The Washington times. [volume] (Washington [D.C.]) 1902-1939, 1921-12-18

sovibss herself as a reai-life Tri6iy
9 tcvs-slave hold in bondage by the
speu Of modern SvengaH. The
story u aiven lust az Il acus told 6v
tAss remarkable Woman held IN Ray-
Sso~d strsst jail charged NTH ms.r-
dsr.
By LILLIAN s. RAIZEN.
have known for eight years that
my mind was slipping away from my
control, and falling under the spell OF
another. Think of how terrible 1t 10 to
watch oneself 60 mad. That 10 what I
wa doing, and knew 1t. was as
surely Trilby a. Du Maurier's char
acter. DR.. Glickstein was as surely
SvengaH. was a girl, barely twenty
when he fastened on my mind this
terrible chain. He was twenty years
older.
Like Trilby. was not beautiful. and
he. like Svengali, once so godlike In
my eyes, became at once q horrible
thing, who made me his love-slave by
the heavy bonds of a mysterious pas
s3on. I loved him and hated him, and
he petted me and scorned me.
! have known for years that I had
20 kill him, II was to save myself.
But at the same time / would ask
myself. what have you to live for?"
and would answer, Nothing. but !
must kill him and then myself"
tf Feels Better Now.
Since ne is dead see more clearly.
] think more clearly. Peoples voices
are more distinct to me, and sound
louder. I feel free. and though I am
Asry to say 1t, feel better.
1t seems to me there Is no doub.
80 tv~ N
moulded the pot" and that had
nothing at all to do with 1t, or the
shape 1t would be.
Since I was a baby almost two men
have controlled my life. They were
to me the symbol Of evil. and Of good.
DR.. Glickstein used to play rocking
horse with me when I was three. and
Charlie Raiyen and I went to public
school together. and were childhood
sweethearts.
can't remember the time when we
were not sweethearts. ana old not
deeply love each other, and even
when We used to write children's
rhymes to each other we were sure
We should some day be married. I
lived in MadiSon street and he lived
In Rutgers street.
Becomes His Love Slave
When I was stiN Younger ng tam.
NJ hved in q house In Hengr street.
Dr.. 0lickstein lived IN the Same house.
He was our family doctor and treated
me for all my childhood ailments.
He was almost worshiped in our
household. A. I grew older he still
was my doctor and told him all
my secrets and all my ambitions, and
IN shout Charlie, of course. He saw
mo develop, knew what read. how
] wanted to learn, learn, learn, all
there was to know, and almost looked
I'M on my thoughts.
When was twenty years old I
took . dreadful cold, and 1t got SO bad
was afraid Of having pneumonia.
went to my DOCTOR" He put his arm
around me. There was something
strange and new in the way he did 1t.
Suddenly the terrible thing happened
that has controlled the last eight years
q my life. At that moment. II seems,
the thing that happened last Saturday
WaS written.
Used Her Secret.
When I left his office that day I
pn and ran. I didn't know where
! was running to. When I got home
my fAther said. Lillian what's the
matter with your" and I think told
him I was sick. / don't remember,
Ssoauso my now, terrible secret was
bursting my heart and my brain
seemed to be dead.
Something new, and strange. ana
unoontrollable had come over me.
remember saying to myself. IT
couldn't have happened, 1t couldn't.
couldn't have happened"
He used my secret to bring me to
him time after time. was completely
enaiaved. I never dreamed that there
Mould be such q hideous, horrible pas
don. And then began to brood. I
loved him, oh. 20 tsrriblyl And how
i hated himi
He called Charlie fat and stupid"
and "a failure" and said deserved
eomething better. He kept this up Tor
6nmissing my childhood sweetheart.
'Fsv Registered Al His Wife.
He took me to various hotels and
se0istered me as his wife. One time
i rented q room for US to 80 to be-
cause he told mo to. and that was
o,r rendezvous for some time. Twice
vas to become a mother. The second
fipno. In q room in the Bronx, where
he had Just operated on me, thought
I was going to die. remember I
vas 20 happy, thinking I was going
to die for him.
sometimes longed for children, but
I never would have dared have them.
f4is face was so fixed In my mind that
1 was sure II / ever nad a child 1t
would be his image, and would have
10 carry through life the indisputable
story Of its parentagA. This IL what
4 meant when i said could not have
q child.
After this second operation my
Area<ful lover began to tire Of me.
Then / knew that this love was fas-
tened In the very bottom Of my heart,
and that couldn't live with II there,
And could not live without 1t. He had
purs,ied me until then. OF a sudden