Sentence:  Like Eliot , in my fantasies , I <WSD>had</WSD> a proud bearing and , with a skill that was vaguely continental , I would lead Jessica through an evening of dancing and handsome descriptions of my newest exploits , would guide her gently to the night 's climax which , in my dreams , was always represented by our almost suffocating one another to death with deep , moist kisses burning with love . 
Meaning of the word marked with <WSD> tags:  have as a feature