Evening star. [volume] (Washington, D.C.) 1854-1972, 1916-11-19

like to know that. 1t would be SO restful
to think of you there. But what, if there,
are you thinking about? About me, at
all? | don't want you to think about me,
but I'd die if knew you did not think
about me.
don't want you to be worried, dear
you. l won't have you unhappy. You
said once, isn't it possible to care a little
without caring too much?" Now I'm
going to ask you: isn't it possible for YOU
to think of me little without thinking
too much?" If you could remember some
Of those evenings on the ride to Nice
even if with a smile-that would be better
than nothing. If you could remember
that last night before we got to Nice,
when-when l looked up at you and
something almost leaped from my eyes
to yours. If you could remember that
with just little knowledge of what it
meant-not enough to make you I'M
happy, but enough to make you want to
see me again. Could you do that without
getting uncomfortable without mixing
up your schedule?
| cried little right there, Monte. 1t
was silly thing to do. But you're alone
in Paris, where we were together, and I'm
alone here.
If you had only said, We'll quit this
child's play. You'll come with me and
We'll make home and settle down, like
Chic" I'd have been good wife to you,
Monte-honest, l would-if you'd done
like that any time before l met Peter and
became ashamed. Up to that point I'd
have gone with you if you had loved me
enough to take me. Only, you didn't love
me. That was the trouble, Monte. I'd
made you think | did not want to be
loved. Then l made you think | wasn't
worth loving. Then, when Peter came
and made me see-why, then it was
too late.
But you don't know. and never will
know, what good wife I'd have been.
Though should have tried to lead you
little, too should have watched over
you and been at your command, but /
should have tried to guide you into doing
something worth while.
Perhaps we could have done something
together worth while. You have great
deal of money. Monte, and l have
great deal. We have more than is good for
us. think if we had worked together we
could have done something for other
people with it. | never thought of that
until lately; but the other evening, after
you had been talking about your days in
college, lay awake in bed thinking how
fine it would be if we could do something
for some of the young fellows there now
who do not have money enough. | i'm
agined myself going back to Cambridge
with you some day and calling on the
president or the dean, and hearing you say
to him:
Madame Covington and Ihave decided
that we want to help every year one or
more young men needing help. If you will
send to us those you approve of, we will
lend them enough to finish their course
thought it would be better to lend the
money than give it to them, because they
would feel better about it. And they
could be as long as they wished in paying
it back, or if they fell into hard luck need
never pay it back.
So every year we would start as many
as we could, each of us paying half. They
would come to us. and we would get to
know them, and we would watch them
through, and after that watch them fight
the good fight And thew would come to