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The citizen. [volume] (Berea, Ky.) 1899-1958, 1918-11-07
A Discovery

Bradlcys book did more for me
than carry me away from camp.
It gave me glimpse at another sid 3
of the men here. After reading 1t,
took 1t down to IL for HIM
to look 1t over. The fellows in tina,
end Of the barracks crowded around
to see what was up, and a few re
manned To- talk. One chap, who five
minutes before had been telling Il
particularly vicious anccdOte, dug
into his wallet and pulled out Il
newspaper clipping of Alan SecEar >
4 have a rendezvous with death
At some disputed barrlcade,
and read it in a silence of most
peculiar quality. N, a Har-
ward 'lS man, quoted BroOhe's IF !
should die, think only this of me-
After that the tension dropped, but
it wa, truly a memorable moment.
| am having to learn over and over
again that there is something tine
and tender in every person. The
grossness and deliberate, cynical OBJ
,ccnlty among the men IN this camp
has nauscated me beyond all FOR
mer disgusts, and this incident was
really "A life saving event for me.
1t sent me to far sOundcr and
,weetcr slumbcr than had enjoyed
for many a night. For the SAVIOUR
Of it disinfected the ribaldry which
i, always the last sound in our ears.
The decent chaps 20 To- sleep and
keep quiet after taps, unless the
Jokes and laughter of the rest keep
them awake.
The citizen. [volume] (Berea, Ky.) 1899-1958, 1918-11-07

Holman Hunts picture of Christ
kuUckng at the door was my lnspi-
ration, but | saw only the barred
duur Of sCllisnncss. Mhlc | was
talking, a White faced mite of girl,
with glorious rIcn red halr Ike
ns-came IN and sat down beside
Mrs. the vile of Bin, tine mead
OF tine Mission When got through
MIS-. Uninterrupted Brl, VINO was
ABOUT to give the invitation, by say
ug tnat Miss M-WUuld sing Tor us.
onc had sweet VOICE, iull and rich,
and she sang of the love of Jesus,
of HIS ycarnug over Us, Ul HIS
eager readiness to help Us IN every
way. You know the song, Does
Jesus Care? 1t filed III the other
nall of the picture, and cUmlorted
and soUthcd. Ii faced me with an as
pcct OF Christ winch / had wholly
ignored. II was natural That |
should have done 80, suppose, Dut
1 could have wept at having missed
1t Tor 80 long. In the herccness ana
of my struggle, IN my
that | and | alone was
responsible, had wholly missed
CnrIst the helper.
The citizen. [volume] (Berea, Ky.) 1899-1958, 1918-11-07
The New Haven Football Coach

Our football team showed up III
line shape i'll yesterdays game with
Nlr-lma, VINO beat u, last year, end
in. with the phenomenal score Of I'll
3. We played tine last half with
second and third team men. MI.
Embree ascriDcs the differences to
the new head coach, Tad Jones,
whom he characterlzes as almost
evangelical in his goodness When
In college, he was almost Ostracized,
despite his marvellous skill as a
player, because of his having SAID
that he prayed before going into .
same, and on the field. Now he is
IN full control of the team and the
old school of hard drinkers and loose
lINers are sitting back to see what
he will make of it.
The citizen. [volume] (Berea, Ky.) 1899-1958, 1918-11-07

wastcful, 50 criminal And yet
these are the times in which our
lives are set, and We must live them
to the fullest, IN hopes that they
may pave the way for nOblcr llV-
ing in the future. The whole thing
seems like a dream. cannot be-
ncNc that We shall ever 20 to war.
read the papers, hear the talh,
work for my cuumS>Iuu-Nrltc tnts
letter and yet 1t does not seem
possible that life Will not 60 ON
gust the same, the college year may
not move on regularly to commence
mcut, that summer may not come
out a. planned, that next year ]
may not lie working at home with
YOU and father. | wonder. These
are days To- make one pray.
Id give my eyes to be at home
now that you and spring are there.
| do hope you found everything run
ulng we'll and IN good condition. Id
Just like to hug the whole place.
The citizen. [volume] (Berea, Ky.) 1899-1958, 1918-11-07
The American Army

Sometimes it seems 10 me that
these new drafts are Ncrltablc cross
sections of American life. The other
day had an interesting experience.
had the battery send over an or
derby t. do some work for me u
my room. and, a. 1t wa, done or
hi, own time, | paid him, according
to custom lie took the money ana
thanked me, ,alutcd and went out
The follow ng sunday was drlNlu-
with Captain Wentworth Iu m>
Ford, and We met this same char
driving a Arrow, with "a
artN Of evidently wealthy people.
We saw them again at dinner tina,
night at the hotel. and the Captain
told me that the chaps income tan
more than equals a majors pay F.
But you can never tell who or what
YOU are running into. am getting
"A new fatigue sergeant down here
at tine school, and hl- predecessor
an cN-prolc,,ioual baseball player
tells me that the new man is "A col
lcge graduate, and was "A practlclng
lawyer IN civilian life. II i, very
good TO keep all these things in mind,
and yet, all men must look alike to
Am officer. He must use them all for
the best of the service.
The citizen. [volume] (Berea, Ky.) 1899-1958, 1918-11-07
Mott S Meetings

1t is good to think of you at home
again and all day yesterday, while
it was showing steadily here, kept
plcturlng your arrlval-everythln5
from grlnniug George asking for your
checks, Edlth's dive for you, to Me
lissa bridllng and smiling Iii the front
hall. In a way 1t has been almost
like coming home myself.
The Mott meetings have been sue
cessful. | believe | wrote you of his
topics. The Demand for Leadership,
The Greatest Handicap sin, Why
students Believe, and The Way to
Power. Mr.. Motifs personality was
the most important element, for he
developed these four heads IN u
familiar and orthodox manncr-add-
ing very little new save himself.
He Is IA commanding figure. Tall,
heavy, bushy-eye brOWed, confident.
lie Is the type one would expect as
"a bank president, or captain OF IN
dustry typical American. And 50
particularly adapted to appeal to
his audience here-an audience
which is too apt and DESTROYS to
regard strength and vlrlllty as the
monopOlized attributes of business
and worldly success, RELOCATING 10
religion the more inslpld and neg
atiVe virtues. But the sight of tins
powerful, successful, rather cold
blooded man, with his Phi Beta hap-
pa key and evident brains was very
impressive, and he held large audi
ences for all Of the four nights. He
urged nothing new, nothing that we
had never heard before but he
urged it 50 emphatically, so rea-
sonably, so confidently that we were
forced to think that after all he Is
right lie rather followed Well ;
philosophy, urging religion and
virtue, not as things of value per
Sc, but as the sina qua non OF Il
truly honest and efficient life.
1t is perpleXing how one gets twisted
among different ideals and ideas
how | confused personal good inten-
tlons-and real eilorts-with real
Christianity. My awaking last year
was not to any sense Of Chrlsts
power and love, but rather TO the
necessity of working out my own
salvation.
The citizen. [volume] (Berea, Ky.) 1899-1958, 1918-11-07
LAST DAYS AT COLLEGE, 1917
Union Church

| admire more and more our I'm
ion Church in Bcrea. 1t supplies the
need for fellowship in certain
phases of aspiration, and yet does
not dictate to peoples cOnsciences
| am coming to be glad for the
storms Of soul desolation which
swept over me when first came up
here. They were terrifying and
chastity, but they gave me the as
-urancc that my soul is my own, 10
make or destroy, and now am com
ing to feel that there are other
than personal reasons far my max
ing the most of it.. The God in me
must be as god-like as possible for
the sake of the God in my fellows
The citizen. [volume] (Berea, Ky.) 1899-1958, 1918-11-07
STRUGGLES

But the point at issue was inn
portant to me only as 1t served as
the test for a still greater-lnlinlte-
ly greater iSsue-whether OF moi
am still holding to the ideal Of alb
solutcly devoted service to a great
cause. am ore still in the furnace
don't know yet into what mold
will be cast, but | resolve to be OF
absolutely the finest mcttle and tex
ture possible, 50 that there may be
no flaws IN the casting. That is my
aim, for which | am working harder
than | have ever worked before Tor
anything. / am still not 50 whole
hearted a. ! wish | were, am stu
needing much, much wisdom ana
sincerity, but that Is my working
basis, and | am doing my best to
maintain 1t and strengthen 1t. ! am
striving more and more " achieve
absolute unsellishncss and 1t Is a
hard light, for | am very selfish.
The very elementary question ol
lazlness Is stIll somewhat Of a prob
lem.
But | am doing my best to over
come my spiritual and mental dis
honesty, to see things straight, Tor
/ believe that | have 1t III me to DO
good service 10 the world. surely
50 much love and effort and bless
ing would not have been shOwered
upon me to no end. These things
are evidences to me Of services and
obligations held III store for me
somewhere. And the only reason |
stIll live and still keep up and IN
crease the fight Is that | may lind
and be absorbed by this purpose lh
time to let my services III some
measure balance my obligations. :
My only moral asset, the only thing
that | can contribute now, Is my
good intention. All else is given me.
But that good intention is my only
anchor. If | lose faith in that
therell be no excuse for my taking
up space any longer. cannot be-
lieve that God Will suffer SUCH
waste, for, say it with all humll-
ity, lie has supplied my good III
tention with a splendid equipment
home, family tradition, friends,
travel, education, work, good body,
q fair brain, and a developing spirit.
| doubt If | ever do great things.
| am by no means any kind ot
genius. But what | have | intend to
use to the best advantage.
The citizen. [volume] (Berea, Ky.) 1899-1958, 1918-11-07
Last Christmas Letter
camp, CmrI,tmI. NIsht, III

lIlIII. .IIII mas NI-lII. lHl4
IT,, lb, u,opIr YOUR. with who
ri,, uoI.paury 4, christmas. The
.av ma. Yot p,,u nchlu. IN good
,nIus. E. r,i I've eaten far too
p,n,.r. a DINNER oi fine Battery winch
,I,,atrd ever, principle of Hoover
ISM. and constant uibblins at various
,.,.. ,f ,,rJ, and food an, OWN
.,t,ib,, t.l,[,. TN, nul, church
.,,,i.,. am t,, Ground, were Mas,c-.
.rd .y,.r, IA High Mas. with my
.r,.u-m,t. Th.r, v,r, sports.
..,r..l.. ,u.,r. .t.,r r,p,u- etc.
r,nirn ,b. min, are alive with
fireworks. but n D. larhiu. I'M c,-
..nti,l. u.Ar,rr if all zoe, in a
.f.. finn. saved y,,r n,N until To-
The citizen. [volume] (Berea, Ky.) 1899-1958, 1918-11-07
Last Letter Dropped in New York

our departure from land was
made in little harbor tug, but
Just the same it gave me quite a
thrill II was day | had been
living for for "A long time.
When you read in the papers next
month that 50 many more thousands
of American soldiers have been
landed IN France, | and my handful
of men Will be part of that number.
am infinitely glad of the chance
for foreign scrylcc-ld rather be an
overseas lieutenant than a domestic
captain. Not that il makes any vi
tai difference 10 the service. I'd
probably be of just as much value
in Camp Jackson as in Samur, but
II makes "A big sentimental differ
cnce 10 me.
Life is wonderfully rewarding
these days.
The citizen. [volume] (Berea, Ky.) 1899-1958, 1918-11-07
Most Lonesome Christmas

SiN foreign officers spoke, every
one Of them na, had his baptism ol
urc, and tncy brought a very VIVA
picture of the battlefield home to
as. My curiosity Is quite aroused.
/ can set up AN! enthusiasm al
tuc Iura ul kuug utucr pr"utr. /,
sccms to me that the Drains cap
able ul creating the marvel when
modern war has come to be ought
tu be- able to ma a better way ul st
uug differences. But the! haven't,
aud 80 must learn how to hIil pcu-
pie as efficiently and rapidly as pos
,Inlc. It Is better tnan the only
other alternative open to us. ms
viii be- my most lonesome Christmas,
lut there Is Nurh enough to keep
me occupied Christmas Itself Is Il
holiday and quite program ol
sports, mrludlu- steer throwing auu
prouruu-bustu- Is scheduled. But
Will be- THINKING of you aud faith
cr and of the many wonderful
nug, you have gwen to me ol the
wonderful things YOU mean to me.
The citizen. [volume] (Berea, Ky.) 1899-1958, 1918-11-07
CAMP LIFE
Fort BENJAMIN Harrison

\ feeling OF utter lmtcnc>s and
impotence l. growing Oh me. The
other day rs We were out ON prac-
lice march, | suddenly became
aware of myself a. but one of tue
countless millions of young men who,
from beginning of time, have some
out to Kill. | don't suppose they
liked killing any better than | do, or
that they were amy less certain OF
the Righteousness of their cause than
1 am. But We are all swept alon-,
Involuntary, inevitably, hclplcssIy
moving to our appointed destiny.
oar only option l. a, to whether or
not We VIII play the same like men.
lhc game that We are to play, ana
Il, conditions, are determined for Us.
/ suppose that Is all We have right
to ASK lor-the opportunity to fight
-amcly in whatever situation We are
placed but sometimes it seems a,
though the cards are stacked asalns.
Us.
The citizen. [volume] (Berea, Ky.) 1899-1958, 1918-11-07
The New Haven Mission

The most important event Of the
week was a solo at the Mission last
Friday night. had led the Mission,
taking my cue from the fact that
we ourselves are responsible for
the evil in the world; that We stop
the Kingdom Of God by our own
hardness Of heart and love Of evil,
that we let our worser selves stand
in the way Of our highest best, that
we stand in our own light and SO
block the light Of others. II was
rather a crude, harsh, uncompro-
missing talk, wholly pitiless and just.
The citizen. [volume] (Berea, Ky.) 1899-1958, 1918-11-07

uncertain, memories become doubly
precious. And you are one Of the
rlcasantcst memories ! have, be-
cause ! don't know Of any one whC
was kinder and more lovely than
you were when you lived with us
and used to endure for hours the
scrapcs and dreams Of the schemer.'
find 1t very hard to realize that
| am of age and supposed to be a
man. There seems to be a pcrcnnl-
al livc-ycar-old streak in me
which stays that age while the rest
Of me goes through the motions oi
being an officer. This new side of
me seems fantastic and unreal. My
realities are IN my livc-ycar-old ELF.
| see very little of the negro troops
here, a. they are quartcrcd in .
different section of the camp, but !
hear enthusiastic reports as to their
progress and adaptabillty To- army
life. You are the symbol, in my
mind, of what they can become, and
my memories of you make me feel
THAT they are my brothers.
The liNc-ycar-old streak wants to
say with a bushel and peck and
a hug around the neck
You are doing great work, Mary.
| wish Won the very best of success.
The citizen. [volume] (Berea, Ky.) 1899-1958, 1918-11-07
To Work With Father

| do wish that might be work -
ing with father this year. Not s.
much for the insight into his plans
which it would give me although
that d, most important but for the
insight into him. lie is the great
est man have ever known, and !
want lo know him better, to learn
the reasons for his attitudes, the
causes of his ideas.
The citizen. [volume] (Berea, Ky.) 1899-1958, 1918-11-07

Thi, training tells. greatly ad-
mire the straightforward, practical
way in which it takes what it wants
and can use Of everything and ruth
lcs,ly discards non-cSscntlals. II is,
of course, only the old distinction
between pure and applied sciences,
but it is So obvious here as Ia at
tract my special attention. In TIN,
time of war the accrclions of piping
times Of peace are sloughcd off and
the spirit of the army i revealed a.
"A very alert, intelligent energetic,
force. The first three volumes of
The citizen. [volume] (Berea, Ky.) 1899-1958, 1918-11-07
A Second Crisis

Really, this week has been mo-
mentous. In the first place, the
Thanksgiving at Lebanon with
father was in itself delightful. The
Joy of the visit was the same as
always feel in going back there; the
kind, hOmely people, the delicious
country atmosphere, the comforting
sense of stability, genulneness ana
welcome; but going there with
father made it sacred pilgrimage,
holy rite. 1t was eXaltlng and
wonderful. And out of that delight
was shaped my willing acquiescence
in fathers desire that | should
work with him in Berea next year.
| came to have "A sense Of my duty,
and lifting wish to do 1t.
After last Thursday | feel that
failures to see clearly and act right
~ will not be 50 common. 1t Is
queer how "a single event can crys-
talize, precipitate into something
tangible, the nebulous and evaslve
ideas that previously hoated impO-
tcntly in ones mind. OF course /
do not presume to infallibility, but
shall be greatly disappointed III
myself if the mistakes of my heart
are not fewer in proportion to the
mistakes of my head. | believe that
both are wrong. But one is less
vicious than the other. This is all
| can write now. Other things don't
seem to matter much, and we must
talk about this. 1t is my second
crisis.
The citizen. [volume] (Berea, Ky.) 1899-1958, 1918-11-07
THOUGHTS OF 1913
The School of Fire

The work IN the school of Fire re-
llrc, grrat'r concentration than
anything | have ever been mp a
-aln,t. II is mostly mathematical,
and ann reviewing all my grnmc-
try and trigunomctry a one formula
after another is developed and ma,
10 bee remembered. The French ar
llllrry doesn't even take Euclid for
granted, and every proposition l.
demonstrated before using il rs a
haSi, for the calculation of firing
data.
The citizen. [volume] (Berea, Ky.) 1899-1958, 1918-11-07
Sex

Your comments On sex pleased me
greatly. 1t Is good ~ have TINS fun
damcntal aspect OF our lives treated
as a legitimate and respectable mat
ter. | can see nothing IN 1t to De
ashamed of, except vicious abuse,
and that, | am convinced, Is the
result of criminal Ignorance. Vi
course 1t i hard to know what
methods to adopt but they Will be
worked out.
The citizen. [volume] (Berea, Ky.) 1899-1958, 1918-11-07

the backbone Of the army, and II
rather teach them than an officers
training camp, because | know that
these chaps Will be- going right back
to the ranks and teach 1t all over to
their men. And ! found that ! had
grown bit rusty on American drll'
regulations. after four months al
sorption with the French mctllod',
and So had to study very hard M
order To- put the material IN tcdcha-
BILE shape. Teaching has never ap-
pralcd to me a. life work, but in
the army one ha, to do just what the
man higher up orders. And I've
made good enough to be- continued
~ senior Instructor for the next
course.
The citizen. [volume] (Berea, Ky.) 1899-1958, 1918-11-07

There j. uu knowing when We
VIII be- moved last and, If there
were a knowing, there would be no
telling When my letters cease to
come for some time, then you VIII
LuoV that ann at last moving to-
ward, the goal of all our hearts. 1t
taNr~ a long time To- MAKE sululcrs III
to take their place ON the firms line.
our colonel, as line a soldier a.
ever stepped, hhcns our career to
tuit ul a great musician 1t takes
Uu- periods of narI ANA uI~J-lrca-
BILE Worh before We are ut To- mahr
our debut upon the stage OF the
NorId', greatest war. The firing
lime D., the apex of our career a
soldiers until We reach 1t, and do
oar part ably, We are mere anna
Tours, mot ut to be- called soldiers.
The citizen. [volume] (Berea, Ky.) 1899-1958, 1918-11-07
THE CITIZEN

our Artillery Drill Regulations deal
with the tcchnicaltics Of service
gun squad and driver drills, care OF
equipment, training and care OF
horses. computation of firing data,
etc. Now we are getting into the
fourth volume and it deals with
principles of leadership, admins
lration, tactic, strategy. II Is one oil
the most remarkable books ! have
over read. And every now and then
there shines out through the lines
an exalted spirit of sclf-subordina-
ton and sacrifice which is cNhlla-
rating.
The citizen. [volume] (Berea, Ky.) 1899-1958, 1918-11-07
This Wasteful War

It seems great pity that this
necessity for war should sidetrack
So many more constructive interests
that energy and wealth which
should 90 towards building up
should have to be expended on clear
ing away. And it's such a foolish
method. But it seems TO be the
only one that can be used in some
eases, and We are involved.
The whole thing is so stupid, 50
The citizen. [volume] (Berea, Ky.) 1899-1958, 1918-11-07
A Soldiers Choice
l-t. Prov. u. .. /. G.. Battery
,th Regiment, /. y II. ID.
camp jackson. =. G.,
september I, 1913

tIl NtE llhtUl !. y. II. -.
camp Jackson :. G.,
september +, 1913
Just what VIII bee put to doing
when the Il. .. r. G.. Battery Is uroA-
en- up D, ,uIl uncertain, but / have
little reason To- Worry. That's one
advantage of being soldier. The
next Iob is always planned out and
all have To- do is To- obey orders.
But they do ask MS to state our
preferences. asked, for my first
choice. 10 bee assigned to some Ar
ullrry Brigade. Nou know they
are forming several new ones right
NOW. That D, my ideal way of getting
INTO the war To- start M with new
bunch of men, grow up with 1T
through u, transformation from
bunch tp "A Battery, and then 20
o>cr>ca, and lsht with IT. For my
second choice, | asked for lmmcdl-
ate overseas service. II | can get
acro~, sometime this fall, 90 10
school tins Winter at Samur or
foulaluhlcau, and then bee ready for
service at the front next spring.
they say that the Germans VIII be-
driven out of France, and possibly
out of Belgium before Winter sets
an, and that the fresh American
troop, viii bee used for the invasion
of Germany. Id like to cross the
Rhine with "A Battery of American
Artillery That sound, rather
foolish and sensational, but do
want To- bee more than a stay-at-
home soldier in the war.
The citizen. [volume] (Berea, Ky.) 1899-1958, 1918-11-07

often think of that pleasant cor
ncr room of mine and wish that !
were living in it again. And | thna
Of the friendly, patient things wait
ing there for me ia use them again.
Take care of my books-they are
my most precious possession.
I'm satiatcd with army life, though
the training here is very worth
while. And I'VE other work to do as
soon a. this incidental job is out oi
the way.
The citizen. [volume] (Berea, Ky.) 1899-1958, 1918-11-07

From "A letter 10 Miss Mary Mer-
rift, young colorcd woman who
lived i'm the family when Cleveland
was "A little boy. She i, now super
lutcndcnt of the Red Gross SAM
larium, Louisville.
January p, 1918.
II Mas mighty good of you to write
to me. You know, in these days
when everything but the past is
The citizen. [volume] (Berea, Ky.) 1899-1958, 1918-11-07
Growing UP

somehow TINS business OF growing
up Is rather tryrus. There are So
manN things To- decide for one sell.
Not that III have 1t any other way,
because | believe that no virtue i
possible without absolute -rtl-di-
rcruon, but the cost ui tins great
good Is very -rcat one make, SO
many Illuminating bluudcr, and lail-
arcs. II /, the best way, though
at least | feel that 1t ., Tor me.
The citizen. [volume] (Berea, Ky.) 1899-1958, 1918-11-07
First Appointment as an officer

New Haven, April is, 1917
The University organized tins al
tcrnoon for military training, and,
greatly To- my surprise, they lia"
appointed me first sergeant of the
fourth platoon. have spent most
of the evening studylng up my
duties.
The citizen. [volume] (Berea, Ky.) 1899-1958, 1918-11-07
Army Teaching

Thl, last week has been "A very
strenuous one for me, because the
Senior Instructor i'm the Nonc0m
school was ordered To South Carroll
ma, and had To- take his place, with
"a green assistant. The work we are
doing for these noncoms is really
important, and one has To- put all hi,
energy into it. The nOncOms are
The citizen. [volume] (Berea, Ky.) 1899-1958, 1918-11-07

Melissa and Miss child wrote me
the two birthday letters when
counted the most of those coming
from outside Of the family. lhcy
are very dear people, and 1t Is heart
cniug tu feel the warmth of turIr
dIcttiun.
The citizen. [volume] (Berea, Ky.) 1899-1958, 1918-11-07

Don't worry about me. Nothing
can happen that won't be- for the
best. am determined 10 make that
50.