The easiest thing to do would be to just be as straightforward and honest about it as possible Lying and keeping secrets never makes things better It may be difficult but I assume shes going to have to find out eventually so you might as well get it over with She may not respond the way you want but you should really listen to your mother Chances are she actually does want and know what is best for you perhaps even more than you do Maybe you should stop acting out and try to find a boyfriend who doesnt live in California and who you dont need to keep secret You dont have to listen to me but if you dont Im sure youll think back one day and say to yourself wow Swarm on Wikipedia was right And when that day comes I want you to imagine me typing out I told you so Good luck