I dont take it as given at all I made those personal attacks in the context of a single issue which had infact become moot before this block was even extended and my talk page was locked And Ive only made one previous unblock request before this one by email due to that locking and I dont recall that containing any personal attacks With that in mind then in answer to the question Ive had time to reflect on the consequences of what happened nearly  days ago now and thats what motivated the request above