The Washington times., 1920-03-13

MARCH 25-Sheffle said he could
get me class work next week why
shouldn't take II? can't allow
myself 10 be sensitive. I'm too shabby
to go out, and l must get away from
Norm. l must.
APRIL 6-Norm asked me where 10
been and | said posing He called
me q liar and . looked up nt him with
"a devtIIsh smile, whereupon he threw
u glass Of milk on my blue siik. IL
he had bought the dress II woula
have been bad enough,
got up to change II. He followed
me into the closet, where he saw
hanging my new dress. Tic tore II.
yes, literally tore IL. from the hanger
md oder~d me out. ! proceeded TO
dress and even had my hat on when
he told me that couldn't go out, I'd
meet some man. Where l wished 10
go was to his father with the dress.
l haven't. done 1t yet, but l will.
MAY 29-Norm gave me $fo for
new dress.
JUNE 2I-Norm says he never
loved me. When | could stand IL no
longer l arose and went to the sun
parlor and smoked. Doing some
thing, merely getting up and smok-
ing, Gained me Immediately. When
! am angry at Norm ! could Kill him.
Bst when we arc happy together
(slas! II IL 10 seIdon) am In h-sven.
Gets Job A. Movie Actress.
SUNDAY. JUNE 26-Mr. Carroll.
United Photopiays, hired me for Mon
day. Went to Highland Park with
whole company. My part not conspic-
uous.
haven't kisxed Norm for nearly
two weeks. II he had any money he'd
never be home at night. He is so
small and mean.
JULY IS SUNDAY Swimming
with Whites. Mr.. w. never wants to
do anything; has the views of most
men-wants to keep women down.
Friday morning Norman SO far for
got himself rs to call nae Susan.
Haven't kissed him for weeks.
Usually ] 10 to hin and try to make
up. but never again. ! feel that
Norm Is un~Iesp. Oh. II he had only
told me about himself before we
married. He had all the chance in
the world when ] confessed with
much trepdation about Katie Har:
vey. He took 1t all in, but never a
word about himself. God. what a
cheat.
heartacbes they cause on account Of
their acts before marriage. and some
times after: Sometimes when I have
held Norm's hand to my lips I wonder
at all the evil thnt hand has done.
Dear God, dost thou not ever I'M
derstand and realize that 1t means as
much to women as to men to love
what is pure?
JULY 24--Home from posing.
Norm sore. HE is putting his book $
in packing cases now. I have a
weight on my chest suffocate.
Hopes to "L~nve" by 'Anothcr'' way.
o mother. mother, make my bed
To lay me down in sorrow,
Ny love has died for me today,
I'll die for him tomorrow.
MARCH 10.-Last week ] posed
When came homo Norm hit me.
He left for good and then came back
in a few minutes. SO he will stay
and I shall stay until l see my way
clear to go for good.
Last night, Dear God. had a
wonderful dream. / woke from a
sound sleep and looked out OF the
window and saw two mighty figures,
with outstrctched arms, carrying a
child on straw. walking north in the
middle Of the street. and people were
hurrying out with the dawn and
crying, Christ is come. The Saviour
is here"
For only an instant did l feel fear,
and then an inexpressible joy over
whelmed me and 1 walked Norm, who
didn't understand at first. The next
thing / knew / was in the street,
kneeling and kissing my Gods hand,
and the hand bade me rise, and l was
kissed and comforted.
He wore a cheap, gray, tailored suit
and His face was young, and was not
like those l have seen. That is all |
remember except a gathering of peo-
pie later. when He was seated.
First Kiss In Weeks.
MARCH 2c.-we arc n house di-
vided, md the quicker 1t falls the
better for me. I will leave In one
way or another. I hope IL IL AN
other" That would mean peace, rest.
quiet.
Norm says look at the good side.
Yes, that's what his mother did.
Yesterday morning I went in when
he was sleeping. The last few morn
ings i have awakened with the dawn
Norm drew me over to him, say
ing he was lonesome, and asked me
when his little girl" was coming
back.
We kissed for the first time In
weeks.
This afternoon IL is all off again.
He just came in the den with me and
sat down, saying ] could have every
thing around here, that II is mine,
anyway. All he Is taking is his per-
sonai belongings.
JULY 27.-Norm leaves tonight
His things are packed. He says
am not half so glad to have him go
as he is to leave. He won't have to
save money for rent. I am not
mourning the loss OF Norm as he is
oh. no! 1t is what I thought he was
when married him that I live and
long for. am desolate-utterly
broken in spirit and faith.
10 p. M.-w~II, I'll he damned II
Norm hnsn't told me he'll stick by
his marriage vows, no matter what
I do. Can you beat itf Just now he
cnme In here and kissed me good
night. I had the grace to invite him
to our room. He declined.
Discusses Double Morality.
AUGUST Norman was late for