The Washington times., 1921-10-30
WISH | HADN' 7
LIVED AT ALL
SHE REFLECTS
Pledges Herself to ''Try Again."
In Talk About Her Past
and Future.
DECLINES TO GIVE ADVICE
Beauty Believes Admonition to
Girls Would Fall Only on
Deaf Ears.
BY WINIFRED VAN DUSER.
Staff Correspondent Universal Service.

stAu Correspondent tnfsetsai SerSieo.
NEW YORK, Oct. ga girl
sat in with fate. one day. at a
game of life.
Fame and fortune were the
stakes. And she held in her hands
youth, ambition. innocence and the
trump card, beauty. BY all the
rules she should have win.
But fate stacked the cards.
And so she lost. She played for
all she was worth, gallantly and
well; but she kept losing as the
years rolled on and on.
There came a day finally when
her smile dropped with weariness;
futility! ShS threw her deal under
the table. She thought it was the
end.
Has New Grip on Things.
i've got a new grip on things to-
day. I'm going ahead to do the best
can-its about as much as any of
us can expect to accomplish.
But there's no use saying that I
wouldn't like to be out of 1t all.
No. I'm not saying that / wish
I'd have. lived differently. / just wish
i hadn't lived at ALL"
Hazel eyes dulled by lingering ef-
feet of the morphine she took yester-
day as a possible end of her appar-
entity endless troubles, and voice oc-
casionally wavering toward the blur
ring shadows of the poppy trail, Eve
lyn Nesbit thus told me today how
she feels about her future and her
past.
Sitting sidewise on garishly
ad hot otV. IN, haV~ tao n
the pinkish light shining upon her
bobbed hair, she looked anything but
the once spectacular central figure in
the most sensational murder and what
came after ever to thrill this city.
A slender woman in black velvet slid
ing of fone shoulder; the same little
girl smile that bewitched STANFORD
White and set on fire the brain OF
Harry K. Thaw.
Blames Everything on Thaw.
1t is Thaw. she declared tS1AV--~a
sinister personality attended by evil
unfairly slipped into her life by fate.
upon whom rests responsibility for
all her problems, troubles. disappoint-
ments, even for the threatened taking
over by the sheriff yesterday of the
queer little restaurant Just around
the corner from Broadway, because
she hadn't the money with which to
pay her rent.
Three days of grace, granted by the
Shuberts who own the property after
she tried to kill herself has enabled ler
to get the right kind Of start. She
said:
II have the money now to pay my
rent, and I'm going right on to keep
the restaurant open and try to make
good. My friends have come through
wonderfully, and / believe there's
enough sympathy and good fellow
ship in the world to help out after
ALL"
The tearoom, half filled with men
and women Of more or less promi-
nence on Broadway offered proof Of
her claim.
She took up the story Of how it all
began:
"If I'd never seen Thaw I'd never,
never had to go through the things
/ remember. Though to tell the
truth 1 don't consider my troubles as
amounting to so much, outside of the
'Thaw case"
Long List Of Failures.
Her optimism was thrown in the
face of a long list of failures and
dIsappointments. Critics and the
public did not see in her vaudeville
career the success she believes was
hers; soon after she established her
self in an apartment above the tea
room her husband, Jack Clifford,
broke in one night on the hunt for
divorce evidence. Later she had ar.
rested three men whom she said
came to the apartment to attack
her. Various minor difficulties ran
between these others.
/ asked II she concurred with the
theory of Arthur Brisbane concern
ing herself as expressed in a quota
ton used by him this morning: NV
poor girl; what have men done TO
your"
half-empty laugh:
mot men; a man: Thaw. The
first wrong step?' Oh, that silly,
sentimental stuff makes me Ill. I'll
neither sob nor preach nor offer ad-
vice.
"who is going to listen to advice?
Girls are going to come to Broad.
way and live as they want to live
or as some one else wants them TO
live despite all the advice in the
world.
Tired Of Being Evelyn.
'I don't say that l wish I'd have
remained back home and lived the
kind of life l started out on when I
was. a kid. Neither do ] say that
what gave up in peace and happiness
has been compensated by other things.
'I do say that wish hadn't lived
ut all. That's how tired ! am OF being
Evelyn Nesbit."
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