Evening public ledger. [volume] (Philadelphia [Pa.]) 1914-1942, 1922-04-15
"You Never Cared"

TUDY was amazed at the storm OF
q emotion that rose in her heart when
she turned and saw Rand standing
there. She wanted suddenly to 90 to
him, to be crushed in his arms; she
would not have shrunk from the insist
ency Of his kisses If he had come to
her then. But instead he stood there In
silence just looking at her. =.
Why did he stare at her like that!
And then suddenly her heart leaped to
her throat.
Her hair, perhaps, or the fact that
she had discarded her correct shirtwaist
and skirt for O. summer dress that he
had once loved, and that she had
thought too frivolous and young. .
Was he looking at her because OF
that; had he noticed the change? On,
II It were true, and she could still the
misery in her heart by the blessed
knowledge that he still cared! =,
She made a slight movement toward
him.
"Rand I" she just breathed his name,
but all her heart was in that word.
Rand, startled from his preoccupied
stare, dropped his eyes, and in Hash
Judy realized the truth.
He had not noticed the change; he
had not even seen her as she was! She
quivered as IL he had struck her and
turned away.
It was true that Rand had noticed
nothing about Judy save merely the fact
that she was there, and that he no
longer wanted her. Her presence only
served to make him realize that for the
sake Of his own happiness he must tell
her the truth, and he dreaded it.
She would have left the room in the
intensity Of her feeling, but he spoke
suddenly and she turned back.
Judy, just a minute please, there
Is something must tell you.'
Her hand wandered to her heart as
IL to still the madness of its beating.
Now It was coming; he was going to
tell her about Carlotta. She felt sud-
denly weak, her knees were shaking un-
der her, but she summoned her pride
to her aid and lifted her eyes to his.
Eyes, Rand. what is it?"
Her tone was very calm. She was
amazed at its calmness when it seemed
as If the furious beating Of her heart
must Of necessity shake her whole body.
It's very Quietness made Rand suddenly
uncomfortable. 1t wasn't like Judy to
speak like that. And yet even then he
hardly saw her because Of the memory
of Carlotta that was with him always.
"I haven't been quite fair with you,
Rand went on quickly, deliberately. II
realize that, but things can't 60 on
like this any longer. Judy. We're not
really living, You and ], we've been
merely existing. living under the same
roof; yoked together like oxen. as though
we had no separate desires, no indi-
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life than that. / have always felt some.
thing lacking, and l never knew what 1t
was until i came to New York. At
first thought had found happiness in
my work, but It didn't take me long
to realize that needed something to
spur me on, something to live for, and
then l knew that what I wanted was
love. Your kind of love isn't my kind,
Judy. want need as great es mine,
and you don't want a love like that.
God knows l don't want to hurt you,
/ don't want to be unnecessarily brutal,
but love another woman. ] want her
and she wants me. 1t isn't as il am
robbing you of anything. Judy. for you
never wanted what was inside Of me,
you never understood. That is why I
am hoping you will be reasonable now. "
'Is 1t Carlotta Young?" Judy asked,
still in that small, calm voice. Her
lips felt stiff, almost as If she could not
move them to speak. She wondered
that she was able to 60 on living after
the words that he had spoken, certainly
she had reached the limit of her suffer-
ing, and yet at Rand's quick Eyes" to
her question, a fresh stab of pain shot
through her.
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