Shoshone journal. [volume] (Shoshone, Idaho) 1884-1931, 1923-03-30

rs ness. all the dress Of her accumulate
E thinking. lay In the word.
I, yes il is. Struggle is not beautiful
nor Sinking; but just living Isl
u There was death back there, wasn1
there. Pain first, and death. and sor
e row. Is that beautifully And your days
e the way you have to work, the way
! peopIe-that stone How can
. | you call IT beautiful7'
. II know said Miriam. Il used to
. feel that way, too. l hadn't weighed
things. used TO think more about
Whist had to pay than about what
had. OF course you have to pay for
whatever you have. Everybody has to
pay, one way or another. But that's
only fair. LIES worth It."
"NeTerl Nothing could be WORTH
what you have to pay sometimes"
All" The word was a murmur of
protest; then Miriam said, Look up
at that sky! 1t WAS a night like this
that / went away, with-him. Oh,
knew what ! was doing. I knew what
they'd-think of me. Rightly, too.
knew I'd have to pay, but I'd made up
my mind that what / would have
would be worth 1t. It's the greatest
thing there is; guess everybody pays |
for II one way or another. We had |
always loved each other; threw him
over; and after mother died, and |
came back here to teach the school
and look after father, he was mar
ried to someone else. They lived next
door. Yes, those are his children. He
always worked hard, but he never got
on. His wffe-she wasn't easy to live
WITH at last they had to take her
TO the asylum-hopeless. Her mother
came to look after the children. Then
he got tuberculosis. There on the !
'orch, night and day; not chance for {
lin here, but the West-so we went
lie lived eight years. And / lived
men, Now-I'm paying, that's all. 1t +
Fas worth It."
On, those thoughts that sobbed and r
ang, those thoughts that stung and
lrobbed and famed Worth II Then
hat you had was different, somehow
reater-T
1T was just what other women y,
ave- Good and bad. The better and r,
ie worse. Marriage Is like that :,
either of US was an angel. You don't ~
re with any man eight years on -,
'ney. His wife died soon, and we ",
ere married before the law; but
metimes l remembered what I'd 40
me- and something In me shrank 40
'ay from myself; sometimes he was -
lely. fretful, impatient. We said TIL
ngs; we wanted things. But we had 90,
IN other. We belonged. Yes, 1t was do
nth It," ia
they walked on through a shadow oh,
ce, came out into the starlight on,
lin. You are so strong" whispered Mr.,
lta ~
because l came back here to look \
er them all? I'd have had to nav. bis
way. It's life that's strong. You inc
ger away from life. Life makes lon,
pay, even when you think you're moo
sing payment Honest-life is. II a,
s-but 1t makes you pay for value and
ived. One way or another" CO.
ley were passing the house next uoI'
! Iod ~ a"V siri ana the han,
a. Anita said. you must he ny
kful that you had no children"
Ram stood still, looked at her .T
q give all the rest of my life" she r.r
If l might have put a child ~ EAT
into the arms of the man loved 3d.
nid go into any bondage If I might So''
serve living child of my own
It would be freedom, blessed FREQ
lta shuddered. "Ah-you're NOT r,o ~
any other womanl No one else 60 T.
say that, honestly! Children GRO ~
and anxiety and mostly sorrow ~ -
GU think anybody deliberately &C. &C.
es that, today?" star.4
know thev do, ~ smok
y for +bo small price were
'ver! It's not worth It I DOM
e anyone honestly thinks II ,srp ."e i
lam walked on. Come with mo M
row. she said, II think perbans , ,nuie'
understand, then" ,u,no'
In the morning, they walked tba se.iS
ogether again; this time Mir,om ~no
great sheaf Of blossoms IN bor ia'u
They came 70 o,,o. -1S III her aborig
nd there thev moi 49, piaoe on solace
before Tbero 'iian Vi me smokl
feet. carefullv s,naii oo4 plainl,
nd spade. He began TO do - acc
the yellow earth became M, 70
'"uuuering the S
was how md 49, cert
IN said. Twins. The others ,s nuske
s." IL lighted
: said Miriam, softly. 1.-TWO 70 suck SUCK
TWO to remember" INSIDE
IL do that said the man aRotb
will do that" 'o@i
Is hand went to her tbroa, lie
aited until the mound was bigb ~nen
In. ''-ueep IN fore h,
hauf4.