You are just so wrong about the other warnings When For what By who Trolls Gaming editors IPs Socks Did you really weigh them or did you just count them Were they valid warnings Or technically incorrect like Bardcoms warnings for example Were they perhaps trying to get in first like Wotapalaver who I really should have Warned myself  go and look  How can it be true you thought long and hard Jack Forbes threatened to leave Wikipedia hes been full of crocodile tears  and is he leaving now and you clearly tried to change his mind by blocking me For some reason you laid it on as thickly as you possibly could  I hope it wasnt personal because if it was I really must have upset you somehow Jack had already been to at least two admins his mates and also to Bardcom as he noticed I was in disagreement with him which couldnt have been more provoking to me and was told by all effectively to calm down  In the end an admin came along and simply gave him what he was clearly looking for Did you really think about what other admins Bardcom myself elsewhere and his buddies actually told him regarding his grievances If you did consider them you have little respect for the rest of Wikipedia  and especially for me So much of Wikipedia is a struggle for all of us  why on earth make it worse   exaggeration exaggeration etc etc  its just a total character assassination a fullon attack that was clearly intended to leave a lasting mark against my name I am just appalled by what youve done I find it a barbaric form of lawgiving grossly grossly unfiar I just dont know why you did it  but its caused simply insurmountable problems for me If other admins in the future act the way you have done and as others Ive seen and experienced Im basically prejudged as a trouble causer I cant work with that over my head or in others thoughts  and Ive done nothing at all to deserve it You have simply ended Wikipedia for me    For anyone interested  I read through my conversation with Jack Forbes again It began elsewhere but he duplicated a paragraph above and it carried on in here Apart from possibly the F word but why would I swear unprovoked I would not change a single word that I wrote So the clear question arises Where does that leave me with WIkipedia This is the rub you see  I have merely been my honest self I couldnt face challenging the judgement  I want to make edits not go through painful bureaucracy like that It strikes me that contesting it would put other admins in a rather invidious position too people really shouldnt be blocked for arguments like this If you read the argument Jack in the end tried to return my accusation on me then I ended it and he ran elsewhere It just makes me cringe Contesting the block but finding more support would have been extremely unpleasant I can see why some admins sympathetic to my case may have seen problems removing it now it is done and there are far too many weak admins on Wikipedia  far far far too many There should be a serious refresher course for all of them on the importance of mediation the need to riseabove your subjectrelated POV and on the need to spend reasonable time on decisions Im guessing that its currently the thing on Wikipedia to explore incidentblocking without Warning for notorious characters But me though   The nature and wording of this block has made a future here impossible for me even in Wales an article I openly planned to spend a lot of time on I feel nothing but handicapped now when I think of it how to do it Maybe I simply should have got around to archiving my Talk page  I dont know Admins MUST realise that Warnings from admins are obviously taken seriously and officially  whereas pseudoofficious warnings from Disagreeing Joes are very often not You just cannot consider them as having equal significance Ive had warnings from IPs and sockusers Do they count against my name I have been disagreeing with people who have the strongest of opinions  and none of this has been taken into account Perhaps my big mistake is that I never throw out Warnings and counterWarnings myself  I simply use my voice Ive never been tough with anyone who isnt already playing a particular game  taking offense in various ways is merely part of their hand  but all toooften it comes up trumps for them   Tipping point  My leaving is not simply about the  hour block  I suppose in other circumstances I would have used it to carry on research something in this case Im leaving because I simply cannot change myself to fit the mould enforced by people like Waggers  to a very small degree yes but nowhere near what would be needed by me now  it simply cant be done And for a while it has seemed clear to me that it is just not the climate on Wikipedia for editors like myself So much of what is stuck and guarded here needs to be fought against but I feel handicapped anyway in being someone who fights my own ground Its all about cliques and cabals  even in places as important as MEDMOS Its a numbers game I dont mean consensus but cliques  a giant headcount a place where new people being bold are admonishingly told to TALK FIRST Some editors build a fortress in the Talk pages and you need to stay with them forever not to scroll out of view ineffectual and forgotten Its so often a war of attrition  and the younger editors with more time on their hands tend to win Was Wikipedia always this unwelcoming  or has it just been going this way In fact is Wikipedia sliding downwards under an increasing weight of poor adminship for whatever reasons that may be  I feel a tipping point for me has occurred and my own time at Wikipedia has come to an end If I stay Id I will always have to check my edits and comments and even my back to stop from getting in trouble  its as much myself as Wikipedia  though in reality I am nothing but a helpful person I need to feel some freedom  I cannot see myself getting it from now on Some people are also becoming too chatty about me personally ie not strictly about my edits  although particular biases have much to do with it  that kind of stigma is no help to me at all or to Wikipedia in general Without seeming harsh is this place really supposed to be a community as someone calls it above  we are all humans for sure but I dont remember ever reading that in policy So Im fine with leaving  Ill just try not to have nightmares about what a bad force WP can be It was sheer negative fear that first brought me here  this place can indeed change the word imo for the worse  Just some experiences The majority of the articles Ive contributed to have involved real battles to get somewhere that is compliant to Wikipedias demands Sometimes Ive helped find it sometimes Ive got nowhere  you certainly cant win them all but Ive usually been prepared to be gritty its not a crime I generally dont takes things too much to heart  I generally simply care and why not Why else bother being here Introductions have probably been my main interest its all some people read and at least Ive helped improve a good few Experience showed me early on that you simply have to fight for things at times if anyone disagrees look at the Intro to Alzheimers before yesterday that was fought for in structure and content over a period and had for a long time settled down with a genuine though always only current consensus It has just yesterday alas been made more concise by someone bad timing or what  so it is at the moment very staccato to read In my opinion this change could and probably will now open the door to further rewrites  initially to make the text flow then ambiguous facts hardtoshorten detail tootechnical jargon and controversial statements will all soon appear But what can I say The Alz Lead was an asset to WP for a good while and if we were all cowards Wikipedia simply would not have had it I may decide to give that one article one last edit if someone doesnt give me another  hours block for speaking my mind  After my first stint on Wikipedia in  I was so cheesedoff by someone long since banned that I didnt come back here for a whole year I suppose Ive been strongwilled from that restart I would guess that most people like myself cannot maintain it forever there is that structuralweaknessbolstered tipping point where it just becomes impossible Unfortunately Wikipedia is currently more suited to IPs sockusers and POVtext protectors than it is to actual positive editors  somuch still needs ironing out It might be so flabby now that nothing can be ironed out and it will just bloat and get progressively worse Concerned people need to look back upon the more central policies and guidelines What is stopping progress  Just some observations An increasing amount of editors and admins are being very negative about simple edit exchanges Some are I expect wellmeaning slightly conservative people from amongst the many Wikipedians who rarely write the prose  but many now are cynically taking free hopon rides on this  seriously foolish  bandwagon These antieditors often fail miserably to AGF by prejudging edit exchanges to be edit wars Edit wars in themselves are not always the evil they are made out to be either sometimes they are the only things that show the state of play There is a ubiquitous member on W