Americus times-recorder. [volume] (Americus, Ga.) 1891-current, 1923-12-11

self. Her initial revelation had left
the deeper and more personal part
Of him stunned, and he was listen
! ing to her with certaiH. detach-
ment. So far she had revealed lit
tie that Dinwiddie had not told him
already, and as he knew that this
brief recapitulation of her earlier
life was not prompted by vanity,
he could only wonder If it were
the suggestive preface to that Sc
cret volume at which Dinwiddie
had limited more than once.
AS she continued silent, he got
suddenly to his feet. 'Tll walk up
and down hit, if you don't mind"
he muttered. I'm rather-ah-
getting rather cramped."
DO" she said indifferently.
please go on. l am deeply in
terested."
She continued in a particularly
level voice while he strobe uneven
ly up and down: ."Of course the
time came when ugly memories
faded, my buoyant youth asserted
itself and 1 wanted love- And when
woman feels crying need to
love as we'll as to be loved, her
whole being a peremptory demand,
unsatisfed romance quickening,
she is not long finding the man. |
had many to choose from. I made
my. choice and was happy for
time. Although had been brought
up TN the severest responsibility
just recall Jane Oglethorpe, Mrs.
Vane, Mrs. Ruyler, and you will be
able to reconstruct the atmosphere
several of the women / had
known as a girl had lovers, it seem.
ed to me that American women
came to Europe for no other par
pose, and l was now living at the
fountainhead Of polite license. Not
that ! made any apologies to my
self. should have taken a lover
If / had wanted one had virtue
been the fashion. And the contract
with my husband had been dis.
solved by mutual consent The
only thing that rebelled was my
pride. hated stepping down from
my pedestal"
Clavering gave a short BARKING
langh, Your arrogance is the
most magnificent thing about you.
end that is saying more then
could otherwise express. I'll for.
tify myself bafor you proceed fur,
Their if yon VIII permit" lie pour.
ID himself out a drink. and return.
d TO his chair with the glass in his
hand Pray so on.
She had not tarned her head ann
continued to look into the fire. she
might have been posing to a sculD.
or fer bust that would hardly
look more like marble when fin.
iahod,
4 soon discovered that had not
found happiness. Men want. Thev
rarely love, I realized that had
demanded in love far more than
qassion, and received nothing
else.
- am not going to tell you how
many lovers have lad. 1t is none
Of your business----"
"Ah" Clavering. staring at her.
had forgotten his first shock. every.
thing but her living presence; for.
gotten also that he had once appre.
hended something of toe sort, then
dismissed it from his mind. Ho
split the whiskey over the arm q.
the chair. then sprang to his feet
and began to pace the room onca
more
She went on calmly: "Dfsan
poiatment does noe mean the end
OF seeking. They gave mo
little that l wanted. They were
clever and adroit enough in the
prelude They knew how to create
the Illusion that in the malone
could be found the fulfllment of all
aspiration and desire. No doubt
they satisfied many women, but
they could not satisfy me. They
gave me little I did not find in the
mere society of the many brilliant
and accomplished men with whom
| was surrounded. / had a rama.
cious mind, and there was ample
satisfaction for it in the men who
haunted my salon and were cons
stantly to be met elsewhere. Eu,
ropean men are instruits.fS They
are interested in every vital sub,
ject intellectual and political, de,
spite the itch of amor, their DELHI
crate cult of sex. They like to talk.
Conversation IS an art. My mind
was never uncompanioned. But
that deeper spiritual rapacity, one
offspring of passion as it may be,
they could not satisfy; for love
with them is always too confused
with animalism and is desiccated
in the art Of love making. Fidelity
is p virtue relegated to the bour,
geci5 -"
What about Englishmen?" de-
manded Clavering sarcastically. 'T
thought they were bad artists but
real lovers"
Il know little of Engllshmen.
Aattiany was never appointed to
st. James, and although, of course,
met many Of them in the service
on the continent, and even visited
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