I know  you have a static IP  you should really get yourself an account  account users are actually more anonymous than IP users ie I can tell from your IP that you are in Goa India and even localize it more than that if I choose  just an FYI    Youre right about the importance of a teacher a teacher needs to provide you with information and more importantly with the discipline youll need to pursue the matter but when it comes right down to it no one can do it except you  Both the teacher and the teaching at some point have to fade away otherwise youll be stuck in dualism  But we really shouldnt get into a fullscale religious discussion on the talk page  Drop me a line in my talk if you want to continue this