Iron County record. [volume] (Cedar City, Utah) 1893-1982, 1912-10-18
CHAPTER VII.
A Lleutenant Of voIunteer..

DID not go west Immediately
after leaving the Pines. us
had intended doing. but re-
- manned within the state, hop
ing valnly to get some word of for-
giveness from Miss Ellen. In my
calnier moments | reviewed my visit
TO the Turpins. and the letter which
she so condemned seemed TO me to be
my lenst offense. Though | under
stood her resentment and appreciated
the position she had taken. felt, how
ever that | had made a mistake In
obeying her and now wished that
had remained at the Pines and con-
fessed everything TO Bud. I believed
then. as do now, that he would have
understood me better than Miss Ellen
had done and would have pleaded my
cause for me, though | doubt whether
he or any one else at that time could
have shaken her determination not to
admit me to her friendship again.
would wake up each morning re-
solved 20 quit the state that day, but
before noon l would change my mind,
as | seemed utterly incapable Of tear
ing myself from the neighborhood of
the Pines. | ever looked and longed
for some change of feeling which
might blunt the edge of my grief but
none came, and my love seemed to
grow stronger each succeeding day.
Ut was maddening TO think that had
lost her. and what gave this sorrow a
keener edge was the knowledge that
had forever put II out of my power TO
be of any service TO her or to lend as
slstance to those she loved. | would
become prey at times 10 the keenest
pangs of jealousy. | bad no doubt
that the squire would renew his suit
and | feared that SHE might be led III
her bitter resentment toward me to
accept his hand In marriage. J wrote
her several letters begging for her for
giveness and " she could not grant
me that to try mt least to understand
the feelings which had prompted me
TO write the letters which had been the
means Of separating us. | told her OF
the hopeless state of mind into which
| had fallen ana that believed that
my life would be aimless unless she
would touch the magic spring which
would set my blood aglow once more
and arouse the dormant ambition with
in me TO accomplish something In the
world.
wrote on and on I exhausted my
logic and mental powers to make her
understand. reviewed my visit to
the Pines ut length. from the moment
had met Colonel Turpln to the last
interview had had with her. My first
mistake, told her, had been In letting
nv Introduction to her and her mother
rs n relative of the Kentucky Paimers
go unchalenged. ] explained how
believed myself TO have been merely a
boarder and the almost fatal mistake
had made in speaking TO the colonel
on the subject
Such hospitality | was unnccustom
ed to. nor do ! now fully understand
the promptings of that kind old heart
when he invited me TO the Pines.
told her OF my life and OF my work
how | had come into her section with
the bitterest feelings against it My
one ambition. | told her was TO arouse
n hostile sentiment in New EnglnnC
against the political party then in pow
err in nearly all the southern states
did not conceal from her the satisfac
ton I had felt when this assignment
had been given me nor my disappOlht
menl when | learned nfterward tina
was mol to touch on politics In m.
letters told her OF my resolution q
leave the Pines on the day after | hnt
arrived there hui how thnt resnlv
melted as snow before the sun when
had seen her ana looked into her eyes
how, step by step she had led me Z
look u,,On life with broader and
kindier view aud had brought IN
finally la fun understanding OF he
section and hei people aud now sh
had nndp me Know for the 6rst rim
what my father meant when ne wfl
wonI Ia say rhnt all the two great so
lions OF the country needed WAS 20 GO
acquainted.
The letter whi,h had 80 oftcnded ne
| said. would ht Ili,' mPnns ~ brinEin
thousands At persons Ia proper al
probation af hFr nome mud and IN
southern character. insg a. thf tacI
embodied ia Il hal unused me
change the opinions ! ind heid one
I did net believe NV onPnS'' WAS pa
forgiveness. aud l DEged Der that