Harrisburg telegraph. [volume] (Harrisburg, Pa.) 1879-1948, 1914-02-18
Florida Limited.
Atlantic Coast Line,

Saturday, Jan. IL.
Dear Helen-Forgive me for not
seeing you before left but that SEEM
ed to be the better way. Everything
is over between Bob and me. This is
FINAL.
Just now do not feel much of any
thing. The emotions of the past week
have left me almost without feeling.
I'm glad to rest, glad to be away from
It all.
All morning I've been gazing out at
the fields, the farmhouses, the grazing
cattle. The quiet peacefulness of it
ell makes that final scene with Bob
seem so long ago-yet it was only
night before last.
Helen, did not know that a man
could work himself UP into so fierce
q rage. I have never seen such con-
centrated fury. There was one mo-
ment when 1 thought he would strike
me. Oh, I wasn't efraid, don't think
that, but 1t was all such a revelation!
knew he had an ungovernable tenn
per, but 1 had never seen him wholly
lose control of it
l know you thought everything
Astoritz. You left us purposely, that
he might take me home alone. But
we were really nearer when you were
with. u.s. We hardly spoke after you
left. We were both waiting for the
other to make the overtures- and
neither of us did.
But when he helped me from the
cab he asked If he might come the
next night. All that next day l was in
q fever of excitement, confident that
everything would be cleared up in the
long evening we would have together.
Then some old friends of fathers,
whom I had to help entertain, called
that evening. Bob did not have a mo-
ment with me alone until they left
and they stayed until after II. He
was furious. He blamed me for our
lost evening. He was most unreason-
able and / was in no mood to humor
him. 1t Is curious how slight thing
may affect our whole life. If those
people had not called I would not now
be on this train on my way to Florida.
AS 1t was, we quarreled bitterly.
When he left, it was understood that
he would come again tomorrow
evening, and that we would have 1t
out finally then. He came-and we
did have 1t out!
Y He thought he would break my will
just by the sheer force of his rage.
Cl, AO" CdH TWO people WHO love de-
liberately try to hurt each other? Yet
that is what we both did. There was
nothing too cruel for either of us to
say.
You told me that when you were
hurt you could never keep back the
tears, but did not cry. He said /
was monstrously cold and unfeeling,
that I was unwomanly. that-and, oh,
so much more.
If l could only write, would weave
1t all into book or play, and think
1t would comfort me. THE Brute
would be q good title, but I believe
that has been used.
1 wonder if you have ever seen
Warren in the white rage that I saw
Bob in that night. You are so sweet,
so plant, you may never have aroused
the demon in Warren as 1 aroused 1t
in Bob. But we cannot change our
natures. and mine is not the yielding
kind. '-'-t ~
I wish could have seen you before
/ left. 1t may be months before I am
back in New York Father will have
to return, but shall stay until Spring.
and then we may go to Europe, SO you
see 1t IS final.
Write me. Write me soon. Perhaps
If you go abroad again next summer
; we may meet then. Now that you are