The Bridgeport evening farmer., 1912-06-04
1911 by Harper { Bros,

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 If Rung Number One of my social ladder was Miss
 Knox's. can then guess the dance at the Club House was Rung Number Two. It very grand
 Mr. Payne took me- He looked stunning in his dress clothes, but never him stiff. He's always dig ni6ed but somehow-this was different. I wanted him to introduce all of the ladies to me- but he didn't even dance with them. To tell the honest truth and I've got to fess up in my diary though it's get 2 ting little hard to tell MT. Payne any more-the ladies didn't pay much attention to me, but really ;. didn't care, for Mr. Payne brought up many nice
 men that danced every dance, the extras Miss Mays friend of Miss Knox's, very sweet to me, and said I might sit out with her mother when wished. Miss Mays and Mr. Ships went down to sup per with us MT. Shipps is not nice as MT. Payne, but he is lot more intimate. Mir. Payne is SO re- spectful that it scares you MT. Shpps just jollies you to death He thinks I'm good joke, and know he is one so we have lots of fun, but don't think Mr. Payne likes it Do you suppose it isn't lady like? I've watched very carefully, and men all seem alike; they played the game just the same at the < dance as they did at the miners ball
 ' I wore a white organdie dress Miss Knox helped me buy It is very plain, but it cost awful lot. I wore my hair-it's dark brown now-and just natu- rally curly-in knot at the back When looked in the glass I seemed plain and common that l. got some red roses and put big bunch under my ear and. a spray on my shoulder. It made all the difference in the world.
 While was in the dressing-room heard some one say, Wasn't it an awful crush? These dances are getting too common. Any can come" When they looked upr and saw me they hushed. Well don't care. met MT. Payne's 4aunt, who has just moved here. overheard her make some remark about Car men and laugh. Of course she meant me. These peo- pie think you haven't any at all, just because you haven't always been rich I'm surprised they don't talk loud to me, as I do to the Chinamen..
 December 1st
 The longer think about it the less enjoy that dance. Things didn't notice at first keep ing back to me. MT. Payne has not been to see me since. He couldn't have been lovelier but he was put out at something. know that I'm reading aloud with Miss Knox, besides my other work. Oh, myl It's awful hard work be lady-like. I'd give up tirely if it wasn't for Miss Knox, but I'd love to be like her gentle and sweet, and yet so clever, ss December 2nd
 I asked Miss Knox about Carmen. I don't care one bit didn't like Mr Paynes aunt any better than she did She's very tall and grandlooking, and when she stared at me through that 1orgnette q looked up), could feel her thoughts clear down my backbone She is perfectly welcome to her dear nephew, Andrew Morse Payne, if that is why he is staying away.
 December 18th
 It isn't pleasant here at home Pa don't care how much money spend, but he likes a splurge for it. He thinks I'm not happy, and keeps wanting me to get new clothes and jewelry.
 It's funny pa is really counted big man in, the town; they all pay attention to him. Why he's joned the club But he can't talk right and he can't see. that Tm not as good any one Gladys May" he said to me where's young Payne?" I told him didn't know. guess looked queer, for he said: By George, has he been making love to you?" said that Mr. Payne gentleman, and wouldn't look at me, and he said, by something else I was lady and good enough for any one.
 And yet change pas language and keep him talk ing business politics, and he fool any of them It's different with women. Now ma-poor, dear ma looks just like scarecrow in her good clothes. Be sides. she hates them, and she hates to keep girl ISfeel sorry for her-most sorry as for myself know why we are lonesome, and she doesn't I'm glad she's got the sideboards. wish she had twelve She thinks it very queer that want to study music and books, and she's half afraid of me already can see that Every day I'm getting further away from her. It hurts and it hurts her, and, what good is it doing? Where am going? That is what