The Prescott daily news., 1918-04-24

uIeutu, SO to Spedk, put uOuDL II ever more forlorn cuss listened to the interminable clicking of car wheels. l am tempted at each station to turn back and try again. It seems so un- real, this parting in hot anger, so mis- erably unnecessary. But when l stop to sum it up again, I see no use in another appeal. l could come back yes. Only the certain knowledge thnt giving in like that would send us spin ming once more in a vicious circle pre- vents me. I didn't believe it possible that we could get so far apart. Nor that a succession of little things could cut so weighty a figure in our lives And perhaps you are very sore md resentful at me this morning for be- ing so precipitate.
 'I couldn't help 1t, Hazel. It seemed the only way. It seems so yet to me. There was nothing more to keep me in Granville-everything to make me hurry away. If had weakened and temporized with you it would only mean the deferring of just what has happened. When you declared your self flatly and repeatedly it seemed hopeless to argue further. am poor pleader, perhaps; and do not believe in compulsion between us. Whatever you do you must do of your own yOlf- ton, without pressure from me. We couldn't be happy otherwise. If I compelled you to follow me against your desire we should only drag mis- cry in our train.
 Il couldn't even say good-by. F didn't even want 1t to be gOod-by. | didn't know If I could stick to my determination to go unless 1 went as I did. And my reason told me tkat if there must be break 1t would better come now than after long-drawn-out bickerings and bitterness. If we are so diametrically opposed where we thought we stood together we have made a mistake that no amount of ad-- justing, nothing but separate roads4 will rectify. Myself 1 refuse to be lieve that we have made such a mis- take. I don't think that honestly and deliberately you prefer an exotic, use less, purposeless, parasitic existence to the normal, wholesome life we hap oily planned. But you are obsesseG. intoxicated-I can't put it any better and nothing but shock will sgDer you. If I'm wrong, If love and Bills companionship can't lure you away from these other things-why, sup pose you will consider it an endeG chapter. In that case you will not suffer. The situation as 1t stands will be a relief to you. If, on the othen hand, it's merely a stubborn streak. that won't let you admit that yon'yss 1 carried your proud little head oD aLs overstiff neck, do you think it's worth the price? l don't.
 I'm not scolding, little person. rn-' sick and sore at the pass we've come to-. No fool pride can close my eyes to the fact or keep me from admitting freely that I love you just as much and want you as longingly as ! aiG the day I put you aboard the Stanley D. at Bella Coola. 1 thought you wers stepping gladly out of my life thenz.. And I let you go freely and withous anything but dumb protest against fate, because it was your wish. can step out of your life again-if il fS your wish. But I can't imprtson my self in your cities. I'm neither aK idler nor can become IegaliSed bus cancer. l have nothing but contempt for those who are. Mind you, this is not so sweeping a statement as ft sounds. No one has keener apprs- a ~.., I. Out of it has arisen culture ard knowledge, much of what should make the world better place for us an~ But somehow this doesn't apply to the mass, and particularly not to the civ cles we invaded in Granville. With. here and there a solitary exception that class Is hopeless in its snug self look, and unblushing exploitation ee1 the less fortunate. repels me.
 And to dabble my hands In thefr muck, to settle down and live my life according to their bourgeois standards. to have grossness of soft flesh replaces able sinews, to submerge mentality kn favor of specious craftiness of miD6 which passes In the city for brains well, I'm on the road. And, oh. girf. girl, wish you were with me.
 "I must explain this mining deai- that phase of it which sent me on ths rampage in Granville. I should have done so before, should have insisted on making it clear to you. The other side had been presented to you rather cleverly at the right time. And your