Carrizozo outlook. [volume] (Carrizozo, N.M.) 1910-1945, 1917-11-30

now that behold you | grow drunk
with delight and my lips frame nothing
but words OF admiration for your
beauty. Sol I feast my eyes" He re-
tained his warm clasp OF her fingers,
seeming to envelop her uncomfortably
with his nrdor.
"What is 1t you have to tell met" she
asked him. Withdrawing her hand.
swell ! hardly know where to begin
events have moved 80 swiftly, and
such incredible things have happened.
Even now l am In a daze, for history
IL being made every hour-hlstory for
Mexico, for you, and for me. / bring
you good news and bad news; m
thing to startle you and set your brain
In a whlrl. / planned to send a mes
senger ahead Of me, and then / said:
NO, this Is u crisis therefore no
tongue but mine shall apprlse her, no
hand but mine shall comfort her. Only
a coward shrlnks from the unpleasant (;
! shall tighten her distress and awaken
In her breast new hope, new happl-
ness"
"What do you meant" Alnlre in
qulred, sharply. "You say you bring
bad news2"
The general nodded. an a way, ter
rible, shocklngl And yet l look be-
yond the immediate and see In II a
blessing. So must you. To me 1t
spells the promise Of my unspoken
longlngs, my whispered prayers" Not
ing his hearers growing bewllderment,
he laid n hand Familiarity upon her
arm. mo matter how l tell you, II will
be a blow, for death Is always sud
den It always finds us unprepared."
"DeGth? WHO'S deadf"
"Restraln yourself. Allow for my
cl%umslness."
"Who7 Please tell mel"
someone very close to you and very
dear to you at n time. My knowl-
edge OF your long unhapplness alone
gives me courage to speak"
Alaire raised her flutterlng fingers to
her throat; her eyes were wide as she
said: "You don't mean-Mr. Austin"
Eyes" Longorio scrutlnlzed her
closely. ms II to measure the effect OF
his disclosure. "Senorn, you are free !"
Alaire uttered n breathless exclama-
ton then. feeling his gaze burning In.
to her, turned away, but not before he
had noted her sudden pallor, the
blanching Of her lips.
This unexpected announcement
dnzed her; It scattered her thoughts
and robbed her OF words, but Just what
her dominant emotion was ut the mo-
ment she could not tell. Once her first
glddlness had passed, however, once
the truth had borne In upon her, she
found that she felt no keen anguish,
and certainly no impulse 10 weep.
Rather she experienced n vague horror,
such as the death Of an acquaintance
or OF a familiar relative might evoke,
Ed had been anything but a true hus-
band, and her feeling now was more
for the memory Of the man he had
been, for the boy she had known and
loved, than for the man whose name
she bore.
So he was gone and, Longorlo said,
she was free. II meant much. She
realized dlmly that In this n moment
her whole life had changed. She had
never thought OF this way u OF her
embarrnssments; she had been pre-
pnred, In fact, for anything except this
Deadl II wns deplornhle, for I'D was
young. Once the first shock had passed
AWAY, she became conscious of a deer
pity for the man. and n complete for.
elveness for the misery he had cnused
her. After a time she faced the news.
bearer, and In n strained voice In.
CURED:
GLOW aid It hnppenI Was it-be.
cause OF me7"
mo, mol Rest your mind on that
score. Seel 1 understand your con,
corn and I share your Intimate
thoughts. No, n was an accident, or,
dalned by God. His end was the result
OF his " folly, u gunshot wount
while he was drunk, | believe. Now
you will understand why l said that
bore tldlngs both good and evil, ant
why l, of all people, should be the one
TO lmpart them"
Alaire turned questioning eyes upor
him, as II to fathom his meaning, anL
he answered her with his brilliant
smile. Failing to evoke n response, h,
went on:
Ever since | heard OF II l have re
peated over and over again, 1T Is d
mlrncle II Is the will Of God Come
then, We know each other so well that
we may speak frankly. Let us be hon
est aud pretend to no counterfeit emo
lions. Let US recognize IN this onlS