The citizen. (Frederick City, Md.) 1895-1923, 1915-05-21
btAPTER xvIIl-continued.

N eaR 0OCu VOky 4CtSE uSaLU. SUI.
aust have ended the struggle In
was engaged. had not this
Iage Of actual and unpublished
ome to ease my conscience.
aoviile was worthy of death,
tfsng SO. should receive the full
pflf Of his deed. ] need hesitate
atgar
u night ! slept. But there came
ut when ! did not. After the pen.
had been paid and to most mems
hat episode was over. I turned
: list page Of that volume OF SLOW
bution which Is the doom OF the
Who sins from impulse. and has
recoil OF bis own nature to face
stlessly to the end OF his days.
tle was In his grave. was alive.
nile had shot man for his money.
struck a man down'in my wrath.
fille's widow and little child must
cold and unsympathetic world.
small means and disgrace rising,
wall. between them and social
pathy. II not between them and
Ectual means Of living.
Bver's future faced him untouched
shadow lay across his path to hin.
his happiness or to mar bis
hoes.
he results we're unequal began
zee them so. and feel the gnawing
that deathless worm whose raw.
lay waste the breast, while hand
brain fulfill their routine OF work.
though all were we'll and the foun-
ions of life mistaken.
suffered as only towards suffer I
on to honor: held on to home:
|held on to Oliver. but with misery
Fmy companion and a self.contempt
|llch nothing could abate Each time
trQnnted the bench felt a tug at
Arm as OF visible. restraining
Vince Each time returned to my
fe and met the clear eye OF Oliver
ming upon me with its ever grow.
.b<promise OF future comradeship. I
a rebellion against my
kgn lhappiness which opened my eyes
D. ny own nature and it's inevitable
1emlnd ! must give up Oliver. or
'1iel' my honors. make a full confes.
ZION and accept whatever conse-
|Queres 1t might bring. am proud
+aN and the latter alternative was be-
|hd me could forego pleasure.
iavel. social intercourse. and even
Ne companionship of the one being in
Nom all my hopes centered. but
pnld not. Of my own volition. pass
1om the Judges bench to the felon's
ell There struck the immovable-
Ne impossible
n decided In one awful night OF re-
Iqhciation that I would send Oliver
ut Of my life
The next day told him abruptly
hurting him to spare myself
1at had decided after long and ma.
me thought to yield to his desire for
and that would start him
b his career and maintain him in 1t
n three years if he would subscribe
. the following conditions:
They were the hardest a loving IA
nj ever imposed upon a dutiful and
oging son
First. he was to leave home immedi
Aey within a few hours In
Second. he was to regard all rela
pms between US as finished: we were
be strangers henceforth in everv
articu'ar save that Of the money OBJ
'sption already mentioned
Third. he was never to acknowledge
pig compact or to cast any slur upon
ne father whose reasons for this ap.
Rrentiy unnatural conduct were quite
''sspnaected with any fault of his or
ny desire to punish or reprove
Eourth. he was to pray for his IA
ff every night of his life before he
|spt
was this last a confession? Had I
|etnt II to be such? II so. II missed
point 1t awed but did not frighten
= Pad to contend with his compunc-
As. as well as with grief and dis
q II was an hour OF struggle on
part and of implacable resolution
inc Nothing but such hardness
d lpart would have served me
mE faltered once he would have
re over. and the tale of my sleep
heights been repeated did not
n and when the midnight stroke
through the house that night
'arated by lis peal sin. becIouded
Human past from a future arid
fsolitude and bereft OF the one
Seylon 10 retain which my sin had
hidden
a pecame i father withou, a son-as
II ana az desoiate as though the
rHflon between US were tha, Of
*e ! had merited and SO weakly
i'en' *1I<pr myself the extreme
itNoui rfHn my peace demand
cQuae sing down upon me
9&nces | refused TO