Bisbee daily review., 1912-03-27

If there had not been so many Of tn 4nI it would have been better all aro'ind
 do not know that the club especial. ly respected my feelings. but things moved rapidly after that for a time. and it was not long before found my. self the property of the New York Giants, at the record price of s11.000
 This seems to be a fortunate eli max 10 a good summers work but instead it proved the beginning Of two years Of very deep disappoint. ment. The papers devoted a great deal of space to the episode. they dwelt on the price that was paid for me. and drew vivid pictures of what my career with a major league clui should be. All of this were well enough if it were meant ior boost for a young player, but 1t was entire ly over done. It set a standard for me that l could not possible attain: 4, reused the expectations of the fans to high pitch. and when these ex- pectations failed to be realized, the public was naturally di appointed.
 l snail never forget my first game in the big league company. It is stiA so vivid in my mind that l cannot look back on it now with any degree of comfort. We were playing Cincin. nati. The people turned out in crowds to see the new phenom' pitch. The records said there were 30,000 people present, but when I entered the pitch CTS box with my knees knocking to- gether and looked up into the stands, l could see at least double that mum Der. l was only eighteen at the time and extreme y anxious to make good but l had small hopes of living up to the high expectations of my work which the crowd seemed to entertain and l was extremely nervous. The mere fact that l was so anxious 10 make good made it impossible for me to do myself justice. l could not bear to think what the crowd would say if l hit batter in my nervousness and in an effort to avoid this 1 was ex- tremely wild. Then when I tried t0 gain control by putting them oee: the plate. l had to depend solely upon straight ball, which ] was not able to handle with my ordinary good luck. Then the balls started coming at me like rifle shots and wen; a. safe hits. it was a slaughter and blew up completely.
 That was the only game toJx nal: in that season, but it was enough. q was 50 badly rattled that l did aot get over it all winter. The opening oi the next season found me in as bad . condition or worse.
 l lost confidence completely. and the knocks which the press and the spectators gave me did not leip mat. ters any. When I was pitching, ihe moment failed to put one over, there would come a series of calls: Take him out and various comments on the Sll,00O lemon" Criticism of this kind is very unnerving to a young player new to the game. It gets the nerve of the old-timers, too, to some extent, but they are more used to t and can stand it better Still, where many thousands of voices are shout. ing at once, Take him out the pitcher is likely to grow discouraged, and l do not believe any man can do his best under such circumstances.
 l know l was hot headed Ut times, and on one or two occasions wsn. beyond bounds when l was goaded y some Of those cartoons on SI1,0DO lemons" It is not pleasant to be the goat of the whole league, but when references were made to mere per sonal matters. that is going beyond what l will stand for. knaW one day at St Louis l spoiled a nat ard a nec1tie for one of the press writers who had abused me beyond reason, and l was fined S25 for it by jbe u''- pire. However, 1t was worth it to me and didn't complain, though ! cannot say about the sporting writer
 This thing went on for more than two years, when last spring l male up my mind I would either make good or get out of the game. resolved 10 pay TO attention to any remarks made to me by the fans or the press