The New York herald., 1922-04-15
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she has lost her mind--but I haven't by
a long ways. I know just what / am
doing and know it is a great sin. But
I have had enough hard luck and I see
more coming with my baby. as he has
had a hard time all his life. and God
knows and you know what we have both
suffered when he was born. and others
know also.
mo one knows how I hate 10 destroy
this poor child's life, as l love him 50
dearly, and no one knows how hate 70
leave you, for. darling. l love you. ano
in this note am saying that I do not
want you to worry one minute. Please
take it for the best have been sick
for the past week. I don't know myself
what's wrong. but II I didn't sit down I
would faint, I feel so bad. I don't feel
that am able to raise my baby and
raise him right.
II am afraid some day he might be
left without a mother the way my
health Is and now he Is so young he
doesn't realize and don't want to leave
him here TO be raised by no one else.
love him so dearly. God bless his pre-
cious little soul. And you dearest can
take care Of yourself.
'Give every one my best regards and
you / want to get married again II you
want you to go where you can talk
with me and / am also agoing to say
that you are a good. dear. sweet hus-
band and just as good as gold. You
have been as good as gold to me. /
am saying this for you know how some
people are; they would say he must
have been mean to her. l love you dear
so much that I hate to do this act.
but you know have never saw nothing
but hard work and was so happy with
you, too, until lost nearly all my dear
parents money.
IF we could have saved that money
this would never happened dear be-
loved one. Now | will tell you what I
want you to do: Sell the Guarantee
stock to pay funeral expenses and bury
baby with me In the same casket. His
white suit ] am making isn't done, but
1t Is all cut out: SO have it finished by
Mrs. Owens or some one. give them the
pattern and directions to go by and the
darling baby Che is so sweet) bury him
in little white suit and laying by
my side and bury me In my brown dress
Ganders made me.
Get the cheapest lot and casket you
can, please don't go to no expense as
want you to have plenty as long as
you live. And save this note and let
everybody home read it and be sure 1t
is published in all the papers.
Feels Her Heart Breaking.
II have tried hard to endure my
troubes-sickness, baby sickness and
all, but 1t Is too much. The only thing
now that is breaking my heart is taxi
ing baby with me. l hate so to destroy
his life, but you know then he will
see no troubles or suffering like we
have both. You poor. dear boy. you
have been so patient through 1t ALL
Now remember that the baby and
are going to guide you and also talk
to you. Baby can't talk much. but
he knows everything, SO he will talk
over there, believe, to you.
Now don't worry. / know you
won't for you told me once you never
would worry over nothing and know
you never did, SO ] believe you now.
Dear, listen, start In just as IL yon
never had a been married. Forget It,.
please. because I want the chance to
talk to you. and don't think you are
left. because you know you aren't.
IT will guide you from this day on
and my love will always be right with
you. But don't let yourself get nervous.
Just wait and see IL / won't guide YOU
| right. You are better Off, dear. Ny
health Is no good and never will be; AMI
! God knows what baby would ever have
to face--not relative living but US.
and my health so poor. Please get
| baby's picture for tho folks at honle
Don't fail to do that. Don't never thirh
of sending our bodies home. as you
know the bodies after the breath is
| gone don't amount to nothing.
II don't know what's wrong with