Bryan daily eagle and pilot. [volume] (Bryan, Tex.) 1909-1918, 1914-03-16
"WHAr ! AM MOST AFRAID Of"
Woman Says She Fears She Cannot
Endure Husband Much Longer.

The American Magazine mas Deen
offering prizes for the best letters in
the contest entitled What Am Most
Afraid Of" The prize-winning let
tiers are published in the March num-
Der. The following is an extract from
letter that won first prize:
my husband is a man whom moth
ing suits; no matter how hard we try,
how well we do anything, instead of
praise some fault is always found,
some defect pointed out, until all joy
in accomplishment Is lost. | have
tried to be true helpmate, to hold up
my end and do my part in the build
ing of the home.
my husband has a business paying
sure but moderate dividends, plenty
for us to live upon comfortably and
lay aside something for the future,
but we have always scrimped. could
never make the provisions last long
enough, though not scrap was vast
ed, and | always dreaded to tell him
when anything was needed for the
family. Often I have managed to
earn little money, and have bought
extra provisions in order to escape
the inevitable fault-fnding attendant
upon any request for household
wants. | was saving and resourceful
and would have been glad even to
scrmp when necessary, if only little
appreciation had been accorded my
efforts.
"At meals the principal topic of
conversation was the high price OF
every article of food, until all COM
fort was gore and it would seem that
every morsel of food would choke me,
yet tried to put brave face upon
the matter and as often as possible
introduce some other subject.
How the little ones and | would do
the many chores about the house and
make all bright and CHEEKY, hoping to
please papa, but he had always a
grievance, was always fault-finding
and if there could be no possible COM
plant made about things at home, he
would fret about business affairs, the
weather, hard times, what it cost us
to live on. and so on, until, instead OF
looking forward to the Homecoming
of the husband and father, we learned
to dread it and watched his face anX
iously, seldom finding anything writ
ten there but petulance and discon-
tent.
yet he was what would be called
a good husband, with good morals,
just and honest in business
yet sadly lacking in self
control and feeling free to vent all
his discomfort upon his family, often
by slamming of doors and other child
like modes OF expressing his anger.
How could urge self-control upon
my children when the simple an
that the -four or sugar
was out would bring on such an exhi-
bition of temper?
HE was unwilling for me to take
an active part in any church or chart
table organization, begrudging the
time given. and fearing some slight
expense might be incurred.
when / look forward to the time
that my children will have gone out
from the home for good. the dreadful
fear that I will not be able to hold
out comes upon me; the fear that |
shall be tempted to leave it all and go
out from my home and make place
Tor myself, where peace and quiet will
be mine, is constantly before me-the
fear that, after all these years of en-
durance, shall fail, and render of no
avail the long struggle after right liv-
ing. is what I Am Most Afraid Of"