title: Forever Christmas
author: Roy, Deanna
description: They tell mothers like me, a woman whose baby has died, that a new pregnancy will bring a rainbow baby.
  You know, the beauty after the storm.
  
   What they don’t say is how hard it’s going to be. How scary. How emotional. That at the lowest point, I will completely give up hope.
   I do have a saving grace. Several, in fact. Gavin, my hot, sex-on-the-kitchen-counter, loves-me-on-my-bad-days husband. He’s been with me since the beginning. And I have Jenny and Tina, girlfriends I met along the way. They’re the good ones. The ones who bring you Kleenex and vodka.
   But I also have you. Tens of thousands of you who read my story and have cheered me on, waiting for me and Gavin to have a healthy baby. It helps me, knowing you’re out there, waiting, hoping. Some of you have lost babies yourselves. You know what I’m about to endure.
   So it’s time for the happiest happy ending of all. What better time than at Christmas?
   (Don’t forget your tissues. And maybe the vodka too.)
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   While Forever Christmas could stand alone for readers wanting to learn about the experience of having a rainbow baby, we recommend reading the first book of the series, Forever Innocent, to get a sense of the history of the characters.