The Washington times. [volume] (Washington [D.C.]) 1902-1939, 1921-10-06

a short-iived benefit, would, instead
Of being a boon, prove to be almost
O curse. II would mean that the veil
Of possibilities was lifted. and then,
when one began to carry on the
duties Of a well-ordered brain, the
lights would become dim again. The
sense of disappointment after having
been snatched from the clasp Of old
age only to be hurled back again
would be intellectual death. II not
actual bodily death.
But I am hopeful. especially SO
since the various doctors have re-
examined me time and again. and
have given me the glad tidings that
my heart Ia beating regularly.
I will be glad II my heart Is re-
stored to normal condition. but 1t Is
OF my brain and my purposes in life
that I am mostly concerned.
! am thankful for the flowers that
have been sent to my suite. Kind let
ters are heaped on my table beside the
bed. Perhaps some of those mes.
sages are responsible for what has
been characterized the improved coa-
dition Of my heart action. .
My wife. who has tried to bear up
bravely In this ordeal. 10 becoming
very tired. She refuses to take prop
er rest. She almost exerts physical
violence on herself In order that she
may appear cheerful. But I. who
eight years of our married life, real
lie 1t IL a struggle. Her consolation
and cheering words have done much
to make my lot q comparatively easy
one. ~ ..
Although I feels comparatively
stronger and am SURE that ! am on
the road to recovery from the oper-
alton itself, must be truthful and
say that I have q slight headache.
This. am sure. 10 from the excite
ment Of 1t all. You see have had
to undergo all manner Of tests. ex-
aminations and ross-Questioning.
Always Mental Worker.
Another thing which may account
for my headache 10 the fact that in
all my career never have given
myself or been forced to take q
mental rest. Always I have had to
pursue my work INCREASINGLY, and
always wanted TO work. Ny instinct
has been always to seek rather than
to avoid mental tasks.
This rest, one that ts forced on
me. possibly accounts for my ach'
hcdu. oo
throbbing through my brain. seeking
to get out. Yet l am not permitted
to do more than write. my article,
and this Is to be Rept as short as
possible SO as not to tire me out.
As to my wound, l am suffering
no pain in that respect.
Dreaded Ordeal.
During the time I have had to N.Y.
self in this room, have dwelt on my
plans. / recall now a thought which
crept over me while in tho midst Of
Mondays operation. I may have been
very weak then. At any rate, felt
an impulse to weep. AS I lay there,
with the surgeons working busily on
my body. had this thought:
How I dread coming to such a pass
where have to seek from the body Of
a monkey-a mere brute-a gland
which Ia intended by those who trans
plant II to put me in a condition where
I can work through to my LIES goel.
Why cannot I fade from the picture
entirely after I have found someone
else who can and will carry on my phi.
losophies and give them to the worlo7'
I had that thought because OF the
contrast that was put before me. My
the doctrine OF "Sympe-
Ia a sublime thing to me. To
insure It's furtherance-or to try to Ia
sure tt was In a position Of certain
but was willing to