The Seattle star. [volume] (Seattle, Wash.) 1899-1947, 1918-06-01
CONFESSIONS
OF 4 Wife
MARRIAGE MEANS SHARING
on TEARS

Il rather plumcd myself" wrote
Dick. ION being better man than
Harry. | said to myself could not
be such fool even II had had the
desire To hc such cad. You see. my
dear. | had not then learned how lit.
tie we poor mortals know about hu.
man nature. even our own.
Il still had that old masculine
idea that no one woman could be all
In all To any one man. | prided my.
self on giving UP all the other WON.
en- had known and dreamed OF for
the one woman that was my wife.
Il wonder II you remember. dear.
what / said TO you that night7
III was after the hard day for both
OF us, when you and had arranged
and attended the funeral of that poor
mother OF the twins. and you re.
marked with a great deal OF venom
that YOU hoped Harry Symone would
be made To pay for this as he had
made the two women pay.
Il remember said. In my cgotism
and masculine conceit. No woman
can understand the complex nature
OF man who can love one woman
dcvotedly and another spaEmo,ucai.
ly.' And then l expounded some ally
70, abou; putting you on pedestal
and worahlpping you.
II also remember that you prickcd
that beautiful bubble by very hu.
manly throwing yourself into my
arms and saying you did not want Co
be a pedestal saint. you just wanted
to he a human being and my wife.
II did not know. Margie. how very
soon /. too. would demonstrate my
utter asinlnity as well as my utter
seifishncsa and lack OF respect. not
only for you. but all womankind.
Even at this time did not how.
ever. realize what a crime Ike Harry
symone's might mean TO his wife.
There Il great fact. Marrie.
that husband and wife cannot get
away from. They really are one ns
far as disgrace IL concerned. a man
may win fame. but his wife will only
shine In reflected glory. a woman
may reach great heights az an artist.
bu, Il usually only serves 10 make
the husband sink into namelessnesa
But II disgrace comes TO one. tho
other must share IL. The fall Of eth.
er IL the others humiliation. The
destiny Of all husbands and wives IL
To share each others tears
Sometime. I think perhaps Dick
a a r.
for me 10 read. but he aiao wrote Il
that he might live over once again
all our happiness and our SORROW be.
fore he stopped living.
'Bef~fo he stopped llvingr' Oh.
Dick. II you only know wha. Il
meant 20 me 20 have 20 write that.
You can never know what Il means
to woman TO live after her hus.
band has stopped living. IL Is as
tho you tore the roots Of my life
right out and threw them on the dust
heap when you stopped living
dear Dick.
Why. Dick. dcar--now II you are
somewhere In space where you know
what I arm writing. am sure your
lips are curling in that little crooked
smile OF yours at the abSursiity Of u
bccfsteak any more. II chokcs mo
when remember how you loved IL.
how we discussed II. and. ycs. how
we quarrcied over H.
/ never put on n ney hat or gown.
dear. tina, do no; Alnk tina, moth.
Ing matters. as you cannot see and
admire.
I never look into our boys eyes
that mine do not flil with tears at
the thought that he will never know
his father.
When II rains. dear. shudier.
thinking OF you lying out there 30
cold and stiii. and whom the sun
shines my heart aches and aches be.
cause know that you. who loved
the sunshine even more than I. are
down there In the dark OF tho grave.
Dick. that do not hope will dream
OF you-and never have since you
left me.
My only consolation. husband
mine that was. Is that your child
needs mo. know that II any or my
friends or relatives could read this
they would be much surprised. for I
have never said much about you.
dear. to any one since you died. But,
oh. Dick, | am 80 lonely. 30 lonely
am almost praying for Time to
take away from me your memory.
the memory OF you that makes me
30 restless and unhappy unless am
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