The weekly Alaska citizen., 1919-09-01

10 aspiring motorists-I must put it down here that in the chosen solution of my nocturnal nervousness lay my undoing. I, who had all my life toiled for others. became the possessor, on the day following my sleepless night. of one perfectly good male chauffeur at so much per week and three meals a day. Just as soon as l had hired him 1 knew I had made a mistake. should have persisted in my efforts 10 drive. In another day l am sure I would have succeeded. For I have seen men without any fOreheads, and women who are afraid of gentle cows and innocent mice, and small boys and small girls all driving cars, and why couldn't I?
 That all happened six weeks ago and We still have Walter with us. have a feeling, however. that it isn't going to last. In the first place. even if could afford it, it is a useless ex- travagance. In the second place cant afford it, and in the third place don't know what to do with Walter when he isn't running the car. Since we hired Walter We have moved in.o the country and for boy raised On the West Side of New York, as Walter has been, it is terribly lonesome place. And we have neigh bois who would talk about us if we took Walter into the family and to the neighborhood parties. And Walter doesn't expect that. All he wants is that We feed him and pay him. But where We live he hasn't any compan. ions and every little while see him down on the shore of the little lake , near our home and he looks lonesome and it bOthers me and go down and then we see who can throw stone furthest out into the lake. And it hurts me to throw stones and the next ddy Hty afIl IS sore.
 And then, just few days ago, he showed up with ball and bat. And there wasn't any one for him to play with and I gave up my work and went out and played with him and he bat ted ball at me and broke the nail on the third finger of my right hand. It served me right because l am forty eight years of age and have no busi- ness playing baseball.
 And that's the way it goes all the time.
 When Walters driving the car Pm either with him or he isn't around But when he isn't driving it, Pm us. ually home and so is he. For a few days l had hopes that something might happen so that I wouldn't have to keep entertaining him. The em ployment agent sent out maid who was young and good looking, and thot perhaps l might be able to in duce Walter to marry her. But il was too lonesome for her, and one day she went into town and never came back. The next maid was an old lady with white hair, and didn't have the nerve to suggest that Wal ter marry her. He's only twenty-one and anyway l doubt if the old lady would have married him. And be sides, 1 think she had husband somewhere. She seemed to have g hatred for men.
 If 1 hadn't anything at all to do it wouldn't be so bad. l could think up things myself and maybe find some games that I'd like to play and that would also entertain Walter. But have to work, and always when I'm working Walter isn't busy. And my desk is in corner of room with two windows that seem to look out over the whole landscape. Because of thi: Walter and~the specter of his lonesoMeness is always before me Just yesterday l suggested that we might go fishing, and l told him to ea somewhere and dig some worms. had an idea that l might crab |: couple of hours of freedom, because l had never seen any worms around the place, and l figured they migh be hard to get. But he was back in fifteen minutes with a whole can full. and he seemed so pleased with the idea of going fishing that l didn do any work at all, but went out O. the lake instead.
 And my wife she worries abou Walter too. With all the trouble W, have had with maids-we used to cal them "girls" back home-and we haven't had one for a week now-w would, if we were alone. skimp on our meals. l could very readily gel along with bread and milk for lunch and in pinch I could eat canned salmon or some such thing for din ner. But we cant do that while Walter is with us. My contract with him calls for so much money and three hearty meals day. and we haven't the nerve to ask him to eat what we would be willing to get along with during our maidless peri. Ods. Therefore. while l am busy