Iowa County democrat. [volume] (Mineral Point, Wis.) 1877-1938, 1913-09-11

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great hol wave when that took came
into his eyes and made me realize Just
exactly what | had been saying IT, him.
about what. and how had said 1t.
stood perfectly still, SHOOK all over like
a leaf and wondered II | would ever bc
able "a raise my eyes FROM the ground
\ dizzy. nauScatcd feeling tor mNSrlt
rose up In mo against myself, and /
was just about 10 turn on my heels and
leave him. / nopcd forever, when he
came over and laid his hand on my
shoulder
Molly" "e said in n voice that might
have come Gown from heaven on dove
wings, You can't for a momrnt feet or
think that don't realize and npprr,
ciatr what YOU have been to the moth.
erlesS little chap, and for life am
yours ut command, a> Ne Is really
thought II would be n relief to You to
have him taken away FROM Nou for just
Il little while right now, and still
think it is best. but not unless Won con
sent You shall have him back when.
ever you are ready for him. and ut all
times both he and are NJ Your service
to the whole Of our kingd~mS lust
think the mHtter over. won't YOU. and
decide what ~ want me Ia doY"
Something IN me died forever. I
think, when he spoke to me Iikr that
He's not like other mon. and there
aren't any other men on earth hul MIN!
All the rest are Just bugs or bats or
something worse And I'm NOT any,
thing myself There's NO excuse for
my living, aud wish wasn't 30
healthy and likely to 20 on dnluo It,
1t was all over. and there was nothing
left tor me to live ton and before
could stop myself | nugird my face In
my hands
BILLY asked me to 80 with him on
this awfu, whale hunt" Sobbcd out
to comfort myself with the thought
that somebody did care for me. regard
less of just how was further embar
RAISING and complicating myself in the
affairs of the two men ! had thought
| owned and was now finding out that
i had to give up | wish | had been
looking at him. for felt him start,
but he said in his big friendly voice
that is so much-and never enough for
me
We'll, Why not you and Al come
along and make 1t family party, IL
! that is what suits Bill, the boss?"
/ If men would just buy good. sharp
/ kitchen knives and cut out women's
/ hearts in businessike way 1t would
be so much kinder of them. Why do
they prefer to use duh weapons that
mash the life out slowly? Everything
is at an end for me tonight, and that
blow did It, 1t was horrible cruel
thing for him to say to me. know
now that have been in love with John
Moore for longer than my honor lets
me admit and that I'll never love any
body else. and that also | have offered
myself to him served up In every
known entiCcmcnt and have to be re-
fused ut least twice day for year.
A widow can't say she didn't under
stand what she was doing, even to her
self, but-my humiliation Is complete,
and the only thing that can make me
ever hold up my head Is to puzzle him
by-by happily marrying Alfred Ben
nett-and quick!
OF course he must suspect how feel
about him. for two people couldn't both
be so ignorant as not to see such an
enormous thing MS my love for him Is.
and ! was the blind one. But he must
never. never know that ever realized
it, for he Is so good that II would dis
treSs him | must 90 on in my foolish
way with him until | can get away.
I'll tell him I'm sorry | was so indlg
nant tonight and gay that | think ii
will be fine for him to take my Billy
away from me with him. must smile
at the idea OF having my very soul am
putated, Insist that II IL the only thing
to do and pack up the little soul In n
steamer trunk with the smile. Just
smile that Is all Life demands smiles
from woman. even II she must crush
their perfume from her own heart,
and she generally has them ready.
Oh Molly. Molly, Is it for this you
came into the world twice to give
yourself without love- What differ
ence does it make that your arms are
strong and white If they can't clasp
him TO the softncss and fragrance Of
your breast? Why are your eyes blue
pools OF love If they are not for his
questioning, and what are your rose
lips for If they quench not his thirst?
Yes. know God is very tender with
woman. and think he understands
so If she crcpt very close 10 him and
caught at his sleeve 10 steady herself
he would be kind TO her until she
could 20 on along her own steep way.
Please, God never let him find ont. for
it would hurt him 10 have hurt me.
Some days are Ike the miracle flow.
ers that open in the garden from plants
you didn't expect to bloom nj all
might have been born. lived and died
without having this one come into my
life. and. now that nave bad ii.
don't know how to write Il except Ia
the crimson Of blood the blue % flame,