New Mexico state record. (Santa Fe, N.M.) 1914-19??, 1917-06-15

Ship" he cried out. Its grotesQue
p%erversion Of the facts to say you
haven't"
She smiled at him as she shook her
head. Tve spent too many months
trying to get it and seeing myself fail
oh, so ridiculously mot to know
what I'm talking about, ROddy."
And then, still smiling rather sadly,
she told him what some of the expert
ments had been-some of her attempts
to break into the life he kept locked
away from her. II was angry at first
when / found you keeping me out"
she said. "angry and hurt. l used to
cry about it. And her l saw it wasn't
your fault. That's how l discovered
friendship had to be earned"
But her power to maintain that atti-
tude Of grave detachment was about
spent. The passion mounted in her
voice and In her eyes as she went on.
"You thought my mind had got full of
wild ideas-the wild Idea l was pulling
you down from something free and fine
that you had been, to something that
you despised yourself for being and
had to try to deny you were. You
were wrong about that, ROddy.
II did have an obsession, but It
wasn't the thing you thought. 1t was
an Obsession that kept me quiet, and
cOntented and happy. and willing to
wait in spite of everything. The OBJ
session was that none of those things
mattered because q big miracle was
coming that was going to change 1t all.
l was going to have a job at last-a
job that was just as real as yours
the job of being a mother"
Her voice broke In a fierce, sharp
laugh over the word, but she got
1t back in control again.
II was going to have a baby to keep
alive with my own care. There was
going to be responsibility and hard
work, things that demanded courage
and endurance and sacrifice. I could
earn your friendship with that, l said.
That vas the real Obsession, Roddy,
and 1t never really died until tonight.
Well, 1 suppose l can't complain. It's
over, that's the main thing.
"And now, here I am perfectly nor |
NAL and we'll again-as good as ever.
| could pretty clothes again and
start going out just as I did a year ago.
People would admire me, and you'd be
and you'd love me as much
rs ever, and 1t would all be like the
1t was last year, except for
thing. The n thing is that IL ]
10 that, I'll know this time what
'eally am"
With a dangerous light Of anger in
lis eyes, he said quietly: Its perfect
Y outrageous that you should talk like
hat, and I'll ask you never to do 1t
After ten seconds Of silence, she
rent on: "Why, Roddy. I've heard you
me a hundred times. Not the
GU that's my lover. The other you
all over the universe to Barry
AXE. You've described the woman
never been trained nor taught
disciplined; who's been brought up
oft, with the bloom on, for the pur-
ose Of making her manageable
never found her job in marriage,
Tho doesn't cook, nor sew, nor spin,
even take care Of her own chill
rem the woman who uses her charm
, save her from having to do hard,
gly things, and keep her In luxury. .
o you remember what you've called
er, Roddyf
II didn't understand any of that
hen you married me, Roddy; 1t was !
lst like a dream to meNlike q fairy
DRY come true. But I understand I
DIV. How can you be sure. knowing =
lat my position In the world, my {
lends, oh, the very clothes on my
lex, and the roof we my head, are
pendent on your love-how are you !
ling to be sure that my love for you '