Perth Amboy evening news., 1918-07-01
DICK VOICES A MANS CODE

"Oh Dick II you only could know
how happy your manuscript mas
made me-" I said aloud as I read the
words that told me he did not want
to hurt me. II will have to AXE the
sorrow you think it will give with the
comfort II holds. That is why, dear,
/ am not reading 1t all at once.
81 want to keep you with me as
long as I can, and this manuscript OF
yours, which has been a part of your
very soul, seems to be- very, very near
to me. II I could have only heard
the things you have written spoken
in your voice-the voice / heard over
the telephone this morning.
"All this that you are writing 0
seems like a dream to me, dear.
"I have really forgotten the pain
Of It and today / only remember the
happiness and Joy we have had to-
gether, and 1 want you dear, oh, how
l want you.
.Tomorrow, dear Dick. / may be
In an entirely different mood. may
have to prod my memory TO even
visualize your crooked little smile.
"Since you have left me l have
subject to moods and because Of
them we see things very differently
at different times"
I believe, little book, that every
woman IL she is honest with herself,
acknowledges these inconsistencies,
these va~cillations. these moods. these
changes OF mind about herself and
everybody she loves or in whom she
Is Interested. In fact. I have found
that all humanity, masculine as well
as feminine, has these changes Of
mind, these doubts OF Its W prob
ity, yet we are always treating with
contempt the man OF woman who
changes his or her mind.
We like to think ourselves great
Judges of character. We expect that
others will think our judgments are
logical, although in u hearts we
know they are more or less colored
by prejudices.
oh, little book. little book. we are
weak, very weak-all of us-even
those who stand the staunchest and
strongest and yet all of us would find
fault with the others weakness.
Naturally, Margie," wrote Dick, 81
did not see Mrs. Utter again until
she was leaving the train the next
morning, when / did as any other de-
cent man would a done under the
circumstances. hunted her out and
took her to the hotel and got her q
room.
You can imagine what a mess I
was in when the scandal threatened
to break.
II had to protect Eleanor under
any circumstances, bat for a little
time I decided that everything was
v for me.
next few days, dear. / determined TO
tell you everything and then just
when ! had strengthened my courage
to the sticking point. II would seem
TO ooze out OF my toes"
Just here, little book, I remember
ed that night whine / went to the
hospital where Dick was nursing a
hand with broken knuckles, after his
encounter with Mccauley: the man
who put up the blackmailing scheme
on him.
I thought at the time he wanted to
confess something to me. ] remem-
Der distinctly what Dick said TO me
at the time-and then ! was so inno-
cent at what a mans nature was that
/ did not really understand his
words: 'Margie." he said. that
woman was mighty pretty. I wonder
IL I would have fallen for her IL she
had tempted meT'
I can Just hear now. little book.
the unconsciously questioning tones
OF his voice. Then II hurt me mex
pressibIy, but now I think ! under
stand IL all.
STILL A MAN-MADE WORLD
This world Is yet a man-made
world. and TO the hearts and minds
and souls OF most men there comes
no feeling or thought OF any wrong
when he falls" for the tempting
wiles Of a pretty m
/ remember as though Il were yes
terday what Dick said 20 me as ]
II him with horror when he
made that speech about falling for
Mrs. Utter.
Don't Margie. don't draw away
from me. ! love you dear, love you
only. and yet ! wonder II any woman
understands the complex heart OF
man-man who gives 70 one woman
his love and reverence the best part
OF himeelf-ands yet steals away az
times 20 some other woman for whom
he cares aothing."
At that time. Dick. that speech
hurt me 90 much that Il toosened