Evening journal., 1922-10-18

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you.
oh, dear, ] knew who would b,
anxious and disappointed. Darling,
walked the floor until 4.3o. Haven
read the paper; haven't eaten any
thing said. ooh. he viii know
am suffering and cannot come up
When came back from Miss Opie'l
was sicker than before. as you
were disappointed. can hardly
cry. Although now the pain isn't a.
continuous as II was, II ceases for
about ten minutes.
II wish some one would be mercl-
full TO me and give me something &c
put me to sleep. TO forget-forget
you are isappointed-how you felt
this mornins-and get some relief
from this constant pain. never felt
so miserable as do now. You asked
me did / want you TO conner Honey.
mine. was needing you as only
YOU know-but he was here, and SO
/ said not TO come. Tomorrow /
believe I'll walk miles and be alone
Darling. can I bear It? My ear
aches. too. The pain goes to the top
OF my head. Worse than before, for
I am sick over the disappointment
OF not seeing you.
"It pains so at times I stumble
in walking around here and almost
fall. Why it doesn't turn your mind
don't know although, truly dear,
1t Isn't as painful as it was.
Il want you--your arms TO hold
me and fold me close. II only TO
forget this pain for a moment. Moth
ing win cure me now but that. 1
was tempted to drink enough 70
realize It would do uncurable harm
to the kidney.
Dearest. give me some word of
comfort. Tell me you know was
wild to come 20 you this afternoon,
but couldn't. It will take hours for
the pain OF disappointment to leave
me My darling, who cares every
moment and suffers with me, just
to look at you tonight will be my
relief and yours.
Il don't care how much IL pains.
I win bear it and come 10 meet you.
''rhe Mother of All Living"
In the second letter Mrs. Mills
reveals the sympathetic feeling be-
tween her and the clergyman for
literature. and discusses Robert
Keable's THE Mother of All Living,
comparing the romantic situations
In that novel of East Africa to their
own love. The letter does not show
whether Mrs Mlls had read Kea- !
ble's frank "Simon Called Peter"
although she had had others OF his
writings. The letter says:
Dearest. how fast l can read.
remember, too, honey mine, what a
lot there is 10 talk about after read
Ing a book.
"Tamela is clever. the kind OF
woman that keeps a man guessing.
She knew she lost Chris from the
beginnng--she saw in Cecil what |
Chris loved. Would She really have
let him touch her body or would she
recall at the last moment and be
disgusted or disappointed in him
she meant TO have him fair or foul
and she was too clever 70 let Cecil |
have him, for didn't she read he was
a man worth having. But not until
Cecil made him so, He Is the vim
ner, for Cecil's great pure love made
him perfect, but not for Cecil or
Tamela.
"And cecil's great All knowing
love told her he was unworthy OF
her love. Her hops II she had
never known of his trek with Pam;
although she would have found but
the real Chris some time. She
would cast everything and take
what she thought she was getting
a true noble Chris, But he wasn't
then. Love made him what he was
in the end--a true lover-but in
finding himself he lost what he
prized most--cecils wonder love,
on. OF course, he was true 10 Cecil
but he was tempted, and
a real man never can be. Now !
hated him. Surely across the dark
ness Of tha night ceeil's God was
guiding her.
"Her love made her realize why |
she told Chris 10 wait. He was un-
worthy OF such a complete love
He was more to her than God-the
Child. You may forget sometimes
Gods watching and guiding. How
completely she loved--but the true
voice Of that great love showed her
he truth that Chris wasn't worthy
Her ideal she would always cherish
md love the Chris she thought he
was. but he dragged himself through
he mud, captured by PHYSICAL pas
,ions, and so deserved to lose Cecil.
although she would love him for
sver.
tAnd Cecil was clever. she knew {
~ having another child she would
zee her duty to Hugh and not for q !
weak moment be blinded into going
away with Chris. and so she used {
hat way 10 prevent herself. fsmela I
rot him. but with his Ideals lost I
rom his heart and soul forever. 5
Pam is a snake. Why dearie, you {
tnow in life n girl wanted, as :
he wunted Chris. she wouldn't Z
ave herself for him. They all :
moke and drink tea necessarily. II '
should read three pages OF the
,ook without seeing the authors ;
,ame I'd know Il was Keable's. Pam
hought che was clever, but was
he? NJ Chris had taken her offer
he would hate Chris in the morn y
ng. h
II can easily see that a man would !
,e weak, but IN life, dear, you know
here are many things to reckon !,
With. How would her father take !,
o her living with Christ wouldn't !
he have childrene
"Dearie, II is late. There is so
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