Americus times-recorder. [volume] (Americus, Ga.) 1891-current, 1919-08-29
sANDRA LONGS FOR LOVE.
CHAPTER Liz.

EVERETTE'S large business inter-
- ests now know required great
deal of attention. Then, thought
he made much of them so that he
might spend time at other places
while | thought him engaged with
business affairs. Had l been consis-
tent | would have known he would
not have thought it necessary to apol-
ogize or to explain his absences to
ne. When we were first married he
never did. But now, occasionally he
would say:
81 am sorry, Sandra, but I must
out tonight" Or, "You will ex-
cuse me, Sandra. / have to meet
some people at the club" always
punctiliously polite.
But when he said he must Ego out"
/ always visualized him with Irma
Barton; when he said the club /
thought him with her, or with other
people whom he had not allowed me
to know, and with whom he went
without me.
had told Rose Grandon before we
were married:
"Of course we will be happy! If
Everett didn't love me very dearly
he wouldn't have asked me to marry
him-he didn't have to-" had said
the same thing to mother. And l re-
called that when / had said it, had
wished he would "make little more
fuss over me-"
/ still wished it. At times l felt
that if he only would take me in his
arms and tell me he cared for me, |
would not be so unhappy, 50 hurt by
the things he did-that if he told me
he loved me before telling me that
all the dissgreeabie things he asked
lne to do were for my good, | could
have done them more gracefully.
Men-some of them--seem not to
understand that a girl Il was moth
ing more) will do for love what no
amount of driving will compel. As
l grew older, / realized that / was
not alone inf this feeling That most
wo.nen ere willing to 60 all :he.-
could 70 please if they were ceased,
loved OF .fattered.
But almost the only things Ever
ett fiatt,led me about wece my hs IL
and coloring-and | Thought lie cid
that simply because l was SO like
Leola-and my name. He often told
me how much he liked my name,
and how he failed to understand par
ents compelling their sons and
daughters to go through the world
with ugly or common names wher
there were so many unusual and at.
tractive ones to choose from. Yet
often thought that perhaps he wa
thinking of Leola then when he fiat
tered me because of my name. Her
was even more unusual than my own
You see, l was continually looking
to be hurt-a very foolish attitude
and one which caused me no end OF
unhappiness. l used sometimes tc
recall what | had told Rose when she
asked me if / loved Everett so
couldn't live without him? I hac
answered that l felt able to live
without him, but that perhaps love
would come to me in a great "blind
ing flash" the way it did to people
, in the novels we read together.
certainly. had learned to car,
very much for Everett, but no "blind
ing flash" of love had come to me- I
was sort of pride that he belonge
to me more than anything else
think. This tall, dignifed handsom
man whom everyone seemed to re
spect and like, was mine, my hus
band. And often as l watched hir
from the window l would swell wit
pride to think he belonged to me.
! I often recalled also the time
eavesdropped and heard mother sa
to dad:
"Sandra has ben petted all he
life. Mr. Graham is a cold, undemor
strative mani feel anxious abou
her"
! Everett was cold and undemonstra
tive. Yet occasionally he would dra,
me into his arms, and for blissfu
moment hold me close.
| was puzzled by these unusus
outbursts of affection. For some
times he would seem so cross and di!
appointedin me Immediately pre-
ceding them.
l had told Rose this, and ! wa
sure she thought l was romancina
especially after the way Everett ha
acted hnfnrn hon. | had q .rrnr,tn