Sentence:  I had squeezed the trigger of my own gun , and to my amazement , it had fired and kicked back into my shoulder with the force of an angry mule ; and then I was adding my own voice to the crescendo of sound , hurling more vile language than I ever thought I knew , sobbing and shouting , and <WSD>aware</WSD> that if I had passed water before , it was not enough , for my pants were soaking wet . 
Meaning of the word marked with <WSD> tags:  (sometimes followed by `of') having or showing knowledge or understanding or realization or perception