The Barre daily times. (Barre, Vt.) 1897-1959, 1914-08-15
An Important
Analysis
BY EUNIcE BLAKE

cnlldren, out III my case, so Tar us my
feelings We're concerned the word
should be halter instead Of altar. Sen
sitive women are liable to collapse on
the eve OF their marriage. And why
not? Every one knows that marriage
is a lottery. But TO say that one will
either draw a prize or blank Is alb
surd. One doesn't draw a blank In
the lottery OF marriage; 1t Is either a
prize or Tartarus.
| confess that as girl / was emo
tional, and / have now eradicated emo
ton from my nature. | had several
offers of marriage and chose John as
the most desirable Of the lot j felt
every confidence in him. My only trou.
Bile was that didn't seem to feel any
different the day after | became en-
gagged to him than the day before.
There was lot of emotion during the
middle day of the three. but somehow
on the third IL seemed to have van
ished.
was frightened. What had done?
Engaged myself to a man whom l did
not lover How could l have felt all
that lovingness-I use the word for
want of a better-I experienced the
day John proposed to me and accept
ed him? From the heavens / had
sunk to a bottomless pit would have
given the world to undo what had
done. why not undo it? Because
there was sort of subconsciousness
In me that was making a ninny OF
myself. How could l, who had re-
sponded to my lovers words and ca
resses one day, tell him the next that
/ had made prodigious mistake?
Besides what assurance had /, should
/ make this confession, that | would
not be as much cast down day later
because / had broken the engagement?
had the good sense to keep away
from John for a couple Of days. at
the end of which time l recovered
from my reaction and wondered at 1t.
Indeed, when / met my fiance again
was back In that emotional condition
commonly called love. Love! In four
letters are described that which is the
foundation of the world. And yet when
we speak of 1t between young persons
who are about to mate think 1t would |
better be called emotional insanity. |
This is not real love. though / admit |
it may be the beginning of real love.
soon recovered my equanimity and
sailed on smoothly for the four months |
Of my engagement | was occupied |
preparing my rousseau, and that kept |
me from asking myself every few
minutes whether or no / was really In
love. think if John had paid bit
OF attention to another girl should
have known quite definitely whether
/ loved him or not. But he was not
that kind of fellow at all. He was
perfectly satisfied with me, and | con-
eealed from him the fact that / was
constantly fighting doubts whether l
loved him well enough to marry him.
/ remained in this condition of men
tai hesitancy till a few days before
the day appointed for the wedding;
then / had a terrible breakdown. /
analysed my feelings thoroughly. and
the analysis was very unsatisfactory.
There is nothing so incapable of analy- ,
sis as love unless it be poem. But |
made what considered number of
analyses, and every one proved more
than the preceding that l i
was about to marry a man for whom 8
had only friendship. /,
resisted the temptation to tell him
20 till I could withstand it no longer, s
hen sent for him. He saw the mo- ]
nent he looked at me that there was t
something the matter.
"What is it, sweetheart he asked
lnxiously.
There was something in the word n
that threw me back on my
hat what was troubling me must come
ut b
II am very miserable" CT
"That's singular. I'm very happy" n
II am afraid don't love you well J, y
nough 10 marry you" l.
He took my avowal in very I'M :
overlike manner. He should have =
round his teeth and tore his hair. He ;, ;,
id nothing of the kind.
"a sort of Stage frightT
"No; have long been in doubt And
,day have analysed my feelings
nd N
I'm what laboratory did you do it,"
'Tn the laboratory Of introspection."
did you put your love into a test No
lbe" m
II suppose that would express 1t Of
m
well, il it didn't turn out to be NJ
We what did it turn out to BET" do
II don't know" 70
1T doesn't matter TO us since il isn't kr
We. I'll countermand the orders Civ
J IN preparation for the wedding. The
rds are out. We can't recall them 4
That's the most terrible thing aboui
Terrible! There's nothing terrible :
that. We were not going to be-
arried TO please these persons. II U
the last moment we find we're going
make a mistake we must withdraw
course"
''of course"
TN 90 at once to countermand the
ders."
he turned TO 60. called TO him.
haven't you forgotten something's"