The Lakeland evening telegram., 1917-04-07

ihula. who believe that the wife should
die On the funeral liyre of her husband
may lie weaker than some women
or ! may he stronger Possibly | mnv
have less depth of feeling. though. thai
VIII not admit. saw only in nursing
my grief dreadful life before me. !
recognized the principle that no tw.,
absorbing h6as ran occupy the brain
at one time did all that could 10
interest myself in what was about me
True. did not at first succeed and
when ] did only partially so dread
ed the word forget. and yet I realized
that to avoid suffering | must tempo
rarily forget ! forced myself TO feel
that after a time ] would be reunited
with my loved ones and that mean
while ] must. except occasionally. put
them out of my mind.
made my home abroad Three
years after my bereavement | married
again. did so partly because was
lonely. parity because | wished for u
man to rely upon, IA Is natural TO any
woman. partly hecause the man mar
ried assured me that could give him
an Interest In life and. lastly, because
! became attached to him. lie was an
American. like myself. and being
wenithy. gave himself up to study
He lived abroad that he might write
books which required his presence
among the subjects of which he wrote
For i've years after our marriage We
continued our residence abroad Dur
ing this period children were born to
us There was tacit mutual agree
ment between us tnat should not talk
about the world In which | had lived
] saw thar he would rather leave that
To me. considering himself as having no
part IN IL. and had no desire TO make
him pari of H. He was absorbed In
his literary work. and IL | ever told
him even where | had lived he soon
forgot II.
Then be was called TO America Oh
a matter OF some property that need
ed his attention II was agreed lie
tween us that he should leave me and
our children In I.ucerne where we
were then living. He expected to he
absent not more than two months, but
soon after his arrival in America he
was induced to write for a publisher
work necessiiaring his presence t
America. He suggested my comins
home with the children. but left M,
to consult my own feelings In the mat
ter
had never intended to return 10 the
United States. dreading lest Il should
reawaken me to my lost world But
With a husband and children that
world had receded further and further
nom me til the consciousuess Of II
aao grown very dim wrote my r,,
oand thnt would GO back to N,
western hemisphere and remain there
was tired of moving about from ono
pace TO another. and the children wore
coming TO that age when ,bev shon,,,
nave steady instruction at school Our
boys preferred to bring up In Amor.
lea. ! therefore suggested to nv
band that he buy a place II nus !
might settle He ren' wnicn we
with me suu .,ed that he agreed
gestiVr- 'ouiu carry Out my sug
; Later he wrote me that he
lad bought place In the suburbs of
the city wherein II would be necessary
for him 10 do his work
We arrived after dark I was de
lighted nj our reunion. as were the
father and the children. did not ask
where our home was to be. intend.
ed to be satisfied with It. pleased with
Il. wherever IL was. We took train
and I'm less than an hour alighted at
a station. where a carriage was wait,
Ing for us. II was very dark when We
reached our home. and saw nothing
Of It till stood In the hall Then
caught at banister to prevent my
falling.
was In the house had left more
than ten years before with blighted
heart
MY DEAR exclaimed my husband.
starting toward me.
But In a twinkling I had recovered
myself. And what had enabled me to
do SO? The sudden appearance Of an
object. All. those objects that come to
US! How much more valuable often.
times than realization, I must at leas;
for the present spare my good man
the inexpressible pain OF knowing
what he had brought upon me.
Nothing" replied. "A little giddi
ness at having been SO long rolling at
sea-
Nothing you don't like is theref"
he asked anxiously.
"On the contrary. am very well
pleased Let us zee the rest OF IT,"
He took me into every room In the
house. a house that had been sold
twice since J had parted with II and
both times with the furniture includ
ed Not for the world would ] have
betrayed that these rooms. closets. cor.