The citizen. [volume] (Berea, Ky.) 1899-1958, 1913-03-06

giveness from Miss Ellen. In my
calmer moments | reviewed my visit
to the Turplns. and the letter which
she so condemned seemed to me to be
my least offense. Though | under
stood her resentment and appreciated
the position she had taken. felt. how
ever. that had made mistake in
| obeying her and now wished that |
| had remained at the Pines and con-
/ fessed everything to Bud. believed
| then. as do now. that he would have
understood the better than Miss Ellen
/ had done and would have pleaded my
cause for me. though | doubt whether
he or any one else Mt that time could
have shaken her determination not TO
admit me to her friendship again.
would wake up each morning re
solved to quit the state that day. but
before noon | would change my mind.
as seemed utterly incapable OF tear
ing myself from the neighborhood OF
the Pines ever looked and longed
for some change OF feeling which
might blunt the edge Of my grief, but
none came, and my love seemed TO
grow stronger each succeeding day.
1t was maddening to think that had
lost her, and what gave this sorrow a
keener edge was the knowledge that !
had forever put II out of my power TO
be OF any service TO her or to lend as
sistance to those she loved ! would
become prey at times to the keenest
pangs of jealousy had no doubt
that the squire would renew bis suit
and | feared that she might be led In
her bitter resentment toward me TO
accept his hrnd in marriage. wrote
her several letters begging for her for
giveness and II she could not grant
me that TO try at least to understand
the feelings which had prompted me
to write the letters which had been the
means Of separating US. told her of
the hopeless state of mind into which
| had fallen and that believed that
my life would be aimless unless she
would touch the magic spring which
would set my blood aglow once more
and arouse the dormant ambition with.
In me TO accomplish something in the
world.
/ wrote on and on. | exhausted my
logic and mental powers to make her
understand. / reviewed my visit to
the Pines at length. from the moment
had met Colonel Turpin TO the last
interview had had with her My first
mistake. | told her, had been in letting
my Introduction TO her and her mother
as q relative Of the Kentucky Palmers
go unchallenged explained how |
believed myself to have been merely a
boarder and the almost fatal mistake
had made In speaking to the colonel
on the subject
Such hospitality | Gas unaccustom.
ed TO, nor do ! now fully understand |
the promptngs OF that kind old heart |
when he invited me TO the Pines |
told her Of my life and OF my work; !
how ! had come into her section with ]
the btterest feelings against IT, My |
one ambition. told her. was to arouse /
a hostile sentiment in New England /
against the political party then In pow.
er In nearly all the southern states |
ulu uOt 'bn'Phl from DpF the SatlS1ac-
ton | had felt when this assignment
had been given me nor my disappoint.
ment when | learned aftprward that
! was not to touch on politics In my
letters told her OF my resolution 10
leave the Pines on the day after had
arrived there. bur how that resolve
melted as snow before the sun when
had seen her ana looked into her eyes:
how step by step she had led me 10
look upon life with n broader and
kindller view ana mad brought me
finally To a full understanding of her
section and her people. and how she
had made me know for the tirst time
what my father meant when he was
wont 10 say that all the two great sec.
tons OF the country needed was TO get
acquainted
The letter which had so offended her
! said, would be he means OF bringing
thousands ~ persons 10 proper ap
preeintion OF her nome land and the
southern chnracter. Just as the facts