The Washington times. [volume] (Washington [D.C.]) 1902-1939, 1923-11-08
''F|FPS" LETTER
IS GIVEN To
COURT.
Alleged Confession Filed by
Husbands Attorney in
Divorce Suit.

think that I am dishonest when
I remember what Peterson and
Doc have told me-that life Is
cause and effect. SO we will end
it that way. / loved you.
J. 8. did not want you to marry
you (correctl I would. I thought
I was strong enough for him to
see the honesty and beauty OF
my hopes and dreams for you and
the children and they are proof
that / was right; look at them
but l was never right to him,
and that breaks people like me
bit by bit-and then he took you
away from me.
He overtaxed You and we be-
gan that losing fight of spending
more than you have. You had to
offset worry by some pleasure
and as we were mixed up with
the worry it had to come, else
when I understand that, but that
broke me more, for it made the
dream very dim until you be-
came almost unreal. too, some
thing that came and went always
polite and kind.
Tried Not To Hate.
l am not smashed but if you
loved all your family and were
going to have an Indian baby
that you tried rot to hate; that
there was not spot for you with
honor or peace; that you were
Ill and tired; that a dear little
man with whiskers tells you that
the world IL a good place and
that the hard blind people are TO
be pitied, for they know nothing
of what they miss
Sit in your big house and eat,
you and Anne. Did You not say
don't bother about the other De0-
pie. These things will always be.
You can't help them, No, you
are wrong. Love protects by
: understanding the needs of those
about us-that's all.
I have tried to understand even
the servants and forgive II the
right spirit was there. ] won't
write youo of what the cold and
Canada were to me, Fred meant
to be kind but he had won me
and / was his and no one elsa
wanted me and he 10 much Indian,
He is HeartBrOken.
No captive was won by fight
long ago but did feel the whip
upon their ears, He begged me
to marry him, but you pee |
love you and ! wanted to get
away, ! wanted peaae and rest,
and when l told him ! was sick,
he was worried. and now he IL
heart -broken.
You see 1t is all q horrible
Nightmares; a thousand things
come and go in my head and the
hideOus part Is | feel and felt
as fate drove me on here and
there, DIR. Russell says 1t Ia the
hand of God, He tells mean
not willing that my life be
ruined if others can find the
light through my pain; he seems
to think that life IL beginning,
but he is still in the beautiful
dream that l had. He is so good;
he is just sorry for all the hard,
lost stupid people.
He tells me they are to be
pitied, and l tell him: "They have
eyeFything-honor comfort, good
food, good homes, respect. He
tells me he IL an outcastT-has
been-but he is happy, will
get over it. / am an outcast, too,
but it hurts.
know it is the end that
counts, but the journey, what a
journey!
Dying Bit BY Blt.
But you even got misty to the
children, and that hurt me, and
now we end it, Last winter the
cold, the utter loneliness, the de-
SPAR / felt-yes, l am dying bit
by bit, day by day. Do you re-
member, the day before left,
you said you had been very com.
Portable in your room at No. g
and I thought, yes, you were com
Portable. ] didn't tell you last
winter what I suffered. I was
too proud. didn't care for you
to come out and read your
papers. | didn't want you to see
me suffer- was too proud to
break, but ] broke, just the same,
in
was SO cold, SO lonely, and
that broke him; he was honor.
able, but I broke him and all his
dreams, and that is SO cruel that
when you break all those that
love you tumble with me.
CDR. Russell is broken. He
loves me, and he knew Fred to
be honest, have been through
lot more than | think some
could stand, for have learned
all the terrible things, looked into
them.
Praises DIR. Russell.
DIR. Russell tells me-the dear
doctor tells me so many good
things, but ! am raw. He tells
me how God works, all His won
derful ways, and He il making
me suffer because am strong
But you see that I have hurt sc
many / could hardly look at you
and Anne; 1t hurts me so, and al
the family with their nice liAtie
narrow lives, and always
wanted to save you all pain, but
there is no way out
went to one terrible man
not to save myself, please believe
me-WHat have left in the
world? DO you think all the money
you have could mend the hurts
and all the watermelon dresses
cover my bleeding heart-but to
save pain-but / couldn't.
looked at him and l thought no
an Indian baby was honorable
but not have a man Ike that
touch me. When I told DR.. r.
he said, my God! I have you
here alive"
Then thought 7 would gn
back to Canada. take Arthur and