Sentence:  For many nights afterward , the idea of her having been so close to me in that imagined bed would <WSD>return</WSD> and fill me with obscure and painful desires , would cause me to lie awake in shame , tossing with irresolution , longing to fall into a deep sleep . 
Meaning of the word marked with <WSD> tags:  go or come back to place, condition, or activity where one has been before