The Washington times. [volume] (Washington [D.C.]) 1902-1939, 1921-12-18

udNo Occu very cHJOydDlc " lOOk ~
such a weakling as I was then.
'Of course, should do all could
to compensate for. any trouble I
gave you or caused you, but you and
you only can Judge of whether or not
/ can compensate. Do not tell me
to come as a matter of duty or be-
cause you feel bound to do 30 in
any way. =
Unless you wish 1t for your own
sake, as well as mine, I should
rather bear the disappointment and
all 1t has entailed. I should soon
find out II you considered me bur-
den and that would be no kindness
to me.
Nov. Roger, I have repeatedly
asked you to let me know this,
or that. and since I left ~ my
doing 30 has left no impression on
you. This has caused me much in
convenience as we'll as hurt feel
ings, so please do as I ask. I
am inclosing self-addressed envel-
ope.
Several Suggestions.
"If you still want me, and at
times It seems as II you must,
after all you have said, and Mt
other times as IL you could
not. after all you have left un-
done, have several suggestions to
make. But I can't until I know
II you do want to take charge OF
me. Only do not mention my COM
ing az am to GOMEZ till you have
heard from me again
II have purposely tried to write
this letter so that IL you want me
to drop out of your life 1t will be
rot xro1 IN VIZ vrY-ifa
and say 30. You need give no rea-
son.. / viii know the real one
well enough, only please write at
once and tell me one way or The
other. II will be no kindness
simply not to answer. shall
have to see you again at least
once for business reasons. and II
you wish to be really rid Of me
and my affairs, it will be easier
for us both II you write to that
effect, than II you have to say 1t.
Then, when I come down for my
things, we can stick to impersonal
subjects.
Refers to Tagging"
"Of course, do not mean be-
cause I want to make 1t easy~for
you to say II you are tired of
what Margaret calls my tagging"
and want to be rid of me that 1t
would cost me nothing Ito drop
out" think you know quite
well what It would cost me. and I
won't speak Of 1t. because I do not
want to influence you. As told
you long ago, do not count me
in. but just what is for your own
good.
"The nerve strain Of not knowing
is a little hard to bear. and apart
from that / must now plan for the
next few months. / can't put, 1t
off. 1t is too much to ask. all things
considered, so won't you please
answer this at once, and tell me
whether i am to come down as we
planned. or only to get my things
and then go away-for always ~.
II you think this is tagging"
way to write. remember how you
have been hurt at my 'misunder-
standing" and been begging me to
trust you, even when you seemed
downright unfriendly. If you think,
on the other hand. that this is not
the kind of letter you asked me to
write. remember ! do not know
from hour to hour whether or not
you will say for me to come.
Remember, too, whether you want
me or not, shall always be
Yours unchanged, 8.
Two More Postscripts.
Postscript: You may be vexed II
I do not put in any sassiness.
though 1 do not feel sassy--I am too
much afraid. Will put in one line,
but I shall be bitterly ashamed Of
doing anything nonsensical IL you
tell me not TO come. Here goes:
When last saw You you said my
doings 'teased" you. Now / shall
promise not to ease any more, or
shall promise to tease lots? Do
you want gingerbread and other
sweet things? s?
Postscript. 2. l. shall be miser-
able till hear one way or the other,
so please, please, please, write at
once. i have tried to be square and
to wait when should. but now that
1 have written this ! am all up In
the air. So say whatever you say
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