Connecticut western news., 1918-03-28

am tempted at each station to turn
pack and try again. 1t seems so I'M
real, this parting i'm hot anger, so mis-
erably unnecessary. But when stop
to sum it up again. | see no use in
another appeal. 1 could come back
yes. Only the certain knowledge that
giving in like that would send us spin
ming once more in vicious circle pre-
vents me. 1 didn't believe it possible
that we could get so far apart. Nor
that a succession of little things could
cut so weighty a figure in our lives.
And perhaps you are very sore and
resentful at me this morning for be-
ing so precipitate.
II couldn't help it, Hazel. 1t seemed
the only way. 1t seems so yet to me.
There was nothing more to keep me
in Granville-everything to make me
hurry away. If 1 had weakened and
temporized with you it would only
mean the deferring of just what has
happened. When you declared your
self fatty and repeatedly 1t seemed
hopeless to argue further. / am poor
pleader, perhaps; and do not believe
in compulsion between us. Whatever
you do you must do of your own Volt
ton, without pressure from me. We
couldn't be happy otherwise. If
compelled you to follow me against
your desire we should only drag mis-
cry In our train.
81 couldn't even say good-by. /
didn't even want 1t to be good-by. /
didn't know If / could stick to my
determination to go unless / went as
I did. And my reason told me that If
there must be break 1t would better
come now than after long-drawn-out
chickering's and bitterness. If we are
so Numerically opposed where we
thought we stood together we have
made q mistake that no amount of adj
justing, nothing but separate roads,
will rectify. Myself l refuse to be-
lieve that we have made such a mis-
take. l don't think that honestly and
deliberately you prefer an exotic, use
less, purposeless, parasitic existence
to the normal, wholesome life we hap
PLY planned. But you are obsessed,
intoxicated-I can't put it any better
and nothing but q shock will SOBER
you. If I'm wrong, if love and Bills
cOmpanionship can't lure you away
from these other things-why, l sup
pose you will consider it an ended
chapter. In that case you will not
suffer. The situation as 1t stands will
be a relief to you. If, on the other
hand, it's merely Il stubborn streak,
that won't let you admit that you've
carried your proud little head on an
overstiff neck, do you think it's worth
the price? 1 don't.
I'm not scolding, little person. I'm
sick and sore at the pass we've come
to. No fool pride can close my eyes
to the fact or keep me from admitting
freely that 1 love you just as much
md want you as longingly as l did
the day I put you aboard the Stanley
d. at Bella Coda. l thought you were
stepping gladly out of my life then.
And l let you go freely and without
anything but dumb protest against
fate, because 1t was your wish. / can
step out of your life again-if 1t is
your wish. But l can't imprison my
self in your cities. I'm neither an
idIer nor can / become legalized buc-
cancer. / have nothing but contempt
for those who are. Mind you, this is
not so sweeping q statement as it
sounds. No one has keener appre-i
citation of what civilization means than
I. Out of it has arisen culture and
knowledge, much of what should make
the world better place for US all. But
somehow this doesn't apply to the