The Daily Alaska empire., 1932-08-15
CHAPIEN 10. T LOVE MY MADNESSo

T LOVE MY MADNESS"
 There were friends who woult take her in for time, of course Sondra thought, but one could no go oil forever sponging for his pitailty: besides when it was known she hadn't any money, would any, one be anxious for her company She knew they would not.
 Flora said abruptly: T wish tt goodness you would marry Johr Anderson; can't you make him ge rid of his wife?"
 I'm not aware that John ha. any overwhelming desire to marry me-" Sondra said, Besides. isn't it rather a contradiction, tt advise me to put my head in the moose you're so anxious to es. cape? Do you think I should bt any happier than you are, if ] married for money?"
 "But you like John, don't you?' Flora said amazed T alway. thought you were frightfully fonc of him."
 Fond of him?" Sondra echoed 'I'm fond of lots of men, but haven't the least desire to marry any of them"
 Flora sighed Somehow thought it was more than that I thought you were in love with him." she said.
 "In love with him" Sondra raised her eyes and looked at her reflection in the mirror. What made you think that?" she asked slowly.
 "Oh, I don't know-but when you're together you seem so suit ed. I've always felt that even if you marry anybody else, John will always be the one you should have married"
 Flora came across to her sis ter.
 Whats the matter with us?'' she said in a strangely shaken voice. We've changed so-both of us. We used to be the great est pais-we always told each other everything - everything we hoped for and dreamed about-and we're quite changed. Whats the mat ter with us, Sondra?"
 Sondra raised her shoulder to free it of her sisters touch.
 "It's life, suppose" she said hardily And the way we've been brought up. It's no good being musty about it." but it angered her because she felt the tears in her eyes.
 Flo:a turned away.
 You're harder than I am" she said. And perhaps you're lucky; you won't suffer so much. Don't ever get fond of anyone, Sondra- not really fond-it's not happiness its just suffering all the time"
 Are you so fond of Jocelyn?" Sondra asked.
 "I'd die for him."
 There was a tragic silence, then Flora went on-"But as far as he's concerned, I can die. He won't have me on any terms, poor darling" She laughed a little. "It makes him angry because he's in love with me. He'd much rath- CT have had dull, ordinary love affair with some girl, he'd have enjoyed being properly engaged, and then getting married in the orthodox way at some fashionable church and a months honeymoon in Italy and all the rest of it. :" She broke off only to admit after moment. And I should have loved it too. You know, in spite of everything, I'm just an ordinary creature in my heart. Hopelessly middle-cla I suppose. Since I married Ben, everything's been a big sham-al1 the ceremony, and ostentation, if only you knew how I loathe maid to help me to dress"
 Floral"
 "Oh, you can stare" Flora said defiantly. Its the truth, though I don't suppose anyone would be- lieve me. I could have been per- fectly happy in little house with Jocelyn. But it's life, isn't it-that we should always long for the things we can't have" There was a profound silence. which Flora broke abrutly. T didn't know John was back" she said.