Carolina watchman. [volume] (Salisbury, N.C.) 1871-1937, 1933-07-14
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FILLMORE BARRY
CrA- Me
Eighteenth Installment

I'm going away-torglve me, but
it seems the only thing to do. I
know how you feel about facing
me after all we've been through
today. When you wrote me that
YOU would camp out somewhere
else tonight I quite understood.
Please don't think l blame you
all the fault is mine from begin
ming to end-but | couldn't bear
t o be the cause of making your
home repellent to you. Nor could
| bear to see you being chivalrous
and pretending that you wanted
me here when you didn't You can
see there's nothing else for me to
do. I'm not going to Robert Aims
worth of course-don't think that.
| am nov enjoying the bitterness
of my mistake about him. I'll go
to San Francisco, and perhaps there
| can make some plan about my
life. I'm taking about 500
have in cash, and some day I'll pay
YOU back"
Joyce hesitated when she reach
ed that point. She wanted to tell
Neil how awfully much she appre-
ciated his niceness, his kindness, to
Frills, but she felt she simply
couldn't let herself go on this sub
ject. So she ended briefly, I'll get
in touch with you before long,
Neil, because you'll want to be
getting a divorce and I shan't
stand in your way. Joyce"
Sam was warming up the motor
of the Duesenberg; she could hear
it purr outside the long French
windows.
Joyce flung herself down on the
davenport and stifled her sobs in
4 pillow. "Oh, Dicky," she sid
as a soft little nose insinuated itself
into her clenched palm, "why
should l feel SO utterly wre.ched
about the only decent thins I've
done since I've been in this house?
l don't want to go, Dicky, | really
don't want to leave at ALL"
Joyce had Sam take her to the
Y. w. C. A. in which she had
previously stayed in San Francisco,
but she remained there only over
night, feeling hat if Neil pressed
Sam very hard he might tell her
whereabouts, and she preferred to
remain in hiding.
II know Neil will feel that be
should make every effort to find
me-" she thought, "but it'll be
better if he doesn't succeed"
Joyce found it harder to get a
job than she had supposed. After
installing herself in a cheap room
ine-house under the name of
Florence Hilton" Ito make it
easier perhaps for. Neil to get. his
divorced she set out to find en-
Ployment.
She took to reading the Want
Ads. in the daily papers, but she
could get up no interest in the
kind of work they offered. She
found that, the luxury of living as
Mrs Neil Packard had sapped her
courage, and left her less able to
face. hard work and uncomfortable
living conditions: Her room filled
her with horror, she was acutely
unhappy every moment she: had to
spend in it..
She began to wonder what she
would do when all her money was
spent.
Somewhat sadly, '.she let her
mind open itself to thoughts of
Robert Ainsworth. She had tried
to Danish him but could not quite;
persistently the thought of him
would thrust itself up, only to be
persistently ignored. She had but
one conclusion to reach, and that
was that he had failed her, that he
had shown himself lacking in chiv-
airy and courage, that perhaps 80.
he did not love
her.
To Joyce this was too bitter for
tears; 90 bitter for complaint.
She could not hold her head up un-
der the shame of it.
When the hundred dollars was
so nearly gone that Joyce was
seized with a feeling of. sudden
panic, she shook off her lethargic:
mood and, striking out wildly for.
employment, seized upon a position
as file clerk in a large paper con-,
Germ. The work could not have
been less interesting Oh less profit
able, but in her disorganized state
its very dullness was beneficial to;
her. She kept to herself, finding
that the other girls were suspicious
OF her fine clothes. 1t amused her