The daily Alaskan., 1917-11-16

 saw me rush to the rail they had the scare of their lives. They thought was going to jump over after him. They reached me just as crumpled up on the deck.
 The first thing l remember hearing was the voice of a seaman who had been sent on an errand for the medic"
 "A woman makes h-l of a soldier" be was complaining. "If they ever got out in a good. stiff battle and things began to look tough for them the whole d-d army would go to work and faint"
 What are you blowin' about?" said one Of my personal guards. who was always willing to give me all the best of 1t. I was his prisoner, and he was a soldier and didn't want an outsider picking on me "A lot of license you have to bawl out somebody. That time the boys kidded you and said they were going to draft the sailors into tho army and send them out first l thought you hAd the ague.'
 'T wasn't reelin' well. had chill.'
 'Jh huh! A chill in your feet; that's what you had"
 "WeE. maybe I did. A guys got right to bis own Ideas about fghtln'. l ain't afraid of no submarines nor any thing else on this here sea, but l ain't hankerin' to go cLasin Germans across No Mans Land nor none O them strange places. If I'm gonna get mine I want to get it on the ocean,"
 This Is often the case. Sailors who do not know tue meaning of the word fear on the water will back out en- tIrely when 1t cCmCs to fighting on land. They seem 10 be born to the sea. A lot of soldiers hate the water. They would rather fight four years in the army than four days In the navy.
 "The kids all right" said my guard to this sailor, recommending me. "Shc made a darn good doughbOy. If she wants to take flop because her old man has to go out and maybe get bean- ed by a piece of shrapnel or somethin let her do it."
 It all came back to me then why l was here, the gOodby to my husband, the failure of my plans just when It looked as if l were going to get through clean and maybe 20 with him to the front. l guess mOaned.
 "She's coming to-" said the medic" feeling for my pulse. You'd better clear out. all of you I'll give her some tfriug to keep her quiet. She'll feel bet ter after good nights rest"
 I honestly did not know whether wanted to come 10 or not. Life looked pretty hopeless with me back there on the transport not knowing what was coming ofr at the camp. Then l thought of my husband. He told me to walt for him. Well. wouldn't dlsappoint him.
 Since I got back home 1 have heard of several cases where the wives or gweethCarts of boys who have been called away committed suicide. This ia hard to understand. If a woman Is lucky enough to win the love of man who will shoulder a gun and go out and fight for his country and her coun- trv she ought to have enough grit to live for him and do her bit in the meantime. lie wants to come back and find his home or the girl he left behind him waiting to welcome him. This is one of the things which Keep him going, the thought that the sooner 1t Is over the quicker he will get back home to her.
 It didn'E tuke me very long to ind out the captain on the boat suspected might he one of the quitters. From the porthole in my room could LOOK out and see the deck.
 Kept Under Guard.
 4 sailor was walking guard up there. He never took his eyes off the port hole. When be saw me come near the opening he looked mighty worried. The captain thought l might try to jump overheard and drown myself. It would be up to this guard to dive over and rescue me.
 Don't worry" I called to him. I'm not going to do the Dutch, as we say in the army"
 "You'd better not" he grinned. "The water is awful damp this evening. But he kept his eye on the porthoie just the same.
 They brought me everything for din ner they thought would tempt me. ] did not touch 1t. All I did was 70 walk the floor. Most of the time l cried. For five days and nights neY- CT slept or ate a mouthful of food The very sight of 1t choked me. A guard was stationed outside my door and another on the upper deck The one at the door was soldier anu ] the one on deck a sailor, The soldiers