Atlanta semi-weekly journal. (Atlanta, Ga.) 1898-1920, 1919-03-04

some day and carry you Off on snow
alone. But-perhaps | should not say
it-you may be better off, happier
what you have told me l should not
worry. They deserted you when you
most needed their care. l often have
wondered If you were thir own child
I can't understand how you could
have belonged to such peop1e-so
different"
"I have sometimes thought that,
too. Well, what's the use! I am
Annie Fagin, expert handler of wom-
en- in a prominent bond house and
the friend Of the dearest girl in the
world. l have wonderful home and
should be ashamed to worry. Yes,
will take three lessons a week"
Chapter xxxT11. ,
II and l always answered them m
to write him Of Annie. her
wonderful voice, her progress both in
her music and in her work, but re-
strained myself. 1t would be such
me- to know of her voice. He was
being detained, and the date of his
return growing more indefinite. Oc-
casionally I felt almost impelled to
snare my secret with Annie. She
never had asked me a single ques-
ton about my affairs, although I
had worn my engagement ring when
with her. / never wore 1t or any
other jewelry when In the office. !
could not very consistently talk to
girls about over dressing at their
work and then wear diamonds my
self.
Sometimes I wished Annie were
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have the old feeling that keping our
enga cement secret until Franks re-
turn made us closer in spirit than we
would be were it known.
1 think I rather idealized Frank in
my thoughts after he left me. Per-
| haps L endowed him with several v1r-
tues he did not possess. But / was
extremely happy in thinking of him
of our life in the future as we
would live together. Often l visu-
allied him as assisting me in my
work, becoming enthused with my
plan for helping others and giving
me the benefit of his broader outlooE
upon me and things, his greater ex-
perience in the business world: Never
once did 1 have even a doubt that
this would be his attitude. Never
once did 1 think that he would not
be entirely en- rapport with me.
/ had heard that men and women
were not the same after marriage
as before; that insensibly they
changed. the stronger nature, the
greater personality, absorbing to g
certain extent the weaker and the
| less individual nature. I knew that
| two people of such intense individual,
interests as had Frank and I would
not, could not, absorb one another
that to a certai nextent our lives
would always hold different interests
even though he were entirely er
rapport with me.
He was broad, charitable in his
views, willing every one should dc
as seemed best to them. Even this
being in as close communion as we
otherwise might have been. A 60
ahead attitude, do -as-you-please pro
vision between two people is not con.
ducive to oneness of spirit. This
had to learn In what came after. Al
this time I thought only of Frank as
lover and as my future husband.
had heard of "holding a mans
love- I always smiled to myself
heart I took the attitude that If .
mans love needed effort to hold II
was not dove. That love once giver
could not be either taken or giver
away. That | was looking upon love
from an exaggerated height, knowing
really nothing of the elusive passion
never occurred to nee. Love was love
one loved a person they could no
change while that person lived. Any
thing different seemed a nlockery
"Orce lover always a lover" wa:
no idle quotation to me.
You see, I took love seriously, no
as the will-o'-the-wtsp affair 1t 81
often proves to be.
h.