The Bismarck tribune. [volume] (Bismarck, N.D.) 1916-current, 1924-02-25

iCcuou never udU experienced
before. Love Is slavery. and I was
no longer q slave.
AFTER my husbands death, as
told you, l opened the Zattiany
palace In Vienna once more (my
nephew and his wife preferred
Paris, and leased it from them) !,
expecting to follow the life I had
mapped out, until I was too old for
interests Of any sort. 4 had a bril-.
liant salon and I was something Of
a political power. OF course, I
knew that the war was, coming
long before hatreds and ambitions
reached their climax. and advised
this man of whom I have spoken.
Mathilde Loyos, and other friends.
to invest large sums Of money in the
United States. Judge Trent ar
ranged the trusteeship in each
case"
Where is this man."
Il do not know. He went down
With the old regime, OF course, and
would be q pauper but for these
American investments and a small
mount In Switzerland. He has &C.
:upied no position in the new Gov.
.rnment, although he was q Lib.
:ral in politics. What he is doing
have no Idea. l have not seen
lin for years."
"Well-go on"
1T was only when became
aware of a growing mental lasst.
tude, a constant sense OF effort
! IN talking everlastjngly on subjects
hat called for constant alertness
lind often reortentation, that was
really aghast and began to look
toward the future not only with a
sense of helplessness but of intol.
cradle .weariness. I used to feel
IN inclination to turn my head
AWAY with an actual physical ges.
lure when concentration was i'm.
perative. ! thought that my co4di-
lion was psychological. that I had
lived too much and too hard that
my, memory was overburdened and
my sense of the futility and mean.
.inglessness of life too overwhelm.
/ ing. But l know now that the con.
lition was physical, the result of
the degeneration of certain cells.
81 spent the summer alone on
my estate In Hungary. and when
It vas over I determined to close
the palace in Vienna and remain
in the country. I could not. 60
back to that restless high-pitched
life. with its ceaseless gaiety on
| the one hand and its feverish poll
tics and portentous rumblings on
the other. My tired mind rebelled
And khe long strain had told on
my health.
F'T lived an almost completely
outdoor life. riding, walking. swim
ming in the lake. hunting, but
careful not to overtax my return:
ling strength. I was not in love
with life, far from it! But Y had
no intention OIL adding inyalidish
ito. my other disintegrations. In
the evening l played cards with
my secretary or practised at the
piano. with some revival of my
old interest In music. Tread little
even in the newspapers. / was
become. save perhaps for my
music, an automatcn. But, al
though l did not improve in ap
pearance, my health was complete
~ restored; and When. the wal
came was In perfect condition
for the>arduous task INN diately
undertook. Moreover. my mind
torpid for q year, was free and re
}freshed for those practical details
It must grapple with at once. 1
turned the Zattiany palace in Buds
Pesth into a hospital. And thet
for four years I was again ar
automaton. but this time neces
sary and useful one. When
thought about myself. ct all. i
seemed to me that this seltiess AND
strenuous interval was the fina
severance from my old life. u
Society In Europe today were
miraculously restoIed 10 its pre-
war brilliancy-tpditferent to little
but excitement : and pleasure
there would be nothing in It fo'
me.
"Now l come to the miracle
And while she recapitulated wha,
she had told the women 'at Mrs
Oglethorpe.s luncheon. Claverine
listened without chaos In his &C
companying thoughts. Certainly
1 mans span is too brief now" she
concluded. he withers and dies
at an age when. IL hei has lived
sanely-and when q man abuses
his natural functions he generally
dies before'oM age. anyhow-he Is
i beginning to SEQ life as a whole
! with that detachment thRt comes
/ when his personal hold on life and
affairs II relaxing. when he has
realized his mistakes, and has at.
tanned mental and moral orienta
ton which could be. Of inestimable
man born, and in obeying natu,
Eshe best serves the, purpases Of hea,
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