Sentence:  Or you could <WSD>wish</WSD> your daddy would really do it - kill Gratt Shafer like he said when you all the time , all along , could feel the nerve draining out of him like air out of a punctured tire when you are on a muddy road alone and it is raining and at night . 
Meaning of the word marked with <WSD> tags:  hope for; have a wish