San Antonio light. [volume] (San Antonio, Tex.) 1911-1993, 1925-12-21
Sandy Waits With Hidden
Fear Ramon Will
Not Return.
CHAPTER AZ

She moved into the shad-
ows = black, encompassing,
athrob with the boom Of the
yea.
She listened to the waves
washing upon the beach.
Leaning over the rail she
could just make out their
dark glimmer. She stared
downward, still intent,
fevcred. Dark, mysterious night! She
should be home now-going to bed,
protected by the good four walls. She
breathed quickly. thrilling with a
sense Of terror-high, exultant terror.
She had run into it-inlo these
wavering shadows, and she now stood
fixed and listening-vividly alert.
She was waiting for him, expecting
him to come.
As she waited she thought of Ju-
dith's words: ''The great love--if it's
that, you can't deny it, The mighty
thing--the one. great tremendous
thing bigger than you or / or any
one" To love and be loved like that
Throw everything to the winds
Sandy closed her eyes, drawing in her
breath slowly because of her almost
sitting excitement
She wanted love like that. As much
rs Judith wanted it. More-because
she knew the .insupportable emptiness
Of the heart and mind that forfeits
these warm, holy emotions. And in
her secret thought she meant to have
love like this.
Leaning over the rail she now sud
denly whispered: 81 want it. I'll
have it," Imperiously as she had de-
manded in her girlhood; when she pic
tured herself one born for joy and
high sparkling adventure; riding
gloriousIy on the crest Of the wavc-
always.
She looked up from the waters,
straining her eyes far out to the
islands: IL want it, III have it,"
A chill in the air-a sharp, pene.
strating bite Of the winter. Sandy
ihiyered. She felt tears creeping to
VI cr eyes. Oh, why was she standing
.hcre. He was gone-long ago
y Better-glad he was gone-but she
III -ened almost in an anguish. Was
a step? Someone moving down
,,re--far down there? The wind
flowing a newspaper.
10 she would leave now. She would
M, back to that big. silent room Of
tFs. She would stsnd at the window
y she had every night for these six
ks telling herself defiantly: "Too
about you, beauty. Too bad
1T you!'
me would do this years and years.
remembered Alice crying herself
U3 I'D. Long time ago. Sandy was
I, girl then. She used to put her
~ about Ally and whisper:
Fneher care. think maybe he'll
n. 7 think he will, Ally" Then
N q e would pour out her heart TO the
Bu--drinking up the sympathy.
~ Sandy would grow like Alice. I'm
I'll finally it would seem fantastic
ihat she had ever been a young,
lovely thing, sought after-greatly
wanted
She had a swift vision Of herself
and Alice sitting down to lunch to-
gether-both OF them old-both OF
them warped, defrauded lives. And
ABRUPTLY Sandy flung her head up.
Her life 10 90 on like that? No love,
no beauty, no gladness ever to en-
ter II?
Monstrous. No one could ask it.
No one dare ask It, She thought of
Nurillo as he had come rushing
award her with the uplifted tongs. |
Her heart leaped. Her mother
wanted Der to live with him always?
Her mother said she had provoked
that attack? And she had quietly,
self-righteously demanded that Sandy
give a lifelong promise; sign away
h. right to every sacredness-every
JOY.
This insistence Of her mothers
now seemed ghastly to her-ghastly,
100, the advantage Isabel took-lit-
orally threatening to die if she didn't