The Seattle star. [volume] (Seattle, Wash.) 1899-1947, 1923-03-21

Of the oountryrlde.
] ought 10 have been happy. but
was not. because then precisely
wanted something that was not TO
fused. yet not offered me. In the
first days Of that month. Gattsr-
thwaite found me a Job ~ shorthand
typlnt In a film renters office. where
nost OF the day 1 transcribed. for 10
thillings a week. burlcBquo CORE
spondence. Something like this:
Dear lke.-iiow much longer are
you going 70 monkey sbout7 You
know quite well that The Sweetness
Of Love" 70 the goods n you don't
set II released 10 US before tho 18th.
youli skip. Seer Yours
ALFs
didn't got All the fun ! should
have out OF tho film world; I ought
10 have laughed al the demand for
good. clean drama. with some punch
Ia H." ought 10 have laughed when
saw my chief demanding the heart
touch" IN "a film that was attractive
but cynical I ought 20 have rcjoioed
over tho conversations about big
human Htories." and the general at
mospbere OF vim" and zip"
The preoccupation OF Alec Brough
was growing. II had Increased since
saw him less. am 30 very much
a woman that can BE- content,
fairly content, II every day / can see
the man care for. We don't ask
much Of men; We don't ask them to
DO splendid 20 us: We want them only
10 be splendid Just like that Monu-
ments. whore We may worship. ira
stayed In his office. tipping his epllep-
tic architectural Views. / might not
have known that loved him. I
knew II AZ once when ceased 10 SEQ
him every day / missed him
missed the blunt good-huomr, the oc-
caalonal outburBtA OF architectural
ferOcity, and above all the sensation
Of being welcome. Oh. how wo all
want 10 feel welcomed II treasures
US
In the first fortnight In June saw
him only twice. once he took me
out TO lunch and proved very unin-
teresunR. presumably because he was
shy. The second time he called for
me ~ five. Ms ! left the office. and
walked with me thru Green Park.
As We came back. the brilliant sun
shine reddcnlng the path We trod. we
came a little closer 10 each other lie
said. What are you going to do7"
Howl Dot"
u mean. are you going on with
this workT''
II don't know" said I didn't
quite understand him. had 20
preEs him. you mean. what am
going 10 do with my life7"
yea Perhaps not all that Couldn't
expect you 10 know. But what are
you going 10 do next week? That's
about as far Rs one can go"
oh" replied. with an impatient
sigh, how can ] tclI7 Go on. / sup
pose
Il suppose 40. too. II II makes you
happy"
looked ut him nngrily. What did
no mean7 What did he want7 II
he didn't caro- for me. why didn't he
let me alone7 II he did care for me,
why didn't he say so7 Afraid. per-
hapA Al last he snid something
which ! fidnt understand. It's out
of Sietzscho he told me. later. II
WIS this: ITO build sanctuary you
must first destroy q sanctuary"
Il don't understand"
You'll have TO before you can run
your own iifa.-
Only some months later did Alec
explain this simple metaphor. ]
ought 10 hhvo known him better. ]
ought to hRvc understood that he
could not initiate Ratterthwaits, ap-
proach me until ] made myself FREQ.
What fools we arc, wc women, when
We lovol We ccase to understand
anything. 30 we parted near Devon
shire Housa went homa
During the neIt day or two. Julian
seemed 10 take malignant pleasure
in referring TO Alec. ! had told him
that I'd finished the Ms. and he
knew that ! was working in an Of
/ fico. But no didn't seem 10 care
much. except thst i1s saia, Il think
IT'S all rot, this idea OF yours, tho ]
suppose 100 quid year II como in
handy" That cvcning he was in
cllned 10 tease mo. As he brushed
his dinner Jacket he said. do you
like your new Job MS well as the other
one, Little Bcar7-
What other ono7- asked. with
feigned innocence.
"oh. tipping Brough's great
thoughts about art With little In
tcrvals. ! suppose. for BrouRh's great
thoughts about triflcs"
] was annoyed enough 70 be In
cautious Are you suggesting that
I irf him fnako inx-o 80 ,,,n