this...
  Metallica stuff?
  - I could try Battery.
  - Battery?
  You can play that fast
  with your fingers?
  Battery
  Thats a fucking pretty mighty
  bass sound you got going there.
  - Yeah, its fucking--
  - I dont know.
  Its the Mesa and the Hiwatt.
  Is there anything else you know
  as well as that?
  Cliff. It was just like you saw Cliff,
  and me and James went,
  Hes in our band, theres no question.
  He hit it out of the park.
  And thats where it
  sort of gets interesting.
  Because if Cliff Burton
  showed up today,
  maybe he wouldnt be the guy either.
  I mean, the three guys that I like
  all have unique features
  that I would love to Frankenstein,
  you know?
  - Yeah! Definitely.
  - Some kind of monster?
  That would be great.
  I dont think you should settle.
  I think you should get the right guy.
  If you dont hit it out of the park
  with one of these guys,
  then youre gonna end up
  four years down the road
  in the same situation you did
  with Jason.
  A four count, then...
  And into the solo.
  Just follow.
  He was the first guy of any of them
  - that didnt look like he was struggling.
  - Thats what I told Bob.
  Do you know what I mean
  about, like, it--?
  You know, with some
  of the other guys,
  it was sort of percent
  over their capabilities,
  or something like that. You dont
  feel that with this guy at all.
  Its like the last three songs,
  like Sanitarium, Nothing Else
  Matters and what was...?
  - Sad But True.
  - Sad But True, they were flawless.
  I looked over at him
  during Whiplash,
  and he was just right in the pocket
  and in there.
  And then afterwards, when he
  played it alone with his finger,
  it hadnt been played that way
  since Cliff.
  Its just, like:
  - Yeah.
  - Yeah, his fingers a pick, you know?
  - Yeah.
  - Yeah, its three picks.
  All right, are we
  gonna sack Bob now?
  Well, the second time
  you came back,
  I mean, that was, for me,
  when I noticed
  that you make us play better, man.
  You make the band sound
  so much better.
  - So solid.
  - How do you feel about that, man?
  Well, I feel awesome, man.
  - Youre the chosen one.
  - You looked coolest.
  And we want you to be a real member
  of this band, not just a hired hand.
  And wed like to offer you--
  Basically, to give--
  To show you how serious
  we are about this,
  offer you a million dollars
  to join our band right now.
  - And--
  - Wait, okay.
  And as a kind of a good-faith thing
  about how serious we are--
  Its an advance.
  Its an advance on some percentage
  youre gonna be making
  with the band.
  Heres money up front to get you
  kicked in and inspired and:
  This is a reality. This is my future.
  This is what life can hold for me
  with my new family.
  I cant really talk right now.
  Invisible kid
  Never see what he did
  Got stuck where he hid
  Falling through the grid
  Invisible kid
  Got a place of his own
  Where hell never be known
  Inward hes grown
  Invisible kid
  Never see what he did
  Got stuck where he hid
  Falling through the grid
  Invisible kid
  Got a place of his own
  Where hell never be known
  Inward hes grown
  Theres things that I miss,
  and Im sad it couldnt work out,
  and things, you know, like that. But
  theres way, way, way, way more times
  and way more days and even hours
  that go by and Im reminded, Dude,
  all right.
  You did the right thing.
  You know, You did the right thing
  for yourself.
  I dont know if its the right time
  to say this,
  but, I dont know,
  Ive been thinking about our talk.
  About, you know, you and us and
  our future and all of that stuff, and...
  And, you know, when I heard
  that you guys were moving here
  and all of that, that brought up
  a lot of fear around:
  Wow, what is Phils perception of,
  you know, his, you know, longevity
  with Metallica? You know?
  That scared me a little bit.
  Well, I appreciate that. I was--
  If it scared you, and thats part
  of the issue going forward,
  then let me say we havent decided
  were moving here.
  Ive tried to make it clear
  that were selling--
  I think weve told people were selling
  our house in Kansas City,
  but that doesnt mean
  were moving here, okay?
  And we wont likely move
  to San Francisco
  if theres not a future out there
  with Metallica,
  because, you know, thats my--
  I wanna make sure
  that the bass players intact.
  I wanna be sure that the tours on.
  And I also, as I said,
  have performance-coach visions
  for each of you and for the band.
  And l-- To me, the work isnt over.
  Id like us to honour what we had,
  and if you wanna be away from--
  You know, on your own or something
  for the couple of months
  until we come back in June,
  thats okay. I just kind of--
  I dont know. I guess I have a problem
  with the, Lets see how it works out.
  Lets see how it happens,
  and then, No, lets honour what
  happened, you know, six months ago.
  You know? Thats kind of strange
  to me, you know?
  Because I think that you use
  those things
  when theyre convenient at times,
  you know?
  Personal stuff or business things.
  And I dont know. I dont know.
  Theyre-- The boundaries are--
  I dont-- Becoming more clear to me.
  Theres that element of-- Of trust that
  just kind of floats with you with me.
  And l-- And that-- Im really sorry
  about that. That-- You know.
  Ive been swimming uphill on that one
  for a long time with you,
  and Id like for us
  to be able to resolve it.
  But maybe we cant.
  Ive gotta tell you that l--
  You know, if the client,
  either James or us, says:
  You know, then I really think that
  needs to be respected without,
  you know, just, you know,
  the old turn-the-knife thing in there.
  You know, its just, you know,
  if the client says,
  you know, timeout for a while,
  timeout.
  That is great, although we--
  Our process, what we normally do--
  Then it should be put on the table,
  but left on the table,
  and should be able to walk away
  without what youre saying right now,
  which is now there are trust issues
  and stuff.
  I dont know how to separate out--
  In its simplest form,
  I think its a conflict of interest
  that you tell him that he needs
  you around more.
  - If he has--
  - No, no, no, no, no.
  Im not saying that.
  I see that as a conflict of interest.
  Look, I am saying you guys
  have made a decision.
  Its okay for me to say
  Im not happy with that decision.
  The premise is,
  you guys dont need me.
  And Im good with that.
  Anyway, you go... Its--
  - Anyway, lets jam.
  - Great, Ill see you guys.
  Im taking off. Ill see you
  next week. Have a good one.
  Thanks, man.
  Whos in charge of my head today?
  Dancing devils in angels way
  Its my time now
  Its my time now
  Its my time now
  Its my time
  Look out, motherfuckers
  Here I come
  Im gonna make my head my home
  The sons of bitches
  Try to take my head
  Tried to make me
  Someone else instead
  Youve been in the band for five
  minutes, and youre an icon?
  Its such an honour,
  and, you know, Im stoked. So...
  Your voting interest will equal
  your percentage interest
  in a new account,
  while each of our voting interests
  will be one-third of the difference
  between percent
  and your percentage.
  This is about as lawyer as you get.
  But its really--
  - Sort of laying out--
  - Yeah, lays out the deal.
  Okay, so, for instance, in the first
  period you have percent, okay?
  So when we do a vote, you
  get votes, you get votes,
  you get votes, you get five votes,
  in any vote, okay?
  - But this doesnt mean anything.
  - I think its crap. I mean, l--
  I think in the spirit
  of what were trying to do,
  we better do and then
  Q Primes the tiebreaker. Thats--
  That works, thats fine. Cool.
  Now, here it also says, You will not
  be required to fund any losses
  in the new Metallica account,
  but we will be entitled
  to recover any losses out
  of future profits.
  For instance, buying the documentary,
  its not your problem.
  If the documentary loses money
  and the company never makes
  any more money again,
  its these three guys problem.
  Exactly.
  Whatd you do with your money?
  I went and bought a car,
  I bought my mom a house,
  and we went and bought
  a documentary.
  It was just-- You gotta keep
  in the spirit of this whole thing.
  By the end of this week,
  were gonna have an album title.
  Because in three days, we wont
  have to agonize about this anymore.
  Well, the thing that stood out to me
  was St. Anger. Its strong.
  I mean, theres--
  Iconic strong, you know?
  - I like that title quite a bit.
  - Its so easy
  just to say,
  June th is St. Angers Day.
  - Yeah, well, its true. Thats cool.
  - No, I mean--
  I think Frantic is a better album title.
  - I think thats--
  - I dont know.
  - Its more about the record.
  - But St. Angers a good--
  Its an original statement.
  St. Anger, St. Anger.
  Well, this is an angry record,
  but you read the lyrics,
  its angry in a healthy way.
  - Its also frantic.
  - Getting stuff out.
  Frantic is more like,
  Theyre trying things that they dont--
  They dont--
  Theyre not exactly sure of.
  They dont know what theyre doing.
  Theyre trying to climb back up
  the mountain again.
  Theyre not sure of themselves.
  I mean, hello, thats a fair thing.
  I mean, if you think that Frantic
  has a negative connotation to it,
  I never thought of it like that.
  If its St. Anger,
  theyre gonna form an image of:
  These guys are angry. I know it.
  Theyre angry about Napster.
  Theyre angry about the new stuff
  thats coming in.
  Theyre angry about their lives.
  Im angry too. I get it.
  I think you guys know the idea about
  shooting a video in San Quentin.
  So let me get this straight.
  Youre gonna go to
  a maximum-security prison,
  and Metallicas gonna play
  St. Anger really loud.
  - Yeah!
  - Yeah!
  St. Anger round my neck
  St. Anger round my neck
  He never gets respect
  St. Anger round my neck
  Ive been asked to come out here
  and talk a little bit
  about what this song means to us.
  Angers an emotion that Ive struggled
  with for pretty much all my life.
  - St. Anger round my neck
  - You flush it out, you flush it out
  He never gets respect
  Theres a lot of misspent anger
  that has come out sideways
  for a lot of people.
  Including yourselves.
  And if I hadnt had music in my life,
  its quite possible I could be in here,
  or not even in here, be dead.
  And Id much rather be alive.
  Madly in anger with you
  Im madly in anger with you
  Im madly in anger with you
  Im madly in anger with you
  Im pretty nervous up here.
  I dont really know what to say.
  Im just trying to share
  some of whats going on for me.
  Im not here to sell nothing,
  thats for damn sure.
  Everyone is born good.
  Everyones got the same size soul,
  and were here to connect with that.
  So were very proud to be
  in your house
  and play some music for you.
  Thanks.
  More than any other record,
  I dont know if you feel that,
  but for me, this is like product
  of what were just doing, hanging out.
  You know what I mean?
  - Its almost like a diary.
  - Yeah.
  Its like, heres our memories on CD,
  you know?
  Its like weve proven that
  you can make aggressive music
  - without negative energy.
  - Yeah.
  Okay, and I dont think anybody ever
  thought that that would be possible.
  You know? You can make
  something thats aggressive
  and fucked up, okay?
  With positive energy
  - between the people creating it.
  - Yeah.
  It hit me, you know? This projects
  coming to an end, and I dont know,
  I think Im kind of bummed
  about that.
  Im kind of, just, kind of liking
  the schedule that happens,
  or the safeness in that.
  Coming here, being able to talk.
  Creating, you know?
  And... I dont know.
  Ive been kind of coming down
  from this for about the past month.
  I mean, getting up at in the morning,
  and just pacing my apartment.
  Just not really knowing
  what the hell Im doing either.
  So Im with you.
  Like, I dont wanna let you go home.
  I dont know.
  I really appreciate that.
  Thats really nice of you to say.
  I dont know, I can feel myself
  kind of protecting myself
  with some depression or something,
  wanting to just kind of isolate.
  And I dont wanna do that.
  I wanna feel the sadness of--
  I mean, I didnt feel depressed,
  I felt sad.
  And thats when I knew it was
  something different than just me...
  My old stuff, you know?
  I mean, there is some of that, but...
  Sadness and depression, I guess
  I dont really know the difference.
  And, Phil, all the stuff
  that youve brought here to, like...
  Youve set out all the tools,
  like, you know?
  And you allowed us to build
  what weve built, you know?
  With guidance.
  I really appreciate your bringing
  this forward.
  And there is a difference between
  sadness and depression.
  Clearly.
  This is the hugest chapter in my life.
  If I could have my wasted days back
  Would I use them to get
  Back on track?
  Stand back. Stand back.
  Keep away from the car.
  - I love you.
  - I love you too.
  Can I find it inside
  To deal with what I shouldnt know?
  Could I have my wasted days back
  Would I use them to get back on track?
  You live it or lie it
  You live it or lie it
  You live it or lie it
  You live it or lie it
  My lifestyle determines my deathstyle
  Determines my deathstyle
  Keep searching
  Keep on searching
  This search goes on
  On and on
  Keep searching, keep on searching
  This search goes on
  On and on
  Frantic
  Tick tick tick tick tick tick tock
  Frantic
  Tick tick tick tick tick tick tock
  Frantic
  Tick tick tick tick tick tick tock
  Frantic
  Tick tick tick tick tick tick tock
  Go!
  Thank you so much
  for supporting Metallica through all
  the rough times and all the great times.
  Metallica loves you!
  Yeah!
  Yeah!
  Fucking a!
  Metallica! Metallica! Metallica!