title: Connor
author: Lowe, J.F.
description: Life is supposedly a roller coaster that you ride but darn I wish it came with a manual like Adulting 101 but it doesn't. At eighteen I started two apprenticeships, the first in life and the other in construction. It's just lucky for me that on my first day on the job, I met my best friend for life. The only problem I had was years down the track and I met the love of my life. His girlfriend! For the first time in my adult life I am jealous. There is just something about her.  Something that made me jealous of anyone who had Sarah's attention. I wanted it. All of it. Not having her made me feel cold, an empty shell of how it felt to bask in the glow of her smile. My god damned cock sprang to life just thinking about her.  It didn't matter what else happened in my life, I needed Sarah in it. Sure Matthew is my best mate but I am completely an utterly in love with Sarah and I will do anything absolutely anything to keep her in my life even if it means I have to stay at arms length. For all these years, I kept my love for Sarah a secret. After I stood beside Matthew as he married her, I thought I'd forever be a bridesmaid to love. But who would have thought one phone call could change it all. Second place doesn't cut it anymore, so when they say 'You can't have your cake and eat it too' well, I decided f#@k them. It's time I got my just desserts.