The Richmond palladium and sun-telegram. [volume] (Richmond, Ind.) 1907-1939, 1919-02-12
THE POWER TO SEE OURSELVES

THE POWER TO SEE OURSELVES
Dear Girl: What an Illuminating
experience 1t is to be away the first
time from ones self. Here was
sure that / was self-starter in my
daily life, independent of any one for
comfort, advice and care of my In
nards and out ards. And SO was, up
to few months ago when | married
you. But now
/ was awakened this morning by
an internal buzzing in the kitchen.
had heard that buzzing before, | sup
pose. although it never before pene-
trated my thoughts. l had vague
memory of you stirring every morn.
ing in answer to that buzzing; some
muffled words down the dumb-waiter
shaft--and some necessary nuisance
Of chore was performed, l suppose.
But this morning realized that buzz
err was wired to my ear drum. l had
to do something about 1t. | did not
know thing what to do. and wanted
to know less. / tried to ignore 1t, but
the darn thing lost its temper and de-
clared it would keep up buzzing all
winter. So had to get up and ask
it what the simp blank it wanted.
1t seems that the janitor insisted
on my sending some meat down or the
butcher wanted to send some garbage
up. / forget which-there were sew
eral buzzings. l couldn't think Of the
first thing to do, so l longed for you,
and swore at the man below. II
was not his swearing up at me in re
| turn l minded as much as his being
proved.
Then | remembered the typewriter
| list of instructions you left pinned UP
on the door of the dumb-waiter. After
that everything was plain sailing un
| til Katie came in and took the house
of my head.
| Both before | remembered that list
and after, l realized how much l had
learned to depend upon you for little
inconsidered things that very quickly
make themselves the clamoring nuts
ances of life, if left unconsidered.
| l read my morning paper as usua
on the train and tore half a dozen
clippings out and stuffed them il
pockets as per habit to read to yor
at night-things in the days news
wanted your assistance in swearing
! at: your woman's point of view; ant
what on earth is "mole-dyed Xxi
coney?" Then as l stuffed the last o
them into my vest pocket. | remem
bered you would not be at home tt
see them tonight. So | send then
with this letter.
You would imagine I'd forgot you al
soon as I struck the office. But TO
some reason, more things came vi
in the copy / was writing on whlcf
I wanted your opinion than ever be
fore. The woman point of view. Gosh
/ never till today realized how mucl
this civilization of ours depends OF
the woman So | am sending you tn
enclosed advertisement, with pet
ton of your comment on the marke'
paragraphs.
| I plugged hard all day and fel
pretty tagged. The thought OF qule
little dinner at home. with you bust
ling about in the kitchen and nothin
for me to do but make the salad dress
ing, seemed good to melville tn
thought lasted.
took dinner at Paganis restaurant
Hitherto, the place meant funny Ton
Pagani, with Ma Pagani's wonderful
ravioli and broiled chicken, and tn
little half-portion fireplace by the sid
of our table, and the gang dropp1n
in. Never did think of it as "restal
rant" Tonight it was worse than res
taurant; it seemed a lunchroom wit
marble morgue floor and pay-as-yo'
: exit attendance. How could your trl
little presence have hidden all thi
from me before tonight about Pagani
restaurant?
You know, before my train was OF
of the station of Hill Farms yesterda
| felt | wanted you to be going bac
with me- 1t seemed such a perfectl
bromidic reaction that l swore l woul
/, not follow it up with the usual "yo1
J don't ow-I-miss-you-dear! kin
of letter l haven't written anythin
!. of the kind, have I? l am asking b.
: cause / am afraid to reread this lie
: ter lest I find that l have done jul.
that very thing-no, / find On rerea
! ing that I have not written once
: miss YOU; SO it must be that | don
l. But
want you to fill your letter as fu
of yourself as l have filled this or
with myself. Tell me of every breat
: you breathe, every thought you thin
$ every nice thing you do for the Peep
:. about you'll can just see you doir
them. l want to have you as ne;