The Seattle star. [volume] (Seattle, Wash.) 1899-1947, 1915-08-11

things. We cling To the Ehos,s OF
yesterdays and keep our hearts
bleeding and our hands empty be-
cause We keep lying 10 ourselves
trying TO make ourselves think that
Il Is not over.
II I should say this TO any one Of
my friends she or even he would
say that was not only hard
hearted, but very selfish and very
materiaiistle.
Am |. little book
Is Il hard.hearted TO wish for
happiness instead OF sorrow-for
capabilities and emotions that make
life worth living IS long as we must
live7 Is Il selfish to say: NO one
can take away from mo the Joy %
having had those moments OF
ecstasy that must como 10 most OF
US" My thoughts 60 back 10 tina,
night before my marriage and |
know that as one OF the most bliss
ful hours Of my existence. II could
not last. but other blissful hours
have come--and gone.
Tonight. as I ait here and talk TO
you. little book. am In most
pessimistic mood. When Dick came
home Che did not arrive until dinner
tims) the first words he said were:
Has Kitty gone"
Yes. she went this morning.
Il hope she will never come
again. because II she does. I shall
not be In this house while she Is
here"
Even dear Aunt Mary could not
keep still at this.
Why. Dick" she expostulated
Don't You think you are little un.
reasonable Kitty only comes over
about once or twice year and
stays so short time. Margie likes
her"
my mind" answered Dick In the
curtest tones he had ever used to
Aunt Mary.
NO" I put in bitterly. the mere
fact that you might please me
would never make you change your
mind or exercise the slightest self
denial" left the table. felt that
my food would choke me.
Aunt MARY and Dick finished
their dinners In silence and Dick
went out, closing the door with an
ostentatious bang. He has not re-
turned yet.
BY what alchemy does marriage
change a man into selfish. I'M
reasoning tyrant. little book7
Dick Is Just fine II ! do every
thing he wants me to do and don't
question anything he does.
Is there a woman who In this sort
OF a seif-effacing wife today. and
are there any men who do not ex-
pect their wives TO be such passive
pieces OF house furniture? Even
Harry Symone. who has had his
lesson with Eiiene and the twins.
sometimes shows the same arrogant
disposition he exhibited before he
shattered the eleventh command.
ment in getting found out.
| wonder what Dick would do II
every time | did not Just like his
manner. I would flounce out OF the
house with an air that home was so
unpleasant that ! could not stay
in II.
I sometimes think Dick wishes he
we're not married. ] think he has
grown tired Of the responsibility.
The last year with my sickness
has been very expensive. had
saved a little money from my al
lowance, but most Of It has gone in
the last two months, as Dick told
me that our dividends would not pay
the interest and make our usual
payment on stock this year. so let
him have a thousand dollars. Next
year / hope he will have the stock
paid for Altho he did not say so. ]
am sure he thought my two new
gowns were useless extravagances.
Isn't II queer. little book. that
what woman spends on clothes a
man always thinks extravagant.
while what he spends for cigars, ex-
pensive lunches and drink be thinks
part OF the necessities OF life7
ITO be continued tomorrow