Perth Amboy evening news., 1921-07-13
I Know the Worst
Nhantar rS

The old life had completely swal-
lowed me up. Fight as l would,
there was no getting away from it,
It was not only that one evening,
when the queer little shuddering
feeling went over me as l watched
my husband and Gwendolyn-it was
every e~vening-it became even every
woman.
And that, I think, is the worst
thing in the world. One known en-
envy car be fought with some sort
of intelligence-but what is the
woman to do who must look upon
every other member of her own sex
as a possible problem, let us say, II
not an actual enemy?
That evening Win a devoted to
G~wendolyn. But the next evening
we were at a theatre party and there
were four women and two men.
Three of us sat in the front of box
Jimmie Squire and q worldly-wise
little woman whom / knew to be
thirty but who posed as twenty-five,
and Win, sat behind us. 1t was only
accidently that I turned to find my
fur-and saw Win holding hands
with the girl, their hands more or
! less concealed under her great feath-
] or fan.
1 turned back from that a little
shocked and revolted, not at what I
saw-it was too silly and childish to
be shocking. but by the sudden dis
covery that Win, my ideal Of every
thing fine and good, was getting to
be nothing more than a philanderer.
So it wasn't to be only Gwen-it
vas to be every attractive woman!
Again 7 tried going my own way
as that winter ran along. But my
way and Wins way more or less CO.
Incided. They had to, for we were
naturally invited together.
By this time Gwen had succeeded
in one. at least, of the schemes she
was forever playing with. She man
aged to 5uggle things so that u old
friend Nardonski was made conduc-
tor Of mi of the symphony orches-
tras. This gave him immediate So
cial position, to say nothing Of i'm
mediate money, which I suspect ne
needed.
Gwen still player %patroness to him
this time Is the successful patron
- She had a box at every con-
cert, and she attended them all, and
when Nardonski was applauded, he
always bowed to her as well as to
his audience. And Win was asked
again and again to go with her.
Gwen asked me too. I must say for
her that she rarely slipped on a
question Of social form. But as often
things to do, 50 I could refuse.
II miss my Cherry Blossom at my
concerts" Nardonski managed to
ray to me onc when we met at a
party.
why the Cherry Blossom?" I
asked. somewhat rudely I think.
Don't you remember" His lifted
prows and puckered mouth express
ID the greatest surprise. Don't you
remember that I called, you Cherry
Blossom the first night met you?
So"
I smiled at him, my smile some
What cynical and disconcerting to
he very pampered gentleman. He
had remembered-but he had gotten
The name wrong! It was not CHERRY
Blossom" that he had called me.
II am often at your concerts. You
are a great conductor" I said, afraid
I had been rude and anxious now to
remove any such impression.
He beamed with delight.
Twill you come the third Wednes-
day from this? You shall have a box
In which I wish you to sit alone. I
will play the Love Music-do you re-
member. that you played for me one
evening at our dear Ovens house?
You were so beautiful that night
that / called you Cherry"
"IIl come with pleasure"
"I1l play the Love Music. They
will think 1t Is for them, the stupid
audience, but I shall play it directly
70 you, for you-you will inspire"
How delightful. to be an inspira-
toni" I said this n%ervously. I had
no desire to get into a Irritation with
this dark eyed. too impulsive man.
But I went. as I promised. Only I