The Canon City record with which is consolidated the Canon City cannon., 1913-05-29
Continued From Last Week

Something In me died for ever, /
think, when he spoke to me like that.
He's not like other men and there
aren't any other men on earth but
himl ALI the rest are just bugs or
bats or something worse. And In
not anything myself. There's no ex-
cuse for my living and wish l wasn't
SO healthy and likely to go TO doing
1t. 1t was all over and there was
nothing left for me to live for, and
before l could stop myself buried
my face In my hands.
BILLY asked me to so with him on
this awful whale hunt" l sohbed out
to comfort myself with the thought
that somebody did care for me, re-
Eardless of Just how I was further
embarrassing and complicating my
self In the affairs OF the two men |
had thought I owned and was nov
finding out that l had to give up. l
wish I had been looking at him, for
i felt him start. but he said in his big
friendly voice that is SO much-and
never enough for me.
We'll. why not you and Al come
along and make it a family party. II
that is what suits Bill. the boss?"
II men would Just buy good, sharp.
kitchen knives and cut out women's
hearts in a buslnesslike way 1t would
De SO much kinder of them. Why do
they prefer to use dull weapons that
mash the life out slowly? Everything
is at an end for me tonight and that
blow did It II was a horrible cruel
thing for him to say to me, / know
now that l have been In love with
John Moore for longer than my hon.
or lets me admit and that I'll never
lose anybody else. and that also
have offered myself to him served uI
m every known enticement and hay.
had to be refused at least twice 9
day for a year. A widow can't sa,
abe didn't understand what she wal
doing. even to herself. but-My hu
initiation is complete and the only
thing that can make me ever hold uI
my head Is to puzzle him by-by
HAPPILY marrying Alfred Bennett
and quickl
OF course, he must suspect how
feel about him, for two people
couldn't both be SO ignorant as no
10 see such an enormous thing as my
love for him is. and was the biinc
one. But he must never. never know
that realized 1t, for he is SO gooc
that IL would distress him l mus
Just go on in my foolish way with
him until i can get away. I'll tell
him I'm sorry / was so indignant to-
night and say that think It will be
fine for him to take my Billy away
from me with him. l must smile al
the idea OF having my very soul am
putated. insist that II is the only thing
TO do. and pack up the little soul in
steamer trunk with the smile. Just
smile. that is all, Life demands smiles
from a woman even If she must crush
their perfume from her own heart /:
and she generally has them ready,
Or. Molly. Molly. is 1t for this you
came into the world. twice to give
yourself without love? What differ
euce does 1t make that your arms are
strong and white II they can't clasp
him TO the softness and fragrance y.
your breast? Why are your eyes blue
pools Of love II they are not for his
questioning and what are your rose
Hips for II they quench not his thirst
Yes. know God is very tender
with n woman and / think He under
stands. SO II she crept very close 70
Him and caught at His sleeve 20
steady herself He would be kind to
her until she could go on along her
own steep way. Please. God. never
let him find out, for 1t would hurt him