The New York herald., 1922-10-18

you.
II pains so at times I stumble in
walking around here and almost fall.
Why 1t doesn't turn your mind / don't
know. although, truly. dear, it isn't as
painful as il was.
want you-your arms TO hold me
and fold me close. If only to forget
this pain for a moment. Nothing will
cure me now but that / was tempted
TO drink enough to put me TO sleep, but
am strong enough to realize II would
do uncurable harm to the kidney.
Dearest, give me some word OF COM
fort. Tell me you know ] was wild to
come to you this afternoon. but I
couldn't. II will take hours for the
pain of disappointment to leave me.
My darling, who cares every moment
and suffers with me, Just to look at
you tonight will be my relief and
yours.
don't care how much it pains, I
Will bear 1t and come to meet you.
"The Mother OF All Living"
In the second letter Mrs Mills reveals
the sympathetic feeling between her an,
the clergyman for literature, and dis
cusses Robert Keables "The Mother O
All Living" comparing the romantic stu
auons in that novel of East Africa I,
their own love. The letter does not show
whether Mrs Mills had read Keable
frank "Simon Called Peter" although
she had had others of his writings. TIL,
letter says
~a Dearest, how fast can road
remember, too, honey mine, what
lot there Is TO talk about after read
ing a book
Tamela is clever, the kind of
woman that keeps a man guessing.
She knew she lost Chris from the be-
glnning-she saw in Cecil what Chris
loved. Would she really have let him
touch her body or would she recall
at the last moment and be disgusted
or disappointed in him--she meant to
have him fair or foul and she was too
clever to let Cecil have him, for didn't
she read he was a man worth hav-
ing. But not until Cecil made HIM
SO. He is the winner, for Cecils great
pure love made him perfect, but not
for Cecil or Tamela.
And Cecils great all knowing love
told her he was unworthy of her
lover. Her hope IL she had never
known of his trek with Pam: although
she would have found but the real
Chris sometime. She would cast every
swas getting--a true noble Chris. But
he wasn't then. Love made him what
he was in the end--a true lover-but
in finding himself he lost what he
priced most-Cecil's wonder love- oh,
OF course, he was true to Cecil physi-
cally, but he was tempted, and a real
man never can be. Now hated HIM.
Surely across the darkness Of the
night Cecil's God was guiding her.
Found Character Unworthy.
Her love made her realize why she
told Chris TO walt. He was unworthy
OF such u complete love. He was more
to her than God--the Child. You may
forget sometimes, God Is watching and
guiding. How completely she loved
but the true voice of that great love
showed her the truth that Chris
wasn't worthy. Her Ideal she would
always cherish, and love the Chris
she thought he was. but he dragged
himself through the mud. captured by
physical passions. and SO deserved to
lose Cecil. although she would love
him forever.
And Cecil was clever. She knew by
having another child she would see
her duty TO Hugh and not for weak
with Chris, and SO she used that way
to prevent herself. Tamela got him,
but with his ideals lost from his heart
and soul forever. Pam Is a snake.
Why, dearie. you know In life IL
girl wanted, as she wanted Chris, she
wouldn't save herself for him. They
all smoke and drink tea incessantly.
If / should read three pages OF the
book without seeing the authors
name I'd know il was Keable's. Pam
thought she was clever. but was she
If Chris had taken her offer she would
hate Chris IN the morning.
Preferred Her own Love.
Lean easily see that a man would
be weak. hut In life, dear, you know
there are many things TO reckon with.
How would her father take to her
living with Chris? Wouldn't she have
children?
Dearie. il is late. There is so much
to talk about in the book. We must
take 1t with US when we ride and talk
about II, especially the marked places.
This man Keable certainly knows
peoples hearts. I loved Chris and
Cecil for hours together. How evolved
he will kiss her before leaving NAL
lory. oh. it is sweet. darling, but
nothing compared to our love. How
they fingered behind the others their
love VOWS. and how they rushed into
each others arms.
Take the book with you--or else I
will leave 1t in your room. don't
want to read such books again, ever
Why? You know they make me dream.
Yearning for what, perhaps, 1 miss
hereafter ! will never escape this
longing until I know have 1t last
won. l hate TO came back to really
as ! always have to- reading books !!
'Oh, | love them makes me yearn
and as much as 1 love it,--why does It
| pain to have to come back 10 even
taking food for nourlshment?
Wanted Him Forever.
80 long for the time wnen viii
have you forever and dream-and
dream--no yearning.
All earth's longings now suldlled.
Yesterday i was hoping on the way
and "in the water" but, on the way
home I was thinking hard darling.
II is as II we had had glimpse OF
what our souls call out for and then
be denied again and ] feel as though
] never want to hear you say again
II love you" or caress or kiss me SO
hard It hurts. You haven't any right
to and then wake me UP, or Is II
myself?
When any one else calls you en-
dearing names and you say dear II
Is far more merciful for you to stab
me. How can l even call you darling
as ] have this morning.