Eastern Utah advocate. [volume] (Price, Utah) 1895-1915, 1912-10-10

what then seemed to me to be a com.
phment considering that she drst /
broached the subject or at least gave I
one hint as to her feelings now seems |
70 me to have been little less than an /
Insult.
really thought | was putting her In |
a position to declare her love for me /
u she had such love to declare. where |
as ] WIS simply putting her ln n 10. |
dtlon to accept me for a husband n |
she chose to do So She sat silent. |
toying with the rose, though now she |
was pulling Il 10 pieces Presently |
she said.
"No. ! think Il Is fatcd that we shall |
rot ret beyond friendship"
| I was much more disappointed than
I had thought I would be ut this rc.
ply. But dld not show II ia my
action, nor dld upbraid her sim.
/ ply said that I would do my best 10
maintain our past friendly status. but
whether It could be maintained or not
I did not know. hoped II could I
arose. offered her my hand. which she
took without warmth, babe her good
by and told her that would see her
again before my departure
But didn't. The barrier that
feared would be the result o. lovemak.
ing had come between u.s. could not
take leave Of her both as n rejected
lover and rs friend: therefore would
not take leave OF her NJ all. depart.
ed without seeing her. I considered
that ! had Joined the "lnnumerable car.
avan."
The object OF my Journey was 20 In.
vcstigate n business IN which I had
been Invited TO take an interest. Find
ing that II looked favorable. I embark.
ed In II and for Eve years was absorb.
ed In Il. AZ the end Of that time l
concluded 90 take n vacation with two
objects In view. ono was 10 take a
rest. the other 20 go back 10 my old
home aud visit old friends
II was about the same time OF year
as when had come away that one aft
ernoon few days after my arrival
went to call on Alice. who was now
midway between girlhood and old
maidhood. found her In the garden
where ! had left her I've years before
tending her flowers. Hearing some one
coming up the walk. she raised herself
and with n trowel IN her hand stood
looking NJ me. I saw that she recog.
nized me. but whether she experienced
pleasure or pain at seeing me again
l could not determine She had always
had the faculty % conccallng her feel.
klngp
She welcomed me with n certain cor.
diality and led mo 10 the SANE rustic
seat on which We had sat during our
last and memorable interview.
"iou are not married. I believer I
said.
"No"
II have often wondered why Il IL
thnt girls such rs you are or were.
with lots Of suitors, very often don't
marry NJ all"
u suppose It's because they don't
, meet tho man they want or that the
maN tuey want doesn't want them. For
/ my part. ! would not marry any man
| unless he loved me-"
4 "But men have loved you whom
/ you didn't want"
= have Ind men tell me they loved
, me who meant II. aud I have had men
! tell me they loved me who didn't At
: any rate. they told me IN such n half
! hearted way that II meant nothing"
: ! picked up my ears For the FIRST
, time In the years that had interviewed
|aIn ms 4 N.N Ia
. was half hearted. Could Il be that she
. referred 60 mine Ms such n proposition
= remember" she continued. ION
that afternoon when you were here
! last you upbralded mo for trining. IL
seems 10 me that II man loves a wo.
I man and proposes 10 her 20 crafty a
. curiosity MS 10 whether she IL triilng
or not with him he Ia the more repre-.
, hensible Of the two"
There was something sadly reproach.
ful In this that made me vince.
/ III you refer 10 me certainly have
J paid for the wrong committed,
/ though I do not admit the charge. for
have lived lonely life since"
4 could only attribute your indlner'
ent tone 20 curiosity"
You were wrong, did not realize
! hat my proposal was half hearted, but
| win admit that did not know your
refusal meant 80 much 10 me. We do
: not know how much we desire an OBJ
ject till we nnd we can't have IL.
/ Then we fret aud fume aud refuse TO
! be comforted."
: I'm that case. n the object Is at last
, attained. we nnd no comfort In L."
Not so The not getting what We
! covet shows us that we did not real
! Ice how much we wanted H. ! admit
, that when we talked OF this matter
years ago l was fearful OF a refusal
Fear is no weapon with which to make
p love-"
1T Is a good weapon with which 20
keep those apart who should be to-
Iether."
A slight trembling In her voice when
she said this struck responsive chord
In my heart had not only injured