The Washington times., 1920-07-21


No appetite and my eyes are haggard
from tears and wakefulness.
January Last night was even
worse than the one before. Retired
early. but no use. DO hope julie gets
here some time Saturday. so ! cas-
talk this over with him. That leaves
three nights between, which are
equal to three years at least. Re
ceived very sweet letter last mail
today, which gives a momentary
pleasure Shall try TO reply with a
few lines.
January S.--Quite load is taken
of my mind since I arrived at de-
cision. and, even though the period
may be brief. shall from now on
feel like different person. Con
veyed by idea in part to julie by
letter. but so far could have had no
reply and am snxiously awaiting It,
Judging from past demonstrations
OF feeling and consideration. have
little hope, but perhaps 90 ] shall
be surprised. Now after 4. and no
letter, so no doubt my suspicious
are JUSTIFIED. but still ] have ray
OF hope. as he is very busy. Even
70. ! should think he would have
desired all the more to write me
Truth will prevail
MUST "PuT AN END TO IT."
January 0.--Had some difficulty
in controlling a flood of touS last
night. Visitors distracted my
thoughts for an hour, but the mo
ment after that misery WAS back
with all it's merry. gnawinG iury, All
OF which strengthens my resolution
regardless of the result TO put an
end to (which Ia the only thought
which gives me any degree OF elatloh
from the depth OF my suffering for
the relief must come soon.
Am hoping. however, that no one
elses life will be greatly affecteu
and that little time VIII soon heaI
over the event. Though conscious OF
the fact that | could make much use
OF what ability possess In some wa!
or another in the world, yet ] know
all OF the ability avails me nothinG'
as it Is negatived by lack of the de-
sired and needed companionship that
makes the sum total for which there
can be no substitute.
January ll--SaW julie at noon ano
feel better, OF course. but know tha'
the relief Is only for the time peihS'
VIII tell him tonight before we so
to the jefferson Hotel TO dance %
don't know whether or not We WIZ
dance. He seems>Very much tlreo OUT.
| am worn out from loss OF sleep ana
worry.
Had very intcsesting talk WIN
julie He does not wish to carry ou'
my request, but has promised 10 40
so. as can stand ii no other way. AN
fully determined to carry OUT my
original plan, with some mooi''ca
tion which ] like better. Feel some
t.ll ip1
can see great trouble and difficulties
.bead of me. Had a lovely time as
usual at jefferson Hotel.
BRUTALITY CRUSHED HER.
January 1o-Went to Ethical so
ciety and heard very good lecture.
Had a special delivery letter nelore
I cot m Cruel, to say the least. oe-
nictinr in all certainty the brutality
~ the bottor; of tS.S mans so-caiieo
.nectiouate interest in me. More than
ever convinced that | am right ana
that nv course shall be pursued 10
tbe Nnish. Wrote J. letter IN the
afternoon Just TO relieve m!sei'
Know. of course. it will make no I'M
nrcssion. Censurcd him severely
however, in response to which he WI,
as usual, be cold. And then VIII
have to thaw him out again, as
must keep his friendship for the en-
suing year Otherwise | could not
| make the fight.
STATEMENT TO PUBLIC.
Miss Meglige barred the tragedy OF
her life in a statement addressed ITO
| the Public" and given out for pub
| lication by the coroner.
The statement follows:
81 wish ] could make it plain to
all how this terrible situation was
| brought about. but | feel that ]
have not the strength, physically or
mentally.
81 am in no way to blame for Mr..
Jonas dissatisfaction with his mar
ried life. Had I not been so per
sistently pursued and prevailed upon
to enlist my sympathy. and later my
love. this would not have happened.
At all times in my life ] have been
ruled by principle and honor.
Il believed the man. who presented
himself as the soul Of honor. He said
nc needed my help and sympathy to
be the man OF his ideals. He wept and
writhed in agony before my eyes be-
cause ] was accepting tho attentions
OF other men friends. SO gave them
up.
SAYS HE EvADED PROMISE.
He took up every moment OF nv
leisure time after business hours,
I helped him in his business. He said
that I was inspiring him to success.
When he was travelling I wrote him
daily helpful letters, as he had begged
for them.
when the time came for him to
make good his promise to me he was
evasive. The subject annoyed him.
Then 7 knew I had made a mistake
in judging him. ] saw how selfishly
he had used me, but it was too late
to retreat.
~ had given him all my strength
and my love and devotion. J was
left dazed, heart broken--incapaci-
tated for a new life. ] tried to show
him the injustice he had done me.
T think I succeeded in making him
see 1t. He appeared very willing to
do all he could. He did tell Mrs. j.
to divorce him a year ago, but she
paid no attention to it,
For three years ] have lived in
agony. 7 suffered because or my
mother, who is tho most wonderful