Sentence:  And you know you will always wonder all of your life whether it was because you <WSD>wanted</WSD> him so bad that you did n't get him , and you can feel nearly sorry enough to cry when you think of that other guy , the chump who begged you to marry him , the one with the plastered hair and the car he could n't afford and the too shiny shoes . 
Meaning of the word marked with <WSD> tags:  feel or have a desire for; want strongly