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The times-herald. [volume] (Burns, Harney County, Or.) 1896-1929, 1915-04-10
CHAPTER XVI.
Make-Belleve.

Make Believe.
For upwards of three-quarters OF an
hour OF that golden morning which fol
lowed the night OF his return to New
York. Mr.. Law was permitted to es'
TEEN himself le AapLlest of mortals.
And inasmuch as this Is not only q
longer uninterrupted term OF happi;
ness than is humanity common but ID
more OF that emotion than ordinarily
leavens the whole OF lifetime, Alan
was perhaps TO be envied. even though
disillusionment when II came was sud,
den. sharp, and to him unspeakably
shocking--a swift, unpresaged plungd
from sunlit peaks OF supreme content
to the black depths OF bleak Aver,
nus Of despair.
The beginning of the period waa
synchronous with the slam OF a taxi,
cab door that shut away superfluoua
world from the company OF two who
loved
The sound spelled safety as we'll az
success in Alan's understanding.
The car slipped smoothly away from
the curb. pursued only by little gust
OF semi-ironic cheers from the little
company OF working men who had wit.
messed as well as measurably partici.
pated in the putative elopement from
the house OF Trine.
Yigilant for any indication that their
evasion had had witness in that
strange home of deathless hatred.
Alan watched II through the little
window in the back of the cab until
corner blotted out the vision OF It:
then with q sigh OF relief sank down
by the side OF the woman to whom his
every thought. impulse and emotion
were dedicated.
'Rose!" he whispered, and tenta.
lively touched one OF the hands that
lay clenched in her lap.
She responded with never a sign to
indicate consciousness either OF his
touch or his whisper.
And reminding himself OF the strain
imposed upon her by the experience
through which they had Just passed.
Alan excused her unresponsiveness on
grounds OF reaction. and for the time
felt constrained to let his sweetheart
rest and regain her normal poise:
there was bliss enough for him In tho
consciousness that he had won her
safely away. that nothing now more
than a short hours drive across town
and by ferry across the Hudson stood
between them and the marriage that
should prove the contamination OF all
their trials Barring accident!
Alan had too often suffered the pen.
atty OF disappointment for over-lndul
gence in this failing OF his for depreci
ating the unforeseen. not TO make the
mental reservation, Barring acci
dents!" with little shiver OF dread
Had any OF Trine's household been
cognizant OF his daughters escape,
Alan argued. Interference must have
been instant
Despite the reassurins aspect, the
preoccupation Of his companion SC
wore upon him that he was presently
no longer able to refrain from disturb |
ing her.
"Rose!" he begged again, closing a |
hand tenderly over hers. Dearest
girl. don't worry another Instant Do |
calm yourself: remember we are safe
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chance 10 move aside. but seized him
80 fiercely by the wrists that he In
stinctlvoly lifted to protect himself.
and she fairly threw him half dozen
feet from her He brought up with
n crash against the wall even as the
door slammed behind the girl,
When Alan. the frat TO recover.
gained the sidewalk. she was already
In the taxicab. Whatever reward she
had promised the man. he whipped his
machine away as II from the fear OF
sudden death.
And dartlng from the house hard
on the minister's heels, Marrophat
loaped into his own car and, aa II he
had not heard her threat or received
substantial proof Of her oarnestnoss,
tore on In pursuit.
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| surprise had gained the closed door
before they recovered and sought to
stay him.
Indifferent TO them all. he shook the
knob and shouted: "Rosel Rosel"
Her cry came back TO him, muf'
fed scream; "Alani Helpl Helpi"
Backing away with n mad idea OF
throwing himself bodily against the
door and breaking II down. he was sud
denly confronted by bideous mask Of
humanity-faco Of man all misshapen,
bruised and swollen and dlsfigured
with smears OF dried blood and dirty
bandage round his temples. but none
the less vaguely recognizable.
The words that etroamod from It's
distorted lips drove recognition home
Gee, fellers. lookt who's herol II
II amt tn guy what threw mo off'n
that girdor this mornin'. Stand back
and let me kill th'--"
Without the hesitation OF u heart
beat Alan swung heavily for the thugs
Jaw. The blow went solidly home.
The man fell like a poled OK.
Pandemonium ensued. Rallying to
their comrade, the rufiians attacked
Alan with one mind and one intent.
Murder would have been done then
and there had II not been for n rotten
banister.rail. which gave way, precipl-
tating the lot to the ground floor Of
the hallway.
simultaneously the lamp on the wall
was struck from It's bracket and
crashed TO the floor, It's glass we'll
breaking and looslng n food OF kero.
seno 20 receive the burning wick. The
explosion followed instantly. In
trice the hallway was lake OF burn.
ing oil. and hungry flames were lick.
Ing up the rotting wallpaper and eat.
ing into decayed bassboards aud stair
treads.
still nghting like n madman. con.
testing every foot OF the way. Alan
was borne down the hall and out OF
the front door. A scream OF "Flre"
greeted him aB he reeled out info the
open. II was echoed by dozen
throats.
The doorway yomited men and
women OF the tenement They choked
II for time. blocking both egrcss and
ingress. by tho time they broke out
and left the way clear solid wall OF
flame stood behind II.
Thrice Alan esBaycd 10 pass that
barrier OF fire. and thrice II threw him
back. Then. struggling and kicking
TO release himself and try again, he
was seized by n brace OF able. bodied
policemen and rushed 6fty feet from
the house before let go.
Lack OF breath checked him momon.
tRrily.
. lie looked up. dashing from his
smarting eyes tears drawn by the
sitting clouds OF smoke, and saw
vaguely ut the second STORY window n
woman leaning out and shrieking for
help.
That II was hopeless 10 attempt the
staircase he well knew. Drawing
aside. ho endeavored 10 come 10 his |
sober senses. and cast about for some |
more feasible way to effect the rescue
of his Rose.
The tenement occupied one corner
of narrow street. Directly opposite.
, storage warehouse stood upon the
other corner, Before this last was the
common landing stage for truck de.
iveriV. protected by shed roof.
And. suspended from timber that
Doercd out over the caves. IA holsting
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now; we fooled them handily-thanks
TO your faith and bravery, sweetheart!
and everything is going to be vol
with US from now on. over In Jersey
the minister is waiting now to marry
US; and down at the White Star dock
the boat is waiting that is to carry US
on TO England the moment we're mar.
ried. Think OF that-and that | love
you. Nothing can possibly break the
strength OF that combination"
For another minute she rested as
she had ever since sinking into her
corner OF the taxicab-m moVeless, taut,
unresponsive.
Then a long sigh shook her to her
very heart and Of sudden the small
fist In Alan's grasp relaxed and her
face turned to his like a flower TO
the sun, face transhgured, its lips
now soft and yielding, its eyes un.
closed ahd smiling into his a smile
all misty with unshed tears.
Alan" she breathed gently. ut
cant be true! I'm trying so hard 10
believe-but all the while ! know II
can't be truel"
He converted a skeptlc with the
mute eloquenee OF his lips
Head upon his shoulder. the girl
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CHAPTER XVII.
The Ring.


Theirs waa the Last vehicle TO swine
between the gates before these last
were closed.
And this was quite as well; for Alan.
rising for one last backward glance
through the resr window, started in.
voluntarily and clicked upon an ex.
clamation when H. deserted u power.
ful touring car tearing madiy toward
the ferry-house, its one passenger hal.
rising from the front seat. beside the
driver. and exhibiting q countenanca
purple with coDgested chagrin as he
saw his car barred out OF the carriag q
entrance.
Quickly sensitive to his emotion, the
girl caught nerycuGly at Alan's hand.
What is II. dear?"
"Marrophat." he snapped.
She uttered bushed cry OF dism.. p
Don't be alarmed. however" 10
FASTENED TO comfort her. Hes loGt
the race: the gates are shut--eyen tho
passenger gates-and there must ba
a company spotteT somewhere near by,
for the gateman is Virtuously refusing
to be bribed by roll OF money as
thick as my wrist"
At that Instant the taxicab rolled
aboard the ferry-boal; the deck gates
were closed; q boarse whistle rent the
roaring silence OF The CITY, wJnches
ratified and chains clanked; and tho
boat wore ponderopsly out OF It's slip.
so much for Mr. HarTophatl" Alan
crowed. sitting down. "Pojled again!
He can't stop US nowl"
perhaps :"
Why that perhaps? Why that
toner be demanded sharply, struck
by the foreboding her accents con.
fessed.
This isn't the only ferry. There's
the Pennsylvania and the Lackaw wanna
and by hard driving he might even
manage TO catch the boat that con.
meets with this from the Christopher
street ferry OF the Erjs!"
Impossible! ] don't believe It!
won'ti"
"Let's not" she agreed. "But, Alan
"Yes?"
Promise me-if he should manage
o catch up with us--you won't let him
ak to you. ! mean, don't let him"
mo fear OF that!" he asservated
Iotly. III he tries TO exchange cn9
1ord with mel only wish he would"
She seemed satisfied with that: but
he incident had served nppYeelably 10
hill their spirits. They accomplished
be remainder OF that voyage In a
llence that was no less depressed be-
ause they sat hand IN hand through
ut.
Nor was their taxicab three minutes
ut OF the ferry house on the Jersey
the chauffeur, stimu.
ter by Alanis extravagant promises,
as doing his best to fracture the
'eed laws and escape arrest--when
Ie girls fears were amply justified;
shout from behind drew Alan's head
II OF the window on one side aud the
rls on the other and proved to both
at Marrophat had indeed found some
ay TO make the crossing without
eat delay.
His touring car was within fifty
Irds when they first were aware OF
and Marrophat, standing on the
inning board. was shouting inarticu. '
tely and hourishing an Imperative
md; while the distance between
The times-herald. [volume] (Burns, Harney County, Or.) 1896-1929, 1915-04-10
IN THE COUNTY COURT OF THE
STATE OF OREGON FOR HAIR.
NEY COIINTY

IN THE COUNTY COURT OF THE
STATE OF OREGON FOR HAIR.
NEY COUNTY.
In the matter :; Of the Estate .,r . r,o,,
r. Crews CroHton, Decd. -.
To W. T. Croxton, Mary l., Croxton.
Robert Croxton and Natalie Croxton,
GREETING:
in THE NAME or THE STATE
OF OREGON, you are hereby cited and
required to appear in tho County Court of
the State OF Oregon, for Harney County,
at the Court Room there OF at Bnrns, In
the County Of Harney on Monday, The
10Th day OF March. 1915. at 10 O'Clock
IN the forenoon Of that day, then and
there to show cause, II any exist, why
the Real property, to-wit: ElS NWT |
ana Lots ! and of Sec. 18, Twp. o5 |
81, X - Il. w. NJ, belonging To- said
estate should not be sold.
WITH ESS; The Hon. II. {. Leyens.
Judge OF the County Court of the state
OF Oregon, for the County OF Harnev
with the Seal Of said Court afixed
, IN this lSth day Of Feb, A, d, 1915.
- X, T. IIughet. Clork.
Seai '"' N'''A
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n672) Burns i2s. List No.
NOTICE FOR PUBLICATION
UNITED STATES LAND OFFICE,
nnIna. Orannn Enhrnnru mn tnin

VTTTVI, 7
burns. Oregon. February OH, 1918.
Notice 10 hereby given that the Northern
iaelnc Hallway Company, whose post oiiioe
address 10 ~ Pau, Minnesota, has this nh day
lion 10 select under tho provisions OF the act
OF Congress, approved July !. 1898 100 Stat. bO5,
o5pl A. srtenasd % by the act OF Congress approy-
sw11skI< Sec. 20, Twp 80 g., X. 20 east, W. M.
Serial No. O7677
Any and Az persons claiming adversely the
lands deforibed, or desiring 10 object because
o. the mineIal character Of the land, or any
2ihet reason 70 the difpdsel TO pplicani should
nle thelr amdAyiis OF Pr9tesi in'this once, ON
Or before the 9th day M April, 1915
Wh' FARKk, Register
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NOTICE FOR PUBLICATION.
LATED TRACT. PUBLIC LAND SALE.

Ia
UNITED STATES LAND OFFICE,
Burns, Oregon, February 10, 1915
Notice 10 hereby given that, M directed by
the Commissioner OF the General Land Office
under provision Of Act OF Congress approved
June ~ 1905 lS1 stats, bl7l, pursuant to the ap'
plication OF Corey y. smyth, Serial No O76iB
we VIII ohor at public sale, 10 the highest
bidder. but at not less than $500 per acre, al
10 o'clock A, NJ, on the lith day OF April, iDib.
at this Office tho following tract OF land
WIfswll, HEl4SwA, Sec 2ii NEl<NWlt, SEQ.
20, 4, 80 g., X, 50 E,, ", M.
"This tract 10 ordered into the market on a
showing that the greater portion thereof N
mountainous or too rough for cultivation.
The sale Will not be kept open, but VIII DO
closed whom those present at the hour
named have ceased bidding Tho person mn1.
Ing the highest bid viii be required 10 imme-
dlately pay 10 the receiver the nmOunt hereof
Any persons claiming adversely the above
describe land are advised 20 ille their claims,
or objections, on or before the time designated
Tor sale.
wM FARRE. Register.
BAN MOrBEEsHBAD Receiver
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JOB printing here,
Beat Treatment for con.,ipaiIon.

my daughter used Chamber
lain's Tablets for constipation
with good results and ] can recon-
mend them highly" writes Paul
B. Babin, Brushly, La. For sale
by all dealers.
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IN naddiiion 10 tho oboye. the undersigned
oheis tho hame condition 10000 for ali horses
branded horse- shod bar on both or either Jaw.
Brand 'rrordod In eight counties, Range
llarney Lake nnd Crook counties, Horses
vented when sold.
None but grown horses sold and only sin
rye lunches.
DROWN Fife, Oregon.
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You liked Lucille Love" did
you not? Well. you'll like THE
Trey O'Hearts" better. Tona-
wanna next Wednesday night.
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$500 Reward!

Tho Oregon. Cal.
Live stock Proteo.
tion Association oi
which the under.
signed IL member,
VIII give $1,000. Oh
reward for evi.
dence leading 10
the arrest and con-
yicti0n Of any par
~ or parties steal
Ing horses, cattle
or mules belonging
10 any Of its mem.
The day book. [volume] (Chicago, Ill.) 1911-1917, 1915-02-04

A FREQUENT CALLER
"Iave you ever been to this court
before, sir "
Eyes, sir; l have been here often"
"Ha, ha! Been here often, have
you? Now, tell the Court Vhat for"
Ia. well, l have been here at least a
half dozen times to try and collect
that tailOr's bill you owe me-"
r; FILLING A PRESCRIPTION
"Your wife needs rides'in the open
air"
IAN right, doc, I'll drop word
mong the real estate agents that
81 might look at property in the
suburbs. - Louisville Courier-Jour-
nal
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WW
&S#9 .
n. y.-there is a lady up on river
side drive that keeps 4 maids, and
she is very partickler about them.
eVry time n Of them fades away
and she has to hire another she asks
more questions than a census man.
witch being the case she had a very
unpleasant experience a few days
ago.
she had teIefoned to a Employment
agency for a girl and pritty soon one
came
this gerl wasent no chickin and
she had a kind of a bad news look
in one eye
in the uther eye nobody could tell
what kind Of a look she had, because
it was out Of bisness, it looked like
sumboddy had slammed her with a
key of nails
well, this dame looked at the
smoked lamp, and she dident hardly
know what to say, becos she dident
want to hurt the gerl's feelings, and
yet she had to think up some reason
why she dident want her
so she has a bright idea how to let
the gerl down easy and she says
now my dear, first of all, i must
ask you if you are married, becos /
never take anybody that is
no, hoIers, the girl, i amt married,
i don't blaim you for asking, becos
you probly know far better than /
what married life means, but i got
this here sinner by humping into a
door, good morning lady!
and she departed
FL
DISCOVERED
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oVERTAXED
about ChaWie "

"Heah about Chawlie
. "No. What's wrong about him?"
Brain fevah."
"My word! What caused it,"
Trying to roll a cigarette in a high
Wind."-CleVeland Plain Dealer.
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MARSHALLTON's SOCIAL SIDE.

Special 10 THE EVENING JOURNAL |
MAESHALLION. Del, Jan. 30
Newark Lodge, No. 239, J. @. G.. T., held
an entertainment and box social in the
lodge room in Centre Hall ON saturday
Mrs William Benson aud son. Ray
mond and Miss Gertrude T.. Edmanson
were visitors at the home of Miss Mary
4. Little recently Mrs Mary Nestey
and children. OF near Jacksonville, Fla,
have arrived 30 make their home
with Robert Elliott Mrs. Il. y. Con-
over and daughter, Kathleen. were re-
cent visitors a. the home of Miss Mary
r.. Little Mrs Alpheus Pcnnock and
Mrs Isabel Higgins were recent visitors
a. the home Of Mr.. and Mrs. Jacob
Moore Miss Anna T.. Wecr, of near
Newport. spent the week end rs the
guest of Miss Mary T. Littlc-Mrs. Bcr-
tina Met allistcr and children, of New
port. spent the week end at the home
Of Mr. and Mrs. j. Leslie McCallistcr
Miss Erma Pcnnock has returned 10 her
home after spending several weeks a.
the guest OF Virginia relativcs-Lce G.
Dhillias. OF near Newark. was recent
visitor at the home Of Harry G.. Littl'
Miss Mary l.. Patterson Is spending
several weeks as a guest at the hom,
of her sister, Mrs. Georgia Townsend
in dclphia-burricl Crompton, o
81. Georges, was o recent visitor at thl
home of Mr. and Mrs Edward A. Wee
Miss Margaret T.. steele was reccn
visitor al the home OF Mrs. Arthur
Alaclary.
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that JAR OF MUSTEROLE
ON THE BATH ROOM Shelf
Has believed Pain for Every Ono IN
the Family.

When little Susie bad the Group,
when johnny got his feet wet and
caught cold; when Father spraincd his
tnros when Granny's rheumatism both
cred her
That jar of Mi STEROLE was right
there 90 give relief and comfort
MisItROLE Is clean. white oiut-
mont. made with oil of mustard II will
not blister like a mustard plaster.
quick relief for Sore Throat. Rron
lchitis lonsiliiit. Group Stn Nceh
4 isthma. Neuralgia. licndacle. Conge..
tion. plcurisy. rheumatism. Lumhael,
/ Pains and Aches of the Back or Joint =.
spraiur Sore Alnscie-. Bruises. Chit.
hlain.. Frosted Feet. Colds on tine Giles;
80 often prevent pneumonia Noth.
ing lile MDsfERoLE tor croupy chill
dren.
~ Your druggist, in 25c and soc jars
and "a special large hospital sizc fol
$3.50
BE- sure Won get the genuine MUS
rEGOLE. Refuse limitations get uha
vou ask for The Mnstcrolc COMPANY
Cleveland Ohio.
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ELkTON NEWS NOTES.

Special 10 i!ls ENENlNG JOURNAL
ELKTON. Md. Jan. 80. Rising Sun,
Cecil county. seems favorable Soc
iion for the raising of fancy poultry.
r. N Mcdowell has lately taken eight
prizes mt the York. i'a. poultry SHOW,
and ten dollar silver cup besides.
Miss Bertha Tyson of Rising Sun, is
a ucicd poultry raiscr. and has fire.
ouontly won prizes on Wild turkeys.
Tho revival services in The Elllfon
Methodist Episcopal Church are draw
ing large crowds nightly.
While cutting wood near Kinks
MiilA Landon Carroll caught his
aNc in the branches of "a tree. causing
him TO strike his foot
Joshua T. Mckay. of Baltimore, was
an Ilkton visitor on Thursday John
+. johnson. Of North East was in town
one day this Week.-Mrs. Susan Vim
bic OF Philadelphia was a recent Elk
ton visitor Mrs. julius W. Clayton OF
Chesapeake City has returned from
a visit TO Philadelphia. William w
Thompson of Philadelphia. was here
on Saturday Mrs. Ida Bouchelle OF
Chesapeake City, is visiting relatives
noar Nirkwood Mrs. Robert G.. Thack.
cry has returned from "A visit TO Phila.
dclphia relatives Roger Williams o
Thurmont, Md. is visiting his mother
Mrs. Laura Williams. of the Secont
district
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snclM Ar sr. GEnRGES.

Special 90 THE EVENING JOURNAL.
ST GEORGES Del Jan. 30 \
rariy was giyen at the home Of James
i. Moore. near hero. last week, ia
honor of Misses Ednu Swan and Ada
truuuu fh0sc present besides Tin"
Misses swan ara Cannon wore.
misses Boasic Elga ana Lucy Lcster,
Viola Carrov. Florence Matthews.
Josephine Wccr Harriet Lester,
Naric Neville. Nellie Simmons. Nellie
Cros iand. ista Grassland. John But
icf edward Gam. fa 5mond Reynolds.
RALPH ShiFrry. Irving Sparks, Walter
rr1an Ralph Turner. George Bender,
Norman Sparks Burrol Crumpton.
Norman Bender. Roland Evans, Wiz
Fam ConOWay. Raymond Matthews,
Frederick Nelson. Nelson Sparks ani
others.
Tho Presbyterian supper will be
held this evening in-thc Gam build
irg.
variety shower was given for
Mr. and Mrs Roscoe Walker on their
wedding anniversary on next Tues
day evening az the home Of their
father. Freeman Walker. near here.
A "Ground Hog supper will be
given at the homo of John W. Car
row on Tuesday evening. February O.
for the benefit Of the ST. Georges NJ
= Church.
pic social will be given at the
home Of Mrs. Harvey Reynolds on
Tuesday evening. February 9. boy th'
women OF the M lc Church
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cold looked cuddo
into for the rest Of the night She sped tho open door Of the oven and at
jumped and nugged down where
al night and didn't wake until cook shut the oven door the monns
Of her hiding place but When she tried she found
beside What should she
Cookwa busy andd
4
breakfast and the
nu (
SNOWFALL the knocking all the
to both with the yellow
around the trying get rid Of tho sticky
~ andco a cloth ipe up her floor
slept the
didn't wake until cook hut the oven door the morning
opened the door,
scodng she deserved for cook really
anything had happened 70
her about the stove for
can't e.. lie under & dry
when She has ccno the wet cold
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HENLOPEN LIGHT NOT
IN DANGER OF falling

WASHINGTON, Jan. 80. There is
no immediate danger TO the light
house at Cape Hcnlopen was The an
nouncement made at the Bureau Of
Lighthouses yesterday. The heavy
storms in the last few years under
mined the structure. and a heavy re-
tanning wall was built Since that
time no danger TO the lighthouse has
been felt, although the storm last
September washed away part of the
wall.
The bureau is keeping close watch
of the situation and has no report
that there is any danger Of the light
being injured.
Evening journal., 1915-01-30

NTEW YORK to San Francisco
" in a fifteenth of second A
few hours since, the voice Of man,
for the first time in history, Ieaped
in single bound from the Atlantic
to the Pacific! Thus have the
dreams of the early telephone pio-
neers come true
What a short time it seems since
Alexander Graham Bell heard the
voice of his assistant, Watson, come
feebly over fsoo miles Of a0re from
Cambridge TO Boston. Within the
week, DIR. Bells voice has answered
that same Watson's voice over 500
miles Of line from one coast TO the other.
Down swept that voice over the
copper wires from New York through
the outskirts of Philadelphia, up and
down over the Alleghenies into Pitts
burgh and on past the windy city of
Chicago. across the plains through
Omaha and up over the snow-capped
peaks to Denver. Then on, swifter
than light to Salt Lake City and out
across the foothills of the Rockies TO
the Golden Gate City of the Pacific
That voice of forty years ago
was anxious and hesitant. This