The Jasper weekly courier. [volume] (Jasper, Ind.) 1858-1922, 1915-06-11


out mere IN the sun ana think thinrs
over. And gradually | seemed 10 work
things out IN my mind. and at nrst |
was reconciled. and then happy. and
now am just like a girl In mind
again.
You sec. as I was saying. folks are
coming back 10 belief. though Il Is not
the old certainty Now ! never re
gretted marrying Jim. and | hope and
am sure that l shall meet him again,
and that whatever there vas OF com
mon interest and affection between Us
will be renewed But that doesn't
shut me out from Tom.
Now suppose had married Tom
Would the old romance. which exists
still. in spite Of my seventy eight
years. continue? or woaid II have
been FILTERED away with the cares OF
life. the bearing and rearing OF my
children. the friction OF things and the
struggles? think It would have
been.
That seems the strange thing about
life-the moment you begin to realize
happiness you lose it, IL all consists
in the looking backward or looking
forward
Now. what an adventure life ought
10 be. and was. and is becoming
again, with the old faith coming back
10 US Because I am quite sure that
II is this youth in our hearts. which
never dies, no matter how old We are.
that is 10 be realized in the life TO
come. u am quite sure that then at
last. we shall ind the happiness which
We all try so hard TO catch and some
how miss.
Well, then. does anyone mean TO tell
me that my heart won't be big enough
TO hold both my husband and Tom. in
an existence where there is no marry
ing or giving in marriage? 1t seems
to me that there one will have all the
romance OF girlhood and all the joys
OF being a mother. and a grandmother
too.
have put this idea into words
rather crudely. not being a writer:
but. anyhow. that was my conclusion.
and l told Tom about it. You can't
imagine how pleased il made me TO
know that he understood
THAT is just how ] have been feel
ing. my dear" he told me. You see.
when ! heard you we're married life
seemed impossible for me But by
and by I began TO find out that it has
got 10 be lived. and tried TO live il.
My wife and I were very happy to-
gether And I thought often that if
it had been you our children would
have been different souls"
Yes" told him. Il should be
dreadfully unhappy without Polly and
Dora and Mark and Philip and the
two boys in Los Angeles"
But now We have each other as
well as our own" he answered.
| closed my eyes, becgose | wanted
70 think l was casting over In my
mind the different women I knew. and
il seemed to me that whether they had
married the right man or the wrong
man it seemed pretty we'll TO even
itself out. And I thought Of those
who had never married at all. and
what a load OF experience there must
be waiting for them in the next life.
For my part. Tom" said. Il
would not have IL any different. am
so glad never married you-and |
used 10 think my heart was broken.
Same here" he answered. squeeZ-
ing my hand. and then / saw a couple
who were passing along the street
look up and smile at US
I'll be over tomorrow about the
same time" said Tom. getting up and
taking on his hat with the sweeping
gesture he used TO use. watched him
walk away toward his cottage How
pleasant IL is TO be alive. | thought
And how pleasant it is TO be an old
woman. with all ones troubles lived
through already.