Evening public ledger. [volume] (Philadelphia [Pa.]) 1914-1942, 1922-10-18

lOl ulCs shS ulC az pib no ehN
earth. need the great outdoors to
breathe-live in, nature as God created
il is what | feel part Of. and | y
part of it. They call me just as
yearr for the truest things and darling
sweetheart-that Is why long for our
love to be the trucst. ] feel-as poor
ms we can make it-for then 1t Is
truest to nature and things that God
created
but this love nest, you know dearie,
is dreadfully lonesome with just me
there. Did He say we need n jewel;
Did He say we needed anything ex =
cept mate? After that He knew that
we would find 'other things that He
created for our comfort and pleasure.
What JOY to read the Bible. How It
tells of God creating all these wonders
for us.
Darling. I could rave for hours,
but l must stop as there arc peppers
around. l only know this. dear. as
God the Creator is real, true, nature ii
real. true, SO our love Is most vita
power, the truest that Cnn be known
laugh at this. l know I am crazy
cat, but / cant be different Charlotte
talks; then Don asks questions. Then
he annoyS. SO how can ] write?'
Calls His Love Prayerful
Another letter refers to the rector 5
love for her as not so much physical
as prayerful. 1t says:
DEAREST darling boy. love you
most when you love me as you do today.
Not SO much physically but prayerfully
exalted, and you see, darling. the
physical fits in and doesn't dominate
it and was there just the same, not to
be denied--never. Dearest. believe me,
won't you? Never will say you want
my body rather than me, what l really
am. know that if you love me you will
long and ache for my body. Have
ever tempted you dear? Have l ever
made you want me? ! never want to.
Dearest, there isn't man who can
even make me smile. As you said to-
not pretty. I know there are girls
with shapely bodies, but m not caring
what they have. l have the greatest
of all bessings-a noble mans deep,
true. eternal love. and my heart is his
my life is his---all l have is hls-poor
as my body is-scrnwny my skin may
be-but ! am his forever.
Honey, l feel awfully lonesome for
you tonight. l want to talk to you.
! feel so full of thoughts. Why do
l cry SO! Oh. 1t pains me to cry.
will hate the winter nights. Then
dream of curling up in chair with you.
Oh what dreams I have. Will it ever
be? God knows best. dear. 1t is all,
and l must get some rest, as I expect to
be up early, about 6, to pack lunch.'
Calls Rector "a True Priest"
In this letter Mrs. Mills expresses
Jealousy Of the minister's calling and
refers to him as "a true priest
II don't know why l feel this way
today. 1t will pass, as you know. God,
! know, oh know as much as l know
you are my true heart, that He is
watching and caring and we are never
alone. He Is always near. In what
ever we do, even in physical closeness,
lie is near, for we know He meant His
children to taste deeply of all things.
Was Pam religious. Did she feel
God? Yes, think so, but she hadn t
found her soul nor did Chris. Chris
wasn't Cecil's maid no more than Hugh.
The Chris she thought he was. he was
her true mate. i am the resurrection
and the life, and IL he knew that then
there would be painless but a prayerful
IIfe-a desire to be like his always, for
ever beloved Cecil.
ASK me any part Of the book and
will remember it. Pans mother was
English (page 40.
Il had much work I ought TO do but
| cant today. / must wait until this
mood passes and / come down to earth
again. Do / love you too much? |
know that now / could leave. yes. even
your physical presence and go into a
convent NOu 0lWava IN al. 4
and heart, but there / wouldn't see any
one else, but you. call you dear, love
your tired body, sew your torn
trousers.
'Oh, darling, I don't want to ever
call YOU dear or honey again. IL any
one else can. I'm so glad that no
one else but you can call me dear
names. One time l told YOU I hated
your work, l hated your parish, I
guess 1t is because ! am Jealous Of
it because it must always come first
in your life, not because of conyen :
tions-no--but because you love it so.
When the man at the gate at Man
haitian Beach calls you Doctor and I
without looking at you I'm a Witch
knew 1t thrilled you, the kind of a
thrill that brings tears of joy to your
eyes. Oh, I know 1t is because you
are u true pTlpSt--DDTI IOT II, And
because it is your supreme Joy and
satisfaction I am merely your physical
inspiration and you see in me what
you teach, you. the priest"
Says "Our Hearts Are Bitter"
The following letter seems incoherent,
but presumably refers to matters under
stood by the rector:
II don't want to stay for service.
/ have locked the doors, as was asked
to, and kept my word, but it seems as
though ] am unworthy to do other
things ! was asked. OF course, it has
hurt me. Perhaps again I don't under
stand. You have had time to do them.
Well, it doesn't matter one bit what
comes. ! had simple greeting, but did
not leave 1t. ! cannot stay to such n
service when our hearts are bitter. But
since it Is duty of the church, j
think the truest way is to forget all