Evening star. [volume] (Washington, D.C.) 1854-1972, 1932-06-05
DOBBS FERRY. November

Devotedly, EILEEN.
DOBBs FERRY, November 2.
Milly, my darling:
JUST sit back and prepare to read all day,
- for I am going to write q perfect book.
And it has all happened SO quickly that I can't
believe it is really me-or I. Suddenly yester-
day after finished writing to you decided
to ask Jimmie about Bert and SO last night
he took me to a dance in the city OF course,
Jimmie was awfully surprised when I started
to talk SO seriously while we were driving
along, and after I had explained all about
Bert and how he fascinates me and yet how
miserable know I would be If married him.
And Jimmie promised that he would help
me in any way, although he thought that
decision like that was entirely personal and II
you loved any one, really loved him, that you
could never question Or doubt yourself for
even a second
Coming home we stopped at the most beau
tiful spot on Riverside Drive for few minutes
and watched the lights on the river. And
then noticed how tired and sad Jimmie
looked, and when questioned him he told me
that it was just a month ago his brother died
And Mildred. in that moment I saw myself
so clearly that wasn't pleased with the pic
ture. Here he. had danced and been gay just
because he thought I was unhappy. And as
we sat there in that wonderful quiet seemed
to see in review the three foolish years I had
just lived. and all those silly castles of dreams
come tumbling down, and in contrast thought
OF what these same years had meant to Jimmie.
How devoted he had been to his mother and
to mine, and how happy he had tried to make
the three of us always.
And then a thought came to me which made
my throat feel tight. Jimmie had shown me
one day a picture of his brothers little boy
who looked so much like Jimmie that any one
would have thought it was his own child And
I realized for the first time that some day
there would be in the world another little
Jimmie, and he would come whistling up the
road just the way Jimmie had the first day
/ saw him. when we were newcomers in town.
Suddenly saw the whole truth, that 1 had
been in love with Jimmie always. And want
ed him badly that I would die if he didn't
care for me any more, so said just as soon
as I could control my voice:
Jimmie, love may be blind, but it Is asking
too much when you expect it to be deaf and
dumb, too, and these other men I thought I
cared for didn't have any quality to them, I
know that now. I was just daZzed by the
thought Of love. But know now that never
really knew what love was until this moment
And even II you don't care for me any more
want you to know that I love you truly and
always will, guess. just as always have al
thought didn't know It,"
OF course. at first Jimmie didn't believe a
word but my silent lips soon convinced him Of
the real depth Of my love and he was deter
mined that we would be married the next day,
before changed my mind again.
But said mo, not that way, even II I
would have thought 1t highly romantic day
or so ago." for this engagement was going to be
SO perfect that wasn't going to miss one mo-
ment Of it.
By that time it was getting so frightfully late
that began to think Of that patient, long