The New York herald. [volume] (New York, N.Y.) 1920-1924, 1922-10-19


there. Did He say we needed Jewels,
did He say we needed anything, ex-
cept a mate. After that He knew we
would find other things that He cree
ated for our comfort and pleasure.
What a joy to read the Bible, how 1t
tells OF God creating al these Won
ders for us. Darling, could rave for
hours-but l must stop as there are
peppers around / only know this,
dear. that as God the Creator Is real,
true, nature is real, true, so our love
is the most vital power, the truest Joy
that can be known in this life and
hereafter. Please dont laugh at this.
know I'm a crazy cat, but can't be
different
Charlotte talks-then Don asks
questions, then he annoys, so how
can l write?
Reference to Easton avenue, which
leads to Phillips farm. where the bodies
of DR.. Hall and Mrs. Mills were found
more than a month ago. is made in hi:
letter:
Darling Mine, didn't you feel me
purrlng-blissfully contented And close
to you, too. Was my goodby to the
others too hasty and should / have
said more? What a truly unexpected
pleasure it was, dearest. sweetest boy.
Oh, how good you are. AS rode along
/ tho't, this is where l find my
greatest joy to be near my man; what
care / for what other people call
pleasure; to be near you, altho l
didn't dare look at my noble boys
face. this is all I ask.
How friendly our Easton avenue
road seems to us and dear. dearest
boy every time you take your hat off
never fail to notice and can read
your face. Monday too. And it is
new message of love every time you
do. and my heart sings for joy, yes,
and ] could fling my arms about you
and pour kisses on my babykin's head
and face.
Grandma is here. l must stop.
Sweetheart, my true heart ! could
crush you, oh, I am wild tonight, so
happy l could dance wildly.
Describes Her Moods.
A letter, describing Mrs. Mills's
moods when she was away from the
rector, follows
L don't know why 1 feel this way
to-day-it will pass. as you know.
God. know. oh, I know that as
much as l know you are my true heart
that He is watching and caring and
we are never alone. He is always
near-in whatever we do. even In
physical closeness He is near. for we
know He meant His children to taste
deeply of all things.
Was Pam religious? Did she feel
God? Yes, think so, but she hadn't
found her soul, nor did Chris. Chris
wasn't Cecirs mate, no more than
Hugh. The Chris she tho't he was. he
was her true mate.
| am the Resurrection and the Life
and If he knew that, then there would
be no Pamelas for him but a prayer
full life--a desire to be like his al
ways, forever beloved Cecil.
Ask me any part Of the book and 1
will remember ii. PANS mother was
English (page 49).
/ have much work I ought TO do. but
1 can't to-day. l must wait until this
mood passes and come down to earth
again. Do i love you too much? l
know that now / could leave, yes,
even your physical presence, and so
into convent. You are always in my
mind and heart, but there l wouldn't
see any one else touch you, call you
dear" rub your tired body. sew>your
torn trousers.
Oh, darling, I don't ever want TO
call you dear" or honey" again IL
any one else can. Aren't you glad no
One time / told you L hate1 your
work. hated your parish. 1 guess 1t Is
because / am jealous of II because 1t
must always come first i'm your life.
Not because or conventions-no-but
because you love IL so. When the man
at the gate at Manhattan Beach called
you doctor" and /. pithout looking at
you (Tm a witch) knew 1t thrilled you,
the kind of a thrill that brings tears
Of Joy to your eyes. Oh. know it is
because you are a true priest-born for
It. And because that Is your supreme
JOY and satisfaction am merely your
physical inspiration and you see in me
what you teach. you'the priest.
Duty to Forget Self.
don't want to stay for service. ]
have unlocked the doors as ] was
asked to and kept my word. But, Il
seems as though 1 am unworthy to do
other things / was asked. OF course
il has hurt me. Perhaps again / don't
understand-yov have had time 20 do
them. Well, IL doesn't matter one bit
what comes. had a simple greeting,
but did not leave 1t. / cannot stay to
such a service when our hearts are
bitter. But since Il is a duty OF the
church. / think the truest way Is TO
forget all about yourself and do what
the church bids, forgetting everything,
but that you are the priest.
Another letter reads:
Dearest. darling boy, ] love you
most when you love me as YOU do to-
day--not so much physically but
ayerfully-oxalted. and you see,
darling. the physical fits In and does
not dominate twas there Just
Al. 10 sHs-
Dearest, believe me, won't you. Never
will / say you want my body rather
than me--what really am l know
that II you love me you will long and
ache for my body. Have / ever
tempted you dear? Have / ever made
you want me2 ! never want to.
Dearest, there isn't a man who can
even make me smile. AS you said to-
day, our hearts are true as steel. I'm
not pretty, / know there are girls with
shapely bodies. but I'm not caring
what they have. have the greatest
Of all blessings noble mans deep.
true, eternal love. and my heart Is
his--my life Is hls--all have is mis-
poor as my body ls---scrawny my skin
may be--but ] am his forever.
Honey. j feel awfully lonesome for
you tonight | want to talk to YOU.
| feel so full Of thoughts. Why do
cry so2 oh. il pains me TO cry. |
viii hate the winter nights Then
dream OF curling up in a chair with
you--oh. what dreams 7 have. VIII
II ever be? God knows best, dear. 1t
Is eleven and ] must get some rest.
as | expect to be up early about six
10 pack lunch.
one Of the letters from Mrs Mills Il
tho rector indicates that they were fear.
fll some one would discover their love