The Raymer enterprise., 1913-09-18
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at intervals, and now and then the fig.
ures, which had occupied the benches.
passed into the circles Of vaporous II.
Elimination. and passed out of them.
as II they had been crossing the stage
Of theater.
Berry did not move and did not no.
ttce the increasing chill Of the hour or
the moisture beading on her clothes
like wintry rime. She was sunk in an
abyss Of thought. suspended trance
of contemplation, of receptivity to new
ideas. In one hour her basic estimate
Of human nature, her accepted meas
urement Of motives and standards. had
been suddenly upset. Her point of
view was like kaleidoscope, which
is Unexpectedly turned. Sitting mo.
tionless on the bench she saw the fa.
miliar aspect Of life fallen into new
shapes. taking on alien forms.
She realized that Dominick had new.
er been happy with her, and. for the
first time, she understood the gulf be.
tween them. She saw what the life
was that he had wanted to lead, and
that he could have led with the other
woman. 1t would have been that very
form Of existence which Berry had al
ways derided. and thought an outward
expression Of the inward dullness OF
people who had children looked shah
BY, and did not care for money. Now
she felt insure as to whether her
scorn Of 1t was not foolish and unen-
lightened. AS in a sudden forward
shoot Of search.light, she saw them
|-Dominick and Rose-happy in way
she had never dreamed Of being happy.
In world 80 far from hers that she
had never before had clear look at
1t. man and women concentrated up.
on the piece of life that belonged to
them. living passionately for each 9th.
er, Indifferent to all that seemed to
her Of value.
She brought her mental vision back
from this upon herself and felt shaken
and slightly sick. Seeing beyond the
circle of her own experience and SEN
sation for the first time, she would
have said to any companion who
might have shared her thoughts: mo
wonder Dominick didn't get on with
mel" For dispassionately.contem.
platiye moment she saw herself In
Dominick's eyes; she saw their mar
ried life as 1t had been to him., She
felt sorry for both Of them-for him
In his forced acquiescence with the
conditions around him, for herself be-
cause Of her ignorance Of all he had
wanted and expected.
II couldn't be any different" she
whispered to herself. that's the way
am"
She never could be any different.
She was one kind Of woman and Rose
Cannon was another, and Dominick
belonged to Rose Cannon's kind. She
did not know that 1t was so much bet
ter than her kind but 1t was different.
They made her feel like an outsider in
distant world, and the feeling gave
her sensation Of deadly depression.
The burning heat Of resentment that
had made her speak to Rose was gone.
All the burning heats and angers of
the last two months seemed to belong
to the past. An Icy. nostalgia ache Of
loneliness had hold Of her. The accus.
toned sense of intimacy and warm. en-.
joying interest In the world-what we
mean when we talk Of "llving"-had
been completely drawn out Of her.
The cold. biting in to her marrow.
at last woke her to realization Of her
surroundings, and she sat upright.
looking bllnkingly to the right and left
The half-lit plaza lay like lake of
shadow surrounded by circlet OF
light and girdled by noise 1t was like
the brightness and animation OF the