The citizen. [volume] (Berea, Ky.) 1899-1958, 1913-02-27

epesN 10 ner, W only Tor minute.
Not vet" she snid Il am NOT
WORTHY Of your kindly thoughts.
vish you could forget me-"
Every day now ! was expecting a
Letter from my paper ordering me 70
leave Ogiethorpe. Each morning
r~di N the postoffice No " TO meet my
fs's srlfway. I was In an agony Of
SUSPENSE. ! resolved that n my orders
cAmc before ! had reached some I'm
dsrstanding with Miss Ellen to resign
my post and remain In the vicinity OF
the Pines until ! had either won her
for my wife or else forced her to de
clare herself engaged TO Squire IInw
kins. never believed that she seri
ousiy considered such n step until she
had told me to forget her. Even then
] would not despair. but ! was re-
| solved that II she thought me poor she
should continue TO think me such until
she had become my affianced bride |
fully believed her capable Of marrying
the squire for the sake OF lifting the
mortgage and freeing Rud from the
drudgery that was telling on his health
and. what wns worse. breaking his
spirit. For herself shc did not think
II was for the others. IL had always
been for the others ! had reason to
think that In the matter OF worldly
goods ] was the equal OF the squire.
but had told her Of this ! verify he
Hove that II would have initiated
against me. for she would not sell her
self 10 the man she loved. while she
might sacrifice herself TO one whom
she regarded almost &c en- sced rela
tive. ] resolved to stand my ground
and fight every inch Of II with Squire
Hawkins. and was equally determin.
ed TO tell my love at the earliest mo-
ment. so that there could he no mis-
take as 10 my Intentions.
The opportunity came sooner than I
thought. for. the next day being damp
and chilly. We remained indoors. Bud
alone being forced to face the rain.
Mrs. Turpin bad gone into the kitchen
TO re, warm. she said. for the sitting
room was damp and had for rheuma.
tism. ! was only waiting for the colo
mel TO go for his afternoon nap 10
speak what was In my mind TO Miss
Ellen. Presently she looked up from q
book she was reading and said:
Father there was another OF those
letters copied In the Augusta papers
yesterday"
As heard her words my heart seem.
ed 10 cease pulsaton. had never
known that they had seen these let.
tiers, for they had not spoken OF them
before. probably because they did not
want me TO see them. My face grew
scarlet. and was thankful that the
room was gloomy aud dark.
Yes. Ellen" he said. even some OF
our own people laugh AT US when they
get rich. 40 We cant expect our enc
niles TO do less Have you got the pa.
per. my dearf ! had TO laugh over that
last description OF what we had come
to. II was very. very funny"
Funny! oh. father. to think that
you can see anything funny In such
misery as he depicted. The writer
does not see with the eyes OF gentle
man or else he Is blinded by prejudice
or prosperity. How ! should Ioathe 10
be such a man! did not want you 10
ace this last letter. father. 30 I burnt
the paper. IL was too true. too truew
she cried. and saw her eyes all with
tears.
She laid her book aside and went 10
the window to mend a rent In the lace
curtain. but ! thought more to hide
her feelings from us. The writer
does not sec with the eyes Of a gen
tleman." With that one sentence she
had shattered to pieces every argu.
ment ! had used 10 myself that day
In the room. She had not made use
OF any choice rhetoric. such as ! had
used 10 describe her. nor did she study
the effect Of her phrasing. but with
one natural sentence, spoken from the
was or as she would always think of
me after this I realized how far my
ambition had carried me and how low
my literary instincts. as | had thought
them then. had sunk me. 10 the re-
action l. saw myself as others would |
see me and In my rcmorse believed |
that had sacrificed her for some TEN.
pornry advantage IN my profession. |
And ! had fancied that she would I'M.
derstand. forgetting that her scale Of
honor and truth was rs far above mine
az heaven IL above earth. In the vi.
lence that followed ! suffered life
time Of ordinary humiliation. To lie
unknown and yet denounced was like
being alone with truth. My identity
should he hid no longer. and resolved
10 tell her that II was ! she had de
nounced. As low rs ] seemed nj that |
moment. ] was not 70 low as 10 take
her hand until had confessed all /
The past month rose before me. and |
] asked myself II ! was indeed n gen.
tleman measured from their stand, |
point At any rate. could not remain /
one and be silent
The colonel crossed the room and |
passed out into the hail. ! got up and |
stood leaning on the back OF the chair |
In which ! had been sitting
Miss Ellen" | said. II have some |
thing important Ia say 10 you II Is |
not what you think" for panied ex.